#I know they were trying to poke fun but I felt hyped up tbh

[meltingchaos]

Had some boys sing ‘I’m in love with an emo girl’ as I walked past them in town and honestly they were hitting those notes like damn I got my own personal concert

[misterradio]

okay here are some tron 2.0 thoughts TEE HEE....... you have been Spoiler Warned for REAL!

tron fans talk abt this game with me okay 🥺

THIS GAME IS BEAUTIFUL .... MWWWWWAH!!!!!! i just love all the different environment designs, the color coding that went into the different computer systems was really cool too. my main takeaway is that the visuals Rule.

the npc designs were cool too but i kind of wish there was More variety (visually as well as voice acting)... but i really enjoy the design direction here ::-) why so many bald antagonist though? lol (AND WHY SO MANY MEN?)

In regards to gameplay i felt like it was pretty standard? i ended up using the basic disc weapon for most of the game because switching weapons takes Way too long if youre actively fighting, which is kind of a shame cuz there are so many weapon options... i did really enjoy the energy claw though 👍also the light cycle racing SUCKED and there was a graphical glitch that made it so that a bunch of visuals to my cycle were missing so i couldnt even enjoy the new design that was hyped up lol. as complicated as gameplay felt up front it definitely felt much better as it went on so it was pretty good.

game progression was very straightforward which i didnt expect..? go do this and then do that, etc. i thought it would be more open. this isnt rlly a complaint bc at least i wasnt lost or anything.

finding all the build notes was thankfully not hard but i enjoy poking around as much as i can in games already... and i liked the mechanics of searching archive boxes and being able to read emails between people ::-) YAY NOSINESS !!! despite finding all the build notes i still didnt end with the highest version i couldve...🤔 no idea how that works then...

moving on 2 story...

all the characters felt a bit flat so that was unfortunate... i wouldve liked to see some more emotions from everyone, bit more personality, etc...

i dont rlly know where jet's attachment to mercury came from, is he in love with this girl, if so why?? im thinking that since she was the first program to really reach out and help jet, that he latched on to her. but as the player i was kind of neutral on her SORRY although her design is cool

i was in disbelief that lora died and i was thinking she would just have been digitized and b in the computer somewhere? and there are allusions to her at least being superficially present in the program ma3a/ma2a etc (they have the same actress ^^__^^) but neither jet nor alan mention this which really shocks me??!!!??? thats your deceased mom or wife can u show a bit of tenderness or something..... maybe this can be cooked up more in an AU or something . idk i was really hoping she (and yori) would be around. i held on to hope for so long ✊️

OBVIOUSLY WISHING TRON WAS THERE... but omg alan being in the digital world shocked me so much i really liked that HEHE. him wearing tron's outfit was fun. i saw someone else in the tag say this, but if tron is "retired" then where is he?? INQUIRING MINDS WANNA KNOW !! he and jet werent very fazed by being digitized which surprised me buuut they also have to adapt fast given the urgency of their situation..

i felt rlly bad that thorne died SNIFFLE SNIFFLE jet and alan just watched a real guy die in front of them thats MESSED UP!! he was really cool too i enjoyed the corruption concept ::-) i was really worried the three fcon employees were gonna die too but im glad they implied that they could be repaired and manifested again.. (what is the word for un-digitized..?)

evil ma3a was really cool 👍 tbh all the antagonists are cool except im neutral on the kernel. i was confused that he was red i thought he was evil like in the original movie with the MCP's soldiers.. but i think hes just a guy who happens to be red. and also trying to kill u but just bc you (jet) are a freak of computer nature and should not be there. thats fair. i enjoyed his boss fight too.

THE FCON MONSTER WAS RLLY COOL HOW AM I NOT SEEING ANY FANART OF THEM.... ::-( i have to fix this... ALSO I WISH they had dialogue. like are they even aware of their situation. missed opportunity !!

okay thats all i can think of now.

WAIT UM I READ THE COMIC CONTINUATION(?) the ghost in the machine AS WELL and i dont have many thoughts on it bc it was really confusing BUT i did enjoy the layers of horror and unreality which i really did not expect. was also expecting the titular ghost to have more to do with lora (SIGH I REALLY WANNA SEE HER AGAIN) but it didnt but thats okay. i really liked the art of the first book specificaly.....

do any tron fans also like soma (2015) haha just wondering [TWIRLS MY HAIR

[thesugarhole]

Barring obvious potential triggers, would you recommend Human Centipede? Like just as a movie to watch? (I have never seen it)

table of contents: do i recommend it? / triggers / my opinion / red flags analysis (for funsies)

warnings for: possible spoilers out of context, unsanitary/surgical discussions, long post

do i recommend it?

alright so, before i begin i wanna say im not the type to have definitive answers to recommend / dont recommend unless its something i Extremely Liked (darkest dungeon for example). so i would recommend it in a " idk tbh lol" way. so this is all my personal, unrevised by Movie / Horror Professionals, opinions, take with a grain of salt and whatnot. im also trying to write this as objectively as possible so at worst its out of context spoilers, in case you or anyone else decide to see it.

triggers

im not sure what 'potential obvious triggers' would be in this case. i mean that sincerely this time, since im always poking fun at dnis etc and i dont want to come across as sarcastic or anything! i think it suffers from the saw/texas chainsaw effect where the first movie is very tame but people over represent its contents to the point where it gains a, imo unjust, reputation as viscerally disgusting and unwatchable. tangentially, in both saw and human centipedes case, its a self fulfilling prophecy of sorts because the sequels DO end up fitting the mold of these warnings. i know that tcm 2 is more of a comedy/horror, and then theres like 6 alternate universes just to retell the story, that i dont think quite fit the "warnings actual fit the sequels" curse, but still i felt like mentioning it, and this is because these type of movies play a lot, a LOT on how fertile your imagination is. texas chainsaw massacre (1974), saw (2004) and human centipede (2009) show very little gore, but the implications of whats going on and how it would traumatize someone physically, mentally and emotionally when you think about them later is what carries the legacy, imo. maybe human centipede got a bigger punishment in fake negative hype because on top of the central body horror theme, it also adds scat and torture.

so in terms of triggers, gore wise it would be: some blood, some cutting (surgically and self harm), and an EEK! situation of a character running away and the catheter pulling on their arm, ripping vertically across. These are maybe a 2 second scene at its longest, as the camera doesnt linger on them. a shoot out near the end as well, filling a pool with blood. there is a photo of 3 dogs lined up in front of each other meant to imply they were a doggy centipede as well, but out of context its just. dogs calmly sniffing the front ones butt lol. no animal cruelty and/or death on screen that i can remember. there is harassment, there is kidnapping, there is drugging, there is murder, there is racism, there is explaining of a surgical procedure and there is treating the resulting centipede as a pet from a cruel and abusive owner (mainly beatings, i think most also off screen). most of the surgery affected areas are covered in bandages the entire movie, exception being the glasglow smile practical effects, of which are put to use once to display infection. add squeezing some pus to the list, i know some people are Very grossed out by it.

i think thats the bulk of what is portrayed that might put people on edge the most, and anything else might be escaping into more abstract fears -like clowns for example-; no clowns in the movie but its not something youre supposed to be afraid of is what i mean. as i said before, the big threat of the movie is that it gets your imagination going on both the horrors people are capable of (unsurprisingly, doctor heiter was in part inspired by josef mengele, even sharing the first name) and what it would be like to find oneself part of the centipede. for example, you dont actually see in detail one shitting into each others mouth and the other swallowing, just all actors squirming and crying in unease as the doctor realizes its happening and cheers it on. Extra note: 2/3 of the centipede is almost always crying. Its apt that they do obviously, but quite uncomfortable to listen to for extended periods of time. And you will, if you watch the movie.

