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Regarding your Nosferatu post, Eggers is known for being fairly homophobic in how he portrays gay relationships. The lighthouse represented homosexuality as this repressed, awful thing and I don't wanna see gayness be turned into evil vampires like some sort of evil desire. I don't see him doing it anyways bc he's quite rigid in his own beliefs (including stuff about race too)
On that front I'm afraid the deck is already a little stacked in the 'icky gay goings-on' department if Knock really is already long-distance hot for Orlok; but then, so is Ellen, and there's a Random Naked Nubile Girl on a Horse scene, and just a lot of general full-on horniness in many directions. I hesitate to clutch pearls over the presence of fucked up sexuality everywhere--especially in the context of something trying to be classically gothic, and double especially in a climate where So Much of media is increasingly wont to be self-censored or sanitized into blandness. I am very fine with Fucked Up and Perverse happenings on principle. My monsterfucker badge is worn proudly, as is my 'Let Gothic Horror Be Fucked Up' badge.
That said.
Yeah, the fact that the only non-straight hint I can think of in his track record is the almost-kiss dance scene in The Lighthouse (plus a side of Dafoe's character comparing Pattinson's eyes to a lady's) is not a fantastic sign for el gee bee tee elements. Yet even while the obvious 'lolll Thomas gets cucked because he doesn't satisfy Ellen she's 2 hot and goth 4 u loser' hints in the trailer and implications in the script leak indicate him just going straight to full Francis fanficification with Ellen and Orlok, I don't think it's explicitly a homophobic product. There may be some quote or info floating around somewhere that stamps Eggers as more staunchly anti-gay--and if so, please point me to it--but I think in this case it just adds up to 1) Elbowing Thomas out of the way for his OTP and 2) Horniness for everyone, not just the girls
That also being said.
The racist/xenophobic shit didn't need to be doubled down on in twenty-twenty-four, Bobby Egg. You almost did a smart move with the whole 'No, wait! They aren't working for Orlok! Look, see, they're local vampire hunters and taking care of other undead!' thing. Cool!
Why did you immediately have to throw in the g slur and declare them all stinky-dirty-mega masculine while Thomas quails over how much more manly they are than him and also they steal his horses because we simply HAVE to keep the ye olde 'land of thieves' line ~accurate~?
There's being 'period accurate' and then there's. That shit.
#I keep rocking back and forth#'The script was almost a decade old. Trailers can be misleading. There's a chance. There must be a chance that you will enjoy this.'#Bobby Egg. You're making it very hard to hold out for this#nosferatu#nosferatu 2024
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Asks will have to wait until I’m not
Whatever this is
I don’t know
#cb writing stuff#meltdown?#spiraling?#panic attack?#i can’t tell#but i’m not okay#i keep rocking back and forth#and repeating things a lot in my head#i’m really scared
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Stay at home dad and artist on commission Keefe
#kotlc#keeper of the lost cities#keefe sencen#sokeefe#he watches him and sophie's 5 year old little boy and 11 year old girl (she's currently applying for Foxfire) while sophie works#he does his own art pieces along with commissions at home#and the little boy can teleport so he's constantly dropping in on sophie and fitz at their job#(it's related to them being cognates or something idk)#and keefe has a panic attack because he looked away for one second to add a detail to his sketch and now his kid's gone#their kid drops into sophie's arms (or right outside the door of the building she works at)#and sophie gives him an eye roll and a disappointed look for freaking his father out and interrupting her#(he has absolutely appeared when she was in a super important meeting)#this is all based on the assumption that elves don't have some kind of basic schooling before foxfire or other schools like it#when he appears back at their residence (their leapmaster floor has an open roof for teleportation)#keefe is standing there frantically ready to catch him#and their girl (im shit with names) is standing there giving him a look like “I thought you weren't scared of anything”#and he's just caught the kid and is trying to rock him to sleep cause teleporting is tiring for a 5 year old#but he humors her while walking down the hall to his bedroom#“who said i wasn't?” “i do” “why?”#“nobody who actually beat an ogre would be scared of their child teleporting away”#“you'd be surprised”#(she doesn't beleive he actually fought dimitar and thinks it's an elaborate inside joke between sophie him and queen ro)#so they keep going back and forth with him being vague about the details because while he did beat dimitar#he is absolutely exaggerating all the details#“keefe you can't tell our kids you punched dimitar and he immediately surrendered” “please” “no”#and then they get to his room on the second floor and he shushes her so he can place the sleeping boy in his bed#i have so many thoughts about future sokeefe actually
