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baby-prophet · 5 months

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I walked around through the bottom of the ocean I took a deep breath and drank through my gills

#heartless bastards #the mountain (2009)#AND I WAS SEARCHING FOR A MYSTERY TO HOLD ON STILL #I HAD BEEN SINKING UNDERNEATH THE PAPER SKIES I DREW #OH A RIP ANOTHER TEAR IT ALL DIVIDES #AND IM DROWNING DROWNING IN FRUSTRATION #OOOOOOOOOH #IM OUT AT SEA AND I CANNOT STOP THE TIDE #IM OUT IN THE WATER I CANNOT STOP THE TIDE #IM OUT AT SEA AND IM DRIFTING AWAY #OUT AT SEA AND IM DRIFTING AWAY #OH THIS FEELING #THIS FEELING IS PULLING ME DOWN #OH THE CURRENT IS PULLING ME OUT #music #out at sea

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izzyizumi · 3 months

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Official Digimon Twitters: DigimonCon 2024 will stream March 10th!!! ME: OK SO its MAR10 Day but March 9th for U.S., got it, thats at least a LITTLE more manageable...

#digicon 2k24 #digicon #dgmn news #dgmn info #izzyizumi posts #digimon adventure #(Not that were guaranteed to actually get Adventure news and I DONT want to get anyones hopes up too much Yes but)#(HERES HOPING.....)#(Im a little Sighing they still picked MAR10 Day in JPN side lmao but at least its EARLIER for actual U.S. timezones)#(Among others so be sure to check and convert the timezones everyone!!)#(Mainly Im just grateful they DIDNT choose to stick it directly on PKMN Day again)#(That was seriously annoying and frustrating that year because it meant this series in comparison almost automatically got drowned out)#(Lets hope theres a little more visibility for it this year!!)

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yuukei-yikes · 1 year

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are any kano experts out there. do you think he'd apologize to takane for what he did to her in ep 7

#not to start again.#but its so unfair that he takes it out on her #its already unfair that he takes it out on shintaro at all. and then hes just even crueler to takane only by proxy to shintaro??#out of a jealousy too?? bc she's a good person??#and ik its laughed off but i think it shouldn't be (rattling the bars of my enclosure)#kano was so mean. but he's not Bad i think he would be guilty #i think he'd know went too far and is remorseful #but. WOULD he apologize...#because i think he'd want to but he's too awkward to bring it up again #and also i think post str kano has this self destructive attitude and he just drowns in his guilt about everything #including this #so he sorta just ends up hating himself for it like with many other things but doesnt get up to try and talk it out #and takane still being his friend and being kind enough to Laugh it off with him despite it was so not funny also makes him want to explode #and with apology i mean a GOOD apology not kano being like omfg ur still angry?? i said i was sorry lol #and ene being like hmph since im older ill forgive u!!#that the anime gave us #and its silly. i mean a genuine apology.#like what i did to you was horrible i was taking out my frustration on you etc etc #CUZ GOD. IT WAS JUST SO MEAN!!!#kagevinnie #kagenalysis

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opens-up-4-nobody · 26 days

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#my brain is rotting in my head. i cant focus at all #i have so many papers to read but im just like not reading them. im just avoiding all my problems #and then my dad called to tell me about the eclipse and catch me up on how things r going #and after that i spent a while weeping bc im so far away and its my mom's birthday on Saturday and my sister lives right there #so she gets to just do things with my dad and theyre gonna go to dinner and im stuck out here drowning on nothing #i think its just hormones bc my medication doesnt work as well and i lose focus when my hormones r fucking me over #it sucks tho. its frustrating. i just want to be on the other side of the 19th when i have my committee meeting #unrelated

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piplupod · 2 months

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i feel a feeling that is genuinely intolerable and go "okay what do i do with this"

therapist brain says "feel ur feelings, its unhealthy to suppress all the time." rational brain says, "hi if we sit with this emotion then we are going to either be bleeding or dead in approximately ten minutes. so whats another option." therapist brain goes "wellll i guess in that case maybe u can distract urself idk, that can be a coping strategy sometimes." rational brain glances at emotion, shakes its head and shoots back "yeahhhh no can do there bud. this one's a real whopper and distractions ain't gonna cut it this time."

