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goldensunset · 3 months

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when people refer to canon story-relevant kingdom hearts games as ‘spinoffs’ it makes me sad not only for the obvious reasons i always say but also bc like man i WISH this series had spinoffs. imagine what they could do if they had permission from nomura to truly go off the rails and ignore the greater canon for a second and just do some fun whimsical plotless thing in an alternate universe. imagine a fishing/boating game on destiny islands. kh fighting game. it is an injustice that we have been deprived of kingdom karts. can anyone hear me

#in terms of alternate gameplay and lack of reliance on plot #i feel like melody of memory is the closest thing kh has actually had to a spinoff #but even that is important in its own way in the end #union cross to a certain degree as well what with being an online multiplayer gacha type game #its original concept i would definitely classify as a spinoff game #bc it was set in a totally different world and time period and was supposed to be about customization and fun with friends #and nomura or someone said it wasn’t meant to be connected to the plot #but then like. he did very much go and give it a plot. like he went back on that almost immediately #and even then. given that the game is still very much combat and exploration #even from the beginning can it really be called a spinoff? it’s just kh in a different format #i’m talking like a game in which the objective is something totally different.#racing game or cooking game or fighting game or (another) rhythm game #ace attorney style detective game. dancing game. dude i don’t know #there are so many different flavors they could go with here #alas nomura is allergic to genuine whimsy which is hilarious given that this is a disney series #like he apparently was like ‘ohhh should we really let sora in smash? would it make sense in the story?’#my brother in christ surely we’re not supposed to interpret this as canon to kh right? right????#i guess it’s just that the kh franchise has a very specific pristine vibe he wants to maintain #which is disney shenanigans as a seasoning on top of a main dish of Stone Cold Serious Anime Plot #kingdom hearts #kh #mine: kh

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noodles-and-tea · 4 months

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I am exploring the idea of Jon with short hair….

#I always draw him with long messy hair and I really love it #but I’ve been seeing a lot of art with him having it close cropped or whatever and….#well it’s got me feeling some typa way for sure #my story it that it starts short and then it grows longer over the seasons until he’s got his bun idk #I’m still only in season three don’t come for me #my art #jon sims #jonathan sims #tma #the magnus archives

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avpdpossum · 1 month

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can we talk more about avpd being a (proposed) schizospec disorder? because i almost never see that theory talked about but i wish it was. like…

avpd makes me censor my thoughts because i think someone might hear what i’m thinking and see what a horrible person i am on the inside or judge me for thinking embarrassing things.

avpd makes me so afraid of someone walking in on me doing something i Shouldn’t Be Doing that my brain twists background noise into the sounds of whispers and footsteps behind me.

avpd makes me so worried about people staring at me that in my peripheral vision, anyone near me looks like they’re already staring at me, and it’s only when i look at them directly that i realize they’ve been looking in a totally different direction the whole time.

avpd makes me so convinced of how much everyone must secretly hate me that i often start thinking everyone secretly wants to hurt me too, to the point where i’ve had panic attacks from a person walking too close behind me because i feel like they’re getting ready to attack me (when i haven’t had any kind of trauma that would create that fear), and the paranoia just serves to reinforce my need to avoid people.

avpd makes me lose my ability to speak or reduces it to nothing more than one word answers only when spoken to, turning the thoughts i wanted to express into a jumble that’s impossible to turn into words or just throwing them away completely and making my mind go blank, so i end up just staring at people silently or even acting like i don’t see them standing there at all (not on purpose but because my brain won’t let me engage with them).

avpd makes me look damn near emotionless around everyone but my safe person (and sometimes even around my safe person) because showing my emotions would be far too vulnerable for its liking, so it completely takes away my ability to express them.

and i could keep going! there are so many things i experience because of avpd that i’ve seen really closely reflected in the experiences of schizospec people. i don’t know how common these kinds of things are in avpd overall, but they’re a really prominent part of my experience with it, so when i found out that some research suggested it could be considered a schizospec disorder itself, that made so much sense to me! and i’d be so curious to see how many other avoidants have dealt with this stuff but haven’t talked about it because it’s never mentioned as being part of avpd.

