Warmth
Warmth
Word Count:24,020
Rating: T (for language)
Summary: Jensen hates parties. Fortunately for him, Sneaky swoops in to save the day. As usual. Instead of being left alone to mope in the corner of the party, Sneaky drags Jensen to brand new café down the street, all the while Jensen tries his hardest to deal with his feelings.
Based off of a prompt.
Additional Tags: friends to lovers, mutual pining, MILD angst, first kisses, fluff so much fluff, this is pretty much just a get together fic ahah
A/N: ok holy shit i’ve been sitting on this monster of a fic for so long now. i started writing this around worlds and i’ve only just gotten around to finishing it haha…since i started writing it around worlds, some of the info about the team may be a bit dated, such as the roster and how the former cloud 9 challenger team is now flyquest. this fic must’ve gone through like 20 different iterations. anyways, i hope the wait was worth is haha…
The party was loud, unreasonably so. The bass from the speakers was loud enough to shake the walls, and for whatever reason, Jensen couldn’t find himself dancing along to the beat. The vocals were grating, and the melody was…off, somehow. The Cloud 9 house was filled to the brim with people he barely knew, or at least, people he never bothered to try to get to know. The team wanted to throw an “end of season” celebration party, and Jensen regretted not leaving when he still had the chance.
Jensen hated crowds, and he hated being in the middle of them even more. Three-quarters of the people there were absolutely hammered, and Jensen couldn’t help but feel a little miserable. His head was aching, and the sheer number of people around him was almost suffocating. The air conditioning was cranked up to high to help the drunken party goers cool off, and Jensen was freezing because of it.
The cold managed to make his already shit mood even worse. He hated the way the coldness would seep into his body, and make his fingers go numb. Jensen hated how he always felt cold, regardless of the temperature around him. Despite being born and raised in the frigid weather of Denmark, he never got used to it. There were very few things that were able to bring warmth to the ever present chill in his body: a blazing fire place, and the presence of a certain blond haired individual.
That’s not to say that he’d been miserable the entire party, no. He tried to socialize, but everyone was more interested in getting into his pants than they were in having a conversation with him. Often times they would be so close he could taste the alcohol on their breath, and their hands would frequently stray dangerously close to his ass. He gently pushed the hands away in an attempt to keep things friendly, but the constant invasion of personal space had started to irritate him. Fed up with the harassment, Jensen ended up pushing his way out of the centre of the party, and sought out somewhere he get some goddamn space.
“Jensen!” a familiar voice called out to him amidst the crowd. Jensen watched as people were pushed out of the way, only for a drunken Hai to come stumbling out.
Hai slung his arm around Jensen’s shoulder, and pulled him close. Jensen could see a slight sheen of sweat on his face, and judging by the warmth of his body, he’d been dancing quite a bit. “Jesus Christ dude, you’re like a fucking popsicle. Ever consider wearing a sweater? Might help.”
“I would, if I could even get into my room.” Jensen frowned, and peered over Hai’s shoulder. The number of people in the house seemed to double since the last time he checked. “I can’t even see the door to my room from here, there’s so many people.”
“Anyways, I haven’t seen you since this party started. Where’ve you been?” Hai asked, peering at Jensen with an eyebrow raised. Jensen shifted uncomfortably, but returned Hai’s smile nonetheless. Normally he would’ve been okay with the gesture, but today hadn’t been a good day for him.
“Oh, you know.” Jensen shrugged Hai’s arm off of his shoulder. Jensen stood a respectable distance away from Hai, and felt relief sweep through his body. He’d had enough of people invading his personal space for the night. “Here and there.”
“What’s wrong, man?” Hai frowned, but gave Jensen the space he was looking for. “You need to loosen up a little.”
“You can have the rest of my drink if you want,” Hai smiled slyly, and waved his half-empty beer bottle in front of Jensen’s face. “I promise I won’t tell Jack.”
“Thanks, but no thanks. I already have this shitty apple juice.” Jensen shook his head, and politely declined. Jensen didn’t doubt that a little alcohol in his system would help his crankiness, but he wasn’t in the mood to drink either way. Jensen frowned, he was being awful company, wasn’t he?
“You’re no fun.” Hai shrugged, and took a swig of his drink. A trickle of beer slipped from his lips, and Hai carelessly wiped it away with the back of his hand. “Oh well, more for me then.”
“Try not to be miserable for the rest of the night, alright? Maybe you could catch a breather outside or something, take a little break.” Hai placed a reassuring hand on Jensen’s shoulder. Despite Hai’s drunken state, he always remembered to looked out for the team.
Jensen nodded, and chuckled quietly at Hai’s almost motherly advice. “Yeah, I’ll try. Thanks, mom.”
“Go fuck yourself.” Hai flipped Jensen off, but his playful grin got rid of any hostility in his words. Hai turned around to leave, then stopped short and spun back around.
“Oh, right. Your other half, Sneaky, was looking for you.” Hai furrowed his brows, and glanced at the watch on his wrist. He made a face of surprise, then looked back up at Jensen. “That was 10 minutes ago. I’m surprised he still hasn’t found you yet.”
“My other…what?” Jensen raised an eyebrow questioningly. Even though Hai was drunk, he was never one to say things unless he meant it. Hai was the kind of person who always put thought into everything he said, and Jensen could only wonder what he meant. Jensen shook his head, and refocused on the topic at hand. “Forget it. Why’s he looking for me?”
“He wouldn’t tell me—probably just wanted to see you.” Hai shrugged, and faced the centre of the party. Hai stretched his arms over his head, ready to dive straight back into the heart of the crowd. “Expect him to show up eventually, though. Or you could find him before he finds you.”
“Come to think of it, he’s always asking people where you are. ‘Where’s Jensen?’ or 'Where’d Jensen go?’ It’s kinda endearing.” Hai shot Jensen a look over his shoulder, and held the mid laner’s gaze. There was a curious look on Hai’s face, one that Jensen couldn’t quite decipher. “You do it pretty often too. Seems like nothing can keep you guys apart for too long. You’re always looking for excuses to spend time with each other.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Jensen shook his head, and broke eye contact with Hai. The former team captain was often times too perceptive for his own good.
“Of course you don’t. But we both know how happy he makes you.” Hai’s gaze lingered for a second, before he shook his head. He had a knowing smile on his face, and Jensen wished he knew what it was that Hai was smiling about. “Never mind, I’m just thinking out loud. See ya bro.”
With a small wave, Hai disappeared into the sea of people. Jensen pondered over Hai’s words, curious to find out why Sneaky was still thinking of him even in the middle of a party. Jensen was fairly certain that Sneaky had invited a few friends over—friends he should’ve been spending time with. Jensen frowned. Hai was right, a few hours into the party Jensen couldn’t stop himself from wondering where Sneaky was. The question seemed to pop into his mind whenever he felt lost for one reason or another. Sneaky usually always knew what to do, especially when he didn’t.
Jensen stood between the two crowds of people awkwardly before realizing that they were starting to stare. Jensen fled to the far back corner of the party, away from everyone’s wandering hands and eyes. Jensen found a spot to sit along the windowsill, and quickly settled down. Jack blocked off the stairway, preventing anyone from going upstairs, including himself. The isolated corner was as close to peace and quiet as he could get.
Jensen cradled a glass of apple juice in his hands. Jack handed it to him at the beginning of the party with a pat on the back and pushed him towards the sea of faces. He sipped at his drink idly as he watched the group in front of him down yet another round of shots. Jensen shook his head, and set his own drink down. He didn’t even like apple juice. Jensen pulled out his phone, and grumbled when he saw the time. It was only 7PM, meaning the party was bound to go on for a
few more hours. With a heavy sigh, he opened Reddit, hoping to pass some time. He wasn’t alone for long, however. Five minutes later, his solitude was interrupted by yet another voice.
“Holy fuck, it's impossible to find anyone in here.”
When Jensen tore his eyes away from his phone, he was greeted with the sight of Sneaky’s bright smile. For reasons beyond his understanding (he knew exactly why, but figured lying to himself was easier), Jensen found himself tripping over his thoughts. He was usually more prepared to face Sneaky, but apparently he was a little…out of it tonight.
Several seconds passed before Jensen was able to find his words. Jensen blinked mutely, and clumsily pieced together a response. “Well, you found me, so I wouldn’t call it impossible.”
“Fine, it was really, really hard to. Satisfied yet, you dick?” Sneaky corrected himself with a roll of his eyes. Despite his attitude, Jensen could see the relief in Sneaky’s eyes. Sneaky was happy to see him, and Jensen could only wonder why. “No wonder I couldn’t find you. You’ve been hiding here this entire time, haven’t you?”
“Not for long. I actually tried to socialize earlier.” Jensen gave Sneaky a pointed look when he started to snicker. Jensen found himself mirroring Sneaky’s smile, already in a better mood since he settled in his corner. “Crazy, I know.”
“Why’d you come looking for me anyways?” Jensen asked curiously, leaning forward to rest his chin in his palms. “I thought you were hanging out with your friends.”
“You’re my friend too, idiot.” Sneaky pointed out. Sneaky pursed his lips, and quietly searched for an answer to Jensen’s question. He didn’t really know why he wanted to see Jensen, but knew he couldn’t leave the mid laner hanging. “I guess I just wanted to see you. Haven’t had a chance to talk to you since the party started.”
Jensen hummed thoughtfully. Hai was right, as usual. “I must be very special, 'cause I made you want to talk to me over anyone else.”
“'Of course you are. You’re like, my best bro, bro.” Sneaky agreed, and flashed Jensen a bright smile. Sneaky wasn’t wrong—out of all their teammates, they were probably the closest to each other. Sneaky briefly motioned Jensen to move aside. “Scoot over, make some room for me.”
“Seriously? Your 'best bro, bro’? Nice English, bro. Very creative.” Jensen snickered, and shifted over to make room for Sneaky to sit on the ledge that he was perched on.
Jensen would never admit it, but his heart skipped a beat when Sneaky had considered their friendship to be a special one. Still, Jensen felt his heart sink in his chest moments later, and he hated it. Jensen knew he expected…more, but that didn’t make sense. They were just friends, after all. He was happy with the way things were. Sneaky was one of the best friends Jensen could’ve ever asked for, but no matter how much he told himself that, it didn’t stop him from falling for Sneaky.
“Fuck off. You come up with something better.” Sneaky shoved Jensen in the shoulder playfully, which only caused Jensen to laugh even harder. Sneaky pouted at Jensen, and the word adorable immediately popped into his mind.
“Wow, flame me more, Sneaky. I’m your 'best bro’ and you don’t have anything better to call me?” Jensen huffed, feigning offence. Jensen crossed his arms, and shifted his body away from Sneaky. “I’m hurt. FF, our friendship’s officially over, sorry Sneaky.”
“No, Jensen. Not like this.” Sneaky dragged the ‘o’ sound out as he pretended to wipe away a tear. It took a few seconds of poking and prodding from Sneaky before Jensen finally turned back around. There were smiles on both of their faces, and Jensen was amazed at how quickly his mood changed. Sneaky always knew how to put a smile on his face, and it was one of the many things that Jensen appreciated about his teammate.
When their laughter died down, Sneaky turned to face Jensen. There was a question on his tongue, and Jensen had a slight suspicion that he knew what it was going to be. “What are you doing sitting in this corner by yourself?”
“Ah.” Jensen knew the question was going to come up at some point. Jensen stared at his hands in his lap, and ignored the icy feeling in his fingertips. They were still cold from holding his apple juice from earlier, and he rubbed his hands together in a poor attempt to warm them up. “Socializing didn’t go to well. Turns out being around drunk people isn’t that fun when you’re not drunk as well.”
“Feels bad man.” Sneaky huffed out a laugh, and leaned his head against the windowsill. He tilted his head to better look at Jensen, a look of understanding on his face. “But yeah, I totally get it.”
“I guess I also wanted to find you 'cause I got tired of talking to 50 people at once.” Sneaky shrugged, and shot Jensen a small smile. Although the smile was faint, it was still so warm and genuine, just like everything else about Sneaky. “I needed an excuse to get away. 'My Danish mid laner is crying, I must go comfort him' seemed to work pretty well.”
“Crying, huh? Oh yes, I'm miserable right now, please make me feel better Sneaky.” Jensen draped his hand over his chest dramatically, and leaned into Sneaky’s side. He was certain that no one took Sneaky’s excuse seriously, but it was amusing to hear nonetheless.
“Don’t worry my son, I’ll make you feel better, alright.” Sneaky grinned, and wiggled his eyebrows suggestively. Jensen made a disappointed face, unsurprised at the direction that Sneaky took with his joke.
“Yeah, Sneaky fucking gasm amirite?” Jensen shook his head, of course Sneaky was going to twist his words into an innuendo. Jensen paused, realizing that he was still leaning against Sneaky’s side. Sneaky seemed unbothered by his presence, and Jensen didn’t want to move away, so he didn’t. The physical contact was…comforting, to say the least.
“I must admit, I’m surprised you left 'cause you got tired of talking to people.” Jensen peered at Sneaky curiously. Sneaky was always better at talking to people than he was, and Jensen found himself following Sneaky’s lead in conversations with groups of people. When together, the two played off of the other’s sense of humour with ease, and could easily be the life of a party if they tried. Too bad Jensen rarely felt like trying. “You seem to…thrive in large social gatherings.”
“Well, you’re not wrong.” Sneaky agreed simply. Sneaky furrowed his brows and searched for the right words. Sneaky hummed thoughtfully, “I enjoy talking to people, just not for long. Some people just tire me out, to be honest.”
“Do I tire you out?” Jensen asked. He meant it to be more of a tongue in cheek question than anything serious.
“You?” Sneaky’s eyes flickered towards Jensen’s face briefly, before they shifted back to the energetic crowd of people in front of them. They paid no attention to the pair, too lost in the generic beat blasting from the speakers to truly care. Truthfully, Sneaky found it a lot more enjoyable to spend one on one time with Jensen, and was silently thankful that he wasn’t part of the drunken crowd for once. “Nah, I like spending time with you. You’re pretty chill. I could probably spend entire days with you and not get tired.”
“With other people I have to make a conscious effort to talk to them.” Sneaky paused, taking time to think over his answer. “With you, I can just…talk to you, I guess. It feels natural.”
Jensen blinked dumbly, he expected a troll answer, such as 'yeah, all the time’, but he didn’t expect Sneaky’s actual answer to be so…earnest. Sure, the guy wasn’t the best at articulating himself without using memes sometimes, but his message still read loud and clear. Jensen could hear the pounding of his heart in his chest, even over the blaring music of the party.
Jensen was so caught up in trying to come up with a good comeback that he never thought of what to say if Sneaky’s answer was genuine. Warmth flooded Jensen’s body, and for a minute Jensen had to remind himself to chill the fuck out, this was just his teammate. Sneaky finally tore his eyes away from the crowd of people, and smiled at Jensen warmly.
“I…” Jensen’s words caught in his throat, as he struggled to find the right thing to say. First the sincere answer, and now this. Sneaky’s smile was so fucking distracting, and if Jensen’s heart could stop fluttering for at least two seconds he could attempt to form a coherent sentence. A beat of silence passed with Jensen just staring at Sneaky’s frustrating little smile, and Jensen could feel his face start to heat up as the silence dragged on.
“What I meant to say was yeah, you’re a horrible person and I don’t know why I bother talking to you.” Sneaky spoke up, and pretended to correct himself. The adorable smile never left his face, and Jensen wanted to scream. It was unfair how attractive Sneaky’s smile was.