(wikipedia backing me up on this, its the >Implying thats the real terrifier here)

i dont remember where i read this but i would like to bring to attention the tenacity and endurance of the three actors that played the centipede, as it was said that some other actors that got the role soon gave up upon finding out theyd have to have their face so close to someone elses ass, and vice versa. its all practical effects and THERE IS a small, obvious distance between the elements, like theyre not straight up tossing the salad in there, but still. rough position if youre not shooting a strange sex scene. finally, and i know all you never-seen-human-centipede enjoyers have been waiting for this one: no sexual violence of any kind. really! I was surprised as well, since these types of topics also love to pull on rape and whatnot, but the first movie is fully lacking in those types of themes. The sequels have them. Whether its unfortunate or not I wouldnt know, as I don’t intend on watching them, but more on that later (%).

my opinion

i was about 15 when i finally decided to watch it and i gotta say, i was disappointed because i had braced myself for the worst, didnt quite receive it, and was left with a lot of tension. like honest to god, the way people describe this as almost a snuff film when its just. a boring movie. it was a bit insulting to me back then lmao. i also didnt watch it with subtitles, as its marketed to an english audience; back then id argue about the guy not really needing to speak in english all the time since hes in his homeland but, while the doctor doesnt care for them as humans, he cared for them as pets, so it makes Some sense to have at least 2/3 of the centipede understand what hes saying. however with the amount of non english dialogue in it its safer to consider it a straight trilingual between german, japanese and english. if you do watch it TRY to find subtitles for ALL THREE. dieter laser (the actor that played the doctor) mumbles a good amount and it can be hard to perceive. anyway that was my opinion then and it stayed like that for a bit: 'boring movie everyone exaggerates'. it shifted positively when i decided to hear dead meats podcast on it, aka chelsea vehemently defending it with a :grimace: james accompanying her. when the red flags song first came out i thought it was extra hilarious because in some way this probably paralleled when she first told him "human centipede, not ironically" (iirc her favorite horror movie is american psycho but I don’t care enough about them to have this memorized) i havent rewatched what was said in the podcast before writing all this because i didnt want my own thoughts to be re-influenced just yet; still, it will be linked at the end regardless, since it changed my viewpoint on it when they dropped it. at this time, my opinion was "it wasnt that good, but it wasnt that bad either… was it?"

so i re watched it maybe a week after getting this ask (editors note: due to personal tragedies it has since been two more weeks) just for you! and i uhhh. ended up liking it a lot more this time around, now that i also know a little bit more about movie making. unfortunately, i made the damn fucking mistake of watching it with no subtitles again sdajhdfk. it feels strange that i understood the japanese better than the german this time around. german, on a technicality has more similar words to my native, BUT, being a fan of j music for as long as i have, and the japanese dialogue being very simple stuff like 'i have to shit' 'whats going on' 'fuck you' I occasionally grasped some dialogue teehee. i didnt understand enough to make a difference really, but still felt like pointing it out. also, despite not having seen it with subs both times, i remember back then looking it up later what was said so i +- know the context of each scene, the one I remember less being the conversation between the detectives and the doctor. still, its something i have to rectify eventually, even if i just find clips of the non english scenes and watch them.

i think i found it boring back then because its a slow movie, with just one story going on the entire time. they take some time to introduce you to the american tourists, but im not sure it makes a difference in establishing emotional connection since they suck ass (sorry) for most of the time theyre not a centipede. definitely not enough for someone to want to see them get punished like that either, but ehh. Its a 'i got no dogs in this race' situation, unless youre a stan of the doctor (which ive since learned a lot of people are (source: bort); its not my type of character is all.

im not sure how to best explain this but theres a lot of cinematic shots. if youre someone who likes movies as works of art, or understands and analyzes the meaning of the slow scenes, angles, whats being shown etc i think this movie is worth the watch, for sure. i think the sound design is also phenomenal; music is used to a bare minimum, and tense/action scenes dont get as much of a noise as you come to expect, exacerbating their vibes by like 200%. its straight up just silence sometimes, as you would expect if that was happening irl, its great. for the imagined horror i mean. its also great for the cinematography i think. Theres a scene that stood out to me of one of the members running, hiding from and then yelling at the doctor, that stood out to me by having most of it be ambient noise only.

That said, there are some critiques to be had, mainly on the creation aspect. The doctor had an accomplished career, so youd think the procedure would be more thought out than just “german doctor sews three people ass to mouth (cool!)”.

Ill try not to enter too much of spoiler territory here, but just in case if you watch it skip this LIST then come back idk:

its an intense cut and suture process of different materials between randomly selected people with no knowledge of their medical history, so its already a recipe for things to go wrong. The doctor seemed little worried about missing people being investigated, so he could have definitely looked a bit more into them before jumping right to the surgery, the movies pace would have certainly allowed it.

The surgery itself is implied to have been a day, and the recovery maybe two? Before he forces them on their knees and starts moving them about. I highly doubt the cut on their knees would permit this without at least a month of recovery. And a month is being generous. Youre not given a strict spongebob ‘a few moments later’ screen though, so while it could be argued ‘who knows how long actually passed!’ the nature of the surgery simply doesn’t allow it. Additionally, part of the process implies removing teeth, which immediately tells you this should be something phased. Like I dunno, im not a doctor but immediately connecting bleeding gums to a fecal exit doesn’t sound like a solid plan. Maybe he cauterized them? Youre not shown these things.

Ignoring the obvious -people cannot survive on just eating poop*- the removal of teeth makes sense on the sewing, since theres minimal chance to move the jaw on those conditions. It makes no sense anywhere else: if you cant chew it, you risk choking on it. other factors like coughing or vomiting have also not been accounted for.

there is never a single mention of urine in this process, which I found strange after the fact because if its left untouched, any female parts would just be painting the following sequence yellow, but theres also the fact that humans cant survive without water. It would be immensely punitive to figure out the surgery to include this, especially with urethra placements being different on male/female, but maybe worth it for the surgeon in-lore acclaims of fame if they could figure it out. Within the plot, the doctor would have certainly had the time anyway.

*i noticed next to their cage that they have an iv drop, which I think is meant to imply that the doctor wouldnt be THAT stupid and is giving the back parts the necessary nutrients to stay alive until inevitable eat-only-shit complications arise.

A lesser critique that if acknowledged would result in “but then we wouldnt have a movie would we?”, therefore not that relevant, is that katsuro should have double tapped. If you consider the neck bite a double tap, a triple tap then. Quadruple tap even like fuck man id be in there stabbing until I had human soup lmao

all that said, its a good movie. Not a bad movie by miles, but not a tour de force either. But I will say, if youre not watching it for the human centipede itself- how it came to be, how to create it, how it works, how it succeeds, how it survives, how it fails, how it ends- youre not getting anything out of the movie. Again, there is no b plot to it, no secret twist. It might be worth analyzing its movie quality (not just plot but also camera shots, characters, scenery, effects, etc) on top of that, but you have to be aware thats all there is.

