#-uncomfortable bc they don’t listen to me!!! bc im not really the boss!!!! she is!!!!!!!!!!

[megantheestalliongf]

i am feeling so.....

[skinnyducky]

made for you // v.h.

hello.. im sorry i havent been posting. school has been keeping me busy but i wanted to post this. this idea comes from @yelenasdarling so thank you ! i recommend listening to halley’s comet by billie eilish (as well as the whole album) bc that’s the song that is being discussed in this (as well as many others), so yuh. enjoy ! and i promise i haven’t forgotten about party @ y/ns !

vinnie hacker x singer!fem!reader

Word Count: 1408, edited

WARNING: MAJOR FLUFF LUV

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As the year was coming to an end, so was your debut album. For months, you’d been working with the best producers, musicians, and doing endless promo for this album and within a few days, you’d be playing it for the label. Obviously because it is your first record, you’re protective over it. No one had heard it besides the people working on it. So, you were a bit nervous to let your pleading boyfriend, Vinnie, tag along to the studio with you.

It was Friday, and you two had been chilling in his room when your producer, Sarah, said she needed you to go over it before the label meeting. As you bid your goodbyes to Vinnie, informing him of the reason for your departure, he pouted. “Why can’t I come?” he nearly cried, giving you his puppy dog eyes. Because you couldn’t resist them—and you just can’t say “no” to him—you allowed him to come.

Now here the two of you were, in the studio and listening to Sarah go on and on about how long it took for her to finish mastering it. Your manager, Jen, had came too. She had to hear the album for herself also. She couldn’t have her client looking a mess in front of her bosses. Bad for business and her reputation.

“…and after an hour or two of making sure your vocals were clear, I finally finish the album.” Sarah explained. “Honestly, this is probably the best album I’ve produced in a minute, and I worked on SZA’s album.”

“That good?” Vinnie asked with a smirk, leaning against the studio door. “That’s sick. I’m ready to listen to it.”

As that sentence left Vinnie’s mouth, you felt your anxiety overcome you. “Are you sure, Sarah? There has to be some sort of adlib I need to rework or something. Can’t be ready so soon.”

“Y/n, it can’t get any better than this. This is a solid project. I should know, I spent days listening to it over and over again. Trust me, it’s ready.”

“Besides, it’s too late to rerecord now.” Jen added. “The label meeting is next Thursday, and we don’t have a week for Sarah to mix and master all over again. Once the label gives us the greenlight, if there’s anything to tweak, you can do it before you have to submit the final project. But until then, no changes and no additions.”

You sighed, nodded your head. It’s not that you were afraid of it not being perfect. You were more scared of what Vinnie would think. I mean, he’s the one who inspired the album; more than half of the songs are about him. His opinion meant everything to you, and if he didn’t like an inch of it…that would destroy you.

As you were sulking and picking at your chipped nail polish, Vinnie wandered over to you where you sat at the soundboard with Sarah. He leaned against it and smiled down at you. “What’s the matter, baby?”

“Nothing.” You sighed, keeping your head down. He scoffed and chuckled. “Y/n, you’re playing with your nail polish. You always do that when you’re upset.”

He pulled you up and took you out of your seat before sitting down himself and placing you on his lap. “Tell Santa what’s up.” He joked, wrapping his arms around your waist.

“I’m just nervous. This album means so much to me.”

“Completely understandable. It’s your first one, it should mean a lot to you.”

You shook your head. “It’s not just because of that. It’s also because it’s about you. The only reason you haven’t came with me to the studio until now is because I didn’t want you to hate anything on this, and it would kill me if you did.”

“Y/n, look at me”—you finally met his eyes for the first time—“I could never not like anything you do. Especially if it’s dedicated to me. That’s like throwing away a gift you gave me. I wouldn’t ever do that. So don’t think for a minute that I’d hate this. That’s literally impossible.”

You smiled, planting a kiss on his forehead. “You’re too good for me.”

“I know.” He laughed and turned to Sarah. “Play us the album!” He said dramatically, sending the producer into a fit of giggles.

She followed his orders and with a few clicks and the press of a button, the first song from your album rang out from the studio speakers. You watched timidly as Vinnie bobbed his head up and down as it went from track to track.

“This shit slaps!” He exclaimed as “Y/n Bossa Nova” played. He nearly about died during “Oxytocin”, claiming it to be god tier. Minutes went by until you got to the final track “Halley’s Comet”, and you were scared to play him this song.

While the other tracks were quite playful in nature, this one was different. The song was a bit cynical, but it was also like a love letter to Vinnie. Never before have you ever felt what you had with him. And at first that made you scared. But as the months went by and your relationship started to blossom, you realized he was the one for you. This was just your way of telling him that.

When it started, you looked everywhere but at Vinnie. It wasn’t just because you couldn’t bear to see the expression on his face, but also because this song was quite emotional. You didn’t want him to see you “being a little bitch” as you put it.

The sound of your soft vocals bounced off the walls and you felt Vinnie place his chin on your shoulder. His hold on you grew tighter as he swayed you two back forth. A small smile crept it’s way onto your face as you tried your best to stray away from crying.

“I’ve been loved before, but right now in this moment,” you sung, “I feel more and more like I was made for you…”

When those lyrics hit, you felt Vinnie stop swaying. Hell, you were pretty sure he had stopped breathing too. You didn’t know what to think about that; did he not like the song, is he shocked? What was he thinking and feeling? Shortly after, the song came to an end with you singing, “I think I might have fallen in love…what am I to do?”

And with that, the album finished. The room was silent, the only sound being your sniffles. Although that was broken when Sarah screamed. “Wasn’t that amazing!? Ugh, my power…I really outdid myself on this one.”

Thankfully, Jen understood the impact of that last song. “Sarah, why don’t we go get a Snickers or something from the vending machine?”

“I can’t eat anything fatty, Jen. You know this.”

Jen mouthed some profanities and threats at the woman causing her to shoot up from her chair and run out into the hallway. “We’ll leave you two alone for a minute.” Jen smiled, leaving the room and shutting the door behind her.

Neither of you or Vinnie spoke and that somewhat was comforting. However, part of it made you feel insecure about the album, “Halley’s Comet” in specific. Out of all the songs, that’s the one you wanted him to like the most.

The silence soon grew uncomfortable, so you decided to be the first to speak. “Well, that was the album. What’d you think?”

He opened his mouth, but it was obviously he couldn’t find the right words to say. “I-I don’t know how to even put it in words.”

“That bad?” You sighed.

“No, never.” He laughed. “It was beautiful, all of it really. And that last song, that was amazing.”

You pursed your lips, hiding the grin wanting to break free. “You think so?”

“Yeah, it was definitely one of my favorites. To know I had that much of an impact on you, it’s really sweet. I didn’t think I could simp for you any harder than I do now.”

“Shut up!” you laughed, slapping his shoulder.