“So what you’re saying is…” Jensen said once he remembered how to form sentences. Jensen raised an eyebrow at his teammate, and stared at him curiously. “You didn’t mind it when I dragged your ass out to McDonalds in the dead of the winter 'cause I wanted chicken nuggets?”
“Okay, well that time is a unique case. I only wanted you to kill yourself a little that time.” Sneaky recalled the unfortunate memory with a brief chuckle. “Fuck, no one was doing delivery at that hour either right? It was 4AM and the chicken nuggets were fucking stale anyways.”
“'Jensen, remind me again, why the fuck are we out here? Oh right, cause you wanted chicken nuggets. It’s time to off yourself.’” Jensen mimicked Sneaky’s voice horribly, and was barely able to keep a straight face throughout his impression. Jensen gave Sneaky a pointed look. “If that isn’t toxic then I don’t know what is.”
“Was that supposed to be my voice? That was awful.” Sneaky snickered quietly in the face of Jensen’s pointed stare. He remembered saying those exact words in the middle of the storm. “You took my hat too, didn’t you?”
“No, you gave it to me, remember?” Jensen countered. Sneaky said something that day, and through the thick of the snow storm, Jensen wasn’t sure if he imagined it or not.
When Sneaky moved to pull the beanie over his head, Jensen remembered hearing Sneaky say something along the lines of 'I can’t have my little Jensen getting sick, now can I?’. Even now, Jensen felt himself getting flustered at the thought of Sneaky’s words. My little Jensen. Jensen had repeated those words in his head long after they’d been said. It was an unexpected gesture, and Jensen recalled feeling warm for reasons beyond just the hat that Sneaky lent to him. Shortly after, the tips of Sneaky’s ears had turned red from the cold. But no matter how much Jensen insisted, Sneaky refused to take the hat back.
“You even got sick afterwards too!” Jensen laughed, remembering how miserable Sneaky looked the morning after. Jensen blinked, suddenly recalling that Sneaky’s hat was buried deep inside his closet. “I still have it, you know.”
“You do? So that’s where it went.” Sneaky raised at eyebrow at Jensen. For a moment, he simply stared at Jensen. A smile graced Sneaky’s lips before he finally shook his head. “Keep it. It looked nicer on you anyways.”
“Well, that’s a given.” Jensen joked nervously, and turned his face away from Sneaky’s lingering gaze.
Jensen fought to keep his emotions in check, but failed to hide the slight blush that creeped onto his face. Sneaky must’ve noticed, judging by the slight quirk of his lips. Sneaky spared him the embarrassment however, and didn’t point anything out. Sneaky managed to charm the words out of Jensen’s mouth twice in a single conversation. Jensen cursed himself for getting flustered so easily.
“Yes, stroke your ego more, Jensen.” Sneaky rolled his eyes, and looked at Jensen questioningly. “Though I suppose you can blame me for enabling you.”
“Please, tell me more about how good I look.” Jensen batted his eyelashes, and pretended to flaunt himself. Jensen hoped the act would be enough to distract Sneaky from the way the tips of his ears had gone red. “Tell me I’m not the most aesthetic person you’ve ever met, I dare you.”
“Yeah, yeah. You’re the most aesthetic person I’ve ever met.” Sneaky said as he pat Jensen reassuringly on the shoulder. He grinned cheekily at the mid laner. “One hundred percent.”
Sneaky eventually sobered up, his laughter quieting down. He grinned at Jensen slyly, leaning in closer to Jensen’s face. “Do you really want me to continue feeding your ego? There’s a still a lot of things for me to say.”
“Well,” Jensen rubbed the back of his neck nervously. He didn’t expect it to actually come to this point, “telling me that I’m balding does not count as a compliment, believe it or not.”
“I was thinking something more along the lines of 'you have a nice smile’, but sure, your balding head is a good area for compliments too.” Sneaky shrugged nonchalantly. Jensen flushed a deep shade of red, and felt his train of thought stutter to a stop.
The point of Sneaky’s sentence flew right over Jensen’s head, and all he could think of was Sneaky saying that he had a nice smile. Jensen wanted nothing more than to bury his face in his hands to hide his blush, but he knew it’d be too obvious of a cover-up. Sneaky had to be fucking with him. If this was all one big joke, Jensen wasn’t sure if he’d still find it funny by the end of it all, though perhaps he was just overthinking things.
“Besides, I only have nice things to say about you.” Sneaky continued, his face still close as ever to Jensen’s. Jensen blinked mutely—Sneaky’s eyes were really blue up this close. Sneaky’s eyes were also his favourite shade of blue, but Jensen was sure that was purely coincidental.
Jensen shook his head, and snapped out of his love struck reverie. “That’s bullshit. Remember that time when you told me I looked like a fuckboy when I wore my snapback?”
“Or that time when you called me a loser for wearing socks with my sandals during the winter?” Jensen powered through Sneaky’s look of mock offence, recounting memory after memory in which the marksman teased him. “And what about that time you said my shirt was ugly, like, yesterday?”
“Shh, it doesn’t count if I was telling the truth.” Sneaky’s shoulders shook with laughter, he’d been caught in his lie almost immediately after saying it. The best part about their friendship was that they could always tease the other knowing that they’d never be offended—it meant their conversations were normally filled with witty one liners and crude banter. “And it’s okay Jensen, I forgive you for all the crimes you’ve committed against my eyes. Everyone makes mistakes.”
“Go fuck yourself, good sir. No offence or anything, it’s just a minor suggestion.” Jensen struggled to maintain a tone of aggression to add weight to his insult. Sneaky’s laughter proved to be too contagious, and eventually Jensen joined in as well.
“Aw, don’t be like that. You know it’s all out of love anyways.” Sneaky chimed in between their snorts of laughter.
Sneaky wrapped an arm around Jensen’s shoulder, and pulled him in for a sideways hug. Sneaky was suddenly closer to him than he was before. Jensen felt his face heat up, and his heart started to beat wildly in his chest. If he wasn’t blushing before, he was definitely blushing now. Sneaky loved giving out hugs, and initiated physical contact between them all the time—fortunately for Sneaky, Jensen liked the skin ship they shared with each other, even if it was simply platonic.
“Fuck you.” Jensen cursed at Sneaky, and flipped him off. His face was on fire, but at least Sneaky couldn’t see it from this angle.
Sneaky’s hand accidentally brushed the skin at Jensen’s neck, and he frowned at what he felt. Jensen sucked in a breath when he felt just how warm Sneaky’s fingers were. They were like a fire against the ever present chill in his body, and Jensen felt his eye twitch when Sneaky’s hand brushed his neck again.
“Holy fuck, you’re cold as hell.” Sneaky commented, and pressed his fingers against Jensen’s neck to confirm his point. The warmth from Sneaky’s fingers quickly spread across Jensen’s skin, and he swallowed thickly.
“Then why don’t you warm me up instead of complaining about it?” Jensen huffed, and crossed his arms. Jensen didn’t realize the implication of his statement until it was too late. Surprise flashed through Sneaky’s features for the barest of moments, before a charming smile graced his lips.
“Only if you insist, you princess.” Sneaky chuckled, and pulled Jensen flush against his chest.
Sneaky wrapped his arms around Jensen’s lithe frame, and rested his chin atop his head. Jensen tensed up on instinct as panic flooded his system. Any subtlety from earlier was thrown out the window. They were one hundred percent cuddling now. Alarm bells went off in Jensen’s head—this should’ve been weird, but it wasn’t. It felt so normal that it freaked Jensen out. Jensen remembered then, that this was far from the first time that something like this has happened. Hell, there was even recorded footage of it—then why, why, why did he always get so worked up over it?
Jensen could feel himself burning up from the inside out, both from his own embarrassment, and from how fucking warm Sneaky was. The guy was a living furnace, and Jensen felt the cold leave his body almost immediately. It felt like he’d been bundled up in a fleece blanket, only this time, the blanket was Sneaky. Soon enough, Jensen found himself relaxing in Sneaky’s arms. The soothing warmth came with the familiar scent of Sneaky’s weird ass vanilla scented body wash.
He always thought the concept of vanilla scented body wash was stupid, and made sure to poke fun at Sneaky for it constantly. Jensen was sure that Sneaky eventually started to use it out of spite for him. Jensen would never admit it out loud, but the scent reminded him of the candles he would light back in Denmark. He didn’t particularly enjoy nor dislike the scent of it, but it was something he associated with home. And in a weird way, Jensen felt like he was at home in Sneaky’s arms.
Despite the party that raged on around them, Jensen and Sneaky were caught in their own little bubble. Silence lapsed over the pair, though Jensen could still hear the rhythmic beating of Sneaky’s heart. Jensen knew he always had a tendency to run his mouth in periods of silence, simply because he always found them uncomfortable. This time was different, however. The urge to start blabbing never came, and for once, Jensen allowed himself to feel at ease in the silence. Jensen felt safe and protected in Sneaky’s arms, and if it wasn’t so fucking loud, he could probably fall asleep.
There was something else that prevented Jensen from dozing off—his thoughts. They were louder than the party itself. Jensen couldn’t help but find it weird how many boundaries he crossed with Sneaky as friends. The things they said to each other often went beyond friendly banter—it was borderline flirting. Neither of them acknowledged it, but they never stopped doing it either. They always sat closer to each other than normal, more often than not with their legs tangled together underneath the table. Sneaky loved to wrap his arm around Jensen’s shoulder almost as much as Jensen loved being held. Granted, it was never for too long, but it lasted long enough for people to start asking questions. And as they walked side by side, they would occasionally brush their hands together, even if nothing came out of it. The way Jensen saw it, it was more a confirmation that the other was still next to them than anything else.
Jensen was no stranger to his feelings for Sneaky, try as he might to deny them. Everything they did with each other hinted to the fact that they shared the same feelings, but Jensen didn’t want to think about what would happen if he was wrong. To add insult to injury, it was so damn easy to imagine himself in a relationship with Sneaky. Far too many times had he been distracted with thoughts of kissing Sneaky in front of all of his teammates.
The fear of ruining everything they had with each other held him back, however. Even if he was right about their feelings, what was supposed to happen if the relationship didn’t work out? Leaving the team would mean leaving him too, and Jensen didn’t like thinking about that. A slight frown tugged at Jensen’s lips, and Sneaky was quick to pick up on the shift in mood between them.
“You think very loudly, you know?” Sneaky broke the silence between them, snapping Jensen out of his daze. “What’s on your mind?”
Sneaky started to remove his arms, but Jensen quickly reached up to stop him, “No, it’s not that.”
“Then what?” Sneaky’s expression softened, his eyes laced with concern. Jensen felt his heart flutter when he looked at Sneaky’s face—he didn’t deserve this shit. Even now, he was being a love struck idiot, and it was preventing him from forming coherent responses.
“It’s…” Jensen trailed off. He wasn’t sure how to tell Sneaky what he was thinking about without also confessing his feelings.
“It’s nothing.” Jensen finished pathetically, and buried himself further in Sneaky’s chest. “I’m just being dumb.”
“You're always being dumb.” Sneaky poked Jensen in the cheek lightly. Sneaky shook his head, and let the subject drop.
Even as the brief conversation lapsed into silence, Jensen still felt a pair of eyes on him. “What’re you looking at?”
Jensen glanced up, and caught Sneaky’s gaze. For whatever reason, Sneaky was still looking at him. Jensen probably would’ve called Sneaky out for being creepy, if it weren’t for the look Sneaky had on his face. His features were so soft, his expression so fond that it damn near took Jensen’s breath away. It felt wrong to look at Sneaky—what he saw was something that people usually kept to themselves. Jensen knew��that look. It was the look that couples gave each other after exchanging I love you’s.
“Hm? Oh, nothing.” Sneaky smiled faintly, then broke eye contact with Jensen as if it were nothing. Perhaps Jensen was imagining things, but Sneaky’s smile was almost sad. People didn’t look at their friends like that unless they meant something more to them.
At this rate, Jensen wasn’t sure if he could blush any harder, and he quickly turned his face away from Sneaky with a small huff. Sneaky laughed at Jensen’s childish behaviour, which only made his face burn even harder. His period of embarrassment was interrupted by an ear piercingly loud wolf whistle.
From amidst the crowd, Jensen spotted Meteos’ raised arm. “Get 'em, Sneaky!”
Jensen blinked, dully noting all the eyes that briefly turned their way. Meteos wanted them to get together more than anyone else on the team. “…What? Did he just—”
Sneaky shook his head, and suddenly removed his arms from Jensen’s body. “Yeah. Fuckin’ Meteos.”
Almost immediately, a cold chill swept through Jensen’s body. Jensen frowned, was he just incapable of maintaining a normal body temperature or what? Jensen tried his hardest not to be upset at the loss of contact, but the cold he felt in his body was undeniable. Sneaky was warm, his presence comforting, and Jensen wanted it back.
“Quit your moping. I’m not leaving you.” Sneaky stood up, and offered his hand to Jensen. Sneaky’s face lit up with a brilliant smile, and it was clear he had something in mind. “I have an idea.”
“I’m not—” Jensen cut himself off short. Sneaky was right, he was moping a little. “Where are you going?”
“I’m ditching this place, and you’re coming with me. Let’s go.” Without a second word, Sneaky grabbed Jensen’s hand and helped him to his feet.
Jensen couldn’t help it when he stumbled slightly, but Sneaky was there to catch him. Sneaky let out a light chuckle, and spared Jensen from his teasing. Jensen merely glared daggers at him in response. Sneaky tugged Jensen towards the crowd, but stopped just short of it.
“Let’s not lose each other in this crowd, yeah?” Sneaky winked at Jensen, before turning his attention to the sea of people. Sneaky squeezed Jensen’s hand lightly, and said over his shoulder. “Hold on tight.”
Jensen barely managed to catch Sneaky’s words before he found himself being pulled right into the thick of the party. Sneaky cleared the path ahead of them, and nudged everyone aside as gently as he could manage. Jensen felt like there were dozens of pairs of eyes trained on him, and it made his skin crawl. He hoped that no one noticed that they were technically holding hands—Jensen absolutely did.
In spite of his own embarrassment, Jensen heeded Sneaky’s words and held on tight. Instead of focusing on the sheer number of people staring at him, Jensen tried to focus on the warmth of Sneaky’s hand. It helped a little, the contact helping to ground his thoughts.
“I can almost see the door from here.” Sneaky shouted over the crowd. Jensen could barely make out the sound of his voice, and Sneaky strained his voice to shout even louder. “Was there always this many people?”
“Who knows, I lost count a long time ago.” Jensen shook his head, and gripped Sneaky’s hand tighter. Sneaky was right, he could finally see the front door over peoples’ heads.
With one final push, Jensen and Sneaky stumbled out of the crowd. Almost immediately, the pair made their way towards the door, and slipped out unnoticed. As the door shut behind them, Jensen let out a sigh of relief. The chilled atmosphere caused his warm breath to turn misty in the air. True to his word, Sneaky continued to lead them forward with a definitive plan in mind.
“Where exactly are we going?” Jensen asked at last, allowing himself to be pulled towards the direction of…wherever.
“They opened up this new café down the street,” Sneaky started, and made a left once they reached the main road. “and I wanted to check it out. I would’ve gone a while ago, but I was too fuckin’ lazy to actually get up and go.”
“And I know cafés are your favourite place, so that makes this little expedition even more worth it.” Sneaky added with a smile. Jensen furrowed his brows. He faintly recalled having this conversation with Sneaky a few weeks ago. There was one thing in particular that Sneaky really wanted to try there.