(%) More on that now: I did not watch the sequels, but I don’t intend to and from the summary alone wouldnt recommend it. I already saw the human centipede once, there is little innovation that can be done here (sewing even more people to it is barely innovating in my eyes, its just stupider). Theres the added bonus/punishment of having all the sexual/gross out/possible graphical gore? schlock people warn about the first one, which would be something id be interested as a teen, not so much now. Even thinking about watching them feels like a drag, id rather do something else.

Red flags analysis:

now for something fun, since I know I got this ask because I kept talking about it lol

"the best movie of all, a masterpiece of art": we shouldnt be getting into the debate of the best movie of all right now. a masterpiece is debatable, as the movie itself is not that far removed from the art form that it shouldnt be at least considered.

“I think im gonna get murdered tonight”: youre not.

“the costume design was a highlight”: I mean, I guess? Its average clothes for the average person for the year it was shot in. the glasgow smile suture effects and the doctors lab coats (along with the fucking. aviators glasses) deserve a positive mention as they feel iconic of the movie… so yea you know what no ‘I guess’. I no longer guess. I agree.

“I like it for the plot (...) german doctor sews three people ass to mouth”: this is part of plot, not The plot. Its the catch of the movie that makes you curious about it, but I feel like the movie focuses more on the “ok, how? and then what?” to that summary than it does on the man sewing the people itself.

“please god save me”: coward.

“I think thats a red flag”: maybe.

“I don’t want to get stabbed”: you wont.

“human centipede is a tour de force”: already gave my thoughts on it, but respectfully disagree.

“im gonna be the main course”: 🤔...

“I admire the narrative of character growth”: see, this line here makes me think tom cardy/montaigne havent actually seen the movie (or if they have, dismissed it for the sake of having a good song which is absolutely fine by me, don’t get this analysis wrong). I will disclaimer that, for the doctor, it might be hidden in the german discussion with him and the detectives (but given the body language I doubt hes grown/learned anything from it) and in that case yea I missed it, but outside the centipede working together whenever possible to escape and the front going on a speech about “this happened to me because I was a bad person” theres absolutely no character growth. Its an experience they all go through and cannot recover from, much less grow from it.

Opposite of this, id like to think galoogamelady (the animator) has seen the movie, as getting reference shots of the indoor pool/wall tiles as well as dieter lasers face (to a lesser extent; write his name, he shows up) can be tricky with just google images and random ass youtube clips. I especially like that the eyebrows came out the exact same as how he had them in the movie, lol

“is this because your date is a freak” not necessarily the case (and the crowd goes ‘shes not gonna fuck you, tumblr user thesugarhole’ djkhgfhdsghskjd)

“only if the wedding is themed (…) human centipede” I wouldnt let my wedding be human centipede themed not gonna lie. Its gonna be saw themed. get in da bathroom lmao

“that way we can save on the catering bill” the implication here being all your guests get human centipeded, all your money is going to the surgery tools and prep.

“only one mouth to feed” of course, in cutting corners you could just shove some sort of weird tube between ass and mouth…

“I can finally sew a mouth to a butt” hate it when hes right about the red flag 🙄 sad! Oh well there will be other women with red hair that will defend human centipedes honor (cough) ⬇️

(^ as I said previously I didn’t rewatch this so my current opinion couldn’t get influenced by it, so I don’t remember what she said. Might rewatch after posting)

Pucker up!

[princess-fuckrosa]

Sick Thoughts

So I really wanted to write something nasty with this boy for a long time now and I finally got to the point where I decided to do it. So, here we are~ I was listening to 'Sick Thoughts' from Lewis Blissett by the way, it's just pure perfection.

So, what do you think, should I write more smut scenarios? Would you like to see more writings like this from me? I'm a bit nervous if you like it or not tbh, haha

Pairing: Dabi x F!reader SMUT

Wordcount: 1372

Warnings: Heavy smut, porn without plot, dirty talk, face fucking, Dabi being a bit sadistic and rough as usual~

He was one of a kind, that's for sure, and even though you stick by his side willingly, it usually felt like there was no escape from Dabi, whether you wanted to run from him or not. You were addicted to the contrast between all the sweet things he said to you and the rather rough treatment he gave you.

"That's a good girl." The tone was calm and collected, but the movement of his hips was nothing like that as he slid his dick deep into your throat. Tears gathered in your eyes, struggling to swallow him even deeper, his fingers gripping your hair firmly. Dabi looked down on your face with a cold look in his eyes, but you know exactly what he was thinking about, he was not afraid to say it, not when he enjoyed himself too much.

"Look at you, taking my cock like a champ", he said as he slowed down a bit, tugging on your hair a little, making you look up at him. "That's it doll, let me see those tears rolling down on those pretty cheeks." He picked up the pace again, one hand still gripping your hair, while the other cupped your chin to kept you in place while he fucked your face with vigor. It was hot and rough, you were sure that one day you will choke on his dick, but you didn't mind it, his grunts and the way his dick slid down on your tongue every time he thrust into your mouth without a care in the world, it was too exciting to make it stop.

After a few more thrusts, he stopped and pulled out, his hand on the back of your head gently brushed your hair with his slender fingers as his blue eyes fixed on your panting, trembling frame. You looked up at him with pretty, teary eyes and swollen, wet lips. He completely fucked up the makeup you put on with such care, oblivious to the fact that he will destroy it within 30 minutes after you get into the bedroom. He loved it.

He loved how you were still clinging into his pants he just lazily pulled down a bit when he came up with the idea to have a little more fun after watching that cheesy romantic movie you were so hyped about. You had every chance to just try to stop him when he made you gag, but you never did anything more than just tugging harder on the hem of his pants.

"I'm really proud of you, kitten. Come on, let me give you a little reward."

He grabbed your arm roughly to pull you up, but you just hissed a little as you followed him to the bed. You only had your panties on now, Dabi took care of everything else, your shirt, bra, and pants were all over the floor behind him as he pushed you down to the mattress.

Dabi kneeled down between your legs and pulled down the damp fabric with a hungry gaze. Calloused fingers traced up from your knees, your soft, warm skin shivered as he pushed your legs wider, planting lazy kisses to your inner thigh before his tongue dived between your wet folds.

Strong hands pin down your hips as he kept you in place, there was no escape from him as he violently abused your clit with his tongue, pushing it down before sucking on it, just to make you scream and whine, he was sure he could get off just hearing the voices you make when he feats on your sweet juices.

Your body quivered and you already lost your breath after a few minutes, it was impossible to stay put when he went down on you. It was a rare treat, but it was even more enjoyable when he finally decided to pleasure you.

You reached your climax rather fast, and Dabi gave long licks to your clit as you came down from your high, flashing a smug smile at you as he cleaned off his face with the back of his hand.