#this post was brought to you from the Looking Over My Shoulder Frozen In Fear Because Of The Whispers™️ position #which is. quite a common position for me #im honestly kinda nervous to post this bc i feel like somebody’s gonna be like ‘thats not avpd!’ or ‘thats not schizospec stuff!’#but oh well. that’s just how it is on the internet #i also feel a little weird about the wording bc i don’t really see avpd as an outside force that Makes Me do things #but it’s 5am and im too tired to think of a better way to say it #poss.speaks #discussion #avpd #actually avpd #actually avoidant #avoidant pd #avoidant personality disorder #cluster c #schizospec #schizophrenia spectrum #schizo spectrum #schizotaxic

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otaku553 · 1 year

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Haha

#yanqing #honkai star rail #hsr yanqing #my immediate fixation on ice wielding child genius characters in every media I consume strikes again #idk I just think he’s neat!! and so is his gender #he’s definitely overdesigned but I do enjoy the general shape of his clothes #like wow… baggy outer layer AND baggy inner layer #how come you get to have two baggy layers #still don’t know that much about him even after reading his character stories on the wiki #so I’m hoping that his quest writes him well #I suppose there’s some degree of like interesting contrast in the fact that he’s very young on a ship full of people who live very long live #but I feel like regardless they really don’t give him much of a personality besides his hyperfixation on swords and the general naivety and #inexperience from youth yknow what I mean #I just think it would be cool to see like why he’s so ambitious! was he railroaded into being a knight because of his talents? did he try #to be accepted as a knight? what kinds of expectations is he facing and what expectations does he place on himself as a result #I really hope he isn’t just there to be a simpler minded child character for jingyuan to take care of

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formulanni · 26 days

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Genuinely Williams switching Logan out for Franco feels personal and petty. I haven’t been following f2 super closely this year but from what I’ve seen Franco is just.. fine? I mean, he’s good, but he’s not Kimi or Paul. To replace Logan at this point would only make sense if they swapped him for someone with loads more experience, someone more likely to score points. At this point they’re swapping him for someone who’s probably gonna have his same level of performance, if not worse. It just feels almost petty? It’s like a weirdly personal move and it just makes me think about all of the reports of JV’s alleged mistreatment and silent treatment towards Logan.

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starbylers · 2 months

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You only really need to understand 5 things to know why Byler is happening:

Mike’s arc in season 3 was about pretending to be someone he’s not in the pursuit of “growing up”. It was about kids playing at relationships. This was the only season with focus on the state of M!leven while dating & not separated and it was treated as an immature joke.

Season 4, instead of proving to us why M!leven are right for each other, quite literally does the opposite and shows us nothing except them having awful communication & not finding emotional safety in each other. There is not a single scene between them which is an exception to this.

Meanwhile, Mike and Will are attached at the hip. We see how they resolve conflict maturely and between themselves. We see a strong emotional connection. We see how Mike feels more comfortable being vulnerable with Will than he is with anyone else, and how Will is always always there for him. We see how…

Will’s painting & monologue (aka his romantic love for Mike) soothed Mike’s insecurities and boosted his confidence. It made him ridiculously happy. And being reminded of this lie about El by Will himself ends up being necessary to encourage Mike to go ahead with his “love monologue”, which winds up indirectly causing a literal apocalypse. You cannot make this shit up lmao.

M!leven is entirely framed through Will’s experience. He’s in every scene except their fight, his pain and misery over them is never not the focus. Literally never. We are not seeing the story of M!leven’s love, we are seeing the story of Will’s heartbreak.

Nothing else matters. Like in the most clinical story writing terms, Mike’s character is not going to find out that the person who made him feel the most loved & understood is in love with him and is the one who actually feels all these things about him that just happen to align with exactly what Mike needs to hear to embody the truest and best version of himself, and instead of realising he loves that character back, goes nah I’m good I’ll end up together forever with the person who whilst dating them I became someone I was not and also had terrible self-esteem—oh and also the relationship is insanely immature. It’s that simple. Whether or not Mike currently believes he loves El or currently wants to remain in a relationship is so so so irrelevant. Storytelling doesn’t care what the character thinks he wants, it cares about what the character needs!

