'He ignored your safeword?'
'Funny, right? Someone like me going through that? Like, it's the least of what I deserved.'
The silence was cold and Gwyn sat there aware of all the younger versions of himself that would have thought exactly that. He felt sick.
He understood then with a horrible, heartbreaking clarity, why Efnisien had to stop seeing him. Because Efnisien lived with all those younger, judgemental versions of Gwyn. Because Efnisien had internalised blaming himself for everything, and he would have beaten Gwyn to the punch before he could have told Efnisien he deserved it. Because he would have. He fucking would have done that. He felt really sick, then, and he took a slow and deep breath, and swallowed the saliva that built in his mouth.
'It's not funny,' Gwyn said roughly. 'It's not funny that you went through that. You didn't deserve that. You don't deserve that. You don't deserve more than that.'
This is fanart of ,,Underline the black’‘ by @not-poignant
I was kind of planning to keep Dr gary faceless in my art, but i couldn’t help it. It was kind of fun to mess around with the design. I might keep him faceless if i do any other art after this. Efnisien will likely be the one to fall victim to my color studies more often because his curly hair is way too fun to play with :)
Daily excerpt from today's writing, chapter 5 of Constellations (the first chapter launches on AO3 tomorrow!!! - Sunday that is):
Kadek hosted play parties for kink about twice a month these days. He wasn’t slowing down at all now that he was fifty. If anything, he was becoming more immersed, taking it more seriously, and he had something like regular relationships with about five different people now. When Efnisien had brought the word “queerplatonic” almost eight years ago to Kadek to ask him what he thought about it, Kadek had rejected it, and then only twenty-four hours later semi-joked he was in some kind of queerplatonic thruople with Efnisien and Arden and that maybe he wanted to talk to them about it.
‘It’s just a dumb fucking word,’ Kadek exclaimed the next night. ‘What does it even mean?’
‘Platonic but more-than-platonic,’ Arden said, and Efnisien nodded.
‘Not helpful, babes,’ Kadek said.
‘Nah, you know it is though,’ Arden said. ‘Come on. The thing we all have, you know it’s something.’
‘I mean…’ Kadek’s expression creased. That had been during a time when Kadek was still firmly off the idea of any relationships at all. And Efnisien had stepped in, not liking the distress he was seeing.
‘It doesn’t change anything,’ Efnisien said, ‘and you don’t have to accept it, and if you don’t, I’ll never bring it up again. I think it’s a good word for describing what we are now to each other – not romantic, really queer, and more than just friends – but I know you don’t love labels, so…you don’t need to have one. It can just be this.’
Kadek looked between them, and his hands did something where they rested on his knees.
‘Yo,’ Kadek said to Arden. ‘What do you think?’
‘I think it’s a pretty good term for the level of chosen-family-with-kink we’ve got going. I mean come in, Kadek, I know you tie up a lot of your friends, but you’re not having them over for dinner as often as we come over.’
‘Yeah, but you’re like my brother,’ Kadek said. But then he looked at Efnisien and leaned back heavily in the chair. ‘But you sure are something.’
To help build up some hype for Faedom Week 2022 (event guidelines/prompts), we’re going to ask you all some questions about your relationship with and your thoughts on Fae Tales Verse! We’re going to be asking one question for every week leading up to the event, that folks can reply to/reblog with a comment on/submit to the blog! (No length specification, feel free to do whatever you’d like :D)
Fifth question:
What is a line from a Fae Tales Verse canon story or AU you really love? (the line can be narration, dialogue, w/e, and there's no word limit)
(If you'd like to check out the Fae Tales Verse fanwiki, it has a lot of info on all the stories!)
everyone look at my drow gloomstalker dark urge effie (short for efnisien) (yeah like the suicidal horse mutilator from the mabinogion) who is having the worst week of their life (probably) (speculative) (massive catastrophic memory loss)(killed a bard)