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every single time i post about ocd i get at least two people being like "oh my god i need to see a therapist i do that" which is proof that we dont talk about it enough. Also it've been told by a psychiatrist that it's commonly comorbid with autism
#said psychiatrist still didnt diagnose me or send me anywhere else but she did prescribe a mild sedative for it. fucker#(predictably didnt work)#anyway awareness saves lives#idk what i would have done at 15 if i had no resources avalible at all#therapy isnt enough often because unless you package it just right they're not gonna get it#and if you're too knowledgable about the terminology then they're not gonna diagnose you because they'll think you googled it
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so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi prime defenders spoilers#jrwi pd spoilers#jrwi pd#william wisp#vyncent sol#THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it.#BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece#i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW)#that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that#if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles.#open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho#BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses...#lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH#FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE#i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony#recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day#ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw-#-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM-#-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS#its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not#well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i-#-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!!#i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i
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A lot of fanfic writers for billford are reflecting on how the book of bill has changed their characterisation of bill or how their fics should pan out. I'm cheering personally. The book feeds perfectly into how I was always planning to end my fic and it's inspired me to get back into finishing it off. I really like Ford's parts of the book and I especially loved their banter and the back and forth they had in the books. All the things about Ford that I loved to see from subtext in the show and the journal I get to see in the book of bill and it makes me very happy. It makes me think my several year long period of writers block was there for a reason so I could pull bits from this book in to help me finish the story 🥳
#billford#the book of bill#their banter and ford repeating bills joke back to him sold me haha#i knew he always had the potential to meet bill on his level#and i knew that bill pursuing ford is because in some of the many potential futures he sees he knows they work well together#i feel gratified for predicting some things too#like the zombills#it didnt pan out exactly the same way but i still managed to include the zombies in some way and it was fun
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and finally it seems my lonely days are through i've been waiting for you
#alangaipa#moonlight chicken#asianlgbtqdramas#first kanaphan#khaotung thanawat#firstkhao#alan anantachai#gaipa mlc#can i tag people or will you be annoyed at me#usernuria#tusernix#my abba streak continues. predictably#it has been so long since ive giffed Wow i was rusty#and ive never thought so much about fonts in my life#do u ever work on a set for so long you have no idea if it looks good anymore cuz i'm there rn#tv#mine#EDIT I AM DUMB AND DIDNT KNOW THE WORDS HELP
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so... amphoreus, huh. i think as 3.2 is out, we all know and are aware it is, without a doubt, a simulation right?
(aka my mini rambling post regarding the world thus far, less of a theory and more of a "pointing out the obvious" in my terms because im still seeing posts in denial or not reading a single text in the main quest then making "theories" and im a salty person who's annoyed by this ahahaha)
with 3.2 being out and we have been shed more light with anaxagoras' help, i want to talk about the world a little, and appreciate mhy for the foreshadowings they've done. credit where its due, for all the bs they do, they always nail foreshadows right and do it well. not spoiler free !!! im lazy to add visuals (esp regarding anaxagoras quotes) so i'll quote to the best of my ability (idek where to begin lol) kind of a long thread, mostly to keep my thoughts somewhere,,, ty if you read to the end <3


So even for non hi3 or genshin players, amphoreus was a suspicious world on its own. the corrupted areas looking to be like erased data or a virus of sorts. how garmentmakers nymphs always resembled "bugs" and made emoticon faces to react. i said before that i thought the world was stuck in a cycle- a samsara cycle like tevyat (genshin) perhaps. with the broken moon, "the sea of flowers at the end of the journey" (the twins' ultimate destination in genshin) which was revealed to be the nether realm aka the afterlife and how the dead are never fully dead and we have these memory fragments often left behind at crucial locations.
cerces had called herself "calypso" before and said she came up with it on a whim. but this quest showed, calypso was one of the seven sages and her past form for a better lack of a word. like how gnaus was once nikador/strife. "titans of today are heirs of yesterday who claimed the coreflames and passed the trials" it's as simple as that, really.
