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christinebloodwrittings · 2 years

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Briefly Instant (Part thirteen)

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston x reader

Summary: Life is complicated, always moving and working in ways we can't comprehend. Between the bubbles and the heartache, an unfortunate encounter left a half-broken heart and a strong connection which separated this soulmates for a long time. Two sides of the story, two hearts that longed for each other painfully. One brief instant was enough to know.

Warnings for this chapter: None

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TH Taglist: @lucky-foxface @lokisprettygirl22 @criticaltrinket @vbecker10 @huntress-artemiss

"Hello my sweetest" he loved that little nickname he picked for you, he couldn't stop repeating it in his head whenever he thought of you. He felt on top of the world; however he wasn't an idiot, he knew something had happened that night and he was determined to find out what exactly. The universe had put you to work just in the production in which he was going to act, he was definitely not going to let you escape or leave so easily.

“Good morning Mr. Hiddleston, how may I serve you this lovely morning?” that wasn’t even cold on your part, that was you playing, he noticed the little smirk on the corner of your face.

“You look beautiful” your wide sparkling eyes and loving smile sent butterflies to fly inside his stomach, “I’m working” your seriousness was taken away by the smoothness of his voice and demeanor, definitely the man you met in the islands.

“There’s no one but you and me here, the rest won’t show up until six thirty, please allow me the privilege to compliment you this fine morning” he went around the table, still keeping a respectable distance from you, the image of your scared face still awfully visible in his mind.

“Alright, coffee?” you gave in, walking with an empty cup towards the hot water containers, “Yes please, no sugar” you scoffed.

“For a moment I thought you were going to say tea” he knitted his eyebrows, “How much you stereotype me in that pretty head of yours?” his hand was on the table, using his body to block your way.

“Quite a lot, but I shall see for myself whether I am correct or not” you were joking of course, but he wanted to piss you off.

“Should I do the same?” you were taken aback for that, but composed rather quickly.

“Because I’m Hispanic or a woman?” you expected him to say neither, “Maybe both” but he went with that, huh?.

“Go ahead, throw the first one, my friend” you spoke up, finding confidence somehow, he just let out a chuckle and caressed your hand.

“I’m not that kind of man my sweetest, I’ve seen what your fists can do against an unwise set of words, I wouldn’t like to be the next to have a taste of your anger” he leaned closer, his eyes locked on yours while his fingers brushed a lock of hair behind your ear.

“No matter how ravishing you look while at it” oh he knew how to make you blush. He just complimented your strength based on that sloppy right hook at the bar, five years ago! The fact that he remembered that only made you want to kiss him.

“Tom! How are you my friend?” he quickly moved away from you as the one and only Hugh Laurie walked towards him. Now you were sweating, all your fangirl urges rising.

“Ah, Hugh, Y/n this is Hugh Laurie he’s a dear friend of mine, Hugh this is Y/n” he stopped a second, what were you two exactly, lover? He hoped he could say 'more than a friend', but he was puzzled for the uncertainty.

“A friend, nice to meet you Mr. Laurie, how may I serve you this morning?” you interceded politely, repressing all the typical stuff you would say to some as cool as him.

“I love your professionalism, but call me Hugh, nice to meet you as well, and please” he extended his hand to you, gladly you took it. Tom watched how your pupils turned almost into hearts, you were totally into Hugh, did that bothered him?

“You’re going to be a life savior dear, how we are going to survive without coffee?” You handed him the cup in between giggles, okay, now it started to bother him, why couldn't you smile like that for him?

“You’ll be our angel” Tom trailed on.

“That indeed, a cup of coffee please” Olivia Colman, dear lord!

“We have a tough way ahead; did you take a look at the script? I find it marvelously written” Tom eyes you while you moved ever so gracefully while you gave Olivia her coffee and a sandwich.

“It will definitely take a lot out of us, but we are experts at being villains right?” you looked up curious, the Willow thing crossed your mind, “In movies darling, we aren’t as scary as the characters we play” you still weren't so sure, but you still laughed nervously at it.

“You definitely have the irresistible charm of Dr. House, your wife must enjoy it" you certainly did loved his execution in Dr. House, that was the intention behind the tone and the comment perse, but Tom's mind was being eaten alive by anxiety and inner thoughts, all those lead to jealousy somehow.

'I need to get my shit together' he indeed was overthinking too much, he needed to calm down.

“Not much, but my daughter, she loves it, she says I’m rude and mean but funny”.

“Aw, how old is she?” you noticed Tom's jaw clenching, whatever could be troubling him that much?

"28, maybe that's why she understands that kind of humor" that conversation was interrupted by one of the staff members, calling some of the actors inside to give some information, among them Tom. He walked to you and kissed your forehead when no one was looking, "See you later beautiful" he whispered, damn, he confused you so freaking well.

The day went pretty well, for your first day of course, Tom on the other hand was having a hard time trying to figure out all the journeys they were going to take to get all the scenes the show needed.

There were also some script readings, the director gave some notes on how things would be laid out, and the writer gave some advice on the characters.

They would meet the other half of the cast in Morocco, so they would need to book the flights. Also part of the series would be filmed in Palma, he hoped to at least have a moment to explore and enjoy the view.

After all that, it was pretty late, so he picked up his phone and messaged you.

He smiled like a boy in love before putting his phone in his pocket and going back to the tent, you were laughing and helping some of the staff to put things away. You looked happy despite the yawns.

"How do you feel sweetest?” he placed his hand on your upper back softly, you turned around to see him, your face immediately adorned with a smile.

"It is very good to feel the routine again!" You yawned, sleepily leaning to rest your head on his shoulder, his arm wrapped around your waist to bring you close.

"You ready?" He nodded while kissing your temple, "Where's your car?" He wondered pointing the cars once you two reached the parking lot, "I took the bus, I don't own a car" he widen his eyes, if he didn't invited you to have dinner with him, you would've been in danger at that hour.

"You live too far away?" He walked smoothly and opened the passenger door for you, "An hour and a half from here, but strangely enough, only eight minutes from your place" you sheepishly spoke, hiding a blush as you went inside his car.

"You live around the corner! Up north?" He spoke when he got on, and it didn't even take him a second to fasten his seat belt, when he had time to start the engine and look at you, he admired you for everything you are, he couldn't wait to hold you in his arms. When you managed to buckle up in that half second, you looked up, only to find him staring at you with the most charming smile. It send an electricity shock down your spine and into your core.

"S-South, I live near a park, it has a dog section and a games for children" stammering, sweating, and with an uncomfortable throbbing, he almost made you forget everything.

"I've taken my dog there I think, the water fountain has a broken pipe?".

"Yes! It has been broken for a while now".

"Ever since those kids threw rocks at it" you two said at unison and laughed together.

"Punks" he laughed.

"Did the police ever caught them?" He shook his head while stirring the wheel, his arm and hand veins popping up slightly.

"No, those may have been kids, but they were smart alright, the police and neighbors gave up with the search".

He couldn't believe you lived so close to him, if he had knew before, he wouldn't even hesitate to knock on your door with a thousand roses. If only he had known.

However, he was thanking every single force he could think of at the moment, you were there, by his side. The universe was giving him another chance to make things right, he just had to ask.

Once he stepped out, you unbuckled yourself, your fingers barely touched the handle when the door opened, his hand outstretched for you.

"What a gentleman" he helped you out, "I believe I told you that my mother taught me right" he did, that night in the bar, you did remembered that.

"That much I can remember, but then everything's black" he told you it was okay, that you shouldn't worry, but you couldn't help it.

As soon as he opened the door, the happy ball of furr starting jumping, but not on him.

“Aww come here puppy!” the little spaniel whined and barked at you, begging for you to pet him.

“You’ve met Bobby?” Tom asked closing the door, his heart soaring with the sight, “Yeah, I put food on his plate before you woke up, the sizing cup had a blue line at a certain measure, so I thought that was the right amount of food, isn’t that right my cute fluffy love?” you were just so cute! He wanted your attention now.

He inner slapped himself when he realized he was jealous of his own dog.

"Now that we are on that subject, how about if we start with the picking a playlist" he leaned against the stereo, swinging the auxiliary cable in his hand, smirking devilishly.

You rolled your eyes as you made your way to him "Fine, don't say I didn't warned you" plugged the cable in your cellphone, quickly scrolling down your albums and playlists in your Spotify profile.

Soon a mixed list of ballads, salsa and slow songs started playing, you moved your shoulders at the rhythm, making him giggle.

"And here I thought you would have death metal in your repertoire" he set your phone aside, taking your hand to spin you around gently, "Oh I do, I have a bit of everything. Metal, Rock, Pop, Ballad, Salsa, you name it".

He hummed, placing his hand on the small of your back, pulling you close, his face was close to yours. "Well look at that, my sweetest, we have more in common than I realized".

His tone was soft, his smell intoxicating, the way he moved your hips along with the song without losing track of the conversation, lightly brushing his...what a man indeed.

"Mmm, coincidence?" You lifted your hands to the nape of his neck, you needed to kiss him, to feel his warmth, that burning passion he felt for you that was latent in every touch.

He understood what you were doing, he didn't exactly hurried to crush his lips into yours, but he did entrap them shortly. You sighed at the contact, standing up in your tippy toes to intensify it.

It ended up longer than a peck, but shorter than an actual kiss.

"Sit down and relax, sweet love, I'm going to amaze you" he had the audacity to leave you wanting for more. It was his exact intention.

"I want to help you, it's...not in my nature to sit and do nothing" he found a new weakness, your puppy eyes. That put some color on his cheeks.

"Then, how about a red wine, and you help me chop a few vegetables?" You smiled and pecked his lips, "Yes chef".

Oh he was head over heels.

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hispipsqueak · 3 years

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Forever

Hanta Sero x F!Reader NSFW

Summary: After years of being together, you and Sero decide to reminisce in the best way possible.

WC: 2.2K

A/N: Hi friends! Sero is one of those characters that I truly see as good husband material and I wanted to express some of those feelings in this piece. I know for a lot of us, especially in my age range, growing up and leaving that age of “dumb teenager/early 20′s mess” to “adult with responsibilities” is a big change and I hope that is reflected a bit in this. Also, there’s car sex. So that’s fun :D As always, likes and reblogs are very much appreciated! Thanks for reading <3 P.S: CAN WE TALK ABOUT SERO IN THE NEW EP??? ahhhh

TW: car sex, adulting/getting older, domestic relationship, daddy kink, breeding kink, mentions of drug use

Sero's eyes stared at the glowing screen, trying to comprehend the information yet again.

His gaze darted toward the corner, 3:36 A.M., and he yawned, before blinking and trying to re-read the document again.

"Hey pretty boy."

The smell of jasmine perfume and honey wafted in and he smiled sleepily as you ran your fingers through his shaggy black hair.

"Mm...I know, I know." He muttered, nuzzling into your touch. You were his rock, always making sure he ate well and slept enough, making sure he wouldn't overwork himself. Sero thought back to your UA days of sneaking out at 3 AM to some fast food joint and getting stoned while eating greasy fries in the back of his car. Time sure flew, huh?

You rested your head on his shoulder and pressed a kiss to his neck.

"Come to bed. Paperwork will still be there in the morning, I promise.", you muttered into his soft skin. He relented and pulled himself out of the chair, twirling you around so he had you pressed against the wall.

His eyes roamed your face. You were still gorgeous as the day he first laid eyes on you in high school.

"Whatcha thinkin' about, Hanta?" you whispered. He grinned, that toothy smirk that you fell in love with unchanged after all these years, and kissed you.

"Just reminiscing. Thinking about how far we've come. Remember when we were annoying teenagers, sneaking out of the dorms?"

"I'm pretty sure we are the reason for Aizawa's grey hairs now. Remember when your van broke down and we had to beg Bakugo to pick us up at 4 A.M.?" you giggled back, thinking of the blonde's angry scolding the entire ride home.

The two of you chuckled quietly, thinking about the years past. You glanced down at your hand, the sparkling diamond that adorned it shining in the dim room.

"I remember the day you proposed too. I'm pretty sure I thought you were going to dump me." you teased.

