#I have GERD btw

[planningisnotmystrength]

I have chronic stomach problems and that’s led to me having a weird relationship with food and eating in general but not always in a negative way. 

I have this weirdly anarchist approach to food sometimes. like, breakfast food is just food you eat for breakfast. only thing that sounds good is a cheeseburger? fuck it, we ball. you don’t feel like eating a whole meal? eat only snacky bits and random components, who gives a fuck?

as long as you’re checking the nutrition boxes and not inducing scurvy or anemia or something what does it matter if you eat waffles for dinner or spaghetti for breakfast? everything’s made up so you might as well make up a world where you’re not actively causing yourself harm for no good reason. 

[makingshortstorieslong]

ouch m.y tummy

[tarochimochi]

Loser’s parents, Failure and Prize

The theme today was cake meeting Loser’s family but that got me thinking. What about Loser’s family since Cake has a dad?

So meet Loser’s parents, Failure and Prize. He gets his cubeness and pattern from his dad, but his shiny ivoryness from his mom.

(Their not great people, don’t get attached to them)

So hc and lore below undercut!

I’ve been super fixated on writing about Loser and Winner lately because I think their such interesting characters and their so much untapped potential for them.

Trigger warning for internalized ableism, ableism, child neglect, child abandonment, and parental abuse.

I really love the idea that Winner and Loser are opposites in alot of ways. I read this absolutely lovely fanfiction here (Read the warning before you do) and it made me like the idea that while Loser was always the more popular one of the duo. Loser was always jealous of Winner for other things. (Btw for context Winner and Loser have been in the industry since they were really young, I’d say 8-10)

Winner has a mom who loves them for who they are and is always their to support them no matter what. She is their every step of the way for them, and is their biggest fan because they wanted to be in the industry. While Loser doesn’t hate being in the industry and actually likes it, he was more so forced into it by his dad with little interference from his mom. Everyone really loves him though because he has that natural charisma.

If Winner makes a mistake and gets down on themself, Winner’s mom is always on the set to comfort them and hang with them in the trailer. It’s rare if Loser’s parents show up, let alone would talk to him if he ever messed up. If they were on set though Loser would get the yelling of a lifetime from his dad.

Loser was jealous of how when they were younger, Winner could always do the cool action packed things. In my original Loser reference sheet, I stated that I headcanon Loser as being disabled but not specifically GERD, Fibromyalgia, Arrhythmia, and POTS. Let me tell you as someone who has three of those diseases, it is so painful sometimes. Loser can push through it, but his dad shames him for “Your co-star is doing better then you, fix that.” leading to his extreme internalized ableism in himself where he feels he can’t talk or show any weakness around others or people will not see him as the guy he sets himself up to be.

After Loser and Winner have their duo break up, his dad really emphasizes he thinks it’s his fault their little thing fell apart. On the flipside, he’s happy now that he “eliminated” what was holding him back.

Now where’s Loser’s mom during this? Being a bystander and not interfering with anything. Loser and his mom barely interacted even in his childhood.

I guess moral of today’s Losercake post is, after years he reconciles with Winner and is kinda just his new family now. Found family and all!

I have some more Loser’s parents writing ideas that I would love to speak about, but most of them come from the general experience of being Asian American and my headcanon of Loser being Wasian, and I don’t know if people want to hear that to much? Maybe another time!

