#(i am madly in love with rin)

[kaizokucujoh]

me and who guys. me and who

[rosiesroseas]

bf!suna who has an album of you filled with pics and the often stupid videos he takes when he’s feeling silly with you.

bf!suna who has a video of him standing behind you whilst you’re reading a book on the couch and his hand is in the video, faking a jerking off motion to you til you notice and then he releases his hand like he just finished.

bf!suna who has a video of you sleeping where your shirt has ridden up that your boobs are so close, if you stir in your sleep again they’ll, for sure, pop out. and in the video is another stupid clip of his hand, shaking madly while he gently (and reluctantly) pulls your shirt down, hand still shaking like it’s the hardest thing to do.

bf!suna who has another video of you sleeping and he’s just poking your cheeks softly, occasionally pinching them as well.

bf!suna who has a video of him creeping up behind you while you’re doing the dishes and he proceeds to cup your ass while bouncing it in his hand “hey everyone, back with another, this time featuring my girlfriends ass—with a review!” You obviously proceeded to wet him with the dirty sink water (he’s done this before, many, many times.)

bf!suna who has a video of you drunk and crying to the ending of coco while clinging to his side. his lips are pursed together while he’s giving you the nastiest yet nonchalant side eye, nodding once and a while to your complains, “this boys family is a menace Rin! Can you believe that?”

bf!suna who has a video of you squashed to his chest because your shirt is off out of annoyance to the heat of summer. You were bathing in the new chill of having no shirt that you didn’t notice he’s taking a video of him cheering silently while your side boob and his side of his chest are in view, mf is cheering like a teenage boy.

bf!suna who has a video of him randomly coming up to you and pressing your foreheads together while he opens his mouth wide in a funny way. You’re grimacing and he’s just in a silly mood to mess with you.

bf!suna who has a video of you walking from the water in your bathing suit, it flips back to him who falsely claims he’s been shot through his actions, “I’ve been shot by sexiness, someone help me,” it cuts after he pretends he’s dead on the sun-chair.

bf!suna who has a video of him after he’s done being your professional photographer. He pretends he’s taking more, going around you while you laugh, “look here, baby, yes! perfect! one more ms. Suna! Give me fierce!” Completely doesn’t care about the public walking past.

bf!suna who has a video of him pretending to be a YouTuber again. He has a cute headband on and a pink face mask on along with you who is busy doing a lip mask,

“hey everybody, welcome back! Today I am venturing into a women’s skin care,” you punched him in the chest playfully, “excuse you, i’m not just a women, thank you very much,”

he chuckled, “right, everyone, this is my beautiful, sexy, caring, and perfect girlfriend #soon-to-be-wife.” (he whispered that to the camera, hoping the songs playing on your speaker was loud enough.)

And finally, bf!suna who has a video of you crying while laughing after he just proposed, your quite literally balling and this mf is just smiling while cradling you to his side, “#soon-to-be-wife !”

bf!suna who just loves those videos so much (and taking more) that he hopes his storage doesn’t run out soon because he’s on his last storage plan.

[short-black-diamond]

please can you do bf headcanons for kaiser and sae and rin please (fem reader)

thxx

yeheeheheyyy

German vocab: "Schätzchen" = cute-ification of "treasure"

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"That's my boyfriend!"

Kaiser:

Ayo how I hate that bitch

Please don't request stuff about him in the future

But him as a boyfriend?

I guess he'd be pretty chill, but he'd like to have you on his lap a lot

like, in that one chapter where he examined Isagi, he'd for sure have you on his lap, while trying to figure out what made Isagi so different

and he'd just--- stroke your thigh?

Idk I think he would do something like that

anf then hmmm...I think he's rich

not filthy rich like Reo, but pretty rich

I think he'd also spoil you? like--he'd sometimes buy you jewellery, but other than that, he would buy you other stuff, which is much more useful

like, one time he bought you a new tablet because yours got coffee on it

his coffee

soccer dates don't @ me

he'd try to teach you soccer if you didn't already know how, and if you did, he'd have you running after him as he always took the ball away right under your heel

It was funny, and you were happy to see your boyfriend laughing and giggling when he teicked you over and over again by dribbling the ball around you, before he gave you a small kiss to your cheek and scored a goal

"Jeez, you need to do better if you want the ball, Schätzchen."

You huffed. "I hope this wasn't an insult.."

"I'd never insult you, ____."

You guys would also go through Germany, with him showing you a lot of sights and taking pictures of you, then some selfies and would also buy you a cute souvenir.

he's a gentle lover, who gives you soft kisses and holds your hand softly

I think he'd also bring you to a viennesse ball, just to dance viennesse waltzer with you with an expensive, victorian dress he bought you as you two danced the waltz in old fashioned clothing in an old fashioned building with old fasioned people

bonus points if it was a masquerade ball

(imagine if he told you he'd meet you at the ball and mistake another girl with you, thinking that it was you, and you arriving to him dancing with another girl who had similar features as you...just imagine the heartbreak...the drama...I'd dance with Ness then, just to spite Kaiser...maybe I'll write a fic about that?)

Sae:

If you read my last post, I guessed -correctly- that Sae's an ass guy

Excpect your butt to be warm and squeezed at all times, babe

No but seriously I'm so proud of myself for being right about something I didn't know was already canon

*pats my own shoulder proudly*

He's busy

He has to train

but if you want to come with him, he won't stop you

When he was with the U-20, and he agreed for you to come with him, he hated it the moment you stepped foot in the room where he and his team was in

Imgine the bloodlust he felt when Oliver and Sendo touched you and flirted with you like there was no tomorrow (they didn't know that you were together with sae)

"I'm Sae's girlfriend..?", you then said and Sae hugged you from behind.

"Yes, I am her boyfriend, so take your filthy hands off of her.", he seethed.

