#GOD i can’t wait to fucking graduate and be done w her and the ppl i work with bc i really can’t take it anymore i am so tired of her

[megantheestalliongf]

i am feeling so.....

[glubbity-moved]

omg glub what did u do to the sag girl

oh my GOD i could literally rant about her for hours so drama storytime under the cut!

when i joined art last year as a freshman, i was extremely self concious and compared myself to other people way too much. i was trying to start fresh and reinvent myself because i was tired of being cowardly.

i was in intro to art bc that’s the only art class lowerclassmen can take, so most ppl were just in intro bc they need to get an art credit to graduate. the class had a GIANT divide between the types of people in the class and there were only like. ten kids who actually liked art and took it seriously.

so, to not be looped in with everyone else and wanting to stand out, i sat with the most Talented Artistic Girls in the class. there were three girls: one senior who was a cancer (bitch), one virgo who was actually pretty nice, and the sag girl. we immediately became the Power Table that my teacher would always come to as an example to the class! i felt so powerful and felt like i had friends for the first time in a while.

in my class, my teacher assigned us a medium to work with and a project to complete by a certain deadline. the art girls always finished before everyone else and would tease when i wanted to take my time and make something i was proud of and called me untalented because i wasn’t finishing at the same time as them. it REALLY discouraged me from doing my best and my work quality started to slip slightly as a result

the main perpetrator of the bullying came from the sag girl. she literally thought she was the Standard of the class because my art teacher always praised her for finishing and her art skills. she would send really passive agressive comments my way and erase and “Fix” parts of my art that she thought weren’t good.

the other two girls either said nothing or joined in on the harassment, the cancer girl would always try to convince me to work faster or “harder” because she thought my art sucked and i wasn’t trying hard enough

they verbally abused me enough to where i went home almost everyday and stayed up until two in the morning trying DESPERATELY to improve in my art (you can see in my blog activity from last year where i really dropped off in quality) and stopped posting art here because i was suffering from severe self doubt and HATED my art. 

i was literally so dumb for listening to them, but i couldn’t leave their table unless i wanted to be grouped in with the ppl who just wanted the art credit again. 

so i started to put out ABSOLUTELY AWFUL PIECES where i wasn’t trying at because i wanted to be “Good and Fast” at producing art instead of learning.

while all this was going on, i always talked about astrology to the cancer senior since she was kinda into it. sag girl HATES astrology and thought it was made up and an “Excuse to hate people” WHICH IT’S NOT LOL

so the cancer girl and i got on the topic of sagittarius, and i said something like “yeah all the sags i’ve met have been real jerks to me i don’t like them that much” and SAG GIRL STARED AT ME LIKE I HAD JUST CALLED HER OUT OR SOMETHING WHICH I DIDN’T?? i didn’t even say her name lol

so she gets really quiet for the whole period, which i took note of and stored away in my brain for later. i had /FINALLY/ found something to get back at her with: she’s insecure and just bullies other people to feel superior. 

so. the fateful day comes along. febuary sixth. the cancer girl and sag girl are talking about something. the period had just started. i had one of my headphones in and was listening to their conversation. 

sag girl says something REALLY mean to cancer girl and i immediately take my headphones out. cancer girl looks really hurt so i stay quiet and they finish up their conversation. 

very quietly, i put my headphones back in and turn to the cancer girl. i said something like “y’know, i love cancers. i know i’m a gemini and all, but at least i’m not a sagittarius.” (SO LAME I KNOW BUT I HAD TO THINK OF SMTH FAST) and the CANCER GIRLS EYES WIDEN LIKE SHE ALREADY KNOWS WHAT’S GOING TO GO DOWN

this whole time, i’m looking down at my paper doodling while sag girl is like “laci i thought we said no more astrology.” and the exact convo went like this:

“i know. just stating my opinion.”“laci, you’re literally making me Very mad right now Shut Up” “i hate sags they’re so m  e  a  n”

THEN SHE FUCKING THROWS HER HANDS DOWN ON THE TABLE LIKE SHE’S RESTRAINING HERSELF FROM HITTING ME AND LAUNCHES HER PENCIL ACROSS THE ROOM

THE WHOLE CLASS IS DEAD SILENT AND I DON’T EVEN MAKE EYECONTACT WITH HER.... SHE GETS UP AND LEAVES WITHOUT TAKING ANY OF HER STUFF AND SITS OUTSIDE FOR THE WHOLE PERIOD BECAUSE SHE’S SO PISSED

the cancer girl and virgo are looking at me like i’m a fucking lunatic and i LITERALLY cannot believe what i just did like. i stood up for myself and Someone else for the first time EVER and i felt so WEIRD

my art teacher walks over and is like “you think she’s gonna be okay?” and we’re just like i think so????

the next day rolls by and i go into the class where sag girl is talking to virgo and cancer. when i walked in, she looked at me and immediately grabbed her stuff and walked out the door. I WAS LIKE LOL OKAY WE’RE GONNA PLAY THIS GAME THEN

AND AFTER THAT MOMENT I WAS JUST ANOTHER PERSON LIKE... i can understand if you want to talk about our differences, but just WALKING AWAY FROM YOUR PROBLEMS IS NOT SMTH I CAN GET BEHIND 

i sit down and cancer and virgo are like “when are you going to apologize?” AND I WAS LIKE WAIT WHAT??????? HUH???????? APOLOGIZE FOR WHAT I DEFENDED YOUR ASSES

and they got SUPER pissed at me because sag girl is their Art Queen or whatever and glared at me and LEFT TO SIT OUTSIDE W/ HER!!! i DEFENDED THEM AND THEY LICHERALLY BETRAYED ME LIKE OKAY LOL?????

