#Cause they're all like 'do you have a source of peace and joy' and 'do you have a spiritual reason not to partake in any medications here?'

[gxlden-angels]

I hate going to Christian-based hospitals. There's a bible verse slide show on the screens that other places usually have medical information graphics and resources on and I just got asked "Do you have a source of peace in your life?" like babygirl I'm here for neurological pain my source of peace is Lidocaine 4% and a heating pad

[enamouredfae]

♡ Pick a Card ♡

What you need to know in order to be ready for the love you so longingly seek!

This reading is looking at anything you might need to heal or grow into in order to enter future relationships as your higher self. I am not looking at your future, but simply trying to guide you towards your highest good in the field of love. Many of us have internalized certain perceptions of love that we must unlearn, or have lived through difficult moments which have closed us off or made experiencing love more difficult. If you are in a toxic relationship/situation, please do not take any messages that might seem to tell you to stay in it. With this reading, I will hopefully open you up to some introspection and hopefully growth. You may very well be attracted to multiple piles and that is ok! Read all that attract you and take what resonates. Each pile has three pieces of advice, so mixing and matching is invited!

This reading is for entertainment purposes only.

This is a timeless reading for the collective, therefore it is likely that some messages will not resonate with you. Please only take the messages that do! The messages that do not, are meant for somebody else. Remember that the future is never set in stone and that you possess free will! Love you! ♡

Pile 1

Charm: Knot

1. Yang

Yang tells me that you need to learn to become more proactive in love. You cannot wait around. You must act! You need to manifest your desires into the material world by doing. It's perfectly fine to do the first move, no matter what society deems "acceptable", it is even invited with this card.

23. Peace

Radical acceptance is necessary for inner peace and in this case for a higher love. You must first love yourself fully, light and shadow self, before loving someone else in the way that you both deserve! And you deserve radical acceptance, we are all flawed and intricate people! As long as we are willing to change and grow and put in the work, past mistakes can be atoned for.

38. To be fair

This card tells me that you need to learn to be more balanced in relationships. Are you giving more than the other parties? Are you giving less? We must be fair to both others and ourselves. When someone in the relationship gives more, they may feel underappreciated which can become unmotivating, but they can also overwhelm the other person. You must learn balance.

Pile 2

Charm: Cactus

7. To the sea (reversed)

"When fishermen cannot go to sea, they stay at home and repair their nets." This is a quote from the guidebook that I had to rewrite here because it encapsulates the advice perfectly. You probably long for love like fishermen long for the sea. This card is telling me that the problem isn't coming from you, but the external world. An idea that just popped up in my head is a queer teen living in a homophobic area or with homophobic parents, so it is likely that this could be your situation. If it is, I love you, please take care of yourself, love and better days will come, don't worry! But you must wait a while longer until the external world matches your vibration, perhaps you'll have to move, wait until you're safe to go out to the sea. Until then, go with the flow.

50. No place like home (reversed)

This card seems to work perfectly with the previous one, it reminds us that what is familiar isn't always the best, because it keeps us from growing. If you want change, you can't keep going to the same things/people that haven't worked before, it's counterintuitive. It is natural to go back to what's familiar, but try something new. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Choose unfamiliar.

34. A leg up (reversed)

You are carrying the burden of your world all alone. You probably don't feel safe sharing what you feel, or are very uncomfortable with vulnerability. To be honest with you, right before writing this part of the reading, I started tearing up, you are holding in so much hurt... You need to voice your struggles, being vulnerable is proof of immense strength, believe me! I know it's hard! Start little by little with someone you really trust!

Pile 3

Charm: Star

35. Loyal Heart

Ok if one pile is ready for the beginning of a relationship it's this one. It is the perfect time for you to create loyal commitments. It is possible that you are already in a committed relationship, but at the very least you are surrounded by loyal, devoted people. Don't forget to be devoted and loyal in return!

4. Higher Power (reversed)

This card is inviting you to trust in whatever divine power you believe in, trust that the universe is divinely guiding you and protecting you. I feel like if a certain religion or spiritual path attracts or fascinates you, you should start looking into it, careful with being disrespectful or appropriating it, especially with closed practices, please do your research! But connecting to Source would be beneficial to you in the long run!

25. Round and Round

You are stuck in a cycle that you must break. Do not worry, you shouldn't feel bad, it's all part of the learning process. Remember: you've been through this before, think back on how that made you feel the previous times, are you sure you want to go through that again? Breaking this cycle is a form of self-care, and you need to care for yourself! You are subconsciously punishing yourself by staying in this cycle, try thinking about the root of why you're doing so! It could help you in breaking it!

Pile 4

Charm: "Love"

8. The tribe

You may want to find your tribe, or you have recently found it. You might feel like you finally belong, or are longing for that feeling. Whenever I get this card, I think of the astrology/witchcraft/tarot community here! It may be the same for you! You are welcome here, and hopefully, you feel like you belong! Contributing to any community that you are passionate about, whether online or in real life, will bring you great joy and satisfaction. Your tribe awaits and needs you! It's possible that that's where you'll find love as well!

6. Not for you (reversed)

Let them go. Whoever you first thought of, it's time to stop obsessing over them. "Don't chase after what flees you." I'm sure you realize this is not serving you, but how do you stop? This card is suggesting radical acceptance and surrender, that this is a sign that someone or something much better is waiting for you. I suggest reminding yourself that they aren't perfect and that you have just come to idealize them.

52. Mending (reversed)

You are very likely going through a grieving period right now. There is so much hurt and disappointment. "Heartbreak is a strange healer of souls." It may feel awful now, but trust that when you look back one day, you will see that the hurt you're feeling now, transformed you in a powerful way. This card is inviting you to accept the heartbreak and push through it, situations like this open us up to seeing the world in a new way, to growing. Better days are coming!

Pile 5

Charm: Angel

28. Building blocks (reversed)

Are you acting according to your belief system? Are you following the advice you give others? You must look carefully at your core foundation. It seems to me that you have done a lot of inner growth, but are still stuck in your old ways. Your outer self isn't matching your inner self. Start doing what you preach!

47. Go the distance

I feel like you're someone that wants love right now! For it to come fast and smoothly, like a sprint. You must learn to see love more realistically, as a long-distance race of endurance. You may be the type to immediately run at the sight of a problem. You must learn to be dedicated and work in love, it won't always be the idealized version you keep reading about or watching. Love demands work!

32. Here and Now (reversed)

You live in the past, don't you? So much regret and nostalgia... Or perhaps you live in the future? Daydreams and ambition. There is a need to learn to live in the here and now, you cannot change the past, and the future is infinite. They're both elusive, and unreliable; now is tangible, real, and full of immediate possibilities.

Pile 6

Charm: Mars Symbol

22. Blessed

This beautiful card talks about an unexpected and "unearned" wonderful event, that seems like divine intervention, a gift from the universe. The advice I take from this card is to practice gratitude because you seem to be blessed in the love department. Perhaps you already know who "the one" is for you. If you don't, trust that the universe has someone wonderful for you!

31. Why?

Ask yourself why you feel as you do about/in love? It is time for some introspection. You need to think and identify unhealthy patterns in your love life. Why do you act as you do in a relationship? Identify what in your past has caused this behavior. It won't solve the problem right away, but it's a good first step. Understanding the problem will be validating.

27. Exchanging gifts (reversed)

"Be careful what you pray for because you might just get it." You need to be ready for the energy exchange that will happen if this happens. This card talks about an imbalance between giving and receiving. You must learn that if you receive a lot, you must return a lot, love needs to be balanced. If you give more, you aren't actually in control, the other party could be consciously or unconsciously taking advantage of your generosity!

Pile 7

Charm: Eternally Open Heart Locket

17. The Fates

You must learn to accept that there are things and people you simply cannot control and change. You cannot blame yourself for things beyond your control, nor can you blame others for things they cannot control. Just be wise enough to tell the difference between things one can control and things one cannot!! If you have a tendency to mold people into your ideal, making them lose their essence, you must learn to accept people for who they are. It is not your job to change them: the desire to change must come from them, for them.

15. Message in a bottle

Try asking for specific signs from the universe, or start becoming more aware of them. Synchronicities are all around you, they're the way that the universe confirms that you're on the right path! Listen carefully to those you communicate with, they could be delivering a cledon to you. This card itself is a good sign, a favorable answer to the question occupying your mind.

9. Treasure Island

You might've already, but if you haven't, MANIFEST YOUR LOVE!! You will be greatly rewarded when you embrace the law of attraction and your intuition. Depending on your belief in how manifestation works, try being mindful of free will! If you believe that love spells on specific people are influencing their free will, then it is immoral to manifest a specific person. If you don't believe that that is how manifestation works, do as you will, just be in line with your beliefs! This card is also a great sign, you're on the right path, and have good fortune on your side. Very lucky pile!!

Pile 8

Charm: Boot

2. Yin (reversed)

You must learn to receive, only being the giver isn't good for you. You deserve to receive! Be open to embodying yin and yang equally. "You stop the flow of abundance when you constantly insist upon being the giver." Be the listener, the one that learns, the one that is being led.

33. Chaos and Conflict

You may be afraid of chaos and conflict, but you must remember that they can rid you of what's no longer serving you. Conflict also implies two sides, remember that yours isn't the only one, and conflict can lead to mutual understanding. Learn to put up boundaries, but also to respect those of others. When you finally see the potential of healing that conflict can cause, you'll be ready for mature communication in relationships.

20. Imagine

Remember that you can create what you imagine! Your imagination is powerful in manifesting your desires, but it can't do everything for you! Manifestation is work, when an opportunity arises, act! This card can also be a sign that the person you're manifesting will be entering your life soon. When they appear, don't just wait, and daydream! The imagination part of manifesting is done, now it's time to act.

Pile 9

Charm: Knife

21. Clean it up

It's time to let go and declutter your mind. Think about what is no longer serving you, about the things that only overwhelm you, and make you overthink, they aren't good for you. It might also help you to declutter in general, your house, your closet, your phone, your feed, etc. Make room for the new and the better.

48. Poised (reversed)

Think carefully, are you really ready for love right now? Because this card is telling me that you aren't. It's ok to be a "late bloomer", and it's important to be ready for love, as to not hurt the one you love, and yourself. Being single isn't a sign of "failure", it gives you the time and space to focus on yourself, on your growth, on your healing, on exploring and understanding yourself. Being single can seem like a curse, but it's a blessing, it's what you need right now.

16. All that glitters

Are you being yourself in love? Are they? Don't succumb to the power of superficiality. Either let go of the mask or look beyond theirs! "Imagine that all the glitter is gone. Would you still desire the object or person?" If one falls for the glitter, what will happen on the day they forgets to glue it on?