(also here is what one of the nymphs in dawnbreak say when you catch it) (the nymphs seem to be more aware of the reality of amphoreus than the citizens and heirs)
amphoreus is a simulation- that resets its data. that's why while cerces has remained her appearance (despite her contradicting lines saying they decipted her as a tree in the demigod council, easiest and best way to illustrate her when they didn't know what she looked like) some of the previous heirs did not- or to our knowledge so far. how the new titans' data is "constructed" entirely depends on the "memories" collected in the previous era. and from there, their new forms are based on. kephale hinted to be not dead nor alive, in the state of dying and thus stuck in a dynamic, i think fits well with phainon's contradicting entity too. only surviver of his town, his "true form" on the other side wreaking havoc. he is the trickiest heir most likely last to obtain divinity for this reason. because it's flame reaver that is the lord ravager lygus told madam herta.
amphoreus is a simulation made to keep lord ravager in. the why isn't clear but there must be some history between his past and cyrene/elysia to have gone through these lenghts. with a simulated world that "resets" itself and starts over, FR is more or less aware of his entrapment at this point and that'ss why he has begun to go after the coreflames: the hard drivers of the world, if we take amphoreus not just as a simulation but as a simple computer of sorts.
that's where erudition and remembrance plays factor, intentionally or not in a collabration with each other, as brought to reality and guarded by lygus, an antikytheran.
and what is an antikytheran? a hand powered orrery (solar system model) that could be used to predict asronomical positions/athletic cycles of olympic games and such. it can be considered as the oldest known example of an analogue computer. (all these, simply from a basic wikipedia search). in the game we are told there used to be many "antikytherans" and lygus is one of the last of the species, but in a simulated world, how much of it holds true, who is to say this isnt fabricated history? anaxagoras also points out the history before the titans is unclear and implied/told to be in utter chaos. just because it wasn't recorded properly does not mean this was th fact.
same as the case of lygus. in his dialogue to madam herta, there is an emphasis on predictions, similar to the real thing. he says he ws gazed upon by nous too but herta has showed us already that nous is not exactly the gazing or responsive type. before he is an aeon, he is a computer. so who is to say lygus is not an extension of it, or maybe an earlier model, a prototype perhaps made by zandar one kuwabara himself- or based on one of his earlier inventions? just like that, it's most likely lygus/nous' influence that the first "seeds" of "nousporists" was planted (again, credit where its due, nous' name and the philosophy of nousporism in amphoreus tie wonderfully and show us clear influence/interventions of nous. just like how nihility is named ix not for the number but after the major arcana card ix). everything in amphoreus is a repetitive cycle that is rewritten by the previous data that has been saved/collected.
as a world that is overlooked by three paths, i think destruction came last, with the arrival of lord ravager. now im not certain if the world was already existing before that with the intention to keep him, or if he was inserted after, but the last scenes with herta imply he was the latest component and lastly added- one of the true outsiders. his fragment image being able to move as herta walks is another display of his self awareness of his predicament.
and now onto why i emphasized on mhy's foreshadowing (if you've read this far lmao) if you've done the seal event, you see TB has a "prophetic dream" that shows phainon. some things that stand out regarding him is that: he refers to his seal army as his "legion" which instantly reminds me of "anti matter legion" or simply known as the "legion", lead by nanook and his lord ravagers. in the event, phainon (or pie-non as he introduces himself in the dream), he does say "i was always the invader. there was never any side switching." for the remainder of the event after the dream, we don't see much of him. it gives us more information regarding cipher and aglaea in fact.

which further leads me to believe his purpose is for the following story. because one thing mhy loves is to hide their best drops and foreshadows in fun, silly looking events (ie: summer events that always foreshadow upcoming regions in genshin) people will skim over or will put to auto (or webevents, as the latest moon sisters loredrop in genshin proved once more.) please do note this is the same company who foreshadowed/gave us a lot of crucial intel on the harbingers and even the story of ru and the thunderbird as early as games earliest existing artifacts (the og electro set to be specific for ru/thunderbird.) the timing of the event being right after 3.2 and giving you a warning to play it if you havent finished the latest quest are all intentional.
offhandedly it is also said during the quest, hycilens is dead. (not surprising since she is most likely an expy of dr mei) but with anaxagoras' death as well, before we could learn more regarding him and the odd void within his chest, i think we are meant to see the upcoming cycle. all of the heirs being foreshadowed to die isn't very surprising, since we have examples such as tingyun, fugue, misha, gallagher and whatnot... but considering they are all part of a simulation, as long as their coreflames/souls remain protected, they will live on for a better lack of a word.
and we do have calypso suggesting alchemy in the previous cycle, and supposedly in the new era when supposedly "alchemy hadn't existed to align/sync with the story of dragon of styxia", castorice's existence alone is the first step perhaps that the repetitive cycle is being broken.-- castorice and pollixia breaking the natural order of the world by directly inserting her into the new cycle is the first step on the path of disturbance, or destruction.
