#AND I SHOULDNT CARE TBH BC I WANNA WRITE IT

[forwantofacalling]

new jjk season has me crawling back to old fic ideas......my low confidence, need for serontonin, spite, and lack of time are currently beating each other up in backyard and they havent stopped since last night

[fowleyes]

@inlife : how does he (if he does) manage his symptoms come blank verse (me pretending he doesnt die becos itachi shouldnt have died x)!!! does he seek psychiatric n therapeutic help eventually! does he share this part of his life w the people around him/his close ones so theyre more informed !

thank u for having such a huge brain and asking abt the itachi survives au ;_;

I LOVE THIS QUESTION bc it puts a strong sense of reality on the topic and how people deal with this in modern day etc. so thank u <3 i DO like to think he does still experience episodes in which hallucinations and even delusions can morph into his sense of reality & times when he delves back into his sense of villainy and that becomes his reality for a time. i think that it might take some time for him to truly establish that these are indeed illnesses in which he can seek treatment tbh. like i think at first he believes he is condemned to experience this turmoil for all of the atrocities he's committed and that it's almost something he feels he deserves (which of course is not true) but at the same time, can feel resentful (at his life, the way things happened, the universe, mostly himself) though he would never allow anyone to see that type of resentment. he feels a lot of guilt surrounding that type of feeling since it contradicts a lot of his other beliefs.

ANYWAYS I THINK he does eventually seek help, but only when he starts rebuilding relationships & he can tell this part of him begins to not only affect himself, but the people he cares about. i want to develop more a journey with it for him through, where he goes from doing it for other people, to doing it for himself because he genuinely thinks he deserves a shot at life. it just... is definitely a journey and will take a long time for him to get to that point. that being said i think he'd be receptive to trying out medications and figuring out which ones work best for him (which is not always a journey of Ease, especially when it comes to psychotic disorders)

n i think in terms of proper therapy he'd feel very exposed and ashamed , so it would take awhile to find the right type of person to be able to fit with him in that regard? he's not very trusting and is generally pretty closed off and reserved, and that nature doesn't change much going into blank verse, as that has just always been his sort of personality. i think once he realizes how much he can say tho, and learns to trust the right person, he'll realize how much they/other people can truly help him in his journey to recovery.

IN REGARDS TO HIM SHARING IT W THE PPL IN HIS LIFE... that. is rlly hard for him :) haha but i wanna say he does eventually, probably with the help of therapy, after he's attended for some time, and after learning more about it himself. after all, it's very hard to describe what goes on in your head to people when you can hardly understand it yourself. i'm sure therapy would be very mind opening for him when it comes to learning about himself and even others.

neways i was gonna write like a paragraph bUT UHHH... :')

[catboybatman]

Finally read detective comics #1000.... shits disappointing tbh.

Maybe its bc it ended on Tom King's part idk (i had already read the arkham knight part so for me it ended there). Idk.

Its just okay i guess. (Clenches fists)

Also it reeks is sexist writing tbh like. Jason and Duke get this fun moment (yea. I kinda liked that part. Just like seeing Duke.) Dick and Damian had this conversation that,, sure happened. What do the girls get?

Steph just wants to make out with Tim (in front of the entire gang, mind you).

Selina says 2 whole things: a meow and a greeting, just calling Bruce "Bat", in typical Tom King fashion. (He has ruined those nicknames for them for me.) Literally could just have been Alfred the Cat. At least then the panel with the two of them would have been neat then.

And Cass and Helena have a conversation thats okay i guess? I just dont think Cass would fuck with Helena that much actually idk (might have missed stuff that proves otherwise) its not really saying much about them other than "hrm the boys are loud and dumb" (shorthand for funny girl writing) like ok. See me care.

And Kate and Babs have the most ridiculous, borderline stereotypical "men writing feminism but 'accidentaly' making it sexist" conversation in recent comic history. Im not sorry but Neo-batgirl Babs annoys the shit out of me and Tom Kings writing made it worse.

"Have you been to war?" (<- kate) "ive dated dick grayson" ma'am your spine got reconstructed by the joker, your brother is a serial killer, etc. You have had bigger issues. Also the whole thing about "why are you -woman and i -girl?"

A) BECAUSE BABS CHOSE IT WHEN SHE WAS A GIRL (and to yk, entice younger readers/viewers. In this case also bc it was a callback to Betty Kane, from when there was a Batwoman and a Batgirl, bc they differed in age. Its not that deep tbh. So many comic book discussions could be solved by realizing the context in which the characters were created/written in)

AND B) BC THE MANTLE SHOULDNT BE HERS ANYMORE. You're literally proving why she should not be wearing the cowl. (Simplifying it ofc but like. Cmon.) (Even tho she is acting like a child nowadays. God.)

Also maybe its bc im slowly making my way through the Batman Bronze Age (peak era) and bc im most familiar with Babs as Oracle through 90s comics and Batgirl (2000) but this neo-babs batgirl is so annoying!! She's so immature!

How to fix this? (Pspsp DC pspsps Its free psps)

Option A) Read: Oracle Code (or any other proper run but im assuming the writers dont wanna so im giving them a good and easy option) -> adapt into moderately mature arc for mainstream Babs where she grows and changes as a person -> breathe easy. Balance restored, etc.

Option B) keep her as Batgirl (bad choice) and just write her like a damn adult that doesnt create feelings of extreme violence in me (easy option) or

Option C) just reboot all of this (perfect choice) and create something based on pre-52. Entirety of DC tbh.

[abandonmutt]

don’t worry! just rambling

[ppnuggie]

another rant ish thing ?? but this is abt a user who has interacted w/ me ,, and id like to at least let you guys know about this user in case it might happen to you as well !!!

tw :: f slur usage ,, nsfw mentions ,, harrassment ??

so really ,, i had gotten a dm from this user somewhere in the morning ,, i was half asleep when i looked at it bc i just woke up ,, but they said something abt “ theres no one on here who likes to do self ship roleplays “ or whatever ,, from the first message it already seemed like a sort of way to guilt trip someone into possibly saying “oh ! i can roleplay :)” idk but the way they worded it just already put me off

i dont roleplay at all so i didnt really bother to read it ,, only exiting out of the conversation and deleting it ,, i never said anything to this user

mind you i have never heard or seen of this user either ,, and from the looks of it ,, they werent following me or had interacted with any of my content before

so i just deleted the conversation and thought nothing of it ,, until they messaged me again not too long ago ,, saying this

and honestly ,, i dont really care about that and all ,, though it seemed ,, not sure how i should work this ,, childish that they messaged me again ,, though i never said anything to them in the first place anyways

but then i looked at the writing at the top and decided to take a small look at their profile ,, which was 😐 because not only were they wishing death upon others for who knows what ,, but there was nsfw stuff on their profile

i dont really care for nsfw ,, im not gonna interact with nsfw ,, not really something i wanna get into and all ,, but there were other things

in the recent post made abt a month ago or so ,, they were doing those thingies (idk what they called ,, hcs ?? convos or smt ??) talking abt their self insert ship

i dont mind self insert ships and all ,, you do you ,, but as i read through it had contained the f slur ,, which the user never really mentioned if theyre lgbtqia+ but even if they were ,, you shouldnt be using the slur

no one should be using any slurs if im honest ,, theyre not just some silly little thing you can just say whenever ,, they have history and are very problematic ,, and from the case of the post ,, it seemed to be used in what the f slur is usually used for ,, homophobia ,, but thats just my guess

i dont want to deal with homophobia ,, i dont want anything to do with it or have it on my account or profile or anywhere in general for many reasons

i am lgbtqia+ ,, to be specific im bisexual ,, i dont use the f slur ,, but its still something that can heavily affect someone

once again its not okay to be using slurs for little fan fiction reasons or whatever ,, you couldve just said they were gay ,, whoever iota is ,, not sure tbh

this is the user vv please do not harass or send hate towards them ,, just be aware that they are most likely problematic ,, ^^ i have blocked them so i wont have to deal with their stuff again ,, but i still want to let you guys know in case it happens to someone else ^^

[po1songore]

1, 9, 10, 16, 39, 40

Idk just bored and kinda horny.