“It’s the truth!” he said, throwing his hands up in defense. “I love you, Y/n. I really do.”

“I love you too.” And with that, he laid a sweet and gentle kiss on your lips.

Pulling back, he said, “Oh and just so you know, I agree with you.”

“On what?”

“You were definitely made for me.”

[venusmages]

otp tag.

tagged by @solasan​, thank u!!!!!   tagging: @ritualism​ and @editoress​ i think all my other Wayhaven ppl have been @’d already

PENNY AND FELIX EDITION

DISAGREEMENTS.

who is more likely to raise their voice?

i neither! penny if i had to choose, but shes usually p good at keeping cool. and felix doesn’t seem like a shouty person anyways.

who threatens to leave but never actually does?

N/A

who actually keeps their word and leaves?

N/A

who trashes the house?

N/A

do either of them get physical?

N/A

how often do they argue/disagree?

i think their first disagreement is in book 2 when Felix got hurt during Sanja’s rescue. Penny feels super guilty about it and is worried Felix is brushing it off when he has a right to be upset. She’s kinda haunted by that whole situation and the choice she had to make. Other than that, they definitely never really argue. At most in the beginning Penny was just kind of oblivious/flippant because she’s socially awkward lol

who is the first to apologize?

both lmao

SEX.

who is on top? who is on bottom?

Felix is a little top  you cant convince me otherwise

any kinks?

not really

who has the strangest desires?

i think they’re mostly just cute in bed without anythnig crazy going on

who’s dominant in bed?

  FELIX!! in the cute ‘i got this’ kind of way. Penny’s shy so definitely not her.

is head ever in the equation?

duh

if so, who is better at performing it?

felix has the charisma but i think penny has the technique

ever had sex in public?

 they did almost fuck in nate’s library 

who moans the most?

Penny!  Felix thinks its cute

who leaves the most marks?

FELIX LOVES HICKIES. hes sad that they don’t last super long on him, but she tries anyway.

who is the more experienced of the two?

I think they’re pretty even actually

do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’?

latter

how long do they usually last?

im sure it varies

rough or soft?

soft!!

is protection used?

YES. penny is ON that shit. Though she wouldn’t be against having kids one day.

does it ever get boring?

nah they’re too cute and in gross cuddly love. Does felix look like he’d EVER get bored of the detective

where is the strangest place they’d have sex?

it didnt  happen but again, nates library. Penny was secretly kinda into it 

FAMILY.

do they plan on having children / do they have children?

 I don’t think either are seriously considering it for a while but Penny is a good 50/50 on it!

if so, how many children do they want/have?

just one, maybe two.

AFFECTION.

who likes to cuddle?

Felix! Penny’s a little more standoffish in general with physical affection, but she does love cuddling Felix. If he wants to cuddle she’s p much always down for it.

who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places?

Felix. Have you heard what that boy says

who struggles to keep their hands to themself?

Felix! Though only in private. He know’s Penny’s shy and its cute to do it when shes working or something. He likes playfully distracting her.

how long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable?

Probably for a good while, though Penny has a tendency to get antsy. Usually it just means her getting up and him happily following after her though

what is their favourite non-sexual activity?

video games! She showed him Animal Crossing and it was over

where is their favourite place to cuddle?

on the couch!

SLEEPING.

who snores?

Penny...

if both do, who snores the loudest?

Not loudly , but again penny.

do they share a bed or sleep separately?

they share a bed!

if they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart?

depends!

what do they wear to bed?

Penny wears pj shorts and a cotton shirt, pretty simple. Felix is probs similar

are either of them insomniacs?

Penny DEFINITELY is. Thankfully Felix doesn’t sleep a lot so she’s rarely disturbing him!

can sleeping pills be found by the bedside?

YEP. Especially after book 1, she started having nightmares.

do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side?

Felix is a koala.

who wakes up with bed hair?

Penny. Felix somehow always looks fucking perfect and she’d be jealous if she didn’t think it was so charming.

who wakes up first?

Penny. Even if Felix is just lazing about, she’s one of those responsible people or something.

who prepares breakfast in bed for the other?

Felix tried. keyword being tried. 

what is their favourite sleeping position?

Penny sleeps on her side and Felix clambers around either with one leg over her or spooning her usually.

do they set an alarm each night?

Penny does!

who has nightmares?

Both :(. Hard to tell with Felix how often for him

can a television be found in their bedroom?

Penny doesn’t have a TV

who has ridiculous dreams?

Felix for sure. Sometimes involving stuff pertaining to the Echo World and Penny is like ??? and he doesn’t know how to explain it.

who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed?

Felix

who makes the bed?

Felix, because he insists. Penny goes back and straightens it out

what time is bed time?

 bed by 1

any routines/rituals before bed?

felix insists on brushing their teeth together bc he thinks its cute (penny does too). its how she first actually got a glimpse of his fangs

who’s the grumpiest when they wake up?

neither! though felix DOES complain.

WORK.

who is the busiest?

penny. felix is  busy keeping himself from dying of boredom

who rakes in the highest income?

n/a

are any of them unemployed?

n/a

who takes the most sick days?

Penny, though very rarely. She usually saves them for days where she wants to work from home because the office got too overwhelming.

what are their jobs?

Vampire Agent vs Police Detective

who sucks up to their boss?

 Felix tries to charm Rebecca. Rebecca just sighs.

who is more likely to turn up late to work?

Felix. Got distracted

who stresses the most?

PENNY. though she usually takes things in stride, she’s a little up tight.

do they enjoy or despise their careers/occupations?

Penny is fine with being a detective and doubly fine with being an agent.

are they financially stable?

yeah!

HOME.

who does the washing?

Penny. We know what Felix’s stance is on laundry considering he hides his socks in Mason’s hamper.

who takes out the trash?

Felix , and he acts like a hero

who does the ironing?

Penny! She wears nice clothes that definitely would require ironing. 

who does the cooking?

Penny is a serviceable cook, though she tends to cook the same things. And sometimes still eats like a (healthier) college student because she doesn’t have the energy. Felix LOVES using it as an excuse to order food.

who is more likely to burn the house down just trying?

Felix.

who is messier?

Felix. More just disorganized

who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor?

Felix. Again, boy clearly hates laundry

who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere?

Neither. Unless Felix yoinked the keys - then they could be anywhere.

who answers the telephone?

FELIX. First ring, always. 

who mows the lawn?

city slickers for life so neither

who does the vacuuming?

both. felix likes doing it and danciing

who does the groceries?

Penny because felix will bring back a bunch of things they didnt need

who takes the longest to shower?

Penny. She uses so much water

who spends the most time in the bathroom?

neither!

