#( sc re AMS )

[wrecking]

peak me thing just happened where a friend asked me what order they should listen to my discography in and i just like. short circuited because so much of my canon is contingent on content no one else can see or hear anymore, or stuff that i still haven't released. like skull emoji

[youweremyridehome]

placed my pre-order for System Collapse

(sounds WILD out of context lmao)

[tugpull]

/ HE IS ABSOLUTELY HOPELESS!!!!

[heartsdefine]

like for a smol starter from aloy, which i may or may not steal from a meme. mutuals only, multis pls specify muse/s, etc!

[compatiissante]

“ What even are daddy issues? Just traumatize your father back. ”

unhinged comic relief

"why must you call me out like this--" a pause. "what am i supposed to do, though? hit him with an uno reverse 'no you'?"

[nygleskas]

thinking abt how easily u can make these scenes abt waystarshipping . like hmm thinking this is where tom would find out we've been together for a bit (btwn s2 - 3) orrr he at least finds out greg's into me (⬅️ he wouldn't say anything else tho. hip hip hooray for secret dating trope). i am pondering

[ruinedbycatastrophe]

 🎶

music playlist // accepting // @okruchlodu

'don't let me go by raign' "Hold me in your beating heart I won't let go Forever is not enough Let me lay my head down on the shadow by your side." 'november by gabrielle aplin' "Oh how can I forgive? Those words will stain forever." 'lullabies by chvrches' "Paralysed and spinning backwards Lullabies don't comfort me Televise the great disaster We're better off inside of the screen." 'when you come home by mree' "You lift me up with every step that I take You are the reason, you're the answer when I'm drifting away And through it all, when I start making a mess You are forgiving, everlasting, you're my everything." 'come to your senses from tick tick boom' "Deep in my eyes, what do you see? Deep in my sighs, listen to me Let the music commence from inside Not only one sense, but use all five."

[ratkiing]

hi remember the time that charlie wrote a lovely like "theme song" for paddy's and the gang hated it so much but told charlie that it was lovely and amazing and then tricked him into going into the basement and then they locked him down there for hours !? because i do. and yes i'm very sad about it.

[aftermoved]

i can't stop thinking about the way you look at me. (Aurelia / Xander)

XANDER DOESN'T EVEN REALIZE HE'S doing it, until the sound of her voice breaks his reverie and his gaze FALLS to the fire he's sitting in front of instead of the tiefling's face. They're next to each other, a little hum in the back of his throat — it was a tune he almost vaguely remembers. Caught in the space between familiarity and loss of a different time, with a different companion by his side.

He never thought he would travel with another soul after Timothy passed away, the PAIN that he had felt losing someone with such significance was too much to bear. The wizard had promised himself he would never get CLOSE to anyone else, regardless of how lonely it was, being on your own in this world. Then he'd seen her in a crowd, found her again, and again, pulled by a fate even he could not ignore.

Every day he realizes how lucky he was, that he took the chance.

A soft flush catches his cheeks, a bit of embarassment GNAWING at him. He'd been doing it a lot, catching himself watching her, even when he didn't mean to — he'd just study her. The way that her smile quirks when he says something, the way her brows would furrow when she was focusing... he was taken.

❝ Sorry, I don't uh... ❞ A sheepish grin on his lips, brief and honest. But then they're staring at each other again, and he's caught again and oh... that's what he's feeling. THAT'S what that is. Rough hand reaches towards her without his control, thumb brushing along her cheek, coming to rest at the crook of her neck before falling away. There is sadness tinged in his tone when he speaks again.

How much longer can they both ignore this ?

❝ You remind me of the stars, Aurelia. Forgive me if I get lost, sometimes. ❞

[goodheartt]

@starmore sent : an adoring kiss because the other is rambling / from Micah to Charlie K. teehee

"oh trust me, you can find all sorts of cool things down there !!" charlie says quite enthusiastically, hands waving around as he speaks. he's pacing too, back and forth as he talks, but his gaze is fixated on micah. he just returned from a trip to the sewers ( don't worry !! he showered off first, clean clothes and everything ) and headed right to his partners. he found tons of cool stuff today, and he couldn't wait to tell them all about it.

"some days are good days and others y' can't really find much y'know. but today !! oh micah i totally hit the jackpot today. i found like a ton of change down there, like so much. mostly pennies, but like ... i bet i found like forty dollars or something like that. and i found some cool rocks, i like always find some cool rocks, but these ones are super cool ... look !!" hands reach into his pocket to pull out a handful of rocks of various sizes and colors. some red, some grey, some brown, one that's speckled black and white. "i brought them with because i thought you might like to have one of 'em. oh !! and i found like this super cool necklace with like a really shiny thing on it ... like some sort of rare gem or something !! and i found this t-shirt, it's pretty nice. got some stains on it but i'm pretty sure i can get them ou "

he hadn't even really realized that micah had gotten closer to him, he was too focused on recounting all the treasure that he had found. eyes widen as their lips are pressed together, cheeks instantly heating up. eventually his eyes close, shoulders relax, and charlie's hands find their hips. after a few seconds he pulls his head back, giggling softly with a smile stuck to his face. "what ... what was that for, huh ??"