Safe to say, the two didn't really listen as they just kept flirting with you, and they got to feel Sae's wrath on the field as he just kicked the ball into their face and crotch area

Other than that, I'd expect him to be very clingy

he looks touch-starved

give this man some love

After practise, he would always take a quick shower before cuddling with you on his bed and just take a small nap, letting you do whatever you want, but don't move your legs

he once turned you around on your stomach with force before he just---let his face fall onto your ass cheeks

you have no idea why he has an obession with your butt but oh well

Rin:

Another touch-starved baby

But he enjoys your company, speak, the first weeks of you dating him were silent, but he always had a small smile on his face

but let me tell you- he blushed madly when you held his pinky with yours

it was actually the first time you touched him

boy couldn't breathe

what have you done ____???

However, as the days went on, Rin initiated the touch more and more, and after a few months came the first kiss, with him kissing you softly, but his lip was trembling

And a rin with a beet red face came to view

I think he'd talk very quietly to you, I don't know why, but I just--do, you know?

Like he only wants you to hear what he has to say to you.

and you love it

also expect him to buy you stuff you don't really need?

I mean, he means it in a good way, but do you actually need an owl plushie in all its natural colors?

"Rin...why?"

"I-I like owls...! ...and, you're my girlfriend...so I wanted to give you something I like.", cue him looking at you sadly, but with innocent eyes.

yeah, you kissed him breathless after that little confession

also like-- I don't think any of the blue lockers have a dominant bone when they have an s/o at first, which means that the boys would also be shy

and I can just imagine Rin taking many tries before he actually asks to hold your hand, or takes nearly an hour more time from his busy schedule to buy you flowers you weren't allergic to, but which you also haven't received yet

he's the type who'd try to bake you cookies, and only have a small error, like either not enough sugar or cocoa, or idk what

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Okay and that's it! I hope I nailed it, tell me if I didn't!

Read you guys in the next post!

[zhongrin]

Miss rin, the al haitham and nahida comic you put out? It's not helping me in staying loyal to my husband tartaglia 😭 how are you able to elicit such responses from me no matter the medium?? Writing or through visual art, your art brings out the same reactions in me everytime without fail. The said reaction being squealing and giggling madly while kicking the air 😭

Sorry if this turned out to be too long but in short I just wanted to remind you that you're awesome and your blog makes me unfaithful to my man (Am I complaining idk... no I'm absolutely not complaining, tartaglia is ig)

Also thank you every delicious fic you put out for us, I kinda feel honoured that you choose to share your writing with us here... they're scrumptious (especially your angst fics oof I'm in love)

Have a great day and take care, miss rin! ❤❤❤

[ yan!mafia boss!al haitham + child!nahida x nanny!reader comic -> ]

(⸝⸝⸝O﹏ O⸝⸝⸝) uehdhejjfskjfsk mx naya you're a blessing to me fr <3 everytime i see you in my notifs i go "!!! *imaginary ears perk up & tail starts helicopter-ing*"

ngl your first paragraph is making me brainrot even more…. forgive me for the word vomit below oops

cw. yandere, implied kidnapping

childe who's one of the executives under tsaritsa, another mafia family that rules snezhnaya. this man gives me obsessed yandere stalker vibes, but at the very least his upbringing makes him respect you enough to not make it your problem.

... that is, until he stalks you one day and saw you coming out of a luxury penthouse… and al haitham's seeing you off.

the thread holding his restraints snap.

childe is a protector through and through. he's only doing this so you'll be safe. you're none the wiser to what kind of man al haitham is, but that's okay! you have him! his hands might not be clean either ー heck, he probably has more blood in his hands personally compared to al haitham, but he can take care of you better, that he can promise! he'll be with you 24/7 unless he needs to go out of a mission! he'll cook you your favorite foods, he's practiced enough times to be able to make it blindfolded by now! he knows how many pillows and bolsters and blankets and plushies and the kind of pajamas that'll let you sleep the deepest, he has the same soap and shampoo and moisturizer you use daily in his place, he has a wardrobe full of clothes in your style he knows you'd like and the accessories you've pined through transparent glass because you had to save moneyー you see?

you'll be happy with him. so you understand why he has to do this, right?

Right?

[ebi-noodle-doodles]

Had a 💡 moment.

Currently traveling and I badly want a fighting game with vocaloid/megpoid/utauloid characters in my head. I’m eager to learn game dev/ coding for this specific idea. I’m madly in love with

I designed Catsune/Nyatsune Miku with hair paws/claws. I also just came up with

Nyatsune Miku- Hair paws/claws. Her basic attacks are ofc her hair punch, spam and you get a hair stand oraoraoraoraora! Her hair grab and 👋 slap. Popipo vegetable juice riding it and running across the screen, leek helicopter (levanpolka). World is mine, love is war, brs and other that i could think of as song finishers

Luka Megurine - Ofc, tentacle hair. Octopus Luka. Her attacks are giant baseball throw of tako luka with a giant tuna, giant tuna smash, fresh catch, & hair grab. Some ideas for her finishing songs are JBF, Night fever, World dance hall, enbizaka, Magnet

Meiko- fox, cus it just seem fitting and she ate. Basic attacks are her sake, swinging her microphone stand, maybe a drunken fist style? Top of my head for a song finisher is conchita, will do more research since I forgor the others

Kaito- Wolf? cus Im basic. His attacks are ice cream/popsicle related! Freezes the enemy. Slaps them with giant popsicle & basic attack with his long scarf. Id like to add stuff like if he wins against a gakupo enemy madness of duke plays lol bunch of song finishers in my head cant remember titles-

Rin and Len- still not sure if otter or fennec. But Lens design would focus on his banana hair, he takes it out like my nendoroid and he throws it like a boomerang, he spamms and regrows his banana hair and ofc rin on her ribbon, ofc theres a theme here and its gonna be a huge ribbon, thinking if she uses each as shureken to mirror len’s banana boomerang throw! Also thinking if she could fly like Tails with it- 🚁 Too tired to list the songs but ofc ill include the daughter of evil series on everyone

Gumi- Rabbit. I love love love LOVE gumi and I remember her being 🥕 so a rabbit/bunny seems fitting! Giant carrot ofc, carrot attacks, her harvesting and pulling out the carrot only to bonk the enemy with it. Some songs that have two voice banks singing it would appear in their song finishers like Matryoshka!