MISCELLANEOUS.

is money a problem?

nah theyre secret agents

how many cars do they own?

just penny’s little clunker

what’s their song?

waterfalls coming out your mouth // violet hour (especially this one) // sugar

do they live in the city or in the country?

small town

do they own their home or do they rent?

penny’s renting but wouldn’t be against owning a little flat somewhere

do they enjoy their surroundings?

wayhaven is home and comfortable for penny! she was actually falling out of love for it before she got promoted, now she feels protective over it and the supernaturals shes now aware live there.

what do they do when they’re away from each other?

felix goes insane waiting until they can meet up again. penny is often thinking abt him but is eager to get work done so she can do it even sooner

where did they first meet?

abandoned warehouse in book one - though the first meeting SHE remembers is him kissing her on the hand... romance...

who spends the most money when out shopping?

i feel they both are pretty similar! Theyre Fashionable, though Pennys really good at budgeting.

who’s more likely to flash their assets?

listen it doesnt happen in canon but if you do the combat training route with felix he fucking puts your hands up his shirt

any mental issues?

penny has anxiety and has been diagnosed as autistic since she was, like, 12. felix clearly has some shit he’s not letting himself fully mourn but OKAY BUDDY

who finds it amusing when the other trips over? 

penny laughs when felix trips just because he’s like a beautiful ragdoll and always ‘saves’ himself in really funny ways. felix is such a prince charming i think he’d see her tripping more as an excuse to be dashing and handsome at her and save her from face planting than laugh. 

who’s terrified of bugs?

penny definitely isn’t. could see felix losing his shit over a spider.

who kills the spiders around the house?

PENNY. doesn’t kill them though.

do they have any fears for their future?

Penny’s worried that loved ones might get put into danger due to ... everything. Verda found out about vampires and wasn’t hyped, so she’s worried about their friendship and his saftey most of all. She’s also worried about making ‘tough’ choices like the one at the end of book 2. It’s not a pleasant dilemma.

their favourite place?

Penny’s apartment!

who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner?

felix FOR SURE

who pays the bills?

both, but penny set it all up on autopay bc felix would forget.

who’s the tallest?

Felix! He’s like what, 5′7-5′9? penny’s 5′3.

who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other?

Both! Penny’s shy when doing it but she loves felix’s reaction because he’s always super excited.

who wanders around in their underwear?

neither

who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio?

felix. duh

what do they tease each other about?

everything! penny teases felix over how energetic and goofy and ~suave~ he is. He teases penny over being bashful - but she actually teases him more! He teases her over ROMANTIC stuff.

who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times?

Penny. The waistcoat, Felix. Why. No

who crushed first?

FELIX DIDDDDDDD. Penny got flustered but is very :/ at relationships bc she struggles socially and the only serious relationship she had prior was fucking BOBBY. So she straight up doesn’t trust that felix is being genuine at first. Also she’s a lil bit oblivious.

any alcohol or substance related problems?

nope!

who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am?

neither

who swears the most?

probably felix, though I don’t think he swears a lot either?

[huangfilms]

Aged Up!Jaemin

summary: so my boss has been trying to set me up with her son for a while and i’ve never even met him and she doesn’t show pictures, but once i do meet him i find out that her son was my crush from high school many many years ago,,,, h elp || aged up au

(A/N) OKAY QUEENS! the results for the recent poll was jaemin! i swear i will get to All Of The Members soon i just need some time! also!!! please leave me feedback ! thank you kids and i hope you enjoy! (ps, once i write more and more, ill make a masterlist so u can see all of my works easily!) warning: this isnt edited cause ya girl TIRED

so... it was morning time

your alarm was blaring in your ear and you Did Not Want To Get up.

you absolutely loved your job (whatever that job may be, it is up 2 u)! but why did it have to start so early,, ya know? 

also,,, it’s your boss,,,,,recently she’s been sweet talking you and it’s really uncomfortable since you two aren’t really close

and she always mentions her son

she goes on and on about how sweet he is, or how much of a gentleman he is. not to mention how handsome her son is

did i mention she’s always saying, ‘you’d be perfect for my son.’

and you’re just like??? oh 

but today when you got to work, a sister SNAPPED

if you heard about your boss’ son one more time then-- well you’d get fired but anywho

so you got annoyed and told your boss, ‘if i say yes to going on one date with your son with you be quiet?’

and she went quiet and then had This Look on her face

next thing u know, she has the BIGGEST grin and then side-hugs you

you feel Awkward but whatever,,,, so anyway she 

she tells u that u should b ready at ur home at like 4:30 or something since u two are going on a ‘date’

and then ur like??? wtf TODAY and she says uh,, yes.

and so u see her pull out her phone and then u Just Know that she’s texting her mystery son and then you get Anxious

well shit my dudes

life is crazy like that,,,,, so then she says that he is going to pick u up from ur home and ur like,,, he knows where i live now

okay!!! it’s ok kids,,,oof!!!

so time skip to 3:00 when your shift at work is d o n e and then u go home to flop on ur bed

Then You’re Anxious cause oh shit,,, ur going on a date with a person that u don’t even know. sike u thought

and so u change out of ur work clothes and throw on like a sweater or something and jeans or whatever

u have like 10 minutes to spare before that guy comes here and you’re kinda nervous,,,,,,,

but he is here EARLY OH MY LORD 

so u have like a peep hole on ur door and u take a peak thru it and oh 

oh my

you wha t

this boy behind the door is none other than the kid you used to crush on in high schoo l,, na jaemin

he never liked u back bc he never noticed u but,,, u ,,, got over it,,,,,,,,,

you could not believe that ur boss’ son was THIS DUDE,,, 

you start to pace back and forth because what if he recognizes you,,, oh My Gosh

okay well anyway

you suck it up and then open the door because he’s been waiting for a while ksdjhfalksjhf

u notice that he’s looking down and he starts to speak when he looks up but then he stops

‘hey--’ and he just Stares At You and u start to wonder if he Does Remember You

and then he says ur name Which Means He DOES oh jeez and u were so close to slamming the door in his face because you Cannot Handle but it’s okay, everything is okay..... 

