#I’m keeping this one safe 🥺💖✨

[corviisquire]

Hello~ I just wanted to let you know that this is what my doodling-while-i-work sketches look like these days... 👀 I am obsessed with my beautiful blue lady 💙🥺

(ignore the colours, this was done with blue and pink highlighters lmao. they just were in hand at the time)

Not showing you my pinterest board for because it's embarrassingly full lmao. I'll make a nice moodboard for her and post it here though! Also I have been looking at couture dresses and pearls and gems to figure out her dress (because i am OBSESSED with all the layers and details you put, there's so much leeway for beautiful fabrics and ruffles and ways to connect the hood!!!), so thank you for rekindling my fashion designer side 😌✌️

I have been toying with the idea of making the moon into actual horns since we talked about it (like Maleficent?) - you mentioned opals and shell linings, and I think it would look sick if the moon-antlers/horns had that opalescence sheen to them? Maybe it could mirror the mask?

Idk, I haven't quite fleshed her out yet so that may change. She still doesn't have a name; Miss Missy is being very secretive about her life (no surprise there 🙄).

I do wanna show you this! There's this gemstone called Azurite, that has this beautiful shade of deep blue, with purples, and some greens and gold speckles and spots (seriously - look it up, it's fantastic). I like the idea of her being connected to gems and stuff, and I think this one in particular fits her vibe SO well?? So yeah.

Sorry if this is kind of a long, weird ramble, but I just wanted to let you know that our Blue Lady (that's her temporary name) is being well taken care of and cherished 🌙💙✨ Hope you're doing well!!!! 🫂💙🥺

AAAAA sorry for the late(r) response I was about to go to bed and saw this. I just- OMGOMGOMGOMG my face is heating up. Jinefvijneifjvneijfcn 💜🩵💙🩵💙🩷🩷💙🩵💜🩵💖💕💓❣️💘💞💗💕💗💖💕💞💗🐟🔥💕💖🩵💞🩵💞🩵🔥💓💗💙💗❣️💗❣️🐟❣️🐟💙💓💓🔥😱❣️🔥😱💗💓💕💕❣️💕💜🔥❣️🔥🦑🔥

Me staring at my phone rn.

And why she urple?? There’s so many thoughts going on in my head rn.

1. YOU DID THAT WITH HIGHLIGHTERS WHAT??? excuse me??? what In the Bob Ross???? I love the way you blended the pink and blue and the sketchiness of the lines AUGH. It’s so crunchy… good food…….. you captured her whimsical aura perfectly. The fabric for her sleeves is so nice. You drew her so pretty omg omg

2. I love malificent so much :(((( I love sleeping beauty, I love the live action malificent… OPAL MASK AND HORNS HELLO. Blue Lady is killing it over here, my god. She’s got the bling. She’s got the swag. What more could she have.

3. My grandparents are jewelers and they used to keep random geodes and gems around their house and azurite was one of them! I remember because they would try to teach me about rocks and gems and different gem cuts and I just sat there “no thoughts, head empty, I only want to look at pictures of agate and peridot”. their azurite was very very small and I’m not sure where it is anymore. My favorite gem has to be zircon though, love that stuff. I will for sure be reading more on azurite though!

4. (Psst I have a character who’s like a pomegranate goddess and I think her and Blue Lady would get along wonderfully. Her name is Punicae and you can find her og design here.)

them with not accurate coloring cause i be speed drawing. They slay. Together.

I’m going to go to bed. Stay safe, take care of yourself, LOVE yourself. Tysm for this I’m crying. Love you very much and giving you all the azurite your heart could desire 💙🩵💖

[itzymidzy]

240606 TWITTER: itzyofficial

🐰: Who wants to make a Sleepless day in Seattle with me? 유나왔섭🙋‍♀

🐰: I'll go get ready now ㅎㅎ Thank you for your support 💕 I'll tear up the Seattle stage 👻

👤: did you eat???

🐰: yes☺️

👤: what’s been your favourite thing in seattle ????

🐰: city view🌃

👤: yuna please say hi to me i’m lonely

🐰: hi

👤: hi yuna, we love you so much!!! good luck performing today in seattle! ❤️🐰

🐰: thank u💕 i love u too

👤: I used the English alarm you gave us yesterday! Woke up with in a happy mood because of Yuna’s sweet laugh!

🐰: haha.. that sounds good:) have a good day gabby🌼

👤: Yuna, even though we are far apart, know that I will always be by your side, I promise to be by your side whenever you need me. I love Yuna as big as this heart because that is a promise I must keep to Yuna 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

🐰: Capture: I'm scared.. haha ​​I still love you 🫶🏻

👤: Shin Yuna, from yesterday’s bubble to today, it feels like a very active Janggu 😆

🐰: It’s me, it’s me, it’s Eve 👻

👤: My love be careful next time🥺💕

🐰: yes sir. 💕

👤: It's our goddess Yunaㅑㅑ Let's have fun today ㅎㅎㅎ I love you 🩷

🐰: Okay, okay, let’s have fun 🥰

👤: yuna what are you excited to eat in the us

🐰:pizza..?🤭

👤: Yuna please choose one, pizza or me? 🥹

🐰: of course not pizza. you..!👻💕

👤: HI YUNA 💖 HAVE FUN AND ENJOY TODAY CONCERT. I LOVE YOU!!