He only gave you a few seconds to catch your breath as he threw his shirt to the floor, next to your abandoned panties. With his eyes lazily looked up and down on your body, he finally pulled down his pants along with his boxers. You felt the bed shifting a little as he crawled above you, like a wolf hovering above a scared little sheep. Except your heart didn't pound so fast in your chest because of fear.

Dabi grabbed your thighs and turned you to your side, curious fingers pushing your soft flesh wider as they find your clit again, pushing it down with a soft smile. You whined and grabbed his other hand next to your head.

He let out an amused chuckle. "Come on kitten, beg. Beg for it like a needy slut, I know you want it badly." He talked to you like it was nothing, but as he poked your entrance with his tip, you saw an impatient shadow shifting through his eyes. You didn't answer right away, and that didn't please him.

He spanked your ass with a loud slap. He growled. "I said beg for it, bitch."

You know better than acting up.

"Please, Dabi, I really need you to fuck me, please...", you whined softly, biting your lower lip. "Please, give it to me...!"

"See, that's a good girl, y/n..." he chuckled again, shoving his dick deep into your wet hole without a warning, fingers gripping firmly around your ass.

He didn't waste any time, with another spank Dabi started to pound into with a vigorous pace, taking in the sight of your body reacting to his. Your hands gripped the sheets under you, all kinds of soft and needy noises leaving your lips, tits bouncing up and down, he got even harder only from looking at you, but he lost it completely when your walls clenched around his dick so perfectly.

He grabbed your hips and turned you on your stomach, one hand still groping the soft space between your ass and hips, the other one grabbed the back of your neck, pushing you down to the mattress.

You moaned and whined into the pillow as he fucked you hard, the room filled with lustful noises and the sound of his hips loudly spanking your ass. He loved the control he had over you, leaving you as a babbling mess under his touch. He could fuck you for hours, but he felt generous enough today to give you a break, considering that he tired you out twice already.

"Who's my little bitch, huh?", he asked with a husky growl, the hand on your neck gripping your hair again.

"Me, Dabi, I'm your bitch", you managed to whine that out, earning a proud chuckle out of him as he let go of your hair, now both of his hands groping your ass as he got closer to his release.

His thrusts got sloppier, you already knew it was just a few more pounds, but even though you expected it, his satisfied growl and the way he shoved his dick even deeper into you as he filled up your aching cunt with his warm seed, it sent you down into a spiral.

Bony fingers dug between your stomach and the sheets as he cupped your pussy, his digits now drawing fast circles around your clit. You cried out and felt his sweaty body making contact with your back.

"You didn't think I would let you go yet, right? You have to cum on my dick first, kitten, so come on, hurry up", you could hear that he was smiling, knowing very well that hearing his voice made you always so excited.

He didn't have to say it twice, his fingers made sure that your vision went white rather fast as you came too, milking his cock even more as your tight little pussy clenched around his member.

"That's my girl", he said, planting gentle kisses on your neck. "Let's get clean you up and watch another movie before I fuck your pretty face again on the couch too."

[denkamis]

hq characters as cheesy valentine’s day tropes.

masterlist. | valentine’s day event masterlist.

warnings: none! aside from some swearing, it’s just some fluffy valentine’s day scenarios for you. reader is gn.

characters: keiji akaashi, kenma kozume, yuu nishinoya, koushi sugawara.

notes: dedicated to @koushisun,, for being an exceptionally kind individual and having immaculate taste in 2d men. i hope we can get closer the more we talk, kris. thank you for being my first friend here on da tumbz. <33

keiji akaashi

confessions behind the school building

were you nervous about finally confessing your feelings to akaashi on valentine’s day of all days? absolutely

he was one of, if not the prettiest, impressively athletic, and overwhelmingly intelligent boys in your class

he probably got at least ten confessions on the daily

and valentine’s day simply doubled the number

and here you were, with your tiny valentine’s day card and box of chocolates in hand

you had heard from all the girls that he had been turning down confessions left and right, only adding onto your mountain of nerves

little did you know that he was waiting for you

cherry blossoms bloomed above your heads, falling gracefully like something right out of a shoujo anime. you tapped the tip of your shoe against the pavement, a nervous tick you had garnered that helped keep you grounded. this was it. this was the moment today was leading up to. you and akaashi were standing behind fukurodani, stealing away a bit of privacy. you didn’t need the prying eyes of the other girls watching as you confessed to your year long crush.

akaashi waited with a patient gaze, unmoving from his spot a few feet ahead of you. he gave you space, and didn’t force you to talk right away. it was as if he already knew the intricacies of your thoughts, the way your mind spiraled if you were suddenly put on the spot, especially when it was as intimate and open as confessing your feelings.

“i wanted to tell you, i mean- what i’ve been trying to tell you for years is that i, well,” your tongue felt like it was two sizes too big. your fingers fidgeted behind your back, holding onto the tiny note and chocolates you had made for him yourself. “i like you a lot more than i really let on. you’re always so thoughtful and considerate. you listen to me when i ramble, and you help me with homework or even small things i don’t completely understand. that’s um, that’s really nice of you. i know you’ve probably received a lot of gifts today, but if you could spare a bit of your backpack space to accept mine, it would mean the world to me.” you bowed towards him, eyes glued to the floor as you held out the small box of chocolates and the note you had written.

you didn’t catch the way a smile tugged at his usually stoic features, or the way he tilted his head in thought while wondering how much courage you mustered up to confess like this. still, you felt nimble fingers brushing against yours, the weight of your gift leaving your grip.

“thank you, y/n,” akaashi told you gratefully as you stood up to your full height, “i’m glad that you feel the same as i do.”

“... wait what.”

kenma kozume

heart shaped candies

kenma rarely has plans for valentine’s day tbh

he treats it like any other day because it’s just a day to play some animal crossing and farm more on stardew valley

however, when you waltz into his life, he panics a little bit as the date draws closer

he wants to make you feel special on valentine’s day

he settled for those tiny heart shaped candies, knowing that you had quite the sweet tooth

he wasn’t gonna leave you hanging on valentine’s day, sweetheart

kenma held your hand in his as the two of you walked home together. the day was rainy, small droplets of water pattering against the shared umbrella the two of you were situated beneath. you were talking about school, something or other about the clubs you were in and how passionate you were about starting your very own this year. kenma listened tentatively, an easy smile on his face as he watched your eyes light up and your free hand gesture and fly about as you spoke.

you were adorable.

the two of you soon arrived at your house, and you promised kenma that you would call him tonight so the two of you could play games or watch some netflix together over the internet. you two had been particularly invested in some k-drama that always left the two of you at the edge of your seats. you planted a gentle kiss to his cheek, his face erupting in crimson right to the tips of his ears. giggling quietly, you wished him goodbye, your hand beginning to slide from his as you went to leave. to your surprise, he held on tighter.

with his gaze cast down, you watched as he pulled out a tiny bag of heart shaped candies from his pocket. “i know it’s not much, but i saw everyone else getting their partners gifts and kuroo said that it would be good if i got you something too.”

you accepted his small token of affection with shaky hands and flushed cheeks. peering inside the clear bag, you saw a whole collection of multi-coloured candies reading cheesy phrases such as ‘b mine’, ‘true love’ or even a ‘cutiepie.’