Gakupo- Tiger? Lion? Still not sure but one of the finisher songs is def gonna be Madness of Duke- where if you finish of the enemy *you win* signs appear and him and the “ladies” are all lined up in the bg? Cant explain it properly but ye. Dancing samurai, go google it are on top of my head

This idea is heavily inspired by Super Gem fighter 😭 I love that game so much I want something similar except in the consecutive acts where like you change “outfits/designs” in Super Gem fighter (SGF) in this game you do it also with Song references changing outfits/designs/ base on that songs mv and each phase of the attack is a different song reference where if you finish of an enemy in that phase of the attack you finish them of with the song and stay on that costume/outfit/design and have like a finishing move or moment i.e Len vs Rin Daughter of evil and Servant of evil, Rin(Player1) finishes off Len(enemy/player2) and winning the game, Rin crying after-

Ofc theres secret characters. Top of my head rn is BRS. Not sure if Teto should be a secret character. Maybe her old design and then her new one is included since you know her being official! Additional characters/content would be Kaii Yuki, Vflower, SeeU, Iroha, Lily, IA and more. Theres so much still on my head and I want to make it happen 😭😭😭😭

Just blabbering my thoughts if anyones gonna even read hahah! Its really cold from where i am rn 🦭 This sparks inspo when I get home

Also this is a pixel base! Gotta love them classics

[sirthisisa-wendys]

That was just beautiful 🥲🤧 poor Rinnie, poor stupid love dumb Rinnie❤️

Thank you so much for answering my request! I have so many more ideas, but I am just terrible at writing! I have another request for you! Another Rindou Angst, like I said previously, I /live/ for it. 🥺

AU Rindou where he comes from money (his dad being a CEO or something) and he meets a girl, falling madly in love with her. Their relationship having been kept a secret until they were caught fucking on the family dinner table. Afterwards being sat down to be told he could never be with her because she doesn’t “fit” that Haitani image.

A Special Affair: Rindou Haitani x Fem!Reader

wc: 681

tw: smut, angst

masterlist

"Come in; no one's here."

"Are you sure, Rin?" you wonder, stepping into the lavish apartment. "This place looks guarded to the teeth."

"You're my father's personal assistant," Rindou laughs, holding his hand out to you. "If he asks, we were just... discussing his birthday arrangements." You give him a quick roll of the eyes but take his hand and walk further into the apartment.

Your heels clack on the polished floor while Rindou shows you around, pointing at things rich people like and buy. You're sure that just the rent costs several times your annual salary, but you say nothing, opting to give Rindou a smile or two. At the same time, he parades you about, his eyes glowing as he mentions some renaissance painter's original artwork hanging above the spiral staircase.

"My brother hates these," Rindou mentions, shaking his head. "He's more of a Basquiat fan." You know that name, so you nod and giggle. But your tour is quickly derailed as he sweeps you into the dining room.

"Glass," you breathe, looking at the furnishings carefully.

"You can literally watch yourself eat." The man places a finger on the table and then lifts it. "And it's smudge-proof."

"No such thing," you gasp, but Rindou raises a brow, smirking.

"Want to test it out?"

You think you're going to test out the theory by wiping your hands over the surface, but Rindou has other plans. More like... taking you from behind as you stare at your reflection, completely entranced by the sight.

"You're so... fuck... right. I can watch myself..."

"Yeah, watch yourself..." Rindou huffs, holding your ponytail in his hand. "Watch yourself taking that dick."

You go two more rounds over the course of the evening: fucking on the couch, on the master bedroom floor, and finishing things up with a long shower.

"In the morning," Rindou yawns. "I'll take you back to your place. But for right now..." He turns over to you in the bed, holding you close. "Just need some sleep. Love you, babe."

"I love you too." You kiss his forehead and then slip into a deep sleep in his arms.

"Rindou." Mr. Haitani looks over to you after addressing his son. "Y/n." You swallow hard, looking at the older man with trepidation. There's only one reason why he would call both of you in like this.

Rindou adjusts his glasses and clears his throat before crossing his arms. "I have a lot to do today, dad," the younger Haitani mutters. "Whatever it is, can you hurry up and tell us?"

Without words, Mr. Haitani leans back in his chair and picks up a remote. The TV behind him flicks on, and the black-and-white footage begins to loop. You watch as the two of your trapeze around the apartment, half-naked, then fully naked and fucking wherever it pleases you.

Pieces of the footage are stitched together to make a continuous loop of you spread-eagle, Rindou bending you over the dining room table, and a blowjob that ended with Rindou again spreading you out on the floor.

The footage pauses. Your breath is caught in your throat. The elder Haitani leans forward.

"I could go on and on about how inappropriate this is." Silence. "But that would be a waste of my breath." Rindou opens his mouth but is immediately cut off by his father, who stands. "I should fire you, Ms. Y/n, but my idiot son would just hire you and make you his personal assistant." You hang your head, nodding. "As for you, Rindou..." The man walks from behind the desk, straightening his jacket. Rindou shrinks as the man approaches, anticipating the following action.

The two slaps are entirely too hard. You hear the hiss, but you don't dare to look anywhere but at your feet as the elder Haitani mutters, "Why can't you be like your brother Ran?"

After you're dismissed, you find that Rindou doesn't even look at you on his way out. He leaves you without a word, with a reddened face, and tears in his eyes; never to speak to you again.

[twin-azure-dragon-wave]

“Te Amo” by Tokio Cristal (@Tokiocristal)

Translation:

Rin: Lord Sesshomaru...You are always so stoic, serious, correct and rigid in emotions...

Rin: ...And me being your opposite, I suppose it would be wrong to openly confess to you that I am madly in love with you...

