#I’m not tagging this and I’d prefer no one reblog it ty!

[cryptonyx]

𓅪 A Crow’s Boundaries! 𓅪

Y’all cool as fuck, but heed the rules, please. <33 - Crypto

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[tailoredshirt]

"When fandom collectively decides that certain non-canon things are canon, it makes me extremely stubborn and contrary to the point where I will go out of my way to write the opposite, even if I originally head canoned it that way"

Dare I ask??

Sex mention cw!!!!!

First of all, I wasn’t trying to be wanky or start discourse. I really don’t care what people headcanon. But yeah, tropes I’m tired of (I would put it under a cut but I have no internet at home rn and mobile won’t let me use read more)

1. That TK can’t cook. It was funny at first and now it just feels lazy. Idc that Ronen joked about it on Instagram. That doesn’t make it canon. There’s literally ZERO evidence that TK can’t cook. But I know that it provides a nice foil to Carlos, who clearly cooks for them a lot and is good at it. But TK is a grown-ass man in a grown-ass relationship! He’s also worked in firehouses for 7-8 years and is expected to make dinner sometimes. The idea that Carlos is perfect and responsible while TK is a domestic disaster is so tired to me. He’s not a child. He’s lived on his own before. Personally, I like the idea that he knows how to cook but prefers not to, isn’t amazing at it, and/or is limited in what he knows/feels comfortable with. But the idea that he never cooks for them or helps in the kitchen because his food is inedible? Or that he doesn’t make an effort to contribute to that part of their life at all because he’s so hopeless at it? (And yeah, I know the show is going to make it canon any second now and I’ll have to—grudgingly—eat my words.)

2. TK put his arms over his head during the hookup in 1x02, therefore TK has never fucked anyone in his life and definitely never fucks Carlos, apparently. I’ve been in fandom too long and seen how homophobic, heteronormative, and frankly racist top/bottom dynamics can be to not have a knee jerk reaction to that one. 1. dominant is not the same as ‘does the fucking every time’ 2. TK came in hot at the beginning of the dinner scene in 1x02, backing Carlos up against the door and trying to rip his shirt open. That’s not a man who is always submissive or just lies back every time while Carlos does all the work in bed. 3. Sexual dynamics during a first/second hookup do not necessarily reflect a static dynamic throughout a long term relationship. 4. We know Carlos is a control freak, but that doesn’t necessarily apply to every single aspect of his life. People are just not that black and white. Also, uh, wouldn’t it be interesting…….if he loved and trusted someone very much……for instance, the love of his life TK Strand…..that he would be willing and even want…….to give up some of that control??? At least sometimes????? Do I maybe really want to read this more often????

(I have two (of many) WIPs where TK wants to be fucked or Carlos wants to fuck him, and my stubborn-ass brain wants to change it just because. And yes, I also have plans for more fics where TK does the fucking.)

This is absolutely not an attack on anyone who has written these things or likes them, btw. Like, absolutely not. None of this is about a specific person, fic, post, etc, I promise.

[skyward-floored]

Hello!!

I really like your blog! Im new to Linkeduniverse and I was wondering if you have any favorite blogs you recommend following? Ty ^-^

-🍭

Hi there! Thank you so much, I’m glad you enjoy my insanity 😊

I tend to follow mostly writing blogs, and scroll through the main tag for the rest, but I’ll recommend a few I always enjoy seeing stuff from :) this is in no way a comprehensive list of course, I wish I could put everybody on here but we’d be here all day if I did that XD

(Sorry if anyone on this list doesn’t like being pinged, just ask and I can take you off if you’d prefer)

I’m going to assume you’re already following @linkeduniverse of course? I kind of had to mention it.

@thelegendofwicked has lots of nice just general loz as well as lu reblogs, and some original stuff they post about sometimes!

My good buddy @telemna-hyelle of course, she has lots of fics I adore as well as several fun AUs!