(btw I'm one of ur mutuals guess who!)

Also I sent this on Anon bc this feels wrong to ask AF but I wanna know..

♡ no idea who you are but you shouldnt be afraid to ask non anon, i dont judge any questions.

i. whats my sexuality

im unlabeled, i hate labels tbh i just dont really care about peoples gender when it comes to sex lmao.

ix. do i watch porn

hah who doesnt? yes i do, and in fact my favorite categories are : solo male jerking off, amateur girl threesome, femdom + pegging, dominant mommy little boy, and best friends eating each other out <3 can you tell im a dom girl?

x. do i have a secret sideblog

haha i dont, i dont feel the need to. i think people that follow me here know by now that its not exclusively fics, plus i have no shame online.

xvi. do i follow porn blogs

no not on tumblr sadly, unless erotica writing blogs count.on twitter i have SO many porn mutuals lmao, i dont share anything but i am friends with many amateur people who make nsfw audios and god when i get to request an audio im so excited..i really love hearing people moan and cum lol.

xxxix. am i a virgin

oh hell nah, i do have a surprisingly low body count though, 3 males and 2 females,two of which i dated.

xl. do i have a crush on any of my mutuals?

nOO but ive been thinking that i should have one by now, thing is none of my mutuals really talk to me a LOT and i have never seen their faces except one of them who did a face reveal(yk who you are, fuckin gorgeous) so i dont yet:(

[t0shii]

hq boys when you're feeling anxious or stressed

suna rintaro, hinata shoyo, oikawa toru x gn!r

!warnings! mentions of anxiety, reader comparing themselves to others, mentions of food & hunger, driving. this is like all fluff no angst rlly tbh.

SUNA RINTARO.

he could tell something was up but conviced himself he shouldnt pry as he had already asked you twice if you were feeling alright, to which you reasurred him with a "yep" both times, it was suspicious but he thought maybe you just wanted to be left alone. meanwhile you weren't sure why you lied him, you obviously were not doing okay at the moment. currently he was driving you home and your anxiety was going absolutely crazy from the amount of school work that was piling up on you, it's unfair you thought to yourself, looking out the window. not only were you stressed from work but trying to keep up with your friend was hard, to say the least. they were phenomenal students, straight As in their transcript and though your grades were just fine, you couldn't help but feel inferior and insecure. it's unfair how effortlessly smart they are and how i'll never be able to catch up.... oh boy if your thoughts weren't running wild before they definitely were now, you hadn't even realized your boyfriend pulling into your driveway until he slightly tapped your shoulder. "are you sure you're alright? i don't wanna pressure you ofcourse but, you know you can tell me anything right?" ... and there were the water works! the little string holding you together had snapped just like that. you sat there in the passengers seat sobbing into your hands and suna rintaro hadn't a clue what to do in the moment.

"give me just a sec" you heard him mumble but not before he gave you a kiss as light as a feather on the top of your head. somehow you didn't notice him exit the car and rush to your side until he opened your door and hugged you so tight you honestly couldn't breathe. after a few seconds your boyfriend let go of the embrace which, to his dismay, only made you cry even harder. now, he knew he was known for being quite... stoic but he was definitely panicking on the inside and it was really difficult to remain calm on the outside. your boyfriend carefully reached over you to unbuckle the seatbelt that you had yet to unclasp. "lets go inside baby." his voice was so gentle it would've taken you by surprise had you not still been crying. you nodded in response and he helped you carefully out of the car, holding your hand all the way to the door, "d'ya have your key?" you nodded trying your best to unlock the door, after a few struggled and shakey attempts you finally had your door unlocked but not without rins help because he couldn't bare to watch you struggle any longer.

stepping inside rin helped you take your shoes off, removing his own after, "bedroom?" having calmed down a little you whispered "yes," with a small nod. he nodded with you in response and took you to your bedroom. after helping you change into comfy clothes he helped you into bed, crawling in right behind you. your back was snug against his chest and he held you super tightly, it was silent for a few minutes until finally he spoke up, "please tell me how i can help" you could feel your lip quiver. "well... you don't have to say anything right now, you know i can wait. i'll even leave if you want, i just wanted you to know that you can tell me whenever you're ready and that i'll listen." neither of you were sure when you'd be ready to admit what had gotten you so upset but you felt comfortable knowing suna rintaro would be there whenever you were ready, whether it be minutes from now or even months.

HINATA SHOYO.

your silence on the walk home was starting to concern him.. maybe im just talking too much... he thought, "hey... im sorry if im talking your ear off.. how was your day angel?" to say he was disappointed with your response would be an understatement. not thar you HAD to talk but usually you were talkative with him and the worry in his tummy was only growing more. a simple, "oh.. my day was alright sho," simply woundn't cut it! "hey, are you feeling okay?" it was silent for a few seconds before you answered a mumbled "i think so, are you feeling alright, sho?" he simply nodded with a "mhm" and you told him to continue on with his story from earlier.

he complied but only to fill the silence. hinata decided to trust you when you said you were okay because you know your own feelings and he knows for a fact he's made it clear before that you could and should let him know if something was bothering you. though you enjoyed listening to hinata's stories you only found yourself getting lost in your own mind whilst he rambled on.you could tell he was suspicious of your behavior but was grateful he had left his curiosity behind because you were sure you would snap if he had asked you if you were okay again, you really didn't want to cry in front of him. truth is, your thoughts were running wild, stressing over the smallest things; assignments due at the end of the week, what you were gonna get your boyfriend for your anniversary, how you were gonna make time for your friends surprise birthday party and helping sho with his studied all the while trying to take care of your own self and keep your own grades afloat. "y/n..? we're at your house.. are you sure your alright? you look a little pale, are you ill?" crap! how had you not noticed you were approaching your own driveway you wanted to slap yourself for being so clueless. you couldn't help but feel horrible for not listening to your boyfriends story also.

"yes sho i'm fine really, i just didn't have time to eat lunch today but i have food inside so don't worry m'may?" he looked at you suspiciously and you knew he was onto you, "y'know y/n, i'm not gonna force you to tell me what's going on but just know i'll always be here for you, okay?" he gave you a small smile before engulfing you into a tight hug, it honestly melted your heart. surprisingly, you didn't start crying on the spot. "y'know, i wanted to trust you when you said you were okay but now i'm not so sure if you were telling the truth," he mumbled into your shoulder. you sighed, giving up the facade. "sho.... i just don't know what to do honestly, i have alot on my plate right now and i'm really stressed with all the responsibilities ive piled onto myself," you admitted. he nodded lifting his head from your shoulder, giving you the brightest smile, "well, i can always help out! i might not be the mooost helpful person ever but i'll try my best, and if anything i'm good moral support!" you giggled at that but suddenly you felt your lip quiver from the sudden guilt you feeling, "i'm sorry for lying to you sho-", "hey! its alright! you dont need to apologize. especially dont need you crying on me now!" he smiled cupping your face in his hands, wiping away a few stray tears of whom managed to escape.