Thank you for reading! Love you all.♡

You can buy me a coffee if you feel called to do so! This is never necessary, but always appreciated! ♡

[geminitarotmagick]

Full Moon Pick a Card Reading, Blackpink Edition

On this rare form of Blue Moon, take a deep breath and choose one of these four piles. Each pile holds various messages that you need to hear at this time. But remember, this is a general reading, so take what resonates and discard whatever does not.

If you would like a personal reading from me, I open mini reading requests every Monday where I will answer your question with five cards. Please only ask one question per ask per week, and make sure to leave a name/nickname/initial by which to call you when leaving your reading request.

But if you'd like something more in depth, or have a more urgent question, I am also currently offering in depth personal readings. More info on how to request an in depth paid reading here.

With that said, choose the pile that calls to you, and find your messages under the cut.

Decks used: Therapets, Way of the Panda Tarot, Light Seers Tarot, Wild Unknown Animal Spirits, Shine From The Inside Oracle, Barbieri Zodiac Oracle, Oracle of the Fairies, The Deck (Custom Made Blackpink Oracle Deck)

PILE ONE:

There's some guilt that you're being called to let go of. There are situations in your past that have caused you to regret how you acted, whether it be that you didn't stand up for yourself or that you hurt someone with things that were said. These situations have been prominent in your mind recently, but it's important to understand the bigger picture here. You're called to reflect on these moments and discover what lesson you were supposed to be learning from those experiences. These things happened so that you could grow, not so that you could be stuck in guilt. Allow yourself to make peace with these situations or people in whatever way that means to you, absorb the lesson, and then release the experience.

You're being called to be kind to yourself, and be patient as life changes and evolves around you. You have strong values, and it's important to stand firm in those while also staying true to yourself and staying grounded. When you're grounded and in tune with yourself, you can move mountains, so it's important for you to really allow yourself to find that center where you can return to when things get hard. It will be much easier for you to do this when you've released the guilt and negativity that is blocking you from achieving this state of mind. Whatever situations cause you stress and anxiety when you think about them, it's time to let go of them.

Now is a good time for you to work towards setting boundaries with the people around you as well. This isn't meant to push people away from you, but it is important to establish to those around you what is ok and not ok, and for you to love yourself enough to set these limits with people. There is insecurities that you have, but remember that most people do in fact want you to let them know when things aren't ok, and the people who care about you will appreciate you doing this. Without these boundaries in place, you're kept in a place of stagnation that doesn't allow you to grow, so please realize how integral setting these boundaries really is to your growth and wellbeing.

The fear of change is normal, but it won't prevent things from shifting, so learning to embrace it is key. This stems from that patience with yourself, but it also comes from allowing yourself to live in the now and let go of the anxiety about what "could be". It's important to be honest with yourself about what is holding you back and holding you in patterns that aren't serving you. This is a great time to start working on building your self confidence and self love, but this can only be achieved after you take a hard look at yourself and honestly assess what things are helping you and what things are hindering you.

One thing that will really help you to grow with this is to celebrate your own victories. No matter how small or large they are, progress is progress, and you deserve to feel accomplished for evolving and making positive changes. Also be open to the signs around you that you're on the right track. Sometimes these signs will be big. Sometimes they'll be subtle. But know that they're always there, and they're always ready to encourage you and cheer you on.

Focus your energy on breaking free of these things holding you back, and making tough decisions. To do this, you might need to step out of your comfort zone by taking risks and doing things you consider scary, but it'll pay off. It's also important to focus on understanding not only yourself, but others, and to not let harsh emotions like anger cloud your judgment.

Lastly, your Therapets card (top middle) is provided as a source of encouragement for you. The truth is, you're far more capable than you feel.

Cards Pulled: Reverse Four of Cups, Reverse Strength, Fire, Air, Celebration, Nature's Signs, Elk, Reverse Death, Reverse Queen of Wands, Hope Not, Tune Into Your Inner Peace, "The truth is, you're far more capable than you feel."

PILE TWO:

You're being called to evaluate the situations you're in and the people you're surrounding yourself with, and to walk away from the people and situations that are no longer serving you. You have so much worth that you don't even realize because these things are weighing you down and blocking you from even realizing it. It might hurt at the moment to remove yourself from these things and people, but there are so many better things on the horizon for you, so long as you clear your energy to allow it to flow to you.

You've allowed yourself to be swayed by others opinions of you, and in doing so have allowed your own desires to be ignored. It's time for you to take your power back, and focus again on what it is that you want out of your life. It's also important to surround yourself with positive friends, and people who will encourage you following your dreams and doing things that make you happy. Take the time to focus on yourself and your own self care, and remember that it doesn't make you selfish to think about yourself. With these new friends, make sure to balance between giving to them and not burning yourself out so that this can be a more positive experience for both of you, and commit to keeping it that way.

This is a wonderful time to break out of the auto pilot mode you've put yourself into, and to put an end to that cycle. To put an end to that though, you need to be able to deal with past traumas you've been through in your life and make peace with them. This won't be easy to do, but it's necessary work to be able to move forward positively. You'll see so many blessings coming into your life when you choose to do the inner work and choose joy in the future. Make sure to have gratitude for all the things that come your way as well, as showing gratitude will make way for more positivity to continue to flow in. Let go of the past, allow yourself to trust the people in your present, set your boundaries, and allow all of that to bring to you situations that are more positive and divine.

There might even be desires of yours that you've kept hidden for so long that you don't even remember that you wanted it. Allow yourself to tap back into these desires that have remained hidden, and know that you can achieve them if you truly set your mind to it. You might not be perfect at it on the first try, but that's ok. As long as you go into it with an open mind and pure intentions, things will work out for your highest good. and work out the way they're supposed to. This is a great time for you to set goals and think about the things you want to accomplish, and allow your emotions to guide you towards setting goals that align with your dreams. Also allow yourself to listen to your intuition and that inner voice in your head. If you're drawn towards something, and it won't cause you any harm, then go for it.

Lastly, your Therapets card (top middle) is provided as a source of encouragement for you. You're not going to succeed at everything you do, and that's okay.

Cards pulled: Reverse Knight of Pentacles, Ten of Swords, Saturn, Moon, Lost and Found, Pure Intentions, Starfish, Nine of Cups, Reverse Nine of Wands, See U Later, Commit to Self Care Rituals, "You're not going to succeed at everything you try, and that's okay."

PILE THREE:

It's so important for you to remember that you don't need to have everything figured out all the time. Life isn't as serious as you're making it out to be right now, and you're just causing yourself unnecessary stress. Allow yourself to actually live life, not just worry about life. Your past is holding you down right now. It's important for you to do some inner child work so that you can rise from the ashes of your past and move forward. This is a great time to let go of the baggage that's weighing you down, and let yourself move forward feeling lighter.

It's time for you to let go of these burdens, and allow yourself to rest and relax. This is a time for deep healing, if you allow yourself to do the work and feel the feelings. Doing that will help you to get realigned with yourself and find the emotional release that you've been needing.

You're confined to your comfort zone right now, but growth exists outside of it. So push yourself to try new things, have new experiences and think new thoughts. It's okay to start small, but remember you can't grow if you stay in the same place, so keep moving forward and keep pushing yourself.

You might be called to help others during this time as well, and you might find healing though helping others to find their healing. It'll help you to find your own self worth and remember just how special you are as well. You're not paying attention to your inner voice right now, and it's time to listen to it and think about what it is that you want, and allow your intuition to guide you.

Be receptive to the world around you, and allow it to inspire you to heal. There is hope on the horizon for you. You just need to allow it to find its way to you. Find the bright side of your situation, and hold onto that glimmer of light, and allow it to grow into a bigger and bigger light. You have the ability to change a negative situation into a positive one if you hold onto the light.

Allow yourself to feel the joy that feels most authentic to you. It's important to focus on what feels most authentic to yourself, but be patient with yourself as you do this. Keep the hope and the faith that you will find yourself, even if it takes more time than you'd initially like for it to.

Lastly, your Therapets card (top middle) is provided as a source of encouragement for you. You are going to get through this just fine.

Cards pulled: The Star, Eight of Cups, Jupiter, Sagittarius, Inspiration, Hope, Phoenix, Four of Pentacles, Reverse High Priestess, Forever Young, Step Out of Your Comfort Zone and Try Something New, "You are going to get through this just fine."

PILE FOUR:

This is a very successful time for you, so remember to celebrate your wins. It doesn't matter how big or small they are. Allow yourself to revel in the feelings of success or satisfaction, because acknowledging those feelings will allow more of it to flow to you.

You might be finding yourself at a crossroads in life, and you might be trying to rationalize which path you should take. Drown out all the noise, and allow your intuition to guide you. If you really take the time to stop and listen, you'll find that you know what choice you should make already. Don't judge yourself for being unsure tho, and don't judge yourself for wanting to make a decision that others might not consider to be the "right" one. Those people are not you. You have to do what's right for you, and show yourself love and patience for having the courage to make that choice. Others opinions of what you choose to do does not matter.

You're a very caring person, and you wear your heart on your sleeve sometimes, and there's no shame in that. Allow that to be a strength and not a weakness, and let that propel you into manifesting the things you desire. You're moving towards even more success, so don't doubt yourself.

This is a time for creativity for you, so allow those ideas to flow through you and to you. You'll be opened up to new paths and new relationships with this, so allow the abundance to flow to you, and allow yourself to take this path with empathy, both towards yourself and towards the people who come into your life. Don't allow yourself to get overwhelmed and get cold. Your heart is your greatest asset. Allow it to stay open, despite what might happen.

Use nature to help you find your center during this time, and use it as a way to find peace when things get stressful. There's a lot of positive change coming to your life. Don't fear it. Embrace it, and embrace all of your wonderful manifestations. But if you find yourself feeling out of balance, allow yourself to take a walk or take a break in nature to help yourself get grounded again.

This is a great time to work on what you consider your own personal freedom. Big change is coming to you, and you're allowed to change as a person as well. Allow your self confidence to build as these changes come your way, and assess what things feel right to you as things shift. Once again, it's important to be patient with yourself, but it's also important to remember that you do have control of some things. Issues surrounding your personal identity and how you express yourself might come up during this time, so allow yourself to work through that and to give yourself the time you need to find what's right for you and to heal what isn't.

Lastly, your Therapets card (top middle) is provided as a source of encouragement for you. You're not going to succeed at everything you do, and that's okay.

Cards pulled: Knight of Cups, Eight of Wands, Sun, Uranus, Manifestation, Go Outside, Tarantula, The Empress, Ace of Cups, How You Like That, Stop Judging and Start Loving, "You need to give yourself time to heal, no matter how long that ends up being."