so i sit there Alone for the whole period and everyone’s staring at me like i’m a jackass but i KNOW i’m not!!

the next day, my scorpio friend comes to the art room to help me out with a project and sag girl happens to be outside and my friend overhears her making up lies about me “”””HARRASSING”””” HER??? AND MY ANGEL SCORPIO FRIEND IS LIKE “HEY DO YOU GUYS KNOW WHERE LACI IS” and sag girl SHUTS UP IMMEDIATELY BC SHE KNOWS SHE’S BEEN CAUGHT 

SO MY SCORPIO FRIEND TELLS ME WHAT HAPPENED AND I’M LIKE OHHOHOOHO BITCH NOW I HAVE A WITNESS SHE’S DEAD!! and eventually my friend goes back to class and when she does, some kid comes in and is like “sag girl is crying outside”

AND I FELT BAD FOR A SECOND BUT THEN IT ALL CLICKED: SHE’S JUST CRYING BC SHE KNOWS SHE’S BEEN CAUGHT. SHE KNOWS I HAVE EVIDENCE AGAINST HER AND SHE’S PUTTING ON THE WATERWORKS

SO MY ART TEACHER TAKES ME OUTSIDE TO GO AND TALK IT OUT AND SAG GIRL IS SITTING ACROSS FROM ME LITERALLY MURDERING ME WITH HER EYES SHE’S SO PISSED

my art teacher was like “okay guys. let’s talk about this. sag girl, what do you have to say to laci?” and sag girl starts saying how i Hate her for “””no reason””” and starts cussing at me and bursts into tears again 

AND KEEP IN MIND I HAVEN’T SAID A THING YET I’VE JUST SAT THERE AND LISTENED TO HER TALK FOR TEN SECONDS

SO MY ART TEACHER IS LIKE “fuck okay uhhh go to the counselor since you can’t be mature” AND I SWEAR I ALMOST MARRIED MY ART TEACHER SHE’S SUCH AN ANGEL

my art teacher escorted sag to the counselor and took me aside and was like “you don’t have to go with her, i believe in you fully and you’re not in trouble”  AND I SWEARRR I HAVE NEVER FELT SO POWERFUL

from that day on, i vowed to always do my best on every single project i get in her class and not compare myself. my work drastically improved and my art was getting better! 

now, i wasn’t done with sag girl. the official word the counselor had given to her was a “hands-off” policy, which means she can’t interact with me and i can’t interact with her for the rest of the year.

so. because i hadn’t fully enacted my revenge yet, i decided to go for the psychological tactic and indirectly get back at her

i overheard her badmouthing her counselor bc she wouldn’t let her into the advanced math class bc she didn’t meet the requirements. she was saying some REALLY NASTY STUFF ABOUT MURDERING HER AND STUFF...... so i recorded it secretly (i still have the vid on sc) and sent it to her counselor lol 

she got placed in the standard math class and her counselor isn’t a fan of her anymore now!

i feel like she KNOWS i got her placed in a lower math class bc she looks so scared and mad everytime we make eyecontact so!

don’t mess w/ gemini girls we never forget and WILL get what we deserve. the end.

[taeg00kie]

85 question tag!

rules : answer these 85 questions about yourself + tag some (20) people

tagged by @indixfolk (ilysm)

tagging idk I don’t have friends hahahah

last

1. drink - tea (heheheh)

2. phone -  A8 2018

3. text message -  from my bf <3

4. song you listened to - get you by daniel caesar

5. time you cried -  this morning hahah

ever

6. dated someone - yup

7. kissed someone + regretted it - HELL YE

8. been cheated on - nonon

9. lost someone special - yeah;;

10. been depressed - haha all the time

11. gotten drunk + threw up - just gotten drunk

fav colours

12. black (some ppl say its not a color but aa)

13. white (also ∆)

14. any pastel color!!

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - i.. yes..?

16. fallen out of love - yeAH HAHAHAHAH

17. laughed until you cried - nope

18. found someone was talking about you - hell to the fuckin ye

19. met someone who changed you - yesssss!!!

20. found out who your friends are -  yea and my only friend is Laura i love her so much :c

21. kissed someone on your fb friends list - i? guess? so? yes..?

general

22. how many of your fb friends do you know irl - all of em

23. do you have any pets - i have 4 pets!! a little poodle n 3 cats!

24. do you want to change your name - nope but i wish it were different

25. what did you do for your last bday -  i just went to school

26. what time did you wake up today - 8am bishes and its a SUNDAY

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - crying  i was on my phone

28. what is something you can’t wait for - the day i graduate

29. what are you listening to rn - the wind coming throught the window hah

30. have you talked to a person called tom - nope

31. something that gets on my nerves - slow walkers UGH

32. most visited website - i think youtube

33. hair color - im blonde

34. hair long or short - mine? long;;

35. do you have a crush on someone atm - my bf??

36. what do you like about yourself - my.. piercings hjsjdsd

37. want any piercings - more?? FUCK YES

38. blood type - O+

39. nicknames - manu, ma

40. relationship status - in a relationship hahah

41. zodiac - gemini

42. pronouns - she/her

43. fav tv shows - skins,, friends..

44. tattoos - i want many of them

45. right or left hand - right heheh

46. ever had surgery done - yes and im abt to get more haha fuck

47. piercings - i have 7

48. sports - volleyball but i can swim as well its nice

49. vacation - at home crying

50. trainers - what

more general

51. eating - good food

52. drinking - tea

53. i’m about to watch - a physics video

54. waiting for - bath time

55. want - to cry

56. get married - not in a church??

57. career - psychiatrist

which is better?