🐰: 👌🏻🎀💙 good luck🥰

👤: Cheer up today too! I'm going to work now

🐰: Wow ㅎㅎ I will do my best, and even though I am broke, I will eat well today, look at the sky, and do my work well 💕

👤: You are a shining diamond💎✨✨ i love u💕💕

🐰: Haha, I love you too 🥰

👤: Bye. I will never get a reply from Yuna lol just kidding. Yuna you’ll do great! Enjoy your US tour & stay safe! 😎 👋🏼

🐰: you can get reply from me😎💕 have good day💕

[eddiesghxst]

I HOPE YOU CAN STILL REMEMBER THE QUESTION ABOUT THAT YOU ASKED ME WHAT IS MY FAVORITE JOHN WICK PART- all of the sequels are amazing and the action scenes gets cooler and intense as always and hello- KEANU REEVES is the best! I love the first one, it's just so great and the suspense about "The Boogeyman" scene is so freaking awesome like I remember my dad was geeking out while he's showing this film to me when I was 13 or 14 and I became so obsessed with it! I might be biased about it because Willem Dafoe and John Leguizamo is in there like I know they're just supporting actors but I just really like how it is written- it's so iconic- AND ALSO THE DAMN DOG had me gasping for air 😔✋🏻 I'm such a nerd about films like I could talk about it all day lmao

OKAY, LEMME JUST RANT ABOUT THE NEW CHAPTERS OF PRICE OF FAME?!? IT JUST KEEPS GETTING BETTER AND BETTER ON EVERY PART THAT YOU JUST RELEASED?!? THAT WHOLE SERIES?!? IS LITERALLY MY LIFE RIGHT NOW! I honestly adore your writing (you deserve more recognition‼️the immediate urge to reblog your every post and I will stand right behind you whenever someone tries to tear you down- I swear to my soul 🤺🤺🤺🤺 ) and omfg your humor and your enthusiasm is so real like I could tell we both have the same chaotic energy 😭🫶🏻✨

and there's one more to answer your question about how I'm doing (thank you btw! I love you so much! 🥺) because I've been out of Tumblr for a long time, I had a LOT of family gathering and taking breaks when I'm getting drained in college lol- I just love it whenever I checked your profile and read all your fics it just brings such a good mood and a smile to my face! I hope you're doing okay always and I wish you're safe and taking care of yourself out there! KEEP DOING WHAT YOU LOVE AND WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY AHHHHHH I MISS INTERACTING WITH YOUUUUU 😭😭💖💖

UGHHH LOVE LOVE LOVE KEANU, LOVE THAT MAN DOWN !! HE DESERVES ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD🥹

AND YES SO TEA BC LITERALLY SAME !! my dad got me into action movies when i was littleeee so now im just an action junkie💀 like i used to religiously watch kill bill for fun😭 AND THEN JOHN WICK CAME AND IVE NEVER BEEN THE SAME I LOVE THAT MAN I COULD GO ON AND ON ABT HIM✋

STOP UR GONNA MAKE ME CRY STINK🥹🥹🥹 IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME THAT U LOVE POF SO MUCH, ITS BEEN VERY FUN SHARING THEM SO IM HAPPY THEYRE LOVED (maybe not eddie yet but that’s okay) BUT OHHH IM GIVING U THE FATTEST SMOOCH THROUGH THE SCREEN TY STINK ILY

and girllll, literally same😭 when i tell yall college has been beating my ass with a stick😭 i’m down bad every week😭 BUT WE PERSIST ! WE’RE GONNA MAKE IT BESTIE I BELIEVE IN US !! WE’RE GETTING THAT DAMN DEGREE OKAY !

[kedsandtubesocks]

So im super stressed over my finals but reading you answering my ask made me giddy!!!

OMGS ANOTHER MYTHOLOGY GEEK WUUUTTTT

Im literally giggling rn!!!!!

Oh my gosh!!!thats so awesome seriously!!!!its rare to find people appreciate mythology!!!im so happy to find someone like me!!!!like,im always talking about mythology and my friends are like "holy shit how do you know all those?" And i have so many books about them!!!!

And your ideas are amazing!!!!omgs i cant wait!!!!! whatever you write I WILL READ WUTH MY SOUL!!!!

And about gojo,THIS MAN WONT EVER SHUT UP SPECIALLY IF HE FINDS SOMEONE HE LOVES!!!ITS JUST IMPOSSIBLE TO SHUT UP WHEN HE SPOTS HIS LOVE!!!

There are so many greek myths to explore with gojo!!!tbh,i dont usually read these kind of aus,or royal aus cause they kinda make me sad,but your fic gosh!!!!it didnt make me even slightly sad because i was giggling all the time!!!

Oh my the one part where gojo proposed??? I screenshot that part and sent it to my friend whining about whats the point if someone doesnt propose to me like that!!!

You're at fault for making my standards even higher

Ok ok im rambling but i seriously enjoy our talk about these stuff.

(imagine Calypso! Gojo waiting on that island for his love to come and get him :)))

I'll stop now!!!

(im picturing us in a cafe giggling over our favorite myths and having a cold drink gods its your fault!!!)

I hope you're doing well!!!with love,your number 1 fan

Ah hi sweet anon! I’m glad I could help ease the stress of finals cause oof do I not miss that lol but I bet ur gonna do amazing I’m rooting for you!!

Omg pls I completely understand and I’m glad i get to geek out with you about mythology cause I love it too!!

🥺 AND OH MY GOODNESS!!??? Please you really are too kind thank you thank you!!!!

And dude for real, I am the biggest believe of Love Sick Gojo™️, he’s a Sagittarius and yeah they’re big on being flirty but they love to talk and love fiercely and that is Gojo?? He’s ridiculous and loud but he’s lost so many people so when he finally finds someone, you said it perfectly, HE WONT SHUT UP LMAOO (and I hate/love him for that)

I get that AU’s even mythology ones aren’t everyone’s cup of tea and when I first started writing hades!Gojo I remember being nervous bcs it’s a niche thing too (all my ideas are usually weird / way too specific au’s as you will soon find out lmaooo 🤡) but I’m so happy you were able to get excited and enjoy 💖

OMG NOT U SCREAMING ABOUT THE FIC WITH UR FRIENDS I WANT TO CRY?!?!?! I’ve been in the exact same position with so many of my friends so to think you had that reaction to my little old fic?? I’m really honored 😭

And oooo calypso Gojo would be so interesting!! Look at you go anon I love it!!