@socialc1imb has really great art and lots of ideas I greatly enjoy, lots of really fun Spirit & Wind content

@skyloftian-nutcase has lots of great fics and zelda thoughts and reblogs, her fics are some of my favorites!

@lu-twilights-pup has very Shaped art I always love to see

@wolfwarden’s fics never fail to hit hard, I adore her writing

@cherrypaii has fantastic art

@silvercaptain24 has great warriors stuff, very much enjoy her fics

@wild-shenanigans always has really nice stuff I always enjoy seeing

@anthemxix is another one of my favorite authors, lots of Warriors stuff I adore XD

And @smilesrobotlover has really great art and her own links meet au as well that she posts about!

I’d love it if other people added on to this, because there’s so many amazingly talented people in this fandom that I can’t possibly mention them all, so if you’re reading this: gimme your favorite blogs

[quirrrky]

Heyyy could I request kenma with fly me to the moon please and ty

❝ You are all I long for. All I worship and adore. ❞

“I guess this is over now, Y/N.” Kenma told you with a resigned tone followed by a heavy sigh. “I give up.”

He usually sounded like that but there’s something about his words that hit differently.

You’ve been together for over a month now and it’s funny because you didn’t know how it all started. Kenma just confessed to you out of the blue one night he walked you home. 

All you know was there’s something about his nonchalant vibe that keep you grounded and effortlessly at ease in his presence. Little did you know, you didn’t want to leave. 

You placed a hand on top of his head and gave it a light ruffle. His face contorted and he abandoned his controller. 

“This is what I’m talking about.” He muttered under a lazy half-whine. “I don’t want to play today.” 

Oh, that was unlikely. 

“Why? Is there something wrong?” You asked.

Your blonde boyfriend just stared at you first while he grumbled under his breath. Until, he took in a deep inhale and rested his head on your shoulder “It’s all your fault. This all started when you came around.”

Gulping heavily, you worried that this was the time when he finally came to his senses, and felt the need to choose between you and his game. You didn’t want him to make a decision since you supported him all along. However, if he’s finding it hard already...

“Am I...Am I ruining your game? Would you prefer if I’d rather leave?” Hesitation was evident in your tone.

You heard him sigh again but was immediately followed by a light chuckle.

“That’s the thing...” Kenma paused and wrapped his arms around your frame. “When you’re around, I just want to be with you.”

EVENT NAVIGATION: #J&J A/N: This is my first time writing for this baby and I know I said this is going to be short, but I can’t help it, augh

REBLOGS ARE DEEPLY APPRECIATED ♡ Please help me reach other viewers as tumblr tags are unfortunately not working on me. Thank you so so much!

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

Painted Windows 11

Warnings: violence, trauma, allusions to abuse and noncon, isolation, torture, further tags to be added.

This is dark!Bucky and explicit. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.

Summary: The cracks begin to show.

Note: I changed my mind because I don’t feel like my medieval Steve is ready just yet so I cranked this out instead. Hope y’all like this part and I’ll try to keep up as best I can. Thank you. Love you guys!

Please leave some feedback, like and reblog <3

Masterlist

You spent more than an hour folding paper with Steve. You found a few of the more complicated designs as he kept to the more simplistic ones. He seemed content and you felt as much. He made small talk as you worked and you caught him staring at you when he thought you weren’t aware.

You sat up and stretched your neck. You were starting to cramp from being hunched over. He raised his brows as he lifted his head and you gave a shy smile. You pushed yourself up and paced slowly around.

“You okay?” He asked.

“Yeah, just… stiff,” You touched your hips and turned away.

You neared the window and glanced out. The snow was thinning, the grass peeked out in patches. You wished you could open the window just to smell the mud and moisture. But you couldn’t. 

You huffed and turned back. Steve watched you placidly as you leaned against the window ledge. He tilted his head curiously.

“What is it?” He asked.

“Nothing,” You lied. “Just stretching out the kinks.”

