#(( also the ''closed'' ask box thing

[poetrysmackdown]

some informal thoughts

hello! hope the holiday season has been kind to all of you. and i hope all my jewish followers had a lovely hanukkah! anyways, since i said a few months ago that i’d pick poetry smackdown back up sometime around this time of year, i thought i should make a post. the gist of it is that i’m still quite busy, i have a break that’s about three weeks shorter than I was planning on, and i don’t currently have the mental bandwidth required to read, contemplate, and sort through poem submissions in a way that does justice to them, even if i were to recruit some friends to help out. since running a tournament format requires at least five weeks of continued engagement once it’s underway, and since i’m not at capacity to offer that right now due to the change in my schedule, i’m gonna have to bow out for now. sad bc i was looking forward to it!

my hope is that i’ll have some more time over the summer to hunker down with it, in which case you’ll be hearing from me. it’ll frankly depend on the kind of job i land in for the summer, but i find that my unemployed spirit can typically keep me doing stupid shit regardless of workload...to a point. i don’t want to make any promises because i don’t want to get anyone’s hopes up just to let them down again LOL. i do admit the amount of exposure the first tournament got has made me feel like more of a perfectionist this time around, doubly because i don’t feel that i’m very suited to being a public online presence (even a relatively quite small one)—i’m bad enough at responding to emails for my own real life responsibilities, let alone tumblr asks for the silly responsibilities i invent for myself lol. that’s not to say i no longer want to do it, or i don’t enjoy it, or even that i don’t feel capable of making a really interesting bracket—just that if i am working to put something new together, and if people are taking the time to submit poems they care about, then i don’t want to half-ass it.

my second admission is something like this. I made the original bracket as a celebration of poetry and our relationships to it. yes it was silly and competitive, and the poems were very tumblr, but still, celebration was the intention—I wanted to have conversations about poetry. I stand by the bracket format as a fun and valuable way to foster conversations about poetry, but truthfully, the poems i’m wanting to have conversations about right now—the poems that we should be talking about right now—are ones that i'm not comfortable putting in a bracket. I reblogged The Baffler’s Poems from Palestine collection on here earlier, and Najwan Darwish’s “Who Remembers The Armenians?”, which I still often find repeating through my head when I'm traveling from one place to another, walking home or riding the bus. I came across this beautiful thread recently where people have been translating Dr. Refaat Alareer’s “If I Must Die” into their own languages (this just makes my translator's heart sing!!!!!!). @havingapoemwithyou has been posting some great poems from and for Palestine as well—check out their tag here.

There's always more to add, and I'll be posting more on here as I come across it, but that's what I feel anyone should be focusing on right now when it comes to poetry. i think poetry can be an escape but it should never be a distraction. does that make sense? i wouldn't be against doing a one-off poll here or there, but it feels weird to be making a tournament for poetry right now, or anytime soon. i feel like what free time i have right now is still best utilized helping my friends with organizing in the real world. and god, a bit off-topic but while I'm talking, fuck poetry foundation—I have so much respect for all the poets keeping up the boycott, because while i think it's a simple decision, it's not always an easy one (Aurielle Lucier discussed that here).

anyways, if you read all of this, thank you for your time!! I could go on and on, but really this was just meant to be a message telling y'all that there won't be another tournament for a while lol. even so i'll be trying to use this small silly platform as best i can until palestine is free because that's the absolute least i can do.

[punk-pandame]

when you post about all trans people's issues and not just your own so your askbox is like "why do you think men in dresses issues are more important than Born Wombyns™️ issues" followed immediately by "are you a transandrobro truther" and shortly thereafter by "nobody has ever been harassed for looking masc you're fucking lying" and then instantaneously by "i am going to correctively rape you" followed by "oh what so there's 3/4/5/6/infinite genders now?" and "let's dose you with T (against your will) and see how much you really want to be a man" and "forcefeeding you estrogen until you remember your place. bitch" and "kill yourself tranny/faggot/dyke/some combination thereof" forever and ever until you fucking die

[moeblob]

I unfortunately picked up Bravely Default 2 again (I bought it back when it released) and then started over since I last played it in June 2021. And. You know what. I like these silly beans. And then I saw concept art for Dag's expressions and I am not the same. Why did they decide to give him huge fangs in it.

(also I'm trying so hard to avoid spoilers less for plot but more for characters so if you know anything that happens to characters shhhhh. also the expression concept is below the read more so you can see what I mean.)

[disorganizedkitten]

Also while ur at it if u have any specific damian hc u wanna share 👀

This is so niche but aside from the kind of popular hc that Damian hates Tim bc he doesn't know how to show affection/awe/respect without murder being involved, which I do love, my secondary hc is just a rewrite of his titans team.

I looked at the canon one. And then I said 'mm screw you, no thanks'.

So in my head, Damian's Titans team has Superboy (Jon), Abuse (Colin), Princess Marvel (Darla), Jae and Irey West, Soulfire (Mari'ander), Lian Harper, and when I can swing it for an au Athantasia, as well. Spiritually Nobody/Maya Ducard is also there but in practice I don't feel comfortable writing her. :( I don't know enough about Maps to use her anywhere but if I did I'd shove her in somehow. Maybe as their Oracle Equivalent.

No one else uses this line up but in my heart they're there. I love them all to death. It's the team he deserves.