Shoutout to my qpp btw

[jihyoruri]

okay I NEED to talk abt this bc richgirlyn is literally me FORREAL 

so uhh not the analysis I thought I’d be doing but I need to. the other one will be later 

ok tw for eds I guess like this is the entire analysis 

disclaimer. this is all my interpretation as well as my experience. I’ve had an issues w eating since 8 (almost twins!) and it’s been literal years. this is just what I think based on what I’VE seen and done as a girl. I know men can have ed’s but I will be talking abt it from my standpoint, which is hashtag girl. everyone’s experience is different.

key: ana=anorexia, ed=eating disorder 

Ive never dealt with real bulimia so take whatever I say with a grain of salt

okay. here’s why richgirlyn having an ed, specifically how she develops ana as she gets older makes a lot of sense (Ive had a fixation on eds and the way they affect the mind for so long..)

i feel like people forget just how genuinely maddening have an eating disorder is.

most of the time in movies they’re there for laughs and portrayed as “oh she just kinda throws up!”  (heathers, the musical) or “oh she wants to be skinny so bad she js doesn’t eat!” (mean girls) (I love both of them btw they’re just what come to mind)

like that is not what they are like AT ALL

eating disorders are some of the most deadly mental illness there is and because it mostly affects teenage girls and women people literally treat it like something not that serious or a joke it’s actually insane how people do not gaf about it

so anyway.

I feel like if children have issues with food they always start out thinking of purging

it makes sense! if you don’t want calories, just get rid of them.

obviously, it doesn’t work that way, and purging doesn’t even actually work well LMAO most of the calories are absorbed unless u throw up like the second food enters ur mouth like it is not foolproof at all.

but to a child it makes sense. the food is gone so you can’t gain weight

and when you’re a kid your gag reflex is way more sensitive so it’s way easier to vomit. when you get older it’s so much harder

bulimia is not really possible long term for idols because of its side effects which are:

erosion of tooth enamel making them appear clear other than white

sunken in, bulging eyes

swollen cheeks

hair loss 

GERD

also for the fact it doesn’t really help much with not absorbing the calories + the fact that it affects the appearance, which idols need to be perfect, + the fact that it affects your voice, which idols need, and also throwing up is difficult 

much more common in idols is anorexia.

so! actually the side effects of ana aren’t as noticeable if you’re not restricting a lot! at about 700-800 calories max a day I didn’t experience hair loss or getting spots on my skin

It was mostly that I was just tired all the time and kind of irritable. i never experienced any physical effects other than losing weight (didn’t lose much muscle bc most of the cals were protein and I worked out everyday)

anyway

richgirlyn definitely likes control.

we can see how control has been taken from her time and time again— mostly by her dad, making all the decisions while she doesn’t get a say, and later, how her members and the people around her treat her.

eds are about control more than looks. It’s the one safety net, the one thing you can always be good at.

when everything around you is falling apart— you can control what you eat. it’s like an accomplishment. look how low I got the number! I’m so good at this! I’m so disciplined!

It’s like. “no one could ever get as low as me”. It makes you weirdly competitive 

and obviously there’s pressure to be skinny as a trainee. It’s what half of your self worth is based on. so if you can control that? and punish yourself (because as we’ve discussed richgirlyn does NAWT like herself that much) while you’re at it? It’s literally gold

she practices and practices, trying to be good enough, the best, and she doesn’t want to eat. eating is kind of like admitting defeat and saying you’re weak and giving in to the need to have food. 

oh and y’all don’t KNOW what mommy issues do with an ed like.

if losing weight makes someone PROUD? oh you KNOW you’re dropping to size 0 trust like it’s actually insane. I can’t even explain the real insanity that comes with an ed it makes you actually crazy. you start becoming afraid of certain numbers because they look bigger even if it’s not how it works. ex: it’s better to eat 98 cal than 50 because 98 feels “smaller” like it’s CRAZY. the state of mind you have when you’re doing that is really seriously not normal like I know it’s obvious but people don’t GET IT. you become very obsessive and cagey over it like if you eat over a certain limit you will literally either break down or get up and go work out until you think you’re back under and the guilt eats you up inside. richgirlyn is SAUR MEEEE FOR REAL

so ANYWAY richgirlyn having an ed makes sense. specifically ana.

she likes control, she wants something to feel proud about (along with her singing and dancing and rapping abilities), it’s something her mom’s PRAISED HER FOR so you already KNOW when her mom is like “wowww you’ve lost weight!” she is like I’m gonna get so much worse.

and also there has to be a part of her that wants someone to worry. i know she hates being seen as weak but I just know minjeong saying smth like “oh I wondered how u stay thin it’s cause u js don’t eat” made her feel so validated because it’s proof that she’s sick and she’s not okay and she’s not making it up.