“Is that the place that has really good vanilla lattes?” Jensen remembered at last. Jensen could never understand Sneaky’s strange obsession with vanilla lattes, both hot and cold. He usually preferred plain old black coffee.
“Yeah, it is actually.” Sneaky nodded as his eyes lit up with childish delight. “I hope they don’t fuck it up like they do at Starbucks.”
“One way to find out, I guess.” Jensen shrugged, finding amusement in Sneaky’s excitement. Jensen had been on the receiving end of many shitty vanilla latte rants, and perhaps this café would put an end to them.
The moon was just starting to peek out from behind the clouds, basking the pair in its pale light. The air outside was crisp and fresh, unlike the haze of alcohol and sweat inside the house. The coldness of the night mirrored the air conditioned atmosphere of the house. Jensen shivered slightly, he felt just as cold outside of the house he did inside. Still, the warmth from Sneaky’s hand made him feel a little better about his frigid state. They reached a stop light, and suddenly, Sneaky’s attention was back on Jensen.
“Are you…” Sneaky squinted his eyes at Jensen. Jensen squirmed slightly under Sneaky’s close inspection, and silently wondered what was going through his head. The marksman laughed, and tilted his head to the side. “Are you shivering?”
“N-No.” Jensen stuttered, and shivered as if on cue. Sneaky started to laugh, and Jensen glared at him. “You’re shivering, bitch.”
“Shit, you caught me.” Sneaky rolled his eyes, and briefly let go of Jensen’s hand. “We could’ve grabbed a jacket for you before we left, you know?”
“I didn’t bring a jacket 'cause I didn’t want, or need one.” Jensen huffed, and crossed his arms. Doing so helped mask his shivering, just a little. “I’m a grown ass man. I can take care of myself.”
Sneaky saw right through Jensen’s cover, and started to shrug his hoodie off. “Clearly not.”
“But that’s why I’m here.” Sneaky grinned, and gently draped his hoodie over Jensen’s shoulders.
“I don’t need this.” Jensen said stubbornly, but subconsciously pulled the hoodie tighter around himself. “I’m not cold.”
“Sure, if you say so.” Sneaky shook his head, and started to help Jensen put the hoodie on properly.
“Thanks.” Jensen mumbled quietly as Sneaky held out the sleeves for him to slip his arms into.
By the time the hoodie was zipped up, it was time for them to cross. Sneaky quickly grabbed Jensen’s hand, and continued to walk him towards the café. They reached the other side with seconds to spare, the light turning red just as they approached the curb. Jensen, unfortunately, still had no clue where the café was. He trusted Sneaky to know where he was going (or at least, he hoped so).
From underneath the hoodie, Jensen’s face was on fire. Sneaky never offered his clothing away this freely to anyone. Except to him, apparently. Even when Meteos forgot to bring his hat during the winter season, Sneaky had flipped him off when he asked to borrow his hat instead. And this was the second time that Sneaky went out of his way to offer him an article of clothing (within recent memory, anyway).
The hoodie smelled just like Sneaky (unsurprisingly so), and Jensen found himself feeling oddly comforted by it. It was a familiar scent, and Jensen now associated it with warmth. Somehow, Sneaky always found ways to keep him warm, even when the cold seeped deep into his core. Jensen frowned when Sneaky showed no signs of growing cold—it was almost unfair.
But the more Jensen thought about it, he supposed it made sense. Sneaky was known to be really good at giving hugs, and Jensen had been on the receiving end of many. Sneaky’s smile made Jensen feel fuzzy inside, as much as he hated to admit it. A lot of things Sneaky did made him feel warm, one way or another. And even now, Sneaky still hadn’t let go of his hand. Not that he was complaining, no. Jensen found it strange, however. For as much as they “flirted” with each other, they never crossed the line of hand holding. Until now. Jensen hoped that it wasn’t because Sneaky forgot to let go.
“We’re almost there.” Sneaky pointed out, snapping Jensen out of his thoughts. Jensen stopped registering where they were going several moments ago. Jensen shook his head, and waited for his brain to catch up.
Jensen’s gaze followed the direction of Sneaky’s finger, and he spotted the café in question across the street. The storefront casted a warm glow onto the street, inviting those who passed by into the café. The café looked rather cozy, and Jensen couldn’t wait to get inside. The pair had reached another stoplight, and were waiting patiently for the light to switch. Sneaky took the moment to look at Jensen, and a snort of laughter slipped from his lips.
“What?” Jensen glared at Sneaky, demanding answers.
“Nothing.” Sneaky replied cryptically, but his eyes lingered on the hoodie that Jensen was wearing. Jensen could see that it became increasingly harder for Sneaky to hold his laughter in the longer he stared at him.
Jensen knew the hoodie was two sizes too big for him. He could tell, because it felt like he was being swallowed whole by the hoodie. The sleeves extended past his fingertips, and the shoulders hung a little loose on his skinny frame. Jensen cursed Sneaky’s odd fascination with wearing oversized hoodies, because the hoodie made him feel impossibly smaller.
“It’s just—” Sneaky coughed, still trying to stifle his laughter, “You look so small.”
“Fuck you.” Jensen cursed at Sneaky. He crossed his arms, and huffed. In hindsight, doing that probably didn’t help his image. “It’s not my fault you wear hoodies that are like, twelve times your size.”
“My itty bitty widdle Jensen.” Sneaky cooed, much like a mother would to their child, and lifted his hand to pat Jensen on the head. Sneaky didn’t bother stifling his laughter anymore, which made Jensen glare even harder. The sound of Sneaky’s bright laughter filled the air, and Jensen’s resolve was slipping.
“Your Jensen?” Jensen couldn’t help but question Sneaky’s choice of words. Jensen wasn’t technically his, not in any way shape or form. This wasn’t the first time that Sneaky attached the word to his name either.
“Yes, my Jensen.” Sneaky confirmed with ease, and let his hand drop. “I don’t think many other teams have a toxic Danish child like I do.”
“I—” Jensen bit back his retort. He knew that there was no winning against Sneaky. The fact that Sneaky called him his was enough to make his face burn. “I hate you.”
“That’s not true!” Sneaky singsonged as he tugged Jensen towards the café entrance. From this close, Jensen caught whiffs of coffee and baked goods in the air, and his stomach grumbled. As Jensen read the wooden sign, he discovered that the café was named The Black Canary.
“Maybe not.” Jensen agreed, then he grinned at Sneaky slyly. “But only if you pay.”
“Fine, fine. You paid last time we went out, so I guess it’s fair.” Sneaky nodded, and held out the door for Jensen. A small bell rung as the wooden door swung open, alerting the waitress to their entrance.
Immediately, Jensen was enveloped by the warmth of the café. The aroma of toasted coffee beans and freshly baked goods filled the air, and Jensen delighted in the smell of it all—cafés were one of his favourite places, after all. The café had a rustic interior, the dim lighting matching the cozy atmosphere. Wooden tables were spread throughout the café, each with a unique little potted plant. Along the side were small booths fixed with cushioned seats and decorative lighting.
At this hour, the café was relatively empty, save for a handful of people and the occasional sleep deprived student. Their hushed conversations were accompanied by the sounds of soft classical music that played from the speakers above. The café was peaceful, and most of all it was quiet, a welcome change compared to the noisy atmosphere of the Cloud 9 house.
“Good evening!” greeted the waitress brightly. She glanced down at their clasped hands, then looked back at the pair with a knowing smile. “Table for two?”
Jensen caught the waitresses’ gaze, and quickly let go of Sneaky’s hand out of embarrassment. “Uh. Yes, please.”
“Great, follow me and I’ll get you seated.” said the waitress, and motioned for the pair to follow her. Along the way, she grabbed a pair of menus.
Sneaky let out a light chuckle at Jensen’s embarrassment, and Jensen wanted to crawl into a hole. The waitress probably thought they were a couple now, which, as pleasant as the idea was, wasn’t true. Regardless of what the waitress thought, she led them to a tidy booth in the corner. Jensen was grateful for the privacy that the booth offered, albeit a little isolated from the rest of the patrons.
Jensen slid into the booth, and Sneaky slipped in next to him. Jensen raised an eyebrow at Sneaky’s choice of seating, simply because he could’ve sat on the other side, but chose not to. Jensen didn’t mind, however. There was plenty of room for the both of them. Once they were settled down, the waitress placed the two menus in front of the pair. The menu was designed to look like a scrapbook, with leather covers, polaroid images, aged paper and all. The waitress filled their glasses with water, and left them to decide on their order as she tended to the other customers.
“What’re you planning on getting?” Sneaky asked, leaning over to look at Jensen’s menu.
“Probably just black coffee, honestly.” Jensen replied simply, though his eyes continued to scan the drink options.
“Boo. That's so resident sleeper.” Sneaky made a look of disgust, and stuck his tongue out. “Try something cool, you fucking grandpa.”
“Wow, you’re just gonna shit all over my tastes like that, Sneaky?” Jensen huffed, and continued to scan the menu’s expansive set of drink options. “You’re just upset ‘cause you can’t appreciate the taste of it.”
“What, bitter bean juice?” Sneaky fired back. “I’ll pass, thanks.”
“Fine, Jesus Christ.” Jensen rolled his eyes, but the smile on his lips betrayed the hostility of his words. “I’ll get a mocha or some shit.”
“Much better.” Sneaky grinned, satisfied that he was able to convince Jensen to indulge himself. Sneaky already knew what he was going to get, and waited patiently for Jensen to finish flipping through the menu. Just as he flipped to the desserts page, Jensen’s stomach rumbled.
“Maybe you should get something to eat too.” Sneaky suggested with a raised eyebrow. “It might help you get out of your Fiddlesticks cosplay.”
“Ha ha, nice meme bro!” Jensen exclaimed, sarcasm dripping from his words. He couldn’t deny the fact that he was hungry, however. He was too busy moping during the party to bother finding out where the food was. “I guess I could go for some cake.”
Jensen scanned the vast array of cakes the café had to offer. They ranged from double chocolate fudge cakes to blueberry cheesecakes, and more. Jensen rubbed his chin thoughtfully—all the options looked equally delicious. The longer he stared at the menu, the harder it became for him to decide. Sneaky looked on, amused at Jensen’s inability to choose what he wanted.
“Want me to pick for you?” Sneaky offered knowingly. They both knew that Jensen always struggled with picking what to eat for dinner, and that often left Sneaky to decide for the both of them. Jensen frowned at the menu, as if the answer would pop up in his head.
After a minute or so, Jensen sighed, and admitted defeat. “Please do.”
“I’ve heard good things about their strawberry shortcake.” Sneaky pointed out. Jensen glanced at the attached image, then nodded in agreement. “Well, that was easy.”
Sneaky waved the waitress over, and ordered Jensen’s cake and mocha, as well as a vanilla latte for himself. With a small nod, the waitress made her way towards the counter to prepare their order. The waitress apologized faintly, and told them their order would take a while to arrive. Jensen didn’t pay attention to why, and idly hummed along to the song playing in the café instead. Meanwhile, Sneaky pulled out his phone, and browsed his social media to help pass the time.
Jensen considered pulling his phone out too, but settled with observing his surroundings. Jensen glanced at the way they were sitting. Even though there was plenty of wiggle room in the booth they shared, Jensen found himself pressed up against Sneaky’s side. Jensen couldn’t help but shake his head—they fell into the same patterns every time they sat next to each other. They’d slowly gravitate closer, and closer together without even realizing it. Their booth was in the far corner of the café, giving them privacy they never asked for. Everyone in the café was lost in their own world, be it frantically typing on a run-down laptop, or engaging in a conversation with their friends.
The pair sat in peace and quiet, content to simply enjoy the other’s presence. With a muffled yawn, Sneaky leaned to the side, and rested his head on Jensen’s shoulder. Jensen smiled faintly, and decided against saying anything out loud. Instead, he chose to quietly observe Sneaky’s features. Sure, it might’ve been a little creepy, but he caught Sneaky doing it to him countless times.
He would never admit it out loud, but were a lot of things about Sneaky that Jensen found attractive. Like the way Sneaky’s smile could cause his heart to flutter without fail, especially if he was the one to put it there. The corners of Sneaky’s eyes would crinkle as he smiled, and Jensen could never grow tired of hearing the sound of his laughter. Sneaky’s smile made him feel all warm inside, but it wasn’t the only thing he liked about him.
Jensen always thought Sneaky had the prettiest eyes. He found it fascinating how, under the right lighting, Sneaky’s eyes would sparkle. They would shine a brilliant blue, and Jensen quickly discovered that the colour of Sneaky’s eyes was his favourite shade of blue. Too many times had Jensen been distracted by Sneaky’s playful little smile that was paired with lips that he would never want to stop kissing, and soft hair that Jensen wanted to run his fingers through.
But the small things mattered just as much to Jensen, things that someone would only notice if they spent a shitload of time with Sneaky (and he has done a lot of that). Like the way the corner of his lip would slightly twitch moments before he burst into laughter, or the small crease that would form between his brows whenever he was deep in thought. Jensen admired Sneaky’s drive to improve, and he admired the way Sneaky was humble both in victory and defeat. It lead Jensen to believe that Sneaky was too good of a person for him. Jensen knew that he was an asshole, a selfish one at that, but he had one hell of a soft spot for his teammate. Sneaky always looked out for him, from making sure he didn’t catch a cold, to stopping him from downing his sixth shot of liquor in a row.
Jensen blinked back to reality, the weight of his feelings for Sneaky having finally caught up to him. Jensen realized in the span of seconds exactly how hard he’d fallen for his best friend. Jensen’s head spun, and suddenly, he couldn’t ignore how little space there was between them. Sneaky’s touch burned into his skin, offering him warmth that he didn’t deserve to have. Even then, Jensen couldn’t move away. He didn't want to. But before Jensen could think himself to death, Sneaky’s voice snapped him out of his daydream.
“Jensen.” Sneaky called for Jensen’s attention, and looked up at him. Jensen stared at Sneaky for a few moments, before finally spotting the raised phone camera. “Smile!”
Jensen stared at his image on Sneaky’s phone, and smiled faintly. The top of Sneaky’s face was barely in frame of the image, since most of it was taken up by the backdrop, and of course, Jensen himself. Sneaky frowned at Jensen, and turned to face him.
“That’s the weakest smile I’ve ever seen.” Sneaky shook his head, and pulled at Jensen’s cheeks to force a smile. Jensen tried to swat at Sneaky’s hands before his cheeks got too sore, and a genuine smile found its way onto his face. Sneaky removed his hands once they’d accomplished their goal, and mirrored Jensen’s smile.
“Better?” Jensen asked with a bright grin on his face.
“Yes.” Sneaky replied, and lifted his phone to get a better angle. Moments before he snapped the photo, Jensen flipped the camera off, though the smile never left his face. The camera clicked, and Sneaky quickly opened up the photo to look at it. Upon discovering Jensen’s last second gesture, Sneaky snorted out a laugh.
“You son of a bitch.” Sneaky narrowed his eyes at Jensen, but quickly dropped the act. Sneaky raised an eyebrow at Jensen, and pointed a finger at his chest. “I thought you said you were reformed.”
“I am!” Jensen gasped in mock offence. Jensen crossed his arms defensively, and stuck his chin out. “It’s not toxic if it’s friendly banter.”
“Right, 'friendly’.” Sneaky repeated sarcastically, even going as far to put air quotes around his words. Being the child he was, Jensen stuck his tongue out at Sneaky, causing the marksman to burst out into another fit of laughter. As his shoulders shook with laughter, Sneaky opened his Twitter, and started to write a tweet.
