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katsdynam1ght · 4 months ago

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pleaseee rant about fuyumi and enji's relationship sometime. they are so important in my heart and i ONLY want to hear it from u bc your takes on enji. genuine breath of fresh air i mean it. I LOVE HIM + HIS HORRIBLE COMPLEXITY IM TIRED OF PRETENDING I DONT. i trust ur mind so much i would love to hear ur thoughts on them. 💕💕

anon i have no idea who you are but i adore you and will happily oblige

first and foremost let’s acknowledge that fuyumi is the only female child of four, and once her mother is out of the house and their caretaker is retired, she’s the only girl (and later woman) in the house at all. it’s stated in canon that she did all the cooking for natsuo after this, but that shouto (and presumably enji?) was not present to partake. what this implies is that fuyumi took on the motherly role once rei was gone: a very common experience for daughters of any age.

immediately, this makes their relationship complex. neglect aside, being forced into a parental role as a child is incredibly taxing, and we see evidence of how it’s affected fuyumi by her behavior in season five (intense people pleasing, desperation for everyone to get along, stress and anxiety when they don’t, etc). i do believe that she genuinely loves her father, but i also am sure that part of that love is fear. at such a young age (12) she lost both her older brother and her mother, barely knew her baby brother, and quickly had to play mom for her younger. if anything, this poor girl was terrified that she’d lose the others, too.

here’s where i want to note something that i think 98% of the fandom will disagree with me on: sending rei to a mental hospital was NOT the hellish abusive act everyone seems to think it is??? like dude. her baby just fucking died. her eldest child died (and she couldn’t stop it) and all they have left of him is a piece of his jaw. she broke. she hurt a five-year-old boy. if enji hadn’t sent her away, what else might she have done??? hurt the others? killed herself? dude. she was lost in her grief and needed help. that’s why he sent her away—it just comes off differently because we only learn about it from 5yo shouto’s perspective, and that kid was biased as fuck.

(also, there’s a panel or two somewhere of enji standing with flowers presumably at the hospital, and we know rei had flowers in her room. i am of the belief that he hand-delivered them (but couldn’t see her for obvious reasons) to ensure they were received because you know what? that man loves his family and his wife and he regrets everything he did. deal with it.)

(and i know nobody wants to hear this but rei loves him too. Deal With It.)

but i digress. let’s go back to fuyumi.

as the eldest daughter and pseudo-mother in her family, she also bears the brunt of everyone’s emotions. that is… just what happens. i don’t think anyone will deny that. women (especially in a traditional household like the todorokis) are emotional laborers and put in a position to be responsible for everyone’s peace. it’s exhausting, but it’s also the only thing fuyumi really has left if she wants to keep her family. and she does, obviously. they’re all she has. (this is something else that happens when you lose siblings or parents at such a young age, or when there’s a lot of conflict in the home. you just want to have a family. you want everyone to be happy. i personally have a very intimate understanding of how desperately fuyumi just wants her family back. that feeling never goes away.)

we don’t get a lot of information on what happens during the decade of shouto’s life from five to fifteen, which means we don’t get a lot on the rest of the family, either. rei has been in the hospital, natsuo has grown up and started at college, fuyumi has become a teacher and maintained her parental role, and enji has continued his career. we don’t know what the house looked like during this time and a lot of people have a lot of theories, but… hm. i don’t know. i think it’s hard to say. given the flowers for rei (and his arc throughout canon), i do think enji had to have made some changes during this time. but it’s hard to say how and how much and what impact it had. we know shouto was still pretty isolated throughout this, so… maybe not much. certainly not enough.

even so, it seems apparent that he and fuyumi have had a relationship throughout all of this. again, she has a tendency to people-please, and she loves her father, and her father (who again lost his eldest son and has only a fragment of his jaw bone) is a broken man. comforting him is only natural. it’s practically her responsibility (in feeling, not in fact). and enji, of course, because he has no other support network, relies on his daughter. he depends on her as men often depend on women (and obviously realizes his wrongdoing in this, as it’s part of his apology in season seven).

if you ask me, pre-war arc, i think their relationship is the most loving out of anyone in the family. it’s not healthy, not yet, but it can be made healthy much easier than the others can, and i think fuyumi is more willing to forgive him than anyone else. because the thing is—fuyumi is willing to acknowledge her father’s humanity.

i think this is one of the things that frustrates me most about the fandom’s response to enji. i understand where it comes from, of course, and i’m not saying he is by any means innocent. but there comes a point where you have to put your own biases aside and acknowledge a character’s humanity. it infuriates me to no end that this fandom will redeem the entire league of villains but cast endeavor aside and damn him for all eternity. i know why, again (because in fiction abuse is always worse than murder), but i don’t care. if a character has the capacity for repentance then they have the capacity for redemption.