“kenma, i love it. oh my.. haha! i thought you forgot since you didn’t mention anything about gifts for today.” kenma’s hand squeezed yours, his eyes lifting from the wet ground to meet your own with a small yet confident smile.

“i wouldn’t forget something as important as you.”

yuu nishinoya

big teddy bears

an absolutely chaotic mess on valentine’s day

he’s so excited that he finally has someone to spoil, so he wants to go all out

he figured that the best present to get you was the biggest teddy bear he could find

he went to 6 stores and dragged asahi and tanaka with him

he saw a teddy bear that was literally twice his size and went “I’LL TAKE IT”

mans has no chill, he spent literally his entire allowance on it

his grandpa didn’t even bat an eye PFFT

when nishinoya showed up at your doorstep with a chunky teddy bear in tow, you had no words. truly. it had been at the stroke of midnight when he texted you to come outside and see the valentine’s gift he had gotten you. you had said that this could wait until morning, but he insisted that this could not wait another moment. it was technically valentine’s day, after all! this resulted in you dragging yourself down the stairs of your home to greet him at the door. to your surprise, yet at the same time not surprising you in the slightest, was noya carrying the largest teddy bear you had ever laid your eyes on. not only that, but tanaka and what appeared to be a very exhausted asahi accompanied him.

“y/n-chan!” nishinoya shouted boldly and triumphantly, getting down on one knee which instantly made you panic. he wasn’t going to propose, was he? no he wouldn’t. would he? oh god. your words got caught in your throat, trying to formulate some kind of response to his sudden and incoming declaration. yet, a proposal never came. he held up the teddy bear as if it were simba from the lion king, the entire stuffed animal basically shielding his shorter form from your view. you suppressed a snort with your hand.

“i searched far and wide for this gigantic teddy bear for you, please accept it this valentine’s day!” nishinoya said loud and clear from behind the bear. you were having trouble stifling your laughter because from your angle, it looked like the bear itself was saying these words to you. you attempted to take the huge bear from his arms but it ended up being a lot heavier than you anticipated.

“noya, really this is-”

“take the picture!” noya whisper shouted to tanaka, who was holding up his phone camera with a thumbs up. noya posed beside you with an arm tossed around your waist, throwing up a peace sign and sticking out his tongue. leave it to yuu nishinoya to spoil you with the biggest bear he could find. it was incredibly endearing, especially when you found out from asahi that he nearly got kicked out from a walmart after knocking down the entire teddy bear display. he could be the biggest dork sometimes. but you wouldn’t trade him for the world.

koushi sugawara

baking together

he saw the idea on pinterest and he had to try it out with you

they were cupcakes red velvet with pink, buttercream frosting

easy, right? it would be a cute little date, you could even stay over at his house while you watched a romcom or something of the sort while they were baking

turns out it wasn’t easy

at all

“shit fuck, oh god- shit!” koushi mumbled to himself as he was spilling some of the red cupcake mix over the side of the bowl. you were trying your best not to laugh too much but you couldn’t help your giggles when koushi shot you a playfully annoyed glare, his nose powered with sugar and flourmaking him look straight out of a victorian magazine. baking with koushi had gone just as well as you thought it would. there was a lot of flour being thrown around, a few stray chocolate chips and sprinkles now on the floor serving as reminders of past quarrels. koushi had always been a rather chaotic individual behind his “soft boy” demeanour he liked to flaunt. he could be so goofy and fun. he could be your greatest hype man but also the person you knew could be in your corner when it counted. and here the two of you were, making a mess in your shared kitchen at nine at night for a valentine’s day date.

“honey, you’re mixing it too fast!”

“i’m mixing it just fine, see look! it’s supposed to be this thick,” his ahoge bobbed back and forth atop his head as he mixed with quite literally his entire torso. his tongue poked out of the corner of his mouth as he focused hardcore on the making sure the mixture was abolished of any and all chunkiness present. you rolled your eyes, a wide smile on your face despite his stubbornness. “the oven’s been preheating for thirty minutes now.”

“well the oven can wait,” he huffed, tapping the neck of the whisk against the bowl to remove the excess mix before grabbing a ladle to begin scooping all the mix into the muffin tin. not without another mess, of course.

“kou, stop moving the—”

“i’m not moving anything, you’re just making me laugh!”

“hand me the spoon, hand it over.”

“it’s not a spoon!”

“it’s a big ass spoon.”

“y/n!”

you were bickering like an old married couple as your hands reached greedily for the ladle that already had some cupcake mix in it. koushi held it out of your reach, causing him to back up into the counter while you hopped in an attempt to get it back. in your desperate attempts, you slipped on the flour from your little past war and caused the two of you to collapse to the floor in a heap of giggles and laughter.

yeah, you two would definitely never be touching any sort of recipe after that day, you absolute menaces.

all works © denkamis 2021.

tags:

@meilbox

want to be on the taglist? see this post!

[sensational-fools-9]

SF9 Hi-Touch & Concert experience

As some of you know (?), I was at the Berlin concert last Sunday with a friend and I thought I might want to write about my experience!! I’ll put it under the cut for everyone who wants to read it, because it got a liiiiittle too long after all lol.

First off, the concert itself was LIT. They did a huge deal of my favourite songs, including one they didn’t do in the US, so hearing that was a pleasant surprise!! 

Their live vocals are no joke and their performance and stage presence are overwhelming. That was the third kpop concert I’ve been to, and as expected, every group so far had a very unique feeling about them. With SF9 what I noticed and appreciate very much is their honesty on stage. Like, I could feel just how happy they were to meet us and to perform for us, and how genuine they seemed - during the show as well as afterwards. And dear lord they are so handsome, Inseong was the first member I saw and I was just blown away by his sheer beauty, I tried filming the first song and f*cked up right when he walked in and I saw his face dkaslfjas. All of them just have amazing stage presence - they’re fierce when the song calls for it, they radiate emotion for their calmer songs, and all of them are just so charismatic. And they also learned a lot of phrases in German to talk to us and that was honestly so touching that they put in so much effort for their Fantasy.

Speaking of Fantasy - the other fans there were pretty chill too, I didn’t see a single one who wasn’t a multistan, and the Jaeyoon stan freaking out about the special fansign event two rows behind me in the vip line was a whole experience wow (bless u girl, there’s far too little people who bias our busan man)

But now for the actual Hi-Touch! All members did it with one hand, Dawon and Hwiyoung with the left one, the others with the right one also all their hands are so soft it’s unbelievable. The order (this time I could actually remember it lol) was as follows:

Inseong - Jaeyoon - Youngbin - Dawon - Hwiyoung - Rowoon - Chani - Taeyang - Zuho

Inseong: A while before the concert I was thinking about how I wished Inseong and/or Jaeyoon would be the first people for the hi-touch, cause I felt like they would be really good at calming the nervous fans (ergo: M E) down, and I wasn’t disappointed. He’s so beautiful with the pink hair (not that he isn’t without ksajfdlka) and he really took a hold of everyone’s hands as far as I could tell. He was so friendly and straightforward, that I felt at ease immediately. I’m usually a socially anxious person but with him being first - as well as the fact that all members just give me a feeling that I can trust them - I went through the hi-touch rather calmly. He also said something in English, I think it was a greeting but at this point I really can’t remember anymore.