[skyborn-reads]

📜 Inspiration Is Here — an intuitive reading

For artists, writers, creative people who are searching for their Muse 💖 If you're feeling burned out, this reading is for you:

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Sky 1 — Bubbles & Blasts

Card drawn: Seven of Cups (reversed)

The main blockage you have right now is pressure; pressure you put on yourself to perform well, and pressure from people's expectations. A few of you are also pressured by a deadline. Step away from your project for a moment and take a breather. It's not easy to deliver what is expected of you, but soon you'll realise that most of what pressures you is fear and self doubt bringing you down. You have what it takes to do your best, you just have to believe in yourself more. Only then can you be in the best state to deliver the best results.

Inspirations for you: Loud jingles, beads, pearls, colourful stuff, loud happy stuff, popping sounds, things that remind you of childhood nostalgia, bubbles, children's laughter, candy balls, lights, the cup (on the card) that is filled with those pink purple and green balls

Sky 2 — Row, Row, Row Your Boat

Card drawn: Six of Swords (reversed)

You've been feeling down for a while. You feel beaten down, depressed, feeling like you can never be happy again. I'm sorry that you've been feeling this way! You're very strong and are trying to move on from this phase of your life even though it is difficult. Don't worry, as I see that the sadness is coming to a close. Like the unicorn on the card you're rowing your boat to a safer, happier place and I'm proud of you that you didn't let life beat you down!

Inspiration for you: aquatic themes, sailing, multicolour cottonballs/candy, the other side, jungle-trekking, baking, soft sweetness, sugary French pastries, leaving behind whatever was in the past and getting onto the next stage of your life, not looking back, trust, build a stable foundation before you start something, make sure you're ready before committing yourself to something new

Sky 3 — London Bridge is Falling Down

Card drawn: The Lovers (reversed)

First off what I notice is that you've stepped out of a period full of inspiration to a period where it's replaced with blocks and nothing else. Sometimes you go back and forth between these two modes. Very stark contrast. You're stuck between these two modes trying to push yourself forward but it's getting increasingly difficult. I have a feeling you are quite picky when it comes to your project and the direction you want it to go. It's like you want your project to go this way but when you're inspired to move another way you become stubborn and insist on it to be done the way you wanted. In a way this is good because you have a vivid vision of how you want the project to go but in another way this is also limiting you and might cause you to overlook certain potential. When it comes to creative things sometimes we have to be able to direct it well like a captain but also be free flow about it so it doesn't get too restrictive.

Inspirations for you: walking the path less trodden path, letting go of set standard for a while and just go freeform, look around you and see what items you could use that you've never noticed before, DIY, make something with your hands with usually overlooked material, lake, playing ball, reflection on the lake, fairies, nature, fresh cherries and tomatoes

Sky 4 — I Hear You Amidst The War

Card drawn: Ten of Wands

There appears to be a lot of argumentative energy that causes this blockage. Perhaps you have just gotten out of a stressful argument with some coworkers or people within your community. You're trying to wrap it up and move on from this energy but deep down you know the damage has already been done. You can't just forget and move on no matter how much you wish to maintain the peace. What you can do though is to forgive yourself and any of your involvement that you feel regretful about. Have compassion for yourself and for those involved in the argument even if you don't see eye to eye with them. You're still learning, they're still learning and on this journey of bettering yourselves mistakes can happen. The fact that you're still trying to stay strong after this proves that you're stronger than what life throws at you. At the end of the day you have to lick your wounds and pick up where you left off, bravely, and with an unwavering smile. I wish you joy and a lot of success with what you're doing! 💕

Inspirations for you: the rear end, getting ready, warmups, catch your breath, it's okay to take a hiatus as long as you look after yourself, take time away, sugar candy, indulge in what you love, higher learning, more reading and more research, coming back with a head full of knowledge + new ideas, love all hate none, sometimes you need quick wit + a dash of creativity to solve problems, don't distant yourself from people you love, learn to detach but still see the situation objectively, heart full of love, crystals

Please follow & reblog for more readings! 💕

~ Skyborn

[winterzsurprise]

Us Against All || Benchtrio

Characters: Tommyinnit, Tubbo, Ranboo

Summary: They expected the dreadful possibility of being bitten but they never knew how painful it was to see their friend run on borrowed time.

Tags: Angst, Zombie Apocalypse! AU, Volleyball player! Ranboo, Streamer! Tommy, Young genius chemist! Tubbo, blood, cursing, suicidal thoughts.

Words: 1.5k

BGM: Brother - Kodaline

This is inspired by a Tiktok user's AU, I can't remember their @ so if anyone remembers it, do tell me so I can link their amazing creation. In this version of mine, while they went for different career paths, they still met through minecraft. This is an old draft so, bear with the errors, I'll fix them tomorrow.

Also thank you everyone for the follows :3

Constructive Criticism are welcomed! I want to do better with my writing :3

The sun at the peak of the sky sheds painful rays down their body that shone with perspiration. Dragging themselves to the source of motivation at the peak of the barren hillside area, where said hope is in a form of a science laboratory.

They have no expectations for the building to have everything they wanted, but beggars can't be choosers right?

It's been days since they have trekked from the other side of the country and crossed many cities in hopes of finding and gathering every necessity for their survival, but the proper items for handling chemicals are never one of them.

They were tired and in dire need of sleep, their legs are aching and screaming for mercy, every step felt like they're walking on legos but they have to carry on.

After all, it will concern the life of their dearest friend.

Ranboo told them to leave him in the surrounded and broken down pharmacy where they previously camped. It's just two words but it hurts more than any cuts and wound.

It all happened too fast for Tommy's brain to process. When they reached the small city, they wanted to settle on the pharmacy roof. The endless travels and bubbling anxieties caused by other wandering survivors and the dead taxing their well-being, the thought of security while they rest is tempting.

All they ask for is a peaceful sleep, even if it lasted for a mere hour, hell, even half an hour would be great. They don't even need to sleep, leisure time is enough. For a short period of time, they wished for their past lives. Just three teenagers goofing off like they used to in front of Tommy's camera.

They want that life back.

They're merely teenagers who haven't reached the greatest peak and happiness of life, they reached for the stars but gravity swallowed and buried them from the neck down in the ground.

Oh how cruel you are, dear fate.

But those excitement and joy all dimmed when their biggest problems came.

The teeth indents stamped on their friend Ranboo has indicated that the man's running on borrowed time. Time that they could not afford to save nor cherish as their lives hangs in an imbalanced scale.

It's astonishing how fast time passes by, Tommy felt hollow and out of place as he wandered the ruins like a lost hollow soul. The fact that Ranboo could turn at anytime hasn't sunk into his head, still trapped in a flurry of emotions and racing thoughts of survival.

They got too comfortable with the illusion of security the rooftops and the locked entrance granted them, with the heavy exhaustion weighting their body, they forgot to check their surroundings.

There was a zombie who was resting behind the stair shed and they were occupied with dinner and were numbingly drowsy that they didn't sense it approaching.

Tubbo still carries the guilt deep inside him, he was facing where the undead came from, he should've saw the moving shadow. But he didn't.

He doesn't care for life that much, he's only breathing because his friends needed him.

But now that one is doomed to die, he felt like disappearing as well.

He wouldn't survive it, the grief, the longing and the guilt. All of it, he wants to be strong for them since he's the eldest but when one part of the puzzle is taken away, he's nothing but unfinished.

They all could remember the raised voices and the groans of the monsters outside the barricaded pharmacy. Bloodied hands staining the glasses, the cross wooden boards plastered on them shaking, threatening to break under a horde's pressure.

It was too loud, too stressful yet Tubbo could recall their conversation as clear as the sky.

"Just leave me alone!"

"No! No one is dying on my watch!"

"Tubbo... I am."

"No... shut the fuck up, we are getting out of here. Three of us, if you want to stay then we will stay with you."

"I'll turn eventually so I can hold them off for you both, please just go."

"Stop saying that! How dare you throw your life away so nonchalantly?! Did you even think what we feel?!"

"Tubbo-"

"No, I don't wanna hear it Tommy! I know I'm being selfish but how dare you Ranboo!"

That fight still left them with the tense atmosphere even after leaving the infested area, no one even bothered to say anything, not a single apology from anyone's mouth.

The truth was like a buried landmine in the battlefield they're all trying to avoid, the illusion of being complete is tenfold better than facing reality.

Of course nobody wants this silence to be permanent, they just couldn't find the words to say and with their emotions in a whirlpool, they all just absentmindedly followed the one leading the team, Tommy.

The blond who shined in many lives now is a lonely ghost walking aimlessly in an unending vortex of nothingness. The joy in his eyes that he retained before the bite long gone, the hop in his steps non-existent.

He's the glue that kept their torn papers all together, but trying to mend their sheet right now in the storm is useless. He could try building it back up, shield it from the rain but in the end, it will also tear.

Even then, the slightest bit of fire in his heart would tire itself till the flame turns to ambers just to make sure the other candles shines.

For the first time in a day, Tommy finally spoke.

"We're nearing the laboratory, I'll check inside first, Tubbo you go-"

"You are not going to tell me what I'm supposed to do, we are going in."

"Tubbo-"

"I know you're worried but I can't watch everyone around me die."

Tommy sighed, glancing at his friend over his shoulder to see his piercing glare. "I'm not going to die."

"Tommy, I can't lose you too."

"You're not going to lose me Tubs, I'll be with the both of you till the end of the line." His statement made Tubbo let out a breathy laugh as they trekked the slope. This alone made the other two smile.

"Don't Captain America me you bastard, don't you remember what happened to him and his friend?"

"Don't be so pessimistic, look at the bright side!" Tommy exclaimed with arms wide as if reaching out to hug the scorching sun.

"The only thing bright these days is the sun." Ranboo responds, for the first time that day.

"True."

"Come on, I'm trying to be positive here! Don't drag me down with your sad boy shit!" This fortified small smiles on his friends' face.

Suddenly, his hunger earlier diminished, as if a speck of dust the wisp of wind took when it blew its humid air.

Is this what his father meant by 'seeing you eat makes me full already' minus the eating? What an odd way to feel fulfilled but welcomed nonetheless.

"One of us, one of us." Ranboo chants which Tubbo followed, pulling the blond back towards them by the hem of his shirt.

But their joy was cut abruptly by the sight of the teeth indents on Ranboo's arm when he attempted to embrace them. The facade of happiness dispersing with the wind that blew past them.

"You gotta cover that up, it's a real killjoy."

