#DAT ME !!!!!!! finally some fucking representation

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Finally Watched Cinderella's Castle Digital Ticket (Twice) and I Gotta Get My Feelings Out Somewhere, Somehow (Part I)

Feel free to light up my DMs to chat about it!

And now, for my personal highlights/live reactions:

immediately I'm drawn in by Nick Lang's silly narrator voice and the way he warns us of what's coming. Especially the "muRrrDder!"

Jeff Blim cut his hair. JEFF BLIM CUT HIS HAIR. Not that I didn't like the long locks, but something about his Aladdin Era short hair gets me, man.

Jeff Blim literally getting to own the stage like the man was born to

Jeff Blim's slutty bard getup with the artfully messy hair and the heavy guyliner. That sinful bastard.

"Let's go." I'll follow you anyway, slutty bard.

Okay 80s rock jam! Hell yes.

idk why but I just love the line "There are tales in those walls, are they true or are they tall?"

THIS SET, THO. 80s vibes. Muppets vibes. Princess Bride vibes. Spooky, ethereal fairytale vibes. I love it! Props to the team who designed and built it.

prance, slutty bard boy, prance around that stage.

Jesus Fuck, I've only seen Joey's puppet but I'm already SOLD. Nick and Matt Lang and whoever else had a hand in making these puppets fucking OUTDID themselves! Did they use the Black Book and resurrect Jim Henson?

Throughout the show, the muppet vibes just absolutely amaze and delight me. Makes me feel like a little kid, spellbound by this fairytale. Except it's much darker, more gruesome, way more explicit, and extremely horny.

Oh look, it's Joey's Jingle/Jangle (whichever elf he was) voice from Black Friday.

Love me some o' dat non-binary representation from Ragweed. Starkid once again screaming GAY RIGHTS bitches.

I'm getting some of Jeff's Aragog from AVPS in this Narrator. Anyone else?

Stupid STUPID butcher!

Jon Matteson's accent. *giggles madly*

Angela IMMEDIATELY having to pause for applause before she finishes her first freaking line. The queen deserves it all, though.

The foreshadowing of the Stepmother cutting off Ella's feet. O_O

"It's furryyyyy and fouuuuul and full o' maGOTTTSSaaaaaggghhhh!"

Angela doing the little spinny finger thing in a guy's face to fluster them just like Max did to her character in Nerdy Prudes. I love these physical running gags. My fave being the Smoke Club, though.

OIIIINK oinkoinkoinkoinkoinkoink

Sir Preston asking for help from the audience. His "ELLAaaaaa....nooooo....."

The lighting in this entire show is SO COOL.

Again, Jeff just louging like a whore about the set like its his bitch. I live for it.

James' COSTUME. He looks SO FUCKING GOOD. Props to the costume folks...and to James' rockin' genes.

"But nothing compares to the juice and the hairs..." Oh no. Ohhhhh no I see where this is going. Don't say it, James, don't-- omg he said it.

er ee er ee er ee *window rolling down*

I thought the Prince drawing bewbies on the frosty window was funny already, and then he goes WAH WAH WAH and pretends to pinch them and I fucking lost it.

The Prince checkin' out DAT AZZZZZZ XD

"I'd wager she's wetter now than when I first found her bobbing in the river." OH MY GOD. PRINCE. THAT'S HER NOT-MOM.

If his highness has had every STD and beaten it, that's so fucked up but also damn, that boy's immune system is killin' it. Literally.

"Poor mad EllaAH"

"This is one thirsty FUCKING house." For real, omg.

"The offer stands firm. Come calling if you are!" *screams*

Jeff miming being crew and pulling the ropes for the curtains.

*audience member sneezes* "Bless you."

Angela's diction is next fucking level. PUNY. PINK. KIND.

The epic troll reveal! The puppets are SO GOOD.

THE FROG FUCKING TURNING AWAY AS SHE ASKED FOR IT TO DO SO SHE COULD KILL IT. CHRIST.

This bayou boogie song of Ella's is an absolute KILLER BOP. Holy shit. And it's SO perfect for Bryce's funky, sassy voice.

Speaking of which, BRYCE'S VOCALS. I'm gonna scream about them for forever and ever and ever. I love her voice SO FUCKING MUCH. I could listen to nothing else for the rest of my days and die a happy little gay.