Jensen leaned over, and watched as Sneaky’s fingers flew across the screen to type: “Hot date night with my boy @C9Jensen”. Jensen rolled his eyes at Sneaky’s choice of words, “hot date night”, yeah right. Even though Jensen knew it was all just a joke, part of him couldn’t help but hope it was true. Just as Jensen suspected, Sneaky attached the image they just took, and finally posted the tweet.
“How many photos of me do you have posted on your Twitter?” Jensen asked, and glanced at Sneaky briefly. He rested his chin on his palm, and looked out the window next to him. The glass panes rattled quietly as the wind blew against them, and Jensen could only hope that it wasn’t going to get worse. “Too many, if you ask me.”
“Not enough, I’d argue.” Sneaky corrected Jensen, and slipped his phone back into his pocket.
Sneaky then turned all of his attention to Jensen, and smiled faintly. Jensen could feel Sneaky’s eyes on him, and finally turned away from the window to catch his gaze. Silence filled the air between them as they simply looked at each other. Jensen swallowed nervously, worried that Sneaky could hear the pounding of his heart. Jensen blinked distractedly as Sneaky’s stupidly adorable smile started to grow with each passing second.
“C-Can I help you?” Jensen stuttered, and tore his eyes away from Sneaky’s frustratingly blue ones. Jensen felt a blush creep onto his cheeks, and Jensen hated himself for being so easily flustered around his teammate. Sneaky didn’t even seem phased by the fact that this was the second time Jensen caught him staring that night.
“That depends on what you’re willing to do.” Sneaky replied smoothly, and lightly bumped Jensen’s leg with his knee. Out of habit, Jensen crossed his ankle over Sneaky’s. Once again, they fell right back into the same old patterns—Jensen was wondering when they’d start to tangle their legs together.
“What the hell is that supposed to mean?” Jensen’s eyes widened at the implications of Sneaky’s statement, but he quickly caught himself. Jensen stared at Sneaky suspiciously, and pursed his lips in an attempt to fight a smile from finding its way onto his lips. Sneaky’s grin only grew wider, and eventually, he started to laugh.
“You should've seen your face.” Sneaky laughed delightedly, and leaned forward to rest his head on Jensen’s shoulder. “You’re too easy to embarrass.”
When Sneaky failed to muffle his giggles, he pulled his head away and wiped the tears from his eyes. Sneaky finally looked back up at Jensen with a gentle expression on his face. Jensen felt his heart skip beat—Sneaky’s eyes always looked so adorable when he smiled, and right now, Jensen wanted to scream because of it. Instead, he let out a frustrated groan. Jensen buried his face in the palms of his hands as Sneaky’s shoulders continued to shake with laughter.
Jensen let out a sound of frustration, and spoke without thinking. “It’s not my fault you’re so adorable.”
“The fuck did you say about me, bitch?” Sneaky narrowed his eyes at Jensen suspiciously, and Jensen’s head snapped up. Sneaky had an eyebrow raised, and closely examined Jensen’s panicked expression. Just as Jensen was about to come up with an excuse, Sneaky interrupted him. “You know I can’t understand Danish, so that’s just cheating.”
Jensen blinked confusedly. Jensen didn’t even realize that he’d spoken Danish. It slipped out of his mouth before he had the chance to think about what language he said it in. The slip ups always caught him off guard when they happened, but he’d never been so glad to slip up in that moment.
“Fuck you, Sneaky.” Jensen said immediately. It was a phrase he defaulted more often than he’d like to admit, but it acted as a great distraction. Sneaky never took offence from it anyways. “I said you have lesbian hair.”
“Nice meme, bro!” Sneaky exclaimed, and applauded sarcastically. Jensen snorted out a laugh at Sneaky’s immediate reaction. Sneaky ran his hand through his hair, and Jensen wished that he was the one doing it instead. “I’m sure you love my hair.”
Jensen laughed quietly to himself, you’re not wrong. Jensen would have never said that out loud however, and rolled his eyes instead. “Yeah, right.”
“Whatever, I’d take lesbian hair over balding at the ripe age of 21.” Sneaky retorted with ease. Jensen pinched the bridge of his nose, and sighed dramatically. He looked up at Sneaky with the most serious face he could muster.
“Kindly off yourself, good sir.” Jensen said offhandedly, and poked his finger at Sneaky’s chest to emphasize his point. Sneaky gasped, and shook his head at Jensen’s words.
“That was a little toxic.” Sneaky reprimanded Jensen, and barely managed to contain his laughter. Sneaky ended up laughing anyways, and the warm sound of it made Jensen’s heart flutter. “This is exactly why you’re balding.”
“You’re the worst.” Jensen huffed out, and lightly shoved Sneaky on the shoulder. Jensen stared at Sneaky’s bright features, and let out a sigh. “I hate you.”
“Do you really?” Sneaky tilted his head to the side curiously. Jensen swallowed nervously, and caught Sneaky’s eye. Sneaky leaned into Jensen’s space, and put on his best smile. Sneaky silently dared Jensen to say anything other than “no”.
Jensen opened his mouth to say yes, but couldn’t bring himself to actually say the word. Jensen’s eye twitched in the face of Sneaky’s charming smile, and eventually, he gave into Sneaky’s whims. “…No.”
“I thought so.” Sneaky briefly stuck his tongue out at Jensen, but barely had any time to celebrate his victory. Sneaky’s attention was soon caught by the waitress that stood at their table, with their drinks and slice of cake in hand.
“Sorry to interrupt your little lovers’ quarrel,” The waitress teased the pair lightly, and held up the tray with their order. “but I have your drinks and cake.”
“Lovers’ quarrel? We’re not—” Jensen started to explain, but the waitress seemed unconvinced by his words. Jensen shook his head. “Never mind.”
Jensen quickly cleared his throat, and made room on the table for the waitress to place their order down. Sneaky’s foot lightly nudged his own from under the table, and Jensen shot Sneaky a questioning look. Sneaky smiled a little sheepishly, and the message 'my bad’ was clearly painted in his eyes. Sneaky turned his attention back to the waitress.
“Thanks.” Sneaky said courteously, to which the waitress responded with a smile.
“No problem.” The waitress picked up her tray, and winked at the pair. “Enjoy.”
Sneaky turned his attention back to Jensen, who stared at the rather…generous slice of cake in front of him. Jensen stared at it closely—there was no way he was going to finish it by himself. Sure, he was hungry, but he wasn’t that hungry.
“Fuck me. This slice of cake is huge.” Jensen sighed, and lightly poked at the side of it with his spoon. Sneaky looked at Jensen incredulously.
“The menu did say it was for 2-3 people…” Sneaky reminded Jensen plainly. Jensen’s eyes widened in surprise. He pointed his finger at Sneaky accusingly.
“It did? Why didn’t you say anything?” Jensen huffed, and glared at Sneaky, who started to snicker quietly.
“'Cause I thought you knew how to read, dumbass.” Sneaky answered simply, and started to laugh even harder when Jensen gave him an exasperated look. Sneaky had a feeling that Jensen didn’t read the smaller text on the side, but decided against telling him.
“Fine, we can just share then.” Jensen shrugged, and pushed the plate closer to Sneaky. He glanced up at the marksman with a coy smile, then back at the cake. “You’re paying anyways”
Jensen looked around the table to find another spoon for Sneaky to use, only to realize that they only had one spoon, and he was currently holding it. Jensen lifted his hand to call the waitress over, but was stopped short by Sneaky, who looked at him expectantly. Sneaky opened his mouth, and pointed to it.
“Why get another spoon when you can just feed me?” Sneaky suggested playfully, and waited patiently for Jensen to feed him the first bite of cake. The fact that they were about to share the same spoon crossed Jensen’s mind briefly, but he figured it was tamer than the rest of the shit they’ve done together despite not being romantically involved.
“…No, do it yourself, bitch.” Jensen huffed, and attempted to offer Sneaky the spoon. Jensen wasn’t going to fall into Sneaky’s trap that easily (or at least he’d try not to). Sneaky looked at the spoon with a great deal of contempt, then glanced back at Jensen.
“I'm lazy.” Sneaky pouted dramatically, and leaned into Jensen’s side. “Besides, you already have the spoon in your hand…”
Jensen’s gaze was drawn to Sneaky’s doe like eyes, and Jensen found it very, very difficult to say no to them. Sneaky’s eyes were doing the stupid, twinkling puppy dog thing they always did whenever he wanted to have his way with Jensen. Jensen cursed himself for being such a weak man. In his defence, Sneaky looked twice as adorable, and Jensen had never been able to say no to Sneaky whenever he did that. It was a dirty trick, and they both knew it.
“Fine.” Jensen drew out the i sound, and sighed exasperatedly. Jensen couldn’t help the smile that tugged at his lips when he saw the way Sneaky lit up, and pumped his fist in the air. Jensen scooped up a small piece of the cake, and made sure to get some strawberry in the bite before he held it up to Sneaky’s mouth. “Say ah, bitch.”
“Ah,” Sneaky opened his mouth, and closed his lips around the spoon. Jensen pulled the spoon out, and picked up a bite of his own. Sneaky made a delighted sound, and his eyes lit up brilliantly. “It’s pretty good, isn’t it?”
Jensen ate a bite of the strawberry shortcake, and chewed it thoughtfully. The icing was a little too sweet for his liking, but the tartness of the strawberry helped balance it out nicely. The vanilla shortcake was light and fluffy, and it practically melted on his tongue. As much as he enjoyed it, Jensen had a slight suspicion that Sneaky enjoyed it more than he did. Jensen scooped up another piece of cake, and spooned it into Sneaky’s open mouth.
Sneaky smiled around the bite of cake, and Jensen felt his eye twitch. Sneaky was like a child with one hell of a sweet tooth, and Jensen wouldn’t have minded it so much if Sneaky wasn’t so goddamn adorable. Sneaky just looked so cute and happy every time he fed him, and Jensen struggled to keep his cool. The pair worked towards finishing the of the cake together, though Jensen wasn’t sure when he started to feed Sneaky more than he ate himself. Sneaky didn’t seem to notice, though he was probably too lost in his own little world to care anyways.
While Sneaky was busy enjoying his bite of cake, Jensen took a sip of his mocha. He gently blew at the steam that rose out of the cup, before taking a small sip. The pleasant taste of chocolate and espresso washed over his tongue. The drink struck the perfect balance between the bitterness of the espresso, and the sweetness of the cocoa.
Despite how hot the drink was, the warmth of it quickly washed away alongside the taste of the mocha, and Jensen sighed. He turned his attention back to Sneaky, who finally tried his own drink. Jensen watched Sneaky closely, and waited for his reaction. Much to Jensen’s surprise, Sneaky’s face lit up.
“Dude.” Sneaky said excitedly, and took another sip of his vanilla latte. Sneaky’s happiness was definitely contagious, and Jensen found himself smiling too. Sneaky’s joyous grin made Jensen feel warm inside, replacing the brief heat the mocha gave him with something much more meaningful. Sneaky offered his drink to Jensen, and started to speak.
“This is what a vanilla latte should taste like. Starbucks sells a bland, watered down excuse of a latte.” Jensen nodded slowly, and accepted the offered cup from Sneaky. Jensen never understood Sneaky’s strange obsession with vanilla lattes, but he found it to be a rather endearing quirk.
Jensen listened attentively as Sneaky animatedly described what distinguished good vanilla lattes from bad ones. Jensen eventually lost him at around the third or fourth point, but still tried his best to follow Sneaky’s words. He sipped idly at Sneaky’s vanilla latte, and figured that his tongue was broken, because he could not for the life of him pick up the cinnamon notes that Sneaky described. Admittedly, Jensen was more interested in watching Sneaky talk than actually listening to him. It was hard to ignore how cute Sneaky looked in that moment, and Jensen had to mentally shake himself to snap out of it.
“You’re not even listening to me, are you, you little shit?” Sneaky cut himself off short, and smiled at Jensen knowingly. Jensen grinned sheepishly, and gently shook his head. Sneaky laughed, and realized that he got a little ahead of himself. Curiously enough, Jensen didn’t seem to mind too Sneaky’s rant too much. Sneaky brushed the thought aside, and opened his mouth. “The least you can do is feed me another bite of cake.”
Jensen was admittedly a little distracted by Sneaky’s bubbly smile, and accidentally missed Sneaky’s mouth. The vanilla cream on top of the cake brushed against the corner of Sneaky’s lip, leaving behind a small dollop of icing. Jensen snickered quietly at the image before him. Sneaky’s bright blue doe eyes stared at him expectantly, with icing covering the corner of his lip. Sneaky looked at Jensen confusedly, and quietly waited for an explanation from the mid laner.
“You have some icing on your face.” Jensen started to explain, and set the spoon down on the plate. He turned his attention back to the marksman. Jensen couldn’t help it when laughter started to bubble out. Sneaky looked like a child with icing all over his face, and Jensen found it utterly adorable.
“What? I do?” Sneaky asked incredulously, then narrowed his eyes at his teammate. It was Jensen’s fault after all, and Jensen didn’t feel the slightest bit of regret. Sneaky glared at Jensen. “Where?”
Jensen gestured unhelpfully to the side of Sneaky’s face. Sneaky stuck his tongue out, and struggled to catch the icing with the tip of his tongue. Jensen snorted lightly, not only had he pointed Sneaky to the wrong side of his face by accident, he was pretty sure that Sneaky wouldn’t have been able to reach the icing anyways. Sneaky made a frustrated sound, and gave Jensen a pointed look.
“Where the fuck is it?” Sneaky asked exasperatedly, and rolled his eyes when Jensen continued to snicker. Sneaky huffed, much like a child would, and flipped Jensen off. “Are you trolling me?”
“Nope, not this time.” Jensen amended, though Sneaky looked far from convinced. Jensen would’ve corrected himself earlier if it wasn’t so amusing to watch Sneaky struggle.
From the corner of his eye, Jensen spotted a handful of napkins that were scattered on the far end of their table. The napkins were shoved under plates, and hidden behind cups. Jensen pushed them all aside earlier to make room for the waitress to serve their food and drinks, and he decided it was too much work to reach over and grab one. He glanced back at his teammate—Sneaky was starting to look ridiculous, and Jensen finally decided to take pity on the marksman.
Jensen reached out, and lightly grabbed Sneaky’s chin. Jensen tilted Sneaky’s chin up, and briefly registered how close their faces were. Jensen would’ve pulled away, but he figured that he’d allow himself just this one moment of intimacy. “Here let me just—”
Surprise flashed on Sneaky’s face, but Jensen was too distracted to notice. For a moment, Jensen’s eyes flickered down to Sneaky’s soft lips, a motion that didn’t go unnoticed by the marksman. Jensen was overwhelmed with the desire to fit his own lips against Sneaky’s, but for whatever reason, he couldn’t find it in himself to actually do it. It was the perfect setup; all he had to do was lean forward a tiny bit and close the gap between them, giving him everything he always wanted and more. Up this close, Jensen noticed how vulnerable Sneaky looked—his bright blue eyes were wide open, and Jensen was afraid of what he would see if he looked at them. Jensen didn’t want to look into Sneaky’s eyes, only to see the eyes of someone who didn’t love him back. Jensen opened his mouth to speak, but discovered that he had nothing to say.
Sneaky must’ve realized what was going through his head, because Jensen felt Sneaky’s face heat up underneath the tips of his cold, cold fingers. Sneaky was so close that Jensen could’ve counted his individual eyelashes if he wanted to, and his breath was taken away by how much he wanted the man before him. Jensen tightened his grip on Sneaky’s chin ever so slightly, and fought against the urge bridge the gap between them, and kiss his teammate.
