#I wanted to do something easier on myself today

[fairycosmos]

Accidentally drank too much on an empty stomach last night and don't remember the last hour or so of the night so today I feel crazy embarrassed and ashamed even though according to my step tracker I just went on a walk around my neighborhood and according to my youtube history I was listening to 2000s pop punk. Yet I still feel like a criminal who needs to flee town I'm so sure I embarrassed myself. Why do I feel so much hangxiety?? I want the earth to swallow me up 😞

ughhhhhh youre literally so real like this has happened to me soooo many times and i know it's hell. i read something once about how it's just the alcohol that is still in ur system making the chemicals in your brain feel all off balanced and that's why even though you know you didn't do anything wrong the shame is still there. i always try to comfort myself by going through a quick mental checklist like did i hurt anyone? did i spend an insane amount of money? did i say anything objectiviely offensive? if the answer is no to all of those then i remind myself to just breathe through it bc nothing of note has happened, my brain is just a hungover hater. i know that's a lot easier said than done but honestly the feeling is only there until it inevitably fades and it will fade. i also notice that the more i think myself in circles about this trying to get rid of the shame and analyse it the harder it is to let it go so after the mental checklist i just recommend letting it be there, letting the feeling persist for however long it wants to and gently guiding your attention towards something else - a show, a hobby, a song, a walk, whatever. make sure you are watered and fed and get some more rest if needed. i'm srry you're going through this rn and i know words dont put a dent in it but honestly the burning anxiety will get smaller and smaller over the course of the next few days, promise. also side note i would love to walk around drunk and listen to 2000s pop punk with you! :^) x

[mogspawner]

Original by @genrihgayne

"There’s the door, we’ve got millions of applicants~"

[needylittlegirl]

theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to

[biolums]

[sydmarch]

spent months like I need prescription for my mental health give me prescription please please & now that I have it I'm like hm. do I want to have to take meds, actually

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[slugandthorn]

Putting my journal down realizing maybe I shouldn't make a written plan to socialize more efficiently

[speakeasier]

OHH BOY, LATE TO POSTING ONCE MORE. but it was partially because tumblr seems to have been acting up today??? part five and we barely alive, let's gooooooo.

a bit more on some relationships!!

-iris' relationship with hera has been rough all things considered. will probably explain more another time. but it's obvious why iris hated her at first. to this day, it's still not the best out there, as there is still some resentment. but it's tolerable. iris has come to gain some respect for hera over time and has learned a lot while serving under her.

-apollo's relationship with the muses is kind of like a manager to a girl group. lololl. the girls can manage themselves well enough, honestly. they can survive without him. (they've been entertaining even before he was born) but apollo kind of knows how to bring out the best of them with a good way of cohesion. he gives them a little oomph factor.

-the muses in turn, while taking apollo under their wing. wishes that artemis would join them more often. as sometimes it would be better to hear someone else other than apollo talk. plus they kind of want to wink wonk at the twins, even if subtlety.

-artemis sometimes hangs during casual down time or practice sessions, but she respects their sacred circle and time, so she doesn't stay long or visit often. she feels like she's a lowkey bother, even though she's not. she loves the muses dearly, and appreciates them a lot since they know how to reign apollo in.

-i feel like i should make some kind of venn diagram sometime. but in terms of the kids. you can kind of split them up into two main groups in terms of who hangs/talk to each other more often. artemis, apollo, athena, ares. and the other, heph, dite, dionysus, and then herms. there's obviously overlap and other intricacies, and honestly herms can even go to the other side. but for the most part, these peeps vibe with each other. will explain more eventually, hopefully!!

-this is kind of mean at least from me speaking on the outside perspective. but. LOLOL. the kids on olympus think seph is more a 'cousin' than a sister. if you ask them, they'll still say seph is a sib. but because she's kind of sheltered and sticks to demeter, her vibes is more of a cousin.

[welcometogrouchland]

Not going to an event because you suddenly got scared vs not going to an event bc you talked to someone and they were like "yeah it's fun but kinda boring and I'm not going this year and neither is anyone else we know" (I'm in hell I'm in hell I'm in hell)

[potpiehead]

ive been more depressed lately

[gumheel]

the stupidest part of being deeply suicidal and constantly carving your life smaller in response to trauma & brainfuckery is just how difficult it is to try and fix it once you realize that maybe you want to live and that life could be good. it's worth doing don't get me wrong! it's probably the thing that's most worth doing! but it's also. really hard to look at the pieces from the life that's been broken for the past several years and go okay, how do we put this back together

[leatherbookmark]

hopping around different blogs is fun.

a post on blog 1: i find it a little weird that -- don't get me wrong, the barbie movie looks great with all the doll-like details, i bet the actors had great fun and i'd like to see it myself, but -- people are getting excited about marketing of this movie. they're acting as though mattel's 3985* deals with 837* different companies are something new, exciting and creative instead of... 3985 deals with 837 companies spanning many different areas! this movie is a commercial for a doll! isn't this kinda weird?

*numbers made up

a post on blog 2: i don't think any sane adult doesn't realize that this is a toy commercial! it's rather obvious.

a post on blog 3: boo hoo 'the barbie movie is capitalist propaganda' i don't give a SHIT marx won't fuck you. did you do this for transformers too? do you think only stupid girls who like pink need the reminder?

like, oooooh! things are happening!

[stillfruit]

i hate spending money i hate how it makes me feel even if there’s no rational reason for it i hate the guilt and the burden and the anxiety and the fear and the pressure and t

[officialkatie]

whatever it’s MY blog and I get to choose the coping mechanisms and tonight it’s rage and also the Void

anyways i forget how to do a read more on mobile so just journaling in the tags.

[hearties-circus]

Hate how all my motor functions and sight just fuck off when I get tired