‘haha hey,, um jaemin’ 

REAL UWU HOURS BECAUSE THIS CRUSH WAS UNREQUITED AND U NEVER FORGOT ABOUT IT UNTIL LIKE UR,, THIRD YEAR OF COLLEGE HEADAHHHSDLJFHAK

okay well now that u guys Clarified That You Remember Each Other

you became x27439823847398739384709213378468 more nervous because How Will This Go

okay wait,, how did he know ur name LMAO did he,, dare I say,,, remember you????

cause if he did then WOW life really is crazy

so then he starts to talk or whatever about going to the nearest coffee shop cause he feels drained and exhausted, ngl,,, you feel kinda tired too

so you guys are just like walking there and he’s been trying small talk like,,, what have u been up to since high school? 

and u get so Shook because,,,, he noticed you LMAO 

i mean you were always the shy one who got mediocre grades but never really broke the rules and hung out with like,,, one person.

u STILL hang out with that on e person and that dude is ur best friend jeno

but anyway,, you knew about jaemin in hs because of jeno, they were in the same friend group and jeno always invited you to hang out with them but u really weren’t comfortable with that LOL

so yeah u saw jaemin and took a liking to him because he was really sweet from what u heard from jeno,,, that boy would NOT stop talking about him to you because u became interested

i mean moments pass and u dont know how to feel anymore

so anyway,, u two make it to the shop and then u take a REAL good look at him when he goes up to order for the both of u guys

he’s aged really well,,, too well like honestly--- edges: Snatched

he just looks so,,,, good. and you just Know That You Have Lingering Feelings that you never really got over and they seem to be resurfacing

FEELINGS U BETTER STOP!!!

so he comes back with the drinks and he looks at you now while ur staring out the window,, just sippin ur coffee

nd he noticed that YOUVE grown,, u look way more mature and youve lost ur baby face,, oof

u kno he actually did like you back then,,, i mean if either one of u would have just TALKED to each other smh cjsjdjs

but whatever, in the past right? sike

so the date was coming to an end cause he had some stuff to do, so u guys swapped phone numbers

ever since then, u guys have been texting each other non-stop and always hanging out when you can

his mom?? she can tell that something is different with u because u arent grumpy in the mornings anymore HAHAHA

u start to smile more and become distracted on ur phone cause jaemin is always texting you

and his MOM JUST KNOWS OKAY

so she asks u about it like,,, half a year after u guys first met up

and u say smth like, ‘oh haha your son is such a kind soul,,, andimayormaynotlikehim’

its honestly really funny cause she been knew that jaemin had a small crush on u during hs cause he always talked abt u but never knew u were gonna apply for the job u had now and she cant believe that she remebers that WOW

so anyway she just has This Smile on her face all the time cause u make jaemin so happy

and so one day u and jaemin meet up back at that coffee shop

and then u two order or whatever and then he comes back with A Very Serious Look on his face and u get scared™️

but when he comes back he just shyly smiles and says a Long Speech

‘so i know that we’ve established that we remember each other from high school, but i just wanted to clarify that i like you, more than a friend. i really like you and ive liked you since i first saw you in the hallways all those years ago. i mean, when we went our separate ways i shoved those feelings aside but now that youre back in my life, so are those feelings i have for you. everytime i look at you, i just want to kiss you or hold your hand and i just—‘

but youve stopped listening because your whole being is: Shook

he just said that he liked you omg,,,,,

HE BEEN LIKING YOU OH MY JEEZ

AND THEN U JUST CUT HIM OFF BY REACHING OVER AND HOLDING HIS HAND AND THEN HE TURNS P I N K AND ITS ADORABLE U ALMOST COO

and so you say, ‘jaemin,, i really like you too.’ AND U BOTH JUST GRI N

AND SO HE ASKS TO KISS U CAUSE HES A WHOLE ASS GENTLEMAN

and so when u nod ur head he just SMILES AND THEN KISSES U

its SLOW AND ITS FULL OF PASSION AND IM SUFFERING MY UWUS: ON THE FLOOR EVE PLS GET ME A MOP AGAIN

A D WHEN U PULL BACK FROM EACH OTHER, U GUYS JUST SMILE SO HARD THAT UR CHEEKS JUST START TO HURT AND THEN HE ASKS U THAT™️ QUESTION

‘will u b my baby’ : )

AND THEN U SAY YES BECAUSE!! WHOLE CATCH U REALLY LIKE THIS MAN

SO the date is over, he walks u home, and when u get into ur house u dont see that he fist pumped in the air and nearly YELLED

so u go into work the next day and you are just HAPPY

and his momma Knows So She Looks At U With A Huge Smile

and then she lets u be cause U ! MAKE ! HER ! SON ! HAPPY !

so anyway jaemin as ur bf,, a real Dream

he would always drive you home from ur dates, pick you up from ur work,,,,

sometimes he would even sleep over , the dude has his own soace in ur closet and a toothbrush

WAKING UP TO HIS FACE IS SO GOOD CAUSE HE LOOKS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL IN THE MORNING SUN

and its such a Good Ass Time my ass is Suffering omg

but anyway!! jaemin is such a sweetheart u could not believe that u didnt talk to him in hs cause you guys wouldve been together longer🤧🤧

anywho!! end!! i cant believe his momma set u two up 😪

Masterlist

[baybert]

That last ask

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

“Well this is kinda awkward, didn’t really see this coming .”

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

We cool, i got uninvited to her wedding tho

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

Depends on the type, anything other than but or hallucinogens id be concerned  

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

Ye, but by one

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

Probably sober? Honestly been so long i can’t remember

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

Lmao, Is there really any other way to do it?

7. What does your last received text say?

“Yeee!”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

Too many to count tbh

9. Where was your last kiss at?

Probably at her parents house

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

Earlier today!

11. What do you drink in the morning?

Usually a fruit smoothie

12. Where did you sleep last night?

Floor of my grandmas living room

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

They are, but they can be so worth

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

Less money towards alcohol, more towards tattoos

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

Not between us, her fiance would be trippin tho

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

Rainy for sure bro

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

Not as far as I know

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

Nah, athletic shorts atm

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

Probably not i feel

20. Does anyone like you?

Yeah, im pretty sure

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

Yeah, like once 

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

Nah

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

Is myself an option?

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

A better question is where i wouldnt consider getting one

25. In the past week have you cried?

like twice, last time was bc isaw a post of this little boy playing at his friend’s grave

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?

Black lab ily Bojack

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower? 

Out, do People do it in?

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

Nah

29. Do you think you’re old?

Sure feel like, shit

30. Do you like text messaging?

Yeah, im better at talking when i have time to construct my messages

31. What type of day are you having?

Ehhhh

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

Nah, but i want my eyebrow pierced

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

Cold is better for cuddling, but warm wins bc swimming

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

A couple

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

A fling sounds fun, but it really depends on who im talking to 

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

I think im simple

37. What song are you listening to?

Rainbow in the dark- Dio

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

Usually yeah 39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

Not, really. Tbh i don’t think anyone really does at this point 40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

She like crazy cute, just really one of those people who’s like a shining light 41. When did you last receive a text message?

1:06 pm 42. What is wrong with you right now?

I’m just a sad guy tbh 43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

Pretty well, i think 44. Does anyone disgust you?

Myself again? lol 45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

Again, depends on who 46. Are you in a good mood right now?

Been a couple day tbh 47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

My dad 48. What color shirt are you wearing?

Purple and black 49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

Boss told us that we gotta finish this one job tomorrow, gonna be a long fucking day 50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

Feel like the opposite happened tbh 51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

Nah, ain’t no one responsible for my feelings but me yo

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

Nah, if im at that point its probably over 53. Do you like rain?

I love it yo 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

Only if they ain’t sharing 55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

I mean yeah, hasn’t everybody? 56. Do you like to cuddle?

