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" I noticed that you've been smiling more, Lucanis. "
" ...Have I? ...Si, I suppose I have been. "
#lucanis dellamorte#VERY happy w how this turned out#lucanis#dragon age veilguard#dragon age#the idea is that rook and lucanis went on a gondola ride in treviso and both of them are awful at steering it + it tipped over#but the two just look at each other and start laughing like heck#that being said feel free to read this as lucanis w other characters hehe i am 100% for lucanis being happy however way#lucanis x rook#ibon draws#artists on tumblr#the brainworms bc Lucanis is above water but also okay w being in the seawater after a year in the ossuary... i care him sm#veilguard spoilers#id in alt text#chat i love him i'm so cooked. spotify play thats amore#rookanis
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Ay. An offer; one doodle of lovelie for the price of answering my question 🦅

Eh? Eh?— Anyways my question is; what’s an art tip you can give that really helped you? Anything special when drawing or do you just have a hand of god?
(Btw your one of my favorite artists and I love seeing your work homie, number 1 inspo fr. Keep on cookin 🦅💞)
WAHHH THEY LOOK SO SCRUNGLYYYY (despite his many, m a n y crimes)
#Also art tips?#One of them is don't follow some of my footsteps they are unhealthy LMAOOOO#Like me pushing through despite my artblock? Very unhealthy it can lead to a unhealthy relationship with art#Ya deserve breaks when your mind and body tells you you need it! Art should be a comforting experience!#No matter how long it takes smhh#I remember my partner had a really bad art block for like a year but they are still going strong with their art! Never feel discouraged!#Also another one is sometimes a messier lighter sketch is better for more dynamic pieces#If ya work too hard on your base it can lead to your piece feeling flat and too stiff#Go crazy go stupid! You might be surprised with what you can accomplish!#Don't be afraid to go outta your comfort zone with art stuff! You might find details you quite enjoy! HUZZAH!#Also also I fuggin love the liddol beetle doodles on the side of her LMAO SO TEENSY TINY#I'M SO HAPPY YA GAMERS ENJOY MY DUM LIDDOL ARTS IM JUST A LIL GUY BDJDJDJDJD;;;;
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its october:) so i drew silver enjoying some colorful leaves and chilling<33
also his sweater is based on the sweater i made for my ugly bootleg son yesterday<3
silver getting to enjoy nature and leaves and chilly atumn air is. so importrant to me actually
#silver the hedgehog#my art#i swear to god i got fucking POSSESED by idk the spirit of october or something and made that thing in one sitting. insane.#i didnt think i was even capable of completing a project so quickly.. what the fuck happenend. i am a little terrified of myself now..#its made out of a sock btw. if for some reason anyone would be interested in doing something similiar i could give some advice#god i feel so fucking stupid.#'yeah if anyone wants to make a stupid little sock sweater for a bootleg silver the hedgehog plushie i could give some tips:)'#god. thats so lame. .#anyway that doesnt matter bc IT MAKES ME HAPPY!! his little sweater makes me so fucking happy and proud of myself every time i look at it!!#i havent felt pure joy like this after completing a project in AGES!!!!!!!#i should sew more often...... i always forget how fun and rewarding it is#hm. should i make more outfits for him?? mayhaps a jacket......... we'll see...............
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hello <3 does anyone have any last-minute tips for idk . enjoying a (taemin!!!!!!!) concert when you have autism + adhd? HSJSJSJS
#im sooooo nervous holy shit. it's been a While since i did the whole queuing thing for an artist#and when we did it for harry i had moments were i felt truly Terrible HSJSJSJSJ and im also nervous it won't feel real#or i won't be able to like. feel grounded or present??? and just close off emotionally???#i know this is silly and ive only listened to taemin since 2020 and never religiously like i did for bt s and seventeen ofc#but yk!!!!!! it's taemin!!!!!! and obviously feel v v lucky i get to go at all (yk. godwilling everything goes well)#also if anyone has any taemin specific tips hmu dhsjsjdh i haven't looked up the setlist bc i wanna be surprised#i know all his songs i think but not all by heart?#(also everything about queuing is Stressful HSJSJD and we have to travel 3.5 hours by train first which really is a record distance#in this country GSJSJSJD)#(anyways hiiiiiii sorry)#(oh and how be at peace with what you have djjsjdd and not to regret things constantly)#(which ig with taemin im constantly like Just So Happy To Be Here but then if it's me who could've done things differently it's >:[)#also in hindsight i think i just had a ? shutdown? meltdown? at one of the harry shows rip that wasn't great#can i even say that. idk if i get those. but i was quite literally shaking crying (not throwing up!) and couldn't explain a thing#anyways i think i'll take my adhd meds so i at least won't have a billion other thoughts in my head??#i just haven't in ages but i took them today and my heart has been Pounding HSJSJS also im sweating and nervous but yk we deal#i realise im making a huge deal out of this and it will most likely be fine#it's just like. if I don't feel anything at this????? what's the point#so no pressure HDJSJSJSJDJ maybe that's not a great thought#concerts are just... tricky and so much worse still now with covid and wearing a mask as one of the only people there#also sensorily + heat wise whew. but for the best
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Hello I stumbled across your profile and I just say I love your art style! I've gotta ask, how'd your develop it? And do you have any advice for someone who can't decide what they want their art to look like?