Even in the dark, you could see his face flush and his eyes narrow.

"I was NERVOUS. I was trying to ask the love of my life to spend the rest of our lives together and you just sat there being beautiful and Denki spent the day before trying to convince me to do a flash mob and it was a LOT of pressure!"

"You literally started off with, 'We've had some bad times, and some good times, and this was fun'." You laughed, picturing his face that day. He was sweating bullets and your heart was sinking, thinking he was ending it. He had been so secretive and weird the weeks prior, as opposed to his normally chilled out demeanor.

Sero kissed your forehead.

"I still have no idea why you said yes, but you're stuck with me, babe." He clinked his matching band against yours, a gesture the two of you did to remind yourselves of your unbreakable bond.

His long arms wrapped around your waist and pulled you close to him and you buried yourself into his chest, smelling his citrus-scented soap. He rested his chin on your hair.

"When did we get so old, Y/N?" He whispered, his eyes looking at the walls behind you. Pictures of the two of you decorated the house. The pair of you in matching sunglasses at the beach, a group photo of you two and the squad at dinner after the aforementioned proposal, a candid on your wedding day, and then the two of you holding your twin boys.

"I'm pretty sure after we became parents." you mumbled into his chest, your sleepiness apparent in your voice. "I think once I had to say Daddy in a non-sexual way, was when I realized we were old."

Sero chuckled quietly, his hands squeezing your waist.

"But, we're still cool right? We aren't our parents."

You looked up at him, eyebrows raised.

"Hanta, are you worried about getting older?"

He closed his eyes.

"Not worried as much as...I just...I don't wanna be an old guy who drives a minivan and talks about retirement and golf."

Your eyes widened and you burst into laughter.

"Baby, I'm pretty sure you would never take up golf."

Sero pouted and you grinned before continuing.

"But in all seriousness, we aren't the kids we were in high school. Maybe we can't pull all nighters and still function the next day, and maybe we have to be parents who eat more vegetables and less french fries. But it's also nice to have a car that doesn't require a running start to move, and have a house instead of sneaking in and out of each other's dorm rooms. And you know, the kids are KIND OF cool."

He nodded.

"They are pretty cool kids."

You cupped his face, tilting him towards you.

"If I have to grow old with someone, I'm glad it's with you."

His face flushed and he pressed his lips to yours, kissing you deeply. You gently tugged at the longer hair behind his ears as you kissed him back. He let out a low groan and his hands kneaded at your curves, squeezing your ass and hips.

Finally, the two of you broke apart, breathless and grinning. He pressed his forehead to yours.

"How about…we reminisce a little more? Maybe...in the car, for old time's sake?"

You nodded and the two of you headed to the garage, trying to stay as quiet as possible to not wake up the kids. Sero opened the car door and the two of you slid in the backseat, giggling like teenagers.

You straddled him and could feel his cock through his joggers. He groaned as you grinded against it, teasing him with hungry hot kisses to his neck.

“You’re such a tease, princess.” He whispered before tracing the shell of your ear with his tongue. Your body shivered at his touch. Even after all this time, he made you feel like a lovestruck schoolgirl. You ran your hands down his toned chest, his body lean from hero work, and slid your fingers underneath his shirt.

Sero took this as an invitation to pull off his black tank top and you did the same to your sleeping shirt, an old band tee that you snagged from him. His hands cupped your breasts, slowly kneading the soft flesh as he placed soft kisses on your collarbone and shoulder.

“Mmm...you’re so fucking beautiful. How the hell did I get so damn lucky, babe?” He said between kisses. Sero had a way of making you feel like the sexiest woman in the world and you couldn’t help but smile as he worshipped your breasts, kissing and licking his way down till he latched his mouth over your nipple.

Using his other hand to tweak and tug at the hardened bud, he alternated between the two, sucking and leaving soft bites. Your back arched involuntarily, pushing your chest deeper into his mouth as you moaned.

“Fuck…need you Hanta.”

His long fingers worked their way down your belly, tracing circular patterns as he reached your sex. He ran a finger across your slit, barely parting your folds.

“What do you want, baby? Tell Daddy what you want.”

“Please...please touch me. Please daddy.” you begged, grinding yourself against him for the smallest amount of friction. You could feel yourself leaving a mess on his sweatpants, but you needed his touch.

He let out a deep chuckle.

“So desperate, huh baby? Let daddy take care of you.” You bit your lip as he plunged two fingers into your cunt. The length, combined with the hooking motion had you gasping. He continued to plunge in and out of your sopping heat as you rocked against him. Your thighs tensed, threatening to close on his arm. He maneuvered the two of you so you were laying on your back across the seat, his hand gripping your soft thighs, holding you in place as he finger-fucked you.

“Take it like a good girl baby. Let daddy make you feel good. You look so beautiful for me baby.” He praised you as he pushed deeper into you. You could feel him hit spots in you that made you see stars. All you could do was lay back and cry from the overwhelming pleasure that clouded your brain.

“Fuck...daddy, gonna cum soon!” you wailed, eyes rolling back. Hanta then chose this moment to pull his fingers from you, leaving your pussy to clench around nothing. You let out a frustrated whimper, tears leaking from your eyes.

“I’m so sorry baby, but I promise I’m gonna make it all better. You trust me baby?” He asked, his eyes dark with desire and something primal.

You nodded, sniffling at the shock of your orgasm being ripped from you. He tapped your lips with his fingers,still dripping of your arousal. Obediently, you opened and sucked on the two fingers, tasting yourself.

“Look how good you taste baby. You’re such a good girl for me. I want you to lick up every last drop from my fingers. Can you do that for daddy?” He asked, grinning.

Nodding dumbly, you slurped down every bit of yourself from his hand. He pressed against your tongue, making you gag around him. You looked up at him, drool falling from the corners of your mouth.

Hanta felt his cock twitch. Fuck you looked so sexy, so fucked and in love. He could see the devotion in your eyes as you looked at him awaiting his next instructions.

He pulled his hand back, strings of saliva hanging off of his calloused fingers. He propped himself above you so he was looking right down at your gorgeously fucked out face.

“You ready baby? You ready to take all of Daddy’s cock?” He asked, tugging your shorts down and lining himself up with your entrance. Your fingers found their way to his neck, tugging him close to you. The two of you shared a deep kiss, exchanging unspoken promises and memories before breaking apart. You nodded, looking deep into his eyes.

“Always."

Hanta felt his face flush, before slowly pressing into your tight heat. You bit your lip. No matter how many times the two of you had done this, you still had to prepare for his length. He wasn’t the thickest but his cock was long and lean just like him, with a curve that pressed itself right against your most sensitive spots.

“Fuck...you feel so good for me. You’re squeezing me so well baby.” He murmured, his dark eyes drinking in every inch of your body. His hands ran up and down your sides as he looked down at you and he gave you a small grin as he pinched your hip. You dug your fingertips into his shoulder blades, pulling him flush against you.

“Oh fuck you feel so good.” You rocked your hips against him, rolling yourself onto his cock. He took this as a cue to go faster and started to piston deeper inside of you, his balls slapping against your ass. His tip slammed against your walls, burying him deeper inside you. Moans and sighs filled the backseat and you gripped him tightly.

“That’s it babe, that’s it. Taking daddy so fucking deep. Fuck you’re sucking me in so well. I might have to knock you up again if you keep it up. You want that princess? Want daddy to put another baby inside you?” Hanta panted, hungrily kissing your neck and shoulder as he fucked into you faster. His teeth nipped at the thin skin and you cried out, from a mixture of pain and pleasure. “Answer me baby girl.”

“Y-yes daddy! Please fill me up with your cum. Need you so bad. Wan’a have your baby.” You moaned, delirious from him. The windows to the car were foggy and sweat ran down your bodies as you repeatedly crashed into each other, and yet all you could feel was him, all you wanted was to stay with him and please him as much as you could.

He could feel his release rapidly approaching. His hand snaked down to your clit and he pressed tight circles to the sensitive bud. Your back arched from the seat as you moaned out a mixture of curses and begs. Your mindless babbling spurred him on more. He wanted to keep fucking you, make it so you couldn’t remember your own name, drive you insane with desire and want.

“Tell me who’s fucking you so good baby. Who’s making you feel so fucking good? Who’s cum do you want to fill that tight little pussy of yours?” He breathed out, slamming into you impossibly faster.

“Daddy daddy daddy - DADDY!” you chanted, your mind fuzzy as you tightened around him, creaming on his cock. You wrapped your legs around his waist and rode out your high on his cock as your eyes fluttered and your mouth dropped open.

“That’s it, that’s it, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!” He groaned out as he released into you, filling you with his seed. His cock twitched, spurting his load into you and his fingers gripped your hips, holding you tightly as he filled you up.

The two of you panted, breathing hard as you came down from your highs, slowly moving into a position where he could hold you. He moved some strands of hair, plastered to your face with sweat, and pressed a soft kiss to your temple.

“I love you.”

You grinned, sleepiness overtaking your body as you leaned into him, your lips pressing against his skin.

“Forever.”

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nkogneatho · 3 years

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"Promise me forever"- Fushiguro Megumi x gn!reader.

Genre: fluff, angst, action | I do not own the character.

Wc: 1.9k | Requested by @unabashednightmarepizza

Warnings: mentions of death, heavy angst, mentions of blood, jujutsu fight style, hyperventilation, mentions of depression and anxiety, bringing human back to life.| A/n: I did it finally. It took me long time. If anything above triggers you, please don't read it. I am still new to fics and stuffs so please be kind and don't send hate.

SUMMARY <-

The only people who ever understood you were your parents so processing the fact that they are no more wasn't really easy for you.

You inherited both infinite void and six eyes technique and some different abilities due to mutation to although they weren't very reliable. But for several reasons, you're mother asked you to keep it hidden. You really wanted to feel normal but the clan started gossiping about you and how helpless you are.

"Why are you showing pity towards me? I am strong. It's just that I can't show you. I promised my mother. Why are you behaving like that?", unfortunately these were the only thought running in your head.

Gojou saw you and couldn't take it anymore. The way the clan verbally abused you made his blood boil. You were his precious cousin and he didn't want you to get hurt so he took you to Tokyo along with him while enrolling in school.

You felt safe in Tokyo. It's like that was the place you belong although you had to keep up with your cousins antics but watching him getting his ass whooped by the principal is fun.

New semester, new first years joined in. Your days before were so busy and traumatic that you didn't even have the time to think about dating.

Gojou took this opportunity to introduce you to the hottest single guy.

"Y/n, this is Fushiguro Megumi. Megumi, this is my cousin Y/n", Megumi bowed and greeted you, you did the same. The white haired bitch ran leaving you two in an awkward state. Well you did propose a conversation and turned out you both had similar interests. Two of you eventually started dating. It was nice to have a boyfriend. The feeling was very different maybe because you never felt it before.

"Ah! What are you doing baby? You should be more careful", he helped you get up when you slipped. A little O's leaving everyone's lips watching Megumi so caring.

He always held your hands from onwards. The little squeeze he does when he feels insecure about losing you when you guys go on a date or twirling you around with the support of your fingers as you sing and dance on empty streets at night. "We'll stay like this forever. Promise me", he sneakily slipped a ring up your finger as you were busy singing. "Yes", you smiled.

You gasped later when you took notice to it and then immediately hugged him. Before you didn't even know what a promise felt like and now you had it with a person you love the most.

Never have you ever felt so content with anything in your life. Guess good things come to an end.

Being close to the group, Sukuna sensed the potential and power in you when you fought the cursed womb. Well yes, the team was there but you panicked and lost control. Your powers were now visible to both Sukuna and Megumi. He was shocked at how his strong attacks still left you unscratched. Your rage got the best of you. Some of it was the frustration of all the taunts you heard.

You were sure that Megumi wouldn't want to see this monstrous version of you. Growing up alone, scared as if you didn't belong to the family, you never got the chance to control or monitor on how actually your power works. Although Gojou did help you grow enough. But the thought of him hurting your friends was enough to make you snap. Being the monster he is, he wouldn't let this chance slide.