Ranboo stared at the red bandana Tommy held out to him before taking the fabric and wrapping it around his wound. They were fortunate to have taken the vaccine created by Tubbo's father before he passed away and turned, while it didn't stop the virus, it did slowed down infection from spreading.

"How long do you reckon we have before Ranboo turns?" Tommy turned to Tubbo whose gaze is fixated on the tall teen's arm.

"Honestly? I don't know. But don't worry, I'll get to work as soon as we enter the laboratory."

Ranboo and Tommy shared a look. While the brunette is smart and has the imperfect formula for the vaccine they took, they both know it was useless. Tubbo might be smart and persistent but the virus has spread wide in the tall teen's system, even if he survived, he would've lose a few limbs.

And to survive in the new normal, Ranboo needs them.

"I know you're looking at each other right now, but I promise, I'll fix him up in no time!" Tubbo said, optimistically as he glanced at them with a grin that didn't reach his eyes. Tommy sighed.

"Tubbo--"

"I don't want to hear anything from you."

"We both know, we all know that it's not poss--"

"It's possible!" They halt as Tubbo's tone turned bitter, his gaze casted down with his head. "I'll make it so."

Tommy could only stare, the eldest might be smart but like everything in this world, his intelligence got limits. He might knew the ingredients but he's not his father. There's a bit of hope that rest in his chest but trying to keep it up is exhausting, with a glance at Ranboo, he knew the tallest felt the same.

If not, more.

A small sad smile bloomed on Ranboo's face as he placed a hand on Tubbo's shoulder. "You don't need to waste your time and resources for me. Let's just... try to make my last days special."

"Don't you fucking dare give up when I haven't done anything yet!" Tubbo slapped Ranboo's hand from his shoulder, gaze blazing as he glared at the tall teen. "I don't care about how much fucking material I have to consume to save you Ranboo. Food, chemicals, water, fabric and all of that shit, I can fucking scavenge for them. Just don't give up and stay alive!"

With that, the shortest stomped off with Tommy following suit with a distraught expression, leaving Ranboo behind to pick up the shattered pieces of his heart and Tubbo's.

[daneesoro]

Hi! Sorry if this question is invasive but what are you're thoughts on atheism and leaving the church? I'm genuinely curious it's nice to have discussions with people about these sorts of subjects!

ayy though I still can't make sense on how everything can come from nothing, i have more respect for atheists than liberal Christians since they act accordingly to what they believe.

I mostly say harsh things towards people who claim to be Christians cause atheists are outside the body while believers are IN the body of Christ. of course I'll be rebuking you. better than to let you fall and experience a worst death than unbelievers

Christians who don't obey His commandments are better off never hearing the Gospel at all

Revelation 3:15-16

"‘I know your works: you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth."

/believers who genuinely tasted the Lord and yet still chose to follow their own desires will have more severe punishment than those who never did.

2 Timothy 4:3-4 ESV

For the time is coming when people will not endure sound teaching, but having itching ears they will accumulate for themselves teachers to suit their own passions, and will turn away from listening to the truth and wander off into myths.

2 Peter 2:20-22 CJB

if they have once escaped the pollutions of the world through knowing our Lord and Deliverer, Yeshua the Messiah, and then have again become entangled and defeated by them, their latter condition has become worse than their former. It would have been better for them not to have known the Way of righteousness than, fully knowing, to turn from the holy command delivered to them. What has happened to them accords with the true proverb, "A dog returns to its own vomit." Yes, "The pig washed itself, only to wallow in the mud!"

/so many Christians get one encounter and think they're good so they never talk to Him again. then they naturally look for people or sources that will tell them what they wanna hear instead of going to Yeshua. it's dangerous and they don't even realize their hardening their hearts till its worse than before

/Now unless you mean atheists that never did have an intimate encounter with Yeshua, I don't got much to say cause its your decision. Still wish youd come to Him before you get to the point of desperation and hurt. I don't want people coming to Christ through trauma cause it gets challenging. the enemy will remind you of it to torment you. Of course Yeshua can heal anything but innocence can't be restored.

so I don't blame atheists for not wanting to follow, Christianity is harder than what people claim to be. if youre of the world, you're an enemy of God. not to say u have to be a weirdo but you will be set apart. to not go with what most of the world thinks is right. Its why were called to be followers of Christ, it means to experience the hatred and hurt He experienced.

John 15:18-19

/of course there's joy and peace, freedom from trauma, addiction, suicide etc but unless you're half in and half out, you won't experience the fulfillment Christ offers

“If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.

“Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.” -Matthew 5:11

being a Christian means you need to care more about people than caring about what they think of you. and laying yourself down for the sake of others, just as Yeshua the Messiah did

now for my fave verse

Matthew 16:24-26 ESV

/idrk what you meant by my thoughts on atheism, cause all I know is they don't believe in the existence of God but believe in the evolution and the big bang. I don't like debunking these things on an art blog of all places but I know multiple scientists have claimed that the arrangement of planets, how even the tiniest details are placed in a way that balances the habitability of the living things on Earth. How many mention that there is a creator (but still not choosing to use the term God)

Then Jesus told his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul?

[thesagedahlia]

💎Ari Fletcher & Moneybagg Yo💎

I had to update my reading that I've done on this couple in the past, but let me just say that when I did it THEN, everything was good, but it seemed like a small power struggle & an issue of boundaries. I don't remember most of it, but it was relatively okay, as far as the interest, & it was a highly passionate relationship, if you catch my drift. Mind you, this was BEFORE 👩🏾‍🦰Wig-Gate👩🏾‍🦲 (which I pulled on at the time & got the feeling it was about a BM), so before anything really incriminating or negative attention on them, as a couple. Since then, every other time I pull cards on them, it's a see-saw; I'd pull to find out that they had a blow up, or argument, not even two days later, they were together & were doing good, but when I go to pull again, they WOULD be better but after some peaceful resolution. So I figured that this would be an ongoing cycle for them as a couple, but all of that is NEVER to say that they don't have feeling for each other or are making a genuine effort, on both parties. I really feel like this reading is very contradictory to what is portrayed on the outside, to warn you (good readings usually are ones that are contradictory), so before you get butthurt, remember that I'm only reading the cards...though, the cards have a tendency to tell the truth. & I thought Future's reading was a long one, this was way too much. So allow me not to wait any more time.

**DISCLAIMER**

I am not declaring, nor am I insinuating, that anything I say in my predictions are true accounts of any of the parties involved. This reading is for entertainment purposes only, & should only taken as such. All in good fun, folks 🤷🏾‍♀️🧿

💎Energy surrounding Ari & Moneybagg Yo💎

I get the feeling that their security was threatened with in the relationship. I feel like Moneybagg Yo is always making moves, & I feel Ari's paranoia getting the best of her. I feel she is always accusing him of cheating or of talking to one of his BMs more exclusively; it feels like misinformation or accusation, but it began to be a lot of stress on Ari, & I feel her reaching a limit & withdrawing from Moneybagg. I feel Ari really suspects him to still be dealing with one of his BMs in a romantic sense, & that he may seem manipulative or controlling when it comes to her, to Ari. I feel they've had a lot of conflicts & arguments (some being solved physically), & I think this has caused Moneybagg problems with his BM as well. There is an unfulfillment & dissatisfaction here, & I feel they separated a few times. I feel a power struggle in this relationship as well. I feel these instances to also be what has brought out Ari's emotional instability in aggression. This relationship isn't allowing for Ari to see her paranoia for what it is. She seems to be overlooking the negative of the relationship, & remains hold of it; deeming their circumstance unconventional. There's a lack of growth & cooperation, but Ari demands a lot from Moneybagg, in order for her to trust him. She has a choice to free herself, or trust in the love & hope for it to improve, but there is a lack of clarity within the relationship that causes her stress & anxiety. It's stems around the possibility that he is withholding secrets from her, because he may have been trying to manipulate her emotionally before. I think she tries to balance her emotions (her paranoia is up-and-down), but it may be hard because Moneybagg has caused her pain through lies or manipulation in the past already. I think they really overlook the power struggles, & lack of collaborative or compatible energy between them. There is also one sided clarity, because they both exhibit emotional immaturity. Aside from all the sexually active energy, there isn't much positive progress. Ari tries to find pleasantries in their relationship after the disharmony, but ultimately, they will keep repeating negative patterns past all the efforts of balance. I'm also picking up one of financial dependency here, that is what is keeping her in the on-going battle of the relationship. Ari has the option to move away from the hostility & painful treatment, but I feel one of her underlying worries is being lonely. She stays for the sake of being in a relationship, & it feels like a regretful, yet necessary transition that is being delayed, but the disorder feels it will continue until some kind of change occurs.

💎Ari's feelings toward Moneybagg Yo💎

I feel like Ari is infatuated with Moneybagg & she is very territorial over him. She could be so much into wanting to be in the relationship, that she ignores any warning signs that come up for her, & she overlooks the negatives within the situation, & becomes blind to the truth of the Monybagg's emotionlly withdrawn nature. I get the feeling that the fighting is exciting for her, & she finds him to be a sexually satisfying partner. She doesn't only find joy there, but she feels it is a financially stable relationship. She feels lack of growth, however, or doesn't see much for the long term, only because she would eventually become impatient of finally recovering from the worst they've endured. They've had a bout in the past that resulted in them walking away from each other (I can't tell how recent it is), & it put Ari in a position where she felt powerless. I think one thing about Ari is, she tries to have control over Moneybagg & the relationship. She may also be unclear of her belief when it comes to the relationships he maintains with his BMs. Ari feels like he is still messing with one in particular, & it's because of some information that supports this belief. I feel there are some messages that were sent to Moneybagg of a flirtatious nature, & that was a base point for some of their arguments. It was pain behind this, but she is hoarding the relationship.

💎Moneybagg Yo's feelings toward Ari💎

It feels like the fact that they fight the way they do isn't as much of a turn on for him as it is for Ari, in fact he feels trapped within the relationship. I feel like he tries to give to this connection as much as he can in order to heal it, but it still isn't all of him. He feels she is the source of a lot of their arguments, & he drew back from her emotionally because of it. He also feels Ari acts out of emotions & that she doesn't have control over her actions. He feels she always accuses him of cheating, or doing wrong (& this could be where the BM comes in). He feels she can be caring, sweet, & emotional one minute, then cold, & accusing the next. I feel he's been conflicted because he does care about her, but the false accusations cause him a lot of grief. Ari has extreme trust issues, & that causes a heavily emotional experience for him. I do feel like he wants to take a break from the relationship because it's put a lot of stress on him. He wants a happy situation with her, but she is pushing him away with all of the accusing. I feel like he contemplates a lot to himself about this, & he is conflicted because he feels they can have a successful relationship. It's become overwhelming to him, & he's coming close to giving up.