I’m very sure her being well off has completely fucked with the idea of her being “allowed” to feel negative emotions. like “I’m rich, I shouldn’t be sad” but with any negative emotion.

and I know she was getting better until she got put in le sserafim I just KNOW especially CURRENTLY?

the stress of her members disliking her makes her feel worse abt her self making her want more control and also there’s this very fucked up part of it where it’s like. the less I eat and the less space I take up the more they’ll like me, they won’t hurt me if they think I’m sick and fragile and GODDD that’s so her. she wants to be strong so bad but sometimes.

anyway it’s 1 am this isn’t a great analysis maybe I’ll circle back to this but I needed to talk about it

I love richgirlyn she’s witerwally me 

-🎏

It’s crazy that everything you just said is so correct like completely correct when it comes to richgirl!yn’s problems.

and because this has been going on since she was ten it’s just a normal routine for her all that girl does is try her best to become better, and because she knows that her image is something that her mother actually pays attention about her, so it’s rlly important to her.

even now that she’s an idol she doesn’t talk to her mom but there’s times when her mom will call her and be like “you look a little different.” and then she’s completely back in that cycle

[verinarin]

If my newest Ratio fic flops I’m going to cry myself to sleep since I wrote that while having one of my GERD stomachache, I only write angst when I’m sick lol, still am btw T-T

[astroz0mbie157]

my ocs + gerard way :3

btw ik i could have just got a filter out (for monochromatic version) and be like bam done but i didn't really want to tbh because i felt like colouring it in and stuff and it looks better imo also i didn't blend the shading cuz i liked it

gerd and speedpaint :33

[chronic-gastro-illness-culture]

not anything too serious,

my symptoms always get worse with stress, and when i’m about to go somewhere and have even the slightest symptom i get stressed about it happening while i’m out which then makes it worse, cycle repeats. recently this has led me to leave/cancel plans suddenly because i feel terrible and i panic about feeling awful while out and i’m worried my friends are starting to to resent me or that they will in the future

i never know if i should add in to these or if ppl just like talking into void but i thought id give u an affirmation n say i do think is p srs n that its the reality of chronic illness

stress is the #1 factor for all digestive disorders n most other chronic illness n stressing abt having a flare up at the wrong time is a part of chronic illness n it rlly sux bc it is like a self fulfilling prophecy n ppl do see it as a moral failing on the chronically ill persons behalf bc “well why do u have to be anxious abt it itll be fine” like its some sort of switch u can just turn off n on in ur mind

also ppl r a communal species n its nice having a support group n when ur going thru chronic stress n that chronic stress makes u sick n u develop a chronic illness if ur ppl start to leave u that can makes things worse bc now ur left to deal w all that stress on ur own which compounds the problem

but just bc ur worried abt ur support system leaving doesnt mean they will some ppl can be supportive n understanding

it can rlly suck to cancel plans bc it feels like the chronic illness is robbing u of ur life n enjoyment but just bc ur having a bad moment or bad episode doesnt mean thinks will be bad forever

one thing u can do is let ur friends know u appreciate them supporting u n being understanding of what ur going thru another thing u can do it make new plans if i have to cancel smth w friends sometimes we just change what we were gonna do if im feeling too bad to go out n am worried abt needing a bathroom randomly i usually invite them over to my place n we just chill in to make it up to them if they have a movie or show theyve been wanting me to watch ill watch it w them then lol but u might find ur friends r rlly supportive n thatll be less stress for u

it also helps making friends who also deal w similar issues i have a coworker friend who has lactose intolerance n ibs one friend also has gerd n one doesnt have a diagnosed stomach disorder but he has an anxiety disorder n his digestive system definitely is effected but we can all vent to each other n understand if someone needs to cancel or change plans or needs accommodations etc etc

thnx for ur ask btw i rambled a lot hahaha but u brought up important stuff abt chronic illness imho

