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spaciebabie · 6 months

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following springtrap Into The Bowels of a fazbear establishment (he told you not to but you did anyway) and him having to protect you when you encounter something dangerous. is this anything

STOP MAKING NME IMAGINE NARRATIVES IN MY HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU'RE GIVING ME IDEAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#spacie splains #SMACKS YOU OVER THJE HAD WITH A NEWSPAPER #literally the only thing keeping me sane is remembering thatg if springtrap was aware of my existence he would NOT like me #JUHDGKJHDSFHDSFLJKGDSJFG #GIVE MYSELF A REALITY CHECK EVERYONCE IN AWHIL #TA FEND OFF THE EMOTIONS I FEEL RGULARLY #EVERYDAY #I WAS SITTING IN MY DIFFERNTIAL EQUATIONS CLASS AND ALL OF TH SUDDEN WAS ASSAULTED WITH ''oh my god i need 2 have sex with him'' THOUGHTS #FOR THE RESR OF CLASS #I COULD BARELY CONCENTRATE #GOOD LORD DUDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #ta answer your question yes this is something.#sprringtrap caring about....m yOU I CANT SAY ME AHAHAHAHHAHA LAUGHS NERVOUSLY #THAT MAKES IT REAL

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jeusus · 11 days

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Hid away, your longing will only grow And you'll only grow older -- The Longing - Tamino

#doodles #The Untamed #Lan Wangji #WangXian #mdzs #I finally watched The Untamed (and got the books)#I could barely concentrate when LWJ was on screen since he's so classically beautiful #What a dream for artists

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liyazaki · 1 year

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[stop trying to look handsome, idiot- it's making my heart so weak]

MY SCHOOL PRESIDENT | EP. 12 [2022-2023]

#my school president #my school president ep 12 #winsound #win x sound #winny thanawin #adorbs #was that hair driving anyone else nuts? i could barely concentrate #satang kittiphop #tonanons #lextag #mjtag #usernuria #userpharawee #hipranparakul #asiandramanet #asianlgbtqdramas #asiandramasource #mor gifs msp

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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#damn my teeth on my left side reallyyyyy fkn hurt #last night it started hurting so bad i couldnt fall asleep #i took some regular over the counter pain pills nd they brought down the pain a bit #so it at least didnt hurt as bad as it did first #but now after sleeping a few hours it still hurts ://#idk what to do... bc i've googled but it is like impossible for me to know what this is. could be anything rlly #nd w physical health stuff im not as terrified bc i can just go to the ER. when i was there it only cost $15 lol #but dental care is so fkn expensive i dont even have that in my account #anyway. i could get an 'urgent appointment' which i get financial aid for... probably. thats the thing. it's not 100% certain #idk what i should do bc like i could wait it out nd see if it'll pass nd then wait on my appt the 6th may #or maybe i should call my dentists nd ask them what they think nd if they can give me an urgent appt..#i hate calling tho. i know that sounds ridiculous esp when im dealing w pain but my avpd makes it so so hard for me. i'd almost rather not #if i was smart nd normal thats what i would do. just call them nd see what they decide for me. maybe i'll wait nd see nd call tmrw....#nd idk abt the pain. like it rlly hurts but it isnt extreme i think.. but when i press one tooth it hurts a lot nd makes me worried it's #dying 💀 nd like u can actually die from teeth pain nd complications... nd infections nd stuff. it's scary af 😭#idk if my tooth is dying nd i need to contact a dentist rn or if its smth that can wait for a bit #i mean if i had a job nd a salary i'd book an appt for tmrw nd get it checked but i have to discuss w myself bc i cant afford lol #ugh this is the reason im terrified of dental problems. the pain is awful nd theres nothing u can do if you're poor #my head keeps spinning idk what i should do abt this 😭 i csnt make up my mind. just want it to go away on its own but i know it wont #nd it hurts so that i can barely sleep or eat or concentrate. so i rlly dont know.....#oh if only things were easy

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nerdish-nostalgia-revived · 9 months

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"We are dealing with a maniac that is very dangerous."

"Oh, my Lord! What about Egg? Is she going to be alright?"

Hercule Poirot and Sir Charles having a brainstorming on the train.

#martin shaw #sir charles cartwright #three act tragedy #david suchet #hercule poirot #first time I actually have the titular character in a gif set #I can barely look at him anymore since this episode #my weekend is so packed that I won't be able to concentrate on my writing anyway #so have this gif set instead #that little smile from Charles in the first gif #he is so precious!#also I wonder what kind of choice it was to film him from up above and Poirot from down below #I could say something about certain complexes that makes people want to appear bigger in front of others #while literally putting others down #but we all know which side I'm on in this #also yes Egg would have been alright if you had just eloped with her to finally get married!#I would have loved to see their wedding #instead I got traumatized for life by that ending #and was totally ok with discarding of the Belgian in the last episode because of that #thanks a lot!

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mitamicah · 2 months

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I need to think out loud - feel free to ignore

#I really want to quit the event for trans day of visibility #I just don't see what I can give to the conversation #and I haven't for a while now #there is already a person that does all the posters #when I did the budget it was all wrong #half the ideas I've come up with has been having big holes #and honestly I don't think that comfortable in the group #I feel like I am back at school or university being put in a group for a project that I cannot pull out of because it will affect my grade #or the rest of the group's performance #but there's no grades #there is a performance of sort being the event #and that could still be great #but I don't feel like I have the spoons or the experience for this #I am just smiling (barely) and nodding along #yet a part of me are also scared of dropping out now #there is not a lot of time left #and so it wouldn't be fair on the other people to ditch this last minute #but would it be more fair to let me just tag along not doing anything of value?#and I should probably decide soon since we are getting closer #it is this big dark cloud over my thought rn #I am trying to concentrate on my drawing challenge yet I don't have any joy in it #because all my thoughts go to this event #I don't know what to do #I really don't want to do this #but I did say yes #and I hate tapping out and be seen as untrustworthy as well #micahs thoughts