🔎👩🏾‍🦰Was 'Wig Gate' a hoax or real❔ Why/what happened❓👩🏾‍🦲🔍

A transformation did take place within this situation, & it was due to one-sided clarity that caused disruption within the relationship. I feel there was gossip, or information relayed to Ari, that was incriminating communication against Moneybagg Yo. This information was of him dealing with another female, or him spending time with/money on his BMs (either one in particular, or more). I am picking up on a violent/abusive nature, & things getting attention surrounding this conflict; what was witnessed was the aftermath of a volitile breakdown. Infidelity, or the paranoia over it, is what triggered this event, Ari has a huge lack of restraint when releasing her emotions, & she can become pretty reckless; this is also being noted as repeating negative patterns as like past relationships. It's also coming up that Moneybagg willingly debunked the 'rumor', because he has love for Ari, & he didn't want to have her publicly embarrassed. By that point, they have separated in order to cool off the attention on them. Meanwhile, Ari was dealing with the revelation behind the scenes, & I even feel like them getting back good with one another was prolonged because of how hurt she felt. Since then she had a chip on her shoulder. Moneybagg may have been having a hard time prioritizing his relationship with Ari & his relationship with his BMs simultaneously, because the back-and-forth of it seems to catch up with him; it is coming up as a conflicting situation that would inevitably clash. Overindulgence of liquor/drugs may have played a role in this trigger as well. Ari has an insecurity when it comes to Moneybagg in his relationship with his BMs which brought out the shadow side in Ari. This tension/hostility may be a continuing factor within this relationship. I feel Ari tried to mind her business & keep the peace when he came to his BMs, but it is still change that is unwelcome to her. Unfortunately, with the energy they're in, I don't think this will be the last time this will cause conflict; slowly but surely, this will be revisited. This was a building conflict/tension within Ari & an unspoken & security that blew up in the public. I'm also seeing it as a financial issue as well, oddly enough. I feel Ari is 'spoiled', if you will, financially in this relationship, yet she doesn't get as much of his money as she would hope because a lot of it goes to his BMs as well as her. These issues with Ari are starting to get to his BMs, when Moneybagg was trying to keep them separate. These changes are unwelcome for Ari, & will continue to make her feel defensive & uncomfortable.

💎Ari's Feelings toward the BMs/Juicyy💎

I feel like Ari is putting herself in this self imposed prison when it comes to the BMs as a collective. She isn't too friendly, nor has any desire to be. She would rather not have a relationship with any of them (not a surprise), & I'm picking up that there was one in particular that it was revealed about some kind of flirtatious environment. She feels like she has the perception of them still wanting to be with Moneybagg, & she's sure that he is being deceptive about them, & i feel like her paranoia may prompt her to anticipate getting into it with one of them (which it is showing that she has), all while displaying her relationship with Moneybagg to, in a way, provoke them to say something. She also feels he is back-and-forth with all of them & her, & she doesn't necessarily trust the situation with them.

With Juicyy specifically, Ari feels like they are, or he is, doing more with her than just visiting their child. She feels he has been controlling or manipulating the relationship with both of them to his advantage. I feel this is her perception & paranoia, but I feel a suppressed anger or hostility because of this. She feels he gives Juicyy attention, & in Ari's mind, she absorbs that attention. She feels, in him trying to keep the relationship together with Juicyy, he is causing her to be mentally unsettled by the fear of it. Ari does feel like she is still dealing with him in a passionate way, which has, in turn, caused her to become more & more of a possessive, combative, & accusing. Ari feels he deals with her this way in particular out of the other 3, yet she still is not putting anything past the other BM's. I feel an insecurity around their relationship & it can even be an intimidation, & that is unspoken but I'm also getting a sense of misinformation relayed to her. She feel she can't compete with Juicyy's relationship/bond with Moneybagg & she fills Juicyy has an emotional hold over him, much to her disadvantage. I feel like instability contributed to her perception of this, & it is almost as if it is rumor/speculation that is causing anxiety for her as well.

💎MBY's relationship with his BMs/Juicyy💎

As a collective, I feel like Moneybagg wasn't a saint to these women, in fact, I feel he caused confusion to them. I feel like they were relationships he wanted to make work, but I feel like he would deal with these women as well as others. I also feel like hes back-and-forth with some of them at least (2 or 3) in communication, as it may be an up & down type of exchange with them. There seems to be an energy of having control over these women & playing a balancing act with these relationships. I feel it is an ego boost to him to hang on to these women in certain degree (aside from coparenting), even within his relationship with Ari, as he feels he can fall back on his BMs if Ari & he were to get into a fight or break up. I feel like he does still pine after on BM in particular, but she isn't falling for it; she knows what she dealt with when she was with him, & she has a guard up although I also feel Moneybagg is a soft spot for her. She has love for him, & they have a very tight knit & solid relationship/bond, but she knows better than to cross certain lines with him because of why they separate in the first place. They have well established feelings for one another, & they both know it, but there was a resistance to renew a cycle because of repressed anger from past secrets, or awareness of past secrets of being unfaithful. I feel they have a mutual exchange & an agreeance to keep the peace between them, but it is almost as if the cycle between them has yet to close out completely, yet the movement has been stagnated or slow. There is a strong defense to this relationship, but I'm feeling 3rd party conflict, in all honesty, Ari could be someone who is highly intimidated by this relationship because I'm possibly seeing conflicts here ( I see there has been confrontation in the past with this BM & she had to defend herself over confusion). Over all I feel collectively he possibly has in emotional hold on these women and at least 3 of them may be clean to a possibility of a romantic relationship and they may be confused about where his head is at emotional I and there may be some recklessness or naivety, & one BM can see straight through the BS & has her guard up against it. I feel they all still have love (to a point) for him as he does for them.

With Juicyy specifically, She is well aware of what comes with being with Moneybagg, & it has caused her a lot of stress & burden. He bring cycles of disappointment to her & he seems to be the type to like to keep a woman in confusion, when it comes to love relationships. He tries to have his cake & eat it too, & Juicyy doesn't expect to be accepting any invitations because of it. She knows there is shit he likes to hide, & that he can be sweet one minute then secretive the next. She knows he lacks the emotional maturity for a relationship & that he can't seem to be with one person. I feel even though she feels this way, it isn't to say that she is wanting to be malicious to him by way of their child(ren). A romantic beginning is not welcome for her, but she feels she needs to stay focus on the family, co-parenting aspect of it. She is also respectful of the fact day he has a public relationship elsewhere, so she doesn't want to insert herself in that. She feels like the relationship will become less and less organized & she'd rather mind her business & allow it to unfold. I feel she does acknowledge that he has a good fatherly energy & they are able to coparent, but I feel he does miss being with her & he does occasionaly shoot his shot. She would rather not engage because he can never be straight up with her within a relationship. As of late, she's dealt with Moneybagg's current woman, Ari, & she won't allow that to penetrate the mutuality of her relationship with him, but she won't back down from his woman, no matter who she is. She usually shifts her focus away from his relationship with Ari, but if conflict is brought to her she will address it & she wore hesitate to do.

🤼🏾‍♀️Will Ari & Juicyy ever CLASH again❔🤼🏾‍♀️

Well, I feel Ari can get in her own head about Juicyy, her connection to Moneybagg, & in her perception, she feels he is still attracted to her. Meanwhile, Juicyy isn't intrested in that kind of attention from him. Ari doesn't trust her in the slightest, but I don't see her outwardly causing a problem. I feel there is peace for now & it is more so for the sake of portraying that she is happy with Moneybagg & they have a better bond between one another. Ari is under the impression that he is still attracted to her & that they still have 'relations' (which, of course, isn't necessarily true), which brings her confusion & jealousy, but I see she is wanting to remain unbothered on the surface. I feel like Ari is threatened by her relationship because of Juicyy, so she has her defenses up & will defend her & Moneybagg's relationship in any way she ever needed to, against her. I don't feel there will be any outward hostility expressed, in an effort to not start conflict from a dry place. I do feel Ari needs to be careful not to let her distrust or misinformation to allow her to make irrational decisions out of pure emotion or ego.

💎What lies in the future for Moneybagg & Ari's relationship💎

I feel like there is a factor of jealousy that still looms under this relationship. Ari feels like she is still bring up things from the past, & it makes her want to make Moneybagg value her worth & this can be brought through monetary means. This feels like a vengeful tactic for her through emotional manipulation; she feels suspicious of him & her emotions go up-&-down. I feel there is a genuine attempt at dating & building with one another, but she's remaining in the mind set of feeling confused & she's trapping herself in that confusion. I also feel she's faking her happiness at times, & is only holding onto the relationship for the potential of a firm foundation, both emotionally & financially. I feel like her suspicions get the best of her, mostly when he's away, or traveling. I also feel she has insecurities about being separated from him & could be worried the most about him dealing with a BM/someone he could be DMing. She may feel stressed with the lack of stability she feels within the relationship. I have a feeling that because of this, Ari feel she should detached from the situation, but this is a relationship built on financial security as well as 'love'. This is an unhealthy transition for since she is in her head a lot about it. She could make the choice to release herself due to her lack of clarity since it is continuing to cause paranoia for her. There is a need to discover her value & find a deeper feeling/meaning out of herself away from the relationship. From what I can tell, this will be a cycle with them the majority of the relationship. Emotional instability is a problem between them, & while Moneybagg wants to have a stable connection, the past tends to rear its ugly head yet again.

🔍BONUS QUESTIONS🔎

🤼🏾‍♀️Why did Ari come for Juicyy on Social Media🤼🏾‍♀️

She feels boundaries have been tested & she doesn't fully believe that they aren't still dealing with each other romantically (or even sexually). She's not only fairly suspicious of him of keeping things regarding her hidden, she also feels like they have a pretty solid bond, much to her reluctance. I feel like every time he is with Juicyy it angers her, & she has a very codependent & insecure energy behind it. I feel like she can be a little obsessive and her intuition regarding compare relationship is blocked or misguided; I don't think she has all of the facts straight, per say. I feel like she doesn't enjoy sharing Moneybagg with Juicyy, simply because of her own suspicions & paranoia. I do feel Ari finds Juicyy to be a threat to her relationship, so she could have had some building hostility toward her, & I feel like she didn't want to come at her out of emotions, so she figured to do it about the driest shit possible (🙄 she needed a reason to say something to her). Per the fact them Moneybagg is going to do what he wants, he is going to have Juicyy's back due to his loyal to her.