58. hugs or kisses - depends, but i like hugs more

59. lips or eyes - eyes fo sure

60. shorter or taller - taller (not too much tho bc i once hooked up w this guy and he was sO TALL my neck was sore the day after)

61. older or younger - older/same age

62. nice arms or stomach - whatever

63. hookup or relationship - im,, dating u kno

64. hesitant or troublemaker - no

have you ever…

65. kissed a stranger - nope thank god

66. drank hard liquor - ye JDHFBSJHBFJAH

67. lost glasses - yes and i also broke them

68. turned someone down - idk?

69. sex on the first date - hahah

70. broken someone’s heart - yup

71. had your heart broken - not.. really

72. been arrested - no

73. cried when someone died - every time

74. fallen for a friend - yep

do you believe in…

75. yourself - not rlly hahah

76. miracles - no

77. love at first sight - no(?)

78. santa claus - i wish :(

79. kissing someone on the first date - yes!!

80. angels - nope;;;;

other

81. best friends name - Laura i love u sm

82. eye color - green/silver/blue

83. fav movie - idk aaaaaaa

84. fav actor - i dont have any fav actors

85. fav thing to do when bored - cry/look at the ceiling bc im too lazy to do anything ever

[uniformbravo]

“quick” life update while i wait for my ipod to charge

(do ppl even still use ipods in this day & age. whats spotify)

i never made any posts abt it but i started the new semester & im taking 2 classes, it’s funny actually bc i waited even more til the last minute than i usually do to figure out my classes & spent the 1st week of school trying to see a counselor to find out if i still needed classes and that’s a whole other story for a whole other day but long story short the answer was no but i decided to take a couple anyway

mainly because every time im not in school The Depression takes over & i just needed something to Do so im taking intermediate painting (even tho painting 1 made me want 2 die every day) and animation (even tho i’ve already decided i don’t want to be an animator????)

so heres the thing, okay, since these are classes i don’t need in order to fill any requirements or anything i had to pick them based on nothing, really, like my main reason for taking classes this semester was to give myself something to do, right. i picked painting because my friend had told me she was taking it so i was like yo i’ll just do that too bc we had fun last time & it’s a good way to stay in contact. originally that was gonna be my only class bc i knew it’d be a lot of work and time but then i talked to my school’s art counselor about transferring to another school after im graduated from here and i’d said i was maybe interested in storyboarding so we looked at schools with animation programs and i decided super last minute to just take the animation class here and Boy what a mistake

last semester i was talking on here about a computer art class i had considered taking but dropped bc it seemed kinda... shitty?? because i hated the way the teacher taught and i felt like i wasn’t gonna gain anything from the class??? well animation is taught by the same guy and hhhhhhhhh he’s so fucking unhelpful it’s such a nothing class

see i was hoping to learn some hand-drawn animation basics like timing, squash & stretch, the fucking bouncing ball assignment, shit like that, right. the teacher was like “today we’re gonna go over the 12 principles of animation” and i was like “sweet i’ve heard of that this’ll be good” & literally he brought up a list, read off most of the names, briefly described a few, and told us to google it if we wanted more info like?? holy shit dude????? thanks for nothing oh my god

i’ve been taking a lot of time practicing animating in flipnote studio on my 3ds and watching youtube videos and i’ve been learning so much more from that than anything explained by my teacher bc godddd. basically what the class boils down to is like. flash animation. so far we’ve been working in adobe illustrator and animate & i cannot stand illustrator. i know it’s a good and useful program and if i wanted to i could learn how to use it & eventually get used to it but just the way he teaches it makes me want 2 slam dunk my computer

the computer art basics class was strongly recommended to be taken before this class but tbh i don’t even think that’s the issue here because i tried to take that class and his method was the same; he does a demo on screen that you’re supposed to follow along and do with him and he explains what hes doing as he goes but he goes so fast that if u miss a step ur fucked 

and it’s not just that he goes fast, it’s also that theres no understanding of the program itself, like ok u know how in math there’s all these formulas where if u just plug numbers into them it gives u the right answer? i always understood formulas better when i knew what each variable stood for & why the values were being added or multiplied together because then it made it easier to extract the information i needed from word problems and also helped me memorize the formulas themselves easier because i could make those associations between numbers and purpose. i had the groundwork of the formula, so i could apply it to all kinds of situations

this class is like, he only gives you the very specific formulas required to accomplish very specific tasks in the programs so i can’t make the connections to figure out how to perform other tasks and i get super lost every time & it’s super frustrating & i could ask for help because he comes around and helps people who need it but i sit in the back corner so he never really even looks my way so i feel like i can’t get his attention w/o speaking up or getting up to go get him & i get lost so often that it’s really just a pain to ask him every single time

i just hate when i have a problem in one of the programs & i just have absolutely no clue how to fix it or even work around it? im used to photoshop and illustrator is just so opposite that my brain doesn’t want to work with it so im. 100% floundering in this class

we have 2 assignments during the whole semester, the first was a group project where we hand draw a 3-second animation (~30 frames) and that was literally the very first thing we did in the class with no prior guidance and honestly i suspect that the only reason he assigns it is to fill the requirement for a group project (which i know is a thing bc a lot of my past teachers have talked about it being a thing) so it was literally just. a nothing project

the second assignment is our final which is a 90-second animation (~1080 frames) and we have basically the rest of the semester to work on it, so about a month and a half-ish? and all we’ve learned how to do so far is motion tweening in animate, basically. i mean we did a ball-and-string thing which was kind of different but it mostly involved a lot of copy+paste bullshit in illustrator & also like automatic shortcuts & stuff, there was really no drawing involved at all