Love to, unless its too hot.  57. Are you shy?

Sadly 58. Do you get along with girls?

As much as anyone else i guess 59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

Been on a date or two, but im not sure if that counts 60. What do you carry with you at all times?

Phone, wallet 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

Fuck yeah, im be getting to know the ghost n shit 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

Done it before 63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

Nah 64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

Very 65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

Not really that i can think of tbh

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

22 23 and 22

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?    

I’ll just have my lil sis do em 68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?

Leopard i guess 69. Do you have any stickers on your car?    

I got a pogo one on my truck 70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?    

no idea who Luke Bryan is tbh, so i guess Weezy 71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?    

Android 72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    

I think like two or three weeks ago 73. Do you like diet soda?    

Nah man, fuck that 74. What color are the walls in your room?    

What room? 75. Are you 16 or older?    

bouta be 22 76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?    

Never have 77. Do you have a job?    

I am currently an HVAC Apprentice    78. What are your initials?    

RTE 79. Did you ever have braces?    

Never, thankfully ive never needed em. that shit expensive yo 80. Are you from the south?    

Southern Cali, so nah

81. What does your last status on facebook say?    

“The police force has always been the most dangerous gang in america. Being unaccountable for your actions is a hell of a drug, absolute power and all that” 82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?    

Nah 83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    

Probably my dad, but i love them both equally 84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?    

nah, gymnastics is cool af tho 85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?    

Rogue one 86. Do you smoke?

Bud,yeah 87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?    

Flip flops, heels look uncomfortable af 88. Is your phone touch screen?    

Yeah, shits cool 89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?    

Curly i guess,think its more wavy tho 90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?    

Never had to tbh 91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?    

Lake sounds cool 92. Have you ever made out in a car?    

Shit fun yo 93. …Had sex in a car?    

Shits even more fun yo. Especially road head 94. Are you single or in a relationship?    

Currently single 95. What were you doing last night at midnight?    

Sleeping, like i should be rn 96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?    

Tuesday, cousin and brother put on a fucking show yo 97. Do you like the camera on your phone?    

Its pretty alright, nothing too special 98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?    

Nah, seems cool tho 99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    

A couple times 100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?    

Why would i do that? 101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?    

Like twice 102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    

Only one i know is tick tock tbh

103. Do you have any tan lines right now?    

Farmers tan ftw 104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?    

Probably not, i don’t really do boots unless its for work

[interdiit]

okay so @legacyborne i saw this thing on my dash and i did it for laf/george/martha bc i was bored in class but im just now getting around to posting it bc im the Worst but here it is it’s super long this shows how much im into this au so yes ssh here is a thing

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? george first, then laf, martha rarely does Who threatens to leave but never actually does? even despite their disagreements, i doubt any of them would even threaten that  Who actually keeps their word and leaves? see ^^ Who trashes the house? it would be laf but not in an angry way but in a ‘my life is kind of a mess so here’s the mess that comes with me’ kind of way Do either of them get physical? hahaha no How often do they argue/disagree? pretty often, but not on anything major Who is the first to apologise? it’s either laf or martha, depending on the situation

Sex:

Who is on top? they’re all incredibly flexible with what positions they take Who is on the bottom? ^^^ Who has the strangest desires? none of them are exactly pure Any kinks? l m a o all??? all of the kinks??? Who’s dominant in bed? typically george and/or martha Is head ever in the equation? it’s nearly always in the equation If so, who is better at performing it? laf likes to think he is Ever had sex in public? not full-on sex, but there’s definitely been inappropriate touching Who moans the most? martha or laf Who leaves the most marks? george for sure Who screams the loudest? not really screaming but laf is the loudest Who is the more experienced of the two? george and martha are both more experienced than laf Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? both of the above Rough or soft? both of the above How long do they usually last? i mean??? a decent amount of time?? i would think??? Is protection used? yes and no, it all varies with who’s doing what to who Does it ever get boring? not in laf’s mind, not at all Where is the strangest place they’d have sex? over george’s desk?? maybe?? i ?? dk ???

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? laf would love to, but he’s pretty much the children himself If so, how many children do your muses want/have? probably like 2 or 3 Who is the favorite parent? martha omfg it’s definitely martha Who is the authoritative parent? george but only bc he wants the best for the kids Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? laf for sure he’s just like ‘dont tell’ Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? see above it’s definitely laf Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? all three of them omfg it’s laf and martha’s favorite activity Who goes to parent teacher interviews? all three of them at the same time -- the teachers just end up thinking laf is the kids’ older brother Who changes the diapers? they alternate nightly Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? laf and george are both lighter sleepers than martha, so it’s typically one of them Who spends the most time with the children? martha and laf both work less than george, but, in the evening, the kids don’t leave george alone Who packs their lunch boxes? martha for sure laf doesn’t know what he’s doing but he’ll write cute lil notes Who gives their children ‘the talk’? they force george to do it Who cleans up after the kids? it’s a joint effort -- laf gets the living room and bedrooms while george and martha get the kitchen Who worries the most? laf and martha worry equally Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? definitely laf and he feels bad about it

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle? all of the above Who is the little spoon? martha and laf Who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? geORGE HOLY SHIT Who struggles to keep their hands to themself? george when he’s doing it purposefully to embarrass laf, laf when they’re just walking down the street How long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? laf doesn’t know what that means -- they could cuddle all night.  Who gives the most kisses? martha she’s such a kisser fight me on this What is their favourite non-sexual activity? kissing omg but that typically leads to other thinGS Where is their favourite place to cuddle? on the couch or after a long day in bed Who is more likely to playfully grope the other? gEORGE STOP IT How often do they get time to themselves? they all know all they have to do is ask for it, but it’s rare, considering that there’s three of them

Sleeping:

Who snores? george but only after a really long day -- laf makes fun of him for it If both do, who snores the loudest? ^^ Do they share a bed or sleep separately? share a bED If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? laf is very clingy at night so at least one of them has laf clinging to them Who talks in their sleep? laf mumbles, it’s either in french or completely incoherent What do they wear to bed? either silk pajamas or fleece for martha, george typically wears sweatpants and a tank top, laf is nearly always in just boxers or completely naked Are either of your muses insomniacs? no i think they’re all pretty good sleepers Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside? probably not Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? there are limbs everywhere - if not for their differing skin tones and sleepwear, you wouldn’t know whose limbs are whose. Who wakes up with bed hair? martha’s got it the worst because laf sleeps with his hair tied back Who wakes up first? george, laf, then martha if there’s no alarm set Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other? thAT’S LAF’S FAVORITE ACTIVITY What is their favourite sleeping position? limbs everywhere all bunched up together Who hogs the sheets? laf would be the one Do they set an alarm each night? yes, everybody’s got work to do -- laf’s alarm is first, because he goes to the gym every morning, but he does his best to turn it off before george or martha wake up Can a television be found in their bedroom? probably not, but there are definitely stacks of books Who has nightmares? george’s are the worst, but they all have them Who has ridiculous dreams? laf omg at least once a week they definitely hear laf saying “well i had a strange dream last night” Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? laf would if the other two weren’t in the bed, too Who makes the bed? they all alternate What time is bed time? depends on the night, can range from 9 pm to 3 am Any routines/rituals before bed? brushing their teeth and washing their faces together, then little kisses and goodnights Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? laf typically, but he does what he has to do