[gentlenotes-moved]

So glad to hear that you finally have answers! I'm sure it's gonna make everything at least a bit easier to deal with! I hope that whichever plan of action your doctors now decide to take works quickly and without any problems for you. Beautiful souls like yours don't deserve to be in agony 😓😣

And don't you even dare feel guilty for not coming on Tumblr much now. Your health, physical and mental, is the most important thing!!!

(Me? I've been... existing 😅)

(also, I didn't realise we were mutuals until like a minute ago lol)

first of all, so sorry for the late response! and even if you are just existing, i hope that this existence is treating you gently and lovingly 💗 (and yeah! we're moots now yay!! <3)

but yeah, a definitive answer is really nice. a few days ago they actually sent in a letter saying: "visceral hypersensitivity/overactive nerves sending inappropriate signals to the brain. There is actually no acid reflux." he said it's best treated with low dosages of antidepressants. he also recommended me to get testing done for gastroparesis, and if that comes back "unremarkable", we'll focus treatments on functional dyspepsia.

i have noticed lately that i have had really bad brain fog, esp since this has all started. i've been having a really hard time concentrating, almost constantly fatigued, zone out a fuck ton more than i usually do, and am asking people to repeat themselves quite literally every time they speak, because it all sounds like absolute gibberish. also, (tmi warning), in the past 4 months, i have only had one (1) period that lasted one (1) day. one day. it wasn't even a heavy flow either. my last regular period was when the day this whole situation started, in late november. and i'm currently exactly 3 weeks late for one. like i get the cramps and everything that you get with a period, except the blood.

so... i think this whole brain and nerve thing is going a LOT deeper than just my dyspepsia like systems. i haven't brought any of this up to my doctor, but the next time i see her, i'm gonna. but i have no damn clue what i'm gonna do at this point tbh. (personal/family rant incoming)

my dad is one of those extremely die-hard conservative trumpers, and a MASSIVE conspiracy theorist (just search up qanon; it'll explain everything i'm about to tell you). he was extremely against me getting the endoscopy, saying that my mom and i didn't mention me getting anesthesia (i did mention multiple times throughout the week before I got it done bc he was so damn worried), and him and my mom fought the morning I got the endoscopy done, just before we left.

when we got back, it was absolute hell for about a week, for my mom and i both. he told me that we betrayed him and that someone 'gave me permission' to not follow his instruction (I am 18 when he tells me this btw). then he said that if my mom and i ever question his rules or instruction again, he'll leave us or, worse, [a threat that i don't feel comfortable sharing here] for a week, he accused me of working for my mom's past sexual abuser, and of things i also don't feel comfortable sharing here. and then a week later, everything is perfectly fine. just like that. i'm used to extremely sudden mood and emotion changes in this family; i've been dealing with it for about a decade now (verbal abuse followed by lots of affection through words and gifts over and over). but this isn't my problem at the moment.

throughout the week, i also told him that i considered surgery for my gerd. he then proceeded to tell me that if i even considered doing that, or whatever the doctors say, i'm a retard, and that i clearly don't need him anymore (bc im not following his instruction) and he'll just leave us. and that we don't need him, we just have to "say the words" and he'll be out. so.

when we got this letter, he kept on saying how dumb and uneducated my doctors are (my dad's a high school drop out btw). i don't exactly remember what he said, but it was something to the effect of me needing to drink more water and eat healthier food, but I told him that's what we started with when i found out I had gerd and IBS 5 years ago, and it did nothing. he stood there, silent, for a solid 10 seconds before saying "......you know antidepressants can change your change you and fuck you up forever, right?". and at that point i just kind of gave up.