also it’s one of those classes where everyone just kind of messes around and does their own thing like?? i saw one girl reading manga on her computer & these two dudes at my table were comparing yugioh cards & i hear like 50 thousand conversations about anime every day & i mean im not one to talk tbh but it’s just the atmosphere, it feels like u either know what ur doing or u just fuck around w/ ur friends and im in the “neither of those” category and the girl who was reading manga is in the “both” category bc every other time i’ve looked over there she’s got this amazing masterpiece on her screen that she made in illustrator & i die inside every time what the fuckkc 

he showed us examples of final projects from last semester and i noticed that some of them were done traditionally or in programs that were obviously not illustrator so i asked him about it & he said it doesn’t have to be done in illustrator/animate as long as it’s 90 seconds long so Guess What i think i’m just gonna make it somewhere else lmaooo i mean i feel like it’s a missed opportunity bc i have these programs at my disposal & im not even using them but god amn. god fuckign damn

im thinking of animating it in flipnote bc that’s what i’ve been using & im pretty familiar with it by now but im not sure because there are some important things im not sure i’ll be able to accomplish with it like backgrounds (which are another requirement for the assignment) and i don’t want to back myself into a corner, especially with how little time i have to do it, so idk for sure. my other idea was to use clip studio paint but i have the pro version which only lets u use 24 frames per animation which totals out to a whopping 2 seconds so idk if i want to have to deal with that bullshit either. right now im considering making the rough animation in flipnote so i can figure out the timing & shit and then slapping it into clip studio to finalize everything (or technically i could even do that in photoshop, since im more familiar w/ it & can probably work faster there- from photoshop it’d be a matter of copying the finished frames into clip studio to export into 2-second clips & then compile those in movie maker & then bam finished animation)

so!!! it’s a lot of shit im dealing with in this class & im just like. if im doing it this way then why do i even need to show up for class. what am i even in this class for im just basically making an animation on my own time with my own resources using none of the techniques taught in the class. im only doing this animation because it’s an assignment for the class im not gaining anything from. it just seems so pointless & the only thing getting me through it is the thought that i could possibly put this in a portfolio somewhere down the line, and for that i’d want it to look nice and not rushed so im thinking that for the sake of finishing the assignment i might just use my rough animation so that i can spend more time on the “nice” version afterward

aaaanyway it’s um Late for me & i went on about this for too long but i needed to get it off my chest tbh, i’ve been thinking abt making this post for like 2 weeks so there u go. i didn’t even talk about my painting troubles good lord. if you’ve been wondering why i havent been online as much lately This is why. also bc im a huge loser and 100% of my free time has been going into watching anime bye

[kxlebcross]

multiples of three, please.

oh man i cant believe ur making me do maths at 4:18 am... but here goes nothing! (it’s gonna be long so i put it under a read more)

3. Ever done any drugs? uhhhh... yeah, for a short period yrs ago i had a friend group and with them we smoked weed pretty much every weekend... they did some hard drugs too but i never dared trying those cuz im a lil bitch lmao aaaaand i don’t do that anymore, it’s an expensive hobby to have and i usually waste my drugs money on pc games and ordering food srgsdfg

6. Describe your dream home. probs somewhere in a big city, close to the center because i love being a big city kid.... a mid-sized flat with lots of plants and those neat cat playgrounds mounted on the wall because i plan on having at least 4 cats in the future asdsd and i’d love to have a bigger balcony which i could transform into a little jungle and hand a hammock there and just chill and listen to the city’s noises at night when i can’t sleep

9. Do you watch porn? you may not believe but i actually don’t sdgsdfg the horny teen phase is over for me, if i wanna interact with anything pornographic i just read fanfiction dfgsdfgsf

12. What’s one of your fantasies? i hope it’s not supposed to be an erotic one lmao but i really wanna go on a road trip through europe, just pack up my shit and drive around, also i wanna visit haunted places all around england and get into the gaming business as a game translator/tester eventually

15. Are you in a relationship? thank god not anymore... and honestly i don’t miss it anymore, all of my previous ones were disasters and ended in a really ugly manner so.. no, i’m all good with my cat

18. What tattoos do you want? i don’t have specific plans for motives - though i’d really like a kitsune mask somewhere and a moon and one song quote. i’d like to have my whole left sleeve done, maybe part of my back, a half sleeve on my right hand and something smaller on my ankle - and i’m actually open to anything the tattooists would pick out; i care more about who’s gonna create my tattoo than what’s it gonna be, as my actually existing 2 tattoos r also premade, randomly picked out ones (though they accidentally matched up in some way and look pretty neat imo)

21. Describe your best friend. that’s a hard one.... i don’t think i have one anymore. i used to have this girl in my life, M, who i was really close to, but we had a fallout in october and she never came around to fix this even though i was open to the idea... so i lost my best friend, which is kinda sad considering that she was the only person i could open up to in the last 3 yrs. but hey that happens! i moved on and have a close friend still so im all good.

24. What are three places you want to travel? i really wanna visit scotland! it has this specific atmosphere i really long to experience, and i wanna see the landmarks and grassy fields and loch ness and haunted places and just roam around there for a while. i also wanna see moscow - it’s been sort of an obsession of mine since reading glukhovsky’s metro series, and also it’s a beautiful city worth visiting. i’d also like to get on the trans-siberian express but that’s not a specific place dsfsgdf the last place would be the aokigahara forest in japan - also one of the places i feel drawn to for ages now. found out about it years ago and since it’s been sort of a plan of mine to visit one time. if i manage to graduate university my mum promised to send me on a trip to japan - so if it works out, ill be on my way there baby! (i just need to work on my language skills first sasdfgf)