Work:

Who is the busiest? george Who rakes in the highest income? george Are any of your muses unemployed? martha stays at home, but she could get a job if she wanted to Who takes the most sick days? none Who is more likely to turn up late to work? laF it’s a bad habit Who sucks up to their boss? laf sucks up to george but that doesn’t count What are their jobs? laf works at a jewelry store, george is in politics Who stresses the most? george probably internalizes his stress but he’s definitely stressed Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? they both enjoy their jobs, george just finds his v stressful and laf gets bored like half the time and then spends too much of his own money on george and martha Are your muses financially stable? yep all is good even despite laf spending too much of his own money on george and martha

Home:

Who does the washing? laf Who takes out the trash? george Who does the ironing? martha Who does the cooking? martha and george together and laf just admires their skills Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying? that would be laf Who is messier? laf Who leaves the toilet roll empty? none of them omg they’d fight about that Who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? laf but then he gets that Look and he’s like ‘fine im sorry’ Who forgets to flush the toilet? none of them Who is the prankster around the house? laf?? but it’s very minimal and nothing harmful Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? laf because of his organization habits Who mows the lawn? they live in new york. no such thing as a “lawn” Who answers the telephone? martha or whoever’s closest tbh Who does the vacuuming? laf, he likes to listen to music at full blast when he does Who does the groceries? george and martha, sometimes all three of them together Who takes the longest to shower? laF GET THIS BOY’S ASS OUT OF THE SHOWER Who spends the most time in the bathroom? laf but it’s bc he gets mesmerized by something or another and suddenly he’s been there for a half an hour

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem? nope How many cars do they own? probably one, maybe none Do they own their home or do they rent? they rent most likely, maybe buy an apartment together sometime in the future Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? in the middle of manhattan so teCHNICALLy near the coast Do they live in the city or in the country? city Do they enjoy their surroundings? yes, all three of them love it What’s their song? they all listen to different types of music but laf’ll be damned if he doesn’t make them all sing to a thousand miles by vanessa carlton -- he really just likes hearing them sing anything, though What do they do when they’re away from each other? call and skype every night, they’re not good at separation Where did they first meet? the washingtons’ apartment How did they first meet? laf offered them cocoa bc it was cold Who spends the most money when out shopping? lAF NEEDS TO STOP SPENDING HIS OWN MONEY ON MARTHA AND GEORGE Who’s more likely to flash their assets? martha first, then laf, then george, but they all do it Who finds it amusing when the other trips over? martha omg Any mental issues? they’ve all got em Who’s terrified of bugs? none of them??? i dont think??? Who kills the spiders around the house? george typically Their favourite place? wherever each other are Who pays the bills? they all tip in Do they have any fears for their future? they all have fears, but they all like to keep it optimistic, too.  Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? george has done so on multiple occasions Who uses up all of the hot water? laf omg he must be stopped Who’s the tallest? george Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? laF Who wanders around in their underwear? laF Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? laf even though he can’t sing. sometimes he’ll shut up just to hear george and martha sing What do they tease each other about? it’s all playful teasing about clothes or appearances or their little quirks Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? probably george at laf but they both admire martha’s fashion sense so much Do they have mutual friends? yep (would you consider a.ham to be george’s friend??? if so yes) Who crushed first? laf holy shit he crushed before he’d even seen their face  Any alcohol or substance related problems? nope Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? laf pls protect this boy Who swears the most? laf it’s an issue srsly

[j-whirl44]

Uneventful Days

Me??? Writing more The Magnus Archives fic??? yeah.

This is chapter 1 of a series im gonna do i think bc the discord truly has me going through it all hours of the day so im gonna try and write little “missing scenes” throughout the series before every episode bc.........yeah

The series itself is called Statement of: Missing Scenes bc i’m that extra i think. 

Ao3 posting (x)

anyways enjoy

The air was cold and there was a mist coming from on top of the lake. Jon grumbled to himself as he wrapped his jacket tighter around himself. He heard a snicker from behind him before he felt a hand clasp onto his shoulder.

“Come on, boss! This’ll be fun!” Tim said as he pushed ahead. Sasha followed behind him. Martin was beside him, he reached out and held a cup towards Jon.

“There was a little bit of tea left if you want it,” he said. Jon looked down at the cup and gave a sigh as he took it.

“Thank you,” he mumbled none too kindly. Martin just gave him a small smile in return as he stumbled on ahead.

The four of them were out on a ‘weekend team bonding retreat’ as Elias described it. According to him, Elias noticed an “unseen tension” within the group and thought it’d be “effective if they spent more time together” so he sent them into the woods for the weekend in order for them to fix whatever.

Tim and Sasha were immediately up for it and Jon had stated his many objections to it. In the end he was outvoted and now they were here, walking down the hill towards the mouth of the lake where two kayaks waited for them.

“So,” Tim said in far-too-loud of a voice, “Sasha and I will take one so...Martin! You and Jon can have the other,” he finished. He had a look on his face that Jon couldn’t really make out as Sasha slapped his arm. Jon looked over at Martin who was looking at anything but Jon.

Finally they looked at each other, “I mean if that-that’s okay with you Jon, uh,” he said.

Jon sighed, “I don’t rather care, really, the faster we start this the faster we can get home.”

Martin laughed the same laugh he did whenever he seemed uncomfortable Jon had noticed, “Right, uh yeah, you take the front. I can steer from the back,” he said.

The four settled into their respective kayaks and began their trek.

“So where are we actually going exactly,” Jon shouted out.

“Oh don’t know. I guess we just kinda go,” Tim said.

Jon rolled his eyes. “Perfect so what are we supposed to do while we row out into nothing? Talk about our feelings,” he said.

“Oh sorry boss I’m a shut book, I don’t open that easily unless you buy me a few drinks first,” Tim said. At least Sasha swung her elbow back into his ribs. Tim yelped.

No one spoke for a while after that as they continued to move further and further away from land, towards the middle of the lake. Jon had to admit he didn’t mind the silence and the scenery around them was a sight to behold.

It was just beginning to be fall and the trees that lined the shore began to change their colors. The wind was blowing enough to sweep some of the leaves off their branches. Jon closed his eyes and took in the sounds of it. The bristling of leaves, the early morning birds, the sounds of the oars as they entered and exited the water. He didn’t realize he was falling backwards until Martin’s hands shot up along his back to steady him.

“Whoa, whoa you okay there, Jon?” he asked.