Thank you so much!
To be entirely honest, I don't feel like I truly "developed" my style. I feel a lot more like I finally let myself draw it! But I am incredibly deliberate with my work, and I do have clear tendencies and preferences... So I'll do my best to explain how I got to where I am now as an artist.
It's important to remember that "style" is something of a nebulous concept. It changes with you as you grow as a person, and most artists can work in and emulate many art styles! Art really is a form of communication with yourself, and your "style" is a reflection of the tendencies and preferences you have. My art does not look how it looked 5 years ago, and my art will look different 5 years from now too. I've changed, and my art reflects that!
(2012, 2018, 2023; two pieces I remember being incredibly proud of and considered my best work up til that point, and then my most recent piece)



What you need to do, as everyone will tell you, is study the fundamentals (anatomy, perspective, form and structure, lighting and shadow, color, and composition) so you have the proper tools to make the most informed decisions possible about your art, and so you can deliberately break or follow rules as you please for your desired effect. I know it sounds silly to learn rules if you're not gonna be following them anyways, but they help you be much more consistent and intentional! More knowledge is NEVER a bad thing to have!
However, I know it's a bit demoralizing to just be told to study fundamentals. Everyone knows you're supposed to do that, but it takes YEARS to learn, and people want their art to feel how they want it to now (which is very very very normal to want!)
So on that front, I have 2 follow up suggestions that I personally find helpful (of course, everyone is different, so it's not like this is the only way to learn! But, if it resonates with you, it might mean it will work for you too.)
1: Separate study from application
I believe this is beneficial for a few reasons:
If the goal of every piece is learning, it can become frustrating, overwhelming, and boring
It's harder to self critique when there are multiple variables to investigate. I like to study one fundamental at a time
Study (usually) works best with a large quantity of output, whereas application of knowledge (finished pieces) is often more satisfying and effective when you get to take your time
Deliberate practical application of what you've learned in a finished piece helps cement the learning in your mind, and also lets you get satisfying finished pieces with noticeable improvement after a good study session!
I've found that keeping these things separate helps me improve faster and more deliberately, and it takes a lot of the pressure off of both aspects! I'm not worried about my studies looking beautiful, they're just to learn! And I don't feel pressured to critique my finished pieces, cause they're just for fun and to make something pretty. I personally find this helps me have a much healthier relationship with my art.
When studying, copy! Copy things as best as you can, all the time. It gives you something to compare to for self critique (and of course, if you're copying someone else's work and you share the study, ALWAYS give credit, share the original, and say it was for study.) In application, don't copy: reference. Make it yours!
2: Let yourself do the things that feel "easy" or like "cheating"
This one is simpler: nothing in art is easy.
If something feels easy to you, most of the time it's not because it's actually any easier... It's because it's part of your natural tendencies and preferences! This took me forever to realize, but as long as you're actually doing some study, then you're learning. You don't need to learn All The Time. When you're doing the "application" portion, you should let yourself do whatever is actually the most fun and feels easiest! This is where your style will start to come through, and where you get to learn about yourself. Take the pressure off, and have fun!!!
The only cheating in art is theft. If you're not stealing, then it's allowed!
My whole life (and yes, still!) I'd get regular criticism about both my style and my subject matter. You will too. You'll see a thousand different styles, and a hundred different things to admire in each. Your heart will ache that you don't draw like others do.