#byler #anti mileven #haven’t really talked about this in a while but here we are #I can see it so clearly in my head it still baffles me that people worry (I mean not really like I get it but you don’t need to)#Mike and El have a children’s mimicry of a relationship held together by trauma. they will realise they hold each other back #(possibly along with Mike realising he doesn’t like girls at all) and end it #how it happens and how well it will be executed is up for debate but Mike will be with Will in the end #whether that’s ambiguous let’s get out of this town or something more official. that’s how it’s going to happen #I feel like I’m being gaslit by the controversy of it all because it’s just so obvious and always has been? 😭

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tariah23 · 5 months

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oooooo white people in my replies really saying ‘I can excuse racism but I draw the line at homophobia’

Not surprised since this is the site that only talks about racism and thinks it’s a big deal when they see it demonstrated in the cartoons and comics they like *coughs* dungeonmeshi *coughs* (for example at least. I haven’t seen THIS many white ppl talk as in depth about racism on here as much as these fandom nerds, man. I stg. Like “Ohhhh, so you all DO acknowledge that racism is real? Just not in real life even if you could feel it slapping you in the face at high speed. Gotcha.” It’s crazy.

Tumblr is like, 90% white and is extremely centered around them. That’s why you barely see stuff that’s important to black and brown people ever trending here or being talked about. It has to be something incredibly huge to the point where even white people can’t ignore it like they usually do, to talk about it here.

They only talked about George Floyd here because the topic of his death became world news. Even people in other countries were talking about it. Before him, it was probably Ferguson and Trayvon Martin… most of them are still trying their best to ignore the genocides because it’s a “touchy subject.” What do you expect from white people who live in their own bubbles of comfort and refuse to pop it with a needle??? They find comfort in their privilege and faux ignorance (they love playing stupid to avoid conversations about important things outside of fandoms like, are these mfs born with half a brain dedicated to fandom or what.) That’s literally all these mfs make a big deal out of, especially on this annoying ass platform. The ao3 mfs will go to war for the site that allows racist ff and cp like it’s no big deal. I wonder how many people here even donated to the site while actively scrolling past dono posts from folks who really do need help. They act like they’re doing a civil service by defending this site that makes over the amount of it’s intended dono goal in minutes.

Then you already know as soon as you even bring up racism in the stuff they like, they start ganging up and harassing black bloggers especially, calling them TERFs and the whole nine. Anything to make that person look bad for being concerned about the racism that they have such an intense aversion to. God, it’s absolutely exhausting knowing that these people would have no problem choosing a cartoon character over your entire existence if they COULD. Isn’t that fucking sad, man?

#:(#it’s like what can you do #as a black person I get why sm black bloggers here have ‘don’t follow me if you’re white’ in their bios #they’ll call it racist or whatever (it’s fucking not you guys just treat black ppl like shit here and most of us feel unsafe to interact #with y’all. you guys always turn on us at the drop of a hat)#i remember commenting on a HS post funny enough years ago #because the punchline of the post was literally the white mfs saying nigga #and I was so annoyed that I told them off and one of my white mutuals unfollowed meanjsjsjsl #like right after that #and another unfollowed me because I talk about racism and the like a lot like this is a really well known artist too so I was like 🧍🏾‍♀️?#because I talk about racism a lot??? it’s weird lol #like they’ll tolerate you for a while then when they feel offended they start to act weird and act like you’re not supposed to talk about #the stuff that effects you #tkf replies #karmelarts #they don’t give a shit about anything if it doesn’t personally Involve them #they act like they can’t relate to anyone or anything it they aren’t marginalized themselves (being gay or trans which they treat as a #personality trait)#notice how you never see movies/ shows about black and brown ppl trending here? it’s always white centered shit no #matter how hot and popular that show might be #you’ll never see something like the wire snowfall or power trending here #all of the black ppl are on twitter anyway so #sm black ppl got ran off of here by annoying white ppl

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assiraphales · 10 months

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the most gentle of zoro yeets

#luffy really went : you’re coming w me!!!!!#one piece #zolu #roronoa zoro #waters 7 #sorry for all the posts I’ve been sick and now I’m in that weird in between where i don’t feel well enough to do anything but watch tv lol

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arliedraws · 9 months

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I love that we see Remus with a book one (1) time in SWM (that he literally is only pretending to read) and y’all were like “he is a voracious reader he loves to read, he should own a bookstore, he is very smart and studious”

#I don’t doubt that Remus is highly intelligent #but in comparison to Sirius and James he doesn’t really compare #I think Remus would feel like he needed to prove he was grateful to be at school #naturally studious? no #feeling obligated to study and do well? absolutely #whereas James and Sirius come by magical skill instinctually #Sirius is a person who solves puzzles #James enjoys showing off #But Remus has to work hard

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stagefoureddiediaz · 8 days

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Something something about Eddie learning Buck will be there for him off the job, even without Chris being in the equation.