👍🏾How did Moneybagg Yo feel about Ari vs. Juicyy👎🏾

I feel like it did bother him, that as well as having to deal with a girlfriend that doesn't trust that he is committed to the relationship, & he sees how difficult it will be that she doesn't wish to compromise her feelings for the sake of keeping things civil. He is also overwhelmed by the way Ari can be very accusing. He's aware that she feels there is a deeper meaning behind his flattery towards Juicyy, & that she feels he is giving her certain attention. He feels it was all just really petty & that it was stressful news/dirty gossip that may have taken him a lot to get around. He doesn't care much for social media beef, so it was really a nuisance to him. He finds it to be a problem that they aren't on the same page, & I think that it made things worse by Ari taking it to social media (even if it was over something petty). He feels home life can get chaotic with this kind of approach to it, & he also feels that its bed for him financially, as far as business is concerned. Moneybagg tries to be a loving leader for his family, & having a well off relationship with his children's mothers is a priority as well (regardless of which mother). He feels there is tension there, but he is still going to work on his relationship with Ari & working on balance between that & maintaining his family.

🤳🏾Did Moneybagg try to recruit a second girlfriend, or Ari's replacement🤳🏾

This is definitely a person that he's been holding onto, as if he has a certain roster of women he's been putting on reserve, so to speak (7 women it feels like; 4 being his BMs). I do feel like he hit her up for his own self interest, & I feel like he has perpetuated confusion for her in the past, but I think he's kept her around even though he's cut her off in the ways he has before. I feel like it was a situation where, even though he got blasted in the past, he still doesn't seem to have any shame about it. This DM seemed to be triggered by/coming from an energy of losing hope, or difficulty having hope, within a love connections, & a strain caused by worrying about painful feedback from gossip. I also feel like he was initially going to keep this a secret from this connection (with Ari), but the girl ended up blasting him; I also don't feel like he was expecting the response he got from her. It also feels due to repeating negative patters or stagnation within the connection (with Ari).

[wybielune]

The time has come. Finally, it's Christmas Eve.

A short while ago, I made a post about the Santa Claus and joy of giving to another solely to make them happy, linked below.

This time, I'll do my best to cover the religious aspect of it.

It can be hard to slow down and actually think about it. With all the events going on, sorting out whose relatives you're going to visit and when, and spending more money than you actually have to get gifts in and ready for the big day, it's very easy to get distracted and let the day pass without much consideration.

I discovered recently through friendly conversation with passing strangers, that I am not the only one who feels that time is moving far too fast. Many, many others feel the same way.

Now, I do not believe that, as the Bible says, man is born in Sin and must be baptised and such to be saved. I don't believe in telling others that they must convert or go to hell.

The way I see it as a Christian is that Deity, the All knowing, the All seeing, created All, and as people have different languages and cultures, that they have come to know and understand Deity in their own way, giving It their own names so as to identify Them.

Notice, although the religions are very different, most of them have some similar aspect to them. Some wonderful Being brought mankind into existence and watches over and guides them. Whether it's a single consciousness such as Jehovah, or multiple beings, such as The God and The Goddess, or even the maid, the mother and the hag, I believe that these are all just variations on the way Divinity is seen, so no, I will never try to convert someone. They're doing nothing wrong, and are busily learning on their own paths.

What I do believe in, and will always try to teach others that I come across, is kindness.

There have been many Prophets across all religions who have been sent from the Divine Source, but for the purpose of this post, I'll speak about Jesus Christ.

Instead, perhaps, humanity was straying too far from our Divine principles.

Link: https://www.fulcrumgallery.com/Mark-Missman/Mary-Baby-Jesus_951537.htm

The purpose of his being born here was to instill kindness in humanity. I don't think for an instant that God would create us and then let us stop existing at the moment of our deaths or let us suffer in hell. No. We always rejoined our Spiritual Parent.

In the Bible, the time before Jesus' birth was particularly unpleasant, man turned against man for ridiculous, earthly complaints. It's very easy to become wrapped up in yours and your families own problems and see everyone else as the enemy, especially when their views differ from yours.

Now, this doesn't mean, take their abuse and accept it. Nobody should ever accept abuse of any kind, but what it does mean is, if someone is being short where normally they wouldn't, try not to take offense. Stop and consider what has made them feel that way.

Everyone's backgrounds are different, and maybe much more challenging than we realise. This can cause people to harden, as they've been hurt by others who also had to harden because somebody hurt them, but this is the thing; you don't have to be. If you have, you can choose to change. These people all came from the same Divine Source. In this way, they are our siblings. Our brothers, sisters and every other word meaning sibling that there is.

Someone is working hard trying to achieve something and seems flustered by it? Offer to help.

Someone always seems to be in a low mood despite whatever you do, do they have a Chronic Pain condition? Some form of depression? They might think that not talking about it is helping you, or that they are for some reason unable to talk about it.

The extra hand that helps lift the weight? That collection of coins that sits in the bottom of your wallet/purse that never seem to leave? There's a donation box that could make great use of that. Doesn't matter if it equals up to a whole dollar/pound, you helped.

The point of this enormous post, is that Jesus' whole point was that everyone should act a little kinder to each other, and if we are always focusing on our goals, and then our next goal and so forth, we are so concerned with ourselves, our families, our problems, that we forget the smaller things, the smaller kindnesses that are often overlooked.

The whole cause for his death was a bunch of people focusing solely on negatives, such as pushing them out of their harmful but familiar and therefore comfortable ruts, rather than all the good that he brought us, and to make a positive change, you don't even have to go into a temple and flip some tables!

The fact that Jesus' birthday is such a large event for a good portion of the world is an excellent way to remember all of this, so please, try to keep this in mind.

Fellowship to all men, peace on Earth? Fancy ways of saying, be kind. Be patient. Try just a little bit more, and you know what, you don't even have to be religious to take all of this to heart. Regardless of whether you believe it to be true or not, it's still something to take to think about so-

A lot of people might be under the impression that there is some great, grand Christmas 'thing' that is complex and deep and that only holy people like Priests or something truly know it's meaning, and I'll admit, for a long time, I didn't really understand it either.

I knew it was incredibly special and that Jesus' coming was incredible, but a part of me didn't really connect with it. It's now that I'm older that I more completely understand it. You don't even have to be religious to take notice of this, religious or atheist, it's still an important message to take in, so-

-however you spend Christmas, I hope you have a lovely time, and I truly wish you the best in the coming year.

Happy Christmas

😊🙏

[hearteyes-for-killmonger]

House Rules

Part 9

So Flu realized quick that he wasn't getting into her room and immediately started his back up plan setting up his cameras. He's practiced that's why he was so quick.. Erik, like all y'all wants blood. Y/N is still at Erik's house and that's where we are. Also, I'm trying something new. Tagging in the replies so bare with me. Didn't work out.

Warnings: Graphic violence ahead.

Part 10: Killmonger

Swift tagged along with Rell and Erik and they rolled pass Flu's identified apartment. According to the activity lifted from his phone's GPS signal, he was on the move and fast which meant he'd gotten Erik's clear threat. They followed his trail to the bank where they found him waiting behind a red truck in a grey Mitsubishi RVR at the ATM's drive thru.

"He's trying to run," Rell mumbled, eyes fixed on Flu in his vehicle. Neither of them were letting that happen.

"What a dumbass. He doesn't know we can track this. Nigga.. we see you," Swift scoffed parking the car. Any use of his credit card or phone they'd automatically see. Any call he made, they'd hear. Erik had Flu's bank account numbers, social security number, address, emails, messages.. and he planned to wire all the nigga's money to an account for the three of them to split evenly. After all, he wouldn't be needing it anymore. Just then, the red truck left and it was Flu's turn at the ATM.

"I'm going," Erik said sliding his gun into the band of his shorts. Cautious not to be spotted in Flu's rearview mirrors he crept casually but quickly to the SUV. Flu's window was down and the doors were unlocked as he leaned from the car to get closer to the kiosk. To Erik's joy, this allowed him to open the door quickly and slide into the passenger seat, aiming his gun smoothly at Flu's side. His face immediately snapped to the right, eyes widening in fearful recognition.

"Drive away," Erik commanded in a voice that was low but firm. Flu's hesitation made Erik press the cold metal barrel into his side ready to blow his kidney, sure that on camera it'd look like they were sitting there casually. Erik laughed quietly watching Flu's fear intensify. For all this nigga knew he was absolutely crazy, but Erik knew exactly what he was doing.

"Nigga, I'll shoot yo ugly ass right here if I have to and watch you bleed out. I said, Drive. Off." The smile on Erik's face never touched his dark eyes as the car rolled forward and made a turn pass a McDonald's before hopping on the main street.

"Drive home."

Erik's face turned to stone and the nigga was damn near shaking, nervously trying to catch the eye of any driver he passed. He was about as subtle as the bulky ass coat hook he put in Y/N's bathroom and still failed to draw the necessary attention.

"Gimme the phone." Erik snatched and pocketed the device, grabbing the keys before hopping out.

"Why don't you show me how you live, Shy'Dell." Erik jutted his chin toward the building and Flu shook his head regretfully, recognizing the familiar line he'd used on Y/N.

"I'm good." He averted his eyes like he had a choice and Erik had to remind himself that he was a professional. No, he couldn't shoot this nigga in broad daylight in front of the building. That'd be sloppy and anticlimactic.

"Walk yo stupid ass in the building," Erik bit back, palming the gun in his waistband. They took the elevator which rose slowly, Erik's narrowed eyes never leaving Flu and Flu's eyes looking anywhere but at Erik. Then in the hall, Flu turned.. his hands raised in a peace offering.

"Look man.. Your girl?.. I don't even have anything on her. I ain't touch her. Nothi--"

"Nigga. Keep walking," Erik snapped, his lip twisting in disgust. He waited for Flu to turn and walk to the apartment on his own and Flu pulled out his house key, missing the keyhole on the first couple attempts due to the fact that his hands were shaking. His eyes darted to the staircase, but Erik silently dared him to attempt outrunning a bullet. With a finger on his trigger, Erik followed him inside ready for anything to pop off. There wasn't much there in terms of furniture.

"Sit," Erik waved his gun to one of the few folding chairs that sat in the nearly empty living room. The only other objects in the room were a tv and an air mattress, dicey as hell. "Where's your second location? This ain't it."

"My what? I don--"

"If you like your brain inside your skull you'll speak the fuck up." Flu looked to be genuinely clueless and Erik was amazed. If he didn't already know this nigga was a bold liar, he may have believed him.

"Keep this up, your mama finna get a copy of every video you ever made."

"This all I have man I swear on my mama I don't have anything else!"

Erik sneered. Disrespectful ass nigga. Suddenly, his phone rang.