"ohhhh woah woah waohhh" *flips the bird* She's such a queen for that.

"It needs oregano" WORK BITCH

Bryce's stage presence is fucking INSANE. I dunno how she's not on Broadway, but thank goodness we got her!

SIRE MANY TADPOLES!

GOD I love this absolutely depraved, horny little bastard of a prince.

It's amazing Tadeus hasn't murdered the prince yet. The man deserves a medal for the literal shit he's put up with.

Bugette?! I thought you choked on shit died and were consumed by the Hive Queen?

Rancilda being a typical troll and loving lurking under bridges and telling riddles.

Schuyler Sister vibes from the song with Justine and Lucy. So cute.

Justine and Lucy are SUCH real ones for IMMEDIATELY believing Ella about her family being trolls and for saying "fuck the ball, we're leaving NOW."

Shake dat ass, Mariah!

Lauren's physical comedy as Rancilda is NEXT LEVEL. I'm wheezing over here!

iSNn'tT it A BiiIItTcH?!

I LOOK GOOD IN THIS. What an absolute fucking BANGER. This song is gonna play in my head on repeat for the next decade. What a next level villain song.

Also this gives me some strongass Joan Jett vibes. "I love wearin' the skin of dead girls rock 'n' roll!"

and I hEEeaARr yoU'Re RiiiCCHhH

Seriously, is this the next Top Chart breakup revenge song? It should be.

"I really LIKE that song!" XD Putrice. I love how much of an absolute BIMBO she is.

Rancilda singing the song again. "SHUT UP STUPID BITCH, THE SONG'S OVER." "Okaaaaiiii"

Matt Dahan's ability to riff off the main songs and create motifs is otherworldly.

General MacNamara? Is that you?! Oh wait, nope. Still my slutty, slutty bard.

I LOOOOOOOVE this badass electric guitar intro, holy shit.

Kim Whalen, the queen, getting the bitchin' entrance she deserves.

Starkid is so, so good at their sound design to help immerse you in a scene without blowing a big budget or doing anything elaborate.

...Kim. My girl. Your arms must be tired.

She's just standing there, but Kim's stage presence is still so strong.

I can't get over how Jon's Sir Hops-A-Lot's voice is just a small...ahem. Hop, skip, and a jump away from Wiggly's.

JOEY. THAT ACCENT. You ABSOLUTE genius idiot. I love you for this stupidass voice.

Joey's bowl cut makes me giggle like mad.

I love these two puppets SO much.

GIT IT, KIM.

The call and response bit with Ella and the Goddess reminds me of Hamilton when Washington is dictating his Farewell Address. I know it's gotta be in other musicals, too, but that's the clearest comparison for this nerd at the moment.

Jeff sneaking in the "castle on a hill" song reference in this song.

Kim and Bryce dueting together is just Power incarnate. Holy cow. It's so good.

"You shall be as radiant and terrible as I." Ooooooh. Yes. Gimme.

The Narrator sneaking out from amidst the ensemble to finish off the song was really neat.

That fading spotlight before curtain for intermission with just Ella's face in view is so beautiful and haunting. What an epic close to Act I.

Also, it seems like this was also a strategic way to imply Ella's outfit being transformed there on stage during the song without actually having to do the tricky costume designing quick-change theater miracles of an ACTUAL outfit transformation. Which is really brilliant. Leave the audience to wonder until post-intermission about what Ella's starlight dress will look like.

[dirt-str1der]

My mind is broken not in the angsty way but in the mac donalds ice cream machine way

[wormmomma]

tyler, the creator: the very queer discography review!!!