In the end, Jensen decided it wasn’t worth risking their friendship for, and set out to do what he originally planned to accomplish. He brushed the corner of Sneaky’s lip with his thumb, and wiped off the icing. Jensen’s hand lingered for a second too long, as he shoved any and all thoughts of kissing Sneaky into the corner of his mind. For the first time that night, Sneaky was the one that was caught off guard. Jensen finally removed his hand, and leaned back far enough so that they were a respectable distance apart. Not that it mattered anyways, because their legs remained tangled together underneath the table. Sneaky’s cheeks were coloured a deep shade of pink, and the tips of his ears were red.
Jensen smiled faintly, and felt a small amount of satisfaction from looking at Sneaky’s embarrassed expression. Jensen didn’t plan to embarrass Sneaky the same way that he’s been doing to him all night, but it was a nice change. Jensen got caught up in his feelings for his teammate, and hoped that it didn’t spoil the mood between them. Jensen licked the vanilla icing off of his thumb, and noticed the way Sneaky’s eyes followed the movement of his tongue. Sneaky coughed dryly, and with that, the moment was gone.
“Gross.” Sneaky said in response to the way that Jensen just licked the icing off of his thumb. Jensen shrugged his shoulders simply, and grabbed a napkin to wipe his thumb with.
“I can’t let you waste the icing.” Jensen stuck his tongue out at Sneaky, who rolled his eyes. Admittedly, Jensen didn’t even like the icing that much. The thought of letting Sneaky lick it off had crossed his mind, but Jensen wasn’t sure if he wanted to keep leading himself on.
Their drinks were mostly finished by this point, and there were only a few bites of cake left. Sneaky’s gaze was drawn to the what was left of his cake, and his face lit up with a brilliant idea. Jensen could practically see the lightbulb above his head, and narrowed his eyes suspiciously at his teammate. Jensen quickly pieced together Sneaky’s motives when he grabbed the spoon, and scooped up the last bite.
“My turn.” Sneaky said simply, and lifted the spoon up. He held it just before Jensen’s mouth, and smiled playfully at the mid laner who looked mildly amused. “Say ah,”
“I’m not a child like you.” Jensen huffed, and crossed his arms. Sneaky giggled at Jensen’s mannerisms, and pushed the spoon closer to Jensen’s mouth. Jensen turned his face away from the spoon. “I don’t need to be fed.”
“C'mon. You know you want to.” Sneaky said encouragingly, and tilted his head to the side. Jensen’s eye twitched, and with a heavy sigh, he finally opened his mouth.
“Ah,” Jensen made the sound only to please Sneaky, knowing full well that it wasn’t required to be fed.
Sneaky indulged him earlier, so it was only fair that he did the same. When Jensen had finally had mouth around the spoon, Sneaky looked so damn pleased with himself that Jensen couldn’t stop the blush that crept onto his face in time. As Jensen took the time to chew the final bite of cake, he made sure to stick up his middle finger at Sneaky. In a strange way, Jensen found that the bite of cake tasted better than when he fed himself. The cake was fluffier, the strawberries tasted sweeter, and the icing wasn’t so unbearably sweet. Jensen reasoned that it was because it was the last bite, not because of the bright smile Sneaky had on face, nor was it because of the fluttery feeling in his stomach. Totally.
Jensen downed the rest of his now cold mocha to try and wash away the butterflies in his stomach. While he waited for Sneaky to finish savouring the last few drops his vanilla latte, Jensen waved the waitress over. As the waitress gradually made her way towards them, Jensen stopped to watch Sneaky curiously. Sneaky looked…happy, and it warmed Jensen’s cold, cold heart to look at Sneaky smile the way he did. Jensen felt a touch guilty for technically dragging Sneaky away from his friends at the party, but if Sneaky was upset by it, he couldn’t tell.
Jensen’s attention was drawn away from his teammate by the cheery sound of the waitress’ voice. The pair quickly cleaned up their table space by stacking the cups, plates, and the singular spoon together. Sneaky pulled out his wallet, and retrieved enough cash to pay for their order. The waitress collected their payment, and cleared off their table. With a small wave, the waitress bid the two farewell as they exited the warmth of the café.
They stumbled out of the door with smiles on their faces, but Jensen quickly grumbled when he felt the chilly weather start to worm its way into his core. A light breeze blew past the pair, and Jensen pulled Sneaky’s hoodie tighter around himself. When Jensen looked back up at the marksman, his nose was adorably red, and a snicker slipped out of Jensen’s lips. Even though the tips of Sneaky’s ears were starting to grow red, he didn’t look the slightest bit fazed by the weather, much to Jensen’s own contempt.
“How come you never cold but I always freeze my ass off?” Jensen pouted, and tugged the hood over his head. The sleeves were long enough to cover his hands, saving him the trouble of shoving them into his pockets. Jensen shivered, and looked at Sneaky enviously.
“You tell me, Jensen.” Sneaky shrugged, and reached out to grab Jensen’s hands. Jensen jumped slightly at the sudden contact, but relaxed before Sneaky had the chance to notice his surprise. Sneaky cupped his warm hands over Jensen’s cold ones, sharing his heat with the chilly mid laner. “You were born and raised in Denmark, shouldn’t you be used to the cold?”
“Exactly! How is this fair?” Jensen stared at their joined hands, and soon realized that his hands weren’t the only thing that was warming up. Fortunately, his blush was easy to conceal under the large hood.
The two lingered in front of the café for several minutes, with Sneaky simply warming up Jensen’s hands. Jensen shifted awkwardly, and stared at the floor. His hands were sufficiently warm now, but Jensen didn’t want to pull away. With each passing second, however, Jensen found himself growing more and more embarrassed.
“What’re we gonna do now?” Jensen cleared his throat, and debated on whether or not he should remove his hands. Fortunately (or unfortunately), Sneaky made the decision to remove his hands first. Jensen felt the loss of warmth immediately, and tried his hardest to hold onto it by shoving his hands into his pockets. Sneaky retrieved his phone from his back pocket, quickly unlocking it to reveal the time.
“It’s only 9:15. The party is probably still going.” Sneaky frowned, and tried to come up with a mental list of things they could do to pass the time. Sneaky ran his hand through his hair, like he always did when he was deep in thought. “We could go for a walk in the park.”
“A-Aren’t you cold?” Jensen shivered lightly, and tried to stop his teeth from chattering.
Sneaky shook his head, and flashed Jensen a teasing smile. “No, 'cause I’m not a pussy like you.”
Jensen stuck his tongue out at Sneaky, and the action rewarded him with the cheery sound of Sneaky’s laughter. Jensen coughed lightly, and tried to ignore the way his heart skipped a beat. “I assume you know where this park is. I sure as hell don’t.”
“Yeah, I do. C'mon.” Sneaky beckoned Jensen to follow him, who fell into step beside him with familiar ease. Sneaky led them further down the street, eventually turning into a clearing that revealed a path to the park.
Jensen recognized the park immediately. They’d visited the same park with the team when the weather was better, since Jack wanted the team to “get some fresh air for once”. It was a lot colder now, and the moon was out instead of the sun, but the park still had the same old charm to it. They entered the thick of the park, and various trees surrounded them, blocking their view to the street. Their red, orange, and yellow leaves blended together to paint a warm autumn picture, despite the chilly weather. Even as darkness shrouded them, the various park lights casted a soft orange glow on them, a stark contrast to the cool pale light from the moon. The park was quiet, since the majority of people retired to their beds at this hour.
The pair walked side to side, and their shoulders occasionally bumped each other because of how close they were. Once again, the pair was lost in their own little world, content to share their space with each other. It felt a bit like walking down memory lane, as his past experiences in the park slowly came back to him. Jensen remembered when Hai challenged him to a tree climbing challenge that ended up with him on the ground, and Hai ten feet above him. Sneaky must’ve remembered the exact same thing, because he started snickering moments later.
“What’s so funny?” Jensen asked carefully, despite knowing full well what Sneaky was going to say next. Jensen’s shoulders dropped when he followed Sneaky’s gaze—Sneaky was staring at the trees, just like he was. “Oh. No, don’t you dare bring that up again.”
“What, the time when you ended up on your ass while Hai demolished you?” Sneaky laughed, and poked Jensen lightly in the shoulder. Jensen grumbled dramatically, and rolled his eyes. “Bunny tried to give you a boost too!”
“There’s no way I would’ve beat Hai anyways.” Jensen huffed, and stared at his stick thin arms. Jensen glared at Sneaky’s giggling form, though his stern expression did nothing but encourage the marksman’s laughter. “I’m sorry that the only I’m capable of lifting is carrying your heavy ass in our LCS matches.”
“Suck my nuts, it’s hard playing ADC when you have to build Guardian’s Angel.” Sneaky shoved Jensen in the shoulder, causing his lanky teammate to stumble a bit. Sneaky stuck his tongue out at Jensen, who fumbled for a bit before finally recovering his balance. Sneaky smiled mockingly at Jensen. “And don’t worry about losing to Hai. You’re still the winner in my heart.”
Jensen rolled his eyes, “If only that was enough for me to beat Hai.”
Jensen chose to blatantly disregard the fact that Sneaky was rooting for him back then even though it was guaranteed that he was going to lose to Hai. He didn’t need to deal with his bullshit feelings. Jensen just wanted to remember their shared memories without having it skewed by his stupid, stupid little (huge) crush. The more he tried to ignore his feelings, the louder they got. Everything Sneaky said or did continued to fuel his false hope. Jensen couldn’t decide if it was worth it to live in ignorant bliss pretending that Sneaky really did feel the same way, or to risk it all just to get some closure.
“You’ll beat him next time, I’m sure.” Sneaky grinned, and started to wander off ahead of Jensen. Jensen quickly picked up the pace of his feet to keep up with his teammate, who suddenly looked like he had a plan in mind.
“I get the feeling that you’re taking us somewhere.” Jensen raised an eyebrow at Sneaky, who gave him a sideways smile.
“Not particularly.” Sneaky started, and Jensen waited for him to continue. Sneaky paused to gather his thoughts, before speaking again. “I just wanted to visit that shitty swing set again.”
Jensen recalled the swing set in question, with a faint touch of nostalgia. The last time they went it was pretty run down due to poor maintenance, but Sneaky seemed insistent on riding it anyways. Sneaky was even able to convince Jensen to push him, so he wouldn’t have to do the work himself. Jensen couldn’t personally remember having fun on the swing set. Instead, he remembered the sound of Sneaky’s childish laughter as he pushed him higher, and higher. Jensen remembered it as the first time he’d felt a shred of feeling for someone in a long, long time. He’d gone home that night and locked himself in his room to try and decipher the sudden warmth that blossomed in his chest.
“What if it’s not there anymore?” Jensen asked, and stared up at the night sky. The stillness of it was calming, yet the longer he stared at it the more it started to frustrate him. Jensen wished his thoughts were half as peaceful as the quiet sky, and yet they were anything but. They continued to grow louder, and Jensen’s eye twitched as he fought to silence them.
“Then I get to enjoy a simple walk in the park with you.” Sneaky said after a moment of consideration, and shrugged his shoulders simply. To Sneaky, the journey seemed to matter just as much as the destination, and Jensen wondered if his presence had anything to do with it.
Jensen didn’t reply after that, simply content to walk beside his teammate. Every now and then, Jensen glanced over to Sneaky, who was quietly humming a song that he didn’t recognize. There was a faint smile on his face, and it looked like he truly did enjoy their peaceful walk through the park. Although the moment was oh so simple, Jensen still found a lot of depth in it. Particularly in the way Sneaky managed to take his breath away by, well, merely being in his presence. In the quiet moment, Jensen was still charmed by the brilliant blue of Sneaky’s eyes, and his kissable lips. There was a strand of hair that was blown out of place by the wind, and Jensen wanted to fix it for the marksman, but stopped himself just short. Jensen sighed, as the fondness he had for Sneaky gripped at his chest.
Jensen made sure to look away before Sneaky caught him, because he was fairly certain that he had his feelings written all over his face. Even though Sneaky’s presence and the hoodie kept Jensen as warm as they possibly could, there was still a cold blanket that was draped over him. The coldness came from his own making, and Jensen would cry out in frustration if he could. For as much torment Jensen gave himself over his own feelings, the coldness he felt in his body whenever he pushed Sneaky away was infinitely worse. Sneaky made him happy in ways that no one else has ever done before, and Jensen didn’t want to give it up. Lost in his thoughts, Jensen didn’t realize it when Sneaky finally led them to where the swing set was. Jensen snapped his attention back to reality, and stared at the renovated swing set. It looked nearly identical…just newer.
“They replaced it.” Sneaky frowned, and tested one of the new swings. The black seat bounced back with newfound elasticity, and the metal chains no longer squeaked every time they shifted. Sneaky grumbled lightly. “Well, that’s disappointing.”
“Is it? I mean, it’s still here.” Jensen shrugged, and stood next to Sneaky. Jensen looked up at Sneaky’s careful expression. His lip was tugged slightly downward, and his eyebrows were furrowed. Jensen found himself mirroring Sneaky’s expression.
“The fact that it was so shitty was part of its charm, y'know?” Sneaky said simply, and there was an air of finality around his words. Sneaky shrugged dramatically, and just like that, any semblance of sadness was shaken from his form. “Oh well. Like I said, it wasn’t entirely a loss.”
“I guess it was nice to get some fresh air.” Jensen agreed, and glanced up to catch Sneaky looking at him fondly. Jensen coughed lightly, and tried to swallow the lump in his throat. If his thoughts weren’t so intrusive, Jensen imagined that he would’ve enjoyed their stroll through the park a touch more. “Better than whatever’s happening in the house.”
“Right?” A bright grin found its way onto Sneaky’s face. “I wonder how things are going for them.”
“They’re probably all wasted.” Jensen replied plainly, and shuddered at the thought of the hands that roamed across his skin. Jensen was…glad that Sneaky had dragged him out of the house. It was nice to spend some time with one of his closest friends, especially since their usual practice schedule kept them occupied throughout the day. “I saw Hai at some point. He was pretty hammered.”
Jensen’s eyes widened when he remembered what Hai said to him when they saw each other, and flushed slightly. Sneaky raised an eyebrow at the mid laner, but said nothing. Jensen let out a sigh of relief, and let Hai’s words wash over his thoughts. At first, Jensen didn’t think too much of what Hai said. But as the night dragged on, the more he realized how close they hit to home. Jensen felt a sense of completeness in Sneaky’s company, something he didn’t feel around anyone else he knew. Jensen knew he felt just fine on his own, of course he did, but there was something different about being around Sneaky. There was an air of warmth and radiance that followed Sneaky wherever he went, and Jensen craved that feeling as much as he desired to be in his company. Jensen huffed out a quiet laugh. Hai was right—Sneaky really was his better half.
“You never did tell me why you were holed up in the corner of the party.” Sneaky cleared his throat, and sound of it brought Jensen back to reality. Sneaky looked at Jensen with concern, and his eyes said the words that he couldn’t say out loud: talk to me. “At least not properly.”
Jensen was caught off guard by the question, but made sure to not show it on his face. “I was annoyed because people kept touching me. They were probably drunk or something, I don’t know.”
“I guess I also wasn’t in the mood to socialize.” Jensen pursed his lips, and stared at his hands. They were starting to grow red because the chilly atmosphere. At this point, Jensen didn’t care enough to put them back into his pockets. Jensen didn’t miss the way Sneaky’s gaze darkened as he confided in the marksman. Jensen frowned slightly, he really didn’t think much of it, but it clearly upset Sneaky. Jensen couldn’t parse why—unless there was something he was missing. “Why does it matter?”