both sections of the brain shrug at each other and then The Disorder brain raises its hand smugly and simpers out "hiiii remember me? yeah this is the reason i exist teehee :) give me five minutes and I'll have an amnesia wall erected and another part of the brain shoved into the forefront and then we'll be right as rain! and this emotion can go rot in the locked cabinet of horrors until another part accidentally stumbles upon it again in the future or until the lock breaks. :)"

#girl help I've just been drawing and then BOOM. unbearable feelings drowning me !!!! drownding !!! i am drowndinging !!!#i dont wanna do this anymoreeeee im so tired of this #i go ''wow this sure is intolerable! how have i ever dealt w this!'' and then the DID does its thing some more👍#''gee that sounds so helpful!'' my body is in shambles from the overwhelming amounts of undealt with trauma :]#there are many other downsides but . i ain't getting into all that dhfjdldl #im just . grrrrr. maybe its bc i was drawing another part of the brain but c'mon 😭 i was drawing them HAPPY !! playing!! having fun!!#trying to make smth nice for us !!!! god damn this is so ridiculous #i want to go to bed fjfkdl im so tired and frustrated w everything man im trying so hard and it all seems to go towards nothing #im just not doing well idk also this counselor i have has been so flaky and its making me feel so ... eeurgghh #i understand they dont think im a suicide risk so im low on the priority list but I'd like to just... be a priority for somebody just once #boohoo poor me etc etc. other ppl need the help more than i do i know. im just. tired.#there isnt rly a lot anybody can do anyways to help i guess #still makes me insane thinking abt how the social worker had nothing for me except ''well ... u could go to the homeless shelter''#im just... theres so many fucked up things abt that. sigh. oh well oh well oh well.#just keep making my shitty art and trudging thru the days and finding good things in a day when i can scrape em together !!!!#argh. sigh. I'll go figure out some food to eat tonight.#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #suicide mention #self harm mention

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hannahhasafact · 2 months

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I could do an activity I enjoy, or do a chore I need to get done…. Hmmm better just rot instead

#ramblings #ngl I have a hard time doing stuff if I’m cold and I’m very cold right now #on a positive note I did got for a little jog/walk this morning so that was nice #I’m going to a friend’s house to watch wrestling tonight which should be fun but like I also need to do stuff #I’ve had no motivation lately and im so frustrated with myself #im rotting like Ophelia drowning in that painting you know

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rottenlittlefink · 5 months

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What do u do when u feel like you’ve hit an invisible wall in your recovery? What do I do when meditation and affirmations feel pointless? How do I keep assuming when it’s hard to stay positive?

#existential crisis #law of attraction #law of assumption #neville goddard #I don’t think I need to keep drowning myself in toxic positivity when practicing Neville Goddard’s teachings #I don’t rly fw law of attraction but law of assumption has drastically improved my mental health #but will experiencing negative emotions eff up my progress?????#where can I reach out lmao #I can’t do it irl cus I live in a small Protestant Christian town #and everyone thinks meditation and empathy are the devil #my therapist is more like a dad to me than my actual dad but #he’s Christian and I’m too afraid to talk about my struggles in figuring out the next steps in my spiritual journey???#im having a bad time lmao #this is incredibly frustrating #I was doing so well #I came too far in my recovery to hit blocks like this

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bunnihearted · 6 months

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#it's so frustrating. i've been having bad anxiety everyday for a couple of months now #and i need to talk about it #but. now the psychiatric said that basically they have different sections responsible for different things.#and where im in contact with now said they dont think they can take me on as a patient bc they dont offer treatment for my issues basically #so they've sent a referral to a clinic for personality disorders #however... they said this can take time and i just have to wait. but i also dont know IF they'll offer me treatment or cant help me #apparently if i get worse i should contact my health care center... i had my last appt w the therapist there yesterday #so..... yeah im just supposed to keep waiting and get no help skskksks #i feel worse than ever rn and i just wanted to talk abt it w someone #'get worse' i am already drowning lmaooooooo #ig i just have to deal w it by myself and endure it. i journal abt it everyday but it isnt doing anything. whatever