Im bored of writing overly long threads on twitter so i wrote a look at tyler the creators discography and why hes gay and im gay and deserved to have his dick immortalized in gold when he dies. So tyler gregory okanma is a black man born in ladera heights california. He’s also my third favorite rapper and since he discovered my favorite rapper earl sweatshirt I guess he deserves goat status for that shit too. Tyler started his career around 17 years old as the ace the creator. He did features at the time with casey veggies and the inspirations in his flow to mf doom where already apparent even back then. From ace the creator mixtape you can already hear the very digital and jazz inspired pharrell production. Funny story if you look up any of his ace stuff now you'll mostly find some really old production that in the age of tyler the creator type beats doesn't really hold u all that great. From there Tyler went on to create odd futures and his first album bastard. He quite quickly followed up bastard with godlin. Goblin, bastard, and the OF tape vol.1 all feel pretty interconnected so im gonna speed round from worst to best. So odd future tape volume one is fun and punk and really crass, it's also completely eclipsed by odd futures other releases. I love odd future and the collective's ability too be both edgy teen skate rap garbage, and a risky artistic rap collective all at the same time. In odd future's first tape it seems pretty clear that tylers description of the groups early work as a bunch of niggas joking around in a studio is very apparent for better or worse. If you wanna get high with some friends can listen to some funny edgy and downright grimey tracks over left brains booking production skip this and listen to odd future's next mixtape but come back here to listen to some funny skits and a few proto mellowhype track with domo genesis. Goblin is Tyler's attempt to do a bigger darker more sprawling version of bastard but misses the mark. I like the album and I love singles on the album. Goblin the opening track is amazing and is a great look at tylers mental state attempting to live up to his newfound fame and anxiety about his infamy. I love yonkers and tron cat. Tyler says alot at this time that he doesn't make horrorcore and he's correct but the lack of emotional honesty and his immature deflections is really going off on all cylinders. If you dont wanna hear skits like “my bitch suck dick” and lines like “im not homophobic faggot” i would probably call it his worst album. Before i talk about bastard id like to go over his use of slurs and rape in his work. Tylers consistent lyrics about violence towards women and use of the lgbtq community really don't insult me. I feel like his lyrical content is filled with a clear look of how angry and insecure tyler was about not having a father or any way of processing his angst. Did he have to sound like a incel threatening to stalk and murder women who refuse to love him for over 3 albums? No, but i really enjoy looking at his early music. He doesn't shy away from how angry, sad and desperate he was at the time. That synthesis of need for fatherly love, anger from a lack of it and deteriorating mental state honestly makes the content more palatable. Also as a black trans women id rather hear tranny an faggot bars from a male rapper making intreeating music. Tyler at the time was being honest, angry and vulnerable not like eminem and action bronson who spit these bars with all the same rap bravado and violent anger toward women with zero pathos. Bastard is amazing, it's an intimate dark album. At the time it felt like it was tapping right into where I was at the time. The amount of mental anguish on bastards opening track really hit me. I was an angry kid with a lot of angst and bipolar disease so hearing a rapper yell about that same dysfunction really meant alot to me. The flows are amazing and it was a really good look at tylers ability to build a narrative. Wolf was tyler's next album. For a while wolf was my favorite album by tyler. His look at relationships and breakups on bimmer and ifhy are amazing and are expanded on his future releases. Find your wings and treehome are also a good look at his more melodic influence. It was such a good album I actually bought the mrech for and went to see Tyler at afropunk. Also hearing an entire song about the death of his grandma really hit me, my grandfather died around the same time. Cherry bomb was bad, now moving one. Ok im  joking i've listened to it two or three times but its really not worth going back to even though tyler put his all into it. The soul features and amazing production is worth listening to but even Tyler admits he rushed the album a little and that he needed to blow people away next time. Flower boy, is one of the most important albums in hip hop. That's it. Bar none. It was my favorite release of 2018. Flower boy is about tylers newfound isolation with his fame, and how he drives cars by himself in beautiful la vistas. Its also about how he’s gay (or bisexual). There are ALOT of stupid takes on this album. There is a contingency of tyler stans that think tyler has been “playing a character” since bastard. Now I'll admit that wolf haley and dr.teecee are clearly characters; they are also artists' representations of tyler's mental state. If wolf haley has adhd and no father that means tyler also has those issues. So whether or not Tyler is playing a character he has in fact “been kissing white boys since 2004”. I also have seen an insipid article that asks if “tyler the creator should be accepted into the lgbtq community” due to his homophobia? Much more controversial and actually homophobic and transphobic people are in this community hes tyler the creator, not milo yinnaoplous. I also dont think that it occurs to the reviewer that alot of gay men are very hmophobic before they come out and that self hate is very common. Lyrics like “im not gay i just wanna dance to some marvin” also has a much deeper context now. Listening to older releases you can see how in your face tyler was about his queerness. He even said he filmed himself kissing his friend Lucas to prove he wasn't a homophobe. I'm happy Tyler grew enough to make an album not only about being attracted to men but how lonely he felt in and out of the closet. As someone who came out as bisexual at the time it came at a perfect time. Being  gay is isolating and confusing and when you do you lose alot of friends and family. Garden shed, who dat boy, and 911 are real standouts. His collaboration with kali uchis was also so fucking smooth and she a born r&b star. Tyler gained a grammy nomination off the album and said he loved the feeling of finally making popular catchy music people wanna sing the lyrics too, so he followed it with igor. Igor opens with this addendum on the back of the physical album: 