I hope this giggling and warm energy keeps you going through finals! I’M ur biggest fan rooting for you and I’m wishing you a safe and wonderful rest of your day!! 🌸✨

[acefaun]

I am sorry for your loss. Please don't worry, everything will be alright. Drink plenty of water ok, take rest. *forehead kiss*

I want to thank you for accepting my request, but please don't worry about writing it. I would feel sad if you are sad. So for my sake be gentle on yourself. 🍀🌸

Um... 🥺👉🏻👈🏻 Marry me?

~~don’t mind me 😣 just a little emotionally touched by the affection here

Do you know touch starved? That's me. 💀

I did already write your fic though! The draft is finished. I need to go flesh it out with fabulous sentence structure and grammar and all that good stuff. So there's no going back! I've come this far and I think it's an enjoyable little story. It's smol. Around 1k words. A wittle bean compared to my more recent fics. But still nice! ✨

I do be drinking water. 💕 And I got my hair cut, finally. ✨ I want to trim my bangs though. It's not Ichthys enough to my liking. But I feel very nice with my haircut today. Nice enough to be tempted to share it... If my bangs were the way I wanted them... 😝💖 I'll take care of myself and keep existing safely for you guys. 💕 You all just have to promise to take care of yourselves too! If you stop taking care of yourselves then I’ll… stop taking my medicine! I’m warning you! Take care of yourself! I’m watchin you!

But I'm also good now about Gumbo. I needed a hot minute but I accepted Phoenix as my new puppy. 💕 I'm not sure when she'll be able to come home, but I'm really looking forward to having a partner in crime to help me with life. 🥰

Which, speaking of Phoenix...

👀 sir, again, pls, MY Phoenix. I'm not ready to share MY best friend. If you didn't notice, I ONLY almost gave .01% ownership of Gumbo to one of my anons because I was apologetic and guilty. But now Gumbo is with my gods. So only they get ownership. (another note: stop saying Phoenix is rising from ashes. Ash was literally Gumbo's sibling and that phrase you keep saying keeps rubbing on me the wrong way. 💀)

So Phoenix, MINE. Phoenix is gonna be my first forever companion. Not anyone else's. MINE. The only others who can claim her are my wives, because they're not physically here to steal Phoenix's affection from me but will probably love her just as much as me! 💖

...my sis in law had said that I- I needed to be more assertive... So... Watch as I assert my dominance and set boundaries! FEAR ME! Tremble in terror! Obey me, else you will know the wrath of my PHOENIX!

😚 Wuv you guys. 💞

[bokuroskitten]

Daddy kink Draken who's little girlfriend gets him some cute silly litte gift for his birthday like matching sanrio keychains 😭❤️ I love him so much

Hiii nonnie this was from yesterday I know but I loved it so much that I wanted to answer it! This is also one of my fav headcanons cause I love LOVE collecting dumb little trinkets for my partners 😭 Kenny doesn’t know what to do them all, half the time he do be staring at them blankly like “what in the WORLD am I gunna do with this—“ but it’s different on his bday, cause he knows just how excited you are to give it to him 🥺

Once the two of you have finished up the birthday dinner you ordered for him, as well as the cake you settle into the couch with each other. He can practically feel you vibrating with excitement and he can’t keep the grin from twitching onto his lips as he looks over to you, the hand that was once resting along the back of the couch now smoothing over your hair.

“Alright lil love, go get that present you’ve been dyin to give me.” He puffed out a laugh when you squealed in response, prancing off to retrieve the gift you’ve been literally dying to give him all day. Draken wasn’t really into gifts, not for himself anyway. But seeing the excitement shine in your eyes as you so delicately held the pretty wrapped box in your hands, the way you bit your lip as you slid to straddle one of his thighs.

It was just too cute to handle.

“It’s nothin big, promise daddy!” You reassure him as he eyes up the bag, that usual sternness he holds in his gaze fading away to fondness as he takes a good look at the box. Of course you wrapped it up nice and pretty for him, even drew little hearts all over the wrapping, the biggest one sitting beside his name. Keeps one hand on your low back to rub gentle circles into it as he slowly tugs away at the ribbon.

“What is it then?” He muses playfully, a laugh threatening to bubble up past his lips when you pout at him. “You’re about to open it! See for yourself daddy!” When you hold the box closer to his face after the ribbons been removed he finally lets himself laugh, pressing a kiss to your forehead in hopes to calm you down. “Alright alright, m’goin…”

He lifts the lid, brows starting to furrow a bit from the brightly coloured tissue paper that covers the contents of the box. You’re rambling about how he needs to ‘hurry up please’ and ‘oh you’re gunna love it!’ as he moves the paper aside. His thick fingers are met with cold metal, and his initial thought is that maybe you’ve bought him a new chain, which certainly isn’t a small gift. “Baby, what did I tell you about—“

But once he’s pulled the gift completely free from the box he realizes his guess his completely wrong. Instead he’s met with the sight of two hello kitty charms dangling in front of him. They’re the same, it’s hello kitty herself and her boyfriend Daniel (yes, he knew that because of you, though he’d never admit that to a soul) riding together on a moped. When he looks close enough, he notices that you’ve done your best to paint the same twin dragon across the side that’s tattooed on his head, as well as painted on his motorcycle.

“They didn’t have one riding a motorcycle, so this was the closet thing!” You’re so excited you’re giggling through your words, quick to grab at your phone on the coffee table before holding it up with a large grin. “We can put them on our phones and match!! Happy birthday daddy~!”