He glanced around. His eyes fell on your little exercise bike and he gave a pitiful look. Then he frowned and exhaled as he played with a paper butterfly.

“It’s been a long winter,” He remarked. “Too bad.”

“I wouldn’t mind the snow or the gloom,” You turned back to the window. “If only I could go out and smell the air; hear the trees; feel the wind.”

“Oh… you don’t go out?” He wondered.

You looked down and shook your head as you spun back to him.

“It’s not safe,” You said. 

“All the way out here? For a couple minutes? Who could could that hurt?” He asked.

“But…” You tried to argue but the thought of leaving the room had your heart in a titter. “I don’t know…”

“You don’t wanna go for a walk? Just around the yard?” He offered. “I’ll be there. I think I can keep you safe.”

“I don’t… I don’t have a coat or shoes,” You said. “How will I--"

“They’ll be a bit big but I’m sure Bucky has something you can borrow.” He suggested.

“But… if he finds out…”

“I can keep a secret if you can,” He smiled. “Come on. It hasn’t been this sunny in months.”

You clasped your hands together and wrung them. You bared your teeth nervously and swayed back and forth. 

“I don’t… I don’t want to get you in trouble. Really. I’m not supposed to--”

“You ever just wanna do something because it’s fun, not because it’s something you’re supposed to do?” He asked.

“Well I…” Never really had that choice, you thought. “You won’t tell him?”

“What Bucky doesn’t know, can’t hurt us,” Steve assured. “So, what do you say?”

You bit your lip and tried not to smile. You nodded and shyly looked down. You still wore your pajamas and the robe. “I should change first,” You mumbled. “I won’t be long.”

You wore a baggy coat and pair of oversized boots. You wrapped the laces around the ankles of the boots several times before tying them tight. You must’ve looked like some sort of duck as you stomped around. You didn’t mind as the prospect of a stroll outside made your nerves flutter.

Leaving your room was in itself overwhelming. You looked up and down the hall several times before you found the strength to go further. The stairs were another obstacle and the further you got, the more you felt as if you would dissolve into a cloud. Steve led you to the front door and opened it for you. 

He waited for you to go first before he followed. He pulled the door closed as you looked around the front yard. You were frozen in disbelief. The air was chilly but not bitter. You could hear the distant chirping of the birds who harkened the arrival of spring through the trees. 

Steve passed you and hopped down the steps. He turned back to you with his usual cheer. 

“Well, you coming?” He asked. 

You nodded and tucked your hands in your pockets as you ambled down the stairs in the large boots. With his long legs, he could easily outpace you but he kept his steps measured as he walked you down the drive. He was close, but not too close. Occasionally, his arm brushed against yours.

He turned and you followed as he guided you through melting snow and around to the back of the house. You passed the shed and the same tree you scaled in your escape. You didn’t look up at the broken branch or search for a sign of your failed flight. That was long ago. That was a naive girl who didn’t realise she had nowhere to go.

Behind the house was a small forest. You followed Steve as he led you to the trees and you glanced around at the barren sentinels. The peeling white bark of birch and the old creased skin of walnut and oak. You reached out to touch one and let it scratch against your palm. It was real. 

You could sense him watching you but he said nothing. Only stood patiently as you took the path a step at the time. You paused to examine a groove in a trunk or pick out a pine cone with a particularly pleasing shape. You would toss them back as you went along and carried on through the thawing brush.

He turned you down another thin trail, this one harder to see through the muck and snow. He held your arm to keep you from slipping and you squeezed together as he pushed past the thin branches. You heard the water ahead and gasped. He guided you to the small river and let you go.

“Oh,” You exclaimed and rushed forward. You looked down into the frigid water as it trickled slowly over pebbles. “Oh my god.”

He was only a foot away as he came up beside you. He watched you kneel by the river and pluck a rock to toss in. It sank with a plop into the shallow ripples and you repeated the act. You laughed like a child and grabbed a stick to drag through the water.