This might be fiction, this might be about igor but it is fully about tyler okanga. The album is very hard to parse and barely has any rapping. It's more of a pop experimental album with a lot of lofi synth production. Tylers production chops are full force here. Igor is melodic, sad and full of the same anger and obsession from his previous albums. Its just more mature and really gay, and i fucking love it. Tyler was dealing with a tumultuous relationship with a guy and his refusal to be with tyler exclusively. Its about a breakup. A love tragedy that only becomes more depressing after the argument on a boy is a gun, the breakup in my love is gone, and the sad slump back into needing closure in can we be friends. The album is fun to sing to, and fucking devestating. I've dealt with a lot of similar issues with love and obsession so to hear it so clearly illustrated on igor really hit me. I think the album becomes even more depressing with the unreleased track best interest, about tyler being a side nigga. This is the kind of music that's sometimes made in r&b and pop but never in rap. There was an interview where Tyler says he hated his voice which is why he edits it so evident on igor. Tyler also said he wanted to send these songs to rihanna and Justin Beiber but they didn't want them, as cool as it sounds. I'm happy tyler was able to tell his own story. I would also recommend magic wand since it's my favorite track on the album and kicks you in the face with how angry and heartbroken Tyler was at the time. 

Tyler is an artist that talks and speaks about how he feels all the time, he's also a person who feels enigmatic and mysterious somehow. I think it has to do with how constantly he's put to the side of his other hip hop contemporaries. He always seems to be making music Tom weird, controversial and experimental to be treated like asap rocky, vince staples, or the late mac miller. A fact that feels ironic since he worked with all of those artists, lil wayne, and even kanye west. I'm as big a stan for tyler as he is for Pharrell, if it wherent forever I'd never take rap seriously and would never have chosen to make my own music. As a black trans woman I find a lot of tylers work really relatable. I've been in alot of the angry hopeless situations Tyler talks about in his music. I think he's the artist who hits me the most on a personal level and yeah when i was depressed i sat in my bedroom and listened to bastard in my low moments. I like riding in the car and listening to all of flowerboy. Igor is amazing as well for almost half a decade it's been amazing growing up and hitting the same emotional beats Tyler went through5 in his work. Hearing about him coming out as gay ajd dealing with very similar backlash mad me feel less alone if im being honest. Tyler has said he wants to take a more production heavy role in the industry moving forward but he says that a lot, i think as long as he has a story to tell he's always going to make music. His music feels like a diary and I'm happy to read it and sonnet to it in all its beauty and ugliness. 

Hi my name is lua o'reilly i make music on soundcloud.com/wormmother

If you liked this review let me know and I'll do a look into earl sweatshirt.

[angel-wings-and-feathers]

Angel plays persona 5, Part....uhhh...four?

It's been a while and I am bad at keeping track of things so let's just say this is part four and move on with our lives.

((Tw: abuse))

1: I've noticed that charming thieves seem to be a common trope in Japanese media. It keeps cropping up, and I'm interested in the culture behind it.

2: If I recal right, the student council president is blackmailing us. I think she's going to join us. New Persona?? NEW RIPPING MASK OFF/BLOOD SPEW SCENE??? I AM THOU, THOU ART I! I AM THOU!! THOU ART I!!!

3: Light Yagami continues to be a presence in our lives and I'm just over here waiting for the potato chips

4: Drugs! Drugs are happening! We're gonna take down the mob! I feel like the politician guy is gonna be our last palace so I wonder who we're gonna get between now and then.

5: Gosh Art Guy's pretty. I like his voice. Can he just...read a book for five hours?

