#I promise I'll put more effort into any commission I do than I put into my self—serving art 💖

[zaedtalostisnotanartist]

Digital Art Dump

Images below cut due to some images containing gore gore — theft of artwork WILL be reported — most of these are original characters

[juliedrawz]

Hola !

Checking back in because ... I've seen my little group of follower legends has grown while I was gone and ... THANK YOU!

I didn't expect my account to grow while I'm practically gone for a while.

Well, fall is slowly but surely coming closer AND, I've been working! 😏 Currently I'm back at the "Guitar project" and while THAT is continuing to cost me a lot of sweat, tears and nerves, I was also spending a lot of time doing stuff concearning this dude.

The dude I grew unexpectedly and immensly fond of ever since I studied him to pieces and wrote down his whole backstory/life in my novel and I'll protect him fiercely 👁 👄 👁 Any haters will face the wrath of Imelda's boot, which I will borrow!

And also

The gem of a man

And yes, there have been MAAANY things going on while I was gone. I talked a LOT with my besties and as I was continuing to write my novel. I came to the conclution, that I will not post any more drafts online at all anymore. I'm sorry, I know many love the story but the thing is this; I first started with a plain fanfic. That was the plan. I posted the first drafts and over time suddenly found myself going back to professional writing and woops, all of the sudden I was writing a novel. Something that became immensly important to me. It became a serious commitment, not just a itty bitty story. A real book that'll end up having around 700 to 800 pages give or take. Making the decisson to not post any drafts anymore saves me and you guys from disappointments. It's not a question if you'll get to read to book one day, because you will. However, the whole book won't be out for free. I know that some might not be happy about having to buy my book but guys ... don't you also go into a book store and buy a book you like? Writing a whole novel is different than writing a fanfic. It cost a lot of time! And if you put that much time and effort into something, it's absolutely right and ok to eventually charge something for it. Not because artists are money hungry. It's a form of support.

On the good side, those who will want the book, will get it. It won't be too expensive, promise! Not much more than a normal book you buy. 😊 📖

I hope you understand. You can also always keep asking me questions if you cannot wait to read the thing. I will also keep posting some scenes from my book as some little encouragements and quotes.

As for my art, I've been working on quite a handfull, so you'll not just get 1 thing after such a long time!

Also, I will open up Commissions soon. The price list and the rules come with it.

~

Other than that, I also have 3 more Coco projects coming in the future. And for now, they'll stay a secret. 🧵🪡

~

[kaibutsunoo]

Silly rant under the cut.

I hate having RP ADHD, bro. Like ofc I have ADHD Irl and I'm Acousting as all hell but that's aside the general point. I made this blog to take a break from Doctor Who, only to find that this blog, while extremely fun, is also EXTREMELY LIMITING. I've only got a few things I can write, and I think that I realized that SUPER EASILY. Especially since, through this blog, I've become mutual with people I wasn't mutual with before, which reignited new plot ideas. So now, all of a sudden, despite being absent... the musing for my doctor who blog is BACK. Which means that it seems like all I wanted to do was new stuff.

I don't know if I want to go back to my Doctor Who blog. I will 100% remake it if I do, but I just don't know if I want to give it another shot. I've added a lot more incarnations/verses for interaction, and there are a few mutuals and muses on my dash that I would LOVE to throw The Doctor at, but the problem is that I'm simply just afraid that I'll put a ton of work into them all over again and yield the same result. It's very hard to be a roleplayer without any icons, mostly because people really like visuals. Not to be pointed or come off as hostile, but some people in the RPC are JUST here for the shipping and the smut, and honestly?? That kind of bugs me.

I've seen people who I've been mutuals with before, people who have drip fed me content over the span of months—give some of my other mutuals MORE ACTIVITY in a day than they've given me in months, simply because that mutual has a pretty face claim to thirst over. No disrespect to my mutuals either, I love my friends and I love everyone who I roleplay with— but the people who are only here for shipping kinda gross me out, because it creates this idea in the RPC that you're never going to be able to get those meaningful connections because you're not visual only. It creates anxiety in me, too.

