#( let's take a break ; ooc )

[consult-sherlockholmes]

Please, just leave me alone @consultjohnwatson and @atamh. Stop tagging me, stop sending me messages and stop harasssing me. You wanted me gone, kicked me out and replaced me, so why are you still tagging me? I am trying to move on and find another John since you informed me about replacing me on Monday. But seems I will have to find a new Mycroft as well. Just let me be. Stop including me in this discussion I am no longer part of. Just block me and move on. I am done with this.

[mimiscappinisideblog]

I started watching Scott Pilgrim Takes Off and then left in episode 3 and started watching The Nanny instead... ADHD am i right?

Anyway I am down bad. Here are doodles to prove it, so the judge will take my side and arrest Jason Schwartzman for all the damage he did to my mind :)

Inspo:

[ask-the-totally-real-peppino]

(I may have completely forgotten Mr Stick was a human character when making the 'everyone is a beast' post, but I do not have any thoughts about him, so he could be a beast idk

What I am really posting this for: Sorry for not much art today! I have done something to my wrist, and it hurts too much to draw, and it makes me sad! I am going to sleep now, and hopefully it chills out, but I will keep you updated!!!

Okay, goodnight, I love you!!!)

[scalproie]

my extremely corny and indulgent but satisfying and symbolic ideal scenario for Kazuya and Jin to fully Break The Cycle™️ would be for one of them to grab and save the other from falling off a great height. perhaps even a cliff.

[cursedfortune]

Mortem in a modern AU whose partner/sex pal is taking up NNN and then proceeds to explain it to her only for her to be like （ ￣︶￣）

[ask-lucius-spriggs]

View was lovely today ♥️🌈

[dutybcrne]

Making myself sad by wondering if Kaeya had NEVER seen Diluc mad at him before that fateful confrontation

[turojo]

im cooking

[hellceo]

hi hi, hit the ❤️ for memes !! I’m going to be in and out a lot today.

[nightmarecountry]

[beckoning to the dash] come sit in his lap in a sleazy bar and tell him all about yourself while he listens with seemingly genuine interest, chameleoning himself into the Charming Stranger archetype of your--heh--dreams. it definitely won't end with you losing your eyes and also your life after you took him home. honest it won't. pinky prommy and everything.

[aceparagoned]

This is not going to be my usual post since some things have been brought to my attention that I wish to address publicly as opposed to continuing to deal with this situation privately like I have been.

I'll put this under a read more because this can get rather lengthy.

Two years ago, I was made aware that there was a callout blog (of which I can privately hand out the URL if you're truly curious since they have decided to doxx me by including my full legal name in said callout as well as misgender and deadname me left and right throughout it) about me authored by two people from a former friend group I had been a part of since I was in high school. At this time, it had been only a couple of months since I voluntarily left the group after offering that I would (even though the head mod of the group said that I was to talk to their co-mod to "figure out just what to do with me.") Looking back on it now, I fully acknowledge that I was in the wrong and that I wish I had never harmed those by my thoughtless actions, especially by being a forgetful idiot.

Throughout the callout, however, you'll see that they chose to include things from when I was nothing more than a cringy, know-it-all preteen to try to make a pattern of me being an awful person throughout my whole life. However, it's also stuff that I've long since apologized over to those who I had hurt and have tried to work on myself and my actions. I was also rightfully called out by those on anonymous communities on Dreamwidth such as wankgate, acj, and even on LiveJournal as well, all of which has helped me learn how to be a better person so that I may not repeat those same mistakes. I even commented as such in this thread.

For the more serious things that they included in the callout, such as the false rapist accusation I made against someone, I fully acknowledge that I had fucked up pretty badly during then by getting way too into things and not taking a moment to step back and think for a moment. To this day, I am still regretful of what I did and frankly wish I had never done that in the first place. Another serious topic the callout authors included was that I plagiarized someone's character in the past, of which I've long since retired the character and have not written them since then.

During the entire time that I've been writing this post, I've been actively trying to log in to my old Dropbox account where I know I have logs of where I've since apologized for my actions (the false rapist accusation as well as the individual listed on my archived LiveJournal post), but thankfully, I do have the private plurk I made six years ago apologizing for the plagiarism as evidence for this. If I manage to get back into my Dropbox account, I'll update this post with further evidence of my apologies.