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rebeljyn · 1 year

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I know I’ve talked about this SO many times already but these bots are seriously starting to wear me down. The other day I blocked literally 200 of them. Yesterday I blocked 30+. In less than a day I’ve gotten 50+ bots following me. How am I supposed to deal with bullshit like this? I love this website but I cannot fucking stand this shit, why the hell hasnt the staff done anything when its the easiest fucking thing ever to know which one of these stupid blogs are bots or not??

#im just so fucking frustrated #my notes are always flooded with bots #i have no idea how many actual followers im getting EVER because theyre drowned by a sea of default icons #i used to go look at new followers blogs to see if its someone i would follow back and now i dont even have the energy to do that anymore #you know how tumblr stacks notes that are similar when on mobile? ive got a stack of 13 bots who followed me in the last couple hours #its just so frustrating at some point im gonna leave this fucking website if its not fixed #mari just saying things

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castelled-away · 9 months

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The scene in „The Hunter’s Heart“ where Arthur unknowingly hunts Gwen (while she’s a deer) gives me Disney’s Swan Lake-vibes bc the prince (Derek) also hunts Odette in her swan-form while also not knowing that it is her

#Derek chooses not to shoot Odette at the last minute tho (bc he’s enthralled by the swan’s beauty & doesn’t have the heart to kill it)#Arthur’s arrow gets redirected by Merlin’s magic & thus misses Gwen #Arthur is generally a frustrating idiot in this episode #I wanted to hit him over the head the whole time #thw worst is Gwen thinks she DESERVED every bad thing that happened to her bc she ”betrayed“ Arthur #(im Talking abt her kissing Lancelot while under a love spell. so it wasn’t even her FAULT)#(and even if it were. these things happen. ppl cheat. so what. don’t make a big deal out of it & start over)#(but NO Arthur acts like a little boy who didn’t get his way & banishes her. the abandonment issues are strong with this one I can tell)#(still not an excuse. GWEN DESERVED BETTER. the poor girl!!!!)#gwen my beloved #just chuck Arthur & marry me instead :)#bbc merlin #the hunters heart #mithian was in this episode too (not important to the post I’m just gay)#i sometimes really hate Arthur. but his character development got fired from the show so it’s not even his damn fault #need to drown myself in the posts that praise Arthur now bc I KNOW he’s a good guy deep deep deeeeeeeep down #somebody PLEASE convince me that he’s a good guy #minee #bbc merlin rewatch 2023

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boyfae · 1 year

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i just love trying to express my fears and disinterest for working in a conservative law office in the fucking deep south with a workload i know i wont be able to handle and just having it dismissed and being told ‘you just gotta try :)’

#its so fucking frustrating i feel like im drowning and no one will tale me seriously or even give a shit

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fixation-issues · 2 years

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mm I'm still kinda on the fence about s/tolitz. I like Stolas and Blitz, I like their personal stories and how they're growing as characters, but the way their relationship together is moving has so far not appealed to me much.

BUT I DO NOT HATE THE SHIP.. Its just... not interesting for me. Altho maybe its bc I'm an enemies-to-lovers dumbass half the time.

