#05/03

[miguenhasthoughts]

05/03

The sun is bright. Its rays cascade on this once fragile skin. It bathes all that it touches with a warmth that would be overbearing if not for a cool spring breeze. Time is still and gives you time to breathe. Time to appreciate all the colors that live on this world. All the colors of a rainbow. Vibrant in the sunshine. My heart is warm. It is peaceful.

I think daily isn’t in the cards anymore. It feels more like a weekly diary. It is more so that I forget than anything else. I guess it could be that the depression is seceding a bit.

Turns out when you people who are competent at their job things fall less on my shoulders and I am able to relax and be successful at my job. What a shocker. The new people are learning so quick and take an initiative. What a concept. With that and actually getting the drugs that I’ve always needed. I’m actually in such a better spot than I’ve ever been last year.

I bought femme clothes and wore them out on a date! It was the most skin I’ve ever shown in public. My heart was out my chest. I kept telling myself I was passing enough. I have boobs, my figure hour glassy! My make up and hair were on point. I kept telling myself that, not to say going out while not passing is bad at all. Everyone should be treated validly no matter how they look. However the world is cruel and going out the first time all dolled up made me incredibly nervous and passing would make that easier unfortunately. If people gave us dirty looks, I didn’t notice and no one said anything. So to me, mission accomplished. One day down for the rest of my life 😤

Thank god May was so cool about it. I was worried about going out with a cis girl. I have not done that in a long while. She was supportive of me being femme. She even helped me with my outfit. We really hit it off. We ate fruit in the park and talked a lot. It felt like they could go on for hours about whatever topic. I really appreciated that. She was so pretty too. She wore really colorful eyeshadow and a flower crown. She was a hippie through and through. I went rollerblading after. I kept falling on my ass 😂 she was super nice about it tho. She kept holding my hand to keep me balanced. Made me blush. I really related with her life experiences and it was endearing how strong of a person she was.

It was also affirming when they fondled my tits while we made out 🤭😳🫣

I have another date with someone else next week but it was nice actually connecting with someone. I feel like there has been such a hard time meeting people I have that chemistry with so I’m glad this was a good time and we are trying to watch anime sometime lol

As far as Micah… I don’t know what talking to them would look like. I’d be lying if I didn’t say I’d love to still talk to them. Yet I don’t think things would be the same unfortunately. I am missing them less and less. I stopped checking the mailbox to see if the written back. If they do they do. I honestly noticed today that it had actually been a few days that I haven’t thought about them. As always I do wish them well. I do want them to genuinely be happy.

I guess to end this on a negative note. These last couple days is the first in a while where I felt the effects of not eating. Almost I was in autopilot mode within a vessel too weak to function or think properly. I always try to eat just enough. I guess half a sandwhich and a couple bites of fruit wasn’t enough. I made it a point to force myself to eat more than I’d had liked because I don’t want to hurt myself. Tbf it still wasn’t a lot but it was more than I’ve ate all week. I don’t know how to stop…

[rosemi]

[can-jica]

quando eu disse: talvez seja um - não "abandono" por não querer ser abandonada

e recebi a resposta: mas você mesma é a primeira a se abandonar

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T'rina gives Saru a plant for this new office in the federation headquarters

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got desperate to draw so my fiancée let me borrow her ipad. been having lots of fun with it the past hour and a half or so, here’s something i doodled! return of (a rather reluctant) puppydot. also first drawing of the year!

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03.05

[buggreawlthys]

me @ my brain: let's make something nice for kawoshin day! here are some romantic, meaningful sketches we could develop~

my brain: shinji got kaworu up the duff

me:

[outtacontextlitwtc]

Chris: "So live and laugh, but do not love."

-Dead Intern Fund, 1:03:05

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