i also never understand the difference between redemption and atonement because to me they’re the same thing, and enji is a prime example of it. he knows what he did wrong. he knows he can’t undo it. he won’t try to. all he can do (and what he Does do) is be better. how can anyone ask him of anything more. how DARE anyone ask him of anything more. he’s a mortal man, not God. that’s the entire point of the portrayal of MHA’s top heroes: they are not invincible deities. they’re human. they’re going to fail. and fail. and fail. and fail. but what makes them different from everybody else? they want to be good. they want to help others. they’re trying. they may fall and slip up and it may not all go according to plan, but damn it if they aren’t trying.

beyond everyone else, i believe fuyumi understands this. her father is not, can not, and will not ever be perfect. but he’s trying. she knows how human he is, firsthand. how can she ask him for more than the effort he’s given? this is already so much better than how things were before. and she loves him. and he loves her. she’ll wait as long as it takes for him to grow.

here i must note (as always) that i haven’t read the manga. i do not know how it ends. any time i see content about the todoroki family’s ending, i skim or scroll past to avoid spoiling myself. everything i say is based on my understanding of canon and of the characters and information we are given, and everything that follows this is purely how i plan to write the todoroki family in some future fic where i actually address all of this and force people to like enji.

i don’t know how any of their stories end, but i believe fuyumi keeps in touch with her father. visits. has family dinner when possible (minus natsuo, or scheduled so natsuo and enji can arrive at different times and avoid each other). she still visits her mother and her brothers. she loves all of them as much as she always has. enji doesn’t force anyone to keep in touch (and given his injuries i doubt he could even if he wanted to, but even if we diverge post-season six as i tend to do, he still wouldn’t try to keep anyone who doesn’t want to stay. i mean he built them a whole separate house. does the fandom just forget that) but they love each other, for sure. he’s proud of her. proud of all his kids really. not so much of himself. but he loves them so much more than he will ever be able to express. and fuyumi has grown into such an amazing young woman. i think he admires her more than she knows.

what really gets to me about the todoroki family and everyone’s misinterpretations of it is the amount of love in their household. so many people write it and there’s no love in sight, but that’s an immediate indicator that they don’t understand. because here’s the thing—that entire family is built on love and all the ways it goes wrong. there is so much love there it makes me sick. but none of them have any clue how to express it—and that’s the real tragedy of the todorokis. they’re all fated to get it wrong.

(“kats their marriage was arranged wtf do you mean enji and rei love each other” dude that’s the entire point. the fandom does rei a MASSIVE disservice by taking away her agency in that choice. she Knew what she was getting into and she Chose him. do NOT downplay this woman’s decision for the sake of shoving her into your helpless female victim battered wife box. fuck you. their marriage was arranged, but she agreed to it, and as stated, she was cold to him at first. but she opened up, they got to know each other, and damn you if you think they didn’t love one another then. they built that love brick by brick. how dare you suggest otherwise.)

i’m really beginning to go on some tangents here, so i think this is where i close. but the point that i’m trying to make overall is that there is so much love in that family and no capacity to express it. but i think enji and fuyumi try. i’m certain they figure out proper boundaries someday and he doesn’t put so much on her. i’m certain she still visits and i’m certain she forgives him. i’m certain he has a hard time believing that when she tells him, but that he swallows his doubt and thanks her anyway. he really is so proud.

thank you anon for this ask. it was a delight to wake up to and write out at the start of my day. i love talking about the todoroki family (i’m very passionate if you can’t tell) and if you ever have anything else you want to hear don’t be afraid to send another :)) i’m always happy to share my thoughts.

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fu66sun · 2 years ago

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on a chilly autumn evening, the library was the spot for a silent but intense standoff between you and haechan as you tried to study for your looming midterm exam. the library's vibe was peaceful, filled with the subtle rustling of pages and the occasional whispered conversations.

discontentment had been building within you, making you irritable. your hair was unruly, your clothes felt uncomfortable, and even the sound of haechan's breathing was enough to make your blood boil.

haechan, could you please keep your music down? i'm trying to focus here—you whispered, irritation evident.

haechan was not in the best of moods either, whether due to your presence or his ongoing struggle with a particularly vexing problem. he shot back — what's your problem, y/n? i can't study in complete silence. and don't tell me you've never heard of headphones.

you continued in a hushed tone

—haechan, i don't mind if you listen to music, but your taste is atrocious, and it's loud enough for the entire library to hear. have some consideration for others.

haechan's patience was wearing thin, and your talent for getting under his skin was apparent. — my taste is atrocious? that's rich coming from someone who probably listens to elevator music and taylor swift.

—you know, haechan, elevator music is more sophisticated than whatever noise you're playing. this is a library, not your personal concert hall. besides, dude, what does taylor has to do with any of this?

a smirk played on haechan's lips as he added with a hint of sarcasm —oh, i'm sorry, i didn't realize you owned the place. maybe you should run for library monitor of the year, y/n.

the tension in the library escalated, and with renjun nowhere in sight to mediate, you raised your voice at him.