OIKAWA TORU.

you smile back at him and thought of how silly it was that you tried keeping your feelings a secret from your boyfriend of two years, hinata shoyo, feeling glad that you confided in him. he knew you were upset as soon as he saw you that very morning, he could read you like and open book and you knew that fact very well. still though, you tried your best to hide yourself from him, though it was hard considering you sitting right next to him in the passenger seat of his car. finally after a whole day of being worried sick, he was tired of leaving things left unsaid "babyyyy," he sang for you from the kitchen, "please come here a sec!" he yelled for you louder. soon you came trudging down the hallway, blanket wrapped around your body, he couldn't help but smile at how adorable his s/o looked.

"c'mere quickly," he said will a grin, opening his arms for a hug, which you gladly accept, wrapping your arms around his waist tightly. "now, i know you know that i know that you're not feeling well, so please tell me what's got my angel so upset?" he said softly rubbing his hand lightly over your back, his voice a little muffled from his cheek being squished against the top of your head. you let out a breath you hadn't even realized you were holding, "'m sorry tooru, i don't know what's wrong with me today.... just not feeling well." you felt him nod against your head in response, "well good thing your amazing boyfriend is here to make you feel all better huh?" you let a out small giggle at that. "you know you can tell me when you're feeling down right? you shouldn't keep things bottled up inside", "i know tooru... im sorry, i just dont really know wbat i'm feeling so down about though," you admitted shyly. "hey that's okay! there absolutely no need to apologize for that, here, look at me, angel," he tilts your face so you're looking up at him, his big soft hands holding your face, thumbs stroking your cheeks lightly, "i'm here whenever you figure it out, hell, even if you dont figure it out or there just isn't any reason at all. you know i'm always, always, always here. i promise you that, m'kay?" he finishes his little speech with a smile, smothering your face in kisses. you could only feel relieved, thankful and loved. because you knew that you would always have your soulmate, oikawa toru by your side.

( a/n ; ahh so im sorry if this has any spelling or grammatical errors it's sort of late as i'm writing this! and im too lazy to proof read.... also it might just all be word vomit and if it is im so sorry 😩 ++ i'm positive ive kept the reader gn throughout the whole thing but if there are slip-ups i promise i'll do better next time! i rlly wanted to write some hq boys when ur feeling anxious and beyond stressed because i have been MEGA struggling with my own anxiety lately, especially bc of school so i just needed to let my feelings go! anywhooo i hope everyone who reads this has an amazing day or night! ) p.s. im new to writing so be nice 2 me or whatever 😩🙄😌👍🏻

[spookybias]

heyyy i wanted to give my 2 cents abt the post u just made! i think it is 100% possible to still stan/keep up/be a fan of a group without vibing or caring for some of the members. tbh we as humans are not meant to get along with everyone we come across and there are so many layers and degrees of relationships that some people just don't click. little personal anecdote but i had this friend when i was in elementary school 😭 and we spent like every single day in the summer together and were super good friends when school started but when we decided to take a summer camp session the next year together, we literally fought every day bc we just couldn't work together in a group. but we stayed friends even though we got in fights! bc we just figured out we couldn't work together like that. ANYWAYS what i'm saying is that we aren't meant to like or get along w everyone and sometimes it's literally just based on smth within u and not bc they've done anything bad. now taking a step further into this context, these are celebrities, people on the other side of the earth, people who we will never meet irl and people who are clueless to our individual existence. how are we supposed to like every presented personality we come across if we dont even get along with every irl personality we meet? i think it's completely fine to not be interested in members of a group u wanna pay attention to. in the end it's not really hurting them if you arent writing hate comments (not that you would ofc) and this is Your experience, you shouldnt force urself to do anything if you dont have to or want to :)

"how are we supposed to like very presented personality we come across if we don't even get along with every irl personality we meet?" wow dana :0 that is such a strong point. i'm jotting this down, this is such an amazing point to make. i lowkey feel like i'm in a sociology (?) class or something and you guys are giving the lecture 😭 i've come to the conclusion that i will still stan the group as a whole even if i don't vibe with someone.

also completely unrelated but when i went on hiatus i saw your ask and i missed you a lot!

[titsuya]

MATCHUP ENTRY & RESULTS EXAMPLE:

please send my what ur preferred s/o gender, name, pronouns, zodiac sign/ birthday (optional but best if i know) and SPECIFY IF U ARE A MINOR OR NOT PLS! (its ok if u are, i would just like to know in terms if i need to put the chara in timeskip or not)

hi my name is sar (i dont have gender preference) ! i’m 19 & i go by any pronouns! i’m a taurus sun, capricorn moon, & libra rising and an INFP-T ! im a very acts of service type of person— i love when people do things for me and i love giving gifts. i don’t really like physical touch but if i know you and genuinely really like you, i will not let go of you. i’m very clingy and possessive of the people i love so i AM the jealous type (in a non toxic way). i’m very apologetic. i will apologize for EVERYTHING even if it wasn’t my fault. i care a lot about what people think of me (even though i shouldnt) & im a big people pleaser. im insecure but i use humor as defense mechanism so i think im genuinely the funniest person ever when i wanna be. things i enjoy doing are sleeping, lazing around, watching anime, reading, sleeping and sleeping… jk (see? im funny) but i also love writing and photography and when i want to, i can party pretty hard. my fave color is green, my ideal date is a picnic, my personal hell is thinking for too long and my dream date is a picnic in the fall (even though i hate being outside) with cute little charcuterie board (with just cheese bc im vegetarian) yeahhh idk how to talk abt myself. LOL & I <3 CATS (u guys can do a lot better than this, im just saying if u get stuck u can refer to this LOL)

and basically, it’ll be like this:

I MATCH YOU WITH:

SUNA RINTARŌ

(what did u guys expect tbh?)

you and suna are just the most perfect couple,,,,, blah blah you guys are kind of the same person but in a way where you don’t mesh blah blah— ill be more sincere with you guys obviously

YOUR TROPE: childhood friends to lovers

the two of you met as neighbors and honestly you annoyed him but after you had gotten a cold and missed school for a week in the 2nd grade, he knew you were his best friend. (waiiiit i think i got my next fic idea) blah blah you fell in love and happily ever after (again i’ll be more sincere)

YOUR SONG: compass — the neighbourhood

ill probably put an explanation for the song but i might not so 😍

moodboard !!!!

DRABBLE (for mooties who decide to participate only) p.s. if u dont want me to include ur name just lmk :D

“sar,” suna mumbles into your neck as you lay in bed, but you don’t move. “baby,” he says a little louder.

you stir softly, humming, “hmm?”

he doesn’t say anything, his arm draped around your waist, holding you a little tighter.