But art is a form of communication with yourself. It's like your voice, or your accent; just something that's a part of you! It can be fun to mimic others', but when you sit to have a conversation you speak naturally. (I know some people want to and do change their voice, but this is a metaphor and metaphors aren't perfect)
Don't stress so much about what you want your art to look like, especially if you're not sure. There's a lot of value to be had in constant experimentation, I think it'd be rather boring to only draw one style the rest of my life. What I draw is what I want to see, right now, for who I am now! It's a part of me and comes naturally, if I let it!
I hope this helps!
#justbrowsing1124#asks#art tips#drawing advice#drawing tips#art advice#long post here sorry#long post#I could have gone on so so so so so so much more but this took me like 2 hours to write#and I've gotta go to bed! haha#so if you feel like something wasn't properly explained you can send a follow up ask and I'd be happy to elaborate#I love answering questions like this#sorry if it sounds a bit condescending I wrote the post for like... what would have helped me to hear when I was just starting out#so I wrote it basically for how I think would help I guess a kid#sorry about that. the content is still all what I think though#also I realize that i didn't really talk about like... my journey... at all here lol.#I guess if you wanna know my personal journey I'd love to get into it!#but i focused a lot more on the second part#cause yknow#that's kinda what my journey was internally anyways#but yknow no fun progress of my art with notes about what I was doing and why#but fuck that sounds fun if someone did wanna know about that LOL#I am VERY deliberate with my art I could legit analyze every piece#pretentious? maybe. do I care? not at all.#why make it if I dont have a reason?
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how do i say "in a universe where chen and cyrus become friends and cyrus Doesnt kill him for the autopsy pics, they would be fuck buddies" without sounding insane
#oc: cyrus becker#fhr#musings#yeah sure this can be the post that breaks in this account#its gonna feel so weird maintagging everything but this Is technically a general purpose account so i need to categorize everything somehow#cyrus and chen have always seemed like good candidates as friends all current factors preventing that notwithstanding#but i couldnt pinpoint why their dynamic as friends felt incomplete to me until i realized “oh wait theyre probably fucking about it”#“that makes a lot more sense”#HEAR ME OUT ON THIS ONE OK#assuming cyrus isnt dating daniel he is. Incredibly sexually frustrated#he could never do anything about it other than masturbate ofc bcs. tattoos and all#but with ortega and chen knowing hes a regene now and apparently not caring about it he has actual options to deal with it#ortega is a hard no. obviously. hed think cyrus wants him again and he can Not deal w allat#chen... less likely to agree. but yk what theyre both stressed and its not like hell know if he doesnt try#i genuinely cannot figure out how that conversation would go but If it goes good enough itd be an interesting dynamic to explore i think#theyd be the ones telling eachother to pursue their crushes once they learn about it#chen would think cyrus/daniel would be cute (would probably stop sleeping with him if he noticed though)#and cyrus would push (read: threaten) chen into talking to ortega bcs itd make chen happy and also kill two birds w one stone#(no need to worry about ortega still having feelings if he gets a boyfriend)#oh yeah and if chen Does get together with ortega cyrus is going to be a grade a asshole and give ortega a little tip for smth chen likes#because 1. its funny watching chen realize cyrus has ammunition over him now#and 2. its funny watching ortega realize cyrus and chen have fucked before
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my confidence just got boosted because the medical laboratory scientists in my local clinic said, “oh? first-year ka pa lang tapos ginagawa mo na ‘yang ets?” (oh? you’re only a first-year and already know how to do ets—evacuated tube system blood draw?)
GOOD MORNING INDEED 🌞
#they looked at me like i was a baby#a baby phlebotomist fr fr#and even had another assistant be my patient for blood collection (he was a very muscular man with many tattoos)#but he was super duper nice because he kept making jokes to ease my nerves#like joking that my hands were colder than the airconditioner of the room#or if i collect blood from him then i’ll have to buy him jollibee#they were all very supportive though i’m so happy !! 🥹#my confidence was at an all-time low with the evacuated tube system blood collection#but i heard her (one of the med lab scientists) tell her colleagues “she did so well already. she knew how to do it”#AAAA i feel so light#i love learning so much#i need to really gain confidence if i ever want to ask for more tips and tricks in the future
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Long time no faceup...