and while i got into the whole foreshadow thing, i do want to add, black swan's existence in penacony from the start seemed iffy to me. so when we put what we know about misha/mikhail, black swan and all she told us so far, the memetic virus event that stuck out like a sorethumb when we all were expecting amphoreus, i am certain, these were all setting stones for amphoreus for us players. (the black tide being corrupted data/a virus, the nymphs being bugs/antivirus installment that record data and watch over until we collect them all back while coreflames are the drives where all data is restored for the world to be reset with a "new age of titans".
so much rambling for so little conclusion ahahah sorry, i didn't have much time to ponder regarding phainon being "cursed by mnestia" but considering the golden threads that always listen and the nymphs belonging to her, her role isnt just the "titan of love and romance" nor "created by cerces for company, only for the creation to fall in love with the creator". -> especially after with thanatos and the twins, reaching the conclusion that with the cycle of life and death and the passion to live and enjoy as long as you breathe, thus the humans learned to love; bringing this hand to hand with thanatos playing a role in mnestia's nymphs, their roles mightve been more mixed than what we have been shown so far.
after all, all we learn in amphoreus is just memories of people of the past- manipulated data if you will. oh and the vortex of genesis is most likely the heart of amphoreus and the whole world itself. as it is where the coreflames are "returned" (restored) and why when entering the world, herta finds herself there with fragmanted forms of the outsiders (lord ravager/fr, trailblazer and dan heng) while lygus is fully intact and in its form as it has shown us.
if anyone (especially hi3 players) have anything they want to add or have noticed themselves, pls feel free to add! i mainly wanted a post to gather my thoughts and will most likely edit this in the foreseeable future when i remember the rest of my thoughts ^^) but yeah, elysia/cyrene is most likely a emanator (remembrance) too but if she's not playing dumb as mem and that gaze of fuli black swan noticed in 3.2 wasn't the moment we were gazed upon by fuli, then it'll really be a paimon situation for sure... rip oh and whenever we "purify" the corrupted areas, the symbol we interact with seem to resemble kephale's symbol... edit 2: i'm thinking maybe as black swan has said regarding the garden of recollection and memokeepers, there is a third party playing too that we are unaware of yet who is causing this chaos/corruption- possibly even the black tide itself. similar to how march 7th's ice shoing up when she is unable to remember, the remnants of black tide is data removal- and in case of amphoreus, we know data = memories. perhaps the third party is like HoC was for elysian realm and Cyrene is now trying to guide us as Mem. and for all that concerns Phainon/FR/Kevin, the world to be built only to reset over and over is perhaps the true trial of not just Kephale but for Phainon/Kevin to reach a certain form or state of mind Cyrene/Elysia hopes for him to reach as humanity's survivor and protector. edit: i think this qrt thread by twitter user lenteels sums up all of amphoreus as a world down to its basics pretty much too (and gave me a good laugh so i'll link here)
(also idk how many of you follow leaks or not but just today we've got leaks that say flame reaver is the true protagonist of the story-- they didn't elaborate further as to not spoil anything else, and "because it's long". buuuuuut yeah let's see what we will be getting out of FR vs Elysia / Phainon vs Cyrene and was the driving force behind her actions^-^)
#danyl talks#honkai star rail#hsr spoilers#hsr#if mhy loses the momentum of the story as they did back in luofu and penacony i will scream#also i didnt talk much about elysian realm in this post as to not stray the focus from hsr to hi3. yes they are prallel universes but with#independent stories and characters in the end. one world's fate of characters dont necessarily determine the ones in hsr and vice versa.#but regardless of this. elysian realm storyline is a good basis and prediction for us in regards to amphoreus and how its mechanics work#ie: coreflames as sims... etc
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I realised I never posted any Monster Hunter related drawings even though it's like one of my big special interests?? So here it is! Aghhhh I'm so excited for Wilds I want to play it so bad already...
My beloved Nora with Sobibór ( her adoptive dad, he belongs to my bestie @ohhyperbola ). They're so precious. Sobibór doesn't have much experience but it's fine because Nora is a veteran hunter despite being young. Love them.
Also a small thing with Nora and Evran ( who belongs to my brother @tonys-tonics , hey man ). It's actually a reference to one of our favourite memes. A gouga...