What if I spend all that time and energy remaking a blog only to yield the same results? I hear you ask "Why not just make icons?" And my immediate response is that "I can't." Because the designs I have made for my character are so unique to my idea of them, having to pick out a face claim that's only slightly off would be just enough for me to feel a disassociation with my own character. It would be fake, and I would hate using them because they're not the face I designed, and commissioned. In that same vein, If I don't use icons— I feel alienated. I can't participate in meaningful dash commentary or any sort of "crack" threads, because without an icon— it just seems like "a serious response" to a lighthearted post.

It's also a mix of not being sure that I want to go through the trouble of trying to form connections with people who won't give me the effort in return. Roleplaying is a two-way street, and sometimes I like to pour a lot of energy into a connection or a thread that I enjoy. Sometimes, I meet mutuals who only give me the time of day once and then lead me on for weeks on end because they don't have the backbone to tell me they aren't interested anymore. This seems really hostile, but picture yourself in my shoes for a moment. You're plotting out a ship in dm's and the other partner gets really excited, so you make a discord server to start talking it out... and then that partner goes MIA, pretty much ghosting you— despite their glaringly obvious activity on Dash. You start to ask questions, and they give you half-hearted excuses and an endless stream of apologies with promises to do better, only to repeat the same behavior. That's kind of what I'm worried about, and I know the way I phrase it makes me sound kind of icky, but I'm a guy who can be satisfied with as little as one-liner crack banter and headcanon conversations. So when I'm given radio silence despite you exclaiming interest in my muses and plots, it creates this whiplash of emotions that make me feel inadequate and someone you keep on a back burner for content.

I think it's a matter of curating my circles easier, but it's also just general content anxiety. Do I want to revive my OC blog? Yes, extremely. Am I worried that the same issues that caused me to get frustrated and burnt out would repeat themselves? Yes, extremely.

This is all really just lighthearted. I'm not really nettled about the things I've dumped about on here. I just have lingering thoughts that I need to scream out into the void.

[meili-sheep]

Ningguang: an amazing leader who has earned the respect of her people by sacrificing the jade chamber for their safety and helping them move forward, works at a rational rate and is able to leave time for herself.

Kujou Sara: the general of the shogunate, one of the closest to the almighty shogun, an honest and passionate leader who takes care of her soliders and leads them into the path of a better Inazuma, but doesn't exert herself with matters to big for her to handle or matter not worth her time. Recognizes the flaws of her family and doesn't support their actions, and tries to redeem herself to inazumans, who love her all the same.

Kamisato Ayato: handles the Shuumatsuban and the Yashiro Commission, shared the burden that was supposed to fall on his shoulders alone with his sister. Works hard to keep citizens safe ("I do whatever I can so that everyone has a home to go back to.") And makes sure everyone in Inazuma enjoys festival. Has unparalleled respect towards the Raiden Shogun.

Raiden Ei: the God of Eternity, whose view of the world is so distorted to that of mortals thus she fails to see the eternity her people desired. Fought for Inazuma and protected them from the shadows for centuries on end. Made mistakes and terrible decisions that hurt many of the people in Inazuma. Recognizes her mistakes and fought for Inazuma again for 500 years with no rest, working to better herself and become a better archon for her people, who will never forget how she fought for them despite everything.

Jean:

Im sorry but jean is so godamn underwhelming in comparison to all those people

While I don't agree that Raiden's redemption arch was handled the best. And I do think that She needs to continue working more closely with her people. She does at least have an attempt at an arch. Jean... Well, she doesn't grow or change at all or really has any distinct personality traits or ideology for me to latch on to. It also feels like she's constantly treading water and has no desire to change that.

But Especially compared with Ningquang, Kujoy Sara, and Ayato.

Particularly Ayato. Like I want to point out this conversation line from his teapot dialogs.

How's work in the Yashiro Commission?

Kamisato Ayato: I had thought you'd be inquiring about more personal matters. Heh, you don't need to worry about me being overworked. Case in point — I still have the energy to chat with you here.

-> But don't you think there's too much to do?

Kamisato Ayato: Oh, you mean my workload? Yes, it's rather enormous. But there's nothing that can be done about that. All I can do is try to work through each item as intelligently as possible.

-> -> Well, hats off to you.

Kamisato Ayato: I am flattered beyond belief to receive your praise and concern for my well-being. 