Sesshomaru: You assume wrong...

via Twitter

[sasdavvero]

Durarara!! x Blue Lock AU

tagging: @lizzieonka @gwennevlis

starting off with:

Isagi Yoichi as Mikado Ryuugamine

Bachira Meguru as Masaomi Kida

Nagi Seishiro as Anri Sononhara

So, to explain a bit:

Isagi and Bachira are them as based on colors: Mikado can be associated with blue or with a transparent color (as are the Dollars) and I think it's the same as Isagi (yes, I know that technically Isagi's color is green, I'm gonna ignore that, don't know how else to explain) both of them seem shy, maybe anxious people, but it becomes obvious that neither of them really is. They are both looking for something that can "change their reality", so I think Isagi's role makes sense (maybe.)

Bachira is yellow as Kida is yellow, both of them are easy going people, can be funny, can be very serious, they both hide their pasts pretty well (although their pasts are very different from one another). I think it fits.

About Nagi and Anri. We know that Anri considers herself as a parasite, and I think this can (faintly) be true with Nagi too. Now,I don't want to belittle the Nagi/Reo ship as a codependent, parasitic relationship (because it's not, not too much) but Nagi did attach himself to Reo only to then move to other people he considered stronger/better mates than Reo. Of course, Nagi and Anri are fundamentally difffrent in their personality, but yeah.

also, I'm not sure I explained well this idea, I don't know how to word rn, so Im sorry, if you have questions you can ask.

basically, they're the main trio

BUT

if Nagi is Anri, then Harima can be Reo, but if Harima is Reo idk who could be Seiji (if Nagi isn't Anri he could be Harima and Reo could be Seiji, but also if this is the case, then idk who could be Anri.)

moving on:

Ego as Shinra Kishitani

Anri Teieri as Celty Sturluson

their dinamic is way off, i know, Shinra is madly in love with Celty, while Ego isn't (at all), but since Anri is basically the only important female character in Blue Lock, I think it could be fun if she were Celty.

just realized that the Reo/Nagi-as-Harima and Anri-as-Celty doesn't fit because of the plastic surgery stuff, but ye. I'll resolve it in another moment.

moving on again:

Rin Itoshi as Aoba Kuronoma

again, I'm not sure with this one, but Rin is the only character with a brother who is also an important character, I have to admit, I don't remember much about the Blue Squares, but I know that Aoba's brother was an important character, so I say that Rin is Aoba.

(I'm only at ep 3 of drrrr (I'm rewatching) so I don't know how Aoba and his brother's dynamic is, but I am sure that it is different than the Itoshi brothers (oh well)).

then:

Barou Shoei as Shizuo Heiwajima

[???] as Izaya Orihara

Hear me out:

Barou gives me a lot of Shizuo vibes: they're strong, their temper is similar, but the problem is that Barou's source of anger is Isagi (mostly)

Of course, if Isagi is Mikado, he cannot be also Izaya (I don't want him to be, he's very different from Izaya (but then again, right now I cannot think about a bllk character who is similar to him, sadly)) so this one is a very unsteady idea.

it might get deleted, as I am having troubles in identifying who could be Izaya

(this might be because I don't remember much about both bllk and drrr (rip))

Another idea that just went to my head:

Michael Kaiser as [maybe] Aoba Kuronoma

This is based on the fact that I hate Kaiser as much as I hate Aoba, so ik that it maybe doesn't make sense.

I'll leave it here anyway.

that's it for now! I'm gonna go continue watching Durarara!! and I'll see if I get new ideas lol

If any of you have something to ask (if you think something is off or if you have more ideas than me about these of other character) you can say it! I'm open to any idea lol

[januaryarias]

hello everyone, you can call me Kristina Rin. Nice to meet you!

I’m a mixed Japanese American from Metro Detroit, USA 🇺🇸 who lives in Osaka, Japan🇯🇵. Professionally, I’m a kimono stylist/teacher, content writer, and ELL instructor. Unprofessionally, I’m a haunted house in the shape of a girl.

I am madly in love with Byronic heroes/anti-heroes. (Bonus points if they have silver/white hair.) My heart flutters the most at Vergil (DMC), but also Meier Link (Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust), Anakin Skywalker/Darth Vader (SW), Erik (Phantom), and Vegeta (DBZ).

I love writing; I am working on a dark fantasy series with elements of horror and romance, and also a retelling of Phantom of the Opera in Taisho era, Japan. Sometimes I dabble in fic, but not often.

I like to pretend I can draw sometimes too.

My personal account (not updated often): @lafeedunord

For kimono: @mainichikimono

Nice to meet you all!

[mybelovedchristine]

the first time I ever laid my eyes on you—was the first time I said

IT'S YOU.

loving you wasn't hard yet too complicated. i fell in-love with my ex's friend. same circle, same lover.

to tell you honestly, i had a hundred percent of doubt if i would pursue you or not. i love you, but i am afraid that we might both receive criticism for what we have done.

to begin with, i was allure with your undeniably beauty and charisma which makes my knees tremble. your eyes that never lie, your lips enticing me to kiss you hard, and your face i badly want to cupped with both of my hands.

for a month. i was there, in a far, falling and been brokenhearted and yet you have no clues. way back then, it hurts. like it's tearing me into a shredded pieces. i was madly in love with you while you are completely clueless about my existence.

have you ever been felt broken for someone wasn't yours? 'cause i do.

kuntento na ko na minamahal ka mula sa malayo. natatakot ako na sumubok sa'yo. natatakot akong mahalin ka pero yung takot ko huli na kasi minahal na agad kita. minahal kita ng sobra sobra kahit hindi mo pa ako kilala. minahal kita ng buo kahit hindi ko alam ang buo mong pangalan. minahal kita kahit di ko alam ang tunog ng boses mo. minahal kita kahit hindi ko pa nakikita kung gaano kaganda sa malapitan ang iyong mga mata. minahal kita kahit hindi mo ako kilala at mas lalo kitang minahal sa paglipas ng araw at hindi ko na namalayan na hulog na hulog na ako sa'yo pero aaminin ko nasaktan ako.