Jon opened his eyes and quickly readjusted himself, which almost capsized the kayak in the process. Tim and Sasha laughed next to them.

“I’m fine Martin I just uh, dozed off I suppose, uh sorry,” Jon said. He hoped the blush on his cheeks from embarrassment, and maybe a little of something else, wasn’t too obvious.

“It’s okay,” Martin said. Another beat of silence, “good thing you weren’t in the back then,” he added with that same nervous laugh. Jon nodded noncommittally.

“What are you making Martin do all the work while you take a nap then, sir boss,” Sasha said.

“No,” Jon snapped, “No I just didn’t sleep all that well last night and kind of, dozed off I guess,” he said.

“Well we could stop soon. I looked this place up and there’s actually a nice little place we can go eat our lunches-”

“We brought lunch?” Jon said.

“Uh yeah, it’s in your bag. You’re the one who packed it remember?” Sasha said. The tone in her voice didn’t go unnoticed by Jon, but he couldn’t quite place the feeling behind it.

Jon looked down at the bag at his feet and took in a breath, “of course, yes, I-uh, must’ve forgot,”  he said.

There was an uncomfortable silence between the four of them now. Tim and Sasha shared a look out of the corner of Jon’s eye. Martin cleared his throat, “Right well it’s just up ahead. It’s a bit of a walk but people say the path isn't too hard to navigate,” he said.

“Martin, when did you plan this,” Sasha asked with a smile Jon had never seen her give to him.

They pulled their kayaks into the sand and got out. Jon could see the blush on Martin’s cheeks, “Oh when Elias told us where we were going I didn’t recognize the name so I looked it up to find out if it had any secrets,” he said.

‘If only you were that thorough in your work’ Jon wanted to say, but he bit his tongue. He wasn’t entirely in the mood to be the asshole right now. For once since he started this job he actually felt comfortable around the three of them and he didn’t want to lose it.

“Well then lead the way, boy scout!” Tim said. The three made their way forward while Jon brought up the back. He listened as they talked amongst themselves about whatever current events going on that Jon didn’t really know about. He’s started to spend more and more time in his office either recording or writing down statements that he hasn’t been involved with much else. He didn’t expect this job to entail so much work, but the others seem to be handling it well enough.

Lost in his thoughts he nearly bumped into Tim as he now realized the three of them were looking at him expectantly.

“Your bag, mate,” Sasha said.

“Oh right. Here,” Jon rushed out as he swung his bag off his back and handed it to Sasha. He felt Martin watch him with worried eyes but he shook it off.

It took a few minutes to set up and there was a lot more pushing and shoving involved than probably necessary but the four of them were finally sat down on a blanket with food in hand.

Jon heard Sasha gasp and he looked up. “Oh this is beautiful,” she said, “I didn’t realize we climbed this high!”

Jon followed her gaze and even he couldn’t deny the beauty of the view laid out in front of them. They climbed up just enough to be able to see even further out and get a better glimpse of the trees changing. The water was just expanding into the horizon. The sun was at its peak and it’s warm rays beat down upon them and it seemed to be at the perfect temperature to stay warm but not drown in the heat.

“Whoa wait guys look. I...I think there’s an actual smile on Jon’s face. I mean, Sasha, Martin do you see that?” Tim said.

Jon turned his attention back to the group and rolled his eyes at the shit eating grin on Tim’s face. His smile stayed though.

“Yes well the view is quite remarkable, Sasha’s right. Uh, good work finding this place Martin,” he said.

Martin looked surprised at the direct complement. He nodded his head and smiled in acknowledgement.

“Well the view isn’t as good as just staring at me though is it?” Tim declared as he now stood and posed. The four of them started to laugh.

“No one wants to see that, Tim,” Sasha said. Tim looked at her with mock hurt.

He settled down again as they all ate their lunch in, for once, was a comfortable silence.

“So what’s on the agenda now?” Tim asked.

The three of them instinctively turned to Martin who was in the middle of pouring himself another cup of tea. He looked like a deer caught in headlights. Jon noticed how much his glasses made his eyes bigger.

“What? I-I don’t know,” he said.

“Oh come on I know you researched this place more than just this spot. You’ve got more places up your sleeve don’t you. It’s always the cute unassuming ones,” Tim said.

Sasha again slapped Tim in the arm at his brashness, “honestly Tim,” she muttered with only mild annoyance.

Martin cleared his throat, “Well there were a few places I saw,” he said.

“There it is! Hey! Maybe you should be the boss. What do you think, boss ?” Tim said, turning his attention to Jon. There was a look he was giving the two of them, almost like he was begging Jon to bring it up.

He was about to before Sasha loudly cleared her throat and stood up, “Right well TIm if you’re done torturing us we should get back to the kayaks. Personally I wouldn’t mind just rowing out there for a while,” she said. The three men just nodded and shrugged as they made the way down the hill.

Jon could get used to this, he thought. When there wasn’t whatever weird tension between all of them, they actually got on great. He started to think maybe it was the Archives itself causing the friction between them all. He can admit that the feeling of being watched so strong sometimes while he was in his office was distracting to focus on anything else.

Of course he didn’t talk to them about it, but maybe he should. Maybe they feel the same.

Now wasn’t the time though, as they got into the kayaks and started out on the water again. Things were good. They ended up getting into a splashing contest and Tim and Sasha capsized. Jon and Marin were laughing too hard to notice them approaching their own kayak and forcing them into the water as well.

They ended their weekend back at their small campsite, sat around a fire and continued to talk about nothing of significance.

Jon thought maybe he should thank Elias for suggesting to do this after all.

[weedeyedhoney]

a post about my crush. i need to let my feelings out somewhere.

i hung out with my crush two nights ago and not to sound like a 2010 taylor swift song, but it was a fairytale. but like, my kind of fairytale. i can’t even explain to you how relaxed i felt the whole time i was with him. when i like someone, just being around them makes me feel at ease. there’s no awkward silences, or uncomfortable body language. that’s how i usually determine who i want to be around, and who i’d rather stay away from. he doesn’t make me feel weird around him, and i don’t overthink. i’m literally..... just..... living in the moment. there. is. no. other. place. i’d. rather. be. i love that feeling. i love carrying alone with a clear mind and carefree attitude. i love not worrying about the next move, and enjoying what’s right in front of me. that’s how he makes me feel!!!!! two days later, and i still don’t want the night to end. i can’t wait until i see him again.