Kamisato Ayato: But you needn't worry. At present, there is no one more suitable than I to be in the position of Yashiro Commissioner.

Ayato is confident. He has worked hard to get his family back to his point. And he continues to put in that effort. And He is happy to share in the reward from his efforts. But he does that in part to make people feel indebted and loyal to him. His showing leadership, by saying, "Hey, I'm ready to give good reward to people who help me," And he makes sure to keep those promises. He also understands the balance between the commission the best and he knows that for the leadership to work, everyone must stand strong and stay in their lane. He can be an asshole, he can be perfectly charming, he can be loyal, but he can be mischievous. Ayato is just so much more dynamic. He also really care for his sister and avoid having her deal with the dirty parts of their work.

And a lot of my friends don't like Ayato. Which I totally get. He's a manipulative asshole. Who take joy in pushing people's buttons. And I totally understand how that would turn someone off. But I think he has personal reasons. I'll get into it at a later date as i just want get to my point.

Ayato is not only a much better leader than Jean. But he's much more dynamic than she is.

[realpokefarmconfessions]

"Mochi casually dropped 1.500zc on their Secret Santa according to PFQ chat. Way to make the rest of us look bad 😭"

mochi here... and if you're mad over me spending so much, please re-evaluate your life because that's pretty sad and i'm genuinely concerned for you. i'm generally a pretty big gifter when i have the resources because i grew up extremely poor but gift giving is my love language. i literally gave my friend my own mountain bike that i saved up for in high school because her mom's car broke down and she needed transportation to her job-- and i asked her for no payment back. that's just the kind of person i am. if giving someone a gift that they love or can use can make their day, i'm more than willing to do it. i really hope my secret santa enjoys their gift because i really went all out with researching their favorite types, scouting their fields for things they had and didn't have, and even got them their favorite types in z crystals in case they need them for hunts. if you were hoping for an apology, you're not getting one.

anyways, i really, really want to reassure those of you who don't have as much in game currency and are doing an event like caliban's secret santa or something like my own s/a applin giveaway, that any amount you give is perfectly fine. don't let someone tell you you cheaped out or that you didn't try hard enough if you genuinely did try. just put effort in. a gift given from the heart is the best gift of all, even if it doesn't cost much.

if you need any advice on gifts for people, you can pm me or text me on discord, and i can help you look for some, though you'll have to cover the cost because, as expected, i'm now pretty broke and my remaining currency is keeping me afloat or paying for art commissions and tips.

also, if you're my secret santa reading this, i hope you got the note in my journal <3 it's on my wishlist page. it has the same sort of memo of not having to spend much on me. i promise i'll post a list of my favorite pokemon so that if you're stressed or don't know what to get me, that you can take it easy :)

happy holidays everyone!! <3

🎄

[feeling-grubby]

About/rules

Name-> Howdy hey I'm Ace as stated before.

Age-> I am 19 years old currently.

Pronouns-> My pronouns are he/they.

Follows-> @acedrawa

Trollsona/blog avatar-> Traice Draawa

Get to know me-> I am a hobbyist artist and don't fully intend to do a lot of professional art related things. I'll dabble in commissions and adaptable, but I can't promise ill to do those things often. Instead, I am more fascinated with the field of psychology, though not to become a therapist. I want to do the test and studies more so than civic duty side. Like run experiments and do surveys. I am more interested in that aspect. I love writing, drawing, and just being able to create in general. I may open up some other blogs about my other projects, but I think that's enough about me, unto the blog.

->DNI

Pro-shippers

Racists

Homo/Transphobes

"maps" (you're just a fucking pedo stop trying to relabel it)

ableist

(More to be added I am just blanking)

-> Rules

Almost all my trolls on this blog are 18+. Only two trolls are minors on this blog. With these minor characters interactions and/or rp's with other trolls from other blogs will be very limited/selective if there is any at all. Along with that I will not tolerate people trying to ship them with other characters or do more suggestive things with them. They are on my blog to be just wholesome. (I really hope the suggestive part can go without saying.)

Which leads us to NSFW. I may do some suggestive stuff but explicit stuff I would prefer to do privately. if I ever do post anything suggestive here, I will be sure to tag it. if I forget or wasn't sure if to tag it as let me know if I need to. just don't me malicious about it. I am also okay if people want to draw nsfw art of my trolls who are 18+. I am not against nsfw all together and I just would like to keep this blog relatively SFW.