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let’s all go listen to Preacher’s Daughter and take a moment
#this is all that’s keeping me sane rn#american teenager on loop as I rock back and forth#muttering to myself “it’s not over”#ethel cain#mother cain#preachers daughter
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changed around some of the posters in my little music corner
#keep debating back n forth whether to add something behind the shorter shelves but idk#i don't want it to be too busy#we'll see lol#music#my collection#florence + the machine#diamanda galas#lingua ignota#chelsea wolfe#< these are the artists in the posters / vinyl inserts i have hung as posters (plus the caligula demo pics)#and then featured on my shelves rn we have florence . diamanda . chelsea . ofc and then#dead can dance#supertramp#midwife#patti smith#the loose “theme” of the shelves rn is that florence lyric 'you said rock n roll is dead but is that just because it has not been#resurrected in your image'#i love that lyric a lot#i love to do little themes like that#it's not a strict thing but it's fun to pick out things#some recent themes have been “rotting roach summer” and “everything is fine in heaven but i'll never get to know”#i should share more of my theme shelves#i just always get self conscious about my selection lmao#anyway!#i'm supposed to be finishing lolita today but the new diamanda galas remaster cd arrived and then i got distracted.....
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stuck in the perpetual state of not allowing myself to send ask memes to people while i have other things to write because i usually like to reply to whatever is written for me so adding things to my drafts will make people wait eons for one reply and also feeling bad for not sending any in since people sent them to me and
#ooc.#do you see where this is going#i woke up feeling like shit today btw cuz i accidentally slept with the window open#i have a fever and i am at war with my work pc because i need it set up for tomorrow#im going to try to write a little but i keep wandering back and forth from bed#also i keep thinking about lestat my beautiful vampire malewife#if you dont know who he is let me enlighten you#i have so much to say about him but all that comes out of my mouth is: i need to put him in a blender#you think you've hit rock bottom and bam here's a blond guy you kinda wanna fuck#tmi? i hope so#this is my blog i get to be unhinged in the tags#you shouldve seen me last night i was losing all my marbles over the dr ratio worm theory
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yesterday’s conclusion was that i am a psychic, today’s conclusion is that it’s more than just that
#guy i‘m not lying when i say my intuition about people is INSANE#like ask me once about it and i can tell you each time i had an iffy feeling about someone it turned out right#<- as in that they‘re a bit problematic or that some drama would happen between them and me or them and others#like it‘s literally crazy#and lately i feel like i‘m summoning jeans guy LMFAO#like i was thinking of him for a second as i was walking home the thought of running into him crossed my mind briefly#and then i saw a red motorcycle and was like „..nahhh this surely isn’t him“#well turns out ! it was him !#he then also apologized again for canceling yesterday (idk if i shared this with the class but i probably did)#and yeah so it feels like i kinda summoned him LOL#last time i ran into him coincidentally was literally the same (me thinking of him - him appearing out of thin air)#and this happened like 3 or 4 times#AM I GOD??? /j#rin says it’s fate and this only feeds my delusions even more#don’t get me wrong i‘m still very careful around him especially because of the whole fuckboy thing — but chloe commented once#that i can change him HAHAH SO WHAT IF I CAN/ACTIVELY AM??? (rocking back and forth in a padded cell)#anyway so i do still like him i fear but i‘m careful and have little to no expectations and i keep in mind that he‘s a MAN#that’s it of todays tedtalk❤️#the voices are speaking#also just a small add-on: jeans guy and i don’t live in the same town so running into him coincidentally is kinda a big thing for me