[aita-alternia]

A!TA FOR NOT CUDDL!NG MY PURRBEAST LUSUS ALL DAY? SHE !S SK!TT!SH AND RARELY COMES OUT OF HER H!D!NG SPOTS, SO WHEN SHE DOES ! TRY TO SPEND AS MUCH T!ME !N HER V!C!N!TY AS ! CAN. HOWEVER SHE !S CAPABLE OF JUST CURL!NG UP !N ONE SPOT FOR HOURS AND NOT MOV!NG, AND SHE GETS SAD WHEN ! GET UP TO LEAVE AND !T MAKES ME FEEL BAD! A!TA FOR NOT JUST S!TT!NG NEXT TO HER ALL DAY WHENEVER THE MOOD HAPPENS TO STR!KE HER TO SEEK OUT MY COMPANY?

[gryficowa]

Boycott!

Now that I have your attention:

[cilil]

Headcanons, re: Melkor's and Manwë's origins and relation

So when it comes to Melkor and Manwë I find myself in a bit of a "headcanon dilemma". On one hand, I really like the idea of them being twins, but on the other hand, a lot of stuff that I personally hc regarding their interpersonal dynamic and conflict rests on the basic assumption that Melkor is older than Manwë - not too much, as in not on the same level as I hc for the Fëanturi (with Námo practically raising Irmo), but a noticeable, significant amount. Enough for Melkor to have spent some time alone with Eru, let's say.

(Side note: I am aware of that one line stating they were coeval. What I'm going to say next will address how I'm trying to solve that conflict and afterwards I'll cycle back to it to explain why I felt like deviating from it/not taking it as literally.)

I've been rotating this back and forth in my head for a while, trying to figure out how I can fit these two ideas together, and what occurred to me now are two things:

The Timeless Halls. Timeless. Time doesn't exist as we know it there ("Then those of the Ainur who desired it arose and entered into the World at the beginning of Time" - Valaquenta)

Ainur are made from Eru's thoughts ("and Eru made first the Ainur, the Holy Ones, that were the offspring of his thought" - Ainulindalë)

With this in mind, as well as the fact that Ainur are spirit beings in general and exist outside of most "biological realities" (for lack of a better term) that inform the relations and interactions between incarnate beings, I think that Ainur twins don't have to be the same age. While coeval is defined as "of the same or equal age, antiquity, or duration" (source: Merriam-Webster), therefore having a clear temporal dimension to it, I would say that, under the above mentioned circumstances, such a notion would be more vague, have less clear boundaries.

(Personally, I see all of the Aratar as more or less "coeval", with the non-Arata Valar being a sort of "second generation" or "later additions" if you will, and the Maiar being made some time after them. My headcanon is that Eru had no plans to raise every single Ainu individually and only did so for the oldest Aratar, later relying on them and subsequently the other Valar and older generation of Maiar to raise and teach the young Ainur (and yes, parentification is a thing and yes, in real life it's a problem).)

Now cycling back to my original "issue" with the coeval line (not really, but just the reason why I wanted to read it a little differently), I felt like it was a bit... strange? thematically. Again, the part of Melkor and Manwë being essentially the evil and good twin is a dynamic I really like, but they're "made" from rather different "blueprints".

While Manwë has a special position as the Elder King, the other Aratar are his peers ("Though Manwë is their King and holds their allegiance under Eru, in majesty they are peers" - Valaquenta) and he's very much like any other Vala in the sense that he has one particular domain that informs his nature and where his talents lie and outside of that he relies on cooperation with his fellow Valar.

Melkor on the other hand (though don't get me wrong, he wasn't supposed to never go without any sort of collaboration or support) is special in the sense that he has a share in the other Valar's domains ("To Melkor among the Ainur had been given the greatest gifts of power and knowledge, and he had a share in all the gifts of his brethren." - Ainulindalë) and he's so vastly more powerful that he was able to hold his own against everyone else for a long time:

"Melkor must be made far more powerful in original nature (cf. 'Finrod and Andreth'). The greatest power under Eru (sc. the greatest created power).(1) (He was to make I devise I begin; Manwe (a little less great) was to improve, carry out, complete.) Later, he must not be able to be controlled or 'chained' by all the Valar combined. Note that in the early age of Arda he was alone able to drive the Valar out of Middle-earth into retreat." (Melkor Morgoth, Morgoth's Ring)

In my mind, it doesn't really "fit" for Eru to make this twin pair of Valar, born at the same time and presumably first, before all the other Ainur, and have one be this super powerful, not domain-bound Vala and the other being significantly less strong and very much domain-bound, as well as further restricted by not comprehending evil ("For Manwë was free from evil and could not comprehend it" - Of Fëanor and the Unchaining of Melkor).