“rin?” you mutter out, eyes still closed. “what is it?” you question, voice groggy from just waking up.

he presses his lips to the nape of your neck, “i think i realized something…” he trails off.

you wait for his words to come.

“remember when you got sick in 2nd grade? and you left for like a week?” he asks.

you wonder what he’s getting at, but reply regardless, “very vaguely,”

he sighs, cozying into your neck, “that’s when i first knew that you were gonna be the love of my life,” he mutters once more.

you’re wide awake at this point, a small smile tugging at your lips as you slowly turned to face him.

“so that’s why you were so nice to me when i got back,” you giggle. “you know, i was pretty much in love with you the first time i met you? i know you were like 5, but you were just perfect to me…”

he gives you a lazy smirk, “were? i still am!” he jokes, laughing when you sleepily slap his chest. “i’m kidding… but i guess it worked out, huh?”

i smile, hugging him, “guess it did.”

yeah this is a piece of shit but ill do better for you guys 😏 also they probably won’t be this long im in my head abt this prompt

[rintarhue]

HIHI KOPI-CHINNNN

Just wanted to check in and see how you're doing hehe how was your dayyyyyyyy? I hope you're doing well and staying safe and taking good care of yourself. Remember to always take a break, dont pressure yourself and drink some water okay!

I hope you're enjoying tokyo revengers bc i just read the latest chapter and sm is happening my brain is going crazy w theories😭😭😭😭😭

I just remembered i start school again in about a month and that my life doesnt revolve around 2d men and anime😔😔 im honestly running out of time to pick these certain things that will affect my future greatly and well a lot of ppl are just telling me that i shouldnt worry about it and that im still young and all that but in reality, im running out of time😭😭 my parents have been asking me all these questions as to what I wanna do bc i have to make up my mind to pick different subjects that i'll be taking for my leaving certificate which is an exam you take in ireland to get the points you need for whatever course you choose in college and they tell me that they're not tryna pressure me but thats exactly how im feeling and im just so overwhelmed and i feel so lost i just dk what to do😭😭😭 im sorry for ranting abt this shit, i just wanted to vent😭

Anyways, i love you so much regardless, take care muah muah

- ur filipina bestie 💍

HI BABES!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH I MISSED U!!!!!! ive been doing pretty well :D just really busy bc i have so many meetings n stuff 😭 thank you bby!!!! take care as well oki <3

DUDE TOKREV IS SUCH A GOOD MANGAAAAAA WHAT THE FUCKCKKKK but its so stressful like everyth i feel is pain 👍 but bonten..... b-b-bonten sexy....

FUCKKCCKKCKC RIGHRHRHTHHTHRHR anime and manga is my escape from stress tbh so i feel u 😭 ONG IRELAND??? THATS BIG!!!! good luck bby!!!!!

and i know what it feels like :( they'll say that you're still young and have a long way ahead, but the pressure within you just.... feels overwhelming at times :( mhm, but my advice for you is to always listen to yourself and decide for yourself! it's hard, but you write your own story, so you should be the one who grips the pen!!! and dw!!! you can talk to me anytime bby, im here for you <3

I LOVE YOU TOO ALWAYS TAKE CARE BBY!!! YOU CAN DO THIS I BELIEVE IN U

[domreaderrecs]

Oh boy do I have some kink discourse for you. Here’s a wholeass list:

1. A female dominant does not need to be a sadist who is always torturing and abusing their sub. They can be soft and kind and caring.

2. Findom is a valid form of domination and is really a kink, it is not just women faking it to get money.

3. Online domination is possible, although there are more risks involved, it is still a valid form of domination.

4. Submissive black men are allowed to refuse to be called slave and their dom shouldnt be annoyed they can’t used their preferred honorific.

5. Kink and fetishes can be incorporated without the use of the power dynamic found in BDSM.

6. BDSM is still BDSM if the rope is pink and the outfit is white lace instead of red and leather.

7. It should be standard practice for there to be a safe word that means everything is fine so that the Dom can check in on the sub easily without breaking the scene.

8. It is only BDSM when both parties have discussed before hand, otherwise it’s sexual assault (yes that includes Chad who brought out the rope without warning and now Bethany is just going along because she likes him)

9. BDSM has always and will always be driven by the LGBT community.

10. Under 18 year olds do not have a place in the BDSM community. If they wish to learn, then they should do so by finding articles and books, not by asking people involved in the scene.

Yeah that’s about it for now. I’m realizing you probably didn’t want this much but oh well. We’re here now. Let me know what you think!

whewww so much to unpack here lets go its essay time

1. !!!! this is probably one of the most fundamentally misunderstood parts of femdom. it don’t gotta be ball crushing and whipping and calling him a worm all the time, or even at all. this is probably what turns so many women off from trying it or thinking they might be into a more dominant role. gentle femdom is way more palatable for beginners and for me personally, just way more enjoyable (even tho i definitely would wanna make a boy cry from time to time)

2. I used to be one of those people who looked down on findom. I still don’t understand why anyone would be into it tbh but findoms get a lot of shit for no reason... being a sugar baby is so glamorized but if you’re a findom you’re cold, or a bitch, or taking advantage. even though they’re both just people who get money from men who have money to throw at them for sexual favors... but one’s demonized and one’s all the rage... hm i wonder why

3. I have no real/successful experience with this... more on that in number 10

4. 100000%!! the stories i’ve seen from black subs in kink (mostly black women but still) are horrendous. a lot of doms will try to enforce a master/slave relationship, and try to exercise their authority to make subs agree to it. i know it’s a common dynamic, but that shit is wayyyy different to black people... any dom should know that. forcing your sub to do anything is wrong, but especially something so racially, historically, and culturally insensitive. and don’t get me started on the surprise “race play” stories i’ve heard... like i said doing anything without your sub’s consent is wrong but THAT kind of thing requires double consent with a cherry on top. this is part of the reason I’m so scared to enter the kink scene... this shit scares me. thats why the title mistress and master/slave dynamics in general just isn’t for me. it makes me think of my ancestors :/

5. again, 1000% agree. i’ve said this on my blog before, but i’ll say it again. not everything has to be dom/sub stuff. if you wanna peg your bf you don’t have to tie him up and call him names or boss him around, you can just peg him. i feel like ever since FSOG this whole dom/sub thing has grown way out of proportion, but that’s a whole other essay for another day

6. yessss I hate the stereotype of dom outfits as black, latex, leather, way too high to walk in boots... like does it look fire?? yes of course but pink and lace and knee high socks would make a fit that’s just as fire. 

7. this is non-negotiable to me. whenever I hear someone say “I don’t like safe words” or “I/We don’t need a safe word” it’s just a red flag to me. idc what anyone says safe words are mandatory.

8. Yes. I feel like I shouldn’t have to say this but with the rise of the popularity of “rough sex” (again, thanks FSOG) there’s seems to be a rise in people who just assume their partner may be into something, or who just try to experiment on their partner without asking them first. I’ve heard a lot of friends and other girls talk about guys just going straight into choking them, spanking them, and pulling their hair without even asking if they like it (another reason I’m scared to get out there and do stuff, as a person who is very much not a sub or into being treated roughly or tossed around, it’s a big fear of mine). I’ve also seen a lot about girls just randomly trying to finger their boyfriends. If it’s not vanilla, and y’all haven’t discussed it, do not assume it’s on the table. We’ve gotten to a point that kinky stuff is so talked about and normalized (especially with young adults) that people forget it’s actually kinky. 