( I don't know who made the original thing but it's this meme right here )
#yeah anyway i havent finished the morrowind comic yet as i predicted#im kind of also in the middle of making a painting so i didnt have enough time to finish it#and also im making some additional pages so its taking longer#but i promise im working on it#monster hunter#monhun#monster hunter world#mhw#monster hunter oc#digital art#art#muscariart#muscariocs
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if that's what your scugs look like.... The I'm terrified of how your ???/inv/sofanthiel/enot looks
i think this enot design looks more wacky than creepy but thats for others to decide
#i dont think anything will look worse than enots original design to be honest#ask#i didnt at all predict that my slugcat designs might look cursed to some because i find them cute#however that helps me out big time because im working on a slugcat i want to actually be scary#so if people find the original slugcat offputting#then even if i fail at making this slugcat creepier than normal itll still be a degree of unsettling B)
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found out league has a new pause mechanic in quite possibly the most scuffed way possible
#art#fanart#jhin league of legends#jhin the virtuoso#khada jhin#jhin lol#jhin#league#league of legends#LoL#for the story: I alt ctrl deleted out the game bc league straight up froze in a SOLO custom. Logged back in a reconnected. then had to wait#like. HALF AN HOUR to play again bc I had no idea you could pause and didnt know how to unpause. Friend suggested I alt ctrl deleted the#whole program entirely so i did. Logged back in and was still jhinprisoned. Waited for the game to unpause on its own#and then while I was UNDER TURRET with sivirbot slapping me repeatedly my mouse battery DIED so I had to switch to touchpad after#I predictably died. The enemy botteam managed to get to my base but I somehow WON?????#not my bot team ME#hell works fast but jhin works faster i guess
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i need to learn to bake something new as everyone at work already knows i'm bringing them some carrot cake on friday....
#as some of u may have heard several times this month or any time the number 22 is mentioned its my bday on friday#so im baking something to bring to work#and i can bake more than just carrot cake#i think ive brought brownies to work more often than carrot cake. and ive also dabbled in chocolate chip oat cookies#and mokkapalat.#and yet#i saw my boss today and she jokingly was like ''haha i guess we'll be getting some carrot cake on our big planning meeting on friday''#which. hold on just to preface this i actually like my boss and she has my best interests in mind and shes v nice.#anyways i didnt even tell her id be baking smh. i mean i always bake something for work when theres a special occassion but still#and howd she guess it was carrot cake. ok probably bc thats my fave but still#i know i have a complaining tone in here but i think its funny and silly#i know i'm a predictable person but sometimes it manifests in weird ways#i did not know my carrot cake baking was THAT predictable#oh. i was thinking of going to the liquor store on fri bc its a tradition of mine and they have a new#cant remember if it was white or red but anyways some type of new seasonal flavor of wine glögg#i think regular glögg is superior but man can you imagine a red wine glögg with carrot cake#cozy spices...#especially since my carrot cake recipe is very winter-y as it has cinnamon and clove in it#i usually love lighting candles and getting cozy on the sofa as soon as the days get short#but i havent done that yet this year#can u imagine. little lights and candles on. red wine glögg and carrot cake. sitting on the sofa under a blanket.#watching something on the tv.#would love to read but its not ideal in candlelight#i usually like having a big light on bc i like to see but it's nice being in a dimly lit room when its dark anyways#leevi talks
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the hatred in your heart will make all of your spells backfire😂
All of my spells work and I live the perfect life I desired and created for myself and I couldn't be happier 🤣🤣 die mad about it, a witch's power is limitless and untamed, it does not depend on men's or other women's approval, it comes from within
#i forgot i had asks this one has been sitting in my inbox for like eternity but i went inactive for months and years and didnt see it#and even tho the ask arrived so much time ago we can see its prediction didnt come true 🤣 my spells work#witch#witchcraft#witchcraft is for females#dianic witchcraft#goddess worship#spell work
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every day my sister's behavior is looking more like my mother's, and it's getting harder to spend time with her