he’s so funny. his humor is cute. and dorky. and i kid you not, i was probably wearing this goofy ass smile the whole time. i remember being so nervous about meeting up with him. i mean, i went alone. i didn’t want him to think “wow this bitxh really has no friends.” i was worried that i’d get there and he’d already be gone. it was supposed to be a casual meet up, i mean WE’RE FRIENDS, but the virgo in me always has to overthink the worst case scenario. but i arrived at the bar, with the big upstairs room that looks over the horrendous view of dirty 6th. it’s funny how we lose our minds in such a dreadful place. it’s even funnier how that doesn’t bother me at all as long as he’s around. the bar wasn’t as crowded as a saturday night. the room was kinda empty, and the floor seemed like it stretched for miles. i walked starting at the ground, and glanced up every few seconds trying to spot him. in the midst of getting caught up in my own thoughts, i notice two feet planted right in front of me. i look up and see him...... my crush!!! it was like a movie. deadass. it was like we were the only two people in the room. he gives me a hug, and looks happy to see me. every negative thought in my mind vanishes. “hey there you are” he says. “we’re actually about to leave, but come on, you can hang with us.” bet. i’m up for it, i’m up for anything. we find his friend, his best friend, and we head out. we go to his bar across the street. his friend, who is a dj, finds interest in the dj playing that night and goes up to talk to him, leaving my crush and i alone. just like any other modern day romance, he buys me a beer and we stare at each other awkwardly (but like, cute awkward) and small talk until we get bored of the place and leave. the three of us continue to bar hop around. the whole time my crush was being the life of the party (cancer nodded). we people watched from the upstairs at this one club, and started throwing straws at people becuase we’re immature, but geez. i was laughing the whole time. everything felt lighthearted. he’s so..... cool.

then shit started to get rocky. we arrived at what would be the last bar of the night. as soon as we arrived, his friend decides to leave. i panic. this would mean my crush and i would be alone!!!!!!! fuck. his friend leaves and we sit there on this picnic table until i break the silence by saying “we should take a shot! your birthday shot!” he agrees, but also, a little distracted. “i think i’m going to talk to her.” i turn around and see this white girl sititng at the end of the table. “oh....” i start, “uhhh well okay” i stand there, a little awkward. i’m really sure what to do. i’m not about to get a shot for someone who is just going to leave me there alone. he turns around to smile at the girl, and she gives him this awkward smile back. i see her make eye contact to this guy in line buying drinks. ah ha! this girl’s already taken. do i tell my crush? well, i try, but he chooses to be a guy and not listen. hm. “i think i’m gonna go to the bathroom first.” i tell him. then i leave and let him realize on his own.

while in the bathroom, i begin to reevaluate this whole situation. 1. i know that i like him. 2. but he thinks we’re just here as friends. 3. jealously in an ugly look on me. 4. if what i think is true then that girl is out there with that other guy and he’s sititng alone by himself. i pull up my boss ass bitxh pants (even tho i was wearing a dress), and go back out there. listen. im a virgo. a mutuable sign. whatever fate decided for me, i was just going to have to deal with it. i walk back out and sure enough, he standing alone that THAT GIRL IS WITH THAT GUY!!! i let out a sigh. i knew it. i either had two options. 1. to walk back to him and act petty, distant, and uninterested bc what the fuck. or 2. pretend nothing happened and i wasn’t bothered, and be his friend. i chose the latter. i went up to the bar, made sure he didn’t see me, and asked the bartender to order me two of the sweetest shots. i knew my crush wasn’t a big fan of straight shots, which is why it would be a good idea to give him something sweet, that would drown out the taste. i got the shots, paid, and literally danced my way back to him. nelly’s “hot in here” was blasting on the speakers. he turned around to see me, and fuck, got this big smile on his face. “here you go!!! i got the two most sweetest shots!! they should be good.” i don’t know what came over me, but after that incident, i started being more talkative and open and less shy. it was a great idea on my part. earlier in the night he mentioned how he wanted to get high, so i asked him, “how long do you want to stay here?” and he responded, “i’m ready to leave when you are.” and i said “let’s go get high!!” and we ran off. from then on the vibe was different. i have it separated into two parts: before the white girl, and after the white girl. it was as if the beginning of the night was the opening act, not really sure how the night would go so we were both playing it safe. but after we left the last bar, everything felt more personal. we were actually having real conversations and joking like we hung out everyday. it reminded me of the first night we met. everything was so fast paced, but time was still going slow enough for us to wallow in every second. there was this rush!!! this burning energy that wasn’t going out anytime soon. there was literally not a dull moment. out energies bounced off each other, quick. and there was passion. i swear.

we arrived to his car that was parked at his best friend’s place. we got in his car and he quickly realized that the weed was left in his friends place. we waited for his friend to get home and went inside to get the highest of highs!!!!! “this is my friend _____’s place. as you can see..... i don’t bring just any random girl up here. consider yourself lucky ;)” asjsljsl!!!! i want to pull all my hair out. we sit down and this bitxh pulls out the weed and off we go. i notice that he has a cancer lighter..... ummmm my kink??? he points over to his friend’s dj set and his friend begins free styling while my crush and i start falling in love *ahem* i mean, talking in the background. i feel like this was one of the most crucial nights of the night. i’m kind of glad we weren’t alone because being around him and his friend, in a setting where he’s probably very comfortable, caused me to get to know a side of him i hadn’t seen before. he’s very talkative, very smart, and very opinionated, but not in a rude way (cancer nodded, again). i think what attracts me the most to him is that he seems pretty normal, like, real. he doesn’t try to be anybody that he’s not. what you see is really what you get and i like what i see. we started talking about school. he asked me what my major was, 4 months after knowing me. how hot is that?? my worst question ever is “what is your major?” i told him i didn’t know. instead of saying “well what do you like to do?” (which is my second worst question), or making me feel like a dumbfuck for not knowing, he said “hmm. well you’re really good at reading people. i can tell. and you also seem like you’re really good at talking to people too. maybe a therapist? i don’t know. i’m not telling you that that’s what you should be, but it’s always an option. i nod in agreement , and he continues, “but you’re smart, and i know you’ll figure it out.” what a perfect answer. what a perfect response. i proceed to ask him about his school life, and he gets a little stiff. kind of the way i do when people ask me. “uhhh well, i was supposed to graduate next semester, but i don’t think that’s going to happen. i have a lot of stuff going on, and i might have to be a part time student.” but that’s okay. you finished when you finish. i reassure him and then he reassures the both of us, and the next topic of the conversations appears.

i don’t know. i like him because he’s not put together, and i see a lot of that in myself. i love whenever i see my own reflection in somebody else because it’s easier to resonate and empathize and it always makes me feel more comfortable. it’s an indicator that i’m about to let my walls down, no control. we went to mcdonald’s after we got high as a kite. he drove. his friend sat in the back seat. i sat in the passenger. the windows were rolled down. i felt so chill, and i cannot reiterate how comfortable i felt the whole entire time. he started asking me questions about my best friend, noting that our friendship was “so cute.” he continues to make dumb jokes. ugh god, he’s so funny. he pays for everybody’s meal (ugh cancer nodded, once again) and then drops me off. by that time it was 4 am.

im not worried or stressed about this crush anymore. i think tuesday gave me a lot more confidence than before. i think my next move is to continue hanging out with him and being friendly. i don’t want to rush something that i really want.