27. What’s your pet peeve? loud breathing, loud chewing... generally people being loud and annoying. ppl not covering their mouths while coughing. ppl who walk super slowly and take up all of the walkway like FUCK OFF OF MY WAY GODDAMMIT. in games when the npc walks a lot slower than ur running, but walking a lot faster than ur walking so its impossible to keep up with them. ppl not using headphones in public spaces. old ppl demanding respect when they treat u like shit. ppl forcing their religion on u (im looking at u auntie). ppl slurping their drinks. couples almost f*cking each other in public places... just get a room smh

30. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message. oh i don’t need to tag them cuz i already got over that shyness and they totes know already that i wanted to talk to them for a while! (i admitted to it in the tackiest, cheesiest, most awkward anon ask i ever sent in to anyone sdfgsdf)

33. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like? pretty much the same as now, all black and flannels and jeans, cuz i rly thing that major clothes shopping sprees r a waste of money sdfdf but i’d probably own a lot lot more shoes like custom made cat patterned vans and some more nikes and some creepers cuz i wanted to get some of those for like yrs now dfgdfg

36. Do you still have feelings for any of your exes? uhhhh... kind of? not romantic ones tho, i just miss the long talks and the trust and understanding between us. i never got the closure i needed to move on and it still left some bad feelings towards her so its a weird mix of resentment and sympathy, and i try to not think abt it too much.

39. Are you a virgin? hahahahahahahahah, no, really. 

42. Describe the hottest person you know. the hottest person i personally know is one of the ppl i used to be on my universitys e-sport team on with dfasd i always had a weak spot for ppl taller than me and hes literally model material with nice cheekbones and the perfect jawline and the best sense of humor ever. though he’s a widowmaker main in overwatch and thats a big big minus for him :(

45. What’s the worst date you’ve ever been on? lmaooooo thats a funny one listen up... so i was fresh out of breakup and wanted to make some friends.... wait for it.... ON TINDER. i live in an university town so i was like kewl imma make some ppl my age (until then all of my friends were A LOT older than me) and have some friends and if romance happens then it happens, w/e. so i set up this bar night with this one guy, i believe his name was David? so David and i meet up for drinks, i grab a gintonic and we sit down to talk... what he never knew abt me is that i am on the adhd spectrum and i have to get my hands busy with smth so i can focus on what im saying otherwise my thoughs r all over the place. so im casually keeping my hands busy with just spinning my locked phone there and back, or just  messing around with the lime slice on my glass and at a random moment David goes like “u know.... i hate when ppl cant stop messing around with their phone” and im like ????? dude im literally just spinning it, not even messaging anyone or unlocking it or shit. and he goes on this rant that he always expects ppl to pay full attention to him when talking, looking at him (i never look ppl in the eyes cuz i tend to just go into panic mode from long eye contact and also i think its creepy to just stare at someone constantly) and just not doing anything else except paying attention to him so i go on explaining to him that i need to keep myself busy and im not doing it to annoy him - but he keeps on insisting so i excuse myself to a cigarette (he also hated smokers lmao) and call the widowmaker main friend from the previous question and am like “hey man i have the worst date of my life can u be at this place in 40 minutes and then we hit the night life” and hes like fine so i go back to David and tell him “sorry mate i just remembered i have my last bus home in 30 minutes and the next one is in 1,5 hrs and i really cant stay out that late so can we wrap this up and schedule an other meeting some other time” and hes like fine... got me to the bus stop, i sat on the bus.... got off at the next bus stop, met up with widowmaker main guy and went out for drinks and decided to never go on tinder dates again sdfgsdfg

48. Describe your ideal partner. thats a hard one, hey! but i dont think i have an ideal, guess ill work with anyone whos a decent human being who wont require me to be the housemaid and cook and clean and do everything for them. oh and they totally need to know how to use a washing machine... one of my exes was incapable of this (and here i was thinking that in 2018 ppl saw a washing machine already... looks like i was wrong and im still not over that incident 2 yrs ago). oh and they gotta be fine with the idea of never having kids cuz theres no way im putting myself through raising one of those, im a man of career and money, totally not responsible enough to raise another living human being sdsdgdf

[regulusarcblack]

Hi I'd like to say/ask a couple of quick tings. 1) Love your friendship with @twoghostsaccustic, did you really meet like that? Did you really have the idea for the HP au cause I 💙 it? Do you write other ships/ fandom's? what WIP did you post I can't find them on your blog and finally you have 15 fics going HOW THE FUCK does your ppl keep up,@twoghostsaccustic writes herself and your beta's mega busy with lots of writers where do they find time to check all dos fics? Keep being cool dear 💞

omfg HHAHAHAHAHAHAH HELLO THERE BEAUTIFUL

ok first things first: thank you for your lovely ask!!!!! :D gotta love those. anyway, no, right now i’m not writing other ships or fandoms but i have a shitton of fandoms so who knows haha. why? do you have one in mind? hmu if u do. dude i ask myself that as well haha but i have this list of fics i wanna write and i dunno man. i dunno. i guess steph and sammie @britpickerhl just really love me?? hahaha or maybe i force them you’ll never know

anyway here are my wips (they’re really wips i totally abandoned them lmao):

the p&p au that never was

steph’s gift (from last year)

damn i’m good with names (not)

and since u asked..... here we go......

HISTORY TIME: how did me and @twoghostsacoustic meet??? sit down people cuz we gonna go down memory lane

w e l l in case yall havent realized yet (i doubt it lmao) me and steph are polar opposite. like, she times the day and time she will do smth, i made 3 of my last exams in grad school with borrowed pens because i had forgotten mine. there was one day she was the only student in class, i literally failed 15 classes because of absence. she works hard, plays (QUESTIONABLE MUSIC) hard and is kind. i’m a lazy and mean bitch (WITH AWESOME MUSIC TASTE).

basically, this is a story about slytherin meets hufflepuff.