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darabeatha · 2 months

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#;ooc #ooc #X.IANZHOU L.UOFU DONE; P.ENACONY NOW #/havent been writting at all bc rl stuff and speedrunning s.tar r.ail #SO I CAN MEET- 3 other beloveds;#also bc im gonna make a h.sr b.log so im absorbing all (<- i say this as i barely understand the gist)#;delete later #considering i started like;; last week; i think i got here pretty fast-ish #or well i dunno how it would be in comparison to starting from scratch on g.enshin; last stop should be like;; i.nazuma in terms of #timeline? like if u only concentrated on world story quests only #but also my god when i think back; someone would have to lit pay me to replay all of g.enshin's story #SO MANY TIMES I HAD TO LOOK UP ON YT HOW TO SOLVE PUZZLES AAAAAA #im having spiritual DMG whenever i think about it #here it was much more mmmmm; easy to flow- like it didnt feel so tedious #like i didnt need to do 48975489758 character and npc quests to advance the story #so im so glad about that; and the auto farm option + skip already seen dialogues after losing and retrying again is -chef kiss-#whenever i remember that story with the kitsune lady in i.nazuma i get chills i didn't like it at all i caNNOT #i remember how much i struggled fighting that s.amurai my characters could NOT beat him #or the w.atatsumi island one that we lit never got to see again; or the one with the smoke island GODDDDDD #AND HERE THEY GAVE US... trial j.ing yuan god bless

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2003toyotaprius · 2 years

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the strangest thing about Kazuhira and Ocelot coexisting for nine years is it's the latter that went gray as a result

#i get Sorrow genes + stress from losing BikBok #but Kaz's resilience towards bullshit is commendable #was he simply worse #he could be worse #that would be mighty funny #did he kept showing the real kazuhira miller if you know what i mean #all shitposts etc i saw up until now concentrates on ocelot being the unhinged one and kaz barely suffering him #probably basing on situation from mgs5 #but it would be very refreshing if situation was in fact reversed 180 up until '84 #mgs #metal gear #metal gear solid #mgs5 #metal gear bits and pieces #mgsv #revolver ocelot #kazuhira miller #vague supernatural doesnt stand a chance against the power of jock

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curseofbreadbear · 1 day

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vent under the cut 👍👍👍

i'm just so tired and so done. i hate having an invisible illness (chronic pain, MAYBE fibro) and not being able to properly explain how debilitating it is, even WITH extensive notes. i hate when doctors misunderstand what i'm asking for. i already feel like i'm faking it even WHILE experiencing it and it frustrates me + makes me feel more invalid than i already do when a medical professional acts like i'm being irrational. at the very LEAST i'm getting tests done but i don't feel heard by the one doctor who's supposed to help. my therapist and psychiatrist are making me feel more understood & supported than a pcp and that's not even their specialty. i think they just listen to me more and better understand where i'm coming from. i have ocd and i literally would not bring it up without doing EXTENSIVE research, but all a doctor hears is "i googled it" and that automatically makes it sound like i'm being a hypochondriac. and i swear, i SWEAR, i'm not. i do research to try and talk myself OUT of it!!!! that method has worked with everything else, but not fibro!!! i have just about every symptom and co-morbid condition and it's driving me crazy!!!

i'm so tired. i don't know how i can keep working or walking or LIVING like this, but i force myself and PUSH myself to act normal and functional every fucking day. and it's like. i feel like professionals will see that and be like "um you can walk AND work so clearly you're fine" except that i'm not!!!! i take excessive amounts of ibuprofen just to function and it's still not enough to completely prevent or numb my pain!! and STILL my mental illnesses like to do this terrible thing where i convince myself that i don't need breaks, i'm useless if i even take five minutes to sit down, i'm wrong and invalid and clearly i'm just pretending to be in pain!

and to top it all off, i asked about a mobility aid and he told me that i would do better without one because being in motion helps. and i agree!! my pain is significantly less noticable when i'm in motion, it mostly hurts when i stand still. BUT. i don't move at work! they force you to stand in place all day! the only thing i can ask for is a break to sit down, but THAT triggers the part of my brain that's like "no you're useless if you take a break, you can't do that, just push through it like you always do!!" and i just. i CAN'T. i can't keep working like that. the best i can do is request a position change so i am not STANDING all day, but i don't know if they'll let me do that or use a mobility aid without a doctor's note.

i'm so tired. i'm so fucking tired

#🎬 || time for bear. (ooc.) || 🎬#{ this doesn't even include the cognitive impact of what i'm dealing with which. }#{ is one of the biggest things keeping me from writing. }#{ it is so fucking difficult to keep track and understand where i'm going when i keep forgetting things MID-THOUGHT. }#{ i can barely concentrate on writing and that is my coping mechanism!!! i'm so fucking miserable not being able to focus on- }#{ -something that would make me feel better!! }#{ i'm fucking miserable rn. and the summer depression is not helping lol }#negative #{ sorry for venting i just need to get all of this out SOMEWHERE because my stupid fucking ocd keeps ruminating on- }#{ everything i COULD have done for my doctor to believe me }#{ my brain is in this vicious cycle of 'you're faking it' and 'you could have talked about this and this and this and they'd believe you' }#{ realistically there is nothing more i can do aside from doing this test and hoping it proves Something }#{ just UGHHHH. }

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hrina · 2 years

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can’t stop thinking abt how on tuesday when i was out w this man he asked what my availability was like next week so i told him and the whole time he was just looking at me really intensely and then once i finished he said “sorry, could you say that again? you just have really pretty eyes”