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siriusblackdevotee · 4 months ago

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Aplphard x siirus pretty pretty pleaseeee

Tw: incest, grooming, child neglect (?), light/implied sexual content (?)

for a bit of context? Not sure if this is necessary or not, but the first few Sirius-centric or Black family-centric fics I read had borderline or genuine casual incestuous relationships going on, and with Sirius written as the perfect creation, the literal purpose of his family's in-breeding, so everyone was a little bit in love with him? Weirdly obsessed? Well not everyone, I mean Narcissa, Walburga, his aunt (?), Bellatrix (?), they were all just casually talking about fucking him, which, cool🧍‍♀️and besides that, one of those fics included Sirius thinking Alphard was different like him, but then eventually getting betrayed later when he realizes Alphard is like the rest of them (Alphard was also a sexual assault victim, to his grandfather)...anyways, all that was branded in my brain, in a way. Here we go.

All this starts because Orion just, stops paying attention to him. Their relationship before was that Orion (and Walburga) were deeply infatuated with him, whatever Sirius did, he'd get compliments and praises, deserved or not. That stops when Sirius becomes incredibly outspoken with muggle equality, calling their traditional blood supremacy ways total bs. So Orion obviously hates this and just, completely ignores him, because he thinks Sirius is a lost cause. Walburga, unlike Orion, cannot ice him out completely, she's too in love with him for that. It's more like, she'd tell him he's the biggest disappointment of her flesh, then sends manually cut fruit into his room. So Sirius knows that Walburga still loves him, the proof is right there. The issue is his father, because he just never interacts with him anymore, despite living in the same room, despite seeing each other everyday at the same dining room.

so Sirius? Starved of affection from a father figure.

He'd get attached to any older man that shows him the smallest fraction of attention, except no one really does that. His own father wouldn't. His uncle Cygnus hates him because he's the heir, for being born a male while his kids were born females. However, Alphard..., that uncle was always nice to him.

Now Alphard. He didn't have the same cruelty as his siblings. He didn't have the irrational resentment Cygnus had for Sirius, he didn't have any reasons for any hatred because Sirius was just a kid, who had big things going for him that Alphard never wanted. And unlike his shitty siblings, Alphard was polite and nice. While Cygnus is mumbling about his one sided grudge against a child, Walburga complaining about her wayward child, Alphard just gave Sirius a bit of attention, spent time playing with the kid, and pretty much thought nothing of it.

That was all Alphard did, he never put in much effort but it was enough for Sirius to see Alphard in a different light, making Alphard his favorite. He goes from doing things to get Orion's attention to waiting for Alphard to come over so they could just talk. So he could feel good about himself because that's the effect Alphard naturally has on him.

How Alphard perceives Sirius changes when Sirius starts going through puberty stages. When he's growing out, he shoots up like an arrow, deeper voice, stronger jawline, losing his baby fat, just becoming more of a man. Everyone notices this, how the eldest son of Orion's was blooming, and he was doing it so prettily, growing into those perfect aristocratic features. It's a time when Sirius attends parties, all of his relatives and family friends were gushing to them about how tall he is, what a looker he became, how he looks so much like his beautiful mother or his handsome father....

This everyone included Alphard. He slowly stops seeing Sirius as just a kid, and starts seeing him as...well still a kid, but quite the gorgeous one. He starts genuinely paying attention to Sirius, he can't help it, Sirius knew how to attract all the eyes on him, unintentionally of course, but that's how he notices just how receptive Sirius is, an innocent blush to him just saying "boy" or the starstruck look he gets from the simplest praises. He notices how Sirius is only like this with him.

Sirius doesn't mean anything by it, Alphard knows that, but he sees this as Sirius offering himself anyways, and Alphard is not the good man to reject him

Sirius had become quite the rebel, refusing to participate in piano lessons (I couldn't think of anything, yes it's boring, leave me alone), and it was driving Walburga up the wall, because all her efforts to get him to learn ended as failures. As she was complaining to Alphard, getting her frustrations out, Alphard saw his chance and offered to tutor him instead. Walburga was a perceptive mother, she has long known how her son preferred the company of her brother, how Alphard became a soft spot for him, and knew Alphard would have an easier time correcting Sirius because Sirius would listen to him. She knew Alphard was quite skilled as well, though she was better, she made sure he was too. She knew Alphard was basically living a mundane life, that he had nothing to do, no wife, no kids, no responsibility as a family. He had free time. And frankly, she was more than willing to brush the responsibility of raising her son off her hands. Sirius had become a handful, too much for her even though she did love him. She knew he'd be in good hands, so she rests peacefully.