Something something about that being an important realisation for him to finally make because he’s always hidden behind his son when it comes to Buck (and his love life more generally - even Shannon in reality was for Chris not himself) but he won’t be able to this time.

Something something about that realisation being the key to giving himself permission to examine his heart and feel his true feelings.

#Eddie realising his worth separate from Chris is really important #and a part of that is learning that he has worth in the eyes of others without Chris being a consideration of that worth #Buck being there for him when Chris is absent is a key part of it.#because Eddie can literally put all of bucks actions down to being for and about Chris #(which we all know is not the case - Eddie is an unreliable narrator- just like Buck is)#I’m fascinated by the parallels with Bobbys s1 arc - about finding his worth without his family and building a new one #and seeing how the Church (and seemingly got priest) play into this #because I don’t think it’s the church that will lead to Eddie’s gay awakening - I think the church will give Eddie the capacity to forgive #himself and let Shannon go - to really deal with the healing there.#that will open the door for a Chris return at some point.#but I think Buck himself will be what leads Eddie to unlocking the feelings he’s been carrying around since at least the well if not before #Bucks steadfastness towards Eddie himself will give him the strength to give himself permission to examine his heart #911 spoilers #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 abc #911 speculation #buddie

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fireladybuckley · 4 months

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I can’t believe a boyfriend made a silly sex joke to lighten the mood after both partners had a moment of vulnerability. The audacity. The horror. The normalcy! Unbelievable. How dare a conversation about feelings turn to levity. How dare a couple have a light chat about trauma-related things over dinner that doesn’t turn into an incredibly deep heart to heart instead of a joke and moving on. Unbelievable. I’m never watching this show again! 👎🏻

#911 spoilers #bucktommy #Evan buckley #Tommy kinard #look #as a queer person in a relationship with another queer person #both of whom have major familial trauma #trust me when I say you generally DONT WANT ever reference to your feelings and trauma to turn into a huge deep discussion #sometimes you just say something vulnerable #and the other person does too #and then you joke about it and move on #humour is powerful coping mechanism as well #one that is pretty common especially among guys #people need to freaking relax ffs #Tommy is not a horrible person for making a flirty joke #things were said and feelings were acknowledged #and then they moved on #this is all perfectly freaking natural #Buck is not some sensitive flower that can’t handle a silly joke about daddy issues #please I beg you all to look at this at a distance with some common sense #rather than the ‘but Buck is traumatized and must always be treated delicately!!’ lens #and I am saying all of this as someone who really doesn’t give two fucks about the joke itself #I’m not into daddy kink idgaf #but if the idea that a queer couple isn’t allowed to insert a flirty joke to lighten a moment of vulnerability #then I don’t know what to tell you #you personally finding something innapropriate does not mean it’s actually innapropriate #please just chill out ffs #no one wants to hear about how evil Tommy is for hitting on his boyfriend for months and months to come

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vlasdygoth · 3 months

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think i'm gonna call it off

#ocelhira #mgs #id in alt text #sometimes you just have a scene in your head you cant get out so you draw fanart of your own fic #i just think they're never quite on the same wavelength in terms of accepting the feelings they have for each other #and if they had another ten years they could've crossed paths and worked it out but. oh well!#for the record i don't really think good luck babe is a them song but i've had it on loop recently i cant stop listening to it #took a while to grow on me but hey it's a good song did you know #idk. i feel like i've drawn this same thing eight times but here it is again #edit for fic link bc someone asked #not really a writer but sometimes you just have to. you Have To.#if you recognize my other fics no you don’t.

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kitamars · 1 year

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hello. um. sorry for disappearing for like two months. imagine me getting hit with a truck called “The Worst Creative Block In Your Life” and getting thrown headfirst into the gintama rabbit hole. it’s quite cozy down here. i think i need help.

anyways, have a bunch of accumulated doodles plus this terrifying kagura as apology tehe :3