Jaeyoon: WOW. He is a sunshine. A literal sunshine. He smiled so brightly I think I automatically just smiled back at him. I don’t know how to describe it well in words, but his happy aura just blew away all remaining nervousness I still felt sakjdflsa. He’s really amazing, such a warm and welcoming person. You can feel the fire inside of him and that he would make such a good hype man LOL. Also if u don’t wanna poke his dimples after having seen them in rl what r u even doing

Youngbin: OOF THE LEADER. This is getting tricky because the hi-touch went by so fast and with some members my memory isn’t as good as with others, but I remember getting a very... leader-like feeling from him (duh). His charisma is overwhelming really. He seems like a person you’d automatically respect, but also someone you can put your trust into. (Also fun fact: he and Taeyang walked past us just before we could enter the venue and wow he is so powerful truly, and also kinda smol but that might just be me cause I’m far too used to being surrounded by tall people lol) Oh and not to forget his BEAUTIFUL eyesmile!!!

Dawon: Now Dawon caught me a little off-guard, because he was using his left instead of his right hand. So I only touched his hand very lightly only a few days later I realized that was the perfect position to try intertwining fingers akjfldkas. My friend says she was confused because he was dressed like staff and I was just like???? Really???? Yeah, I don’t remember him so well, but I got the feeling he was really tired that day and not in top shape :/ He still did so well though!!

Hwiyoung: OH MY GOD. So my first reaction to Hwiyoung was thinking how he looked so much more handsome in reality than on pictures???? Like if I had to pick a member who seems the most different in rl and in pics or videos, I’d say it’s him. I just remember looking at his eyes and then his whole face and thinking how it seemed kinda more... even? Like we know he’s handsome in pics and stuff but in real life? UGH. He did the hi-touch with his left hand as well, so with him too I only touched his hand very lightly.

Rowoon: OH LORD KIM SEOKWOO. He is TALL, but didn’t seem as tall as I expected him to. I think he leaned down a little (my friend’s comment on that: f*ck off, I know I’m smOL kasjfklasj). I also remember thinking to myself that I should finally start saying “thank you” to them as I had originally planned, but then he said “danke” and I was like... what? HE SAID DANKE. IN GERMAN. IN REALLY GOOD GERMAN. I still hear that in my head kasdjflkas. So naturally I was too shooketh to continue my train of thought so I just,,, did the hi touch and moved on without saying anything whOPS. This is entirely his fault. Also my friend says he had SUPER SOFT hands and we both agree he didn’t seem as gigantic as he is!

Chani: Really I can’t remember much about him except he was sMOL and his hands too were SMOL and I finally managed to say my first “thank you” of the evening to him ksljfak. Friend says he wore his usual Chani-face and now that she mentioned it I remember it too skaldfjsak

Taeyang: With him too I managed to thank him, and I was genuinely surprised how BIG his hand was like???? WHOA there, maybe it was just in comparison to Chani’s but still. Also someone on twitter said he was sitting down for the hi-touch but I??? honestly??? don’t remember???? Anyway we all know how beautiful he is but LET ME TELL YOU if you ever see him in real life???? He is really one of the most beautiful people I have ever seen, and so so graceful as he walked past us outside the venue.

Zuho: He was just,,, exactly like you’d expect him to be. As I mentioned, the whole group appears so honest, but with him especially I noticed how he fooled around on stage as usual, but also how he treated us fans exactly like you see him do in vlives etc. I will spare you all the details here or this part would get far too long (me? biased af? naaahhhh....). This is super funny though because my friend usually just goes through these kinds of situations calmly at least on the outside, but she told me when she saw him and he smiled at her she just blacked out and froze up just before touching his hand because she didn’t expect him to be THAT adorable aksljfas. As for me, I was surprisingly fine with him. He didn’t say anything if I remember correctly (my friends says he said “thank you” very silently tho??? not sure...), but it’s like instead he conveyed with his body language that he was happy to meet us but you could also clearly feel the respect he has for us. It’s difficult to describe. His hand was soft as well, but I had the feeling it felt a teeny tiny bit rougher than the others’. I was gonna say something different to him but then didn’t have the courage after all and just said “thank you” - which I still regret a little bit tbh. 

Still, I feel like Zuho was the perfect person to send us off in the end, just like Inseong and Jaeyoon were perfect for getting started. Overall my hi-touch experience was a really good one, unfortunately the staff wouldn’t let us spend more than two or three seconds per member *coughcough* maybe mmt should value quality over quantity when it comes to selling vip tickets with hi touch next time *coughcough*, so my friend unfortunately got pushed forward a few times - I was lucky with that though and could pass through without getting shoved around by the staff (also shout out to that one staff guy hyping everyone up just at the start of the hi touch line lol, he was great).

10/10 would do again, and I can’t say it enough just how safe and secure and appreciated these nine guys make you feel as their fans - even more so when you meet them for real!

Another little thing that I’m sure happened at the other concerts as well in the respective languages: all their German pronunciation was sooo so good, and Tyang even introduced himself as “der Sonnenschein der Gruppe” = “the sunshine of the group” and WOW their German just sounded so good. I also remember Jaeyoon repeatedly fucking up “euch” from “Ich liebe euch” = “I love you”, and the other members correcting him akljfa. Inseong did most of the English talking and kept throwing in German phrases, it was great, in general they talked a lot of English to us so the translator at the venue didn’t have to do much, and in the end Zuho yelled “Auf Wiedersehen” and I sincerely hope someone recorded that :’D

And that was my (and my friend’s) concert experience! If anyone has anything to add, feel free to share your stories^^

[xukunstellation]

Distraction || Lin Yanjun

Title: Distraction Pairing: Reader x Yanjun Genre: Fluff Word Count: 835 words Summary: It’s really hard to study when you have a needy boyfriend who wants all of your attention.

A/N: Tbh I jumped on the Lin Yanjun train super late, but he snatched my wig within the last couple of episodes. He also happened to place my lucky number #5 in the top 9. Congrats, lovely! Can’t wait to see you debut!

alright so I’ve never done one of these bullet scenarios before

i apologize in advance if it sucks

this is also a lot longer than i thought oops

i just felt really inspired to write for this dork ok

alright let’s get started

you guys first met in school where you share the same english comp class

you were trying to pay attention to what the teacher was saying but it all sounded like gibberish

damn it shakespeare

you couldn’t help but feel like there were eyes drilling into the back of your head

turning around, you try to find the source of whoever is staring at you

guess who you see

lin yanjun

the popular jock that always sat at the back of the class making a ruckus with his crew

which for some reason had something to do with bananas? idk man

at first you thought he was hella creepy 

like, what you lookin at boi? you wanna go??

but then he had the audacity to wink at you when you caught each other’s eyes

chOkE

okay even creepier

but he’s also kinda hot so are you really mad tho

ur totally not blushing yes you are

after that day, he took it upon himself to always sit in the empty desk next to yours just because

more like he thought you were a whole cutie and wanted to be near you

he would constantly flirt with you much to your annoyance

you can’t tell if he’s joking or not

“My interests are singing, rap... and you.”