Not to mention, Sirius was ecstatic to hear how his favorite uncle would be coming over more often, just to spend time with him or to teach him, all the same to Sirius. It was a win-win situation for everyone involved.

Alphard builds it up. The smallest touches, pats on his head, a lingering hand on his shoulder, tucking stray healthy strands of hair behind his ear, waits for Sirius to get used to being so physical with his uncle, then moves up to touches they wouldn't be doing in public, resting his head on Sirius's shoulder, slipping a hand down the collar of his shirt, down to his chest, gripping the bottom of his jaw while pressing a thumb on those perfect virgin lips.

It was too easy for Alphard to pretend that the praises, the love bombing he sent off were genuine and natural, not at all planned so he could see how Sirius gets so pliant and soft around him. Pretend that his nicknames for Sirius, "dear boy", "darling boy", "my precious" were filled with pure affectionate intent, not to watch how Sirius turns into that lovely innocent red. Pretend that it was needed for him to leave lingering touches all over Sirius, hands on sides, lower back, nape, shoulders, just to correct his posture. Pretend he didn't have any impure intentions as he bent over the boy, resting his hands on the boy's, whispering instructions right on Sirius's ear. Pretend how he doesn't notice the hitch of Sirius's breath, the sweating, the nervous biting of his lips.

What really worked in carving a place for himself in Sirius's heart, was just listening to the boy. He could tell no one paid attention to him, neither Orion nor Walburga put aside some time to just listen to the boy's stories, not even Regulus. Just a few comments here and there on Sirius's latest shenanigans with his friends or even something so little as his charms essay was enough for the lonely boy to latch on to him, open up to him even more.

At some point, Sirius was sitting on the piano stool, focused on his playing when Alphard moved to stand behind the boy. He leaves a hand on Sirius's shoulders, takes notice of how that proud spine stiffens with the attention then melts, how Sirius so subtly leans towards his hand. Then he was moving the hand around his neck, under his jaw, used the smallest suggestive pressure to pull Sirius back but Sirius was so willing to let himself get pulled back that he was resting his head on Alphard's lower stomach. With his head titled up from Alphard's maneuvers, Alphard just looks down and sees his craving, the open affection, the vulnerability, the submission displayed all over his face and just knew, Sirius was his now, that Sirius would take anything Alphard gives him. Alphard didn't need much more than that to lean down and kiss him.

He plays off the kiss as a reward, the highest of rewards and Sirius is too trusting of him that he just takes those words at face value. The words rewires his brain. Originally he thought just his uncle's compliments, names of endearment and touches were enough but the kiss? It opened a whole new world for him, and he wants to explore all of it. Instead of hoping that his uncle would caress his face when he does such a good job, he's left hoping that Alphard would kiss him. Because that, to him, is the ultimate proof that Alphard was proud of him, well according to Alphard.

He was old enough to know that he shouldn't be kissing a man as old as Alphard, and especially not his uncle, but he's more besotted with Alphard to question it, again, too trusting.

Too sheltered to realize what was happening as their kisses grow deeper, filthier, what it meant as he's lured on Alphard's lap, until they're grinding and humping. All he knew was that it felt good, that he was wanted and loved.

And it was fun. When Walburga asks him how his piano lessons were going, it was fun to say it went well, that this time, uncle Alphard played on the piano and Sirius learned a lot, it was fun to pretend Sirius didn't actually just spend an hour on his knees between Alphard's legs, while he played on beautifully. Or bent over the piano, utterly naked and cold as Alphard took his time violating him, fondling his body parts, savoring him. It was fun to pretend at parties how Alphard touched him was familial and innocent, well Sirius thinks it was that too, but also not at all a signal for them to sneak off later.

It's the happiest time for Sirius because he's utterly spoiled, like how he used to be with his parents before they stopped liking him. He stopped talking with his father but with his mother, no matter how much he begged to have something, his mother adamantly refuses because a disobedient child like him doesn't deserve new and good things. So he gave up there. But with Alphard, all he needs to do is ask prettily. Though sometimes, Alphard does make him beg, but it's for a different reason. He asks once if Alphard could stay longer and then in the next moment, Alphard is moving to negotiate more tutoring hours with Walburga. He offhandedly mentions if they could spend more time together and the next day, Walburga is sending him off to his uncle's residence. Besides that, he was genuinely taken care of. After rolling around under Alphard's sheets, sweaty and naked, he could talk on and on about his interests, his day, his friends, anything, and Alphard would be right there, listening and engaging with him.

And of course..the abundance of pleasure and praises....