Under the cut cause my number 1 hobby with doll faceups is to talk 700 years about the process and well. I was talking a LOT this time around lol
I am so kind of notoriously bad at not finishing a doll. Like ridiculously so. In my defense with this doll- his face sculpt was SO ridiculously out of my comfort zone (I usually have more cartoonish dolls > realistic) and he was massive (and his body had a lot of mods that I in turn wanted to modify) (on top of my pain increasing a lot which caused me to not be able to work on projects often the last year or two). I would have kept his faceup if it wasn't scratched badly in certain places but, here's the before (blank, I am NOT showing how bad my previous faceup attempts are..it's bad) and then I'll get into processes and such!

[ID: A large ball jointed doll sitting up. His face is blank with no eyes or wig and his body has multiple sculpted blue sections on it. A cat is sniffing his shoulder. /End ID]
The mod work was easy (thankfully! Pin that says I ❤️ my dremel) but I am not done with that so I will be focusing on his face! I watched a lot of realistic faceup tutorials and came away with a few takeaways:
1. Watercolors and a skinny nail brush WILL be your best friend. Also water in general to fix the mistakes
2. Take your time <- you'd think this was obvious but I'm soooo bad at rushing a faceup ok. I'm so bad at slowing down
3. Pastel before watercolor makes it go on smoother (the vid recommended using white which worked well bc this boy is very pale lmao)
4. Be brave and get the worst bit done first so if you fuck it up it's no big deal
So, with that knowledge I began sealing the head (was doing him along w 2 other heads Ive been putting off) and that was when the trouble started. I use sponge on sealant (liquitex matte varnish. Works like a dream always and no respiratory gear or weather conditions needed) but it was applying glossy. I assumed it was too cold in my room and after a few layers of hoping that would fix it, it didn't! Thankfully it had happened to me before and I shook it up VERY aggressively (like 1-2 minutes of shaking) and it went on fine minus some exaggerated texture on the resin from the few bad layers. Now this is one of the issues w this method, the other is it can trap dust/hair or whatever in there (you can easily pick it out if you notice it before it dries tho). These are both pros for me, I like when the doll looks more textured skin wise (realistic) and if I'm getting a little too lost on what direction to take the head, the dust or hair can make moles, freckles, or even scars! Prefacing all of that with the sealant was kicking my ASS and I was fighting for my life, which wasn't giving me much hope when this was a faceup style greatly out of my comfort zone and skill set, so it was just really a bad start. Also important to note that I did like absolutely no mockups for this which I usually do. I did a very vague basic realistic faceup and that was it, which was not really setting myself up for success, one may say.
But, somehow, the first layer was ok! I put white pastel down under the eye, around the eyebrow placement and then after some mishaps with the watercolor on the brows, I went to my old tactic. Usually with brows, I lay a layer or two down of pastel (FAR lighter than I want the brows to be) to kind of carve a rough shape out because I'm so atrocious at getting them even (like to a comical level. The amount of times I've had to redo a full brow to match the other makes this be my default method bc I'm SO bad at them).
I did one layer of that, and then decided I would try again with the watercolor. I don't want him to have super obvious eyeliner or anything (statements I've never said before. I have dolls where the liner covers the entire eyelid, I love a big eyeliner) so I just did the top waterline in a dark brown watercolor on a skinny nail art brush. This went... Suspiciously well? To the point where I just decided hey, we're going in and doing the eyelashes on the same layer.
Eyelashes are another point I'm so bad at, to the point where of all of my dolls I've painted, I've done bottom eyelashes 2x like ever. 3 at most. I remembered the tips from the video (not too much water but not too much paint, steady your hand, take it slow, and not doing just straight lines (hard to do that because I default to that often lol)) and just dove in.
The first eye went so well that I just went right into the second one and it was so much less bad than I thought it would be. It's crazy that practice and research helps? After that dried, I mixed pink and peach acrylic paints together to paint the lower waterline, and after THAT dried, I covered the bottom lashes with the same white pastel. It muted it a lot but the main thing I've learned working with this sealant method is that it WILL take stuff off. So in theory, I hoped that it would take the white pastel off and not fade my very painstakingly painted eyelashes.
Somehow it did work (thank you makeup knowledge or something) and the first layer was done. It felt SO wrong to have a first layer with NO blush???? Like absolutely makes no sense to my brain but it was so relieving to be done with the worst parts (minus the brows. I was not looking forward to those).