You may also see in the reblogs of my callout two people that say they have further evidence on me. These two individuals are my ex and a former friend of mine. What they may not want to say is that my ex was caught cheating on me back while we were still together and the only way I found out was through an old group text message on my old phone where everyone I was friends with at the time thought to keep it a secret from me. My ex had even said that she "planned on telling me at some point" and since then, I had the constant reminder of her cheating on me in the form of her husband joining our voice calls on Discord and the like for almost two years. I decided that enough was enough and cut all ties with her because I couldn't keep pretending that things were fine between us when they weren't. Not only that, but in the PS4 chat that I had wanted to stay private between us, she had her friend join in and listen to our conversation. And this friend of hers said that, in a poor "'attempt'" to comfort me, that "I'd find someone whose demons will tangle with mine." I've since ceased all contact with them and haven't even played anything on my PS4 in years since I got my PC.

UPDATE: While I have not been successful in logging into my Dropbox account, I did come across this thread on my old Dreamwidth account with the person I had falsely accused. I'm still in the process of trying to get back into my Dropbox, though, so stay tuned for that.

Another allegation that the callout authors accused me of was being racist when referring to the color of my grandfather's skin. I stated it was olive since our family immigrated from Italy sometime in the 1800s, and it's not just him that has it. It's also my two uncles, his brothers, who have the same skin tone that he does as well as my aunt, my mom's sister. Now, lemme make something clear -- I simply don't have a single racist bone in my body. My mom taught in Buffalo, NY, where there were more African American children than any other ethnicity during her time as a teacher. She took me to conferences with the local NAACP chapter as well as on a trip to learn more about black history. This was all done as in my early childhood, too, which is something I'm deeply appreciative of her doing.

Another topic that was included was my treatment of my mother. This is something that I have also acknowledged that I was in the wrong for and it's something that we both have been actively working on with not just each other, but also medication on both of our parts. Both my mom and myself, especially when I was growing up, weren't the best when it came to maintaining a house and I do acknowledge that I should have helped her around the house more than I did as a kid, especially when she was a single mom working sometimes well into the night just to support the both of us. The both of us have depression, which contributed to us having a hoarded house that caused the both of us stress with not just one another, but also with our family. However, we've made great strides in our relationship to where I can confidently say that things are much better between us and have been able to maintain a clean house for years.

What I don't think was included in the callout is how I've been going to therapy and getting myself on some much needed medication. Back in August 2014, I scheduled a first time appointment with a doctor to get myself back on track because I knew that I sorely needed help for my depression before it got too severe to deal with. A good number of antidepressants were tried with some providing better results whereas others didn't work as well. I got myself into regularly scheduled therapy as well as seeing a psychiatrist up until I moved in June 2018, then continued my therapy and medication arrangement in Florida with thanks to my step-grandma and aunt for helping me find a place to go to for both therapy and psychiatry.

I'd like to think that I've since made great strides as far as my behavior and conduct are concerned, but as always, I know there's room for improvement, so I never say that I'm perfect or anything. I also know that since the callout went up, there have been other instances where I've made mistakes as well, however I am actively doing my best to learn from what I've done and continue on my path of being a better person overall. I will make mistakes, but I am always open to criticism so that I may continue to improve upon myself.

Thank you very much for reading this post.

[graunblida]

what do you need right now?

peace.

know that it'll be alright. it'll always be alright. you are alright. even when you aren't. it's going to be over soon. you have nothing to fear but you do fear and that's alright too. you are fine. you will be. curl into yourself. let everything go. it's fine. trust in this. you don't need to hold that tension. be calm. true peace is a hard thing to achieve but one day, you will feel it. you are everything and everything is fine.

tagged by: @maunslayer ! tagging: @maggicktouched, @bokketo, @stormbcrn, @alootus, @percentstardust (for whomsterver you like hehe), @jeditrash, @hersilver @herhaunts & whoever else wants to!

[gearstationsubwaybossingo]

((Apologies for slow or absent replies. I've been sick for two months. My body has finally said no more. I'm going to the doctor today, come hell or high water.))

[ghstfacr]

hahaha if you post photos of self harm to pinterest without even trying to give any kind of trigger warning you're a piece of shit i'm js

[kingspuppet]

Life's been a little hectic so being on here has taken a major backseat. :') Sorry for those that are waiting on things (IC and OOC). My activity is probably gonna continue to be super sporadic and random for a bit. So thanks everyone for being super patient with me. 🩵

[draconxs]

SCREAMING CRYING BAWLING I CAN FINALLY POST AGAIN?!?!?!?!?!