Dark themes, violence, and triggering content will appear on this blog. I will try my best to tag it appropriately and will put trigger warnings at the top of the post before cutting it. If you think I need to add a tag let me know I will add them upon request.

Shipping and violent exchanges I would like it to be discussed about before becoming canon to our characters. I like plotting those things out beforehand, so we are on the same page when it comes to such plot revealment things.

Some characters I have are morally grey or just evil. Just because I write characters that do awful things does not mean I believe what they are doing is right and does not reflect my own moral standings. I do not condone their actions. it is for plot.

If you find something offensive on my blog, please let me know, and I will fix it. It's never my intention to make harmful content. I am willing to learn and change but I will never learn if it's not brought to my attention. the burden of educating me is not what I am asking for. I will easily put in the effort to educate myself. just please inform me of what is I need to change and learn about.

please do not bring drama to my inbox/dms I am not involved in or is irrelevant to me. I use this blog as a safe space and an escape. I don't want drama here.

-> Tags

trolls so far have one tag. where it is their first name an example is "#hollie" I am unsure if I will add more tags for them or not

ooc tag is for when I am just interacting with other people or talking about something unrelated to my trolls.

Traice Talks is when I ramble about trolls or Homestuck.

judgment meme is for just any judgment meme I do.

(More tags to be added.)

[sixtyemeralds]

Who Am I?

I've learned a lot about myself in the past year or two. For starters, I've had the habit of following those who take the lead naturally, and I feel comfortable in their presence, following along and doing what they do. This led me to my first exploration of a relationship on Second Life. That reminds me, it's been a while since I've checked up on him. The last I heard, he streamed on Twitch... I wonder what he's up to?

I broke this one off. Eventually he stopped coming by on Second Life, and when it had been months of reaching out without any response back, I chose to reserve myself and look for feelings of comfort and security elsewhere. It had become, as they say, no longer personal.

Everyone else who reached out to me during this time simply didn't click. They either didn't take the lead, or they didn't show personal interest in me.

Fast forward about ten years, and while checking out a semi popular VTuber server, someone reaches out to me to help with my attempt to get started with VTubing. They offered me my very own VRoid model that I could use for my own purposes. I still have it. I even have a variation of that VRoid model uploaded to VRChat today, although I never wear it. But that day meant something special.

Someone was taking the lead and showing interest in little old me. From that day on, I tried to show as much interest in them and their interests back. I even became their moderator, and vowed to protect their server from even my own headmate should the need arise.

I won't go over how this ended. If you need to, find my TwitLonger on Twitter, because at the moment I have nothing to add other than we've started counselling finally. My exile was sealed the moment I broke my promise without even realizing it. I still owe their friend an apology for getting him involved.

You might be asking, "Saria, wasn't this post supposed to be answering who YOU are? Not who can find a way into your heart?" And I suppose that is the point. Those who find a way into my heart become just as much a part of me as I would have been on my own. I cherish those few individuals who were willing to think of me when I was nothing more than a literal Pirate Saria on the internet.

Now, who am I...? What values do I hold? What do I want to do with my life? These aren't easy answers. I think I want to go back and finish developing something for once. I want a project in a state where I can call it done and move onto the next project. Or move to the next stage of a project. I want to play my instruments better, and maybe even compose music. I want to make skins in Minecraft, and maybe even take commissions once I'm confident I can make what other people want. I'm nearly there already.

There is one more thing I want to do, and I know I'll be told it's a bad idea. I want to bury my trauma somewhere that forces people to work for it. I don't care that I'm stealing this idea from somewhere. If you want to know me better, you'll put in the time and effort to find it.

[wanderinginksplot]

Will your requests be opening soon?

That is a really good question, anon! As always, brevity is not my strong suit, so I'll put the long answer below the cut, but the short answer is: soon-ish. And when they do reopen, the process may look a little different than it did before.

As you may know, I closed my requests last December. When I closed it, I had almost 30 open requests. Even writing at top speed, that's almost four months of writing time to fulfill those commitments!