9. period.

10. okay so story time, around the age of 15/16 is when I started to realize I was into kinky stuff. The preference had kinda always been there, but I couldn’t really place a name to it. I had always felt like an outcast among my peers when it came to the way they would talk about romantic and sexual relationships (I was a year ahead, so all my friends were 1-2 years older than me, so they started to do that stuff earlier than I did) because the things they talked about and liked were way different from the stuff I would think/fantasize about, so I always stayed quiet (teenage girls are very vocal about having choking/daddy kinks but that’s definitely indicative of a much larger problem that i will not get into bc that’s a whole other very very long essay that I will definitely write on here one day but not now). So when I found out what gentle femdom was I felt like I had a community that understood me, and everything just clicked. I would lurk on online communities and I lived for the discourse on there but I could never actively participate because every community had a strict “no minors” policy. They would say exactly what you said, “If minors wish to learn, then they should do so by finding articles and books, not by asking people involved in the scene.” I didn’t want to make anyone catch a case and I didn’t want to get targeted by predators so I tried to follow their advice. i found nothing. There honestly just isn’t that much educational stuff for “kinky teenagers”, or at least none that fit me. There was no femdom oriented stuff. I mean sure there was the standard “consent is important especially in bdsm relationships” but like that didn’t really help me. I had so many questions, that I could never feel comfortable asking my mom or a therapist, and especially not my friends. I didn’t know how to express this part of myself. I couldn’t talk to anyone about it and I couldn’t even watch porn like a normal teenager (we all know the state of femdom porn. its bad) so I was this ball incredible frustration and confusion and i didn’t know what to do with it. So I unfortunately turned to twitter. There I made a little like minded friend. he was also 16 so i thought “this is good, a non adult also kinky teenager who I can relate too. what could go wrong :)”(I’m sure you see where this is going) I was so excited to have a new friend, but ofc, our convos soon took a turn. However, since he was the first person to ever show interest in me, and the only person my age who i could talk to who understood me, i started to catch feelings. But he was a teen just like me, just as horny and confused and sooo immature. He started to pressure me into domming him/becoming his domme, but I refused because I wasn’t ready (i saw on one of those online communities I used to lurk in that its not healthy for your first sexual experience to be bdsm and I took that to heart). he ghosted me. needless to say that “friendship” was toxic. i realized too late that he only saw me as a kink dispenser, and didn’t care about me on a personal level. it also made me realize how not “mature for my age” I was. i say all this to say, NO, teenagers should not be participating in kink. they are not mature enough. however education and resources for them are not where they should be. if we want to discourage them from putting themselves in these situations, we need to better provide them with education and healthy ways to relieve these urges/feelings (i eventually took up writing, it helped me a lot). i feel like had i found a healthier and safer way to express/explore that side of myself, I would’ve never gotten in that situation to begin with. That experience has kinda put me off from dipping my toe into the actual community (well that and the lack of diversity but we’ve already talked about that)

ALSO the amount of very young children i’ve seen in the kink “community” on twitter is alarming... you’re not a little you’re 12

anyways, thanks so much for this essay of an ask and sorry i wrote an essay in response to each one lol but like I said I could discuss kink all day

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more tgcf chapters 143-173 lets goooooo

PEI MING BOO HISS except actually okay he’s mostly funny i think but still boo hiss

“hey who’s this guy who’s really pissed at you?” “oh thats my sword. i broke it.” alright then!

i think i need to go back and reread the banyue pass arc bc im still confused as to whats going on with banyue and pei su

“Banyue dropped from the sky with two pots raised. Without a word, she plummeted with the mouths of the pots facing down, trapping and detaining the shocked Ming’guang and the roaring Ke Mo within.” - THATS MY GIRL

“It must be known that, to heavenly officials, it certainly was more than natural for kingdoms of the mortal realm to fight and annihilate one another; the acts of these plays progressing on endlessly. But when it came their own turn, it was often hard to let things go. If one must stand in the same court as the one who annihilated their own kingdom, and that man cavorted in the heavens, exceedingly flashy, then it must be vexing.” - hmmmm!!

“I’ve spoken too many words in this lifetime. What are you referring to?” - okay to be fair thats a mood

okay its nice to get some pei ming backstory and its funny that he and xie lian are bonding but also still whenever pei ming interacts with a female character my hackles rise like a cat lol

“Xie Lian watched as Banyue thought really hard before cheerfully pulling out a few long, wine-red scorpion-snakes, and putting them into the bubbling pot.” - THATS MY GIRL

“Although “smell” was something colourless and formless, the instant Banyue removed the pot cover, it was as if some mysterious physical object had twisted all the air around the mouth of that pot. The group stared at the sight within the pot for a long time. Their pupils reflected an endless, bottomless darkness; like it could pull them into the abyss. No words could describe the sentiment expressed within their eyes. A moment later, Xie Lian patted Banyue’s shoulder and gave a thumbs-up.” - like father-figure like daughter-figure. amazing.

“However, what if one day mortals discovered something completely new that ran faster than horses? Then, when this new invention overtook horses, worshippers of this heavenly official who controlled horses would inevitably decrease. Such heavenly officials, flashing by like shooting stars, made up the majority of the heavens.” - obsessed with this, genuinely. life and change. worship and its purpose. my religious studies diploma on my wall is screaming at me rn. ALSO i am once again thinking about celebrities

“...” It was only then that Pei Ming seemed to notice, and started to contemplate this question. A moment later, he answered, “A habit. In a dark, creepy place like this, isn’t it normal to hold women in your arms, to comfort them and calm their fears?” “I’m sorry, but I wasn’t scared,” Banyue said.” - BANYUE I LOVE YOU. I MISSED YOU SO MUCH. god this takes me back to every college party i ever went to

LING WEN BACKSTORY????? shoeseller chosen for godhood bc she wrote a political essay and got arrested...... and now she’s face to face with the official who appointed her..... do go on.....

“Ling Wen laughed out loud, seeming to be enraged, and her voice dropped. “Very well! You said I couldn’t reach that high. Then, might I ask you: had the prominence of the Palace of Jing Wen at its peak ever reached even the knees of my Palace of Ling Wen??” - GET HIM!!!! BOO HISS JING WEN

“Compared to you, I’m not that bad,” Ling Wen said. “You’d personally order me to stay in the Palace of Jing Wen until midnight, then turn around and say I shamelessly hang around ‘til late to harass you. Words murder without form; I was much nicer responding with blatant violence.” - ling wen im love you..... also this bit... feels Real

BLOOD RAIN BLOOD RAIN BLOOD RAIN!! FLOWER PETALS TRANSFORMATION!!! see hua cheng? look as how cool it can be when you leave the story for a little while!! bc then you get to return and make an entrance!!

“Not only can you bring forth bloody rain, you can also make flowers shower. I didn’t know that. How fun!” - cute!! and in that moment we were all xie lian

“Everyone was stunned by his deed, and Ling Wen arduously gave him a thumbs-up. ”Ol’ Pei, what a man!” Pei Ming gritted his teeth. “WELCOME!” - aww three two tumors buddies!!

okay yin yu is here and xie lian did the equivalent of asking someone when the baby is due only to find out theyre not pregnant at all. then rong guang taunts yin yu and no one says anything. i do love the amount of awkward moments in this book tbh sometimes there are no words.