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some aot fics are such hard reads because they make porco an avengers level threat, and obv this is me being silly but why is he genuinely the worst person ever … why is he a serial abuser ?? porco would never do that 😕
#and where is pieck ???#fics be sooo distressing sometimes but i keep reading because it feels like cleanly biting into a styrofoam (this is a good thing)#oh brother i loooooove a good 100k+ aot fic i will have it done by tomorrow#holy shit when they make one of the female characters The Enemy because they’re into eren or jean SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP#rocking back and forth#GET AWAY FROM MY FAMILY#DO NOT COME TO MY TOWN!!#shiftblr#shifting antis dni#reality shifting#shifting community#shifting diary#desired reality#shifting realities#shifting#shifting blog#shifting consciousness
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Literally who describes about their relationship with and the frustrating distance from another person "as though I were observing the starry sky from the bottom of a deep lake." Who compares the other person, infinitely complex yet also strangely comprehensible if you're willing to look past his seemingly cold exterior, to navigating through a rocky reef in the sea. Frickin' who does that. Who does that. Shaking you by the collar answer me. Answer me dangit
#genshin impact#neuvia#navillette#curling up in a ball in the corner rocking back and forth sobbing and blubbering incoherently. business as usual#i ain't gonna try to say it's canon because it surely is not and i'm totally ok with that (<- lie)#but just. why. why even. what was the purpose.#man i WAS born in the right generation#i love tormented dragon man perpetually conflicted about the nature of his identity#and the personification of everything beautiful about humanity being inexorably drawn to each other#i'm super duper cool and good and normal (<- shaking in her boots like a cornered animal)#no one has ever sun-and-moon-ed as hard as them i fear. this trope was created by them and for them everyone else go home#UGGGGHHHH. UGGGHHHHHHHHH. UUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH#yeah i made that moodboard when i was thinking about them can you tell#plan my funeral because i don't think i can keep this up much longer before just flat-out straight-up and outright death occurs
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something bad happened between the last time i watched the ds2 vod and now
#trinket reflects#i wasnt like this before i can barely get through this now i keep pausing and rocking back and forth#NO BECAUSE YOU FDONT UNDERSTADN STAR BROKE INTO HIS HOUSE#JERM HAD HIS CALLS BLOCKED. BLOCKEDDD. AND STAR MISSED HIM BUT HE DIDNT WANT TO MAKE A SCENE IN CHAT#SO HE BACKSEATS AND THEN BREAKS INTO HIS HOUSE IN A DISGUISE AND TRIES TO PLAY DS2 BETTER THAN HIM WHICH ISNT HARD#AND JERM OWED HIM THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS FOR SOME CONVENTION THEY PLANNED AND SOME LIKE PIZZA OR WHATEVR#THERES SOMETHING SO WRONG WITH THEM#and me#liveblogging
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Im reading a fic and its only chapter 15 and so much shit has happened HOW IS THERE LIKE 30 MORE CHAPTERS?? HAVENT I SUFFERED ENOUGH??? HAVENT YOU MADE MY BLORBOS SUFFER ENOUGH????
#god this fic is so good it makes me want to throw up#rocking back and forth after each chapter but I just keep reading#screams of agony and suffering interrupted by “this fic is so fucking good”#followed by more screams#“ooh what fic is it?” YOU DO NOT. WANT TO KNOW#for your sake and my dignity
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"Do you think we're lovers in every universe?" She asked softly watching the clouds above roll by. The grass felt soft, warm against her scaled skin as she traced a heart against the back of his.
"Why wouldn't we be?" He sounded deeply sincere as if unable to imagine a world without them together. She smiled feeling herself melt at his tenderness.
Gorgug Thistlespring was far to good to be true.
She was the luckiest woman alive.
^them in another universe btw because yeah I made myself emotional again while thinking about their story line and im crazy an feral an I will scream and cry if I don't talk about them once a day. Oooooo when I make a post about how Yani doesn't know how to deal with how kind his parents are its soooo!!!!!! over for every last one of you she has so many thoughts and feelings !!!!!!!