"You're a beautiful bud y/n. You just didn't get a chance to bloom. Seems like it's not too late", he tried so hard to lure you in but the only thing on your mind was now to tear him apart. Sukuna did retreat or should I say Yuuji made him. Fushiguro ran up to you two as you were there with Yuuji's heart in your shivering hand, blood raining down on floor.

"You guys are the best buds I ever had", the last words leaving his mouth as he tumbled on the floor. Your hands were shivering. Even though Megumi knew how to handle such situations, you didn't. Losing a friend? You didn't even have a single friend in the first place but now? You were the one who thrusted his heart out.

"Y/n. It's not your fault.", he tried to convince you. "I am a monster. They were right. I shouldn't have come here. I was good, rotting in a corner in that place. I am helpless", breathlessly blaming yourself.

It took you a few days to finally calm down and think about what was actually going on. Not to mention you were badly injured after the fight. Megumi and Nobara were there the whole time taking care of you when you were recovering.

Gojou after some days took you to somewhere, a place you weren't aware of.

Shocked to very own core you ran towards to hug your friend Yuuji who was alive.

"Y-yuuji.....", not sure what to say afterwards.

"It's okay y/n. It was not your fault. Plus the good thing. I AM ALIVE", he was so excited to see you, that was clearly visible. You both stayed up late and watched movies though Gojou gave you major spoilers so he got kicked out of the room. Gojou warned you to not speak about Yuuji being alive, yet.

A few days later when you were with Yuuji and Junpei at his school, Mahito arrived.

Turns out the reason behind Junpei's whole brainwashing was this man. You tried to snatch Junpei but before you could, Mahito manipulated his body and he was converted into a curse.

"I just wanna have a conversation", he said but you both ignored his shit talk and punched him but seems like it had no effect. Your moves focused on finding his weak point or atleast holding him until Yuuji brings Junpei back.

"Sukuna. Do it."

"No.", the entity inside him denied. A shock hit Yuuji. How did you guys did not expect this? They both are curses in the end.

"Why me?", Junpei tried to ask, fingers clinging on the hem of Itadori's shirt.

"Yuuji, switch with me", you ordered him. You were aware of what Mahito was trying to do and you let him do it. How fool of him to think he can enter and have a conversation with Sukuna. Sukuna striked a blow on his arm causing him to collapse on the ground.

You brought Junpei back to life with all the strength you had left, it didn't work perfectly because his body was still wounded. Sukuna witnessed your Potential and was impressed. He switched with Yuuji, tricking him that he wanted to help you and he will do anything for his friends so he agreed.

Sukuna's fingers brushed throughout your face, as if he was analyzing each and every single cell of it while you pant, brain hazy. "How long are you planning on staying on the good side? Hm? Don't worry. I am going to steal you anyways", his hands cupped your face but soon was cut off.

"HANDS OFF THEM", Megumi passed a blow, voice raging, the vein on his neck was visible.

"Ah. This is good. Two of my adored humans. I'd have you both for me".

"Dream on. There's no way you're having them", he spat.

"No. There's no way you're having any of us", you balanced yourself on your palm, eyeing the curse in front of you.

"I won't ma-make the same mistake again", you were still pretty beaten up, although you had to save everyone. Yuuji tried his best to control but he won't faze. The lust for your power grew more and more and made it unstable for Itadori to tame him.

"Megu-mi. Do as I say".

"Are you sure y/n you can fight?", the one trait you always liked about him was that he never ignored your dedication and just supported you instead of saying "You are weak now." Or "You should rest".

You blew a punch making Sukuna fall back so now you had a calculated distance from him. Your lover joined, standing beside you.

"Trick him into thinking that we are losing in combat and bring him closer", he wasn't sure what were you upto but this was your only resort.

He summoned the Shikigamis one after another and delivered continuous attacks on him. Of course it was useless. He won't concede just like that. Afterall he is the king of curses so he decided to play along with you two for a while. In the end, you both are coming to me anyway or so he thought until......

Your image swiftly appeared in front of his eyes at which his pupil dilated, forehead bleeding, jaw clenched. The bloodlust was clear in your eyes but now it had a different look. Almost as if you earned a control on your powers.

"I told you, didn't I? I won't make the same mistake again", you latched your palm on his chest where Yuuji's heart was.

It's okay, if it's just for a bit it's okay, you convinced yourself.

You stopped the heartbeat for a couple of second with your ability to send shocks and control organs of the body, sort of reakted to body manipulation, causing Sukuna to loose control.

"Yuuji. NOW!", he took the chance and switched back. His torso tumbled down as a fear hit you causing you to fall too. Maybe you made the same mistake again. Megumi approached you two apace.

"Itadori! Y/n! Get a hold of yourself".

"I guess I did it again.", you cupped his face. "I count myself lucky that I me-met you. I am so.....s-sorry. I love yo-", your arms slowly lost velocity and thud the ground.

"No. Atleast learn to complete your words before you stop", megumi fisted his hands in nothing but air.

Later Gojou and others arrived, immediately taking you and Yuuji to the Jujutsu medics.

Luckily, Yuuji switched back at the right time. Thanks to you he was alive.

Your eyes gradually opened up and wandered around the room for a bit until they caught Fushiguro's. (You thought you can die leaving Megumi alone? SIKE!)

Mind still hazy, but was able to comprehend what happened before.

"Where's Yuuji?",you suddenly rose from the bed. Your voice was soft and low but will never go unheard by your lover. He wanted to scold you at how selfless you were. All beaten up yourself but still asking for someone else.

"He is fine and perfectly alive. To be honest it's a surprise since Gojou told me he was alive all this time. He is so annoying that even death doesn't want him", he chuckled lightly making you too. The smiled on your face faded when you saw a tear fall down from the edge of his eyes. His hands squeezing yours a little tighter than before.

"Don't ever do that again.", he was trying hard not to burst out the water from his eyes.

"I won't. I promised you forever. Remember? There's no way I am going to leave you alone.", you stroked his cheekbones.

"Yes. Otherwise there won't be no one to annoy me"

"Hey!", you slapped his chest lightly but he gripped your hand.

"Complete your sentence. Now."

"I love you", three words left your mouth after recalling what you left him hanging on. Megumi sighed in relief and the placed a kiss on your forehead.

"I love you too. Forever.", you embraced each other for the rest of the night.

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2021 Reading for BTS and the collective!!

Wow wow wow! I didn't disappear or get dragged away by a demon. No no, I just got thrust into unexpected shadow work and I now have an unhealthy obsession with sea shanties and a love of pasta.

I had this idea planned to be early in January but that didn't pan out so I'm doing it now. I have another yoongi reading in the works and another fun thing coming soon as well!!

I promise I won't bore you to death any longer but I hope you've all been doing well!!

Disclaimer: This is for entertainment purposes only and not to be taken as fact.

If this message doesn't apply, let it fly!

Cool cool cool.

Let's get it.

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Oki. I first want to say that this I gonna be long lol. I did a meditation and gathered some little pieces of things y'all might need to hear and then I pulled cards for every month. The fountain tarot deck is the cards for us, the collective, and the rider-waite cards are for bts. It'll make more sense when I add picks and stuff. I did a little extra card pull for yoongi for the month of May too :) I'll make sure to type out all the cards in text so you know what they are (the pics are kinda wack.) I also used my pendulum to ask if there was a bts related event for every month and that's at the bottom. It's just to take in the possible energy for the month and something that could result from that energy!

LETTUCE BEGIN (hehe)

Starting with the section for the channeled messages. I want to reiterate that this was collective so if it doesn't resonate with you, the message might not be for you! Use your intuition.

(Enough talking. Damn)

So. As I said this was through meditation and connecting to the big column tree thing (I told my cousin about the tree/pillar and they were like,, "so basically a big energy dildo in the æther?" .... I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. h e l p m e) and asking if there was any messages or advice that needed to be delivered and it was... intresting?

Things came fragmented. So there was little messages like, "Its gonna be okay" and "things are changing for everyone" and "open your eyes if you want to see" (that's sassy.) There was one particular thing that was confusing me though. Straight up it was just "flower" on repeat and like a really bad picture of a flower? Like you could tell what it was but it was bad quality. Anyway, I was like "okay. Kindly shut the fuck up. Pls." And I wrote down flower, pink flower and rose. Sooo.... idk but there you go.

More messages were things like, "the block isn't in your head", "try calling forth that which you seek" and... February. Possibly there is specific (very very very loose) connection to the 10th-19th? I'm not to sure what or why but I'd say maybe look out for opportunities on these days and also maybe external events.

Continuing with dates. In the last this 21 and January 21 came up. It came up again but with 2 messages. So first, either 21st is a day where something is put into motion (possibly private or public) or announced and the second was "add them together dumbass" that's not very kind but 3. Again this has been discussed too but but but... maybe a signal of a third mixtape 👀 (not necessarily on the 21st per say but possibly in March? I'm really not sure).

Oki. I got side tracked like I always do and started thinking about tattoos and stuff and I really want koo to have a peony tattoo. I feel it in my BONES. It would suit him so well. and as I was thinking about tattoos I heard, "don't be surprised if yoongi gets/shows a tattoo this year" ??? What the fuck? I think maybe they messing with me but now I have hopes and I don't want them to be crushed and thrown to the wind :(

Back to normal stuff, "the theme is growth" I think that fits very well with the reading. "Blue might be a lucky color" self explanatory. It might be lucky. "Start practicing grounding and centering" this was LOUD. This will help you in how you react to events in the future. Really do practice this if you haven't.

This is where it gets a little weird. So, I got a message that said "start living as if you never existed." I am not a 100% sure what this means but I think I have a pretty good guess. I hate to make it sound weird like this but by sort of focusing on something that is so hard to comprehend (because our brains can't comprehend not existing very well) you kinda break the 4th wall? Like in Deadpool when he addresses the audience and is aware that he is a character played by Ryan Reynolds? anyway, focusing on something that seemingly impossible you kind of accidentally open up the floodgates for a lot of other things. I would say if you are not in the right headspace to do this don't do it but it can be a powerful way to break up the monotony of reality. The theory that everything happens simultaneously bc time isn't a linear progression events blah blah we are energy blah blah the multiverse blah blah.. Theres so so so so so so so so so much about this and how it applies to things that I could probably write you 10+ dictionaries worth of material but for the sake of simplicity and not wanting to write a novel right now, I will continue. The main lesson is to start challenging your perception of the world around you. Ask why and why and why and why. Essentially seeing cracks in the matrix. Pulling your head out of your cosmic ass, realizing that rose you're smelling is actually daffodil ect. It's not supposed to bring you fear but just kinda encouraging you to question all the things that you perceive as given truths.

I tried to make that sound cohesive but really it's such a big concept that I can't really wrap it up all nice and neat.

Oki. May and March are also important times.

Listen to your intuition and try not to take everything so seriously. I'm not saying to check out and go squat in the Himalayas but it's important to find joy in the now. Life is already tough enough so don't forget to watch a silly show that you like or change your hair to a style you've never tried, wear makeup in a very loud way. Just have fun and don't worry so much about things that you can't control. Listen to yourself and your intuition.

Well that was all over the place. Let's get on to the actual tarot part now.

For the record, the pictures are right to left.

January for the collective

We have the empress, the sun, 7 of swords and a fortune that says "act well your part; there the honor lies"

Hmm. Ngl I was a little confused to see the empress and the sun for January... I mean it hasn't been great. So I pulled clarity card 7 of swords. The 7 of swords is all about betrayal. It's about the deception and and actively getting away with things. This is people lying, cheating, sneaking and the works.

This makes much more sense!! The Sun card is usually about joy and success and happiness but in this case I see it as illuminating the betrayal. It's shining light on the deception and keeps the spotlight there. Its also an energetic card so I think that shows passion for uncovering the truth.