pagkat nung panahon na nahulog ako— wala ka don para saluhin ako.

nahulog ako sa masakit na katotohanan na wala akong pag-asa sa'yo. na hanggang dito lang ako. naduwag ako sa isipin na meron ka nang iba lalo na nung nakita ko yung litrato n'yo.

naranasan kong masaktan ng walang pasa, sugat o galos. naranasan kong masaktan na walang dugo pero sumusugat. naranasan kong masaktan kahit wala akong karapatan.

hindi rin naman kita masisisi, naduwag ako. wala akong lakas ng loob para sabihin sa'yo kung ano yung nararamdaman ko. naunahan ako ng ideya na baka pag umamin ako tawanan mo 'ko at pagkamalan na payaso.

hindi ka naman mahirap mahalin pero nung panahon na yon—ang hirap mong abutin

napaka-tamad kong pumasok ng maaga. yung tipo na isang oras na lang uwian na tapos dun ako papasok. pero maniwala ka, na tuwing huwebes bihis na bihis ako. ang tagal ko maligo at sisigaruduhin ko na maayos, maganda, at mabango ako tuwing araw na yon. alam mo kung bakit? sa loob ng isang linggo. araw ng huwebes lang magkalapit ang schedule natin.

grabe ako magpabango kahit wala pang tatlo o dalawang segundo kung magkita tayo, pa'no ba naman e ang tanging pagkikita lang natin ay pagkakasalubong sa corridor ng room. grabe yung kilig ko sa isipin na 'nakita n'ya kaya ako?', 'naamoy nya ba ang bago kong pabango?', 'napansin n'ya ba ang damit ko?'

kasi kung ako ang tatanungin, oo. napansin kita. sa dami nang tao na dumadaan kusang napipirmi ang mata ko sa'yo, sa'yo, at sa'yo lamang.

napapansin ko ang bawat pawis mo sa noo tuwing maglalakad sa init at sa dami nang tao. ang bawat kulay ng hoodie mo na laging suot kasi nahihiya ka ipakita . sa pag bwelo ng mga daliri para hawiin ang buhok na humaharang sa mata mo. at palagiang pag-ayos sa salamin na bagay na bagay sa'yo.

kung sa tingin mo hinahanap kita tuwing malungkot ako, nagkakamali ka.

kahit sa mga araw na manhid ako at walang maramdaman. okupado ng presensya mo ang aking puso't isipan. nangungulila at mangungulila sa'yo lagi-lagi.

sa gabi na minsang humingi ako ng tawad sa bawat unan na nabasa dahil sa maling akala ko, sa mga braso ng aking kaibigan na naging sandalan ko sa panahon na durog ako sa maling akala ko sa'yo. at sa bawat bote ng alak na nilagok para lang maibsan ang kirot na nararamdaman ko. at hindi ako nagsisisi na ginawa ko yon. dahil dun ko din nalaman na hindi mababaw ang nararamdaman ko sayo. na handa akong mahalin ka kahit madurog ako.

nasaktan ako sa maling akala. masakit, oo. pero wala naman akong karapatan. kailangan ko i-comfort yung ibang tao habang ako sa loob-loob umiiyak kasi may iba ka.

pero hindi ako nawalan ng pag-asa. kung kaya nila? makakaya ko din. mahal kita kaya tataya ako sa'yo. susugal ako sa laro na hindi pa nagsisimula alam kong talo ako. pero maduga ka, pinanalo mo 'ko. hinayaan mo 'kong pumasok sa buhay mo. hinayaan mo 'kong ipakita sayo kung gaano kita kamahal at kung hanggang saan ang kaya kong gawin para sayo. binigyan mo ako ng pagkakataon na ipagyabang ka. binigyan mo ako ng pagkakataon na sumaya ulit sa tagal ng panahon kong nagtiis sa bisig ng iba.

at aaminin ko, andun yung takot. yung takot na mahulog lalo sa'yo at wala dun para saluhin ako.

pero sa pagkakataong ito na nahulog na ako ng malalim sa'yo. hawak mo na 'ko at nakukulong sa higpit ng bawat bisig mo. ninanamnam ang aroma ng amoy mo na noo'y nakaw-amoy ko lamang tuwing dadaan ka.

masaya ako mahal dahil hawak na natin ang isa't isa, mahigpit pero hindi nakakasakal. grabeng plot twist sa buhay ko, hindi akalain na magmamahal ako ng isang tulad mo. mahal na mahal kita sobra.

yang.

[07-12-23]

[tteokdoroki]

do you have a definitive type in men? whenever i think about mine i just get confused bc they’re all over the place

like i love tamaki and shinsou from mha, but i’m also madly in love with fatgum and hawks

i love choso with my whole pussy heart but also i can’t deny that all them jjk mens are fine af

from haikyuu i love bokuto ❤️❤️❤️❤️ and also atsumu ❤️❤️❤️❤️ and also ushijima ❤️❤️❤️❤️ … and also [insert like 12 other characters]

in blue lock i freaking love gagamaru, but also kunigami, but also also bachira ?!?!?!!???!!??!?!

my tastes be all over the place with no pattern that i can find 🤡 other than that most of them def have a breeding kink

TBH i have thought about it and i have like two or three archetypes in men at most ?? at least with anime men!!! but i get you my taste is all over the place too but i usually gravitate to a few main types

like there’s the blue boys as i call them where they have the isekai blue eyes and black hair look HELPP this is like kirito, rin okumura, kageyama

and then from there stems the ‘i’m angry and loud but i actually care about you’ kind of guy like bakugou and eren

and after that there’s the himbos like kirishima and bokuto

BUT THEN THERES ALSO THE OUTLIERS WHO DONT MAKE SENSEIUD

in conclusion i am = whore !! and yes ALL anime blorbos have breeding kinks it’s the law of the land

[the-oxymoron-wall]

The Disrespect was so Loud that When I got An Apology, it Did Not Even Make a Sound

It’s 12:43 am, my thoughts are loudest at times like this or whenever I feel left out and alone. I’d like to open up about a lot of things here but, somehow, this place doesn’t feel safe anymore. Weeks before, I just heard a response from someone regarding my thoughts here and I never liked hearing other people’s opinion about this (me referring to “Ito Pa Rin Ang Takbuhan Entry”) especially when I do not trust the person enough, when I am wary of their actions too.