[ID: A three quarter view of the doll head shown above. Instead of being blank, it has very faint blonde eyebrows and dark brown lower eyelashes. /End ID]
This is the time in which I admit that I was wrong that it was so bad to do a realistic faceup (which could easily change when I do the blushing, you do not want to see the 80s blush situation I had on the first faceup attempt), as having the brow bones so prominent made the painting so much easier. I was very mad about this as this is my first proper* attempt at this sort of faceup and it was going so well (* proper meaning I actually attempted to adapt my style to the sculpt instead of putting my usual methods to use here on a head of a different style). Honestly I just kind of locked into the brows, and since my brush is a nail brush, there's a little ball stylus (I think that's what it's called? Dotting tool may also be what it's called) so when I messed up, I got that wet and very gently cleaned it up, dabbing the excess water/paint with my finger. This was SO much less painful than using acrylic paint on brows (that is MISERABLE to remove if you fuck up with black acrylic. That does not budge ever) or using watercolor pencils (like with doing my own eyeliner, I do much better with a brush than pencil).
Genuinely never will go back to using a different material for doing the brow strokes, this was such a breeze. Even getting it even wasn't too bad, I just cleaned the brows up with that same technique until I got it close enough. While I was waiting for that to dry, I used the same dark brown (I have a very small watercolor palette and no clue how to blend it lol, so I just used the same color this whole faceup so far) and same brush to add some paint to the eye crease to add some more dimension to the face. While that was drying, it started to bother me that all the dust was just not covered up, because my brain is used to when I break the paint out, I'm nearly done with the faceup, so it should be covered and cleaner by now. Which honestly I'm glad I did! It looks a lot better with most of it covered, although I do still.plan on doing a scar from the left eyebrow up to the forehead as well as others on the forehead but those are 3d sculpt projects and not flat paint projects (I use Elmer's glue to build it up and then blush/paint over top) so it is not my problem now lol.

[ID: A front facing picture of the head above. The head has dark brown curved eyebrows, moles dotted at random around the face, and the eye crease is filled in with dark brown. /End ID]
As if this project wasn't driving me crazy with stress enough, when I powdered the brows, one of them just didn't get as powdered as the other and so when I applied the sealant, about half the brow came away with it! Absolutely devastating but it is just the nature of water colors and liquid sealant! The next layer now had to include a patch job on the brow, as well as blushing (or if I was a little smarter, one layer for the brow repair, seal again, and a layer for the blushing so I didn't mess it up again!). It was such an incredibly frustrating set back especially with how long it took me to do the brows initially.
At THIS point, I was so relieved I had done a mockup digitally (even if not super accurate to what I ended up going with) because thinking of doing the blushing the next layer did make me want to cry a little bit for a couple reasons (on top of the already immense frustrations that sealing the brows on the start of day 2 brought).
As I said earlier, very different head type than what I usually do (usually can just slap some pink on the cheeks, brown elsewhere etc), but the bigger issue was how pale he is. I find it a billion times easier to paint a yellowed doll or a doll with darker resin (I am SO excited to get to my Dong next (his resin is so pretty (and has been really fun to work on while I was in white boy shading hell)) than a white unyellowed doll. If you know color theory or like any makeup at all, paler skin makes things show up so much brighter, which is a pain in the ass when you're trying to make a doll not look like they have clown makeup on with the blush alone. And with how sculpted his face is, I had to place the blush just right to get it to look ok, as well as somehow get the shading to look clean and decent.
I used a combination of a brush directly against the pastel and shavings and slowly built up some flush to the cheeks and shading around the nose.

[ID: The same doll head as above, but with a more peach color to the lips and cheeks, with slight definition around the sides of the nose bridge. /End ID]
I added the tiniest bit more blushing (my favorite hobby is procrastinating sealing. #1 thing ever) and then felt really unsure if I was somewhat close to being done or not, so decided to try it on his body with random eyes and wig to see what else needed to be there, which confirmed a couple things!

[ID: The same head as before, now shown on a seated large ball jointed doll body. He has a long lilac center part straight wig on and dark eyes. There is a doll to the left and right of him./End ID]
The first thing was somehow ALL of the messy forehead was covered by the wig, which was such a relief in of itself. The second thing was all of the blushing looked really good and natural which was such a big relief honestly.