“The only thing you should be interested in is finishing this assignment, yanjun.”

savage

ur having none of it

despite his nonsensical flirting, he’s oddly really good at writing and helps you from time to time

and you were really struggling in this class so you might as well keep him around

what started off as friendly bickering eventually turned into full conversations you enjoyed

you actually start looking forward to seeing him in class

minus the cheesy pick up lines because boi doesn’t know when to stop

jk you secretly love it; don’t lie

you start seeing him in a different light and start developing a little crush on him

you notice the little things he does for you

forgot your lunch? he’d give up his own for you and say he wasn’t hungry

fell asleep in class? he took notes for you which is something he normally doesn’t do

cold? he’d throw his jacket over your shoulders and complain about how hot it was out, even though it was literally below freezing outside

he still drives you nuts

but honestly

handsome? caring? smart? always hyping you up? 

how can you not fall for him?

ya’ll eventually start dating once you come to terms with each other’s feelings

fast forward to a couple months later into the relationship

it was the worst part of the year

exam season

you invited yanjun to come over your place so that he could help you study for the english exam

ofc that was the last thing your boyfriend wanted to do

you were starting to regret inviting him over

“i’m hungry”

“where’s the tv remote”

“why is it so cold in the house”

“babe”

“baaaaaaabe”

“baaAAABEE-”

“yanjun istg i am this close to breaking up with you”

“you’d miss me too much”

“you wanna bet?”

cue pouty and grumpy yanjun

if you weren’t giving him enough attention, he’d shift to more drastic measures

when you looked to the side for a brief moment, you would turn your head back only for yanjun’s finger to poke your cheek

a literal child

you would think that after dating for a while, he would tone down with the flirting but nah

he gets worse if thats even possible

you end up repeatedly writing the same sentence five times because you keep accidentally writing whatever cliche pick up line he’s using on you

omg can you imagine his deep af voice whispering in your ear asdfghj

when that doesn’t work, he resorts to staring 

just staring

at that point, it would be extremely hard to concentrate bc the look he gives you??? is so intense?? can he not??

you’re so flustered tbh

he knows he looks good and uses it to his advantage smh

you sigh, knowing he wasn’t going to give up any time soon

“you have my attention for one hour. only one hour bc we have to study.”

“say no more, babe.”

he literally lifts you off your chair like you weigh nothing because he’s hella strong

the two of you end up cuddling in bed

where you two just talk about random things with his head on top of yours and your head tucked under his chin

he refuses to let you go bc he likes having you in his arms

not that you’re complaining

ya’ll eventually fall asleep since that’s a lot more fun than studying

you both are so cute

wow i’m soft

i love yanjun

this was probably terrible ahhhh--

[deepdickdaniel]

Kang Daniel | Doormat

prompt: you’re tired of seeing the school’s sweetheart, kang daniel, get taken advantage of.

note: a precious anon requested this - i’m so sorry for the delay! school’s been a bit busy for me but i really wanted to write so i hope you enjoy!!!

you were just a normal student with a normal amount of popularity and normal grades - the epitome of normal

involved in a few clubs, most people knew you or of you, but they weren’t necessarily falling at your feet

you were you and that was that

kang daniel, on the other hand, was the school’s golden boy - not that he had amazing grades or a perfect record, but he had a heart of gold

whether it was helping professors with cleaning up after class, agreeing to pick up food for a random club he wasn’t even a part of, or giving dance lessons to freshmen, he was always lending himself to others

he never complained and you found yourself wondering if he really never got tired of giving his time

the first time you ever interacted with him, he had offered to help your club put up posters and you got paired with him to put some up in one of your school’s wings

you were curious to see what the hype was about, if he was really as perfect as everyone made him to be

but tbh, the two of you just had fun shooting staples at each other in the hallways, laughing when he slipped on some loose paper

however, you could tell what a genuinely nice and helpful person he was when he didn’t leave you by yourself to clean up the mess you two made even as he was called for dance practice

you heard he was going to be in a dance festival, so you convinced your friends to go watch it with you

that got you some sly smirks but you knew it was worth it to see him dance

the place was absolutely packed when you got there; apparently the show sold out because everyone knew that daniel would be headliner

luckily, your friend was close with one of the student directors who had reserved seats really close to the stage

when you watched daniel dance, it was like seeing power personified

his moves were beautiful, like his heart, but the intensity was so strong

you wish he would display that the next time he was getting taken advantage of

a week after the festival, your life still barely had any daniel in it - you only had one class with him

there, you noticed him sniffling into a tissue, eyes desperate to close

aside from you, no one else seemed to notice how tired and sick daniel looked all week

but you didn’t want to pry, so you headed to your normal table for lunch after your class together ended

there you were, sitting at adjacent tables in your campus’ eatery; you were with your friends and he was with his usual crowd of people

despite the difference in your friend groups, he made sure to weakly wave at you with the brightest smile he could muster

you returned it and you noticed his eyes seemed to crinkle up further when he got your attention

you didn’t want to admit it, but the school’s sweetheart had earned a soft spot in your heart

but you saw how some girls got up from their table at the corner of the room, giddily giggling on their way to daniel’s table

you knew you didn’t have a right to be jealous...but you just were

so you continued to watch them while angrily eating a spoon of rice

daniel didn’t even notice them at first as he was sleepily putting food into his mouth, eyes looking like they would shut at any second

(a few minutes ago you tried not to laugh at ong catching daniel’s face from falling into his soup, but that’s beside the point)

“daniel!!!” wow, their voices were shrill

said male could be seen trying to blink away his sleepiness, looking around for the source of his name

he found it in his fangirls, who were surrounding his table 

“uh, hey...”

“you looked so cool at last week’s dance festival! you really deserved to be the headlining performer!!!”

“oh, thank you”

“so we were wondering if you’d pleasepleaseplease teach us the routine? we’ve been trying to learn it ourselves, but we’re just no good...you can teach us after lunch, right?”

you bit your lip in frustration: how could they just invite themselves into daniel’s schedule like that? did they think he lived to serve everyone?

you were afraid that daniel would easily agree once more, but were proudly surprised to see him hesitate

he was rubbing the back of his neck nervously, a habit you realized he showed whenever he didn’t know how to go about a situation

“i kind of have an exam tomorrow that i need to study for...”

“oh, that’s fine! we’ll tutor you right after you teach us the dance!”

did these girls not understand social cues???