Typically Ken would question your little gifts, sometimes even going as far as telling you as gently as possible that he didn’t need them. But right now, seeing how excited you were, how much effort you put into finding something that yea, was maybe much more your style, but reminded you of him? Plus, the way you were bouncing on his thigh so much that your skirt was bunching up? (This was an added bonus, of course.)

A smile curled on his lips, and before you could get another giddy word in he cupped the back of your neck, bringing you in for a kiss. You sighed into his mouth, fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt as the embrace deepened. He pulled away just enough to speak, lips pressing feather like kisses to your pretty glossed lips between each word. “They’re perfect baby, you’re so good t’me. Thank you..” He nuzzled his nose up against yours just to hear you giggle, before he brought the cute lil charms in front of your face again. “Can you put it on daddy’s phone f’me? Then we can take a picture with them on in the mirror, Kay?”

Draken Birthday Party Masterlist. 💛

[blackgirlfandomwriter]

Dating Gang Orca 🐋

(A.K.A Kugo Sakamata)

~ When you first met Kugo you were kinda scared of him

~ After you got to know him though, you two became very close very fast 

~ Before you two even started dating, Kugo wanted to know everything about you and vice versa 

~ He wanted to make sure that you knew who Kugo Sakamata was aside from his whole hero persona 

~ A perfect gentlemen in and out of public 💖

~ PDA is a no but when you're at home or in private Kugo is all over you 🥰

~ I'm talking snout kisses, long hugs, etc......😏

~ Even though Kugo doesn't like PDA, he still likes to hold you close in public 

~ He always has his arm around you or your hand in his 

~ The clear definition of ✨A king in the street but a freak in the sheets✨

~ Lots of cozy nights in 

~ Cute little private dates 

~ Long nightly walks around the city 

~ Cuddling is a MUST! with him being the big spoon of course 

~ It puts him at ease to know that you are safe in his arms  🥺

~ Late night talks about your future together 

~ PROTECTIVE! But in a good way

~ He loves sending you flowers and little gifts. Especially when he's away on missions and business trips

~ You take it upon yourself to either send Kugo lunch OR message him a reminder to take a break and eat something 😂

~ Like deadass this man will get so caught up in work that he forgets that he needs nutrition  

~ Random office visits are MWAH💋

~ You popping up at the office makes his day ten times better 

~ Seeing you smile or hearing you laugh is like gold to him 

~ He loves to see you happy and will do anything to keep you that way 

~ Kugo is a great communicator 

~ If you guys get into a disagreement, Kugo is always the one to be like "Hey, let's sit down and talk this out" 

~ Kugo also NEVER raises his voice at you 

~ To sum this all up Kugo Sakamata is one of the best boyfriends to have hands down  

[ajokeformur-ray]

A BUG?????? LADY???????? 😡😡😡😡

YOU ARE NEVER A BUG DO YOU HEAR ME??!!??!????!!! YOU ARE MY WIFE AND I LOVE YOU GOD DAMNIT 😤😤😤😤😤😤💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

… ok carry on with the arthur rant 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Gennnnnnn my beloved !!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

This made me giggle so hard while brushing my teeth that I had to spit early to avoid choking (do nOT take that outta context, I can see that smirk from here🤣😂) so apologies for laughing!!! On the other hand, I can FEEL the indignation coming off you in WAVES omllllll 😩😭😂💀 I hear you, loud and clear!!!🥺 you are never ever a bug either and I fucking ADORE hearing from you, it makes everything feel right in the world again & I feel like things are gonna be okay when you’re here🥺❤️YOU’RE MY WIFE AND I LOVE YOU TOOOOOO (Arthur’s giggling, I can hear him😂🥺) 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖����💖💖💖💖💖

Arthur rant? Arthur rant.

(Mostly self-shipping, some character analysis, ALL me being a werewolf and going wild in one solid stream of consciousness)

My fucking GOD where do I start with Arthur?

Some exposition, first, as to where this rant came from. I know I don’t talk about Arthur much anymore but that’s because it hurts. But more on that in a second. Last night, I was trying to study and I just had no motivation to even find something to put on Netflix to play in the background while I did work (usually some kind of horror because I love me some safe and cathartic fear), and I wanted to go home. I was sat there drinking coffee staring into space and then you know when you get a brain worm and a song plays in your head and the chords are a bit out of reach so you almost have to listen a bit longer before you can figure out what the song is? I had that, with the instrumental version of ✨That’s Life✨, and it made me think of Arthur (duh) and then I found just a little bit of energy to put on the Frank Sinatra rendition, and within literally ten seconds it felt like the ache in my chest, tight from stress, was already beginning to wear away, and I picked up my pen and did some more work but then the song finished and the ache came back and holy fuck I can’t do this I should drop uni I should quit I’m stupid - and I SWEAR in that moment I wanted nothing more than to go home.

Alone, in my bedroom, surrounded by deadlines, assignments, books, and I wanted to go home.

This is so cliche but I did what anyone would do - I followed the music and I ended up, quite spontaneously, watching Joker. You know me, babe, when I watch Joker, I plan it. I section off the time in my day and almost have it be an appointment (a DATE). I wear the clothes, the paint, I put a sign on my door so no one knocks and disturbs me (I’m disturbed enough but I mean…😂), and I just go for it. Lights off (even with my fear of the dark, I can stomach having just the TV on so long as I keep my eyes on Arthur - he makes it so it’s like I’m bigger than my fear and it doesn’t matter because HE’S there🥺) and everything.

But last night I didn’t.

I just followed the music and surrounded by my study stuff, I watched Joker. I was surprised by it, tbh, there I was with no energy to even scroll Netflix and all of a sudden I’d sat up straighter and put on a film so damn fast it was like I’d slipped outside my body for a minute. Didn’t even remember scrolling YouTube to find it. One minute I just wanted to go home and the next, there he was.