"We're over at the second apartment, I'm going through his shit now." Swift was in.

"The fuck?! Oh hell nah this nigga crazy as hell." Rell wasn't squeamish so it had to be some bullshit.

"This sick bastard, so many hours of him and women, I wouldn't be surprised if.. He is. He's been selling the footage online. Kill, this shit it graphic."

"Kill his pages and delete the footage. Anything you can trace, destroy it." Flu's expression sobered and Erik knew it was in that moment Flu realized he fucked up.

"Got it. And Kill.. Wait for us. Don't start until we get there, you get messy when it's personal. Thirty minutes."

Click.

"...That wasn't my place, I swear. This is the only pl--" SHMACK! The gun whipped across Flu's cheekbone, snapping it to the right and Erik rolled his shoulders.

"I-I didn't touch that girl, I swe--" SHMACK! The gun flew across Flu's other cheek with equal strength causing him to spit blood. No one said don't fuck him up a bit. It felt good.

"You gone stand there like you ain't as bad as me? Really?! Look at you right now. If I'm a monster then it takes one to know one," Flu spat.

"Maybe," he nodded. "You gone whoop ma ass about it? Gone 'head." He squatted, putting himself in swinging distance, but the man ain't move. "Yo bitch ass specifically happened to fuck with what's mine, that's where you lost."

Flu's face twitched. He obviously ain't like feeling powerless and mocked. He took a breath as if choosing his next words carefully, blood still painting his lip. His face was swelling and it was nowhere near the pain he deserved.

"Y/N. Why her?" It was the main question on Erik's mind. In a way, he already knew the answer, but he needed to hear it from the source.

"Ugh,” Flu groaned, “Damn.. I don't know, I guess she seemed lonely. I was drawn to her."

"Fuck this shit," Erik mumbled pushing the barrel of the gun directly against Flu's temple.

"Look. Dammit. She was naive and easy to manipulate. Is that what you wanna hear? She was an easy bitch and it woulda been dumb not to take advantage of something like that."

"Something..," Erik scoffs recalling the countless killers he'd known to use a similar logic, himself included. It made him sick to compare himself to the monster before him. "Yeah, it's real easy to categorize a person as a something. Makes it easier to hurt 'em when you can forget that they're people with their own shit to deal with in life. That way you can convince yourself they don't matter.."

"So you a therapist now? Is that how this works? How many people you kill like this? What about their lives?"

“Oh, I leave most of the people I kill their dignity when it ain’t personal. You though? Nah.”

For the rest of the time, they remained in silence, Erik shushing Flu whenever he tried to speak. Erik ain’t wanna hear shit else the nigga had to say. Finally, the apartment door opened and Flu sat there trying his damndest to look harmless.

"You can cut the shit, Shy'Dell, you know you're not leaving here alive. You never were."

“Kill, we brought the tools,” Swift called carrying a suitcase. Rell rolled a white tarpe out over the beige carpet earning a strong stare from Flu before he made a run for the door. Before he could get a second step away, a blade flew plunging into his leg. His knee buckled and a second blade hit his other leg taking him down to the ground.

“I think all the lies you be telling got yo ass confused, thinkin I don’t mean the shit I be saying.” Erik examined the clean machete Swift removed from the suitcase. This vendetta went beyond guns. “Get ya ass up and sit in the fuckin chair,” he growled, but Flu kept crawling like a roach toward the door. He had to pick the nigga up and sit him in the chair like a child while Swift and Rell stood back, looking on expressionless.

“All ya shit is gone nigga. Ya tapes, ya cameras, ya money. You ain’t got shit. You AIN’T shit. You finna die in this fuckin hellhole and for what? Was it worth it?”

“..........Maybe,” Flu spoke in his boldest move yet.

“See it’s weirdass niggas like this, I don’t claim. This some caucasian shit,” Rell said from behind, Swift verbally agreeing.

“Can y’all like.. shut the fuck up? I’m tryna murk this muhfucka,” Erik shrugged, but high-key he agreed. After gagging Flu and taping his mouth for good measure, he commanded him to strip down butt naked.

“No wonder you gets no play,” Swift deadpanned staring at the minidick Flu was packing. It was anticlimactic, Erik wanted to make a show of cutting the nigga dick off but wasn’t much there to begin with.

“Now I know how disappointed y’all be feelin,” Erik cracked causing Swift to lose it in a snickering fit. “..But then some of y’all still fuck anyway.. so I’m a chop this muhfucka regardless.” Swift, still snickering, shook her head content to watch as the machete flew. Erik made sure the balls came off too and he was glad for the tarpe.. it was messy and Swift turned on the TV to drown out the muffled agonized screams, a slight smirk on her face. She was just as sadistic as he was when it came to sexual predators and sexual violence. To her, it was one of the worst possible crimes.. something he suspected she’d experienced personally though he’d never ask out of respect for her.

The fingers were next, cutting them off of one hand all at once then the other. By the first cut, Flu’s eyes were glued shut, thick tears streaming down his face. Erik was shocked he was still conscious. He had to laugh, the nigga did say it was worth it. Meanwhile Rell waited to collect the parts as the second set of fingers were hacked off at the top knuckle.

“That’s for touching shit that ain’t yours to touch. Something you’ll never do again,” Erik sighed.

“Beat Bobby Flay, I love this show,” Swift perked from behind catching Erik off guard, but he recovered quickly, returning his attention to Flu.

“Still worth it?” Erik eyed Flu’s greying face as the blood drained from it. He was losing a lot of blood quickly. Erik had to hurry it along. This time Flu shook his head ‘no’ and Erik poked out his bottom lip. The nigga did learn something, albeit it was too late. The legs were next. Erik cut them off cleanly at the joints, cutting them smaller at the knees, not caring if the nigga died at this point. Then the arms at the shoulder and elbow. Finally, his head. When he was satisfied with his work, he pulled the change of clothes packed for him via Swift and gave her a kiss on the cheek watching her smile spread before changing. He knew she had a slight thing for him, but she’d never speak on it and he was thankful for that, though he wouldn’t tell her.

“You check for cameras and shit,” he told her before turning to Rell who’d already started cleaning. He was fast as hell. “You need me to cut this shit up smaller?”

“Nah, smaller pieces are harder to move, that’s why I be glad when you use the guns. It’s noisier, but there’s less mess to clean.”

“My bad bruh.”

---

Erik's home is beautiful, but it can also get very dark and that's a little creepy when you're all alone. Once it gets dark out, you have to find and turn on all of the house lights. The next thing is to search and rescue your sex toys. You don't really want to snoop through the man's house because it's rude and bad form, besides he'll probably give you the full tour when he returns. However, the temptation is great considering he has something that belongs to you. You search his drawers, his closet, under his bed, and find nothing but the knowledge that he's extremely organized. The next empty bedroom yields no results either. Then there's a room that's locked and you check around but can't find the key. Knowing how extra Erik is, he probably stored your toys in there. Speak of the devil, your phone rings and it's him.

"I'm on the way, you need something from anywhere?" Yeah, you and this room key.

"Nope, just come on back," you gesture though he can't see you.

"Aight. You okay?"

For some reason that question hit hard. The genuine consideration and care in his voice, it melts something in you, making your chest heat.

"Yeah.. I'm okay.. Are you okay?"

"Me? I'm fine, angelcakes."

There it goes again, that heat radiating through your body, forming a line of hot energy connecting your thumping heart to your jumping vagina.

"You need me to stay on the line," he asks when you don't hang up and you want to say yes, but you also don't want to worry him to make him think you're afraid. You're anxious, sure, but not really afraid.

"Um, nah I'll see you when you get back," you say before hanging up. It's strange how it feels like you're waiting for him as if he's your black and white TV husband, the Ricky to your Lucy. You return to your room and change from the towel into blue jersey shorts and a grey t-shirt, something to sleep in, before heading back down the stairs to explore a bit more. Amazingly, you stumble upon an outdoor pool that's on the back deck. If you'd known this was here, you'd have certainly been chilling out here all day. But maybe you'll have tomorrow to take a dip after work.. That is, if you don't have to go back home tomorrow.

It's only about fifteen minutes later when Erik pulls up and you're curled on the couch, doing some online reading. The key in the door steals your attention and you're anticipating his return a little too eagerly. Calm down weirdo, you tell yourself before the door swings open. He's changed his clothes. Does that mean he went to another pussy appointment before he came back? Not that it's unlike him, but that's still pretty damn cold if he did that today when he was supposed to be checking your apartment. He follows your eyes down to his clothes and immediately rolls his eyes.

"I always carry spare clothes just in case I make a mess and I made a mess today... not from fuckin. Damn, you think I'm that bad?"

"I mean, I didn't say anything to you, but I hoped you weren't."

"You thought it.. and I'm not. I wouldn't do that shit, not when your safety is on the line. You need a better perception of me."

"Maybe.. So how was it, is it safe to go back?"

"Nah, I called some professionals to check it out and they found a bunch of cameras and shit," he says dropping his keys on the table and taking a seat next to you on the couch where he stretches out. "They're gonna take a while to fully remove, you know how it go. You might have to stay here a bit longer until they're all located and gone. Few days maybe.. Hope that's okay."

"Cameras? Wow, I mean... As long as they're removed. How much did they ask for?"

"Don't worry about that, it's on me. Part of my duty in taking care of you."

Taking care of me. Yeah that's exactly what he's been doing isn't it. It's so strange how this arrangement just happened to come about, like destiny if you believe in such a thing.

"..I really do hate that guy, Flu. I don't get how someone could be that sick and evil," you shake your head sitting down your phone and Erik adjusts, pulling your shoulders so your head falls against his chest, his palm cradling your head. Your eyes close and instantly you're calm enough to drift off into a deep sleep.

"Don't worry about him. He's a dumbass and random selection will take care of him. You just rest now."

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[eruanna1875]

4-17-22, Easter Sunday: Running in the Graveyard

Pastor's two high school sports: football & track and field

Cemetery by the high school

Run a mile back thru the cemetery

Felt disrespectful - you don't just thunder through!

Not a lot of running in Bible

It's not dignified, especially for adult males

Not much mentioned until the Resurrection

Why do we run?

Children run for sheer joy, not bc they're afraid or hurried

Nervous energy here

If they understood, they'd be running for joy

Three runners

Young John, who was at the cross

Peter, the disciple always in the middle of everything

Race each other

Not a messy scene they find

Why would robbers unwrap the body & fold the cloths?

John believed, but is washed over with a new belief

Jesus has conquered the grave

Peter's not sure yet

3rd runner is Mary Magdalene

7 demons cast out by Jesus, never leaves His side

Goes @ earliest possible opportunity to mourn

Believes someone has taken the body

Sees two angels (always frightening)

Grief added onto grief - can't they leave Him in peace even dead?