S O back in 2011 we both made the TERRIBLE mistake of chosing international relations to be our grad course and in 2012 we both passed for the same uni. yayy!! congrats past us for being nerds. so comes freshmen week and lo and behold!!!!! there she is, my girl steph, with her lovely curls and a purple shirt (I STILL REMEMBER OK) among other people i got to meet that first week.

remember the “i’m a bitch” part? yeah, she was the only one i kept talking to. everyone else i just forgot they existed.

anyway.

so past this first week, there we are, classes from monday to friday, about 30 people in our classes. mind you that first semester i went to almost (almost) every class so we saw each other all the time, talked and all, but we weren’t as close as we are today. i would talk to her and also everyone else because, you see, my girl was the quiet type in class, very serious, work hard type. i barely had a notebook, so i had to do our group projects with my kind of people - the procrastinators.

((can you imagine steph doing a school project 4am the day we had to present it? no you can’t because she’s not this type. literally the only group work i didn’t do 4am the day it was due was the one i made with her LMAO))

so how did we get here?

drarry, my dude. it was all because of drarry.

you see, we were in between classes with a group of friends and we were talking about harry potter (all the friends i have are because of hp god bless u scarhead) and one of the people in this group was a high school friend of mine and she already knew i was a slasher so i just said “guys harry should have ended up with draco, end of discussion”

now, it may have been night time, but i swear the angels sang and there was a halo of light illuminating our table when i heard this voice say:

“yes, of course. always.”

ah no wait, wrong curly person.

anyway. she agreed. we looked at each other like BANG! HOLY FUCK I WAS RIGHT THAT EMO SHIT IS A FANGIRL.

and fangirl we were. basically we talked non stop about how drarry and sirem (wolfstar) were the main couples of hp and how everyone else was wrong. so the gateway was opened.

we exchanged tumblr urls, that’s how headfirst we dived after that day.

since then, we shared fandoms, all of then. tom hiddleston thirst? we got that. 1d? mate, we dragged each other to this hellhole. mcu? we watched loads of movies together, same with star wats, b99, whatever. 

we’re there. we reached that point.

besides all this fandom drama we also got involved with each others personal drama so mix those up and BOOM. friendship for LYF. 

she was there when i got bit by an ant and fell down on the pool like a victorian lady. it was awful and i wish i could forget that but @thiccstan doesn’t let me forget it.

anyway. i even bought her a hufflepuff pin and her 1d mug and she bought me my slytherin cup. we’re tight, my man. so tight. as tight as my-

and then i love to tell her about my headcanons. MY GOD have i told her about pwp plotbunnies, i swear if i havent made steph at least 13% kinkier i have failed my mission in life. so anyway one of those days i was talking to her (either at her house, at whatsapp, or tumblr, or facebook, or on one of our 3 shared gc, or ig) and i said “dude i have this hpau listen me out” and so it began. it’s been a year already lmao so yayyy happy bday m&w!!!!

so yeah. we’ve been friends since 2012. seen all, done all. so just to point some of the shit we’ve done together:

1 - written a 200k+ fanfic

2 - graduated together, from the literal first week of college to the literal last week

3 - ate poutine (THIS IS IMPORTANT)

4 - went to the movies SO MANY TIMES 

5 - dealt with each other’s depression cuz listen my dude it ain’t a homie if she ain’t telling u about those bad days

6 - i threw up at her house once lmao fucked up gallbladder am i right my dudes

7 - i literally dreamt about both of us getting matching tattoos lmao (also we woke up together to listen to sott no judgements BUT IT WAS 4AM OK WHO ELSE WAS GONNA BE THERE BUT US FOR US)

so yeah. she a cool one.

[ryuuzu-gamako-satsunon]

ok here's some UzuRyu headcanon

I jumped onto this train bc I saw some art of ryuko and sanageyama as childhood friends and I really liked it so i’m just diving headfirst into this entire ship (pray for my multishipping ass)

and also I’m cutting for length bc good fuck am I long-winded

anyway

it takes a long goddamn time (relatively) for ryuko and uzu to get to a Relationship Situation

mostly bc they’re both idiots that don’t have the best grasp on their emotions

like, it starts out after the Final Battle. ryuko and mako start hanging out with satsuki and the four devas and at the beginning it’s super weird for everyone involved but they all become friends eventually,

and ryuko and uzu kinda start off from their last battle. even w/o the goku uniforms/senketsu ryuko just hands uzu’s ass to him. but they don’t really hate each other anymore so he’s like “yeah wow ok you’re way stronger than me, I admit it, lets let this go and go get like ice cream or something” & ryuko’s just like “yeah aight that sounds fun kinda” and they hit it off as friends.

so like, everyone’s all weird and still kinda tense in this group. satsuki’s Calmed Down a bit but it’s still weird to go from “enemies”->allies in The Battle->friends. except ryuko and uzu, who are now Buddies.