#Yani Mehri#[🪓] Yani#fhsona#fantasy high oc#d20 fantasy high#dimension 20 fantasy high#fantasy high#mod jiji#gorgug thistlespring#anyway im going to start crying and rocking back and forth because#she just doesn't think she deserves him#even in my storyline where they meet each other as adults later on in life an get together#she just still doesn't think she deserves him or his love#oh god the imposter syndrome is kicking in for her because yes she's gone to therapy but#YA KNOW YOU LIVE WITH THIS SHIT FOREVER just because you go to therapy ppl seem to forget that even while you get better#you still have those bad days and those bad thoughts an im jsut out here thinking of how to her he is so unbelievably#gentle and kind- a tenderness that she has not experienced and honesty that she still is getting use too even now#it scares her sometimes because of how much she wants it- wants to keep him to herself an oughh shes so possessive#and I think that she can see herself as some evil seductress that has stolen him away at times and its like babe NOO!!#UR MOM FORCED YOU INTO THAT ROLE YOU WERE A TEENAGER DON'T LISTEN !!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAA
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Getting inspired by fanfics is crazy bc why am I pepe slyvia'ing together a massively filled out world ans lots of characters for a brand new very complex story about the nuances of stalkholm syndrome and how horrible it is to be the "lucky" bride to wealth with plently of body horror and dysmorphia... bc of an egg preg fic 💀
#disclaimer im not into this shit I MISSES A LOT OF TAGS AND I WAS LOOKING AT THE FOURYH WALL SO I HARD I COULDN'T NOT KEEP GOING#IT WAS LIKE A CAR CRASH#not as bas as when I found the worst chisaki fic in the existence of ever ans my friend actually almost got evicted for reading it on#their moms wifi at like 3 AM bc of timezones and i was kinda just sitting thwrw rocking back and forth with my own socks shoved into my mot#mouth to stiffle the wails of agony and confusion because omf#o.g. gi.#girl.#THE CHRONOHAUL ABORTION FIC WAS PRETTY BAD TOO#quirk misuse#misuse of clock hair#birth trauma#pour me a damn beer
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You know you're a good auntie when you're combing someone else's boogers out of your hair
#ew#only real ones understand#tales from diana#my brother and sister-in-law have work today but sil's is a half-shift#so we have baby today#:)#she's taking an early nap bc she was havin me bounce her around all morning#she's been a lot more independent lately in general and not wanting to be carried around everywhere anymore#but today is a different pattern in that she keeps wanting me to bounce her on my knee or rock her back and forth#which is so much fun. so whenever i put her down or give her to her grammy and grampy#it's not long before she reaches for auntie diana again#it's a good thing im so big and strong or else a big baby like her would be really tiring me out#(im kidding. she really is tiring me out)#we're watching tom and jerry now
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i literally dont know if its just me but does anybody feel like their rocking back and forth (even slightly) when theyre sitting still sometimes
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wish i had a friend who gave a shit about gef the talking mongoose, the dalby spook, soooo bad bc i want to call someone up and rant about something that pisses me off but everyone i know either doesn’t care about gef or thinks the whole idea of him is stupid !!!!! tearing my teeth out and crawling on my walls !!!! he is a kind of angel to me !!!! and the word angel means something different to me than normal people… i think what im trying to say is like extra dimensional cryptid and my word for that is angel…. bc that’s what angels are to me …
#gef the talking mongoose#the dalby spook#rocking back and forth#frothing out the mouth#ripping my hair out#like he means so much to me it’s crazy#literally made a whole sculpture about him and people still don’t care like what the FLIP !!!!#what i need is just friends but all of my friends moved away bc college reasons and they’re not the call each other up in the middle of the#night to rant to each other kind of friends#my father keeps saying i’ll make friends once i start taking classes related to my major and like he’s not wrong#but it’s stilllll summer and i need to talk someone’s ear off NOW!#whateverrrrrrrr
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