#I didn't cry tho and I feel kinda guilty abt that but I cried a bunch when I found out he passed so I think that made up for it

[benetnvsch]

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[loving-delusions]

vent?? i think... well, it's kinda positive ((getting something off my chest to irl friends and maybe to y'all as well))

but it's also a pretty heavy topic, so just mind the tags before reading under the cut

didn't give out candy for trick or treaters

but

i did go to a sleepover ((first time yaayy)) and we did some question and answer stuff

been feeling guilty about hiding my bad thoughts because i isolated myself from my friend group for nearly 6 months

felt even more bad about it bc they still invited me over despite all that

so i kinda confessed to them abt my suicidal thoughts and planned to do the thing way back in August 22 but never got through with it

and i cried in front of someone for the first time in over a decade yaaayy~

✨congrats to me for not crying in the darkness of my room for once lmao

i mean my cry sesh pretty quick, i cut myself off from crying more than a few minutes bc we're all sleep deprived and emotional in the buttfuck 3am

and i don't want them to focus on me much ((even tho they insisted to pause the game so i could calm down a bit. can't rlly do it since they keep saying nice stuff to me lol))

but still, nice lil achievement for me yayyayayay