[grumfield]

it’s insane how disgusting some 2ha fans are. proshitter rape apologists like you need to all stay far away from chu wanning … …

damn so does chu wanning have to stay away from himself or…

[daydadahlias]

public service announcement to my wonderful beautiful followers: i love yall deeply and i love when u send me asks sm but can y'all pls stop trying to talk to me about the twitter situation now <3 I've established (multiple times) that I think it is all baseless bullshit and that I'm going to carry on happily vibing away here on tumblr where people are capable of critical thought <3 so y'all don't need to keep sending me asks about it

[floralovebot]

went fucking insane

template!!

[dark-nymph3t]

I swear if one more man who is decades older than me follows me one more time I’m gonna lose it

[just-bendy]

audrey bendy has a KNIFE! get him before he kills sammy

[@havenlmao]

And Sammy ain't here either, the hell?

(( i mean you sent this ask so the ask box isnt closed???? if it was closed you wouldnt be able to send it in the first place... 🤔❓❓❓ ( i mean its closed now but at the time it wasn't 😂 )

short answer, no audrey doesn't exist in this AU. if you want a longer explanation containing BATDR SPOILERS then keep reading, but if you don't, then you should stop here. ))

(( ok so in batdr, joey drew created audrey using the ink machine, and i'm imagining it wasnt at the start of it all so it was a while before joey drew wanted to create audrey. this wouldnt work in my au bc joey drew was killed way before he had a change of heart, his death is what started everything going down after all so it can't happen in this au.

audrey as she is in batdr can't exist in this au, maybe if she was changed up then she could, but i have no use for her in this au. if she did exist, she would have to be joey drew's great great great (idk how many greats-) granddaughter, or just his daughter if she was somehow in the studio when everything happened, +20 or so years to her age. she'd be human since they weren't making people with the ink machine, or was in the studio and got infected with ink by the amalgamation, making her part ink?? bendy would dislike her since she is joey's offspring. bendy and audrey would not be siblings because 1.) that is a popular headcanon and not actually canon as far as i know and 2.) bendy's a stein and not a drew. henry created him, not joey. other than that, i wouldn't know what to do with her. it's easier for me to just not include her in the au if i don't know what to do with her, so thats what i did. hope this makes sense. ✌😞 ))

[altschmerzes]

🌹 🌹 🌹 I’m in baby Jamie withdrawal 😩

HERE YOU GOOOOO would love to share some thank you :) especially now that i'm making progress again

from the kidgang detour i'm taking in chapter 9 of wriggle up on dry land-

The more he learns about them, the more Ted’s view of them evolves, and they've started feeling less like fixtures in a world that he still feels out of place in and more like people he knows - like part of his community alongside Mae Green and the night shift security guards at Nelson. Things mentioned offhandedly in Jamie’s stories betray so much more than he realizes they do about the way he sees the other kids, both what he thinks about them and what he wants them to think about him.

[welcometoteyvat]

begging all yall twitter artists to post whatever you post on twitter to here as well (so i can properly comment in the tags)

[angeltism]

EEEEEEH honestly during the time we were mutuals we interacted like a maximum of . two times. perhaps even just once. which is a bit crazy considering all of this now. i was just scared of trying to keep interacting honestly HSJAHDJSHD but if you dont feel like dating after i reveal myself that is completely absolutely alright! i would appreciate having you as a friend just as much! its whatever you prefer and whatever you feel more comfortable with :3

- 💌 anon

oooh well . still honestly I bet uur kewl <3 and yayaya !! thank uu for being understanding , I very much appreciate it . to be faaair , I do . kinda . have a soft spot for uu , y'know ? so even if it isn't immediately . . . the idea isn't something I'm opposed to ^_^

[bluewinnerangel]

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[1o1percentmilk]

i would just like to say. i dont support witchhunts or harrassment campaigns i don't participate in them and am generally not invested in internet drama but if you are or interact with people who are known to support pedophilia, non-consent, or cant act normal about the subject, i would like you to reconsider your actions, where they are coming from, how you approach it, and who you affect etcetc

[bunycube]

You haven’t played Fujiedas yet you should it will surprise you in more ways than one

im playibg it rn! i was jsut playing it eheh but its late rn so im getting sleepy..so ill continue it tmr :3 its already been surprising me n i Just started it lmao

[maeshelix]

You know if you think about it, the song "The Only Thing I Know For Real" can be used to describe how Sunny is, if you edit it a bit

"Memories broken, the truth goes unspoken"

* He knows what he has done

"I've even forgotten my name"

* Sunny starts to forget who he is even anymore

"I don't know the season or what is the reason"

* He doesn't even know why he is still living

"I'm standing here holding my blade"

* Contemplating about suicide?

"A desolate place (place)"

* His now lonely house

"Without any trace (trace)"

* No more trace of Mari

"It's only the cold wind I feel"

* The only thing accompanying him in his house now

"It's me that I spite as I stand up and fight"

* He hates himself from what he has done

"The only thing I know for real"

* Sunny knowing of what he’s done

“There will be Bloodshed”

* Omori stabbing himself to wake Sunny up

“The man in the mirror nods his head”

* Omori himself

“The only one left”

and

“Will ride upon the dragons back”

* Sunny and Omori fighting for control

“Because the mountains don’t give back what they take”

* The death of Mari and Sunny unable to bring her back

“Oh no there will be Bloodshed (Blood) Shed (Shed)”

* Again, Omori stabbing himself

“Losing my identity”

* Sunny struggling with his identity over himself and Omori

“Wondering have I gone insane”

* Sunny and his mental state after Mari’s death

“The find the truth in front of me I must climb this mountain range”

* Sunny going to confront and confess the truth to his friends

“Looking downward from this deadly height”

* Sunny knowing the impact on his friends if he tells them the truth

“Never realizing why I fight”

* Sunny knowing that he must tell the truth