“All around was sand and mud crushing at him, exceedingly suffocating. The sand and mud was also moving endlessly; the feeling was like he was swallowed into the stomach of a giant monster, and that monster had also eaten a bunch of other things besides him, tumbling everything in its stomach, trying to digest” - ooooh creepy!!! the red string thing... is cute.... also xie lian being able to see hua cheng’s butterfly vision by looking directly into his eye is kinda cool. and obviously homoerotic.

“Are lower-ranked heavenly officials below other people?” Quan Yizhen asked. “No,” Yin Yu replied. Were they not? It was obvious that he himself didn’t believe in his own words, and Quan Yizhen also noticed. A good while later, he said bluntly, “I don’t like it here.” Yin Yu said nothing.” - im having emotions. and then yin yu also saying he doesnt like it there either.... also idk how this scene is going to play out but as much as im enjoying quan yizhen being an icon i can also possibly see how yin yu could eventually get to the point of “i am tired of being nice. i do just want to go apeshit” even if he really cares about qyz. it happens </3

“Indeed,” Hua Cheng said. “Half a year later when Quan Yizhen actually ascends, he won’t find it so funny anymore.” “Can we watch that part too?” Xie Lian asked. “We can. Hold on,” Hua Cheng replied.” - quan yizhen king of taking things literally. also why did this turn into hualian having a movie night

jian yu seems like the kind of asshole who would purposely give someone regular soda when they specifically asked for diet soda. god yin yu is really having a bad day i really feel for him in the whole situation with the brocade immortal

awww okay at least jian yu tried to take responsibility. im still mad at him tho that was objectively a terrible idea. god this whole situation sucked :(

“Rocks and earth crushed at them from all around, forcing their bodies to press tightly against one another, their faces brushing, their ears warm. Although it wasn’t the right time, a thought flashed through Xie Lian’s mind: “‘To die buried together’ doesn’t feel so bad.” - okay... im kind of emotional.... gay people....

okay obviously these murals and the prince of wuyong have some connection (im guessing pretty direct) to xie lian and are important but everytime they start analyzing one i feel like im back in art history class fhadskfhskjdhf not that thats a bad thing!! i liked art history a lot tbh

“Don’t worry, they’re not human,” Hua Cheng said. “It’s precisely because they’re not human that we have to worry, alright….” Xie Lian thought.” - goth ghost bf problems

xie lian: well, there is one person i trust more than anyone else, someone who’s first in my mind hua cheng, oblivious: oh :/ xie lian, also oblivious: what? hua cheng: you shouldnt trust so easily its dangerous xie lian: oh. haha. yeah. well. wanna,,, know who it is? hua cheng: its :) fine :) it :) doesnt :) matter :) but of course you can tell me if you want to gege xie lian, internally: well now ive made it weird hua cheng, 5 minutes later: actually i need you to tell me. right now. its totally for your security me: gay people smh

“As they suspected, he had been captured by Qi Rong. Although no one was bound by ropes, there were balls of greasily green ghost fires hovering over every one of their heads.” - completely off track but anybody else remember the great green globs of greasy grimy gopher guts song

“Could there actually come a day when Qi Rong was embarrassed that someone might see the manner in which he ate? Before Xuan Ji entered, she put Guzi down. Guzi, ta-ta-ta, ran in, rushing straight to Qi Rong’s side. But when he saw him, he pointed his finger. He cried, “Dad is eating bad things in secret again!” “I’m not!” Qi Rong retaliated.” SCREAM IS QI RONG LEARNING THE POWER OF LOVE NOOOO also god that poor man whose body he has im starting to doubt if he’ll ever be free jimmy novak flashbacks

everytime we get another ghost king power somewhere someone should be writing hua cheng the cyborg bf in a high tech futuristic au i think thats the only other potential setting that could truly capture this wild ride

“In truth, throughout history, there was no man in the world who didn’t love bragging. A breeze could blow the handkerchief of a brothel girl into a man’s hand, and he would turn around and say the most beautiful of renowned escorts had fallen in love with him; holding shoes and wiping benches for the emperor’s mistress’s uncle’s grandson’s cousin’s mistress would for sure become him being an important administrator at the residence of royal relatives, raising his status. Thus, men who didn’t brag were a rare species.” - SCREAM this is going in my favorite tgcf quotes folder god... mxtx come here let me shake your hand

read the story of rain master yushi huang’s ascension. why am i crying. also this bit im crying again me with my stuffed animals “Thus, while Yushi Huang was cultivating at the Temple of Yulong, every time when she went to seek water and passed that door, she would rub the head of that ox. The door knocker soaked in her essence of life, and when the Rain Master ascended, the ox ascended with her.”

okay thats enough for now i have 7 more chapters to book 4!!! woo!!!

[littlebabycrybtch]

bro..... im sooo tired of ppl being whiny freaks about ppl liking fictional shit ‘~too much~’. like bitches are literally fully convinced if you prefer acting out certain ideas in fiction but not irl, thats not your normal preferential boundaries but rather your brain is a mental illness BOMB and you need to be fucking hospitalized for being imaginative and having autonomy. like yall if its not taboo or smth shut uuuuhp man you’re not ‘concerned for their health’ or w/e you’re fully just tryna get away with being a nihilistic asshole who lacks sympathetic reasoning skills. listen to me. fiction is valuable. the thoughts we have on it are important. the personal lack of value you happen to put on a media is next to worthless. its not a fuckin waste of time dude, creators are people, who live in the real world, they experience it and have ideas through it and about it, they form and tweak their ideas while still definitely existing in the real world, and then put that back into the world with a new angle and new perspective, to share with other people definitely encountering it in , you guessed it , the real world. thats not disconnected. its not nothing. these things do not magically appear from fairytale land, they are created. stories mean smth, people tell them for a reason, its ok to feel smth for any story, why would we even tell them if not with the intention to impact others emotionally somehow i mean??? fiction does not Just affect reality, it is valuable to real life society, it is a functioning thriving part OF reality. 

humans have told stories since the dawn of our existence. it is literally all but an inherent species trait for us to imagine things, its tied to each and every one of us, and to reject ‘fantasy’ as smth worthless to human life is frankly just fuckin wrong and weird of you. bitch we are Supposed to get outside the box, the fandom ppl you cringe your pants over arent thinking abt fake shit too much, you guys very often just arent exercising abstract thought and imagination enough, which actually hurts your ability to engage with it critically in all the ways its meant to be. if you dont see the value in fiction its because you put in no effort to form the analysis skills. in other words, you idiots dont get the hype bc you’re too stupid to get how you're supposed to compare a book to the real world it came from. ‘uu but cmon not everythings valuable what about [tumblr designated cringe media]-’ 1. ok! somehow you havent come to this conclusion yourself yet but thats not real, whatever ppl get to enjoy is not all abt you, your bias means less than dirt to others outside of hivemind social medias, you can keep it to yourself, ppl shouldnt care about it bc it means nothing outside of ur own space, its literally funny to me that you’re so elitist you want me to cater my interests to you, Your Standard Of Quality Isnt Universal, 2. ranking the values of fiction is the waste of time here, if you compare mlp to pride and prejudice ill dissect your teeth, different emotional impacts from tragic to funny to Just A Vibe are all able to be assessed as ‘valuable to somebody else so leave well enough alone’ if you dont have 2010+ funnyman brainrot disease that makes you incapable of reflecting on anything you can find a way to joke abt first.

