#Already doomed to fail

[chillinglikeashilling]

Rambling thougts about love and community in Sinners

Thinking about Mary going out there to talk to Rennick for her community. For Stack and Smoke who- whether they liked to admit or not- had a Sword of Damocles hovering over their heads if the Italians or the Irish ever figured them out. But aIso for Annie, and little Sammie and Cornbread. Here's a way that she could finally help them because what had her whiteness ever done for her before but keep her from her loved ones anyway.

Thinking of the fact that Smoke was going to unlock that door. If Stack had just been patient for a couple seconds more Smoke would have gotten the key (against Annie's wishes) and let him out, even though Stack had just died in his arms. How Smoke refused to let them take his brother's body outside even as Annie tried to warn them. Smoke who learned to wield violence for the protection of his family - for Stack and Annie and little baby Sammie. Smoke who had to watch Stack bite Annie knowing he had promised her he wouldn't let her turn.

Thinking about how Stack would have probably been one of their first targets even without Mary. He liked them, thought the music was fun, he even argued with Mary that he should go instead. Stack knew they needed the money to keep the Juke going but he was also aware that their community didn't have that money (not real money) so why not let those folks in to dance so that they could keep taking that plantation money from their community.

Thinking about Annie and how hard it must have been when reality started to sink in that Mary was dead, and worse she was a dead thing walking around. Knowing that she'd told those folks earlier that Mary was family and they had immediately used that against them. Having to try and convince Smoke to let them move Stack's body outside. Having to ask Smoke to free her soul and how terrible it was that Stack was the one that killed her. How broken hearted she sounded when she said 'Not You'.

[skitskatdacat63]

Why is he like this, why is he such a freak, who gave him the right to act like this

[ganondoodle]

did a little sketch yesterday that i really liked and tried to get it done today just so i got literally anything to post- but i fell into the trap of 'making sketches to elaborate and thus really stiff and non fun' (for me), ... soooooo .. im redoing the whole thing

but the idea was a mummy ganondorf for my (yes still existing) totk rewrite; i wanted to make him more scary looking and also emphasize just how horrid it must be to be kept in between life and death by having your heart grabbed by a cold and vengeful magical hand for thousands of years (in this case the ancient queen .. which i also tried to sketch despite not showing up aside from her dissolving hand)

the spell starting to fail and his body being more damaged in some parts (jaw being only the bones left for example) and his chest open from being slowly eaten up by the queens magic, the ribs contorting around it like its a gravitational pull- sounds cooler than it looks bc this sketch did not work out, so im saving the details for the .. hopefully, better version

[loopyarts]

Young adult Robin Dick Grayson and his Umbreon partner.

[dr-gaytorius]

This semester is trying to kill me

[benevadeca]

LBH / SJ as parallels makes me crazy bc on one hand there's the themes of personal responsibility and the hard work necessary for taking agency for your choices and them being what shapes the kind of life that is reachable but on the other SJ was literally replaceable by the narrative and even when he did sporadically try to be Good it always blew up on him / never knew anything else and so was unable to be anything else.

VS LBH was not / protagonist halo / literal bloodline superiority / did at least know love which is what made him able to transcend the world by knowing the abuse he faced was something wrong and not something natural. Anyway

[7yearsofdele]

Listen, I would absolutely have no issue if Yuki took an offer to drive the Red Bull. That's literally the whole point of driving the RB and he's been overlooked long enough.

However, from a fan point of view, I hope he never steps foot in that toxic team. The chances of him ruining his career are too high.

[rabarbarzcukrem]

"Noé" being the name of the biblical savior of all life.

"Vanitas" meaning vanity, futility, something that is ultimately meaningless and doesn't last. I am unwell.

[borgialucrezia]

i just realized that i have a pattern of getting invested in underappreciated historical figures who have a lot of material to write about and are involved in murder mysteries...

[undyingmedium]

Anika had never seen her patron so close to coming undone. Of course she was ready to give her all to gift him back his strength.

But oh, was she really ready for such weakness?

[adhdo5]

Wriying completely contextless postcanon Xiyao melodrama that isn't even connected to or compatible with my current actual projects about postcanon Xiyao melodrama

[jellophoid]

I wishhhh I wishhhh this game did a twist where they reveal that SHE was the love interest all along

[mysticfemme]

I've felt so heartbroken the last few days, weeks and I just can't pinpoint why. Part of me still keeps hoping that one day I'll hear a knock on the door and it'll be them apologising. But then last night I couldn't stop the thoughts of her kissing all those girls in clubs and cheating on me.

And I'm not quite sure what's worse, the fact that she cheated at all. Or that the person I knew last year, that kind, caring person who made me laugh harder than I ever have - that person is gone.

[electriccenturies]

i think i could write a really good essay on the danger days fandom and what it functions as for those who engage (myself included). i think i can explain exactly why certain people who are into certain other things are drawn to it, and why it so often devolves into just Identity Category Soup™ instead of deeper worldbuilding or storytelling. And also why people get something out of that soup.

The story doesn't really exist (and what does kinda sucks) but I think, the way fandom ends up with it, it's ultimately about regaining control and achieving small-scale victories in the midst of a larger, obviously unwinnable conflict. It's escapist fantasy that boils down impossible-scale real world issues (corruption, bigotry, capitalism, rigid social roles) into ones you can directly interact and engage with. A world so small that you can shout over those in power. A world so small that you can just... opt out of it.

Truthfully, IRL there is nowhere you can go to get away from, say, gender roles... but in DD world you can say "fuck that, I'm moving to my alternative society which not only exists, but thrives" and then do it. I do NOT think gerard intended it this way specifically (you can read it as being about lots of things and also he's said as much) but yes of course becoming a killjoy is a perfect allegory for transition.

[startreklesbian]

so my dad got a 3d printer and he’s currently printing an army of little corgi figurines which forces me to pick up a new hobby: painting miniature figurines (bc i‘m the ~artsy~ person in this family)

[meatriarchived2]

i dont autoship anyone fwiw but its still making me collapse and sob at how emotional and gut-wrenching lee sounds talking to maria and all the nosy/shine/wilted/etc vibes is buzzing around in my head still i need to go lie down but its wild to me that i feel theres a stronger connection between maria & lee than the supposed canon couple,

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