also my mom was attempting to explain the letter to my dad in the car ride home from picking her up from work, but she said he kept yelling and interrupting her, and just not listening to any explanationa she had to give; i wasn't there for that part.

but in conclusion: i know i'm 18 and can make my own decisions. i know he can't legally stop me from anything now. but for some stupid, insanely stupid reason, i just subconsciously hold my dad's validation more important than my lifelong health.

i even told my mom about all of this, that i'm stuck between my dad's acceptance and my lifelong health, but i also can't seem to say anything either way that will make him happy. And she just said "we'll you're fucked (with making my dad happy), either way, right? why don't you pick the one that comes with you being healthy?" and that actually straightened it out a bit for me.

but like. i still feel IMMENSE guilt whenever i do something that displeases or angers him even in the slightest. i don't know why im hanging my entire self worth one person, him, and i know just how fucked up it is. but it's like i can't stop. i just... i don't know. the situation just seems to be 'do i take care of myself, and him be angered towards me/leave me, or do i neglect my better judgement for the acceptance of my father?'

so that's what i'm currently dealing with at the moment lmfao. thank you so, so much for the ask, and i'm sorry the response was a college final essay. i sincerely hope with all my heart that today/tonight treats you well. 💞

[rocaillefox]

oh btw anybody have book recs w protags that have a primary immunodeficiency in fantasy, scifi, historical fiction, or magical realism ? or some form of chronic illness? pease i want to read it and jwqs spoiled me from this perspective. i want to read disabled characters doing significant things despite, because of, or with no relation to their disability. (disclaimer in case this gets away from my blog- i am immunodeficient, have anemia, gerd, and probably smthn else too based on symptoms so that informs my perspective here)

[mothwizard]

i don't have dysphagia btw. i have a malfunctioning esophageal sphincter which is extremely common with GERDs. it means swallowing dry stuff can be weird sometimes (the muscles don't wanna cooperate all the way down) I guess but it mostly means if I do a hand stand after eating, scary things could happen

it's the reason why some surgeries to treat GERDs results in a kinda jury rigged esophageal sphincter made by pulling the stomach up and over the very bottom of the esophagus. nothing is holding things in like they should, so they have to build something to fill the role.

[hi-im-greenjunipertree]

I came up with some more BYS headcanons (based on lore that I read/listened to)

-Ronny has some sort of chronic stomach problem (maybe GERD aka Acid Reflux) In Backyard Basketball 2004, his sister Sally, in her Meet the Players dialogue, says, "You haven't by chance seen my darling little brother Ronny around, have you? I have to give him his stomach medicine." (I'm a person with acid reflux btw, so this headcanon is partially projection.)

-Maria is a pegasister (a female brony). (This isn't a serious headcanon btw.) She's obsessed with ponies (and I think canonically binge-watches some sort of in-universe "My Little Pony" show), so idk if this is really a headcanon lol.

-Jocinda used to have self-esteem issues worse than Ricky's. This is hinted at in Football 2006 because she says something like, "there was a time when I wasn't so sure of myself..." Jocinda's overbearing confidence is one of her defining personality traits, so she must've been an entirely different person at some point (maybe she was just getting over her confidence issues during the first game of the series).

[toxiccdoesart]

Erm mer gerd!!! 🌈💅🔥✨🕺💅✨🔥🌈

Totally not me reconfiguring my whole ass tumblr, lmao-

Okay, so like, hey, it's Toxicc! I'm a traditional and digital artist (mostly digital, i use traditional stuff i make as ref for digital stuff) and I'm involved in a LOT of fandoms (not like big stuff, but i am in the fandoms and plan on staying unless stated otherwise)

The following Fandoms i enjoy a Lot (because they bring me so much comfort) Are:

Welcome Home (like bestie, Clown!1!1 you did something right- btw #1 favorite fandom to me)

Genshin Impact (it's so unhinged like me lmaosoaoa i love unhinged!)