What it does fit into is this idea prevalent in a lot of medieval narratives (broadly speaking) that the eldest son is special and usually the "greatest" and "most powerful", according to whichever metric is important in any given context. This idea can be found in Tolkien's works as well, one notable example being Fëanor.

Therefore I like to hc that Eru made Melkor first and, dare I say, made him in his own image as well. But then he quickly realized Melkor's potential for evil/his shortcomings/wasn't fully content with how he turned out/wanted to course-correct and "continued the thought" Melkor had come from, adding Manwë as his twin brother to balance him out; not in power, but in nature and purpose.

And the reason why Manwë knew that Melkor was like him originally, but at first failed to see what he turned himself into ("and he knew that in the beginning, in the thought of Ilúvatar, Melkor had been even as he; and he saw not to the depths of Melkor’s heart, and did not perceive that all love had departed from him for ever" - same source as last quote, sentence continued) is because Manwë came from that same thought.

~

So yeah, just my two cents and I want to stress again that these are my headcanons and my currently preferred reading and understanding of the above lines; the goal is never to say "you can't have your headcanons and here's why".

[8um8le]

Hello, I love your stuff and adore the thought of an average joe y/n being best friends with or dating three giant robot assassins! It's so great and whether it's romantic or (my personal fav) platonic, it's adorable!

I just keep picturing in my mind certain moments like: the three coming back from some assassination to a domestic movie night because y/n came over for a visit. Sun's having a bad day with his shadow self/intrusive thoughts and y/n just helps distract him with cuddles and youtube food videos. Bot's feeling chaotic and needs help with a prank, y/n is there and so down to help spread some mischief. Moon's feeling a little reckless and does something dumb that has y/n fretting and reminding him to take care of himself. Y/n sneaking over one day to make breakfast for the boys and feeling embarrassed when they remember that, technically, the boys don't eat but they eat it anyways because y/n made it for them!

Moments with average joe y/n feel like a nice reprieve, a moment of normalcy and domesticity in the boys chaotic life. A happy, sweet balance :D

As you can see, I have so many thoughts on this! I'm so sorry for this long rant XD

Oughhh yess I am guilty of imagining my insert being average joe Y/N in sc wahhh

These 3 could never really experience a “normal” mundane life, ever since the beginning. Sun and Moon were trashed tiny bots, not like they could get up and get a normal 9-5. 8ot got close to it with Vision, but we know what happened with that.

In this case Y/N is there to re-introduce humanity in a more serene positive light compared to what their brutal full time job has to offer. It’s mostly shallow people, greed and overall chaos. Even the part-time daycare job reminds them that even the youth can be subjected to repeat their parents mistakes, since the place is only for those who can afford to toss their kids in there.

They’re so used to be being surrounded by snobby people, but Y/N reminds them, there is definitely still good in people living in this city.

[k-s-morgan]

TGSTLTH related

Ok so I decided to do it here cuz I don't know will AO3 allow me to write essay hahahahah 😂😂😂

I don't even know how to start this. I've been reading fics for 13 years straight, like I don't remember the period of my life where I didn't read them cuz I always have some ship active and I'm crazy BL fan. Only a small number of them can make me crazy to the point I don't wanna sleep, eat, skipping my obligations, killing the pain and your sebaciel did everything. I haven't felt like this reading fic..,maybe ever? This is totally another level of me being fascinated by some writer.

I adore sebaciel, I'm in fandom since 2016 but the biggest problem I had with their fics is that - either people go too much OOC with them orr they rush up the things between them, going quickly with sex and feelings. It bothered me so much so I was crawling for good SC fics as crazy!!

After some break with SC, I came back to ao3 and saw your long fic. I started reading it but I dropped it after 3 chapters, I got bored cuz I thought you are gonna just re-type manga and do classic thing which another people do. Quickly, I got disappointed with another one and idk how but I decided to give your fic one more chance and dear lord......that was one of the best thing I have ever read. Maybe even the best.