Arthur.

Gen, honey, when I tell you that I nearly fucking CRIED at the sight of his back, his brown curls and that white T-shirt. I miss Arthur so MUCH and yet he’s been here the entire fucking time. Every day since 4th October 2019, he’s been here, and it’s amazing to me that I can love him just as strongly today as I did the day the film was released, the day I met the person I never knew I needed and the day I found some wonderful friends which I still have today. Just the sight of his back had me wanting to cry, and I know I had to pause it just to pull myself together because I can’t cry before the title card!! (I can but I don’t think I realised how much I NEEDED Arthur last night; my body did, though). I just instinctively took a long deep ass breath and my entire body melted into my desk chair and holy fuck every feeling I’ve ever had about Arthur hit me all at once and all I could do was stare at him.

Film moves on and Arthur picks up his medications and then I remembered THAT I’D FORGOTTEN TO TAKE MY IRON TABLETS so I paused it, grabbed my meds, and took them just as Arthur got them out of the bag and it felt like doing something with him in real time and I 😭😭😭😭😭😭I even flicked off my light just as he flicked his off when Murray comes on show because I wanted to feel like we were doing something together, cosying up and watching TV. I felt ridiculous doing it but also why the hell not? There’s so much of Arthur that I carry with me every day; when I wake up at 530am for work, I lay there until 6am listening to music and pulling myself together because once I get up, I gotta hit the ground running and I just need 30 minutes to prepare myself for a day which doesn’t stop. I get on the bus when it’s still dark out and I instinctively look for a yellow hoodie (gotta buy me one of those!!!!!) and dark curls. I go to work, I come home and it’s dark out still, I have a shower, have dinner, do the chores, then I have to study and do this this and this and fuck babe I’m always so damn TIRED. But I think of Arthur and step step step and I think of his knowing and weary smile, the way he carried on even when he likely felt that it was absolutely useless because things are never gonna be any different so why should he try so hard? But he did, every single fucking day, he kept going and I draw so much strength from that. Because if Arthur can do all that feeling as he does, then I can do it, too.

When I step off the bus, I find myself looking for Arthur. In every corner, in every alley and alcove, in every known smoker’s corner, I look for Arthur but I also know that I don’t need to because I carry him with me purposefully every day. Even if I’m not consciously aware of my thoughts, I know he’s in my mind somewhere because the ones we love are always on our minds in some kind of way. When I’m yawning so hard that my jaw is cracking on my way home I’m imagining him doing that smile and raising my hand to rest his cheek against it; telling me in his own way that he feels it, too. When I get home and kick my shoes off to go jump in the shower, I picture him with me, too, and I wash my hair as gently as I would wash his because he wouldn’t like me being so rough on myself and I’d do anything to make him proud. All these small moments, again and again and again, every day, I do because I want to be someone he would love (I already am but you know what I mean), someone he would be proud of (jury’s out on that personally because I’m not quite who I wanna be yet but I’m getting there and I know you and Arthur are proud of me and that’s more than enough!).

530am - 1020pm is a long fucking day (and sometimes it’s even as late as midnight, depending on what I need to get done that day; and about two weeks ago I went to bed at 330am because I had an assignment due and I got up at 530am to go to work and omllll that was such a hard day because I still stayed up until 1020pm out of necessity and honey I’m a permanently exhausted pigeon😩😩😩) but I try so damn hard, though at the same time it feels like I’m barely trying. But Arthur!!! He had his job, he was going to therapy, actively working on his dream career, he was taking his medications, caring for Penny…. He was working so fucking HARD and because of that, I find the strength to at least TRY to do the same.

When Joker came on screen, oh my god. Oh my fucking gOD. Have you ever screamed without making a sound? It was like my heart was in my throat and the dam BROKE. Out of nowhere I was sobbing and smiling and giggling and baby!!! Joker !!!! Even now I’m grinning omg please his name is… oh, you know. I genuinely don’t think I realise sometimes how much I need Arthur, Joker. So many days I tell myself no, I refuse to let myself watch the film because I have to study or I have to do this or this or this, but I think I need to remember that that’s a way of hurting myself. When I miss Arthur and want to see him so badly that I can’t focus on my work or I want to cry, I will still tell myself no, and that’s something he DEFINITELY wouldn’t agree with, even if he’d understand it. I’ve never tried to study while having the film on in the background but I think I should start doing it because what better motivation to have right in front of me than the man I’m literally doing an entire second degree for because I want to go into a career to help people like him?

My job allows me to help real people, too, and so Arthur is, arguably, at the core of everything I do. I admire him so much - not for the terrible things he did, obviously, and this post isn’t really about those things (though it’s important to acknowledge them) - and every time I’m walking slowly or barely studying or lying in bed later than I should be, I think of Arthur and what he’d do or say. He’d get his head down and he’d just… do it. Whether he wanted to or not, whether he was feeling well or not, Arthur would do it. And if he can do it, then so can I. And Joker!!!! He’s still in so much pain; he chose his name but not what came with it and I’d give anything to give HIM even five minutes of a love so intense all he would be able to do is sit there and take it in. I miss him so much that it HURTS but he’s always right here and all I have to do is listen to the soundtrack or watch the film and there he is. The ACHE I carry with me every day, which sits in my chest and is full of ‘oh shit oh fuck I can’t do this there’s no time. It’s only 7am but there’s no time in the day to do anything and I have this this and this to do and I have to get that done and I need to remember this and don’t forget this and holy fuck where’s Arthur what would he say to me right now?’ Is soothed immediately by Arthur.