It's not a secret that I love one-shots. I love experimenting with different scenarios and characters without committing to a full-length series. I treasure one-shots for what they do in developing my writing abilities. That being said, that many requests started to weigh on me.

First of all, I have a full-time job that makes me work very odd hours. I didn't like the idea that I was taking months to fill requests. Second, I started worrying that I was going to burn out. I was spending every free moment writing, down to writing before I fell asleep and on breaks at work. I think I put more effort into filling those writing requests than I did on doing my college assignments!

I am a series writer at heart, and filling requests meant that I didn't have any time to work on my own projects. Right now, I have four open series and another concept I'm working to develop. That doesn't leave a lot of time for requests.

On a more personal note, I'm having a few health problems. Nothing life-threatening (hopefully), but enough that I have to put time, effort, and money toward solving those rather than writing. On top of that, I'm seriously considering a career change, which would cut into writing time even more. I'm reluctant to reopen requests since I don't know what kind of fulfillment timeline I'd be looking at.

I do still plan on reopening requests, but I probably won't be promising timelines or full-length fics. If someone has an idea for me to use when I'm writing a drabble to get back into a writing mood, that's fine. If someone wants a full-length fic (4k-5k words) on a certain timeline, I might check out options for having them commission me instead.

Anyway, that was a very long-winded way of saying: I'm not sure exactly when I'll reopen requests, but it won't be within the next month or two, and it will probably be a bit different than how the process of requesting a fic from me worked before.

Thank you for asking, anon, and for letting me ramble!

[belit0]

1500k Commission [Uchiha Obito / Coffy Fem Reader] @obitobrigade

Cause I rarely see this anywhere... How about Kakashi admitting to Obito he's kinda jealous that Obito got with Coffy/reader instead of him. And Obito enjoying that fact while he cuddles on the couch with Coffy(she wearing obito shirt of course) fluffy and NSFW. *same girl from my first commission*

[Writer: My imagination flew with this scenario, I hope you like it, it's not exactly the same but it meets all the requirements !]

"I think you're exaggerating a little..."

The grey-haired man said casually. He had come to Obito's house only a short while ago and they had been talking for a moment. Or rather...

"But I am not. Watch your mouth, idiot."

"All I said was that your girlfriend is indeed beautiful... what's the matter with declaring truths out loud?"

Kakashi's intentions were not as expected, and his mere presence there was for an entirely different reason. After trying to find you at home and failing, he figured it would be best to try his luck at your partner's, even if it meant crossing paths to the one who got the woman he wanted so badly.

"I swear on my life, Kakashi, if you don't shut up right now, I'm gonna..."

"Ma, ma, Obito. How grumpy you've been lately... I wonder what she saw in you such as to stay here..."

"Are you fucking with me? Do you really want us to beat each other to death in the middle of my house?”

The patience of the Uchiha was getting closer and closer to its respective limit. He was aware of the situation, you had let him know to avoid him feeling insecure, and you had asked him not to confront his friend. Sensing a deep betrayal, Obito felt his family's genes flourish when Kakashi showed up at his door, looking for you, and decided to try to torture him to get the bitter drink out of his mouth.

"Why would that happen? We're just having a conversation. Like friends do. I'd like to talk to [Y/N], is she-"

"Too bad for you, she's mine and she’s not here."

"Since when is she a thing? You bought her and didn't tell me? What did she possibly perceive about you..."

"I treat her best, you stupid bastard, and she loves me as much as I love her."

"I don't think you love her as much as I do.”

That ended his patience. It was one thing to covet his girl, which he could not tolerate, but which he could not do anything about. You are beautiful, a woman with no equal, it is obvious that looks and desire are attracted to you. But something totally different is to come and claim love, even worse, to love you more than Obito, an impossible task.

"What did you say?"

"Uh? What?"

"Repeat it if you've got the balls."

"What? That I don't think you're worthy of her? That I don't think you can handle her? That I think it must be torture for such a woman to wake up next to... you."

"What the fuck is wrong with you? I thought you were my fucking friend."

"I thought so too until you decided to steal [Y/N] from me and play dirty. You have no shame."

"I believed it was me who treated her like a thing. Listen to you, you fucker. She decided. And she chose me. Deal with it yourself."

"She was fucking mine."