—that's not the point, haechan! the point is, you're being disruptive, and it's making it impossible for me to study. you're impossible, haechan! this is why i can't stand you. you're always so inconsiderate and arrogant!

haechan, not one to back down from a challenge, responded with equal fervor— and you're so uptight and bossy! you act like you own the place.

the library's hushed atmosphere had been disturbed by the verbal showdown between you and haechan. your personalities clashed like two storms, temporarily sidelining your study session and adding a touch of drama to an otherwise quiet, book-filled setting.

when renjun finally made his entrance into the library, it was like a scene straight out of a cartoon. you know, the kind where the hero comes in to save the day. and believe me, you needed some saving.

he just strolled in like he owned the place, as if he hadn't noticed the boiling tension that was about to reach its climax between you and haechan.

but here's the thing, renjun might have looked chill on the outside, but you could see it in his eyes - he knew something was up. he took a quick scan of the room, and his gaze landed on you, locked in a fiery verbal duel with haechan. it was like he had walked into the lion's den, and boy, did he always have a front-row seat to the show.

now, you've got to understand, the library was supposed to be this sanctuary of silence and concentration. but with you and haechan going at it, it felt more like a battlefield. your voices clashed with the hushed whispers of the other students, and the tension was so thick you could practically cut it with a knife.

renjun broke the silence. — hey, what's going on, guys? — he asked, his eyes bouncing back and forth between you and haechan. it was like he had a sixth sense for detecting conflict when it came to you and decided to intervene before things got out of hand.

you were the first to spill the beans.— haechan and i were just, you know, having a disagreement about his music. it's just too loud, and he doesn't seem to care.

haechan's face shifted from annoyed to more neutral as he responded — yeah, and y/n here thinks she's the queen of the library, telling everyone what to do.

it was like renjun had waved a magic wand or something because suddenly, the argument cooled down. haechan reluctantly agreed to turn down the music, and you gave a little nod, agreeing to wear headphones. renjun had brought some much-needed zen into the room.

with the music at a more tolerable level, renjun took a seat at your table, and you got back to studying. the library got back to being quiet, just the usual soft sounds of flipping pages and whispers.

in the days following your heated argument in the library, you couldn't help but stew over your frustration with haechan. the clash over something as seemingly trivial as his music had escalated into a bitter argument that had left you seething. it was a constant reminder of your conflicting personalities and how much you disliked haechan's behavior.

as you sat in a quiet corner of the campus courtyard, you couldn't hold back your feelings any longer.

renjun — you began, a note of exasperation in your voice—i've been thinking about our little trio with haechan. to be honest, i don't understand why we even hang out with him. i mean, he's impossible. i don't even consider him a friend, and... i think i might even hate his stupid guts.

renjun looked at you with a mixture of surprise and concern.

—hate is a strong word, y/n. why do you feel this way?

you leaned in, frustration evident.

— it's not just that one library incident. it's everything about him. it's the debates, it's the constant need to comment on everything i do or don't do. he's so inconsiderate and arrogant. he's constantly pushing my buttons, and I can't stand it. I thought college would be a fresh start, a chance to meet people who are different, but I never expected someone like haechan.

—i get it, y/n. haechan can be a handful, and he's definitely not everyone's cup of tea. but, he has his good sides too, you know?

haechan's expression hardened at renjun's sudden interest in the topic—hate, huh? well, i can't say i'm a big fan of her either.

renjun was taken aback by haechan's response.

—what do you mean, you're not a fan of her?

haechan sighed, leaning back in his chair.

—i don't know, renjun. there's just something about her that really pisses me off. she's so uptight and bossy. it's like she thinks she owns the place. i don't doubt that she's a good friend to you. but I can't stand the way she tries to control everything and act like she's better than everyone else. it's like she's always looking for reasons to argue with me.

now that you and haechan knew how much you hated each other, things seemed to cool down a bit. you didn't want anything to do with him an neither did you. at least the rest of your first semester was a little bit calmer. yes, you did hang out with each other, but never exchanged words, or looks, or anything at all.

you were now, simply, classmates.

at the beginning of the second semester, haechan would be assigned a new roommate, chenle. it was safe to say that you were initially skeptical about how this would pan out.

the three of you already knew chenle because he was in some of your previous classes. you'd exchanged several conversations and were no strangers to one another. that's why you couldn't help but wonder if their personalities would clash, much like yours and haechan's had in the past.

but, over time, something surprising happened. you noticed that haechan and chenle began to bond over shared interests. and they even shared their experiences going to the same stupid high school.

surprised by the seemingly quick development of their friendship, you and renjun decided to give it a chance. and slowly but surely, chenle was almost all the time with the both you.

chenle had a naturally partying persona. he would always brag about this bar near campus, insistin that the four of you should go. and most of the time he would end up convincing haechan, but never renjun or you.

however that would change now that the school was closing down for winter vacations and everyone had to go home for the holidays.

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