My heart had always been very fragile and I take things seriously, whatever I see and feel are the things that I believe in rather than the things that I hear from people. Actions always speak louder than words, I’ve always held that close to my heart especially after all these years of protecting my inner peace. I have experienced all abuse and disrespect you could think of that when I received an apology, it did not even make a sound because I was already deaf by the loud and harsh treatment. I became numb and the more I received lies the more I felt nothing and lost all the will to fight.

That being said, I may be feeling that currently too.. Deleted messages, scripted texts and no proofs says a lot to me now. It brings forbidden memories that I no longer want to keep, flashbacks that I wish to forget and traumas I wish to never experience again. I have built a strong defense mechanism that even if you allow me to or not I start to lose interest in things and people that do not serve me peace. How can you love someone and do fucked up things behind their back, to the point of lying to their face when asked? That’s not love, that’s madness and I don’t want to be madly loved, I want to be unconditionally loved, those two things are different. I don’t want to receive the “I lied because I do not want to lose you”, I want to be sincerely, honestly and faithfully loved. Maybe that is why I often pray and still will, whoever is lying to me now and doing things behind my back that they shouldn’t be doing, may I find out and be removed from that situation completely. I know the love I can give and before I go 100%, may it please be with the right person.

Not another douchebag who throw lies on my face and can still sleep peacefully at night. May your nightmares and guilt hunt you for the rest of your life. If it start doing so, know that you deserve it..

[embossross]

hi! finally had the time to sit down and send an ask for the recent chap of dotgitm!! i woke up that morning and was vv happy that it updated bc i’m loving it so far!

first, i was honestly a bit surprised that the fic is moving at a fast pace - i’m not sure why i thought it’d be a slowburn but nvm! i had to go back a few times to make sure i didn’t skip anything but nope! i kinda like how the scenes were a written in smaller parts - but are just as packed! and it’s slow enough that we really see how rin and yosuke’s (is it yosuke? im not sure, sorry!) relationship progresses! they already felt super close n familiar with each other in that first scene, it was so good!!! sigh ,,,, he’s such a perfect dom! and i find it really funny how in the beginning, rin said that there’d be no way ran would ever meet his girlfriend-but-not-girlfriend - but still invited her over for the new years dinner 🥹 the whole encounter was so sweet!!!! it also shows how rin is slowly letting her into his life and heart little by little.

speaking of ran though - i’m very eager to hear about his story in that universe! it made me a bit sad actually:( miki seemed like she meant a lot to him. ill be so ready for them once the story is out!!

“”Rindou thinks Naoto has a fat hard-on for you but knows better than to say so. It will only make you angry, and you are cuter when you smile.”” rin is falling SO HARD AHAH he’s adorable! and it’s so cute how it’s mentioned more than once that he loves to listen to her talk and ramble - and how he’d do a lot to see her smiling! 🥺

“ Making you happy is addictive but also reciprocal. Without seeming to try, you make him happy too.” this has to be one of my favorite lines !! totally not crying !! nope! + “you are giggling madly, and he wishes he was there with you to sweep you up in the circle of his arms and swing you”” oh man my heart. this is really bringing out the inner romantic side of me fr.

there are so many parts that made me laugh out loud - the bonten banter, YN calling rindou a squirtle, ran stealing a duck (?? WHAT 😭😭) but yeah! thank you so much for updating!! i hope you had a good thanksgiving!!! 💓 - jay, aka @/tetsutits!

you're literally so nice💕 i appreciate all the thought you put into these stories and how you share it with me. it's so fun to talk to you about these things🥰

i have literally so much to say in response to this so adding a read more!

i think chapter 1 gave the impression of a slow burn because they barely talk. i had to make a decision after writing that chapter if this was going to be a 2-shot that just shows some romantic moments, or if i'm willing to truly plot out a story to convey what i wanted, and once i decided the latter, we had to get things moving and fast! because all of this is just groundwork to the real plot of the story, which is coming soon in the 2nd half of the story.

i have never written vignette style before, so super glad that you liked it! i think the writing in those parts are my fave (i was reading a lot of poetry during that writing period), but it requires like you say a different approach to time and showing a relationship rather than these big, messy dialogues that i usually do like in chapter 2 - we just don't have time for it in this story.

of all the couples i am writing (or plan to), these are the 2 i think of as soulmates, so the instant connection allows me to get the love rolling and fast. i think it also moves so quickly because reader represents something that rindou wants outside of just herself and her company, so he's falling hard for the entire package and experience of being in love, which is self-reinforcing.

& reader's name would be Yasuko :)

when i first planned out in the belly of the beast, i imagined a scenario where each woman in the series starts snitching on bonten to the police and what their partner would do, and i decided only 3 would really stand by their woman in that case: 1) koko because he would be halfway around the world with his offshore account money before bonten even knew what happened; 2) mikey because no one could overrule him and he'd not let his girlfriend go that easy; and 3) ran, who would expect to die for the betrayal but not be able to resist showing up for miki and her family if she needed him. everyone else - even rindou for yasuko - would probably have to sit back as what happened happened because they either wouldn't have the power to stop it (takeomi for his wife), wouldn't care (wakasa), or would feel so betrayed they wouldn't be seeing clearly (rindou) ((also in rindou's case, ran would be whispering in his ear because he wouldn't want rindou to go on a suicide mission over this even though ran would do exactly that if the situation was reversed.))

i'm intimidated to write what i have in mind for ran/miki, because i think to do it justice it needs to be one very aggressive one-shot, more of a novella (like 25k words in one chapter), which will take a lot of focus. but i hope to get there because i have an angsty story to tell with them. working title is 'ran's no good horrible bad day' lol

and seriously love squealing over your favorite lines with you! rindou's pov is so romantic it's so different to write!