and they stay buddies. for like, years. everyone graduates and ryuko and mako and satsuki and the devas all become Actual Proper Friends (and satsuki and nonon start dating) and all that instead of Lady Satsuki And Her Sister(and sister’s bff) And Her Bodyguards. and there are ryuko and uzu, hitting up convenience stores at 4 in the morning to go get slushies, aggressively playing pokémon at each other, climbing into abandoned shit to hang out and go “man was that big battle fuckin weird or what”, shit like that. it’s a Chill™ buddyship and it surprises a few ppl (at some point ryuko and mako try dating. uzu is cheering them on the entire time even tho eventually they decide that dating was kind of a weird change and while they still care abt each other, they’d really just prefer to be bffs)

and By Now, the other devas have started pestering uzu about always hanging out with ryuko. (mostly its nonon) like “hey i’m gonna go to a park w ryuko n mako” “oOOOooOOooooOoHhhhHHHhhHhhHHh AAaRrrE yOu NoW”

and uzu’s just like “whatever, i’m gonna go get food with my buddy” and just does not even notice what they’re insinuating for the longest time(much to nonon’s Increasing Frustration)(nonon ships it)

but Eventually he kind of starts Feeling Feels, but he doesn’t really know what Feels they are

until one day they’re like, hanging out at a park w mako and fam, and they’re leaning against each other doing the Buddy Thing, and ryuko fell asleep bc she and mako and satsuki and nonon were up all night playing tekken for Girls Night or w/e (nonon spent most of the night like “so 👀👀 ryuko-chan 👀👀👀 do you like 👀👀 /like/ 👀 sanageyamaanyone??”)

and uzu realizes that if neither of them ever moved from that exact spot he would actually be pretty happy. and THEN realizes “Oh Shit I think I have a Thing for ryuko, What Do I Do” and spends the rest of the day as a flustered mess

and THAT NIGHT once they go their separate ways he kicks in the door to where the rest of the devas are chilling(someone’s house? idk) and he’s like, bright red and just shouts “I THINK I LIKE RYUKO HELP ME WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO” and there’s like, this moment of stunned silence, before they all start laughing. uzu’s like “DONT MOCK ME THIS IS A CRISIS” and they’re all just, howling. eventually they calm down but it is Brutal. like “dude it took you long enough it’s been Four Fuckin Years, ur 22, what the fuck” “awwwwwwww the northern kanto monkey is finally having his big-boy feelings” “DAMMIT I lost the bet, couldn’t you wait like six months to realize what emotions are,” type of shit. but once they calm down they are All On Board for this

but nobody knows if ryuko feels the same way, right? so the devas are like “you keep being buddies w her, we’ll try to figure out if she feels the same”

so they keep being buddies. except now uzu’s a flustered, awkward mess. its ridiculous and Very Obvious. and ryuko just does not notice The Obvious. she notices he’s acting weird but it doesn’t Click. a month or two passes and she Does Not Notice.

the devas are, at this point, Very Frustrated.

and one day. one day. some fanfic shit happens. like maybe uzu tripped over something while being A Mess and is generally being, well, A Mess, and ryuko’s like “hmmmmmm” and then like “oh no. Oh No I Think I Like Him”

and once they go their separate ways ryuko goes to satsuki (because satsuki is not only her sister but In A Relationship, she must know what feelings are, right?) and while bright red, kicks in the door and says “SIS HELP WHAT DO I DO I THINK I LIKE UZU”

satsuki is (not)stunned (she was there when uzu went to the devas for help) but basically says “well I mean. does he like you back? if he does, maybe go for it? just like. tell him how you feel” and ryuko’s like “NOOO I CAN’T DO THAT. THATS NO. WE’RE BUDDIES WHAT IF IT MESSES UP THINGS” and satsuki’s just like Oh My God Just Do It Already (which she does not say out loud) ryuko eventually leaves to go talk to mako about it and have Crisis Time bc Emotion

and satsuki IMMEDIATELY goes to the devas (sans sanageyama) like “GUESS WHAT I JUST FOUND OUT YALL it is GO TIME!”

so now those guys are Waiting For Someone To Make A Move. Trying To Drop Hints. all that sort of thing

and like two weeks later, nothing’s happened, and they’re sick of waiting. ryuko and uzu have still been hanging out This Entire Time. they’re both very flustered and again, Very Obvious. and Neither One Of Them Notices. Enough Is Goddamn Enough, the devas decide. Something Must Be Done

so uzu and ryuko are hanging out alone, mako had to go do something. satsuki and nonon and houka crash the party. houka says something along the lines of “wow sanageyama look at you out and about w your crush, u go dude.” uzu turns bright red again and there’s this Painfully Long Moment before ryuko puts 2 and 2 together. and she jumps up and just shouts “WHAT” uzu’s just “AAH WHAT, WHAT” “YOU LIKE ME? I LIKE YOU!” “WHAT? YOU LIKE ME? I LIKE YOU!” “AAAAAAAAAAAA-” “AAAAAAAAAAAA-” and houka just fuckin, leaves. “my work here is done, bye”

nonon and satsuki are still there like “this has been painful to watch for like 3 months will you two just date already”

in their excitement, uzu hugs ryuko, they kiss, and they Finally Start Dating. Finally.

anyway that’s my uzuryu headcanon

[pkmnnovareset]

Might I be able to request some ferriswheelshipping headcanons? Like when and how they started dating and stuff?

of course friend~!

Alright so after the whole bit with Ghetis and the, idk end of the world or Unova or w/e happened and N cut all ties with his “father”, he seeks Hilda out and was like “hey, remember me? ah, of course you’d remember me. i tried to do a lot of shitty things and you stopped me from making a huge mistake. but uh hi”

and Hilda’s just like

“uh, hi?”

because at this time she’s probably already finished with whatever she was doin’ idk I haven’t thought too much on what she was doing after Ghetis and before marryin’ N boy here.

so N’s just super awks and shy and is liek “well fuck idk what to do”

but Hilda catches on and is like, ya know what? he ain’t half bad. now that things’ve calmed down and there’s no imminent threat, Hilda’s p attracted to N. So Hilda’s just like

“hey uh, so things have calmed down and you’re not here to try and take my Pokemon and end the entire world, so do you wanna go grab some Casteliacones?”

and N’s juST FLUSTERED LIKE OH FUCK WHAT’S HAPPENING???? SHE ASKED HIM OUT ON A DATE??? WAIT WHAT’S A DATE? oh this poor sheltered lil bby doesn’t know what romance and dating and all that stuff is. Hilda’s got her work cut out for her.

so Hilda’s teaching N all about what ppl do when they’re dating and stuff. And N’s just like, actually writing down notes. oh this sweet pure boy.

and they date for quite some time too! Hilda’s bro was really surprised that his twin sister and their former enemy/rival lasted so long. But he did give N the whole “protective brother speech”, but mostly as a joke. Except he didn’t realize N would take it so seriously and was quite literally shitting himself (there were a lot of awkwardness happening and Hilda scolded Hilbert for scaring her boyfriend like that).