#gaslighting (i never said that!)#projecting her own behavior on me and trying to make me look the fool#me knowing i cant say anything in a situation because it's not gonna work out for me anyway so i cross my boundaries#(if i say no she'll ruin both our moods be cranky and pouty.)#(if i say yes and tell her i didnt feel like i had a choice because she'd act all angry and ruin the mood she'd deny it)#(tells me she never does that. will even tell me I'm the one who always does that)#everything needs to go her own way. she doesn't see the concessions i make#if she does something it's fine in her eyes if i do the same thing it's the end of the world and she won't make me forget it#and so on and so forth#the silent treatment 3 times a month because i disappointed her in some way#the lack of self awareness#we wat hed a tv show with a character that showed all of this behavior and she went: ugh she's so annoying.#and then kept telling me she's just like me#???????????????#girl I'm actually so done with her this has been going on but getting increasingly worse for the past 30 years#personal#I told her something she didn't like two days ago so I already predicted a 2 day silent treatment. which I got.#and then today when we watched a movie together she kept making shitty comments towards me#but i already know if i say why are you making these comments at me after giving me the silent treatment for two days#she's gonna say im not doing that Jesus I'm just joking#I'm taking a break from her I've had it#I've got 3737383 more examples and it's near constant
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Attempted to do my style traditionally with a broken mechanical pencil, 6 sharpies and a dream (results are varied)
#the left one is kinda shit but the right ones alright#right one is also a redraw cos im predictable and have less than zero original ideas#also didnt have orange so i used a different yellow and a peach#it worked surprisingly well#usagi yojimbo#yamamoto yukichi#yukichi yamamoto#this really messy but im impatient lol
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on repeat tag game
Rules: Shuffle your on repeat playlist and add the first ten songs, then tag ten people
tagged by @xoshepard tyyy
Charisma In Da House (slight bright lights warning)
Kitchen by SZA (this one especially has been biting at my head because of two ocs and their relationship)
Like Him by Tyler, the Creator (that part with the silence and the lyrics right after does something crazy when i think abt a diff oc)
Hide N Seek by Doechii
Moonlight Hormao (no notes.)
Max Dont Have Sex With Your Ex by E-Rotic (they have so many goofy songs that tickle me tbh)
Nosebleeds by Doechii (IDK IS SHE GONNA GO CRAYZEEEE? 😝!? IS SHE GONNA GO CRAZY)
luther ft SZA by kendrick lamar
Cosmic by Red Velvet (i love belting that bridge out i fear, one of the few times i sound good)
Charisma Bunkasai (i cheer up every time i hear energetic whistles cowbells drums or anything very festival-like etc so fun)
i nvr know who to tag for these... @ashestoashesjc @odysseys-blood @toothbracelet @chakrafiend @hexa-jon and anyone else who wants to can say i tagged em -w-
#no pressure also feel free to ignore or Not do this#right now its actually a lottt of doechii tyler and kdot#i didnt want the whole list to be just them so i inserted some of the lower ranking songs that were on repeat#moon talks#overlooking 3 more sza songs 3 more doechii ones and a few others kendrick and tyler ones#like noid darling i balloon and sticky tied for most played#30 for 30 and bmf.... countless ABNH songs.... had to make the list a little less Predictable i fear#3 crsm songs being here sorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry i love fun. theres like 5 more of them on my repeat... my cocomelon..#edit: link not working for ray so i shall swap him out and bug oomf
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watched the gk liveaction. Soundtrack was excellent. The action scenes (especially war flashbacks) translated really well but the humor didn't really carry. Hand-held camera work my beloved oh how i treasure you. overall 6/10, solid film, probably won't watch again.
#golden kamuy#asirpa wasn't young enough i think. like a big part of early in the story for me was the emphasis on her childishness#the humor didnt work at all imo. the manga/anime are able to balance tonal shifts because they're longer works#but the film should just have decided on what to prioritise i think. idk i dont make movies i imagine amvs of blorbo.#also tsukishimas actor looks concerningly similar to the guy im seeing rn. this will give me issues i predict.
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mofos be throwing psychological diagnosis without properly excluding every physiological ailments
#wtf man comes claiming anxiety cause he was diagnosed such two days ago by a non psychiatrist#because he came with tremors palpitation dizziness and diaphoresis. checked his sugar level: as predicted fucking low#and he has gastritis with chroning history of skipping meals#the anxiety diagnosis itself is inducing his previously non existent anxiety#stupid fucks. don be throwing mental illness diagnosis if you dont have the license to do so ffs!#didnt even complete the full health check.shibal#work rant
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ah yes the fear that someone will view me explaining that my disability prevented me from doing something as an "excuse" instead of a reason for why something isnt done. love to see it 🫠
#girl how do i explain that i had to prioritize my heath or else i would be in the HOSPITAL?#'u should have told us earlier' srry i didnt think talking about my disability would be good small talk? i didn't think it would get bad?#i cant predict the future? i didnt know this would impact this class?#'you should have kept us updated' inwas trying my best to calm down so i didnt go to the hospital (because panicking makes it worse)#so school and work things were not on my mind#also... u arent paying me... this is a college class..#i want to go to bed
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