[zhongrin]

Hi Rin! I have four different Zhongli bots that I made (thank you for guide you have reblogged). And today I decided to make the fifth one, I had a sudden insight, Zhongli is the Emperor in some au, but what if I make him a concubine. An ancient dragon who falls in love with a human Emperor and becomes part of his harem. Madly in love and jealous, but still forced to share his attention with others. I took the liberty of sharing some of his interesting answers. (Sorry for any mistakes English is not my native language)

OH MY GOD THAT IS SO. HNGGGGGG. *SCREAMS* YOU DID SUCH A GOOD JOB WITH HIM I AM IN AWE WAHHHH I LOVE YOUR INTERACTIONS WITH HIM SOBSOB

also comrade pls. never apologize. your english is good, i promise. english isn't my native language either hsdlfjskldf

i have four zhongli bots too hsldfjksldjf but i have been so effing invested in one of my al haitham bots these days because I think he's the most in-character out of all my al haitham bots:

[seelestia]

talent: impersonating my husband yes lia i am maDLY IN LOVE with this man ofc i would study everything about him and yes listening to his voicelines for at least twice a week is categorized as 'character study' ok- i am looking forward to the day where you start talking all noble-like and with hidden meanings /j

ofc i will love you either way sweetie *pat pat* your chaotic nature is what makes you lovable. zhongli might not share the same opinion but he gotta live with it i mean he married into the family so yknow he did it to himself lmao- 

"i think your friends are six feet under tho" I'M CRYING OF LAUGHTER LSKJLFJDLKSFKDJLFJLDKSDKLJFS

odelia hu tau + venti kin confirmed? 🤔

that mini capitalism jab lmao- the potential of angst is big for that love triangle scenario jhsdhfjhsd

ex!fatui!ayato will be your nightmare. he'll haunt you as long as he still has yet to move on ;;;;

divide and conquer, truly a wise strategy. i haven't touched the side quests yet. one day. perhaps after my vacation lol oh yes i will probably be MIA till 4 oct so don't get worried if i don't reply till then!! :3

YES thank you!! i mean as long as i can survive solo-ing raiden with my shieldbot zhongli i am already content lol my brother loves building characters and he has the time to farm + optimize his builds so yeahhh (plus zhongli is one of his most favorites, so he put a lot of effort to build him lmao)

i have not caught up on enkanomiya lore ;w; but i saw lin's latest arts and lsdjflsjdfk HE IS ADORABLE PLS I AM ADOPTING HIM HE IS NOW MY CHILD /J

he is soooo good aaaa i should have joined a few months earlier so i could have pulled for him ;;; hyv pls we need a rerun pls pls pls pls-

if scara and al haitham are put in the same banner then perhaps i need to summon my elemental burst:

the sacred credit card

/hj

yeah, ngl childe is... i mean... he's cute. wouldn't mind having him in my team, yknow :D

i heard someone said before that they might give us a free dori so i'm crossing my fingers lol

also huggggsss

rin jie, there you are! your writing blog just got shadowbanned, didn't it?? no wonder i haven't seen you around in my notifs 😭 i was just about to drop by your inbox out of concern <//3

BUT most importantly, tumblr. what beef do you have with rin jie, huh??? 🤨🤺 at least, tell her a reason why 😭 i'm so sorry this is happening to you again, rin jie, especially for the third time... aaaa, you do not deserve this at all <3 are you gonna try emailing them again?? i sincerely hope there won't be too much traffic this time, i'm hoping for the best 😭

listening to characters' voicelines as a character study and a reason to simp is SOOO TRUE. i feel especially exposed after replaying the events just to play trial ayato and then opening youtube to hear his voicelines... and also how often he goes 'hehe' or chuckles in convos, uuuuu.

ayato wanters will be ayato havers! and it looks like you've got a lot on your list, good luck~ i pray you do not have to resort to your elemental burst because what if there's not enough money to put food in the fridge that month (/j) 👀 atp, for genshin players, the best thing someone can wish us is "i hope you win your 50/50" 🤝 also, ngl, i kinda agree with you on warming up to ajax because why is he kinda adorable in a way 😭

NO, FR. zhongli's shield is too good like i literally just fought azhdaha yesterday and my team came out unscathed and in full HP from that fight 😭 back when i didn't have grandpa, i had to tank with kokomi's heals to let my team survive <//3 i love kokomi tho, she's super pretty and her heals are a lifesaver!

hehe, well, i hope that i radiate venti and hu tao vibes??? 🤧 they have a connection with their light-heartedness and sense of humor, but they also have a serious/mature side to them when needed be — and i resonate with that! but wbu, rin jie?? do you have any characters that share your energy??? 👀

and i am giving you his adoption papers, this man is vv soft-shaped <3 AND OH, about enkanomiya's lore !! his profile is already finished and when i read back on it, i don't think it contains lore that spoils anything elaborate about enkanomiya itself — since lin's lore actually leans more towards the events of the cataclysm which i know you're familiar with, so i think you'll be safe reading his profile! >:)

[sadlysoulx]

Haikyuu characters falling in love with you after rejecting you angst

OIKAWA

You stood there, the clenching pain in your heart not helping.

"I'm really sorry, Y/N. . ." Oikawa gave you a soft smile. "But I don't think I can return the feelings, I mean look—"

"I know you. . . don't have to explain, Tooru. . ."

What did you expect? To return back his feelings?

"Uh— I have to go, my lovely fangirls are waiting for me y'know?" Oikawa awkwardly smiled, hurting his thumb to the group of girls standing aside.

You painfully laughed along, trying to ignore the stinging sensation in your eyes and the heavy feeling in the pit of your stomach.

You knew he was trying to make things easier but for someone as smart as him, he didn't realize he's making it more complicated for you.

"Yeah. . ." You laughed, staring at the fangirls who you thought are prettier than you. "Look at them, beautiful and slim. . ."