"She's fucking mine."

Both men faced each other, dangerously close and holding on to their clothes, threatening themselves with body and words.

Yes, perhaps at first your attention had been on the grey-haired one, but by now you were sure it was because you did not know Obito at that moment.

Once he appeared in your life, it was impossible to look at anyone else, things happened on their own and everything went as it should. Not being in any commitment with Kakashi, you put him in the back of your mind, enjoying the wonderful man you now had by your side.

More violent words continued to fill the room when everything suddenly fell silent before the noise of the main door. There, entering as if nothing had happened, with your bag and your phone in hand, looking at the screen and distractedly singing one of your favorite songs, was you.

Both of them let go of each other in front of you, wanting to pretend everything was fine and nothing was going on. Obito had promised to keep things calm and let you deal with the problem, and he really wanted to meet your expectations.

Dropping onto the couch with a murderous expression towards the other man present, he looked ahead and completely ignored the situation.

Kakashi, on the other hand, smiled seductively, quickly approaching to greet you.

"I tried to find you at your place earlier because I wanted to talk to you about..."

With just a glance at your man, you understood that he was making his best effort not to beat the other one up just then. No doubt was the right one. Determined, and with a politically correct grin, you knew what you had to do.

"There's nothing to talk about, Kakashi. I thought I had made it clear multiple times at this point.”

Faced with your statement, the Uchiha looked at you pouting. It seemed that he could start crying at any second. His insecurities were something that you worked together daily, and he had made enormous progress, but he still had a few problems.

"I insist that-"

"And I insist that you must leave, now. My boyfriend and I have things to do. May I show you the way out?"

The grey-haired man didn't need to hear anything else, and left the house with a loud slamming door, while you left your things in the entrance and sat next to your man on the sofa.

As soon as you touched the cushions, he hugged you, putting his head in your lap and his arms around your waist.

"I'm sorry... I know what you said but I kept going crazy trying to do nothing... I thought I could help..."

"Love, love... it's okay... it was unfair from me to demand you not to act, it must have been difficult"

You caressed his hair, while he hid his face in your body to cover his regret. Your fingers ran over his scalp, while your nails scratched and sent warm sensations to his whole form. In your grip and drift, he was completely happy.

"Do you feel a little better now? More relaxed?

"As long as you give me your affection, I'll be fine."

"Actually, let me show you how devoted I am to you."

Rising and running his head carefully, kneeling in front of him, you looked at his sad little face, and decided to make him feel better with his preferred activity.

You stretched out to kiss him, joining the lips of both of you in a slow and compassionate smooch, caressing his cheeks and taking your time to savor him in your mouth. The Uchiha leaned back on the sofa, letting his arms fall to the side of his body, too depressed to even try and reciprocate.

Dealing with his inner doubts was always difficult for him, and when it came to you, they were even more intense. To be enough, to be at your level, to give you everything you deserve. He wanted to fulfill every one of those things. When he failed, he felt completely useless, wanting to hide in bed and not go out for days. But you had discovered the best way to work on his self-esteem was to let him know how utterly perfect he was.

You dragged your hands across the extension of his neck, across his chest, and onto his waist. There, you unbuttoned his trousers, still keeping his lips on yours at a slow pace, revealing a flabby limb.

Breaking the kiss, you knelt again and took his cock in your hands. Bending your head over his lap, you inserted it into your mouth, gradually for him to feel every wet corner of your cavity. Your tongue traveled and wrapped around his length, while you started with up and down movements.

His face contorted at your action, and a soft moan was born from within. The moment was not tinted with passion or hunger, as usual, rather it was an intimate, sweet situation, where love for each other became the professed act of the body and not words.

Hands caressing your hair, while your eyes were fixed on his worked figure, increasingly warming to your supplies.

His erection hardened to the maximum quickly, while your mouth continued to work on him. Grasping his waist, you ran over the head of his limb before sliding your tongue down, finding his sack and sucking.

"I... love you... too... much... I'm sorry...."

Releasing your cavity, you occupied one of your hands along his shaft as you stretched towards his neck, sitting on him but not imposing any weight on his limb. The fact that you were both fully clothed added a special bonus to the occasion, and by kissing his skin, you spoke.