With the empress card too I think January is all about getting creative in all forms. Creative ways to protest, to mourn, to celebrate, to connect. Also taking in the abundance that we DO have. The beauty that surrounds us. I like to think of aphrodite energy for this. Its not just love and passion and creativity but is also asserting yourself and having strong passion for what you love and fighting for it. Did you know aphrodite was also called upon in ancient Greece in times of war? She was honored as a goddess of war but still a goddess of love, the sea, fertility ect. What I'm trying to say is that being a creative and "feminine" energy is in no way weak. Sometimes the most powerful things come from this energy. Love aggressively with good intentions. The point is that you should take whatever you're feeling and translate it into something creative or something you care about. The fact that covid is still a thing really sucks but take any rage, hurt, sadness, joy, love whatever and use that shit to make something amazing. Bake bread and punch the fuck out of it, paint your frustration, play hopscotch in higheels while you listen to heavy metal. You get the point.

Now January for BTS!!

We have the death card. (I only pulled one card bc I have things planned from this)

January has been... strange? To say the least.

This card can be a lot of things for them. I think this points to more maturity in their music? Like they've finally ditched the "shiny kpop boy band" label and are being taken seriously in the west. I also think that they're going through a musical/concept transformation~ I think it also signified the change in plans bc of the Grammys perhaps they had things planned an that fell through so they were forced to rapidly change plan/course.

For January: possible mixtape or announcement.

February for the collective

We have 8 of coins reverse and hanged man reverse.

The 8 of pentacles reverse talks a lot about self improvement. Doing that good good inner work and self care. Working on developing parts of you that you've maybe neglected. It's also learning how to work with how you are instead of wishing you weren't the way you are. If you have a therapist its a great time to maybe ask for any extra tips that you can practice daily to help you even more. Maybe exploring more into insecurities relating to finance or jobs or your passions. If you don't have a therapist but you have the means to get one I always highly recommend. You don't have to have "problems" to see a therapist. Everyone could use a non biased point of view that is literally trained to help you be you best self. If you can't get therapy, I get it. Shits tough rn but there's still things we can do to better ourselves like Journaling and reading therapy blogs or self help books (not the taky shit) or trying a hobby you fell out of touch with. There's also a lot of places where you can get therapy promise on the internet. Most importantly, better yourself in the way that you need. Take time in February to take notice of what you want to improve upon. The 8 of coins reversed does come with the warning not to get stuck in perfectionism. Go easy on yourself and if you find yourself getting frustrated when working on projects, try to take a step back and practice whatever it is in a fun way and then come back to it later

Hanged man reverse talks about knowing that you need to chill but you don't. You'll need too. Maybe you'll find yourself swept up in work and tasks and you're over whelmed and know you need to stop and catch your breath but you resist. Why? Well, perhaps you're trying to ignore reality by filling the empty spaces with things and stuff so you don't have to face what's bothering you. Not wise. Take time for yourself. There's also the flips side where people are just kinda stuck.. creative block. Maybe you want something to turn out one way and it just isn't, so your stuck and frustrated and can't move past it. Let go of your expectation of how it should be and let it be what it is. Go with the flow and maybe you'll see a new way to overcome your problem. You'll eventually get that break through that you need! The theme of February is about self improvement. Listen to yourself.

February for BTS

We have judgment.

Hehe yeah. This card is about rebirth and the inner calling. Letting go of the old to step into the new version of you. This is also a very spiritual card lol. This can talk about a new decision that you have to trust your gut on. This is a very significant card that screams comeback to me. It also can talk about sharing your struggles with a group of people and that to me sounds comeback ish. Maybe this will be an announcement in February, maybe they'll be working on it idk but this is ultimate comeback energy so I hope they utilize this for a big group project!!

February: possible BTS comeback (even my pendulum knows)

March for the collective

The chariot and justice

This plays directly off of February! With the chariot you're taking the self improvement that you've done and putting it to action! Now is the time to act on the dreams and passions that you have don't wait and hope for the best. March is about action and standing in your power.

Justice card is cause and effect and truth. What you do will have consequences good or bad. Not doing anything also has consequences. Cease the moment and make the best of it. You'll be taking responsibility for what you do. You start a business? Now you have the responsibility of running it and you get the credit. Stuff like that. Stand by your decisions with conviction and trust yourself.

There's also the side of justice that talks about bringing justice. If you've been wronged, you'll be brought justice if you stand up for yourself.

We also carry the continuous lesson of learning what we truly believe and challenge those beliefs!

March for BTS

Oki we have the hermit and the 6 of pentacles reverse.

Well... let's start with the 6 of pentacles reverse. This can really talk about being so generous and giving to everyone else that you forget about yourself. I think that maybe they might be over exerting themselves and giving so much that they're exhausted physically and emotionally as well. I think too, they take on so much of our pain like its their own? Idk but this would be a good time to do a large scale fan project to show them a little extra love!

With the hermit card it talks about a self introspection so they could be looking inward as a team and kinda evaluating their bond.

I also see this as maybe being alone as in they maybe can't physically go to the grammys? Or maybe they had been planning the rescheduled concerts and they had to be pushed back even further? Things like that. Regardless this signals re thinking/reevaluating the goals that they have and considering what direction to go in!

March: possible mixtape or solo project?

April for the collective

We have 6 of coins and 3 of cups reverse.

Let's start with the 6 of coins. It's about sharing. It can be about charity so sharing money via donation but also giving time, effort, energy to people as well. Giving knowledge is good too! It's an all round exchange. Maybe someone lends you money or you lend money to someone. It's give and take. It's a two way street. It's also a card of balanced finance. So money stuff should be looking promising around this time (for you U.S people this could point to more stimulus help as well)

And for the 3 of cups reversed... I see this as reopening of places and people struggling to find the balance. So think people who've been in lockdown celebrating by throwing a big party... yikes. This card reminds that we should be mindful of the long-term consequences that come with our actions.. maybe also people that are experiencing fear of being in public places now. This is only one facet though. Bc I think this also means in general, missing being with friends and having a renewed relationship because you've really realized how important it is to have these people that mean so much to you in your life. Don't forget that you have people that love you and want the best for you. Call them when you feel alone.

April for BTS

The heirophant

Mhmm. This one kinda gives me vibes that they'll be mentoring people? Idk but I see them more as the heirophant teaching what they've learned/ know to help guide others. HOWEVER this could also be them taking a new task under their belt. Learning something new. Since this is as a group reading I assume that this talks about the group as a whole. This card is also very tradition oriented so maybe they are taking lessons that are connected to traditional Korean culture? Maybe its for RUN or maybe its to incorporate into music and preformance. Think bts mma preformance but all of them learning together? Idk, it's just a thought (maybe wishful thinking). It also talks about seeking counseling so maybe they'll do yoongis idea from the most recent RUN.

This can also be them embracing this kind of leadership/ status.

April: I got nothing. It does feel like something though

May for the collective

Five of cups and queen of cups reversed

Five of cups is disappointment, regret and self pity. Now honestly this to me looks like possibly a tightening of restrictions yet again. Regardless of the situation that this is talking about, the best thing you can do is not wallow in the bullshit. You scrape yourself off the pavement and move foward. You'll need forgiveness of yourself and others and that if shit isn't going your way, you need to pull your head out of your ass and look around bc there's options out there. It's like drowning in a kiddie pool. Just stand up, dude. The water is like 5 inches.

Queen of cups reversed talks about self love and self care. It's more of that look inwards energy. Think about really taking care of yourself. May might be emotionally draining so you need to be ready to take care of you! Part of self care is making sure that your boundaries are well enforced.

Be on the look out for codependent behaviors. Check in with yourself.

The queen of cups is very intuitive and having it in reverse can talk about you not taking enough time to listen to it. Make an effort to meditate for like 5 minutes a day at least. Do something to let yourself connect to your intuition and higher self.

May for BTS

9 of pentacles

This about enjoying the fruits of your labor and absolute abundance and luxury. This could talk about them rolling in the dough after signing a new partnership or having a concert or something if the sort. This could also be a time where we see them buying new things like houses, cars and rings (lol) but also this could be them doing a very high production value project! Also namjoon and his bonsai army are thriving in this time!

May: possible concert or scheduled concert event. Activity of some kind.

Yoongi interlude

I asked for one card to give me an idea of what the mystical May 13th really is. I got: the star, 2 of cups, 4 of wands, the world and the sun.

Guys. I can't with this. 2 of cups is a card of union, romance, soulmate. 4 of wands is celebration, joy, homecoming, bliss. The world is completion and the sun is happiness, joy, marriage, enlightenment.

I've said it a billion times but that's some soulmate shit. So soft so cute and May will be eventful for his personal life.

June for the collective

Death and the heirophant reversed.

Wow wow wow death is transformation and a new chapter so a new way of life and something new/ different that changes how we see things. Again this could be relating to new covid things and new policies and stuff like that but also new as in new to all of us. Groundbreaking perhaps?

The heirophant reversed talks about teaching yourself. Being your own teacher and making your own path. This might be spiritual or otherwise. Challange what the world wants from you and instead listen to what you truly want bc you don't need anyone's approval. Continue to ask questions about why things are the way that they are.

June for BTS

Page of pentacles

Oki oki page of pentacles means a new creative venture and manifestation. Maybe something that they've been wanting for a while finally comes to fruition. This might be the start of a new project that they haven't done before or something cross genre? Idk but its a really good sign of being motivated for a new endeavor and manifesting any projects that they've ever wanted to do. Love this promising energy!!

June: idk

July for the collective

10 of swords and 9 of cups reversed.

10 of swords signals a painful ending. Also deceit. Its a necessary end to a long battle. The only thing you can do is control how you react in these situations. You just kinda gotta surrender into the pain and know that it's temporary. Take time to reflect on what happened and why and how it will help you grow.

The 9 of cups reversed talks about valuing stuff and material things over emotions and spiritual things. This can be talking about society in general, that we are becoming more aware to the fact that there is often more value placed on ephemeral items rather than humanity as a whole. This also can be talking about coming to the realization that we've been working so hard towards... something we don't really care about simply because we were told that it's what you do.

If you want something different to happen you have to put in effort. You can't be sitting in front of a water fountain being like, "damn. I'm thirsty. I really really want water so why isn't it in my mouth yet?" Like?? Hello? You have to take the first step, my dude.

Certainly don't try to do anything that would cost you finatial security or health.

You have the potential to find happiness within yourself. So try looking inside instead of looking outward.

July for BTS

4 of swords.

This is about rest and relaxation!

Taking time to meditate and take some time to look at what you've done objectively. Ots like the hermit in a way but much more focused on resting and relaxing so you can come back stronger and with better direction. Maybe they'll take a break for a couple days but I really see it as them reassessing options. Especially if July goes how I think it will. Maybe they'll film something like In The Soop again? Maybe we'll see bon voyage type thing? Idk. But it could be something kinda out of the spotlight? Maybe something more healing?

July: maybe something?? I'm not sure but it seems like something might be in store.

August for the collective

5 of coins and the wheel of fortune

Well let's see. 5 of pentacles talks about isolation and a negative mindset. This talks about falling on hard times but its a temporary set back. This energy can be talking about falling on hard times emotionally as well. In the card it shows a woman outside of a church shivering and cold but she's too busy thinking about all that she's lost that she doesn't notice the warm church that she could step into for shelter.

But then with he wheel of fortune that talks about fate/destiny, opportunity and luck so maybe this is a necessary loss so that a new door can open. This does kinda tie in with July as well. The end of something is painful but it's often a necessary thing. Might be a bit uncomfy but that's how things change. Again I see this maybe hinting more towards society but none the less it's definitely a theme for August to have doors closing and new ones opening so be on the lookout for that.

August for BTS

The devil.

Now don't fret. The devil talks a lot about choice. Most notably the choice between instant gratification and and something more substantial and the devil leans towards indulgence. It also has a lot to do with the shadow side. This could talk about ~scandal~ sure, but I think its more of a time where you become aware of negative patterns and you shine a light on that part you've ignored. On a much lighter note this card talks also about an incredible bond between people. It can be unhealthy if not given space or boundaries. Listen to pied piper and come back to me.

I also REALLY REALLY REALLY hope that this card points to this: sexuality. The boys have always been pretty pg when it comes to the topic of sex and embracing sexuality so I really do hope to see something more daring and grown up and exploring a tastefully sexy concept. On the same vain as sexuality this card also talks about kinks and stuff like that so don't be surprised if we get more outfits like fake love Era bondage harnesses.

