#(doesn't make it any less frustrating)

[evilverbose]

i will simultaneously read someones experience and mesh so thoroughly with the image of them (that i created), feel affective empathy so strongly, and yet i still have nothing there to offer real people in my life. the difference in empathy is so strange.

[moonchild-in-blue]

🌱 New Plants & Old Plants 🌱

So today I went to a garden centre and got two new plants - a String-of-Pearls and a Hart's Tongue Fern. Meet Audrey and Apollo.

Audrey got her name from Audrey Hepburn's iconic pearl necklace from Breakfast At Tiffany's.

Apollo is a homage (a sibling, if you will), to a different fern I used to have (Bird's Nest - same Asplenium genus, different species), called Hermes. I miss my og leafy boy so so terribly, and I thought it would be nice to keep up with the greek name tradition for this one.

They are hanging above my desk, where they get plenty of sunlight (not directly). Apollo's leaves are well accommodated, so no worries there. Not sure if I want to make it his permanent place, but for now it's perfect.

Meanwhile, I have moved my shelf plants down, to see if they can get more sunlight, and I'm trying to revive one of my succulent's roots.

We got Bino (Burro's Tail), Chamuça and it's little offspring Kaka Poopoo (Haworthia Tortuosa), and Pietro (Haworthia Aristata).

Bino was growing really nicely but when I moved him to this room, he did NOT like the extra cold months and literally dropped like half of its leaves 🫤

Turns out my shelves are a tad too high for the plants and they don't get enough light there. Hopefully now that they're down (and facing the window directly) they will be good. The two spiky Haworthias have been thriving tbh, but I think they'll appreciate the extra light.

Pietro tho.... That dawg was planted too low on his vase, so even though he had good drainage, he just did not get enough sunlight and the roots rotted and fell off. I gave it a good bath, removed the dead ones, and am keeping him in water for the foreseeable future until more roots grow and he is ready to go back to soil.

[saphiccarma]

OH OH OH OH I JUST FOUND OUT THAT YOURE THE AUTHOR OF “THE GOLD IN YOUR EYES” AND IM SO SORRY BUT I JUST GOT EXCITED!!! DO YOU PLAN ON WRITING MORE OF IT??? I LOVE YOU!! ❤️

'tis me

Don't be sorry sweetheart, i get hyped up when I find the author on tumblr of a fic I love

I do plan to write more of it but writers block for that story has got me in a chokehold. Idk I received some negative comments about it and it kinda just dampened my excitement for it 🤷‍♀️

[reikunrei]

"we'll fix it together. okay?" and then the only time we see el fixing the diorama, she's doing it by herself while will sits at the kitchen table nudging at his breakfast

[jessmalia]

how many times do i have to relearn the lesson that being productive actually makes me happier before it actually sticks?

[the-hype-dragon]

but WHY is it so normalized that a woman MUST go through humiliation after humiliation just to keep her man in het relationships........

[rainbowvamp]

very frustrating for me (luna) that herald viktor is a trigger for a gatekeeper. He doesn't even come out, he just pulls everyone else in. like... I am just trying to live my life! Find something else to be triggered by. blease!

[dustofthedailylife]

Just went to read a fic during my dinner break and for some reason, I thought the wording sounded like AI.

With the increase in AI-generated content, I went and threw it into GPTZero (AI-detection tool) and...

I'm well aware it's not a 100% proof but still... I'm so disappointed.

I tried some things and it seems to be fairly accurate from what I can tell. I quickly had chat GPT generate a text for the bg-story of my OC (did it for test purposes and did not save it because lol) and it showed it as AI and then I yeeted my latest Alhaitham fic in there and it says human 👇🏻

It's not 100% proof but what GPTZero says is fairly accurate from what I can tell.

AI fic "authors" are already among us. And I'm frustrated as hell about it. Like... why do we as fanfic authors even put in the effort anymore? ._.

Edit: Because it was a good input from someone: these tools are not 100% accurate or proof like I said. Don't go and accuse someone directly of AI generating or publicly expose them! (It's also why I didn't name drop or show the fic). Albeit... It's a fact that there are people who "write" their fics with AI ._.

[muninnhuginn]

sth about how sapphire has low self-esteem even when he's considered a genius or otherwise extraordinary. and how that low self-esteem can lead towards him seeking validation from a wider crowd in a bid to smother his insecurities. how he uses that to feed his ego until he becomes reliant on it and desperately doesn't want to lose it. and it is validation specifically he prioritises over a deeper understanding or connection with others. because he would have that deeper connection in the form of beryl if he'd so accept it.

[strangedisciple]

i feel like im bouncing off the walls because i need to get this idea into words. but doing that is so difficult >:[

[milfbrainrot]

So often things ppl get mad abt in fic or fanart etc does just boil down to a skill issue by well meaning creators just trying to have fun

[musical-chick-13]

I think. I think there's still a lot of "Well I don't want to be like THOSE girls," even among plenty of adults who truly do genuinely care about feminism. And I just want to say that trying to assure someone who is attempting to parse all of that out with "Oh, don't worry, YOU'RE not like One Of THOSE™️ Girls" does not........actually help.

[jenovacomplete]

when you haven't written anything in a while and going back to it is like pulling teeth... arghhhh

[raggydraws]

...Whoops

[skellyrose]

I'M ON ESTROGEN AND T BLOCKERS, WHY DO I NOT HAVE MASSIVE MILKERS YET???

The funny thing to me about those "the combat drugs we give to the mech pilots make you grow boobs" hornyposts is that this legitimately is a known side effect of a wide range of drugs and medications. Just about any non-trivial chemical imbalance can potentially make you grow boobs. Breast growth is a known symptom of alcoholism. Some male bodybuilders experience female-typical breast development as a side effect of steroid use. Even kidney problems can induce breast growth. The human body is evidently just itching to grow boobs!

[dudefromwormhole]

I am a good person.

I keep asking myself was I good. Was I making them happy.

Dancing with the bells

Catching their eyes with my faithful smiles. Was I good?

Was I better? And well?

And snazzy and all in that matter?Was I me?

Night and day as they come

I wallow myself

In pity and shame, running away

To the thoughts yet again

Was I good. Or better or somebody else.

I keep asking. And asking. And no one will answer. For I am afraid to speak out loud.

Every day I forget. Of people around me. Of things that I've done or that has yet to be.

I forget. And I fall. And they scream. And I fall.

Into question and questions and ever again. Time my in vain to prove nothing at all.

Will I ask. Was I good. Or better.

Or will I just fall.