"There is nothing to apologize for... let it go... feel me on you and remember that I am yours..."

It didn't take much more work for his seed to explode, staining both your garments while his body relaxed under you.

"I would really be lost without you."

"But that's what I'm here for."

[fanfictionconnectionwordpress]

i have a request, can you write about jumin and mc had a big argument and lashes out to mc but mc didn't leave him because she wants to keep her promise that Jumin makes her which is to never leave his side.But everything changes when mc was diagnosed with a terminal illness. Mc left him without telling the true reason why she left. Jumin regretting his actions try searching for mc but maybe a little too late?? I'll leave it to you for the ending ^.^

***Hoo boi, hitting me with that Jumin angst again! Let me just see how this plays out, because I feel like Jumin is gonna have something to say about that ‘little too late.’ Haha ~Let’s Connect! FFC***

* Character Personality Breakdown: Good Ending Jumin *

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“I simply must know what this pressing appointment is. Why won’t you tell me?” He is getting more and more irate. There is a side of him that needs a certain level of control - only because he wants to protect you and be assured of your well-being, but when you hide things from him, it can be very hard. You don’t want to tell him that it’s a doctor’s appointment - checking for an illness that killed your mother, because you’ve started to notice symptoms. Of course, you’re sure it’s nothing too terrible, and you hate worrying him more than necessary - knowing he would freak out if he knew. “It’s fine, Jumin. I’ll tell you about it later.”

This does not seem to please him at all - his eyes glittering dangerously as he crosses his arms. His fingers tap in irritation before he turns around. “If you won’t tell me, I will assume that you are keeping secrets. Excuse me.” It hurts too much to stand here trying to suss your secrets out, and it is far more practical to put the matter aside than to come up with wild theories. Jumin leaves for work - leaving you with your feelings.

The doctor’s appointment was anything but positive. As it turns out, you were actually in the final stages of the disease with a rare and incurable form of it. You don’t want to cause Jumin any more harm than you have already - returning to the penthouse and packing your bag before calling for a cab as soon as Driver Kim has left the building to pick up your husband from work. You had promised to always be by his side, but how could you be by his side only to leave him in the most permanent of ways that would leave him grieving? It was far better to leave first.

Of course, Jumin is well aware that he was harsh this morning. A woman has a right to her secrets. It wasn’t fair for him to demand from you where you had been today - although he did think it was best if the two of you could converse further on the subject. Hopefully, you could - without emotions getting in the way. It was simply imperative that he be able to help you if need be.

Nearly as soon as he enters the penthouse, something feels wrong. Elizabeth’s soft mewl has him running out - demanding to know where his wife has gone. You took on quite the task trying to hide from Jumin Han with the connections he has. He finds you at the airport - running to you and sweeping you up in his arms from behind. “Where do you think you’re going? Are you leaving me? Have I committed so grievous a fault?”

This is the moment you decide to tell him, “Yes…I can’t be with you…” knowing that he will let you go if that’s what you really wanted. His face is a hard mask, and it breaks your heart as much as it is shattering his. On your death bed, you will send him a letter, but it will be too late. “I will let you go if you tell me why you are lying to me.” Too bad for you that Jumin is too good at sussing out a liar. His assumption is you’ve fallen for someone else - though he thought you weren’t that kind of woman.

You have no choice but to break down and tell him the truth of the matter unless you want to tear him apart even more. Jumin is steadfast, and there is no way he will take this situation lying down. Although it may not have been your original wish, he is pouring all the efforts he can into finding a cure or a way of stopping your illness. There is none to be found, but he does find a way to provide for your every need as you get closer and closer to passing.

Naturally, he is with you at the end - holding your hand and pressing a soft kiss to your wedding ring, murmuring a low, “Til death do us part.” His eyes are firmly set on yours as he seems to add to those vows. “Wait for me until we meet again, my love.”

He will never love again, not without the woman who taught him how. Even Elizabeth the 3rd is not enough of a comfort to make him forget the crushing pain of losing one so perfect from this world. Jumin throws himself into his work - building a company that rivals all others even more than before as he nearly monopolizes every industry. The once-cold man is back to being cold, no hope for any woman to reach him once again. His woman is far beyond in a world he’ll join at the end of his days.

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