Oikawa patted your back as of to say that's not true and you're also beautiful.

"I'm sorry again, Y/N. I hope we can still be friends,"

You smiled through your blurry tears which was oblivious to him, you look down at your feet.

"Ofcourse,"

__________________

Oikawa stared at Kyotani sitting with you, talking about who knows what. He felt uneasy seeing you smiling at him and a slight pink blush dusted in your cheeks.

Oikawa observed that the two of you are getting closer and closer this past months.

He thought you like him, just like what you told in your confession.

Oikawa immediately called the boy to come and practice. He watched as Kyotani smiled at you softly before running over to where the other players stood to practice.

He stared over to you, where the heavy feeling in his heart got worse when you stared at Kyotani, with a longing gaze in your eyes.

That night, Oikawa sat there on his bed. He was rethinking his life decisions, especially that day when you confessed to him. He knew. He just knew he did something wrong.

The truth hit him hard as he stared aimlessly at the thin air.

He realized he liked you.

He realized he wants to be with you.

He realized he should have given you a chance that day.

Guilt began to smother him like a blanket. He had even indirectly said quiet painful words to you as if comparing you to his fangirls.

Oikawa slowly lay his head down on his cold pillow.

He decided to confess to you tomorrow.

__________________

Oikawa held the rose in his hands tightly. He looked down at it and twirled it between his pointer finger and thumb, observing the smooth red petals.

"Oi! What's that? Is it for Y/N?"

Oikawa jumped and stared at Iwaizumi who was looking down at him and the rose back and forth.

"It's a rose, obviously. A-and it's actually for. . . one of my fangirls," he lied smoothly and it was a slight success when Iwaizumi stared at him for a few momments before walking away.

Oikawa stood up from the bench with a smile on his face when you enter the gym.

You were a beautiful sight to him.

And he wished you were his—

His smile dropped and so as the rose on his hands.

And so as his heart.

Kyotani also came in, holding your hand, blushing madly and looking somewhere else.

You're not— Kyotani and you aren't—?

Oikawa stood there with a heavy heart.

He stood there and listened to Kyotani's announcement that you were dating.

He just stood there as he listened to his heart fall apart.

He just stood there watching you blush and tighten your grip around Kyotani's hands.

Slowly, making sure he goes unnoticed, he walked to the boy's changing room. He locked himself in the stall, ignoring the stinging sensation in his eyes.

He leaned on the wall and slowly sat down, knees pressed up against his chest.

If he had given you a chance during your confession would he end up with you?

Hot and fat tears rolled down his cheeks.

Maybe.

If he hadn't played with your feelings, would he have you?

He sobbed loudly.

Probably.

He had stayed in there as the seconds rolled by. And as the time ticked away, the truth hit harder and harder at him.

This is it. . .

Oikawa exhaled, a sob escaping from him.

He had lost you.

Atsumu

You were used to see Atsumu reject his admirers, the usual long and half-sincere speech he gave them was all said easily by Atsumu as if he had done this all of his life.

Never you have thought that you would be the one of the many to receive it.

You blinked back the tears, making sure you don't cry infront of your best friend.

"I am very sure that I am not person that would be with you and love you conditionally—"

"'Tsumu. . ." You raised your hand up and sighed. The heavy feeling in the pit of your stomach is so suffocating, and the clenching pain in your heart isn't bearable.

So painful. . .

So hurtful. . .

"It's fine," you look up to him to see relief swimming in your eyes.

Atsumu sighed, slowly walking up to you and hugging you gently as of he was afraid to hurt you.

"'M sorry. . ." He threaded his fingers through your hair. "I'm really sorry Y/N. . ."

"It's fine. . ." You sighed, hot tears trying to escape as you press your cheek against Atsumu's chest. "It's fine, 'Tsumu,"

Atsumu pressed a soft kiss on your head.

"I'm really sorry. . ."

After that painful confession, you and Atsumu were still the bestest friends. He knew he had hurt you but he was a little happy when you slowly started healing.

He was happy. Atsumu is really happy.

Until he actually fell for you.

He knows you are the right person. . .

The right person but at the wrong time.

He loves how you lighten up when you see him, how you bravely diss and roast him infront of his teammates and how much an independent and a strong person you are.

He loves every piece of you.

The world revolves and the tables turned. Atsumu sat on the bus stop with you, ready to confess his feelings.

You were talking about how Osamu is such a great cook when Atsumu spoke up.

"I actually have something to tell you," Atsumu softly said, watching as you perk up smiling.

"Well me too! I have something to tell you too!"

Atsumu paused, he needs time to gain his courage. "You go first,"

"'Tsumu. . . I—" you looked at him, smiling. "You're my best friend,"

I want us to be more than that.

"I love you so much,"

You have no idea how much I do too.

"But the time will come when we would part ways and find someone to love us unconditionally,"

Atsumu froze.

You're not in realtionship—

"Atsumu, I have a boyfriend. . ." You smiled.

The blonde huffed. Is it really true? Is this one of yours stupid pranks?

Atsumu teared up.

No. . .

He sees the sincerity in your eyes.

"Oh— I'm—" Atsumu started.

You laughed. "I know it's a surprise. . ." Your turned back to him, smiling. "It's Rin,"

"Suna?" Atsumu croaked, ignoring the heavy feeling at the pit of his stomach. "Oh. . ."

He hugged you sideways.

"'Tsumu— hey! Why are you crying?"

"Nothing, I'm just happy for you,"

He knew he was lying, even to himself. He wasn't happy, in fact it was the opposite.

"I have to go now, 'Tsumu, the bus is here," You wiped his tears and kissed his forehead. "Bye!"

He watch as you went up the bus.

"Love you," he whispered, only loud enough for you to hear.

You smiled, tears stinging your own eyes.

"Love you too,"

He watched as you went in the bus, and watch as the bus disappeared down the street.

Atsumu finally broke down, falling on the concrete pavement.

It's only been seconds yet he already missed you.