He really just looked like some guy which was very funny as I really um don't have any dolls in my collection that have a normal faceup (guy addicted to getting too silly with it voice: Well surely getting MORE goofy won't hurt! I think the closest to a normal guy would be Theo? Cordelia perhaps too but she's also so pink lmao) and look like just a guy that you could find at a gas station. This will probably not last as I wanted to turn the forehead marks into silvery scars (I feel we could get a little silly with it and have it be magical or something like that, provides the scars look ok lmao. Future me's problem). I definitely need to add some more shading under his eyes (under eye bags are PERFECT when his eye bags are actually sculpted, I'm not used to that on a sculpt lol), accents to the lips (MAY do lip lines. May just add more color. No one ever knows what my go to is with lips because I hate doing them), add highlights (and maybe use some pearl x powder on the eyelid area... I kind of want him to look MOSTLY natural but I cannot lie, the lure of men with eyeshadow. It's a slippery slope) and mess with his eyes a bit as he looks really good with that purple wig, so I'd like to use colors that coordinate with that if possible (same with the eyes probably?). All in all, this was a lot of work for a low energy day and I feel I'm entering the home stretch a bit!
Day three, and despite how horrendous I was feeling like the entire day, I locked in and got a lot done!

[ID: The same head as above, with silver scarring on the forehead and nose and slightly more pigment on the lips. /end ID]
In pictures the scars look a LOT like leeches to me but it's ok or something. I wanted to do silver as I felt it would be fun to do a more magical twist with the characters and having some funky colored scars would work with that! I started with a layer of light grey paint and Elmer's glue mixed together, then added layers of a silver paint with the glue until it was more pronounced from the resin, how a scar would be, and then shaded with watercolors (before then adding the blushing to make it look like actual scars instead of weird metal globs). Honestly I really liked how the eyebrow and nose ones came out but the forehead ones were more of a cover up job rather than where I wanted to place them, so they may get adjusted later.
Other than that, I started work on his eyes (and most of the day was laying in bed in pain so I didn't get a ton done sadly)! It's not very visible in photos but I also used a glittery powder (pearl ex) on the eyelids to add some sparkle.
All that was left is a bit of scar work, figuring out if I'm going to do lines on the lips (my worst debate always tbh, I feel they rarely look good with my faceup style and are often a pain in my ass), finish the eyes (admittedly this is just because I'm very slow with it as I don't really like working with the resin a ton), and gloss the areas that need it. There is definitely a chance I remove the forehead scarring (the great part about it all being glue is well. It removes easily) and do something different there that's a bit bigger and less small blobs but that is tomorrow's problem. Honestly really excited about the eyes, they look REALLY good from when I've tried them in!
I then proceeded to procrastinate for about a week maybe (time is odd for me rn) because I was so unsure about the forehead scarring but when I picked it back up, I did the finishing touches I planned on here and then wrapped his eyes up and he's done! 2 heads to go (sadly. I'm so scared doing them to be honest cause it's so much work always) but very happy with him!