Like, how smart are you? What's your IQ? Your manage to explain me some things about Kuro plot which I haven't udnerstand by myself. And the way you write Sebaciel relationship. That's everything I have ever wanted. Everything. They have normal conversation and that's it, that's all I need cuz there is everything. I feel electric every time when they talk, fight, do things together, goood the little touches svbjhsdjvbvbvbvbvbsdjvhbdf. I was tense whole fic. I read it for like 10 days, abandon everything until I finished it and now I feel sad ahahhaahha. But you are really something special, cuz I always used to say that manga itself is the best fiction cuz Yana knows the best how to create good Sebaciel energy. You, next to Yana, did the best job. You kept them as they are, never broke the character, and that's what I am most grateful. Slow burn, with drama and angst, love and attention, all misunderstanding, you put all necessary spices for 5 star meal. My fav part is when Ciel told Sebastian to add slamming doors to his most dramatic moments of his life ahahahahahahhaha 😂😂 I laughed like crazy, they are so precious♥ And I really wanted kiss to happen when Ciel lied Sebastian about another demon, that was sooo svbjhsvjhjhvbdf. But okay, you know the best, I trust you fully with this♥

The fact that they are ready to kill each other before they have normal conversation about their feeling is my fetish. I am in love with toxic things. Ciel ready to throw all game just to prove Sebastian that his value is not only his soul, right after he told himself for 1000 times he needs to stay on distance..... I LOVE ITTTT!!! I also need to say that you find PERFECT balance for good plot and romance. Your games and their cases...I just don't know, deep bow for you queen🔥💯After all, you didn't retype drama ahahaha but you manage to keep it canon without changing anything but still adding your spices so it's not ordinary Kuro plot we see every day....

I just have one question. From time to time, I was like a Bard ahahhaha, so sick of their games and my head hurting me, but on a good way. I am clear about Ciel but what about Sebastian and his disgust for Ciel's nicer, soft, emotional side? I know Ciel doesn't have it a lot, but would Sebastian still be grossed out about it as he was at the beginning of a contract or not? Keeping in mind that he is more and more obsessed with a boy?

So, that's all. I don't know how to use Patreon/PayPal, but for you I'll try cuz I only have credit card and that's all I know ahhahaha, I like to keep money in my hands😂 I'm sad about the situation in your country and all under - war countries. It's not bringing any good for anyone, specially for civilians. I hope you are okay and I wish you alll the best, the good karma must hit you really quickly cuz you made one person really, really happy here♥

Looking forward how will you finish this story, have a nice day❤

PS - this is the longest comment for fic I have ever left ahhaha, it's crazy how you got me sooo hyped up bjcvsdghvbds.

Hi! Ooh, thank you so much for your amazing, wonderful essay! I can't tell you how happy it made me! I think the electricity was already started being cut off when I got it, so I could see I have some really lengthy ask, but it wouldn't load. It was the torture of the most delicious kind :D

Like you, I've been reading fics for ages now, and the moments where I find some fantastic story that won't let me sleep or work or even blink are always the happiest and the brightest spots I remember. So it's extremely flattering to know that my story has become something similar to other people.

I love writing about smart characters, but most of them are definitely smarter than me! The benefit is that since I'm writing, I can think and plan everything in advance. In real life, I only wish I were as quick-witted and inventive. Alas, the best ideas and arguments come to me when they are no longer needed.

I love slow burns, and I love characters who abhor the idea of expressing their feelings, so Ciel and Sebastian have the most perfect dynamic in my eyes. I feel like I could spend the eternity just enjoying their Gothic world with their games, arguments, plots, and so on. Them antagonizing each other only to instantly team up against the common enemy is my most favorite thing in the world.

As for your question, right now, Sebastian would be thrilled if Ciel were to show a softer and more vulnerable side - at least in relation to him. Well, a part of him would feel the automatic need to mock him for it anyway, some habits don't die easily, but Sebastian's feelings have evolved a lot, plus Ciel is cold more often than he is not. So Sebastian treasures every word of praise, every hint of appreciation and need because they are so rare - he's come to crave them, and he has memorized all known cases of them by heart.

And no worries about supporting me! I really appreciate you taking your time to leave such a fantastic review, it made my day!

[compatiissante]

@decimatlas || cont.

"you're making a way bigger deal out of this than you need to, joel, seriously--" her insistence upon being fine felt like a lie even to her own ears, but what else could she do? actually admit such exhaustion ( brought about from running herself ragged in order to help find supplies and shelter for their group of three ) to the only one actively looking out for her at the time? a truly impossible thought, clearly.

she wasn't very good at hiding her feelings, however, as mere seconds after her own words escaped, he was sitting her down with the canteen.

"fine-- fine, okay, you win."

as much as she could have argued with him further, it wouldn't have gotten her anywhere, leaving maya to relent with a sigh and chug a good portion before letting it settle on the ground between her feet.