N tries to be the perfect boyfriend, but keeps stumbling b/c he doesn’t really know anything about being a boyfriend? like again, he’s a sheltered lil bby, so he doesn’t know the right social cues and mannerisms when it comes to dating. But thank god Hilda’s there and honestly? She doesn’t care about the whole facade of being the “perfect boyfriend”. As long as he’s there with her by her side and being himself, that’s all that matters. She doesn’t want him to be someone he’s not in order to make her feel happy.

They also have a LOT of great communication with each other. Hilbert was definitely one of those that assumed N wouldn’t try to convey his feelings to Hilda, but he was surprised yet again at how wrong he was. N and Hilda has the most healthy relationship he has ever seen??? like, N and Hilda talks a lot???? N would ask questions, he would voice his concern??? Hilda would reassure him that he’s okay??? And like

they just talk and communicate a lot and it’s so beautiful.

once N’s gotten a hang of dating and understanding the whole boyfriend/girlfriend deal, he’s become so much happier being able to stand by Hilda’s side. He’s learned a lot about life itself from her (and Hilbert too) and the meaning behind the world as a whole. Being with her really opened his eyes to so many things that he has never experienced before growing up. Sometimes he’s ashamed for being so sheltered and naive about everything. But Hilda reassures him that it’s okay and that he can’t help what happened in the past.

it wasn’t until Ghetis came back to fuck shit up did N start to seclude himself. Of course, Rosa and Hugo (Hilda and Hilbert’s cousins) dealt with Ghetis. But N still felt guilty and responsible that Ghetis was still running amuck trying to start shit up again after years of silence from him and Team Plasma.

at this time, Hilda and N have been together for approximately 5 years (idk don’t quote me on that ok). idk they’ve just been together for a real long time now kay. so anyways, Hilda and N are just, so much closer to each other. They may have been together for a long time, but they learn something new about one another each and every day and it’s just beautiful and magical. N loves Hilda with all of his heart, and so does his Pokemon! His Pokemon are so happy that N is happy wtih Hilda. Hilda brings out the best in N and are so grateful to her for what she has done for N. Hilda’s Pokemon also loves N and believes that the two of them can grow and become stronger with each other. They’ve already gotten through troubling obstacles and pot holes that comes their way. 

that isn’t to say that they don’t have arguments! Sometimes they’re about the small stuff, like Hilda wanting to become a Pokemon Ranger and N being against her having to go study elsewhere. He’s insecure about himself still that he doesn’t know if he can handle long distance relationships. He wants her to stay here with him in Unova. But Hilda really wants to be a Pokemon Ranger and feels that it’s her calling. She wants to do it. They do end up reconciling and figuring out what to do exactly to overcome this obstacle. but they still have to have a long distance relationship thing - just until Hilda graduates from Pokemon Ranger school.

during her study abroad, they would video chat a lot, and N would sometimes visit her over there to spend time with her. And sometimes during vacation, she’d go back home to Unova to spend it with him. Except for N, it just wasn’t enough. He misses her a lot and in one instantaneous last minute decision, he decided to move to where she was - just until she graduates. Hilda was VERY surprised about him showing up with his suitcase being like

“hey i’m moving here so I can be closer with you” and he’s living in some small house he bought. He also got a job at a Pokemon Shelter and a Pokemon Daycare and absolutely fell in love with the job. He felt so close to the Pokemon in both the Shelter and Daycare, and his co-workers were absolutely kind! Hilda would visit him at work when her classes and training ends and can really see how bright N shines when he’s doing his job. It’s like she fell in love with him all over again.

fast forward to Hilda’s graduation, her fam is here with her - and N as well - to celebrate her finally becoming a certified Pokemon Ranger. N is absolutely happy and ecstatic that his girlfriend of {insert number here} years is finally a Pokemon Ranger!

they move back to Unova and Hilda proposes to N.

N IS SHOOK

and he says yes before fainting from excitement lol.

so they’re p much engaged and they buy a nice house somewhere in Unova (i haven’t figure it out yet shhhh) and Hilda suggests N open up his own Pokemon Shelter or Daycare because she’s seen him work back in whereever-the-fuck-she-was-when-she-was-learning-to-be-a-Pokemon-Ranger and she tells him how bright and lively and happy he was working there. N doesn’t disapprove of the idea and decides to do just that. So their house ends up being converted to a Daycare and Shelter. Thank god they have a huge ass backyard and stuff amirite folks? They also had to do some construction stuff, so now they have an upstairs as well as a ground floor (which is behind their “store” front of sorts).

the Shelter and Daycare is opened and it’s been so successful! N would find abandoned Pokemon and would rescue them and bring them back to nurture them. He’s even hired a few employees who are dedicated to the cause to help out around the store. It’s also great to have extra pairs of hands to help handle all the Pokemon that comes through. And about a year or two after the opening, Hilda and N get married and everyone’s invited.

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this ended up longer than expected ha ha!

I also ended up writing from how they got together to them sealing the deal LOL

I hope you enjoyed this headcanon, anon~!