Warrior cats (battle cats are so silly!1!1!1 also unhinged to some extent, not as unhinged as Genshin and Welcome Home)

Helluva Boss & Hazbin Hotel (Still involved and enjoying these fandoms, it's just that sometimes ppl like to shove bad images on Viv which sucks)

Dead Island (1, Riptide, but mostly Dead island 2)

And uhhh there's so much more but it's walking away as we speak (well as i speak, you're just reading! Haha!)

I have a place where you can find more of me if Tumblr isn't enough for you! I don't know if this is a meet the artist/author kinda post I'm making right now, but it's there! I do Not have a Discord yet, so chatting in a Discord server is not possible for me yet!

The place where you can find me is on Sketchersunited.org by the user ToxiccTheArtist! Feel free to make a chat if you have an account or made an account, I'm open to talking about stuff if you'd like!

Also, on here you may see me shoving art where i see fit, and not only that, but i also have some interesting stuff to offer! I have Original Characters! (Who doesn't?) You'll find more about them on sketchers united as i try to post about them often. I'm currently working on a Series that i plan to make into an indie animated series when i start animating with the proper stuff for it.

You will also see me making AUs or silly ideas in general regarding my favorite fandoms! (Atm, I'm working on a Welcome Home AU, just writing down ideas as i Go, no worries, i won't use these ideas for anything else, just the AU! So stay tuned for that via here if I'm active or by contacting my Sketchers United account as mentioned above! I also forgot to mention that i don't have a Tiktok, I'm just getting settled with other platforms as i go, don't worry!)

Sooo yeah, just your ordinary artist, nothing much than that for now. If you're interested as to what I'll make, feel free to check back every now and then (also coding a blog page is weird on mobile Lmaoaoa-).

I hope you all have an amazing rest of your days!

[unfoldingmoments]

Dentist

"Dentistry is more of an art than a science, more subjective than objective, resulting in wide variations in clinical judgements and interventions between dental practitioners." Robert L. Caplin, British Dental Journal volume 230, pages337–343 (2021)

Ref: https://www.nature.com/articles/s41415-021-2726-4

During my dentist last visit to Japan, his colleague treated a Cerebral Palsy patient with tooth issues by carefully examining their body & providing PNF (Proprioceptive Neuromuscular Facilitation) & massage treatment.

PNF could be beneficial for other patients with postural imbalance issues that may be connected to dental problems. It's recommended to seek a doctor who can provide a full diagnosis & a holistic approach rather than just treating the symptoms.

Prosthodontist issue: TMD (Temporomandibular disoders / Bruxism) TMJ teeth, muscles, joint

The jaw joint never rest, working 24 hours.

Temporary Solution: custom splint, adjustment needed every now and then. Some exercise and massage needed. However, it’s incurable disease, long life maintenance with hope it’s getting better w the given tool.

In relation to Sleep disorder & dental patient : Snoring & OSA Obstructive Sleep Apnea

Sleeping Cycle: -Non REM sleep 80% -Quiet sleep -Light sleep -REM deep sleep

Help to prevent snoring: -No alcohol or sleeping pills before bed -Maintain Ideal body weight -Sleep in side ways

Key factor of OSA: In relation with breathing muscle & upper airway, abnormal anatomy airway, obesity, pathophysiology.

Sleep related Breathing disorders

Test using PSG polysomnography

OSA complication: -Cardiovascular: Coronary, heart, stroke, sudden death, hypertension. -Exhausted & Sleepiness during daytime: accident, emotional, depression, low memory & coordination, headache, impotency -Gherlin hormon (hunger hormone) -Complication:

Pregnancy complication, eye (glaucoma), bladder peeing at night, diabetes, metabolism syndrome, fatty liver, chronic obstructive, pulmonary, & gerd.

