Does anyone else get in a relationships then immediately want out like buyers remorse lol They can be nice people but once I see a few things that annoy me or don't mesh with me I want to break up right away!
So, this is kind of a vent about a thing that's going on in my life rn and I just need to put my thoughts out into somewhere.
I can't go into a lot of detail, but I am making a first time purchase and have asked some friends irl and online with this experience. Like if I am getting scammed or cheaping out. Honestly, it's kinda 50/50, but as of now, I am having self doubts and am losing confidence in my own decision making.
I know this is related to childhood traumas and previous gaslighting. Anytime I get stuck in this corner, there's always a voice in my head saying "Yeah, you're wrong and you fucked up another decision. Goddamn idiot.". It's this overwhelming feeling of embarrassment and shame, like a sheltered child trying something for the first time.
Growing up I have always been told I was wrong, no matter what, even when the thing I corrected was accurate. I've healed from most of the injustices I've dealt with, but some things just stick..