Anyways! Good things don't last for Sirius so! Nasty argument between him and his parents>he runs away to the potters>Alphard finds out only the next day when he comes over for the piano lessons>Walburga tells him everything>Alphard is upset with her>Walburga thinks he's grown to love Sirius like his own kid

...the end isn't important, I think. But anyways, Alphard does secretly do some snooping, some planning, finds where Sirius is and goes to the Potters. He's outside their doorstep, all the Potters incredibly suspicious of him, having heard from Sirius how awful his parents were but then Sirius is moving to immediately embrace the man and then they they see how at ease and familiar Sirius is with Alphard, how Alphard so clearly loves him and is concerned for him, so they leave the two of them alone, giving them privacy. So hungry and craving for each other, Alphard manages to come up with an excuse, that he has some of Sirius's stuff because Sirius didn't exactly pack before running away, so Sirius could come to collect them anytime he wanted. After informing the Potters, they immediately agree, not only for that reason, but they were sure Sirius sees him as some sort of parental figure so they send him off, telling him it was okay to spend the night, so they could spend more time with each other.

There is of course some stuff Sirius needed to bring back that Alphard made sure to collect from GP12, but really, they were only there so they could spend the entire night fucking.

But in the morning, they have an actual proper talk. Alphard lets him down gently, lets him know that they can't meet so much anymore with him as a disowned Black and Alphard still as a Black. And Sirius was surprised and hurt that his own mother took his name off the tapestry, but he was more hurt when Alphard drew a line. He understood though, he's not so selfish to make Alphard risk disownment but he still begged to see him more often.

As usual, Alphard folds. He talks to the Potters, ever so polite, pretended he was missing his favorite nephew, who he spent almost every day with, and was heartbroken to know that he family wouldn't allow him to visit, unless he risked disownment. Naturally, the Potters, the bleeding hearts they were, were more than willing to set aside time to send Sirius to his residence, and agreed to keep their meetings a complete secret.

The Potters were happy to know that there was at least one person in that household that truly cared for Sirius. They too, saw Alphard in a good light.

....but after a year of secret meetings, their little affair, Alphard dies! (There's no mysterious drama thing going on, he just dies) Just as Sirius turns 17. He doesn't even find out from any of his family contacting him, but from a lawyer on the Potter's doorstep because Alphard left all his gold to him. A lot of inheritance business.

.... inheritance...hm wait.

Okay, from there, to handle and finalize a lot of this bs, he has to get in contact with his family and that's how he reconnects with Walburga. Walburga is pissed that Alphard left so much of his gold to her absolutely undeserving son, she knows he had quite the affection for her son but to leave him all his gold? They probably hadn't even talked for a year! It made no sense and filled her with rage, to know so much of their precious gold went to her traitorous son.

She ends up talking shit about Alphard in front of Sirius, and Sirius just snaps at her. She in response, just asks a question, mindless, uncaring, a simple question. All she asked was why Sirius cared, after all, Sirius never cared to come crawling back or contact her, and he, to her knowledge, did the same for Alphard. Sirius should have no reason to be snappy.

And Sirius :> is grieving, just learned of his not-lover's death mere days ago, he's spiraling, and all he wants to do is to hurt his mother and he knows how. He confesses everything. He enjoys watching how his mother's face falls, turns disgusted, stricken, as he lovingly reminds her that every time she left Sirius and Alphard to be alone, Sirius was learning how to suck her brother's cock instead of anything to do with the piano, that every time she sent Sirius off to his residence, Sirius had to lay on his bed, tied up and naked and thoroughly fucked. He spared no details, utterly shameless and by the end of it, Walburga too, was spiraling.

There was nothing she could do. Up until a minute ago, she thought of her brother as naive, too affectionate, a bleeding heart, loving those that didn't deserve it, like her son. But now, to learn the monster he truly was...there was nothing she could do because Alphard was dead, he lived a life full of sin and never faced the repercussions, even now he lay in their precious graveyard, meant for the Blacks that truly deserved to lay there. He got away with it.

The dead is gone but her son is still alive, she probably tried to mend things again, or make Sirius see the truth but again, Sirius lovingly reminds her that Alphard, who truly loved him, would never blast off his name from the tapestry the way she did. He never gives a chance for Walburga.

Heartbroken, furious, Walburga has lost her son yet again. In a fit of rage, she blasts off her disgusting relative's name off the tapestry.

And without Alphard's grounding and distracting influence, Sirius does form doubts, Walburga's words, that Alphard took advantage of him, starts haunting his mind. But as much as he had those doubts, he was still in the firm belief that Alphard loved him.

He never did get to process that, going to Azkaban and all.

#this is cursed #but at least its out of my mind #blackcest #starcest #sirius x alphard #sirius black #alphard black #alphirius

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