[ID: The head shown previously, but on his body. His lips and scars are now glossy, he has eyes with a dark blue sclera and bright purple glittery iris in, and is wearing a long straight lavender wig. His body is wearing a teal and purple camo shirt that is tight fitting. The doll is sitting between two other dolls on a shelf. /End ID]
#twist rambles#bjd posting#i feel im always like recipe blog intro length for these posts lmao. but i stay silly and these posts r mostly for me in the way of like...#sometimes i forget techniques and it helps a lot if i need to redo a faceup lol#do not even REMEMBER if i named this guy cause I got him early 2024? i think? and then promptly was like. i cant do thissss with his head#and body so just. didnt lmao. but hopefully this year will be better..im SURE he has a name somewhere in my doll spreadsheet but idk lmao.#one thing about me is i WILL fuck up so badly on a faceup and just go no. its ok. i will fix it. and honestly no clue how this is turning#out... i churn these rly long posts in between all the drying times sealant wise so THESE tags are after eyebrow mistake incident#also did check... poor thang has no name... but my last 70 cm male head that was giving me GRIEF was named casimir so i may just give him#that name.... also bc i keep accidentally calling him that bc i keep forgetting his sculpt... poor baby. oh my god i havent had that big#head for 5 years. what the fuckkk. passage of time is so scary. also my god my old faceups were rough#puhlease be nice to me here this is the first more realistic faceup style ive ever done#worlds longest project journal forever i fear.... i need to finish mt other projects too but well. consider me scared. it gets so long caus#i do it after i work on it in steps instead of write up directly after it so i think its just kind of my nature to never shut up#im soooo proud of how it turned out tbh :) i didnt have a ton of faith it would be ok but. it did and taught me a lot of tips w faceups lol#also his head and body match like? perfectly? which they didnt before. the body was yellowed and head was more pink toned so. wasnt#intentional but happy accidents
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Unsure if I'll try something like this again but have an attempt at a lineless Kirimi
#mo4#marikinonline4#marikinonline#gou kirimi#kirimi#kirimi mo4#mo4 art#art#fan art#yeah hi i'm experimenting with my art#i'll keep it up until i'm satisfied#i like the texture i used but god everything else felt really tedious#despite the simplicity#yet in spite of this i feel kinda happy about it#any tips would be appreciated#same thing with feedback#i had no clue how to shade the thing so#i used texture instead#makes me feel lazy but it still looks cool#i think
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I feel like I get duped a lot because, obvsly I'm hella vulnerable to manipulation, but I also buy into the 'people can change' line whole-heartedly. I do this because I feel like I've changed for the better. I've had a lot I've needed to unlearn over the years and I hope I'm a kinder person for it, and I hope that I continue to do that. I feel like I need to remember that my experiences aren't universal, in this. Certainly I'm not special, but mine isn't The Only Response either.
NTM I know just how paranoid my mental illnesses make me and that by itself makes me want to give people the benefit of the doubt, because I doubt myself head in hands
I've put a bit of mental energy into trying to distinguish between The Symptoms and a genuine gut feeling, and I think I'm gonna try to continue doing that. I've been told again and again, by experience and even other people, that there's absolutely something trustworthy in there. I just gotta distinguish it.
#im baffled. how tf did i pick up on one person being dubious af but not another being dubious af. to speak lightly. how does that even#work. the shiny happy sweet veneer was the same. what on earth was i picking up on. how do i do that again.#hows that for a new years resolution - develop my psychic powers of 'your vibes reek' /sarcasm#i still cant fully even put my finger on what tipped me off.#i kept my opinions largely to myself because it was so unsubstantiated and i knew people wouldnt believe me#everything they said was 'right'#always made me wonder if it was just my paranoia and made me want to keep giving them a chance#its starting to feel like when i have that feeling that arrows in on one specific person like that though#even if its unsubstantiated - i should pay attention#quite often it seems like it turns out there is indeed Something going on there#maybe not necessarily let it change how i act jic im wrong but.... keep an eye out and take note.#and sure people can change but that doesn't mean that *I* need to give them another chance. they can be good to other people in their life#i don't need to be there
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low key wanna like
set up a queue for posts i like that don’t circulate anymore so that way the recirculate but also i don’t spam but like
i don’t think i’ve ever used a queue before tbh lol
#listen i’ve always been the kind of blogger where you just know what i’m about when i’m about it#but since this is more of a fandom sidespace than my actual blog maybe that’s the better route?#cause there’s a lot of really good fanart and fanfics and analytical pieces that just#don’t get as much love since they got burried by time and i wanna bring them back to the forefront becuase they’re GOOD#and people put their heart and soul and time into them and i want them to be appreciated becuase i love them and they make me happy#but also i’ve hit post limit multiple times becuase if this blog and i’m scared it’ll happen again#cause i think you still hit it with the queue too#and like#i do actually use my main blog a log and the posts come from the same pool#(pro tip for new users btw if your side blogs are connected to your main account all your posts come from a pool that your account gets)#(kind of like a deck of cards that has to be distributed between all players)#ANYWAY it might be the better move for now#i’ll stew on that while i try and get myself out of writers block#cause i’ll need to get the first draft of peghawks2023 done this weekend if i want ot done in time for the 16th#need to figure out how to trick my brain into working#had this problem in school also#the only reason i passed is because most my teachers loved me and wanted me to succeed in spite of my executive dysfunction#and my other two teachers hated me so much (adhd kid with a pension to cause problems) that they passed me#just so they never had to see me again lmao#it’s okay feelings were mutual fuck those guys#(or love those guys for the teachers that adored me)#(hope they’re doing good)#what was i talking about#RIGHT queues and writing#yeah i should go do that okay bye for now!!!