August: ???

September for the collective

We have the world and 10 of wands reversed.

The 10 of wands reversed talks about carrying burden. Doing extra work and taking on more responsibility. Doing everything by yourself and carrying this heavy load alone will get you burnt out quicker than anything. You might be taking on too much and you'll need to prioritize what you really need to focus on. I also think there will just be a lot happening in September for a lot of people. It's a lot of working hard because you know it's good work or because it's what's right. This could be social responsibility that's placed on you or work responsibility. For whatever reason this burden isn't something you want to share with others because you think its yours alone to deal with. It's not though bc you'll figure out eventually that if it hurts so much you'll find a way to lessen the burden. 10 in tarot is all about the completion of a cycle and going through the wands cycle is hard work because for anything to be made of passion, you need to put the work behind it. The burden isn't forever, the heavy work load will lighten but this is you seeing things out. It's a good thing!

Especially considering this is paired with with world. The world is all about completion and that's what you're doing here is finding completion. You are seeing things out until the end but you just need to learn to give up some responsibility, lessen your burden.

This also talks about hard work being put into wider social spheres as well. Things like the vaccines becoming more widespread through the whole globe or at least better planing and infrastructures not related to covid. Things are looking up!

September for BTS

Knight of swords reverse

This bad boi is restless energy. It's being so pent up that you're ready to burst and you really want to take action but you can't because something is keeping you from taking that action. Again I do think this is kinda covid related in regards to touring bc if they do tour in 2021 its gonna look a lot different. This energy can be a bit impulsive and directionless so I think maybe they'll channel this into album material something? I'm not really sure tbh. I'm suprised this energy didn't show up earlier because it almost seems inevitable.

September: no clue

October for the collective

Ten of coins and the star reverse.

Welp let's start with the 10 of coins. Its about wealth, financial security, and long term success so this is a pretty prosperous time. This talks about the obvious monetary wealth and material wealth but also an abundance of opportunities. So this is definitely a good time to enjoy whatever consistency you have. This energy is really really abundant in the career space as well. So October could be very prosperous in the job field and you'll have likely found what it is you really want and could be successful at. This could be the actual act or just the idea. This is could also talk about investing in something for your future, this could be time or money.

With the star reversed it can talk about a loss of faith and a disconnection. This often points to feeling like you've just been forgotten or left out. Like the universe doesn't give a shit about you and left you out to die. Things might seem unfair but always try to look for the lesson that you can take from the experience. Seeing the 10 of coins and the star makes me think that a lot of people have kinda lost faith in their manifestations and also just in the concept of not living in a state of need. Especially if you see other people doing well and you've been trying so fucking hard but you haven't gotten a break. I know we hate to hear it but this can serve as a test of faith. Or rather an opportunity to get your shit in line and take a second to breath. Do something good for yourself and then continue on. This star in reverse serves to show you what no longer sparks joy and helps you find what does and what that initial spark was in the first place. Helps you get back to the original vision/ spark.

October for BTS

5 of pentacles reverse.

This signals the end of difficult times and getting that groove back. The last month was restless energy with no where to go but this month that energy is certainly put to good use. They might be figuring out what has been missing In their lives and starting to rectify that. They are definitely reminded that material wealth doesn't bring spiritual or emotional wealth. Might be also feeling a bit alienated too.

October: something is likely but idk

November for collective

Six of swords reversed and the moon.

Transition and change is prevalent. The 6 of swords is about leaving behind the familiar. Maune this is leaving a job, a new change in the status quo, leaving a relationship ect. The thing you have to keep in mind is just how amazing this is in terms of what it will do. It will alow growth!! And bring clarity!! Thos can also be societal as well, something being left behind in favor of something new. It's letting go and reflecting so that you can move foward.

This is strengthened by the moon card. The moon card is the subconscious and all the things that come with it. The anxiety, the illusion, the uncertainty. You'll want to deal with whatever emotions come up. The moon can signify a confusing time where things aren't what they seem to be. That's the illusions so you'll have rely more on intuition at a time like this. Your dreams might hold significance in this time as well. Listen to your guides and your own guidance because it will help you understand more than you did before this journey began. Using moon cycles to your advantage in November might really help you!!

November for BTS

7 of wands

Challenge and competition. People are envious of bts. We know this. But people will be challenging them for what they've gained: music industry domination. This might co.e in the way that people will spread vicious rumors in attempt to disenfanchise or possibly it will be a fair fight. It could also be a challenge/ battle for some other aspect that involves legal matters.

My best guess though is good old competition. Bts has proven again and again that they will continue to do what they do how they do but they will not be trampled over. In the best way this could renew some of that spirit in friendly competition. They will tear eachothers throats out for a pack of ramen so maybe a bit of competition will be good for them. It keeps life intresting.

November: nothin

December for the collective

Two of cups and the emperor!

Let's start off with the emperor card talks about stability and order. It can also signify being the "breadwinner" so its a good sign that you'll kinda be on top of your shit. The emperor is also an amazing leader so you might find yourself taking on a leadership role too! This is very organized energy that works very smoothly!

two of cups is such a lovely way to end out the year! It's love and partnership and attraction so if you aren't in a relationship by this time you might meet someone who strikes your fancy!! On a none romantic relationship note though, this card is also great for business partnership bc it signifies that you're on the same page and have the same goals in mind!

It's harmonious relationships and trust between them!! Love love love this energy so much! Cups are the suit of emotions and this card is so promising.

If you are in a relationship, this can talk about "falling in love all over again" like you're just reminded of how good they are.

December for BTS

Queen of cups

Intuition, creativity and emotional stability. They're using intuition to guide their moves foward with emotional maturity. They are in a place of knowing what they want and why. This would be a good time to work on an album or a book or to release them. The queen of cups is like the friend that you can tell absolutely anything and somehow they have a helpful answer. This card is really calm and it can also talk about subconscious thoughts.

I think that bts is maybe making more of a conscious effort to make sure that what they do is just as emotionally fulfilling for them as it is for us! They might be kinda pondering the future at this time and considering if this is what fills their emotional cup!

December: possibly a thing?

Now these cards are the vibe of the year and some advice.

For the collective (on the left)

Three of swords and judgment reverse.

The fortune says "accept the challenges, so that you may feel the exhilaration of victory"

The 3 of swords is about disappointment and hurt and heartbreak. It's about the emotional release that we all need when shit gets tough. Don't pretend to be strong. If you need to cry, fucking cry. This year is about letting go of expectations and do what you have to do to release so you can move foward and not have these things pile up.

You have to make an effort to not let yourself take on what other people think of you. You aren't defined by what some asshole says. You define yourself.

Judgment reverse is about self doubt and ignoring your path. It's being stagnant and being harsh on yourself. This year has a focus on building yourself up and noticing when you are not. Bring light to the things that are holding you back without harsh judgment for yourself. You can't beat yourself up. If you make a bad decision you know not to make it again. Take accountability and move on.

The oracle card is inner temple.

Seriously all the focus of this year is in self improvement and dear god, please take time to work on yourself spiritually!!! Everything you want to know is there if you take the time to listen. This should be a place where you feel safe and welcome. It definitely should not feel like something you HAVE to do.

For BTS

10 of swords and page of swords

The fortune says "you create your own stage. The audience is waiting" (how tje fuck?? This is the perfect fortune)

The 10 of swords is a painful but necessary end. This is accepting the current situation. They maintain focus for 2021 for them is adapting and keeping their spirits up.

With the page of swords it talks about new ideas and that kind of creativity. It's also a lot about communication so I really think that they'll be figuring out new ways to connect and new projects that will be prosperous.

The oracle card is Pleiades

This is what we talk about all the time. Bts has helped so many people want to be better and do better. They are uplifting humanity and giving people a sense if belonging. Bts finds you when you need them most 💜💜💜

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Wow I had to write this up over 2 days bc this was so fucking long. I need a nap. Idk if I'll proof read this before I post it so don't hate me for the mistakes (honestly, there's like 10,000 spelling and grammar mistakes in my other posts too 🙃)

I hope you guys enjoyed it and maybe this will be helpful to to have a forecast of some possible energy for you to look out for!!

Also bts bc I love them. I have another bts 2021 reading I'll do soon too!

Hope you guys are happy and well 💜

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brightside-brigade · 2 years

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But. Like. He's just. Everything to me in like. Every single way ever. We met when I had first joined the trainee Corps. We're actually only a couple years apart given he's a lot younger in our timeline.

I was actually afraid of him at first, but that's because I was half asleep during line up and when I opened my eyes he was just. There??? I think it was outfit inspection time. As I said I was half asleep I have no idea what was going on, he's what I remember clearly. We finally started coming to terms with things after he found me wandering alone at night because I couldn't sleep, and let me sleep on the floor in his room. I did not stay on the floor. Nothing else happened that night but it was still significant.

I still... can't comprehend the fact that he chose me. Now, when it comes to him that's a bit different. We're all Poly and such, and his.. ehem, job means he's been with many. An thats fine. But, the thing is, within his bloodline, there's a kind of. Buried trigger instinct. The history of it is very dark and such. However over the years the Ackermans learned to control it. They're already of super soldier strength, speed, ability, ect in battle. However, the instinct causes them to imprint on one other person, who becomes their charge. This forever links them together, and they will always have an idea of the charges feelings, location, if they're in danger, ect. It also boosts their already high abilities to far beyond when fighting to defend them.

And. He chose me. Not any of the others. Me. He took me. Which is another reason our dynamic is what it is I suppose. Which is... very meaningful to me. And very helpful. I don't know if any of you have noticed but am a bit of a disaster and need a little help. Having some rules set, ie; eat at least twice a day, take my meds, no SH, ect, is very helpful.

Hes always been so kind to me despite how cold he seems outwardly. I remember once he brought me food the morning after the night he noticed I hadn't eaten after training. He'd never even offer scraps to the others. That was the first time he ever hugged me, actually. I can't explain how safe I felt for the first time in years. His warmth, the strength in his body, his energy, all overwhelming my other senses and putting everything at ease.

He listens to me, comforts me, he helps me fall asleep at night. I don't know where I'd be without him. Or if I would have made it. But.. I did.

Hes also ehm.. very nice to look at in general. His hair catches the light, his eyes are so deep despite being such a cold, hard, color, if you know how to look that is. His frame is lithe, but muscular, a testament to years of training and hard work, and deep scars that tell of struggles overcome. That's what scars mean after all. That you lived.

I feel so small compared to him. But in a good way. He's always there. He's looking over and protecting me. I'll always be safe, and loved, and cared for.

TW for more... mature content below cut. Nothing graphic, but may cause discomfort

and, by extent, he's made sure to make it known that I am his only, even though we both have other partners.

Hes given me two different brands, both on my back, which, if I remember correctly, come with protection enchantments. I've been collared as well, with the most expensive looking thing ever, no less. A beautiful spun gold fabric, with a large heart cut of pink diamond as the charm, the ring being made of fine silver ... tbh I wouldn't be surprised if he stole it. But I don't mind.

I belong to him. He is above me. This actually makes me feel incredibly comforted and safe, despite what some may say. It's extra security and guidance I need, and we both enjoy the set up.

I just. Can't get over how. Fucking lucky I got. I don't understand. But I'm not complaining. I'm never complaining.

#pearl posting #aot kin #snk kin #fictonkin #spiritual kin #Aot #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #levi ackerman #aot fluff #levi fluff

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friendlytrees · 5 years

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Sweet Dreams

Clint BartonXreader!

Summary: Clint has been having many strange dreams lately and they all involve the same girl. On "open house" day for the avengers to recruit new ones, he sees the girl from his dreams.

Word count: 3.6k

•multiple avengers placed into the story and made up characters

Warnings: slight profanity, the tiniest bit of smut, angst.

Destroyed buildings, dead bodies of fallen soldiers, and her. She would always be there in his dreams, it's like she is the angel of death. Every night Clint Barton goes to bed his vivid dreams begin to take their course. They always end in one way, Clint dying or getting critically injured. The girl however, she is the one hurting him. Crushing him with an object, blasting him from afar, and slicing his neck, and more. After he died she would walk up to him say something but he couldn't make out the words.