((Still squicked out by the Anne arch tho.))

((Its very unfortunate))

6: Look I wanna make friends with all the people so I can get stronger personas and abilities. I do. But asking me to throw 5000 yen at the one lady every few nights is a bit much. I WANT GEAR FOR THE PALICES DAMN IT AND YOU'RE NOT EVEN CLEANING THE ROOM LIKE YOU KEEP SAYING YOU WILL. I JUST WANT A NICE ROOM BUT THE GAME WONT LET ME DO SHIT TO IT.

7: Holy shit she comes over and between big wide puppy eyes she starts complaining about her students why the fuck are you a teacher if all you're gonna do is whine over having to deal with kids. You could have any other job. Anything's better than taking your anger out on teenagers just trying to go to school and live their life.

8: On a lighter note, I feel like the bad things happening over town are the work of another personia user. Only they're destroying the people whose palices they infiltrate. And I'm looking directly at Light Yagami because, while I dont have the context, I know he winds up being a bad.

9: I know exactly what my persona would look like/act like. What I really wanna know is what my palace would be.

Unfortunately you cant have both because having a persona means you cant have a palace.

And honistly I'd rather a persona than a palace because holy shit palaces are bad.

((Asking the real questions here, can you fuck your persona? Is it masterbation? They're a representation of your own inner self, but they're also not necessarily You.))

10: Gosh art guy is pretty. He is very aesthetically pleasing. I love the color scheme, those blues and purples, and dat asmr voice. Wow.

11: THE NEXT PALICE. IS A BANK??

12: AHAHAHAH WE ARE THIEVES INFULTRATING A PERSONS HEART WHICH LOOKS LIKE A BANK

Someone play the mission impossible theme.

Omg can the next palace be a train so we can pull a train heist??

13: Holy shit detective lady just fucking

Lashed out at the student council president for trying to ask a sister bonding question

Oh my gosh "you're useless to me, all you do is eat away at my life"

That's so uncalled for!

She's not useless oh my god.

14: GOOD JOB DETECTIVE LADY YOU JUST PUSHED YOUR SISTER INTO THROWING HERSELF AT THE MOB

15: Save student council present. Save her. Give her hugs, and a sandwich, and nice words, and get her the fuck away from detective lady.

16: YOU RUINED YOUR SISTERS SENSE OF SELF WORTH TO THE POINT THAT SHE THREW HERSELF AT THE FUCKING MOB BECAUSE SHE WANTED TO BE USEFUL

Joker

Hey Joker

Fucking

Take this opportunity to tear into the detective lady

All these cutaways to the interrogation

Let me yell at her for this

Plz

17: YOU DONT CALL YOUR SISTER USELESS

YOU DONT TREAT HER LIKE SHE OWS YOU SOME GREAT DEBT FOR EXISTING

SHE WAS JUST TRYING TO HAVE AN ADULT CONVERSATION WITH YOU AND YOU FUCKING TORE HER APART

IF YOU WERE TIRED THEN FUCKING SAY YOU'RE TIRED AND HAVE THE CONVERSATION LATER

"I'm gonna eat out from now on..."

OH GREAT!! GUILT HER! PUNISH HER FOR EXISTING BY REMOVING YOUR PRESENSE FROM HER LIFE!! USE YOUR LACK OF ATTENTION AS A METHOD OF PUNISHMENT!

I am unspeakably angry at this holy shit.

Holy shit.

I did not expect emotional and verbal abuse to happen and wow I am legitimately angry

Game did a good job at portraying it 10/10 great job but fucking ouch that hit a nerve

18: Woah. Student council president personna is a mortar bike!!!

She's all spiky and goth!

Woo!!

19: I'm waiting for the moment we find out Morgana actually is a cat and is the super secret final boss that only friendship can save.

[justasmallbloginabigklainefandom]

Hello y’all!

For our assignment, we had to write about our ways of use of communication and what we expect of this study and what to do with our degree (future plans in the communication field).

Let’s start with the basics: I don’t have any plans.

That is why I am using a real life social media platform for this assignment. Not because I see myself have a career in the social media field, but because almost everything related to media goes through the hell hole that is my *drum roll* blog!