Those dark curls, those green eyes which swim with all the sadness, anger and want in the world, that heart so full of love that he devotes his life to making children laugh even when he’s off the clock just because he loves it so much, the laughter which rips out of his throat, the hiccups when he’s genuinely giggling, the makeup, the clothes, the baggy cardigans and his soft voice, those deep set frowns and weary smiles, the sharpness of his eyes when he’s wronged and trying to speak up for himself only to go quiet when he realises yet again that no one’s hearing him, the way he takes care of others until there’s nothing left to give but yet more is still taken, the way he laughs at the jokes he writes, the way he works so fucking hard all the time and tries and tries and tries and TRIES until it fucking BREAKS him…

If beautiful, ethereal, tragic mess Arthur can do what he does - terrible things aside - then so the fuck can I. Looking at him HURTS because when I look at him, I remember who I was in 2019. I was in an extremely bad place, so lonely and angry, bitter and cold, but Arthur taught me better. He found me at a time when I didn’t wanna be here anymore and his story told me that someone understood, someone saw me, someone knew what it was like but that someone was still going on, and through him I became softer, kinder, wiser, I found some beautiful amazing friends (if you think I mean you, you’re right and I love you) and I found a career I wanted (and Gen, you helped me find a way into that career and encouraged me and you DO encourage me endlessly and I could never thank you enough for that) and I’m still trying to become softer, kinder, wiser still, to find parts of me I dislike (of which I have many lmao I’m p sure I carry many a red flag and I wanna work on them and improve them) and to find something in Arthur I admire so I teach myself to be better in that way. He’s so inspiring, so full of love and life and strength and wisdom and good fucking god what I wouldn’t do just to be able to look at him and tell him all of these things, to tell him he’s so very loved and I’m proud of him and there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for him.

I spent two hours last night with my heart in my throat and tears in my eyes - like I do every fucking time - but it was exactly what I needed in 2019, it was exactly what I needed a year ago, it was exactly what I needed now. No matter how far away from myself I feel like I stray, one look at Arthur and I remember 2019 Erika and how hard she tried and I remember 2020 Erika and how badly she felt and I remember 2021 Erika and how hard she tried, and then I look at me and I realise that 2019 Erika and every other me is in here; Arthur brings me home to him and therefore to myself and I love him so much but I have to wonder sometimes… if he saw me today, would he recognise me? Would he love me still? The answer’s yes, of course it is, but overwhelmingly I feel like that has to be earned. That’s just another thing to work on.

The point is, I’ve loved Arthur since 4th October 2019 and every time I think perhaps I can’t love him more or I worry that I don’t love him at all (that’s stress making me unable to process anything BUT stress, as you so patiently remind me every time I come to you with this worry), I find myself falling in love all over again and I know that whoever Erika is right now, she’ll be okay. She has Arthur, so how could things be so wrong?

(I have so much to fucking do today as always and I’m scared and worried and STRESSED but this is such a good way to start the day so I think I’ll be okay. Joker will make it that way lmao studying while cuddling the cushion which looks like his suit is NEVER enough to soothe the ache but I like to think that every time I hug the cushion he can feel it🥺😭💔)

[disdaidal]

Okay so it's 00.01 29.06.2022 😁 !!! On this day I wish - oh HOW I wish, Laura!!! - I wish we could fuck politics, fuck the distance, fuck the never-ending no time, no money, no possibility circle, buy a ticket, meet somewhere for real, GET DRUNK on fancy cocktails or just a bottle of wine and laugh and talk and have fun together 🥰❤️💖💫✨💋

Happy birthday to the most AMAZING person!!! Have an awesome day, have a TERRIFIC YEAR!!!🌹🌹🌹

(probably too many fucks for a BDay wish but oh well🙄) LOVE YOU❤️

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💖💖💖 THANK YOU 💖💖💖💖🥺🥺🥺🥺

I promise you: one day WE WILL meet, get drunk on cocktails or some wine, laugh and talk and have fun together. This, I promise. When I get more money and the time is right, I’ll fly to you, and you know what: fuck politics! We’re gonna hang out together and have so much fun, and no force in the world can stop me. We’re practically neighbours anyway, so no border will stop me from coming to you and giving you a big bear hug! 🐻🤗

And holy shit, that is such a pretty card! 🥺💖🌺 I’m gonna print it and keep it safe for memories. 😭🥺🥰

(also there are never too many fucks for me, not even on my bday, never!) 😁💖

I LOVE YOUUUUU~💕

[anotherwritersblog]

Oh. Hello. There’s quite a few of y’all here. I guess an introduction might be in order.

• You can call me Rose, if you’d like. She/Her pronouns.

• I’m twenty-six, trying to navigate through life one day at a time right now. So patience is all I ask of you.

• This is just my little corner of the writing community where I post my writings and throw my writer things so they don’t get lost in my likes.

• This is also a ✨ sideblog ✨so obvi I’m following from main.

• @anothermcublog is my other sideblog where you can find my own fic recs (#support creators by reblogging their work) and my love interests.

• Even though most of my writings are fluff, I do have a few pieces with either suggestive +18 content, or actual +18 content. To make things easier, this will be an +18 blog. Meaning if you interact with it and you don’t have your age in your bio or are under the age of 18, you will be blocked. If children can keep themselves accountable, so can you.

• This is also a safe space for all genders, sexualities, and just anyone who needs it 💕

• My asks are open and anons are on for now. Please don’t abuse this though. We need more positivity in this community than we do rude anons.

• My main masterlist can be found here.

• Right now, most of my writings involve Bucky x Reader, Steve x Reader, or Stucky. I’m slowly adventuring out into other characters. Give me time. I’ll get there eventually.