“but the dance took a while for me to learn, i don’t think we’d be able to finish it in just a few hours”

you were so proud of daniel for doing his best to disagree, but unfortunately, the girls saw his excuse as a blessing

“that’s perfect, we’ll see you all week!”

you could see daniel giving in - not because he wanted to, but because he was just too damn nice to say no, even when he was physically sick and exhausted

so you slammed your hands on your table and stood up, shocking not only the friends at your table, but most of the room

and just like you wanted, daniel, his table, and the girls turned their attention to you

you felt your body moving on its own to his table, stopping in front of daniel and the girls

daniel called out your name softly and questioningly while the girls glared at you like no tomorrow

“do you not see that daniel isn’t feeling well? he is actually exhausted - the festival just ended last week and i bet he’s had to catch up on a lot of schoolwork since then. there are so many other dancers at this school and i get it, daniel’s the best, i really do, but can’t you stop for a second and think about what he’s feeling?”

one of the girls scoffed at you, insisting that daniel’s always up to helping other people and that’s what makes him such a sweetheart

“that’s just it, daniel’s a sweetheart. he’s amazingly kind and would do anything to help other people, but do you realize he’s probably putting everyone first? he needs to prioritize himself for once and you aren’t helping him. don’t treat him like a doormat and walk all over him. he deserves more than that”

you ended your rant by looking at daniel pointedly - he was staring in awe, mouth and eyes open in shock - and walked back to your table

you heard a slow clap and looked back at daniel’s table to see ong whooping and applauding you

you also saw jisung look at minhyun, who shrugged and started clapping, too

soon enough, the entire place was applauding your lecture, and you were covering your face in embarrassment and disbelief that you actually just did that

so you quickly muttered that you’d be leaving to your friends, who were all staring at you in amusement because they knew how you really felt about daniel and were proud that you stood up for him

you covered your face with a book as you practically ran out of there, finally taking it off as you reached the courtyard and determined you were safe from prying eyes

“that was really cool of you back there”

you jumped when you saw daniel casually sitting on the bench next to you...how did he even get there...?

“to answer the question you’re probably thinking of, i ran out the back entrance...thanks to you, the girls finally left me alone!”

you couldn’t help but smile at how happy his freedom seemed to make him, sitting down next to him when he patted the empty space

“i’m happy i could help! but i’m sorry for meddling in your business...that’s not usually me, but i was really tired of seeing you get taken advantage of! you have to take charge sometimes!”

he nodded thoughtfully, taking in all of your words

“you’re right and don’t worry about it, i’m really grateful that someone said it. it’s my life and i don’t always have to do what other people ask of me”

“damn straight!”

“and i should take control, shouldn’t i?”

“definitely!”

“so have dinner with me tonight?”

your hand was mid-fist pump, ready to cheer for whatever you expected to come out of his mouth next; but this, ooh...you didn’t expect this

“wait what?”

he cheekily smiled and you could’ve sworn he had a lot more color to his face compared to when you saw him enter the eatery for lunch earlier

“i’ve been wanting to ask you out ever since i helped you put up the posters for one of your clubs”

“???”

“and when you cheered for me at the dance festival in the third row, i just knew i had to perform better than ever”

you were still speechless - happy, but speechless

“plus, seeing how passionate you were back there makes me believe you feel a bit more for me than you let on, hm?”

you scrunched your nose at his accurate analysis, breaking out into giggles when he laughed at your face

“that’s fair, i do like you...but don’t you have an exam tomorrow?”

his laughs turned sheepish at that and he started rubbing the back of his neck nervously again

“yeah, that...that was kind of a lie? it was my attempt to back out of what they wanted me to do...”

you mockingly gasped, poking his stomach playfully

“the golden boy, our school’s sweetheart, god daniel is lying???”

he was a bit embarrassed but thought back to your words, and when his mischievous smile appeared, you knew you messed up

“’god’ daniel?”

“listen...everyone calls you that”

“i’ve heard and i’ve cringed, but from you it sounds just right”

“i thought you were tired, though?”

“i was, but the thought of going out with you has me feeling so energetic”

and that was the start of your relationship with the school sweetheart, the one who could do no wrong

his friends were really thankful that you were there to balance him out, for they were afraid he’d just drop dead in physical and mental exhaustion

you slowly convinced him to say “no” whenever he was feeling overwhelmed and to save some love for himself

“but all my love’s saved up for you~”

safe to say, you guys would be perfectly happy together

[matsunjun]

My grandpa, cousins, and a cousin’s bf, spent a few days here, arriving at Friday night and leaving today, Monday afternoon. 

I was ecstatic because a week before, we were just with them for my grandpa’s surprise bday party. But as we were leaving to go home then, I found out that Aaron, my cousin, has vacation days in the next week. And so, that’s the reason why he came. Alyssa, the younger sister, didn’t have classes on Friday and skipped her class Monday just so she and her boyfriend could come along. My gramps wanted to come, too.

I had fun with them, spending late nights playing board games, playing video games, going out to places. We went to Queen Mary’s, art supply store, watched movies, ate out, and went to the beach. It was a few days thick with things to do and very little sleep, so I am still pretty worn out. 

I love my cousins so much (and my gramps!), and my feelings are reciprocated. I can tell they do love me and being around me as they always loved hanging out. 

Aaron has a nice, well-off job and always tries to pay for me, but I am like no no no. You’re my younger cousin, this is weird. lol. He likes hanging out with me and taking pics with me. He also tries to help me with driving because he knows I struggle with parking and whatnot. When I drove them to places locally, he was gentle as he taught me, and even told me I was doing good. ;_; He also didn’t mind driving to places that were further (because I couldn’t drive freeways lol). When I saw several scars on his wrist, I freaked out and hugged him. I didn’t know he went that far when he was in his dark place back then. I begged him never to do that again. Earlier today, I was pooped and fell asleep as they packed and were getting ready to leave. When grandpa woke me up because they were leaving, I asked Aaron if he has everything packed. He looked around the room and said he forgot something, and he reached down and tried to scoop me in his arms, princess-style lol. I told him I wish I could go with them. ;A;

Alyssa and I have been through a lot together, and she was my first best friend when I came here in America. We have a lot of inside jokes and we understand each other pretty well. She roomed with me these past few days, and we spent nights getting into deep conversations about life. She helped me with chores and got everyone hyped to go to the Art Supply Warehouse event (so waking up at 5am and ended up two people away from receiving the golden ticket because 1st 100 people get the goody bags, and we were 102-105 D;). When my younger brother broke out with this bad rash, she stayed up late with me trying to make him feel better and giving him some kind of treatment. I really appreciated that. Also, we were partners when my grandpa was being sexist and making us do chores because we were girls and letting the guys do nothing. Luckily, Aaron and Alyssa’s BF are polite and helpful, and helped with chores. I already miss them all.

The only thing I’m sad about was my grandpa. He didn’t get to come with us on our little excursions because the places we went to would have given him a lot of difficulty with walking. Queen Mary has a lot of walking and stairs, and so did the beach, because we went to shops and the pier also. And he told me as we left, “Thanks very few, because you didn’t tour me around,” and I know he was joking, but I felt bad all the same. I think he realized I was sad as they left because he gave me a hug, and he doesn’t usually give hugs nor does he initiate them. My gramps, we call him Dada, basically cleaned stuff, and was hall monitor lol. Though Dada can be a nag (i see where my mom and aunt got it from LOL), I enjoyed having him around. We don’t usually get to see him. He is also quite playful and always liked poking me and joking around.

Carlos, Alyssa’s bf was a surprise tbh, it wasn’t planned for him to tag along, but they asked me as they were on the way here if he could come too. I’ve liked him when I first met him, and I still like him now. He is polite, kind, and really easy to speak with. I hope he continues to be like that and that he always makes Alyssa happy.

Before they came, I was stressed and depressed, in addition to being sick. But during one of their stays, my condition got better, and I was so surprised and pleased. I wasn’t feeling well for a month, and it disappeared, just like that. I hope things go up from here, I really do. 

So anyways, I’m still tired from all the lack of sleep. So I will go back to sleep ~ GN.