Yes, this is the raw thing. You’re reading a blog post that I’m writing on my actual blog and that’s also published on my actual blog. That’s why it’s also in English (written without spelling check, mind you, so forgive me for possible mistakes). Maybe some of my mutuals will send replies and I will totally include them in the final assignment. With other words: guys, send me an ask if you wanna stay anonymous. I sure as hell will, because no way I’m going to give any of these people reading it in class my url.

(Verena, Ine, I’m talking about you two!) (Maybe Marjan as well?) (Cee?)

But yes, I am Yuè (I added the accent on my name when I was six), I am currently studying communication sciences at the university. I am not naming said university since I am semi-anonymous on tumblr. 

That being said, if any of my followers have paid attention and they know something about Dutch universities, they might already know...

Why did I chose this bachelor study? Honestly, I have no clue. Because I liked it? 

Okay, let me talk about this a little bit more. As you can see, I am on the lovely social media site named tumblr, often described as “literal hell” by its users due to tumblr’s unlogical system. Then why am I still on this site? Because, like many, I am a fan. I’ve been on tumblr since the days of Superwholock.

Guys, I know all the 121 episodes of glee almost by heart. Remember when Jesse sang Bohemian Rhapsody while Quinn was giving birth in 1x22? Or when Blaine made handpuppet versions of everyone and they sang What Does The Fox Say while wearing tacky animal masks in 5x07? Oh, oh! Remember when they brought back Matt for only one line in 6x12? THE ZOMBIE MASH-UP IN 2X11! Man, glee was wild.

Why is this relevant to the assignment? First of all, I never pass an opportunity to talk about glee. The amount of glee I’ve used during the Dutch equivalent of high school is unreal. Second, because it might make it easier to explain why I ended up chosing for communication studies, even though I had absolutely no idea what the hell I was doing.

I always looked up to the so-called “meta writers”, people who broke down every scene and (over)-analysed every aspect of the scene. I read it and I loved it. Media are two ways: the sender and the receiver. The fans’ interpretation of some scenes made glee glee for me.

Not only that. I like all kinds of media, and being surrounded by other g(l)eeks on tumblr made me realise that. I never knew it was possible to study something like that, until Alex and I went to that one university in Amsterdam for this Arts, Media and Culture course that totally sucked. That day, I came across “communicatiewetenschappen” and I’ve never looked back. 

So now I am here. I am probably reading this in class with you and I am probably feeling some embarrasment, but I am going for the real thing here, so no editing after I post this.

I am so fucked, am I?

Now, what am I planning to achieve with this study? Again, no idea. 

I kinda live in the moment. Wording it like that might make it sound edgy, but really, it’s not. It’s kind of stressfull. Remember during Inleiding in de CW vaardigheden, we had to use mentimeter to write down our childhood dream. I was the one with: “Ik had geen idee. Dat heb ik nog steeds niet.”

But you know, I guess I still have 3 or 4 years to figure it out. By now, I really like looking into generational differences when it comes to media use, especially since my two younger cousins are practically the same generation, yet they’ve grown up in such a different world thanks to media. Yesterday, my 7 yo cousin was watching vloggers on YouTube on the SmartTV with the help of his brother’s XBox. If you would’ve asked a 7 yo me if I wanted to watch YouTube, I would’ve asked: “What’s a JoeToep?” Meanwhile, my grandma doesn’t even know what vloggers are. 

Hell, I even had to explain the entire phenomeon to my dad and uncle once.

Another thing that I am quite passionate about is representation in the media of minorities. And yes, of course I care about all, but personally, Asian representation (remember when they kinda really whitewashed Blaine in glee? Yeah...)  and the portrayal of LGBT characters are most important. 

Outside the academic life, I like to play on my Nintendo consoles and cry about musicals. Ever since glee ended 2,5 years ago, I’ve mostly moved to being a huge Broadway fan. See that icon? That’s from my favourite musical (Darren Criss as Hedwig Robinson in Hedwig and the Angry Inch on Broadway, for the ones who want to know) and I am actually listening to the original Broadway cast recording of Legally Blonde: The Musical as I write this. Apart from that, I doodle a lot.

I think that’s it?

Yeah, it’s probably time for me to wrap this up, publish this, and try to find a way to format it in a usable way for class.

Bye!