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Wait, you guys actually don't relish every second of the time your friends spare just to be in your company? Do you actually see friendship as a means for a destination instead of a joyful voyage you have been blissfully bestowed by the people who genuinely believe you to be worth their time? I thought it was a joke.

It's like we all collectively forgot as a society that friendship and just connection in general takes effort. Even if you meet someone you immediately click with, it takes hanging out about 20 times (!) to become friends. And guess what, some of those 20 meetings might be awkward or unimpressive.
We all want to reap the benefits (having a friend circle, having a partner, getting married) without doing the work (going to events, interacting with people, learning to handle conflict maturely, dating). Myself included. If I could, I'd never leave the house or go on another mediocre date again... except, that's part of the process.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, the cure to the loneliness epidemic is touching some grass and building tolerance for tedious in-person interactions.
#it boggles me that friendship can be seen as a transaction in which you heap benefits from and not an inherently joyful experience#awkwardness and boredom are of course inevitable but when they come by you can just. Do something about it.#tell a joke or a fun fact you know. make weird sounds. propose a fun activity for you to partake in. show them a trick#my favorite party trick to impress people personally is to put their hand on my side and dislocate my hipbone#also i dont date so im not sure it would work on that context but go for it if you want to#anyways. just do what makes you happy. be whimsical. talk about weird shit. you'd be surprised how many people are drawn to peculiarities#this tips are for people who want friends btw. if you feel the most fulfilled when you're in your own company then! by all means!! do it!!!#*Not kin related#*Personal#*Reblog
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the intimacy of sleeping together, but not in a sexual way. the intimacy of feeling the warmth of their body in a cool room. their hands hugging you tightly. the intimacy of synchronized breathing. sleepy half-kisses. feeling safe. feeling warm. waking up and realizing how much you love them. how precious this is. finding the happiness on the tip of your fingers, brushing their hair. closing your eyes again. pulling closer. falling asleep.
#being in love#love love love#love#lovers#relationship#i love him#healthy relationships#relationship goals#marriage#i love my boyfriend#boyfriend#in love#sleep
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i love kickstarters honestly. shoutout to indie games/indie projects
#ofically have now backed ...three! whole ! things !!!#mindwave i was only able to give 5 dollars to but i think that should be something people do more tbh#if you see a project you like and are confident in the developers pulling through dont be afraid to give a small donation! even just a tip!#it WILL make a difference#same for like donating to charities and whatnot#dont be afraid to donate just a dollar! even a few cents!#your donations are not judged in value of how much money you can give; only that you have given it#this has been joyful hours with ren idk im jsut happy right now:)#maybe ill make a full post yapping abt this cuz its fairly important i think#ANYWAY btw i fully believe mindwave is going to be a incredible success. i expect it to be highly covered by content creators once its done#givne how well just the demo did!!!!#im sooooo rooting for them!!! i really feel like indie games dont often get as explosively big as they used to yknow? like undertale or#pony island or stuff like that?#but i want them to get there and I think they could!!:)
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10 simple ways to instantly feel good on a bad day
Bad days happen— but they don’t have to define your whole life. With a few simple steps, you can reclaim your peace and positivity. Here we list some of them: #simple #ways #instantly #feel #good #bad #day

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#10 simple ways to instantly feel good on a bad day#10 simple ways to instantly feel happy#how to improve mood instantly#how to instantly boost mood#relationships tips#self care
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being low empath is kinda funny bc wdym people can feel other people's feelings. i barely feel mine
#[borealis.txt]#another realisation moment.#interesting....never thought that what im doing is logicalising my emotions. or whatever that is#RATIONALISING#forgot that. anyway i always feel uncomfortable seeing people cry#not bc im sad bc they're sad but bc i dont know how to console em#hmmm ..... fascinating .... now how do i put this into my ocs#have you ever wanna rip your hearts out to see if it's actually working? haha also#on the topic of not feeling anything its more of a muted scent? kinda?#like i know what happy sad is but like? maybe its the autism but i wanna know the exact definition?#which is what emotions so frustrating bc they're abstract??? GET IN SHAPE PLEASE#anyway jing yuan have a mole on his perineum and at the tip— *the guards dragged me away*
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