#me.txt #i dont hate the ship!! 😭#but its just.. not rlly taking my interest ig #i think its bc there hasn't really been any positive progress in their relationship yet (and ngl that does feel a bit frustrating for me)#and fluffing up their past history isn't gonna change any of the problems they have in the present time #idk i am just trying so hard to like this endgame ship and flailing around in 2 inch water like im drowning

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halinski · 2 years

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omg guys im barely holding onto sanity, i literally showed up to work today and went "today i am Odin's personal carer!" And everyone let me

(Odin is a black cat that reminded me of my own cat black house cat, Fenris, who came in the other day and almost went into cardiac arrest bc of arrythmia and pleural effusion but like he's still relatively young and and i and my coworkers were like 'we feel like he'll make it' even tho we had to intubate him at moments notice and were ready for resuscitation, owner's are ready to do everything and he's slowly but surely fighting his way back to his feet, he finally purred in my arms for the first time today!!

but yeah we have waaay more patients than just one and i have never gone around declaring or demanding anythign around here, especiqlly ignoring work or other animals in favor of others anfbjdndgdkgnjfld

#that being said i am...#i am so far up denial's ass i am drowning #like when bad things i start laughing as if i joker #i am legit obsessed with joker atm #i am holding onto sanity by the last fucking threads rn #i am so in denial and aware of it and i'm #im im im #im so not okay that im okay again yknow what i mean #was thinking about it on the way to work in the morning and figured i might need to go to the clinic again after my apprenticeship #get myself locked up again for two months #and then i almost burst into tears but i was like no i cant be sobbing when i have to drive and have to work after #and so i ended up starting to dissociate #and i brought myself out of it #but oof #that was a rough start #to the day #me declaring myself odin's personal attendant was just a coping mechanism to get through the workday lets be real #i'm so stressed out #my whole body hurts from the stress and my back injury #the physio therapist was nearly frustrated to tears when she couldnt do shit to ease my torso last week (dramatization)#things are just #meh rn #i guess #very distasteful #literally too #nothing tastes good #i've lost all pleasure in food #i'd rather starve #ignore me #(i'll be ok tho i promise :* i'm v resilient and have been thru worse ^^)

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chanrizard · 2 years

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people always liking sets and never reblogging 'em is my villain origin story

#it's. a bit (a lot) frustrating tbh.#i mean sure i gif things mainly bc i have fun making my silly moving images but if you like a set...reblog it?#likes dont do anything to spread a post here #sorry im just. nvm.#well people not deleting the previous tags too i guess #as you can see im in a ✨wonderful✨ mood today :)#tbd later when i'll have drowned my sorrows in a giant mug of coffee

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lunarisrequiem · 3 months

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im not active here and lord knows i dont have a following for it to matter but, for the sake of saying it anyway, for the sake of just in case, ill say it here too

free palestine, free congo, free sudan, free hawai'i, free every colonized people from their oppressors, and if you cant abide a simple boycott to help progress toward that, if you cant give up your "comfort food" or "comfort show" or whatever else that isnt a necessity to live, because your comfort is more important to you than peoples lives, then i'm sorry for you. that you can live a life so pitifully self-centric and willingly ignorant that your piece in the mosaic of life is left on the ground, instead of welded to the world at large.

#when the sun catches in the view of the world #your solitary piece will be drowned out by the unity of the rest #im not very good with words but this is my floundering attempt at putting words to how i feel about people who #cling onto major companies and media like disney and starbucks #and LORD especially the fucking wizard series #no #you CANNOT separate the art from the artist when the artist is still profiting off of you #and i know im a coward for not being able to confront people about this #im fucking frustrated over it #how do you not get it? how do you not see and understand that your blind loyalty to these assholes who dont care about you #only that you care about their work #is killing the world and media #instead of backing up and moving on to other works people desperately cling to an uncaring media because being able to stick with something #they know is more important than literally anything else in the world #im so fucking angry that im such a fucking coward but here we fucking are #im gonna go back to not checking here as is my usual but. i needed to get my stance here #so that even if im not around #no one is wondering where i stand #bye

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aastarions · 6 months

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sometimes i go through my many many wips and just

over the lost potential SLFKJD

#c shut up #maybe when im not drowning in wedding and house purchasing stress i can find some focus for writing i tell myself all the time #its been 1.5 years now since i really really focused on writing smth #every now and then i write in my notes app #also i know i complain SO much about this but its incredibly frustrating to know i want to do something #but i cannot find the will in me to sit down and focus on doing it #hoping one day just out of nowhere i drop a fic surprise everyone LOLL MAYBE!!!!!

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