i mean seriously like. whenever randos start engaging with medias you ppl dont like or in ways you dont get, the strawmans yall make up to get to be cringe culture vultures abt such benign shit, and almost Always at the expense of neurodivergent people with a deeply rooted undertone of extreme ableism might i add..... its just so selfish. u have a brain ok, you’re manipulative but we both know you dont Actually think ppl automatically default to being a waifu obsessed incel rotting away at their basement computer, stagnating their social skills and straying further and further from reality with each passing day, a poor disturbed wretch that you just HAVE to save from themselves, all bc they say they. prefer fictional porn or w/e to having sex irl. buddy thats not a big deal, theyre normal, just different from you. theyre fine, you’re just uncomfortable. as a functioning adult you’re gonna have to try and recognize that sometimes that feelings gonna be 100% on you, and you cant always just lie abt the validity of it to make ppl feel obligated into agreeing with you. this is gonna be one fragment of their personhood and your self obsessed brain imploding over how unrelatable that is doesnt fucking matter, grow up bitch like. how detached do you have to be to think thats so unstable or morally wrong.... its just a completely inconsequential preferential decision that only affects them and isnt a wrong choice at all cuz nobody has to get their dick wet if they dont wanna for any reason ever and thats gotta be that tbh.... and it kills me cuz they still inherently experience the real world and are capable of thinking abt it critically,,, even tho they... masturbate to drawings or w/e the fuck ppl think is unhealthy ???? like? imagination is just fun we dont need to moderate it anymore than we moderate other fun activities i mean lol ksdjfsd this is the DEFINITION of ‘just vibing’ no one FUCKING cares and it deosnt fucking matter the way you desperately try to make ppl think it does just so u get to be loud abt ur shortcomings as a decent understanding person. 

‘uuuuuu im sorry but thats unhealthy :///’ you sound like a goddamn maniac dude stories are not unhealthy having feelings abt them is not unhealthy thinking some anime bitch that was DRAWN TO BE HOT , IS HOT, is not UNHEALTHY and you clowns arent convincing anybody you ‘care’ abt that concept anyways !! im losign my mind here skdlsdfsd medias are literally DESIGNED TO DO THIS TO PEOPLE... WE’RE SUPPOSED TO FEEL THINGS FOR IT.... IT IS WHAT MAKES THE ART WE’VE TAKEN PART IN FOR CENTURIES, “ART”.... ITS JUST... HAVING IDEAS AND EXPERIENCING IMAGINATION..... whats wildly unhealthy actually is yalls toxic obsession with ‘harsh truth’ and validating your stupid ass cwinge feewings to the point where everything that gives your underdeveloped selfish ass hives has to be a matter of health and morals and whats ‘best’ for everyone. u dont know that shit!!!! ur a petty brat and im not ur mommy ok i wont baby you so u dont feel like the shitty whiny person you are, you need to grow and do better and think outside urself already, dont put the responsibility of making u feel right for judging somebodies benign hobbies on me. i wont bc its wrong and unnecessary. you’re not a savior no ones falling for that lmao you’re just a bitch girl xoxo get over it shit truly does not matter. let them write nsfw self insert fics instead of banging !! 

to make it real do yall really not Get that basic consent kinda doesnt just mean ‘no when im not in the mood at the time’ but it means ‘no if i just dont fuckin feel like having sex ever for literally any reason at all bc i choose what i do’ and pressuring them, even with what your warped brain translates as the best of intentions, is inherently disgusting? especially with the ‘i know how to help you’ attitude like......... ohhh die soonly ew lmao! lay off this nasty shit already please it doesnt matter! stop trying to make it matter!! its not hurting you or them you stupid tumblr phd ass!! and like again yeah some media shits just truly gross but tbr now its like even That kind of shit, the Real social issues caused by Actually problematic media that ppl should discuss Genuinely without ulterior motives, is being used more and more rampantly as just a stepping stone to get to the needless mockery of other harmless things in the media they want an excuse to bag on.......... like a bitch cant just be grown and talk about problems at face value without getting a bully jab in. smhhhhh you all fuckin suck please just stop talking already. so anyways yeah being attracted to fictional characters instead of real people or w/e IS funny, funny how many boyfriends they have when u have none xoxo theyre having fun and you can die sad abt it they get to die 5 times in an angsty fantasy fic and be brought back with mouth to mouth by fuckin kakashi every time and then they go get lunch irl while ur updating tinder bitch ... different fucking strokes ig !

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twilight saga character tag!

thank you sm @softtwihoe for tagging me <3 i feel like im still new to the renaissance fandom on tumblr even tho i never stopped being a twihard so shit like this warms my heart <3

now my spicy twilight takes………………...

1. Character you find most relatable to you as a person?

the love of my life, without a doubt, 100% leah clearwater. mfs tried to make her feel bad for feeling her feelings but she was valid in all of them. also its canon that shes a scorpio but yall aint hear it from me

rosalie bc we have similar trauma (lmao :/) and like to disagree with people. i also love big dumb men

edward. as a fellow whiny musical pissbaby who cant let shit go, i get it

2. Character that didn’t have a POV in the books or certain unfinished manuscripts, but you wish did?

ok maybe this is super underground but sue!!! mf!!! clearwater!!! she had allllllll the tea on the pack and tbh i really wanted to see how she and her family were before and after harry’s death. that event was a really big deal (outside of just bella and edward) and set shit OFF in new moon

billy bc he also had hella tea and i bet he was super fucking conflicted during the ENTIRE saga bc he couldnt say shit to charlie!!! that shit sounds rough!!!!!

quil bc he was the last to phase and i just wanna know what he was going thru. he would’ve had hellaaaaa jokes too but smeyer doesnt care abt nonwhite characters so :/

charlie, assuming he supports the black lives matter movement

i guess overall i just wanna know how EVERYONE was doing in new moon bc that story ran DEEP. i want a midnight sun for new moon but for every character

nobody asked but new moon is the best in the saga and new moon stans have the best pussy

3. Character that’s underrated and deserves more recognition?

the entire wolf pack but wbk

riley but tbh i think its bc i just loved xavier samuel in the eclipse movie

the denali coven!!!! their story was incredible imo and while irina was a snitch, i understand why she snitched. she didnt deserve to die. the denalis deserve so much better and while garrett is cool to have around, that doesnt fill the void that irina left bc the volturi decided to be a bunch of haters. i want them to heal so bad. 

tanya gets a bad rep for having a crush on edward but she deserves better too

i’d like to read abt the vacations that the denalis with the cullens too

oh and all thats just BESIDES the succubus legend that tanya and kate and irina started in canon!!!!!!!! like??????????????????? they fucked and killed human men??????????? thats the story i wanna READ bitch!!!! thats my jennifer’s body (2009) fantasy!!!!! smeyer is a coward tho

btw carmen and esme are girlfriends :)