• Besides my reader/character tags, other important tags you will see around here are:

#awb rant: me just posting my own thoughts or random ideas

#awb reblog: reblogging posts with love

#fic recs and #🥰 : someone recommended my fic and I never felt more loved 🥺

#awb masterlist: I have a few floating around (ex. The main, a Bucky one, and I plan on doing monthly masterlists of all my pieces I’ve written for the month)

#writer things: thoughts and things to do for writing so they don’t get lost in my drafts or likes/writing things that made me laugh

• I appreciate every like/comment/reblog you give (whether you follow me or not), but those of you who decided to give this little writer a follow? The consistent love does not go unnoticed 💖

Much love, 🌹

[osamusriceballs]

I'm so happy that you got a new job 🥺 and congratulations for the efforts you've put into your semester! Keep it up 🥰💖

Watching breaking bad is absolutely a great decision. The series is *chef's kiss*, it'll leave you amazed and yes, heartbroken as well. 😭😭😭 you will really understand why breaking bad wouldn't exist if it took place in Germany! 😂

My cousin also wants me to watch jujustu kaisen so I can ✨simp✨ with her. I've been told how awesome that anime is and I can't wait to watch it! 😫😫😫

School's about to start on September 13th and I am STILL unprepared! 🤧 Sadly, my grandmother passed away last September 7th and it shocked the whole family. 😭 I just woke up and heard my mom crying—that's when my gut knew that something was wrong. Me, my siblings, and my cousins rushed into grandma's room while she took her last breath until she went peacefully. 😞 I'm still in disbelief that she is gone and I cried a lot. I have yet to accept that it's time for her to rest. Grandma lived a long and happy life, and she was loved by many especially her family. ❤❤❤

STAY SAFE AND TAKE ALL OF MY LOVE!!! 💖💖💖 - 🤡👀

Thank you!! 💖💖 my contract got an extension, and i‘ll be there till December for now 🥰 but since I now have two weeks off, I’ll have tons of time to get back to writing, I was really looking forward to that 💖🥰

I started watching it last week, and it‘s soooo good omg 😳😳 I get the hype now, but I’m still at season one, so no spoilers pls 😭😭 I’m not ready to get my heart broken, but the series has a rather dark setting, so I feel like some of the main characters might die during the series 😭😭🥺 not Walt and jesse pls 😭😭😭🥺

YES, OMG PLS WATCH IT, I WANT TO SIMP WITH YOU TOO!! 💖💖🥰🥰 There are three characters I simp hard for 😫😫 I don‘t want to spoil you, but damn… that one blonde man… he can get it anytime 🥰🥰 #whipped

How was the first week of school? 🥺 I hope it went well!! Did you get new teachers? And how about your class mates? 💖

I’m so sorry to hear about your loss, I‘m glad that she passed away peacefully without pain and had her family around her. Take all the time you need, it‘s not easy to let go of a beloved person, but I’m sure that she‘ll always be with you 🥺

Sending you love and support back!! 💖💖 take some rest after your first week of school, you deserve to treat yourself now! 💖

[daechwitatamic]

OMG it’s unhinged anon that read through your masterlist whilst I should have been working - I just finished what was hidden. I think this is a holy grail fic for me, it’s one of the best ones I’ve read!!! I loved tae so much, soft frat boy who just wants to be loved and has so much love to give!!! and oc who is so worthy of love but can’t see it and won’t accept it - chaos (and idiotic behaviour) ensues but it was all worth it in the end !!!! their cute friendship that became a flirtationship that became a relationship that became a love-ship (??) !!! I loved their vocab inside joke, and the baby tell that oc figured out, I loved their banter and the sass and the eye rolling, I loved their relationship growing, tae’s patience and kindness, I also loved the angst (cause I’m a sucker for pain and also don’t mind it when I know or think it’ll be a fluffy ending) I just loved this story!!!!!!! also when they made love during the storm after he said in a previous chapter there’d be other storms I SWOONED AND DIED

ok I love u and can’t wait for more stories from you cause u are now one of my favourite writers on this platform 💖✨🥰🥺💛👏🏼😘🥹🤩

omg you got through that QUICK!!!! did you sleep??? eat??? hydrate???!!

ty ty ty for such huge compliments 😭😭😭 you mentioned so many little details that i've been quietly proud of, it's amazing to know readers are picking up on and appreciating them too 🥺

hahaha i'm glad the angst hit! with me i think it's safe to say it'll hurt bad along the way but i'll always deliver a happy ending

yesssssssssss "there'll be other storms" that whole sequence back in his room is legitimately my favorite thing i've ever written

thank you thank you thank you for this, i love you too!!!!, and i hope you'll be back when i start posting again!!! my current WIP will probably about the length of complete faith so it's gonna take a while for me to write it but hopefully i can keep putting out the POV drabbles in the meantime!

WHICH REMINDS ME feel free to leave asks for scenes from WWH from other character's points of view! most of my requests are tae's POV but other characters are options too!

have the besssssssssttttttttttt weekend bby!!!! 💕💕💕

[osamusriceballs]

i go off of tumblr for one day and tumblr pushes all of your responses down!! 😩 i totally recommend getting into danganronpa tho, the first game actually has an anime! it's on hulu, youtube (altho the screen is small), funimation, animeplanet, really anywhere but its totally up to you!! AND THE DEADCHI JOKE PAINS ME i dont want my bb to die im so clueless 🥺🥺 and oh no!! now im more motivated to finish haikyuu i gotta get to your favorite characters so we can talk more abt it 🥺💖 --> (🐣✨)

Part 2: -> also thank you!! i do really need to get back on track and actually get a full 8 hours but its so hard 😣idk what timezone you're in but you need to work on your's too!! you deserve rest pls pls pls baby 🥺💛 💖💞💜💝 - 🐣✨

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I post so many asks, I’m not surprised that tumblr pushes them down 😂💖💖 it’s fine bby, you don‘t have to read through all of them!! Just search for you anon emoji!! 💖💖