“I—” Sneaky stuttered, and looked at a loss for words. Jensen waited patiently for his friend to come up with an answer. “I don’t know. You looked upset, and I just wanted to know why.”
“Is that really all?” Jensen looked at Sneaky intently, as if doing so would answer all his questions. Sneaky held his cards close to his chest, however, making his attempt futile in the end. Sneaky remained silent for a moment, and Jensen could faintly see the conflict in his eyes.
“I mean, you said they were touching you. Against your will.” Sneaky said at last, his tone serious as he spoke. Soon enough his gaze softened, and with it, his voice. The thought of people other than him touching Jensen caused a protective, maybe even jealous feeling to flare within Sneaky’s body. Sneaky knew that it wasn’t fair of him to think like that, but he couldn’t stop it even if he tried. “It just doesn’t…sit right with me.”
Jensen laughed dryly at Sneaky’s answer. “It’s not like I'm yours or anything. I dealt with it, and it’s fine now. You can stop worrying.”
Jensen left the 'you shouldn’t be worrying about me in the first place’ part unsaid. He figured it was implied enough, simply because he didn’t deserve the careful attention that Sneaky gave him. Surely there was someone more deserving of his…affection than he was.
“Why did you leave the house with me then?” Sneaky asked, and changed the topic. Jensen tried his damnedest to not show how upset he was, but Sneaky picked up on it anyways. “I would’ve left you alone if you wanted.”
“Yeah, but you’re…different.” Jensen replied vaguely, unable to find the right words to say. Jensen looked down, and fiddled with the loose threads on the sleeves of Sneaky’s hoodie, avoiding his teammate’s gaze.
“Different how?” Sneaky prompted, hopefully pushing Jensen towards the answer. Jensen succeeded in pulling out a loose thread, and looked back up at Sneaky.
“I actually like spending time with you.” Jensen admitted, and felt his cheeks heat up. Jensen wanted to stop talking then, but for whatever reason, his mouth kept moving. “Probably more than I should.”
“What—” Sneaky started to say, and reached out to Jensen. “What do you mean by that?”
“It’s nothing.” Jensen shrugged off the question, afraid to have said too much. He started to walk down the gravel path before them, effectively ending the conversation. From what he could tell, there was still a decent stretch they had to walk if they wanted to get out of the park.
At first, Jensen only felt a twinge of guilt for brushing Sneaky away like he did. But it quickly grew into something that was made worse when he heard Sneaky’s footsteps behind him. Jensen dared to look at Sneaky, and regretted it almost immediately. Jensen wanted to kick himself—what he saw on Sneaky’s face was not a look of hurt, but instead one of forgiveness and understanding. Jensen swallowed thickly, and almost wished that Sneaky wasn’t so goddamn kind. It would’ve made pushing Sneaky away a lot easier if Sneaky just hated him. Maybe then he could get over his feelings. But Sneaky didn’t hate him. The silence between the pair grew, though their physical distance to one another did not change. The silence wasn’t uncomfortable, rather things between them were simply…quiet. Jensen knew it was because of Sneaky’s presence—with him around, things always seemed to be okay, even if they weren’t.
Against everything that he wanted to tell himself, Jensen knew that pushing Sneaky away wouldn’t help. All it did was make him feel empty. Jensen’s hand twitched towards Sneaky’s, but he quickly pulled his hand back. Jensen wanted to feel the warmth of Sneaky’s hand in his own, but Jensen knew was just being selfish. He wanted all these things from Sneaky that he could never give. But then why did Sneaky still indulge him? Why did Sneaky still smile at him, still laugh at his jokes, still share his warmth with him? Why did Sneaky pretend to care even if it wasn’t true? The worst part was, Jensen didn’t even know what to believe anymore. He couldn’t tell what Sneaky’s intentions were anymore and it was really starting to fuck with his head.
Jensen slowed down his steps, and eventually came to a complete stop. They’d barely just started to walk again, and already he was stopping them. Jensen’s hands were shaking, and this time it wasn’t because of the cold. Jensen was upset, and he knew exactly why. He wanted to avoid thinking about it, should the reason turn out to be true. It took a few seconds, but eventually, Jensen heard Sneaky slowly come to a stop ahead of him. Jensen frowned when Sneaky turned around to face him.
“Jensen?” Sneaky asked, wondering where his friend had gone, and why he’d suddenly fallen behind.
Jensen caught a glimpse of Sneaky’s face before tearing his eyes away from the marksman’s expression. His face was laced with concern and confusion, and a slight frown tugged at his lips. Jensen clenched his fists slightly—he didn't deserve this. He didn’t deserve the concern Sneaky was giving him. Jensen stared at the ground. It would’ve been so much easier if Sneaky just didn’t care about him. But he did, and Jensen hated the fact that he couldn’t tell whether or not he was just being friendly or if there was something more between them.
“Stop.” Jensen shook his head, and took a step back. “Stop looking at me like that.”
“I don’t understand.” Sneaky flinched at the sudden harshness of Jensen’s words. He took a small step forward, closing the rift that Jensen tried to make between them. Even now, Sneaky didn’t look hurt. All Jensen could see on his face was concern, and nothing indicated that he was upset. Jensen wanted to scream at how frustratingly accommodating Sneaky was being with his shitty behaviour, but bit down on his tongue to stop himself. “Like what?”
“Like you give a shit.” Jensen managed to say, even though he felt like his throat was going to seize up from the tears that threatened to spill out. Jensen took a deep breath, and tore his eyes away from Sneaky’s face. His voice was barely above a whisper when he said, “Like you love me.”
“It’s not nice to you with peoples’ feelings, you know?” Jensen choked out, and finally mustered the courage to look Sneaky right in the eye.
He wasn’t upset at Sneaky. He never could be. Instead, he was upset at himself for falling for his best friend. Silence settled over the pair once more, and for a moment, Sneaky looked like he was at a loss for words. Instead of talking, he took another step towards Jensen. When Jensen couldn’t find the energy within himself to move away, Sneaky took another step forwards. And another, and another, until eventually he was standing right in front of the mid laner. Sneaky lifted his hands to Jensen’s face, and the mid laner could see them tremble. Jensen didn’t know what to expect, and closed his eyes, afraid. Sneaky slowly removed the hood that concealed Jensen’s face from the world. Jensen felt exposed and he desperately wished that the hood was back on his head. Jensen shivered as the cold air blew against his now exposed neck. Sneaky’s hands rested at Jensen’s shoulders when he finally decided to open his eyes again.
“Is that what this is all about?” Sneaky asked, almost incredulously. Jensen felt Sneaky’s hand brush the side of his neck, and he hated the way warmth spread to the area that Sneaky touched. “You…you are the densest motherfucker I have ever met, and I cannot believe that I fell for you.”
Jensen was stunned, and couldn’t find anything to say in response no matter how hard he tried. Sneaky didn’t seem to care, however. His hand moved up to properly rest on the side of Jensen’s neck, and the mid laner flinched at the stark difference between their body temperatures. Sneaky’s hand burned heat into his body, but it was far from unwelcome, especially in the frigid atmosphere of the night.
“I do love you, dipshit.” Sneaky confessed, and Jensen was surprised to see Sneaky’s face flush. Sneaky’s cheeks were coloured a soft shade of pink, and Jensen blinked dumbly. For a moment, he was distracted by Sneaky’s bashful expression. It was hard not to be—Sneaky looked adorable. Jensen let out a shaky breath, drawing Sneaky’s attention back to his face.
“Then prove it.” Jensen said before he had the time to think about it. Jensen quickly shut his mouth as panic flooded his system. He wasn’t sure what compelled him to say it, but it was too late to take it back.
Jensen’s heart beat wildly in his chest as Sneaky leaned forward, and slowly inched his hand up along Jensen’s neck to cup his jaw. Sneaky’s thumb brushed Jensen’s cheek, and the gesture felt so intimate, so fond that he forgot how to breathe. There was a moment where everything was still—everything from the pounding of his heart in his chest, to the rustling of the leaves around them. The only thing Jensen cared to pay attention to was the person standing right before him. The same person who brought happiness to his life, who brought warmth into his chest every time they smiled and more.
Sneaky was so close to him now that Jensen could taste the vanilla latte on his breath. Jensen had a second to prepare himself, just long enough to push Sneaky away if he didn’t want it. When Jensen didn’t move away, Sneaky bridged the gap between them. At first, Jensen felt panic seize around his chest. He knew exactly what to expect, but it still caught him off guard. It wasn’t until Sneaky’s hand cupped the back of his neck that remembered to close his eyes, and enjoy the moment. Jensen allowed himself to relax, and sighed contentedly into the kiss. He wrapped his arms around Sneaky’s waist, and pulled him in close.
Sneaky’s lips were just as soft as he imagined, if not even softer. The taste of the vanilla latte was subtle, but apparent enough for him to want more. The kiss was slow, but it set Jensen’s nerves ablaze nonetheless. Jensen let out a quiet gasp as Sneaky tangled his fingers in his hair, and Jensen gripped the marksman’s waist even tighter in response. Sneaky ran his tongue along Jensen’s lower lip, silently asking for permission. Jensen parted his lips, and Sneaky tilted Jensen’s chin up with his free hand, deepening the kiss. With his tongue freely exploring Sneaky’s mouth, the taste of his vanilla latte was even stronger, and Jensen couldn’t get enough. The kiss was sweet, almost sickeningly so, but it was perfect.
For the first time in a long while, Jensen felt like everything was right in the world. He could’ve sworn that in that very moment, he was the luckiest and happiest man in the world. His first kiss with Sneaky was everything he ever wanted, and more. When Sneaky finally broke the kiss to catch his breath, the first thought in Jensen’s mind was how he wanted to do that again. And again. And again, and as many times as Sneaky would let him. Jensen realized then how sore his cheeks felt. It occurred to him then just how much he was smiling. The last minute had finally caught up to him, and Jensen was fairly certain that he’d never blushed this hard in his life. Ever.
“Do you believe me now?” Sneaky asked, still breathless. He smiled brightly, and the corners of his eyes crinkled as he did so. Jensen couldn’t help but stare at the marksman. Jensen finally had the time to appreciate everything he ever loved about Sneaky, and he didn’t have to worry about having to look away.
Yes, yes, yes, Jensen was convinced a million times over, but that didn’t stop him from fishing for more. “No.”
“No?” Sneaky was taken aback at first, and carefully observed Jensen’s face. He spotted Jensen’s sly grin, and quickly clued in on his plan. Both of Sneaky’s hands now rested on the small of Jensen’s back, keeping him close. “What do I have to do to convince you then, hm?”
“I don’t know.” Jensen drawled, and smiled at Sneaky playfully. He drummed his fingers on Sneaky’s hip, earning him a small bubble of laughter from his teammate. “But I think another kiss would help.”
“Come here, you little shit.” Sneaky pulled Jensen in for another kiss, this time with less hesitance than the last.
Jensen allowed his eyes to flutter shut this time, and the panic that was in his mind previously was completely gone. The kiss was just as sweet as the last one, and Jensen couldn’t express how warm he felt. When they pulled away again, it wasn’t for long. Sneaky tugged Jensen forward again by the strings of his hoodie, and showered Jensen with kisses of affection. He littered kisses along Jensen’s cheeks, lips, and nose. Sneaky’s hand found its way into Jensen’s own, and he gripped it tightly. The cold midnight air around him didn’t even phase him anymore, and instead all he could focus on was the warmth of Sneaky’s hand as he held it. By the end of it all, Jensen’s head was in the clouds, and there was a smile on his face that didn’t want to leave. His heart was fluttering in his chest, and normally, he’d be annoyed by it. But just this once, he let himself be okay with it.
“I swear to God. You’re going to kill me.” Sneaky sighed with fond exasperation. He reached up, and brushed away a stray strand of Jensen’s hair, tucking it behind his ear.
“Why so?” Jensen hummed quietly, and patiently awaited Sneaky’s answer, though he had a slight suspicion as to what it was going to be.
“You’re so fucking adorable that it hurts.” Sneaky answered, and his affection for the mid laner squeezed at his heart. Sneaky’s thumb rubbed mindless circles on the back of Jensen’s hand, and Jensen could feel the fondness in his touch. Jensen laughed at Sneaky’s expression, and his shoulders shook in Sneaky’s hold. Sneaky hook his head profusely. “No, stop that. Stop being so cute.”
“You first.” Jensen countered once his laughter had died down. His cheeks were starting to feel sore from how much he was smiling, but Jensen couldn’t be bothered to care. The air around them shifted from frantic excitement to a more serene atmosphere. It was easy to simply enjoy the company of his teammate, but Jensen appreciated Sneaky’s presence now more than ever.
“Why didn’t you just kiss me earlier?” Sneaky asked, and ran his hand along the slope of Jensen’s neck. Sneaky’s touch sent shivers down Jensen’s spine, and he leaned into the warmth it offered. Sneaky fingers started to play with the hair at the back of Jensen’s neck, and a small smile tugged at his lips. “I would’ve been fine with it, y'know?”
“Yeah?” Jensen raised an eyebrow at the marksman. He faintly registered the fact that they were currently sharing a rather intimate moment out in public, but quickly brushed the thought aside. Jensen hadn’t seen anyone else walk into the park since they entered nearly 20 minutes ago. “And how was I supposed to know that?”
“Dude. I’ve been flirting with you for months. Hell, years, even.” Sneaky cried incredulously, and poked Jensen lightly in the nose, laughing at the way his face scrunched up in response. “How obvious did you want me to get?”
Jensen laughed at Sneaky’s misfortune, and decided to keep his end of the struggles quiet for time being. “No, fuck you for being so dense! Do you know how hard I pined for you?”
“Hey, I pined for you just as much!” Jensen laughed even harder, and stumbled slightly when Sneaky shoved him lightly. Sneaky’s face burned with embarrassment as he buried his face in Jensen’s shoulder. Jensen reached up to embrace the marksman, and snickered into his ear. “You and your stupid little fuckin’ smile always distracted me during our VOD reviews 'cause all I wanted to do was kiss you!”
“Yeah, sucks that you were too big of a pussy to do it. I ended up having to be the one to make the first move, fuck you.” Sneaky huffed, and tilted his face so he could look at Jensen. Sneaky caught Jensen’s adoring expression, and felt his mind go blank. Sneaky blinked, and waited for his thoughts to recover from Jensen’s adorably distracting face.
“Well, at least it worked out in the end.” Jensen mused, stared off into the distance. The tree branches swayed rhythmically, and Jensen found himself caught up in their tranquil movements. Jensen felt like a weight had been taken off his shoulders. For years Jensen had been so worried about ruining their friendship that he forced himself to swallow his feelings. Try as he might, Sneaky always managed to drag those feelings back to the surface without fail. At least now he knew better than to try and bury them.
“There’s still a shit load of time left until the party ends.” Sneaky pointed out, and briefly let go of Jensen’s hand to check the time. Much to Jensen’s own surprise, he didn’t feel the loss of Sneaky’s hand as much as he did a while back. When Sneaky threaded his fingers between Jensen’s own once more, he welcomed the contact with a smile. “There’s two hours left until midnight, to be specific.”
“What the hell do we do until then?” Jensen sighed, and quietly wondered how people had it in themselves to party for several hours straight. He supposed the alcohol helped a lot.
“Who knows.” Sneaky shrugged, and lightly tugged Jensen forward. Sneaky turned to face the path that led them out of the park, and gave Jensen a small smile over his shoulder. “We’ll figure something out.”