"I think he's having another one of his dreams" Nat says holding a cup of coffee watching over Clint

"aren't you gonna wake him up? I don't think watching him is the best idea" wanda says with a concerned look "I could give him a happy dream, just say the magic words" she says as she waves her hands

Nat takes a long pause as she collects her thoughts. "Ok, you can give him a good dream as long as im in it" she says with a smile

Wanda nods her head and proceeded to give Clint the dream he deserves instead of him having a nightmare.

It's morning, Clint opens his eyes confused. He sits up and sits at the edge of the bed stretching his arms. He gets up and goes to grab his toothbrush from the bathroom before he is interrupted by nat standing in the doorway

"so how did you sleep"

"I slept pretty good surprisingly, it's been a while since I've had such a good dream" he says as he puts toothpaste on his toothbrush and begins to brush his teeth.

As he brushes he then realizes that it was open house day and his room was an absolute shit show. He takes an hour to clean before getting dressed and going to meet everyone in the kitchen.

When he walks down stairs he can see everyone looking very tired and staring at him angrily. All of them holding pillows

"Barton, you need to learn to control yourself!" Lang says as he throws his pillow at Clint only missing him by an jnch

"what did I do??! I didn't have another nightmare did I??"

"oh it DEFINITELY wasn't a nightmare" tony says scoffing at barton "do you know how loud you were? we could hear you from outside, no OUTER SPACE." tony then stands up and goes in front of Clint and begins to talk quieter "Barton, buddy look, I understand you have your little sexual fantasies and whatever but you need to keep it down so the rest of us can sleep" tony then Pat's his shoulder and walks away

"fantasies? What fantasies?"

he then remembers a very vivid part of his dream where he has sex with ... Nat. He wasn't grossed out by the idea but he wasn't happy with it either. He then heads over to Natasha who is drinking a cup of coffee.

"did you know?"

"did I know what?" She says with a smirk

"you totally did know! That's why you asked about my dream!" He says laughing

"I had Wanda help you out with your dreams and she helped you out a little too much"

They share a few laughs before getting stopped by Steve he called a group meeting. All the avengers, even Peter Parker, head over to sit down at the table or stand around it to listen to what Cap has to say

"alright guys, so today is the open house and I just wanted to make sure everyone was prepared to meet potential avengers. There are a few rules I made so nothing gets out of hand while they are here" he hands out little pamphlets saying 'welcome!' on the front to hand to the potentials. "When the potentials get here I am going to pair you up with one of them and then you give them the pamphlet. Is that clear? Do I have to explain anything else"

Peter raises his hand

"yes Peter"

"so,,, I can get a partner too?"

"no actually you will be greeting everyone at the door and sadly I'll be showing some moves to the potentials and I need your help"

"um sir why is that sad?"

"because I'm going to kick your ass,, anyway with that being said I dismiss you all, the potentials will be here shortly"

Peter stands there with a worried look on his face before being dragged out by Sam and bucky telling him not to worry.

Clint stands in the training room with the other avenges all lined up and turned to face the door to get partnered up. A long black limo then arrives and tons of potentials come piling out and start heading to the door being held open by spidey, in his suit of course.

"welcome! potentials, this is the new HQ for the avengers and you have all been chosen to 'test your might' in the training room. And if you make it past the first cut you'll have a simulated mission and the 2 best potentials shall train with us for a while and join the team!" Cap says with a big grin

"now I'm going to have you pull a random number out this bin and that's your partner"

Clint can see each potential grabbing a piece of paper hoping the person he gets is cool.

He then sees a girl, she seems very familiar but he can't pin point why. She starts to walk over into the room asking everyone what number they have.

"over here!" Nat says waving her hand to the girl "lucky you, you have the best person in the room"

The girl laughs and it makes Clint feel uneasy and when he hears her speak he can almost remember where he has seen her

"hi I'm y/n, do I have to disclose any special abilities I have to you?"

"oh here I almost forgot" Nat hands her the pamphlet cap made "these are all of the rules you need to follow and information you need" she smiles "and yes it would be important to know of your abilities"

"in that case I am able to manipulate the air and turn it into any solid object I want and manipulate the mind"

And with that being said Clint stares widely at the ground and looks up at y/n. she catches him staring and he quickly averts his eyes to a blue kree potential walking towards him.

"hi I'm Erik, do you have a pamphlet for me?"

"oh here you go" he hands him the pamphlet and begins to tell him some of the rules while glancing at y/n every few seconds

Cap then goes up front with Peter to show the potentials some new moves. Steve did great of course peter, not so much.

"it's now your time to train with the potentials, have fun, don't go to Easy on them" he says walking out with Peter limping

Clint goes to look over at Erik and signals him to get into fighting position but he seems confused.

"come on kid get in position" Clint says laughing

"oh" Erik says as he gets in a stance that looks like he is getting ready to do a squat

"no kid look, here is what you do. You put your arms up like you're gonna throw a punch and put one leg back and bend your knees"

The kid repositions himself and then looks up to smile at him. Clint can already tell this kid is gonna need alot of work.

An hour or 2 goes by and the next part of open house is to bond with your potential, so Clint and Erik went into a living room area and talked for a bit.

"I am very excited to become an avenger, it's been my dream since forever"

"oh I forgot to ask, what powers do you have?"

"I can speak to people in their head as long as I've seen them"

"so, you're telepathic?"

"yes, haha my parents, who are kree, came here and had to disguise themselves to blend in. We don't go out much. But yes my parents were so confused on how I got these powers they had me-"

Clint kind of just nods his head listening to the potential speak most of the time explaining how he grew up on Earth and seeing avengers saving the world and blah blah blah. All Clint was worried about was y/n. He couldn't get her out of his head, literally. His best bet was to just ask Erik about her.

"hey uhh, do you know anything about that girl over there" he then points to y/n chatting it up with Natasha

"ahh yes, y/n" he takes a bit of a pause "she can be a bit of a handful. Um, she grew in a rough life her parents were mutants in xmen but they went rogue and we're shot with multiple arrows and died so she actually grew up with me. She doesn't like telling people though so don't bring it up"

"yeah thanks for that,, but does she do anything to your dreams"

"oh all the time. She loves to give me nightmares and when I wake up she would just lay in the bed next to me laughing"

Clint didn't say anything and he kind of just glared at y/n until she made eye contact with him. He didn't turn away. The look on her face was filled with a bit of terror but also relief. Like she didn't have to hide anything anymore. Then Nat came over to us.

"hey guys have you met my amazing potential y/n" she said excited

"no I haven't" he stood up "my name is Clint Barton, nice to meet you" he held out his hand to shake hers

She shook his hand and smiled slightly with a nervous look on her face

Steve Rogers then came in to assign all the potentials rooms that made the cut in the training room

" as I watched you all fight through the cameras and in person, me and another person have voted on who stays and who goes. Out of the 15 that showed up, only 7 made the cut. All the names I call are safe. Natasha, Scott Lang, Tony, Thor, Rhodey, Sam, and Clint. Alright now everyone that made it follow me and everyone else, thank you for coming and always keep working hard, tony will see you out."

And with that Steve walked off with the potentials and Clint was left with nat.

"that girl you're partnered with is the one giving me nightmares"

Natasha then looks over at Clint with her eyes widened and a confused look on her face "excuse me what"

Clint then nods his head while Nat is trying to comprehend the situation.

"how is she giving you nightmares she hasn't even seen you before. Want me to get her kicked out"

"no no don't do anything, I'll talk to her myself"

after that conversation he headed back to his room to get ready for bed.

As he closed his eyes the nightmare soon took place. He was in an abandoned building with skeletons and dead avengers everywhere. He can hear footsteps coming towards him, it was her. She came closer and closer until she was close enough to grab his neck.

"why did you do it. Why did you kill them" she says as she looks like she is going to cry.

"i had to" he says as he struggles to get loose from y/n

"that's the wrong answer" she grips tighter and tighter

Nat would give him tips on how to wake himself up during a bad dream because they would scare her sometimes and she can't watch him 24/7, so he thought it was the time to try it. It worked.

He popped up out of bed gripping y/ns neck then he eventually let go once he saw her tear up. After he let go he sat down on his bed looking at her catch her breath.

"why. Why hunt me down, try out for the avengers and kill me."

"you killed my parents" she says still gripping her neck

Clint kind of laughs at her comment and then goes back to having a Stern look on his face "are you serious? Do you know who your parents are?"

Y/n stands there in silence looking at Clint then at the ground not knowing what to say "you took them away from me"

"if they loved you, they wouldn't have given you such a hard life." He paused and looked at the ground " your parents, yes they were in heros but they found their way to hydra. They thought he was the best bet for the world. They killed and tortured so many people y/n. I had to kill them"

He can hear her beginning to cry and he doesn't really know what to do. Was he really going to comfort the girl that tried to kill him 10 minutes ago? Yeah

"look just sit next to me, we can talk this out"

She slowly walked over to sit on the edge of the bed with him. She then hugged him and started bawling her eyes out on his chest. She noticed how firm it was and how built he was. But all he could think about is trying to get her to stop the nightmares.

After y/n cried she looked up at Clint, they stared at each other for a while

She then leaned in for a kiss

"what are you doing" Clint says as he breaks the kiss

Y/n looks at him teary eyed and covers her mouth thinking about how much she wanted to take it back

"im- I'm so sorry. I should go I shouldn't even be in here right now. I'm so sorry" she gets up and tries to walk out the room before Clint grabs her arm. "No you don't have to go, I was just caught off guard. First you try to kill me and then kiss me. So much happened in those few minutes and I just needed to process"

She nods telling him she understands. As they both stand in the middle of his room they look at the floor until y/n goes in for a hug. It was comforting and warm to let Clint know she was ok. It lasted a while.

"so,,, about my dreams" he whispers in her ear "

"don't worry, it won't happen anymore"

She then smiles at Clint and heads out the room

Clint's wakes up bright and early thanks to cap bursting into his room with Tony to wake him up for the simulated mission with Erik. Clint heads out the door heading to the simulation room.

when he gets there Erik is already there waiting for him.

"hey Clint! I've been practicing hard all night I can't wait to work with you"

"don't get too excited"

Erik had a dazed and confused look on his face from bartons comment.

Soon enough all the team members gathered in front of simulation room. Each team would go in one by one doing a battle again some sort of villain. Steve had taught them about all the villains yesterday when he showed them to their rooms.

"all right now this is the last test you will have to see if you make it into the avengers. Last night I gave you a folder of a villain and their weakness. The villains I gave you are going to be. Good luck"

"first up is Lang's potential" tony says

Scott sends his potential in there and he did not so good. He just about got his ass beat. After him it was Clint's turn. He sends the blue boy in there and waits to see what villain he gets. It's Ronan. Of course Steve would give him a villain the same race he was.

As Clint watched he noticed that Erik's form was better but Ronan taunted him like he does everyone.

"I killed many of our kind, join me, join me in killing off the rest of us, like your dear parents"

"shut up!" He ran at Ronan trying to dodge his attacks. He was hit a few times but he kept going. It was about 20-30 min fight before cap ended it.

Up next was Rhodey, then tony, then Sam, Thor and finally it was Nat. Clint had been waiting to see y/n fight Because he had high hopes for her. She stepped in and when Steve started the simulation, Ultron was her villain. Clint and Erik could see the fear in her face.

"hello sweet girl, I knew your parents. their lives were so boring without me so I took them, we became so strong. Too bad they died, well not really they started getting soft on me."

Her eyes watered but she didn't let him get to her, she fought and fought up until the 30 min mark then Steve had to end it.

"Hey, good job in there" Clint said as she walked out. She thanked him and quickly rushed to the bathroom

Steve then reviews everyone's scores on their simulation and makes an announcement. "Ok everyone can I have your attention. I have added up the highest scores and the names I say will be safe. Before I say them I just want to say it was great working with everyone and we appreciate you trying out. Ok so the two people are, Erik and y/n! Congratulations you two are now official avengers."

Everyone clapped and cheered and the losing potentials were shown out by their teammate.