I think I watched the anime already, it seemed really familiar when I just looked up some pictures, and I think it has a second season too, right? I saw them both a few years ago, and I liked them!! 💖💖

Omg deadchi- I will not spoil you, I’m just gonna stay quiet and press F ✊🏻

YES!! Just keep on watching, you‘ll get to know them soon!! 💖💖 can’t wait what you‘ll say about all of them!! 💖💖

Glad that you‘re trying to get more sleep 🥺💖 but no worries about me !! I‘m gonna try to get to sleep before 2 am every night, and maybe it‘ll be normal again by next week 🥺

LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH, BBY!! 💖💖 please stay safe and hydrated!! 💖💖

[ajokeformur-ray]

hello, may I please have a match-up request with arthur fleck🥺? i’m a vietnamese born australian w/ brown eyes (glasses), long black hair and about 156-159cm tall. i also have ASD, tend to be very anxious and insecure. however my strengths are that i’m a loyal, caring and loving person; kind to everyone i meet. i love to help others, giving advice and being in their presence. other than that, i love to read, write, watch movies/TV and spend time with my loved ones.

thank you for answering this matchup in advance! i’ve always loved how you’ve written & described arthur, making me fall for him even more so. please don’t forget to take care of yourself and stay hydrated! ✨

Hello, darling! You absolutely can, omg?🥺💗 I hope that you like this, darling, I've been so excited to write this for you!💝 Thank you so much for your kind words hasdfghjkl it means a lot to me!!! I do worry about my writing sometimes, most especially for Arthur because he's the central character on this blog and the one I'll always come home too. I hope that this matchup gives you some ✨warm fuzzies✨ and lots of smiles!!!😊💖 I'm doing what I can to look after me and I hope you are too!! ~ 🌸🥰

Arthur Fleck // WC: 900.

(Sorry I keep using this GIF!!! On the beta desktop post formats, there's no scroll for the GIF box so this is the only Arthur one which comes up.🥺💗)

You were born in Vietnam but you live in Australia; you've seen so much more of the world than Arthur has, for Gotham is all he has known, and so he's known for asking you oddball questions every now and then, wanting to live vicariously. He soaks up your answers, a sponge is he, and he likes to fall asleep with your fingers in his hair and your voice caressing him as surely as your hands. Arthur is very careful to make sure that your glasses are always somewhere safe and secure, preferably in a case and somewhere always within your reach. If he finds them somewhere he shouldn't, then he puts them away and makes sure to verbally remind you that he put them elsewhere so that you know where you can find them. He figures that because he wouldn't want his glasses to be left somewhere they shouldn't be, such as the very corner of a table, you wouldn't, either. They're expensive and though he doesn't touch what isn't his, Arthur can safely justify his actions in doing so in this situation. You have long black hair and you're roughly 5"2', so Arthur loves holding you. He can rest the sharp angles of his chin on the crown of your head, like royalty does he treat you, and simply enfold himself around you. It feels very much like he's keeping you safe, his arms the cage in which you are protected, though not are you trapped. No, with Arthur are you free. He loves you very much, and there's nothing he wouldn't do for you.

You tend to be really anxious and insecure, and Arthur can definitely relate to these things. His heart would bleed for you every time you confided in one another (and, honey, you were the slow burn to end all slow burns) and with every negative thing you said about yourself did Arthur give you a compliment which directly contradicted your harsh and untrue words. Additionally, you would do the same for Arthur. Sometimes the give and take dynamic of a relationship is unequal, but you and Arthur take as best care of each other as you're able to every day. Love is a choice, to put in that same effort every day, and waking up beside each other makes it easy to make that choice, which may sometimes be more conscious than other days. Arthur is always happy to reassure you and to be there for you, just as you're happy to be there for him, too. You're each other's strength and you both carry around pictures of one another. So often do either or both of you feel misunderstood, but with one another do you feel like you're with someone who gets it.

You are loyal, caring, loving and kind, and oh, how Arthur gravitates towards you like a moth to a flame. Gotham is a grey, cold and cruel place but you are like a ray of sunshine after a massive thunderstorm. You inspire Arthur just by being yourself, good hearts do you both have. You're kind to everyone and undoubtedly is this what caught Arthur's attention. It would have taken him a while to build up the courage to talk to you, but you're so caring that bit by bit did you coax Arthur out of his shell, and, oh, how brightly he shone near you, his one and only person who understood him. As Arthur's arc goes on and he falls into Joker (jumps, one could argue), he becomes more confident in who he is and he stops caring so much. Not about you, darling, but about the world and of what people think of him. As such, he's much more likely to stand up for you if someone was taking advantage of you and of your kindness, and he wouldn't let anyone hurt you. He's so proud of you and he'd set the world alight if only to see you smile. You have but to ask, dearheart.

You love helping others and giving advice, but Arthur doesn't want for you to burn yourself out, and he tries to help you to take better care of yourself, most especially if helping others hinders you in some kind of way. He admires you and your kindness so deeply and he can't help but to fall in love with you all over again whenever he sees you helping someone else. You enjoy being in others' presence and this is how you and Arthur bond in the very beginning; spending time together separately and just enjoying the quiet which comes with one another. You're just so full of love and Arthur adores you.

You have many hobbies and Arthur loves to watch you do them when he doesn't think you're looking at him (even if you're not, you can feel his gaze on you). You're creative and you love to watch TV; the evenings with you and Arthur are spent cuddled up together on the sofa and being quiet. You talk about your days and ask each other questions every now and then, but for the most part do you simply spend time together separately and basking in the other person's company. Time with you is Arthur's most favourite and when he isn't with you, he's thinking of you and yearning to get back to you, the absolute love of his life.