Jensen rolled his eyes at Sneaky’s overly positive demeanour, but allowed himself to be pulled forwards with their hands intertwined. “Whatever you say.”
—
To pass the time, Sneaky had the bright idea to drag Jensen to every corner of the city that was within walking distance, and managed to get them lost. By the time they returned to the house, it was an entire hour past midnight. The pair snuck into the quiet house with their poorly muffled snickers, and pushed the front door open as silently as they could manage. Every time someone’s laughter threatened to grow louder, it was met with exaggerated hushing, and even more laughter.
“Shut the fuck up!” Sneaky whispered harshly, and abruptly froze when he spotted some movement in the corner of his eye.
“You first.” Jensen replied, and rolled his eyes.
All the lights were turned off in the house, forcing the pair to rely on the flashlights on their phones if they wanted to avoid stepping on something, or someone. Sneaky held Jensen’s hand tightly, and the pair quietly tiptoed around the empty beer bottles and crushed red solo cups that were strewn across the living room. There were a few passed out faces that neither Jensen nor Sneaky recognized, and they were carefully draped on the couches. Careful to not wake them up, Sneaky covered his mouth with his hand, and continued to yank Jensen forward.
The pair fumbled into Jensen’s room, where they promptly shut the door behind themselves. Jensen blindly ran his hands along the wall until he felt the light switch. He flicked his bedroom light on, and winced at the sudden bright light. Jensen slumped against the door, with Sneaky haphazardly draped against him. Jensen’s sides hurt from laughing so much, and he needed a minute (or two) to recover. Jensen wrapped his arms around the giggling marksman at his chest, and rested his chin atop his head. Jensen waited until Sneaky’s laughter died down before pulling away. Jensen had a curious smile on his face, one that Sneaky answered with a playful grin of his own.
“I can’t believe you actually got us lost.” Jensen shook his head when Sneaky’s grin only grew wider. “This is all your fault, you know?”
“I told you we shouldn’t have made a left turn!” Sneaky cried in defence of himself, and pouted at Jensen. With just one look, Jensen’s resolve was shattered. Jensen sucked in a deep breath, and tore his eyes away from Sneaky’s stupidly blue puppy dog eyes. While Jensen’s eyes were diverted from Sneaky’s face, a look of victory flashed across the marksman’s features.
“Fine, fine.” Jensen conceded, and picked himself off of the door. He gently ushered Sneaky further into his room, and pressed a quick kiss to his cheek before pulling away from their embrace.
Jensen quickly flicked off his bedroom light, and instead turned on the lamp on his nightstand. The light from his lamp was significantly dimmer than his overhead light, and it strained his eyes far less. Jensen unzipped Sneaky’s hoodie, and threw it onto his chair, not caring when it landed on it like a bundle of fabric. As Jensen kicked off his own shoes, he motioned for Sneaky to do the same.
Jensen hesitated for a fraction of a second, before reaching out to grab Sneaky’s hand and pull him towards the bed. When Sneaky raised an eyebrow at him, Jensen flushed a deep shade of red. “W-What? I just wanted to cuddle with you.”
Sneaky nodded slowly, and kept a sly smirk on his face. “Right.”
Jensen’s brain stuttered to a stop when he realized what Sneaky had implied, and turned away before he could embarrass himself any further. Jensen led Sneaky to the bed, but Sneaky stopped right before they reached it. This time, it was Jensen’s turn to be confused. Sneaky lightly pushed Jensen onto the bed, and waited for him to settle down before continuing. “Give me a second to get more comfortable first.”
Jensen watched Sneaky with rapt curiosity, and his eyes widened as he realized what Sneaky was doing. Sneaky started to lift the bottom of his sweater up and over his head. As he did so, the shirt he wore underneath it hiked up above his waist, and revealed a flash of Sneaky’s bare skin. Jensen choked, and found himself unable to tear his eyes away from the exposed patch of skin. Jensen couldn’t help but be distracted by it, and it was only made worse when his mind started to wander. Lost in his thoughts, Jensen was unable to look away fast enough before Sneaky caught him. Jensen made eye contact with Sneaky’s questioning gaze, and finally forced himself to divert his eyes with a shallow cough.
“The shirt can come off too, if you’d like.” Sneaky teased, and reached down to grab the hem of his shirt. Jensen reached out, and stopped Sneaky’s hands before they had the chance to reveal even more of his smooth, smooth skin.
“N-No, no. It’s fine.” Jensen said far too quickly, and wrenched his eyes shut, as if it would force the blush off of his face. Jensen bit his lip, and shoved all thoughts of Sneaky’s bare skin to the back of his mind. “You can keep your shirt on.”
“If you insist.” Sneaky said, pretending to be disappointed as he approached the bed. Sneaky sat down next to Jensen, and leaned into his side.
“There will be plenty of time to stare later, I promise.” Sneaky winked, and wore a flirty smile. He ran his hand through his hair, making it a touch messier. Jensen coughed dryly when Sneaky licked his lips, and shifted on his spot on the bed.
“For now,” Sneaky fell back onto the inviting comfort of the bed, and stretched his arms out. Sneaky made grabby hands at Jensen’s shirt, and urged the mid laner to join him. “Come cuddle with me, bitch. You were the one who wanted this in the first place.”
Jensen nodded, and nudged Sneaky over a bit before lying down next to him. Jensen’s bed was fairly small, and the pair had a bit of difficulty finding a position that was comfortable for the both of them. Jensen’s limbs were long and lanky, and his elbows and knees kept poking into Sneaky’s sides. Sneaky couldn’t help but laugh at Jensen’s embarrassment, and quietly hushed his concerns with a kiss to the forehead. With a bit of maneuvering and shifting around, they eventually settled down. Jensen was closer to Sneaky now than he’d ever been before, and it was…a more than welcome change.
Sneaky buried his face in Jensen’s chest, and wrapped his arms around Jensen’s waist. Jensen’s chest swelled with affection as Sneaky curled up next to him. The air conditioning in the house was still cranked up to high, and normally, Jensen would’ve buried himself under three different blankets. With Sneaky lying next to him however, the extra body heat was enough to keep the cold at bay. Once Sneaky had made himself comfortable next to Jensen’s side, Jensen brought his hand up to Sneaky’s hair, and stopped himself short. Sneaky was busy nuzzling his chest, and didn’t notice the hesitance that swept through Jensen’s mind in that moment.
After a great deal of pointless thinking, Jensen swallowed his doubts and threaded his fingers through Sneaky’s hair. Sneaky made a pleased sound, and leaned into his touch. Jensen felt his cheeks flush at how receptive Sneaky was to his touch, and continued to play with the soft, soft hair. Jensen combed his fingers through Sneaky’s hair, delighting in the way the blond locks felt like silk against his fingers—and much to Jensen’s own surprise, there wasn’t a single knot to be found.
“I never thought that I’d ever be able to do this.” Jensen commented quietly. Jensen withdrew his hand slightly when Sneaky pulled away from his chest to meet his gaze.
“What, play with my hair?” Sneaky asked, and laughed lightly when Jensen nodded his head. Sneaky reached up, and slowly guided Jensen’s hand back into his hair. Sneaky’s eyes fluttered shut, and he sighed contentedly. “Well, I think it feels nice, and that means you’re free to play with my hair for as long as you want.”
The pair lay next to each other in silence, and the quiet ticking of Jensen’s clock in the background was the only indication of time passing. The sound was accompanied by the faint sound of their breathing, and Jensen appreciated the peacefulness of the moment. It was nice, Jensen thought, to simply laze around in bed with Sneaky. There wasn’t much movement aside from his hand that was preoccupied with Sneaky’s hair, the occasional shift of their limbs, and whenever Sneaky decided to snuggle closer to his chest. There was nothing special about what they were doing per se, but it was more than Jensen ever imagined he’d be doing with Sneaky, and it filled him with a deep sense of love for the marksman. Still, there was something that Jensen wanted to be certain about.
“This means we’re official, right?” Jensen asked, and the hesitation in his voice was made clear when he stuttered. Sneaky snorted against Jensen’s chest, and pulled away to stare up at the mid laner.
“Yes, it does, you idiot.” Sneaky reassured Jensen, and playfully poked the mid laner on the nose. Jensen blinked on instinct, and lightly swatted away Sneaky’s hand, muttering a faint stop that, as he did so. It didn’t stop a smile from forming on Jensen’s face however, and Sneaky counted it as another victory. Jensen cleared his throat, drawing Sneaky’s attention once more.
“I’ve uh. Never actually done this before—been in a proper relationship, that is.” Jensen admitted nervously, and stared at the wall behind Sneaky. He felt Sneaky nod, which prompted him to continue. “Dumb flings every now and then, but nothing particularly meaningful.”
“Mm, we can take things as slow as you want.” Sneaky soothed with a hushed voice, and traced delicate patterns onto Jensen’s back. Sneaky’s hand served as a distraction from his own intrusive thoughts, and Jensen appreciated it more than he could express in words. Sneaky pressed a light kiss to Jensen’s collarbone, and looked at Jensen closely. “Do you want to tell the others?”
Jensen paused to think about Sneaky’s question. He wasn’t ashamed of being in a relationship with Sneaky, God no. His doubts were his own, and they came from within. “Not yet.”
“Alright then, we can wait.” Sneaky agreed simply, and rested his head in the crook of Jensen’s neck. Their legs were tangled together, and Jensen felt safe next to Sneaky. He felt like the world could have thrown anything at him, and he would’ve been able to overcome it. Sneaky’s breath tickled at his neck, but Jensen didn’t find himself caring too much. “But you do know that everyone on this team has been trying to get us in each other’s pants, right?”
Jensen knew that it was Sneaky’s way of telling him that the team would accept their relationship, and he appreciated the message. Even then, Jensen didn’t care what everyone else would think or say about them. Everything had happened so quickly—he’d gone from being frustrated over his feelings, to cuddling with the person he’d pined for several years in the span of a day. It was a lot to wrap his mind around. With a deep sigh, Jensen leaned forward and tucked Sneaky’s head under his chin. Jensen clung to the marksman as if he would vanish if he let go, and buried his face in the blond locks of hair. Jensen breathed in, and found himself strangely comforted by the familiar scent of Sneaky’s shampoo.
“I know that. I just want to…come to terms with things first.” Jensen mumbled into Sneaky’s hair. “Get a feel for what it’s like to be in a relationship with someone.”
“It’s just—we’ve been friends for so long.” Jensen elaborated, and struggled to articulate his thoughts clearly. He was blurting out whatever came to mind, and hoped that it was enough for Sneaky to understand. "I just have to get used to the fact that there are things I can do with you now that I couldn’t do before.“
Jensen smiled affectionately at Sneaky, and lightly kissed the top of his head. "Like kiss you.”
“I could get used to receiving kisses from you.” Sneaky replied playfully, earning him a quick burst of laughter from his partner. Sneaky opted to return the favour, and gently kissed his way up Jensen’s jaw. “We’ll work everything out eventually.”
“Can I ask you something?” Jensen spoke up abruptly, though he had great difficulty getting his request out. Instead, Jensen did what he always did when he didn’t know how to get his point across—he started to ramble. “I mean like, I know I’ve been asking you for a lot tonight, especially with the whole kissing and cuddling thing.”
“Jensen.”
“Which is really nice by the way, I really, really like this—” Jensen continued to ramble nervously, conveniently ignoring Sneaky’s first attempt to get his attention.
“Jensen.” Sneaky cut in, and finally succeeded in silencing the mid laner. “You wanted to ask me something?”
“Right.” Jensen mentally shook himself for getting distracted by his own thoughts—again. Jensen gripped the back of Sneaky’s shirt, and remembered what he was trying to ask in the first place. “Will you stay with me for the night?”
Sneaky blinked at Jensen confusedly. With the way Jensen worked himself up over it, Sneaky expected it to be much worse.
“Is that it?” Sneaky furrowed his brows, and looked up at Jensen intently. Sneaky huffed out a laugh as his heart was filled with fondness for the man he held in his arms. “Of course I’ll stay with you.”
“I’m not gonna leave you, Jensen. Especially not while I’m all cozy n’ shit lying next to you.” Sneaky reassured Jensen with a warm smile on his face. Sneaky traced a faint heart on Jensen’s back, and snickered lightly when a blush crept up onto Jensen’s cheeks. “I’ll stay over as much as you want me to.”
“Every other night?” Jensen proposed tentatively, and returned Sneaky’s smile shyly.
“Sure.” Sneaky accepted with ease, and Jensen wondered why his heart swelled over such a simple thing. Jensen wished that it meant the last of his worries was dispelled, but deep down he knew there was still something. Something he didn’t want to express in words because it hurt to just think about it.
“There’s still something else on your mind, isn’t there?” Sneaky asked suddenly, as if he read Jensen’s mind.
Jensen’s eyes widened with surprise. “Is it that obvious?”
“To me, yeah.” Sneaky raised an eyebrow at Jensen. He wasn’t amazing at reading people, not by far, but with Jensen, it came rather easily to him. After years of knowing him, Sneaky learned all the subtle cues that indicated what Jensen could’ve been thinking or feeling at any given moment. “You’re like an open book around me.”
It was something they both noticed. For whatever reason, the walls that Jensen built up around himself vanished completely when he was around Sneaky. Sneaky’s piercing blue eyes saw right through whatever bullshit Jensen made up without fail, and soon enough he realized he couldn’t hide from Sneaky. Jensen realized that he didn't want to hide from Sneaky. On stage, in front of crowds of thousands of people, he was different—Jensen was focused on winning, and even played up his cocky attitude. When he was alone with Sneaky, he was…okay with being himself. In some ways, he didn’t like it. Jensen didn’t like the feeling of being exposed, the feeling of being read. But the more time he spent with Sneaky, the less and less he felt like it was a bad thing. Jensen knew he could trust Sneaky, even though it took a great deal of effort to open up to him.
“Talk to me, Jensen.” Sneaky said earnestly, and reached his hand up to brush Jensen’s cheek with his thumb. Jensen knew he wanted to tell Sneaky, to let him in, but it was so, so hard to. Still, Sneaky waited patiently. He waited for Jensen to find the right words to say, and Jensen felt his chest tighten. Jensen let out a shuddery breath, and finally forced the words out.
“I don’t deserve this.” Jensen said at last, and stared at the wall behind Sneaky instead of looking him in the eye. Jensen felt the hand on his back come to a stop, and Jensen quickly scrambled to string his next sentence together. Jensen knew Sneaky’s eyes were on him, but he couldn’t dare to look at them. “I mean, there has to be someone out there that’s better for you. Someone who isn’t an asshole.”
“Sure, you may be an asshole, but so am I.” Sneaky added once Jensen had stopped talking. The marksman tilted Jensen’s head so he could look at him in the eyes. “I think it’s part of why we work so well together, you feel me?”
“And besides, I don't want anyone else.” Sneaky watched as Jensen swallowed nervously, and he could see the panic flash Jensen’s eyes. Sneaky reached down to grab Jensen’s hand, and laced their fingers together. Sneaky rubbed soothing circles into the back of Jensen’s hand, and waited for him to calm down. “I only want you.”
“I fell in love with you, not someone else.” Jensen remained painfully silent, and it would’ve deterred Sneaky if he wasn’t already committed to proving his point. Sneaky cared about Jensen, and he would’ve done anything to prove it. “I fell in love with everything about you. Even your flaws.”