After everyone left Clint was exhausted, even though he did nothing, so he went to his room to shower and sleep. He got out the shower and was soon interupted by y/n entering his room

"omg I'm so sorry I didn't know you only had a towel on" she said covering her eyes

"it's fine, but can you turn around so I can get dressed"

She nodded and she heard him drop his towel. She was very tempted to look, so she did and all she caught was a glimpse of his butt as he pulled up his boxers.

He turns around and sees her looking "how long have you been staring!" He walks up to her as she laughs "only a few seconds I swear" when she stops laughing she realizes he's shirtless and blushes a little but Clint didn't see.

After the laughter dies down Clint asks y/n why she is in his room

"oh I just wanted to say thank you again for saying I did good in the simulation room" he smiles and says no problem. There is then more silence while they both stand in the middle of the room.

"is that all?" He says

She stares at him and looks at him for a moment

The next thing you know y/n pressed her lips against Clint's once again, this time he doesn't pull away. y/n rubs her fingers through clints slightly damp hair as she locks lips with the marksman. His hand is around her waist, massaging her back as they continue the passionate kiss. Clint begins to get more into the kiss and pushes y/n against the wall then gripping on her ass slightly. Her hands are on his back almost digging into his skin. He soon signals to take off her shirt revealing her lacey bra. She then wrapped her legs around Clint and he carried her to his bed, laying her down so he is able to take off her jeans. He then goes back to her soft bruised lips, then her neck, stomach and when he was making his way further down she she stopped him

"what's wrong" he says eager to continue

"nothing, it's just,,, I think we should wait to do this. Maybe go on an actual date first." She said as she hoped she didn't kill the mood

"I understand, we can wait." He moves up and goes back to her lips to give her one final kiss "so are you sleeping in here" y/n then nods and he goes to his closet and grabs an large shirt for her to wear to bed.

The two then lay there under the covers, Clint holding her in his arms "goodnight" he says to her kissing her forehead. Y/n then says "Sweet dreams" as she kisses his cheek.

#clintasha #clint #clint barton #avengers #marvel #clintxreader #fanfic #fanfiction #steve rogers #tony stark #natasha #black widow #xmen #×reader #xreader #superhero #avengers x y/n #marvel x y/n #hawkeye

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into-crazy · 3 years

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Des ~ 💙💙💙 omg darling I really miss you!!! How are you? How is everything? Are you okay?🥰🌸I'm so sorry that you've been so busy recently; take good care of you!!!💗😭Thank you so so so much for the parental F/O questions too!!!! Your questions are never annoying or too much and I'll respond to them soon omg thank you🥺🥺🥺while I'm here, consider this an invitation to gush about any of your F/Os as much as you want to (if you want to)!!!💜💜💜💜I love you so much angel omg please look after you!🤗💕💕💕

Erika !!🥺😭💖💖~

Oh my, HII SWEET FAWN!!💜💜 How is everything with you? How are you doing? I sure hope that you are doing alright and taking really good care of yourself. You mean so much to me and you deserve all the best darling💙💙💙 Oh yes, I have been very busy. But please don't worry about me, my love. I'm doing just fine🥰 I will say that I am trying to take better care of myself.. but I will also admit that it's not my best lately. And I know, I know, I'm trying to work on it😭 You're so very welcome for the asks regarding your parental f/os, by the way!! I was really hoping that I didn't annoy or possibly overwhelm you by sending them in. So it makes me glad to know that I hadn't😌💕 I miss you and I love you so so much!!💗💕💗💕

An invitation to gush about my f/os? Really? For me??🥺😭😭❤❤ omgg THANK YOU SO MUCH LOVELY!! I've been meaning to gush about them for a while, so I'll certainly use this wonderful ask to finally do so!!🤭😭💖💖

Lots of f/o gushing under the cut🥰~

My King🥺❤ I mean- look at him😍😍 I absolutely love and adore everything about him!! He's very handsome and he's always so nicely dressed. We have such a strong and unique bond. Although I'm not quite certain how to describe it yet, still trying to figure most of it out. But I know for sure that we have a very deep and special connection. He makes me feel safe, the safest I've ever felt in a really long time. I could be having a very bad or difficult day, then just the mere thought of him is enough to bring me ease and comfort. King knows exactly how to make me feel better, and I always do my best in return when he needs it. Everything feels right when I am with him. Natural. Like we're truly meant to be together. We compliment each other. He fills my soul with genuine happiness, and I love him with all my heart. There's never a moment in which I doubt that King's the one for me. Because he is. And he always will be.

My King, you will forever hold a place in my heart. I give my all to you. My bounty hunter. My gunslinger. Mi amor. Mi vida. Te amo con todo mi corazón❤

J 💜💜💜 Ah man, where do I even start with him? Sheesh, so I guess I'll start with saying that I've known him for years. Well over half my life!! Yeah.. he's been with me for a very long time. He's just stuck around, been there. Especially when I've needed him. Although, we haven't been together in the way that we are now until I was old enough to truly realize and comprehend my feelings for him. So when that time finally came, everything made sense. He is apart of my life, and he'll always be with me no matter what. I don't know how or why he puts up with me, considering that his patience can be incredibly slim at times. But he does, and he's stayed, and for that I couldn't love him more. He knows how deeply I love him and how devoted I am to him. I completely understand that he doesn't(probably never will) love me, and I have accepted it. I don't need him to tell me he loves me. Not when his actions tell me everything I need to know. He adores, appreciates, wants, protects, and takes care of me. Of course, he'll joke around and say things like I'm "lucky that he likes me" or "tolerates me." But I'm a lot smarter than that, and he knows it. I know the truth. And that's really all I, rather we, ever need.

I can't wait to see you J!! Hope you're having lots of fun out there, wreaking havoc and annoying Bats. I miss you and I'll be here when you get back❤

Oh my precious baby🥺❤ Every time I think about Arthur my heart fills with both a lot of love and sadness. Because he deserved so much better. He really just wanted to bring nothing but happiness to the world around him, and all he would've loved in return was some acceptance and recognition. Except those around him not only rejected his offer, but spat in his face and beat him further down. He has never received love, appreciation, affection, or support and I just want to give him all of that and more. I felt for him even before the movie came out back in October 2019(whew, how time flies. It feels like just yesterday I watched it in the theater for the first time!!) And after I saw the film, I knew I was going to love him for a long long time. Even, well actually, I should say especially Joker!! To me, they are one in the same. He offers a love that's so tender and genuine. It's truly stunning to not only witness, but to also receive. He lavishes me in so much of it and I can never get enough!! We take really good care of each other. He's always there with a gentle embrace for me when I need him. I always let him know how loved and appreciated he is. Especially on the days which he needs a little extra reminding.

I love you so much, Arthur. You mean the absolute world to me. Come back to me soon so I can continue to show you how much I love and adore you❤

David Loki🥺🥰 I love him so much. I have a strong urge to just love and take care of him so badly. He may seem a bit cold and heartless upon first glance. But in reality, he's actually very caring and he's such a sweetheart. It's just that his job as a detective is very stressful, and it can get super intense sometimes. All he ever does is work, and it's clearly takes a toll on him. Which is why I always make sure to be there for him when he needs me. With open arms and lots of love to give. At first, he wouldn't really open up to me like I did with him. But I was very patient and understanding. With time, he started to opening up to me more and our bond grew a lot stronger. On the days that I'm feeling down, he's there to hold me for however long I need. I adore how I don't always have to tell him what's bothering me right away. He'll wait there with me in his arms until I am ready to tell him. The life we share together is not always easy, since we both have our moments, but it certainly is nice and blissful. So warm and cozy are we when we're together. We love and care for each other very much, and we wouldn't trade any of it for the world❤

I am so deeply in love with Quentin😍 He makes my heart go whoosh🥰💗 Every time he smiles, my mind just goes blank. Especially when he smiles at me, ughh I melt like a freaking popsicle. Sure, he's a total drama queen and a narcissistic asshole. But he is a total sweetheart to me. He's everything I could ever love and want. I met him before he was known to the world as Mysterio, when he was just Quentin Beck. That was the man I fell in love with. We both speak fluent sarcasm and we get along very well. He showers me in lots of love and affection, making even the toughest of days a million times better. His hugs are so warm and soothing- I'd live in his arms forever if I could. I love listening to him talk, I could listen to him talk for hours. Quentin has so many pet names for me- honey, angel, baby, babygirl, darling, princess/princesa, pumpkin, sweetheart, love, sugar.. It's ridiculous, but also so damn sweet. I blush every single time he calls me by one. Of course, every now and then we may come to a disagreement. There may be arguments, and he can be pretty cruel sometimes. But we always resolve our differences and move past them. He would do anything for me, just as I would do for him. And we'll always love and protect each other❤

Penny😍❤❤ I love my tall, gross and slobbery boy so freaking much😭🥰 I'll admit, Pennywise was a f/o that I did not expect myself to have. At first, it was just an extreme sexual attraction. That's what it had been for a while, and man was I in it bad. But after some time, I've come to love and care about him. He decided that I was his, and I was more than okay with that. He's very tall, so he towers over me. I have to practically jump to give him a kiss!! Though when he's feeling generous, he will bend down a bit so that I can kiss him and I find that notion very sweet. He's quite eccentric, and he could always make a dull moment interesting. It amuses him just how small I am compared to him, and he tends to tease me about it. Penny is also extremely protective over me, like to the max!! He would do anything to make sure I am okay. There are times where he acts like a complete child(you are what you eat hahaha) which result in arguments. Sometimes these arguments can get heated, but Penny will stop himself so the situation doesn't escalate into something either of us would regret. I know exactly what he's capable of, which is why I never try to push it with him. But I also won't let him push me over when he's feeling mean. With time though, we always make up. At the end of the day, I love him. And he realizes how much he cares for and cherishes me. We have a strong and powerful bond. Nothing could break what we have❤

#am I doing this gushing thing right??#may have gotten a little too personal with these #also Erika I am so sorry that this took me so long😭#I haven't felt connected with my f/os for a while #and this really helped me get some of that connection back

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Ok wait! I had to pause after I read your beautiful story. Thank you for sharing it with me (and all the other people who took the time to read it). 💕 I'm so sorry you had to go through such tough times. But, without them, you wouldn't have been a moa (at least maybe?). And, the fandom is extremely lucky to have you in it. You create GORGEOUS content. As I told you before, I am in love with your stuff. 💗 I can't put my love into words but (a little hint about who I am -if you know who I am, please don't blow my cover and pretend you have no idea -: I always leave compliments about your stuff whenever I reblog it 😍) I want you to know you'll have to pay for all my dentist appointments with how many times my jaw dropped to the floor because of your beautiful gifs/edits/gfx.

With that said, I am happy you found a group (and especially a certain member hehe) that helped you through some of your darkest moments in life. I can relate to that with my faves (txt is climbing that list way too quickly for me to comprehend). Sometimes, you don't have the best of days, but listening to your fave's songs or watching their variety show appearances can brighten your day and help you forget about the sadness/anger, etc.

I can tell how much you love yeonjun with the way you're describing him. He was already my bias but your description made me fall in love with him even more. 💞 I truly hope you get to meet him one day. 💝 (*manifesting it while crossing my fingers*)

As for me, I was the same as you. I listened to their debut but didn't think much of it. I focused on my faves and it's only a few weeks ago that I truly became a moa. One of my best decisions ever. Amazing group, only release bops and some of the funniest dudes ever. 💖

Wow, I really wrote a novel, didn't I? Sorry about that. 😅

Another question: since you talked about your faves, who are they? I only know you like txt (from what I've seen on your blog), but I was wondering who are some of your other favorite artists.

hi love! first of all, i want to apologise for the late reply. work has been absolutely dreadful this week. so i haven’t had much time to come on here, unfortunately. i’m sorry 🥺 i hope you’ve been well 💛

please don’t apologise for writing a lot. i loved reading everything. you’re genuinely so nice, love. thank you for all of your nice comments. and you’re absolutely right. if it weren’t for all of that, i wouldn’t have become a moa for sure. so in a way, i’m also thankful. i’m happy you also find comfort in different groups. it’s so important to find something that gives us a little bit of joy when we need it the most. also very happy to see txt climb up your list ✨ deserved!

lastly, i’ll make sure to wire you the money for those dentist appointments if you promise me i can pay you for always making me feel tons happier after reading your messages. also, if i do ever get to meet yeonjun, i’ll be even more in debt to you 😭

about other artists that i enjoy: these days i’ve been listening to a lot of stayc! and i love the girls as well. they’re so cute. i’ve always been a big reveluv as well. i really like nct dream and the boyz too. also wjsn! then i listen to a lot of solo artists like crush, colde, bibi, baek yerin, all the antenna angels and all the plt artists, iu… i miss dean every day as well. what about you? if you don’t mind me asking ofc i’m curious as well 🥺

#sorry again love #this week was rough #honestly #replies

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itsedwardoz · 6 years

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How am I doing? Many years after 9/11

I get this question a lot from friends who care to acknowledge my feelings on this day every year. It's complicated. On the one hand I am doing ok, going about my normal routine. Happy go lucky, making people laugh, laughing at myself mostly. Keeping up with current events. Twittering, Facebooking and all that other social media crapola.