4. Character you thought was unnecessary for the story?

ok besides the obvious, and nobody drag me for it, but bree tanner. I get she was there to show us how fucked up the volturi are and to sorta predict bella as a newborn but……...we already knew the volturi kill mfs just for fun. if the cullens werent gonna adopt her we really didnt need many details on her. and regarding the newborn thing, bree’s role as a newborn didnt really mean shit bc bella ended up being ~the perfect newborn~ anyway!!!! smeyer tried to sell us the short second life of bree tanner as if there arent other worthy characters of having a spinoff novella about like leah or seth or rosalie or emmett or charlie or resume from bella’s ovary. that being said………..

resume, for multiple reasons including:

resume literally shouldnt exist. vampires shouldnt be able to have working sperm and even then, edward shouldve pulled out. he could barely even tongue kiss bella so wtf made him think he could cum in her????? whyyy didnt he use his big vampire brain to consider that????? 

resume seemed totally unwanted and unthought of??? bella and edward were so mf absorbed in each other like regular teen couples (with 1000x the intensity but still) that it didnt seem likely that theyd want a baby after fucking like three times anyway. miss bella “fuck them kids” swan also gave no indication of wanting children. ever. EYE would have simply aborted and went on to live my best vampire life :)

resumes existence defeats the purpose of imprinting bc theres no way she’d be able to conceive with jacob. at all. but we know smeyer doesnt think shit through

smeyer writing in resume ruined jacobs character even more esp coming off the shitshow that was eclipse. periodt

5. Top 5 female characters?

leah <3

rosalie

bella

sue

angela

6. Top 5 male characters?

jacob (pre-eclipse but that’s implied)

emmett

seth

quil/paul (i love them equally)

edward’s dumb ass <3 sometimes

7. Character interaction that didn’t happen but you wish it did?

rosalie and edward but only under the condition that he finally stops being a misogynistic pissbaby towards her and accepts her for the sexy legend that she is. i feel like they’d get along well but smeyer is anti-hottie and anti-talent so i guess we’ll never know :/

leah and someone who loves her and respects her and validates her feelings :)

JACOB AND HIS SISTERS. OR EVEN JUST RACHEL. she literallyyyyyyyyyy came home after YEARS in breaking dawn but he was too busy simping over bella to acknowledge her??? huh???

bella and a licensed therapist

edward and a licensed therapist

8. Character that deserves more development?

the whole entire wolf pack but wbk

more specifically, embry. whooooom is his father???

emmett. like we get it hes funny and hot but like……….spare depth maam? any spare depth????

9. Character who is your total opposite?

jasper bc he fought for people who look like me to be ENSLAVED and the fandom lets it slide for whatever reason :|

10. Character you warmed up to after experiencing the Renaissance?

edward, in some ways. i relate to him when im feeling extra self-loathing but then i get over it lmao. he’s still stupid tho

i used to think alice was annoying af (and i still kinda do tbh) but as a fashion hoe, i get it

charlie, sorta, even tho he’s a cop. i wasnt there for the original conversation on here but do yall think he supports black lives matter? idk tbh but we’ll never know bc smeyer probably doesnt know what police brutality is. anyways ive really enjoyed the discourse on his relationship with bella and how he doesnt trust edward

jacob <3 he’s always been my heart, my soul, my baby, my fuckin cinnamon apple, etc. but i love the posts that other fans/nonhaters have been making abt how warm and kind he was before smeyer fucked him over and how he deserves so much better. its like yes im glad youre seeing all the things that make me a team jacob thot :)

idk if yall have already been tagged but im tagging @howlonghaveyoubeenseventeen @leahclearwaterdefensesquad @leahclearvvater and @bellas-dumptruck-ass! also anyone can fill this out and say i tagged them <3

[gg-astrology]

hai! i jus wanna say i rly luv u & ur blog bc ur posts r sososo thoughtful nd insightful & theyve genuinely helped me learn more abt myself or be more open minded abt things and especially cuz u mention how many asks u get, etc i rly appreciate n value all ur hard work n hope ur taking care of urself cuz *clenches fist* u jus seem soso sweet nd u deserve it sm😔💞💞

aaaaaaaaa oh my god 💓❤️💓💓❤️💓 u have no idea how long ive looked at this msg,,,, every word makes me feel genuinely touched?? that this is?? how u feel?? and how i?? am doing?? 💓❤️💓💓❤️💓💓❤️💓💓❤️💓hearing (reading) that you’re learning more about urself/being more open minded about things (mayb possibly w/ urself as well? QuQ)  is so good to hear!!!💓❤️💓💓❤️💓like the!! actual thing that being consistent on this blog have help?? done?? made?? no thats not the right word--- like, help or done for others?? 💓❤️💓this is a two way street and -- like,, even this ask ;; i know it takes a lot of time/guts to post or say something!!! ppl expose themselves like that, even if its no biggie to some it might not be like that to others -- every question i just want to give!! the same amount of consideration and serious listening back ;; 💓❤️💓💓❤️💓 tbh all im doing is listening to people im not doing much!!! im just listening and wanting to help thats all im doing! 💓❤️💓so its just,, thank u so much,,, i dont talk about it much but i think ppl can Tell i spend like 15 mins minimum on a single ask sometimes and i write Alot for it i just want to give back!!!!!!! ;; you deserve!!! everyone deserves!!!! just give back the same decency and sincerity ppl give you!!!!!! 💓❤️💓 and be patient with those who don’t show the courtesy!! things get translated weird on the internet mayb they DO mean well it just comes out bad its ok to just help them through and not cling onto hurt so badly or sum’!!! 💓❤️💓💓❤️💓 I hope you take care of urself as well... thank u for talking to me and telling me all this!! 💓❤️💓 and sorry for the long reply skdjns of me just!!! talking!!!! but i really appreciate u as well and thank u so SOmuch for talking about!! hard work,,, i try v hard im just doing my best its so nice to be Seen but even talking about it like this i feel Undeserving like I shouldnt acknowledge it but!!!! i will new year new me 2020 im rambling now oh god thank YOU 💓❤️💓💓❤️💓💓❤️💓💓❤️💓

[kadywicker]

Lmaooo I think this goes both ways- if people don’t like a character like Tony, they’ll list reasons he should be killed off and the actor to never return again (see “anti-tony tag”) and these reasons are like “he killed a guy and did that bad thing” like??? Okay? He’s not real? Smh people wanna apply real morals to a fictional dude to feel better abt not liking them instead of just saying they dont like him cuz he’s annoying or some shit- people always gotta have the moral high ground lol

mood! its always a mood tbh i dont get like.... the Discourse abt fictional characters unless the character is like.... either blatantly created to b smth unforgivable (like a nazi or a pedophile or rapist or smth) or created by someone whos terrible and has some kind of agenda in existing then like...... whomst Cares. actors, ships, w/e, thats one thing but imo we just all gotta chill on the character front. on both ways. bc its just as annoying to see ppl acting like fictional characters really and truly came out of the screen and punched them in the face and laughed, as it is 2 see ppl acting like their favorite character can do No Wrong and any critique of them is a personal offense & ppl cant dislike them ever w/out being wrong.

like theres a lot of nuance 2 it and different situations have different levels of meaning to em obviously (like for example someone only ever adoring white characters while ignoring characters of color) but in General i think we should go in w the attitude of “whatever characters someone likes from a writing perspective doesnt reflect on their personality” and “ppl can dislike a character for whatever reason even if its smth inane like not liking their hair and we shouldnt have to provide 1000 reasons theyre actually satan to not like them”