“You…you deserve to be happy.” Sneaky said, and moved his free hand down to Jensen’s chest. Sneaky’s palm rested against Jensen’s heart, and the beating of his heart revealed the things that were on his mind. Sneaky hummed quietly, “And I hope to make you as happy as you make me.”
“You already do.” Jensen whispered quietly, and if the room wasn’t already silent, Sneaky would’ve missed it. Jensen’s eyes widened—the words slipped out of his mouth before he could even think about them. Jensen quickly wrenched his eyes shut, too afraid to see Sneaky’s reaction to what he said. Jensen could already feel his face start to heat up from embarrassment. “Oh, shit. I didn’t mean to say that out loud.”
Jensen knew his heart was racing, and though he tried to hide his emotions, he knew Sneaky could feel it. His shoulders felt stiff, and his lips were pressed together in a thin line. Jensen was…nervous—he was more nervous than when he played on stage against SKT. His anxiety gnawed at his insides despite all the things Sneaky was trying to do to soothe him. Jensen heard Sneaky’s breath hitch, and he couldn’t tell if it was in a good or bad way. Sneaky gripped Jensen’s hand even tighter, and he heard the marksman take a deep, shuddery breath.
“I—” Sneaky stuttered, his words suddenly a lot harder to come by than they were a few moments ago. He didn’t expect Jensen to say that, and suddenly all he could hear was the sound of blood rushing to his ears. Jensen didn’t know just how nervous Sneaky was in that moment—Sneaky was just as nervous as him. As Sneaky looked at Jensen’s flustered expression, he felt like he was falling in love with the mid laner all over again. Sneaky brought his hand back up to Jensen’s face, and gently cupped his cheek. “I’m so, so glad to hear that.”
Jensen took a deep breath, and finally allowed himself to open his eyes again. Jensen looked into Sneaky’s brilliant blue eyes, then quickly snapped them away. Sneaky’s eyes were too honest, too fond, and Jensen hesitated to properly look at them. Jensen didn’t want to know what would happen if the look went away, so he figured it would be easier to simply…not look at all. Jensen didn’t think he’d ever be able to forget Sneaky’s look of fondness if they were to break up. Before Jensen could follow that train of thought, Sneaky gently brushed his cheek with his thumb. Jensen was snapped back to reality, but still avoided Sneaky’s gaze.
“I can tell you’re still afraid.” Sneaky pointed out quietly. Sneaky knew he had to be patient—the last thing he wanted to happen was for Jensen to completely shut him out. “Even now, you won’t look me in the eye.”
“I’m not going to leave you the moment something goes wrong, Jensen.” Sneaky reassured Jensen softly, and pressed a light kiss against the mid laner’s lips. Sneaky loved this man so damn much, and he wished there was an easier way to get Jensen to understand. “Let me prove to you that there’s nothing to be afraid of.”
“Trust me.” Sneaky could only hope that he wasn’t asking for too much out of Jensen. When Jensen finally looked up at Sneaky, the marksman felt relief flood into his body. Sneaky could see the hesitation in Jensen’s eyes, but he wasn’t looking away now, and a bright smile found its way onto Sneaky’s face. Ever so slowly, the hesitance faded from Jensen’s icy blue eyes, and he lightly nodded his head.
“…Okay. I trust you.” Jensen said at last, because he does trust Sneaky. Jensen has always trusted Sneaky, but saying the words made it feel all the more real. No matter how many times he tried to talk himself into doubting things, he could never doubt his sense of trust for Sneaky—it was the one of the few things he was always certain about (that, and his feelings for the marksman, of course).
Now that the words were finally out, Jensen felt relief rush through his system. Another weight had been lifted off his chest, and all it took was for him to place his trust in Sneaky. Jensen took in a deep breath, and finally worked up the courage to hold Sneaky’s gaze again. Jensen could see the love in Sneaky’s eyes, and waited for the fear of it going away to bubble up again—but it never did.
“Can I kiss you?” Jensen asked, and reached out to lightly tilt Sneaky’s chin up. Jensen’s thumb brushed the corner of Sneaky’s lip, and the marksman continued to stare at him with his bright blue doe-like eyes.
“What?” A look of confusion crossed Sneaky’s face as he parsed Jensen’s question. Jensen didn’t ask to kiss him before, so why was he doing it now? “I mean, yeah. Totally. Kiss me.”
Jensen tilted Sneaky’s chin up, and pulled him in close. This time, Jensen was the one to initiate the kiss, and Sneaky followed his lead with ease. Jensen brushed his lips against Sneaky’s, and let his eyes flutter shut. Sneaky squeezed his hand lightly as Jensen kissed him with more insistence than last time. Jensen felt the hand on his chest grab a fistful of his shirt, while the sound of Sneaky’s content sigh filled his ears. Jensen traced Sneaky’s lower lip with the tip of his tongue, and smiled faintly to himself when Sneaky parted his lips for him. Jensen slipped his tongue into Sneaky’s mouth, and slowly started to map all the details into his mind. Jensen heard Sneaky’s breath hitch, and took it as a sign to deepen the kiss.
Jensen could still taste hints of vanilla latte on Sneaky’s tongue, and chased after the pleasantly sweet taste hungrily. He threaded his fingers through Sneaky’s hair, relishing in the hushed gasp that the marksman let out. Jensen dedicated his mind to remembering all the things that got a reaction out of Sneaky, from the way grazing his bottom lip would cause his breath to catch in his throat, to the way he would groan quietly as his hair was gripped even tighter. Jensen removed his hand from Sneaky’s hair, only to rest it at the back of his neck. Jensen felt Sneaky’s skin heat up as he ran his tongue along the roof of his mouth, and burned the sound of Sneaky’s breathy moan into his memory.
Jensen finally pulled away to catch his breath, and looked at Sneaky lovingly. Sneaky’s face was flushed, and the quiet sound of his panting was the only noise that the marksman made for a while. Sneaky’s eyes wandered up to meet Jensen’s gaze with a faint look of surprise in them. Sneaky always had the slight suspicion that Jensen was a good kisser but he was floored by just how good Jensen was. Sneaky wordlessly stared at Jensen’s smug smile, and lightly shook his head.
“Why did you ask to kiss me?” Sneaky asked Jensen with a raised eyebrow. Not that he minded the question, but it still caught him off guard. “I’m your boyfriend now, remember?”
“Yeah, I know. I just like hearing you say yes.” Jensen answered simply, and snickered quietly at the way Sneaky’s face turned even redder than it was previously.
Jensen’s snickers grew into laughter when Sneaky tried to hide his blush with his hands, which did nothing but make the marksman’s blush even worse. Jensen found the move to be so endearing, and wrapped his arms around Sneaky’s body, holding the marksman still as he tried to squirm away from his embrace. Jensen ignored Sneaky’s muffled cries of 'no, you’re gay, let me go’, and laughed over his protests. Jensen understood why Sneaky got such a kick out of making him blush—not only was it amusing to watch Sneaky grow embarrassed, it was also adorable as hell. Sneaky swatted at Jensen’s back in a poor attempt to get him to let go. Sneaky eventually gave up, and let his arms fall onto the bed with a dull thud.
“You fucking hopeless romantic.” Sneaky muttered under his breath as his face burned from embarrassment. Sneaky turned his face away, and playfully shoved Jensen on the shoulder. Jensen wrapped his arms around Sneaky even tighter, and the marksman let out a final sigh of defeat. Although his face was covered, Jensen could feel Sneaky smile against his chest.
“I never thought I’d get to call you that. My boyfriend.” The entire situation still felt so surreal to Jensen, but some how, saying the word out loud made it this much easier to believe it. Jensen loosened his hold on Sneaky, and pulled away. Sneaky’s cheeks were still coloured a pale pink, and Jensen would’ve pinched his cheeks if his arms weren’t busy hugging the marksman. Jensen caught Sneaky’s flustered eyes, and smiled at him shyly.
“Well, I’m yours now, for as long as you’ll have me.” Sneaky replied fondly, and mirrored Jensen’s smile with one of his own. Jensen’s breath was taken away by Sneaky’s smile, and he was reminded of the first time he realized his feelings for his teammate. It was back at that shitty swing set, and his heart squeezed as he was reminded of the memory.
“Hopefully forever.” Jensen whispered quietly before he had the chance to stop himself. Jensen felt his heart skip a beat—he did not just say that out loud. Jensen quickly realized how bad he was at holding his tongue around Sneaky. What Sneaky said was already bad enough, and Jensen just had to go and one up him…. “Shit. That was—”
“Really gay.” Sneaky joked, completing Jensen’s sentence with an amused grin. Jensen made a choked sound, then nodded his head in agreement. There wasn’t a single thing about their current situation that wasn't gay, and the fact made Sneaky’s joke even funnier.
Jensen can only wonder how flustered he looked at the moment, because Sneaky was trying so hard to not laugh at him. Every time a giggle slipped from Sneaky’s lips, Jensen found that it was even harder to hold in his own laughter. They tried to avoid laughing for what must’ve been minutes, before Jensen finally broke the silence.
“Sneaky pride.”
As the words slipped out of Jensen’s mouth, the pair burst out into laughter. Jensen knew he was being immature, and he silently thanked Sneaky for indulging his shitty sense of humour. The sound of their giggles filled the silence in the once quiet room, spreading happiness to the air around them. Jensen’s heart felt so full of love and affection for the man he held in his arms, and Jensen could tell that Sneaky felt the same way. Jensen pulled Sneaky in close, and pressed their foreheads together. Jensen wanted to cherish this moment forever, and wondered what exactly he’d done to deserve this newfound happiness. In that moment, Jensen knew that no matter where the future took him, he would always want to have Sneaky by his side.
Jensen caught Sneaky’s gaze, and couldn’t help it when a smile crept onto his face. Jensen was unsurprised to see that Sneaky was already smiling at him. “God, you’re perfect. Where have you been my entire life?”
“Right next door, dumbass.” Sneaky replied with ease, and smiled smugly at Jensen. “Too bad it took you this long to notice.”
“Fuck off, don’t make me kick you out of my bed.” Jensen huffed petulantly, knowing that his hesitance to initiate their relationship would be subjected to Sneaky’s teasing for a long, long time.
“You wouldn’t dare.” Sneaky gasped out in mock offense, which only caused Jensen to narrow his eyes at the marksman. Sneaky didn’t buy Jensen’s threat, and his smile grew even more smug.
“I bet you can’t even push me out of this bed.” Sneaky said with confidence, and the look in his eyes silently dared Jensen to try. “Especially not with those noodle arms of yours.”
“Is that a challenge?” Jensen simply raised an eyebrow at Sneaky, and wiggled out of Sneaky’s embrace to sit up on his bed. Jensen wedged his hands underneath Sneaky’s body, and started to nudge him towards the edge. Sneaky’s eyes widened with surprise, and he quickly grabbed onto Jensen’s shirt to try and stop him.
“Wait, wait, wait.” Sneaky cried out, and stared up at Jensen pleadingly. “You’re not actually going to kick me out, are you?”
“I can, and I will, bitch.” Jensen answered plainly. It was his turn to be smug, because Sneaky started to vehemently shake his head.
“No, Jensen you can’t do this do me.” Sneaky whined, and started to resist Jensen’s effort to push him out of the bed. Despite his attempts, Sneaky found himself being pushed closer, and closer to the edge of the bed. At this rate, he was going to fall out of it. If he wanted to stay in the bed, he was going to have to do something, and quickly. “Okay, you asked for this.”
“Two can play that game.” Sneaky said pointedly, and it was Jensen’s only warning before Sneaky managed to tug Jensen toward the bed, and used his downward momentum to flip him onto his back. Jensen let out a startled sound, and his head spun slightly from how quickly his position had changed. Sneaky’s hands kept Jensen’s shoulders pinned to the bed, and his knees rested on either side of the mid laner’s hips.
Jensen stared up at the marksman, distracted by the way Sneaky’s hair was parted perfectly, even in this position. Jensen swallowed thickly, all the control he had over the situation slipped out of his fingers, and now Sneaky was in charge. Jensen quietly wondered what Sneaky was going to do next, especially since they were in such a…suggestive position. Sneaky brushed Jensen’s bangs to the side, and leaned down to press a kiss against his forehead. Jensen’s eyes fluttered shut, and he felt his heartbeat speed up as Sneaky’s lips trailed along the bridge of his nose, before planting another kiss at the tip of his nose.
Jensen tried to squirm away from Sneaky’s sloppy kisses, embarrassed by the sudden display of affection. Jensen’s face was on fire, and this fact only spurred Sneaky forwards. Sneaky pecked both of Jensen’s cheeks, and grabbed his chin to tilt the mid laner’s face back towards him. Jensen knew what to expect next, but still felt his heart skip a beat when Sneaky’s lips finally brushed against his own. Jensen gave up on his squirming, and allowed Sneaky to have his way with him. Jensen could feel the way Sneaky’s lips curled into a smile after that, but Jensen was too lost in the kiss to care.
“I win.” Sneaky declared once he pulled away from the kiss. The smug look was still on Sneaky face, and Jensen merely pouted in response. Sneaky’s smug expression wavered ever so slightly as a result, and Jensen figured a small victory was better than none.
“This time, maybe. But next time, I won’t go easy on you.” Jensen retorted, and poked Sneaky in the chest warningly. Jensen grabbed at the hem of Sneaky’s shirt, and tugged on it lightly. “Get your ass back on the bed.”
“Alright, chill.” Sneaky rolled his eyes playfully, and allowed Jensen to pull him back down onto the bed. Once settled, Sneaky turned to face Jensen. “Wait, do you want to be the big spoon or the little spoon?”
Jensen furrowed his brows, and mentally weighed the pros and cons of each option. Eventually, he rolled over so his back was facing Sneaky. “I’ll be the little spoon.”
“Fine with me.” Sneaky grinned and wrapped his arms and legs around Jensen’s small frame. Jensen fit snugly against Sneaky’s chest, and everything about their situation was so cozy that for the first time since the night had started, Jensen felt tired.
Jensen yawned as if on cue, causing Sneaky to chuckle lightly. “Tired already?”
“Fuck you, it’s been a long day.” Jensen mumbled sleepily, and tugged on Sneaky’s arms until they were wrapped comfortably around his waist. The events of the day had finally caught up to him, and Jensen felt his eyelids start to grow heavy.
“Yeah, you’re right.” Sneaky agreed eventually, and smiled fondly at the half asleep mid laner in his arms. Sneaky shook his head lightly, and briefly let go of Jensen to turn the light off.
Sneaky leaned forward, and pressed a gentle kiss to the back of Jensen’s head. “Good night.”
“G’night.” Jensen said quietly, and smiled faintly at the subtle gesture from Sneaky.
Jensen felt like a flame inside his heart had been rekindled after so many years of being cold. For a while, Jensen wasn’t too sure what he wanted out of life. He was content with where he was in life, but it always felt like something was missing. Ever since he left Denmark, there was an icy feeling inside his heart that he wouldn’t go away.
He’d grown so used to distancing himself from people that he forgot what it was like to love someone. But now, Jensen’s heart felt so full. He even didn’t know it was possible to be this happy. The years of pining and countless hours he spent moping in his room suddenly felt like it was worth it. Jensen would have gone through that period of his life over and over again if it meant he could be with Sneaky at the end of it all.
It had been a long time coming, but Jensen finally felt…complete. Jensen waited for the icy feeling to seep back into his bones, but it never did. For the first time since he first met Sneaky, Jensen finally allowed himself to accept the warmth that Sneaky had been trying to share with him all these years. With Sneaky’s warmth enveloping him like a blanket, Jensen allowed the enticing pull of sleep to overcome his senses.
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