I am one of these people whose body has sensory memory. It always seems to start a few weeks before the anniversary. I have trouble sleeping. I wake sometimes thinking I am in a enclosed room and I can't see anything but blackness. Sometimes the white walls in my apartment at night would jolt me out of bed because I think I am in a cloud of smoke. I walk past a tree every morning on my way into work. Sometimes the leaves falling startle me for a second and then I laugh how silly I felt. The smell of something burning, like toast, sends chills though my spine. My mouth becomes rather dry, and I tend to feel the need to brush my teeth multiple times a day. In the evenings, when I am by myself, the silence at night feels deafening. I sometimes have to snap my fingers to verify I can hear small sounds. I can be fine one moment and then consumed with severe anxiety and panic attacks. My head will start to spin. Sometimes I have to pull over if I am driving. The sounds of airplanes taking off and landing are the worst.

I have been to several doctors in the past, and frankly the idea of taking any sort of anxiety pill scares me. I rely on breathing exercises and focusing on what is present at the moment. Every year it does get better. I have learned to deal with these feelings in a healthy way. I don't need to consume large quantities of food or drink myself into an oblivion.

I think about my family. How every year, they all pile in a van to drive to the memorial site and take part in the ceremony. They do this in honor of my cousin who did not make it out that day. I used to go to ground zero in the beginning, but every year it made me more bitter and angry. I used to think he had more to live for - that it should have been me. But that was not God's plan - at least for me. I really believe that now. I work on acceptance every day. It was hard to comprehend accepting anything so horrific. However, I learned that unless I accept my life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. Page 417* says it best.

I have so much to be grateful for today. I have my apartment, my job, my dogs, my car, food in the fridge, countless friends, and family who I check in with once in a while - I am still working on mending those fences. It's been hard letting go of resentments. Progress not perfection. Next week I will be in New York. It's been 4 years since I was there. Will I go to the memorial site? Honestly I don't know. I am going to play it by ear.

In conclusion, I just wanted to thank everyone who continue to check in with me and ask how I am doing. It is nice to know people have not forgotten those who were there that day - and also lost loved ones. All the phone calls, texts and IMs help tremendously. Thank you for always caring and especially taking time to read this note. It's part of my self-diagnosis, 2 cent, therapy exercise.

Peace!

*Acceptance is the answer to ALL of my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation- some fact of my life- unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God's world by mistake.

#september11 #911memorial #911 #9/11

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christinebloodwrittings · 2 years

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Briefly Instant (Part five)

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston x Reader

Warnings for this chapter: Alcoholism.

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TH Taglist: @lucky-foxface @lokisprettygirl22 @criticaltrinket @vbecker10 @huntress-artemiss

“May I be of assistance?” he approached the drunk lady, softly and calm, "Piss off" you blew him off, or at least tried to, "Perhaps I should, sadly for you, my mother taught me better” although you glared at him, he didn't gave up.

After denying you to have more drinks, you started to be calmer and he was able to scoop you up in his arms to get you out of the bar.

“I hope you don’t get mad at me, but you can’t possibly expect me to leave you there like this” carefully, he placed you in the passenger seat, had to hover over you to fasten the seatbelt, "You smell nice" you muttered, smiling softly.

"I do? I'm glad you find it pleasant" he caressed a lost tear that was rolling out of your eye, "What's wrong darling? Does something hurt?" He caressed your cheek, rubbing under your eyes with his thumbs.

"I'm jobless, my head feels like a spinning wheel, I would never put a glass in a cake!" You were sobbing, tears running down like a waterfall.

"Oh darling, come here love" he opened his arms and allowed you to hide your face in the crook of his neck, "How about you sleep a little? I'll take you to my hotel room, there you'll be able to get some rest" you nodded softly against his shoulder.

"Why are you being so sweet to me? Oh, you're going to kill me" he placed a kiss to your forehead, lightly brushing a few hairs off your face, "I will not, love, but if I didn't get you out of there someone might have done something worse" you relaxed, something about his voice was so calming and sexy.

"We're almost there my sweet" he whispered, gently taking your hand into his, realizing you were already asleep. How could a woman be so beautiful? You were so vulnerable and sad, he had to help, and after seeing you punch that guy with such strength and ease, the butterflies in his stomach become restless.

Each stroke his fingers did on your hand sent shivers up his arm and to his chest, it was a wonderful sensation. How your face relaxed with his mere touch and coos, he was glad he could bring you any comfort.

"Where am I?" You woke as soon as the car stopped, before he stepped out and unfastened the seatbelts, he ran a hand on your cheek to ease up your anxiety. "We are at the hotel, can you walk?" He offered his hand, which you took and attempted to stand but your knees weakened and almost fell, luckily he was fast to grab you.

"I'm going need you to jump, darling" he motioned upwards with his hand so you could understand. You did as he told, and he swooped you off your feet, cradling your limping body in his arms.

"Oh wow that...that was fast, and very tall" you seemed like a nervous puppy to him, you even grabbed onto his shoulders for support, "Keep your eyes closed love, we'll be upstairs soon" he felt you nuzzle your head against his chest, more electric sensations crawled down his body when your breath hit his neck.

You smelled so sweet, like cake, you hair smelled like lemon and your cheeks like biscuits, he wondered if you were an actual human, but he just thought that to joke around in his mind.

"Thank you" you muttered, feeling tired and dizzy, but you refused to vomit on the stranger, so you kept your eyes closed and focused on steadying your breathing.

"My pleasure darling. I can see your state, do you feel sick?" You nodded, just he pulled out the card for the room, the lector read it and opened the door.

"Hang on love, I'm going to take you to the restroom" he quickly walked, then bent down a little to allow you to walk to the toilet yourself, and as soon as you opened the lid you let out all what you could possibly have in your stomach.

The contractions were painful, your entire body was angry at you and you could feel it. He came closer to you and pulled up your hair in a high ponytail, then when he heard you sobbing in pain he felt absolutely useless, so he tried to comfort you rubbing your back up and down with his hand.

"You're doing excellent darling" he praised, but earned nothing but a groan and a muffled 'fuck off' which made him chuckle a little.

When you were sure there was nothing on your stomach your body fell against the wall behind you, "That fucking hurt” you breathed, keeping a hand to your throat. He knelt close to you, brushed lightly over your cheekbone to get you to turn your head to him, “Come” he helped you up and direction you to the sink, gave you a spare toothbrush, which you look at like it was weird.

“If you want I can brush your teeth myself” he grinned, “Fuck no” you said, grabbed the paste and cleaned your mouth, hearing him snicker. When you spit for the last time, he let you use his chest for support, and with a brush on his hand he undid the ponytail he had done and started to brush all the knots away.

You were purring against the contact, his light touches to your neck made you sigh in delight. “Look up” he used his hand to help you tilt your head up, “Hold a second” you felt him move your hair but you weren’t sure what was he did, then he whispered in your ear, “Done, feeling better my sweet?” you nodded groggily.

“Let’s get you to bed” you noticed the sheets were open on one side, you looked back at him with a sorrowful look, the same a child would have after seeing their favorite toy broken. “I’m taking the couch, so you can feel at ease in the morning, after all, I’m still a stranger to you” he explained softly, keeping a mental note of how cute you looked.

"Please don’t leave me! Don't leave me alone!" you quietly whimpered, his heart breaking at the sight. You were exactly like a little girl, you looked up at him innocently and hurt, he just couldn’t say no to you. You sat at the bed, opened the other side of the sheets and pat the space with a pout, “Very well my sweetest, I’ll be by your side, just give me a second to change okay?” you nodded, taking off your shoes.

He took his pajama pants and a lose shirt from under his pillow and went to the bathroom to change, when he came out you haven’t moved an inch from your sitting position, also he caught you staring, not at him, but at the bathroom door. “What’s wrong love?” he went around the bed, “I thought you weren’t coming back” his heart soared, in consequence he bit the inside of his cheek.

He was a mess, seeing you so scared, he wanted to wrap you in a blanket and hold you close while he showered you with kisses, “I’m not going anywhere, darling” he took your hand into his and pulled you gently to him, hooking his arm on your waist and another gently stroking your cheek, “I got you, I’m not leaving you” the lethargy washed over you, that and his hand massaging your scalp sent you to sleep.

Your face was against his neck, your breath constantly tickling his skin, but he felt at ease, comfortable, safe.

Until he woke up and you were gone.

There was no way to describe how he felt in the morning, other than betrayed and empathetic, because you weren't in your senses the night before, so it made sense to him that you ran away, woke up next to a stranger, maybe not even remembering anything about it. Or maybe you did remembered, but it was easier for you to escape and not have to deal with it when you were sober.

Hence the feeling of betrayal.

It was as if his heart had been ripped from his chest, you had only taken your things and left, you didn't even left a note, nothing. He felt like an abandoned woman after a night of sex filled with empty promises.

And then, after five years, he had you in front of him again, his theory had turned out to be true, you didn't remember anything that happened that night, if he was good at something, it was reading people, and ever since that day, he felt as if he just read the summary and was determined to read the whole book.

He knocked on your door after his conversation with Emma, somehow hopeful. “Yes?” he heard your sweet voice on the other side of the door, his chest clenched at your recent exchange at the beach, “You forgot your bag, I’ll leave it here” he placed it against your door, “By the way, I love Edgar Allan Poe, that’s a great choice” he referred to the book you had brought down with the expectative to read.

“Thank you…”

He sighed, ready to step away, but stopped on his tracks when the door opened. You didn't say anything, and you didn't need to, he felt you had every right to be upset, put his hands up as if pretending defeat and went to his room.

"Ah? I'm still here" you spoke, returning the cell phone to its position in your ear while dragging your back inside, "Baby, it seems weird to me that after you told me that you weren’t coming to celebrate with my family you went with Emma on vacation, you don't think it's unfair? I had to face my mother for you, I told her you couldn't come for work" he was right, but it’s not that you actually predicted it would happen.

“I'm sorry Oscar, really, but you know I don't have much choice when it comes to Emma, her grandmother died and she needed company, and besides, we already have our trip arranged, remember?” you asked seductively, “Indeed my love, so I’ll see you soon then” you hummed and said goodbye, “Oh, and before I forget, one of my buddies saw you at town, he’s a good friend of mine and he wanted to meet you” you didn’t expect such information, and less than one of his so mysterious friends was in the same place as you.

“What a small world” you laughed, feeling slightly uncomfortable, if he didn’t present you to his friends it must be because he was protecting you, right?

“Yeah, he can show you guys around, he lives in that zone” he was enthusiastic so you didn’t question him, “Great, give me his number and I will arrange something with…” he cut you off, “Oh don’t bother, I already gave him your number, he’ll be around tomorrow” you bit a little harshly your lip, “I don’t even know how he looks like Oscar, and you just can’t give off my number like that”.

“Oh this is him” It couldn’t fucking be, “Okay, gotta go, it’s a bit late here, I love you” he immediately hang up, as you stared in horror at the picture…it was the guy you punched at the bar.

“Shit”.

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