Solution: Oral Medication, Operation, Device (CPAP/ MAD/ DSA/ OA/ MAS/ MRA)

I’m grateful for the gift of the day : a Jap toothbrush from the kind & passionate half Japanese orthodontist who carefully examined my issues without asking for money since he couldn't fix them. He honestly admitted that it's not his specialty, but he still discussed the matters with me & helped me find solutions alongside other professional dentists. I truly appreciate his sincerity, guidance, & patience. Looking forward for some improvement in 3 months. Btw, Japanese toothbrushes are the best!

Over the past decade, I have encountered numerous dentists specializing in various fields. However, the most valuable lessons came from a young friend who had just graduated from UI at the time, specialized in Prosthodontics. Surprisingly, she turned out to be the youngest & brightest dentist I had ever met. She tirelessly guided me & referred me to other specialists, patiently supporting me throughout the journey. I’m truly grateful for her TLC, she is a real unsung hero.

The 3 dentists I mentioned share a common trait: they genuinely listen to their patients & collaborate with them to find solutions, which builds trust through a holistic approach by diagnosing the root cause rather than just treating symptoms. They’re truly passionate about their work & prioritize patient well-being over monetary gains. They also welcome my endless Q without feeling insecure, leading to great discussions where we learn from each other. Such person is truly a gem. 💎 Further reading: Book by Prof drg. Laura Susanti Himawan, Sp.Pros(K)., FICD (only in Bahasa Indonesia) 1. Memahami Gejala, Penyebab, Serta Kiat Mencegah & Mengatasi Gangguan Sendi Rahang TMD (Temporomandibular Disorders) 2. Peran dokter gigi atasi gangguan Ngorok & OSA (Obstructive Sleep Apnea) Additional Note:

It has been a frustrating experience to have certain pain and unknown diagnose of the core problems. Currently I am still trying the available method that has been suggested by the 3 dentists above. I've tried so many dentist in the past apart from the dentist I mentioned above, it was a waste of time and money, but one thing for sure, the tooth trauma and damaged can't be undone. In summary, there is no such perfect doctor, doctor has their own speciality and way to approach your problems. But I do believe on holistic approach doctor who can help you to see the big picture (full diagnose, not just a symptoms) and pivoting to the solution. To find a suitable doctor for your tailor made case is almost similar to find a suitor. Find what's best available in your area and budgeting accordingly. For instance, Overseas dentist is not up to my budget due to the long term maintenance. Hope you all healthy and well.

[astroz0mbie157]

btw i don't think johnnie and jake class as a band idk where to put them lol (also that isn't actually a drawing of me because my hair is too short and it needs dying again and im not allowed my lips pierced yet and i have a gigantic mole on my face that im deffo getting removed :P ) - also anch gerd tree creator is soupcat732 on pinterest

[gerdfeed]

I have refined my keynotes about the 10 Game-Changers and the 10 Megashifts ever since I introduced the ideas in my last book 'technology vs humanity' www.techvshuman.com - you can download the entire #megashifts chapter of the book, for free, at www.megashifts.digital, btw. This livestream session lays out the details quickly and precisely. Hope you like and see you there. The video is pre-recorded but I'll be there LIVE to chat and 'talk'! PS: the bizarre future gerd picture is generated by https://ift.tt/T1U4kOe by Gerd Leonhard

[gentlenotes-moved]

Hi! I haven't been active here in a while, just queued some posts and disappeared but I came back to take a gander and I wanted to catch up on your posts and saw you've been sick!!! Sending lots and lots of healing energy towards you with even more love and hugs! And I hope you're doing better now! We're all here for you! 💙

hi!! i really hope you're doing well 🤍

i'm beginning to think i'm not sick and my gerd is just progressively getting worse (i have severe gerd by default btw). everything i'm experiencing seems to be much worse versions of symptoms that i usually have. i'm on my 4th? 5th? round of pills because the past ones wouldn't work at all and now these ones are starting to not work as well. so there's that.

thank you so so much for the encouragement, and i really hope today/tonight treats you gently, love ❤️❤️