Two questions asked: why are you weeping? Whom are you seeking?

Neither answered, crying too hard

The tomb was in a garden, who else would be there so early?

Not far off in her guess of gardener

The New Adam, victorious over serpent, comforting woman

When He says her name, she goes from panicked grief to pure joy

She hugs Him so tight He has to tell her not to cling - she's gonna have to get used to Him not being here

His words are stabilizing

It's all gonna be okay

Source of peace, but not through stoicism

Jesus knows what fear feels like, dread

An upcoming appointment consuming your thoughts - that x1000

Jesus overcame the fear for the joy before Him

In midst of that, source of peace for His people

Fortress of calm after resurrection too

They didn't have silly fears, look what they've been through

Traumatic experience for them, in times of tumult/danger

Jesus comes introducing fearlessness into world of terror

Put death to death

Not in bondage to fear anymore

Peace be with you, do not fear

The worst possible thing is conquered

Jesus reigns, what do you have to fear?

We're constantly assaulted by messages of doom

Jesus still asks His Bride, who are you seeking?

Calls her to calm, for herself & the world

Confident, fearless lives

Triumph over the damage death causes

Romans verse is very comforting:

The Spirit Who raised Christ lives in you

What problem can be more hopeless/ impossible than bringing a dead, battered body to life?

The spirit of resurrection

Nothing in your life can't be redeemed & resurrected

Not that it'll all get fixed on this side of eternity

We live bearing scars, inside and out, tons leaving their marks

Many deaths and resurrections, but the scars remain

Some things will be with you to the grave

But Jesus transforms your wounds

Even He still bore the marks of His suffering

Trophies of a mighty victor

Every beautiful or bitter moment of life

No matter what, it will be good

We can run our race like children, through graveyard of this world

No matter what, we have life

[padawanlost]

Here's something that I'd like you to consider and answer: It's well known that the Jedi took kids from their parents early to keep them from forming attachments. However, even in real life, there are stories of babies already forming attachments to their mothers at least after at least 6 months in the womb. And it's at least implied that from the moment they're conceived, Force-sensitive babies are more aware of themselves and their surroundings than normal babies, so getting attached to...

That’s theproblem, isn’t it? They remove children from their families to avoid attachmentat the same they were enforcing attachment to the Jedi Order. They don’t seemto realize people can be attached to anything: a person, a feeling, a place, anidea…

The levelof detachment the Jedi seek is impossible and incompatible with their own ideals.If you can’t feel passionate about a cause, you won’t fight for it as strongly.That’s one of the main reasons they failed as a peacekeepers. They didn’t care enough about the suffering of others todo something about it (slavery!). Their need for detachment negates the compassionthey are supposed to demonstrate. Many would agree that for true compassion youneed to strongly empathize with someone else, put yourself in their place, etc.But if you don’t allow yourself to deeply feel or picture someone else’s painor joy you can’t truly sympathize. And if you can’t relate to someone else on anemotional level…

We, ashumans, can sympathize with the plight of our fellow humans because we canunderstand it. When tragedy hits, we can all understand what’s feels like to lose our homes, our lovedones or even our stability, peace or freedom. But when you spend your lifetrying your best not to feel or think about those thing, when you see them asweakness or a source of corruption how compassionate can you really be?

In their arrogantdetachment, they failed to understand they exchanged one attachment for another.Instead of being attached to their own humanity, they became attachment to theidea of detachment. And eventually it led to their own demise. They condemned “negative”emotions and went out of their way to make sure no Jedi would ever feel “bad”. Theyrenounced love, marriage and even their own role in their community, all forthe sake of detachment.

They got soblinded by it they never realized how pointless it was to remove children fromtheir families. Pain (and attachments) are a part of life. You can’t preventthem, but you can teach people how to handle them in a healthy way. But insteadof doing the sensible thing, they sullied their reputation and createdgenerations of member who have no idea how to deal with their own emotionsbeyond repressing them.

The internallogical behind the Jedi ideology is faulty at best. Everything they did to preventfear was motivated by it. They got caught in this vicious circle of toxicbehavior: their fear of attachment, led to attachments, that made them to trytoo hard to get rid of attachments, that lead to emotional instability, thatlead to attachments, that lead to tragedy that led them to fear attachments.

[ogloriousday]

.."Free at last, Free at last, Thank God almighty we are free at last."

"For whom the Son sets Free is Free indeed".

Two quotes often heard independently, rarely juxtaposed, from two different times and two different sources. Yet, they both speak to one thing, Freedom. Today, on Juneteenth, many have celebrated, contemplated, and observed what it means to be Free. Some, however, still wonder if everyone is truly Free. And, with all that we have seen in 2020, 2019, 2018, 2017, and as far back as we can remember or read, many wonder if true Freedom will ever come because for many there is the feeling that we're only "Free-ish".

Why? Well, on one hand Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.'s words about being "Free at Last" from his "I Have A Dream Speech" often remembered from it's delivery during the March on Washington in 1963 echoes the hope, desire, and eventual realization of gaining more benefits of freedom for Black Americans. However, the shining light gained through the progress and triumph of the Civil Rights movement is often times dimmed as we witness the atrocities that so many Black Americans still endure. Beautiful children of God are ignored, overlooked, pandered to, used for laughs, ostracized for phenotypic differences, welcomed in churches, but rejected on street corners, beaten in broad daylight, and blamed for being... Black. Then, again, maybe the blame is only fear of seeing someone truly Free.

Still, the feeling that we are "Free-ish" could be attributed to feeling like a prisoner to sin. We constantly backslide, seek forgiveness, and then witness the pain, shame, and hurt that is caused by bias, ignorance, prejudice, racism, SIN time and time again. We struggle as we see the hate and lack of empathy and compassion that is held for a Brother or Sister by another brother or sister when we're all Supposed to be striving to Live and Love like Christ. We question the struggle when we realize you truly cannot "Love God who you have NOT seen , but HATE your brother who you have seen." And, maybe it's because we're not all seen as true Brothers and Sisters in Christ, fellow children adopted into God's family. Fellow Freedmen and Freed women. Why? Because if it's true that: "If the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed." (John 8:36) then HOW do we continually find ourselves here? How do we continually find ourselves: Marching in the streets and Mourning in sanctuaries? Smiling on Sunday morning and Singling out for "routine checks" (profiling) on Saturday night? Offering shoulders to Lean on Verbally, but Turning them as we look away once we Hear the Truth from those in Front of us?

Today on Juneteenth as this day comes to an end may we ALL commit ourselves to doing two things. For my dearly beloved Black Brothers and Sisters let's continue to be (and strive for being) Free, not "Free-ish". Let's freely speak even if we're afraid. (For we weren't given a Spirit of fear to begin with.) Let's freely Love and Accept Genuine Love. Let's freely Stand, or Kneel, so that we can finally All see the day where what we've seen and experienced can truly be a memory and "Free-ish" becomes a thing of the Past.

For my White Brothers and Sisters and those who feel the need to critique the struggles of Black people or question the validity of historical days such as Juneteenth for their Black Brothers and Sisters commit to P.A.U.S.E.

Yes, PAUSE.

Ponder - your reason for questioning another's struggle. And, Pray- for Guidance. Accept - that just because we're different it doesn't mean we're unworthy of Love, being Listened to, or simply Living.

Unlearn - any bias, ignorance, prejudice, hate, and microaggressions you may have.

STOP and SURRENDER -to God, his Word, his Love, the true Redemption and Reconciliation that comes from being born again through his Son, Jesus Christ.

Evolve - from who you USED to be and what you USED to know and do so that you can TRULY treat your Black (Native American, Asian, Hispanic, etc) Brothers and Sisters as the Beautiful, Diverse, Intelligent Children of God that we Are! And,

Engage - those around you who have yet to see the Light and remove the log from their own eyes until they can see clearly too. (Of course, this means truly removing the logs from your own.)

Will the work be easy on either end whether you're Black or White? No, but it is worth it. We are burdened by the Sin of Racism and dark side of our humanity. Some have been bearing the weight for too long and others are just now seeing that the weight wasn't lifted in Jan 1863, in 1865, in 1963, in 2009. Instead, it was repackaged for some. As a nation, world, Body of Christ, we are Not OK. But may we not grow weary of doing good. May we commit to letting God lead us, dealing with our heart issues, and removing the systems, schools of thoughts, and barriers that have caused pain and setbacks.

As we commit to doing this work, may we: "Let Freedom Ring". For who? For our Brothers and Sisters. Black, Native American, Asian, Multiethnic (for we are all Human), immigrant, educated, and those deemed less 'socially refined' by unfair standards when they're just as Precious in God's sight as we are.

While we work let us pray.

For some: "Lord, Open my eyes to the hurt and pain of those around me. Open my ears so that I may hear you, clearly. Correct me and Forgive me of my wrongs. Use me to Help heal and Uplift the men and women who have been hurt by either my ignorance or by the intentional actions of others. Help me to do the work I was born to do, Lord, to truly be your Vessel."

For others: "Lord, Heal my heart. Open the eyes of those who see my skin and think I am less than when I know YOU SEE ME and I AM Loved. Open their ears so that they may hear. Lord, I am angry, I am tired. Please Give me the peace and Joy that Only comes from you. Change the hearts of those who persecute and ridicule us. Give me, all of us, the Strength to continue on."

Amen and Amen.

Let's commit to change. Why? Because.

We can do this. We shall Overcome

Happy Juneteenth.

[coffeeman777]

I recently quit a very bad job that had been dragging me down emotionally and spiritually and got a job that I really love. It seemed to be a blessing from God after all I've been through the last 2 years. But after 2 months now, I've not been given the hours I was told, and they're paying under the table, so I'm going to owe a ton of money to the government when I can't even pay my bills. I had been doing so well, and now I'm back in this horrible pit of depression. I don't know what to do.

Man, that's a really tough spot. I'll definitely pray for you! God works in situations like these, usually to cause us to draw closer to Him. God is your source, and provider; your strength and comfort; and your peace, happiness, and joy. Once we really accept this, once we develop the faith needed to connect to God and find all of this in our relationship with Him, our outlook on life changes. What once caused us to worry and become depressed then passes by like a trivial thought. My advice is to study the fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5), and spend as much time as you are able in private prayer and worship. Ask God for the things you need, and work on getting rid of all doubt. And if there's any sin your aware of anywhere in your life, go ahead and let it go. Jesus wants to draw you closer to Himself. When you've become deeply connected to Him, you may end up thanking God for the difficult time you're having right now.