“Thank you,” You breathed as you looked up at him. “Thank you, I… I never thought…”

“It’s nothing, Dora,” He knelt beside you and watched the water fork around your stick, “I told Bucky he shouldn’t keep you pent up in there. It’s not healthy.”

“Well, he’s only trying to help me,” You looked away guiltily. Your body went rigid as you thought of Bucky. “You know, he’s just… if he found out we were here…”

“You worry too much,” He put a hand on your shoulder and squeezed. “If he did, I’d tell him it was my idea. It was, you know? You’ve done nothing wrong.”

You were quiet as you flicked the stick out of the water and tossed it away. You stood and clapped your hands off on the jacket. It smelled like Bucky.

“So…” You began as you paced along the edge of the water. “You said you work with Bucky.”

“I do,” He rose but made no move to near you. 

“So why aren’t you with him now?” You asked.

“Well, sometimes it’s better we work alone,” He said coolly. “He prefers it really. We only work together in the sense that we work for the same people.”

“And you… kill bad men, too?” You wondered.

“You know,” He let out a long breath, “I try not to. I only try to save people… people like you, Dora, but Bucky… he has a different perspective. I’d rather see the bad men locked up and he’d rather see them, well, dead.”

“Oh,” You stopped and poked your toe along the edge of the water. 

Bucky’s job wasn’t to kill the bad men, it was to stop them, but wasn’t that the same thing? You recalled he said his orders were to kill you that day but it didn’t seem likely if his goal was to help people like you. You frowned as your thoughts stormed and bounced off each other wildly.

“So, what would happen…” You started but quickly swallowed your words. “Never mind.”

“What?” Steve asked as he took a step closer. 

“No, it’s stupid.” You said. “I’m stupid.”

“You’re not, Dora. As little as I know you, I’d say quite the opposite,” He smiled. “So ask me.”

You looked down and backed away from him. He didn’t try to follow you, only turned as you rounded him. You crossed your arms and spun to face him.

“If you found someone like me, would you have to kill me?” 

His face fell and his chest rose as he stifled a sigh. His jaw tensed and for a moment, he resembled Bucky; steely and dark. He shook his head as his blue eyes flicked away.

“No, Dora, no, I wouldn’t,” He said. “We don’t kill innocent people otherwise we’d be as bad as those we try to stop.”

You felt the breath go out of you. That couldn’t be true. It just couldn’t. Bucky couldn’t have lied to you and yet, as you peeked over at Steve, he didn’t seem to be either. Did he know where Bucky found you? Had he been there that day too? Your head spun and you gripped it as if it would fall off your shoulders.

“Did he tell you where I came from?” You asked sharply.

“He said he found you, or rather, you found him,” Steve shrugged. “Said you wandered into his backyard with bruises and little more than a sheet to keep you warm.”

You shook your head and clutched your head tighter. “No, no, no, he couldn’t--” You blabbered. “No, no, that’s not how it happened.”

“Dora,” Steve inched forward and you backed away from him. “Dora, it’s okay. You’re just… confused. You’ve been through a lot and sometimes our minds distort the truth to protect us.”

“No, I remember!” You shouted as you ripped your hands away from your head and balled them into fist. “I remember!”

“Dor,” He said softly as he reached out to you, “We should go back.”

“No, he’s lying.” You exclaimed. “You’re lying!”

“Dor--”

You slapped his hand away as he tried to grab you and kicked out. He flinched and you reeled away from him. You spun and quickly dashed towards the trees. The boots slid through the mud but you kept your legs moving as you dove into the brush. You could hear him behind you, not far. You knew he would catch you; he was bigger, stronger, faster. You didn’t care as your chest burned with anger.

“Dora,” He yelled after you as he chased you. “Dora, stop!”

You wouldn’t; couldn’t stop. You just wanted to be alone; to be away from this cursed place. You were so utterly stupid to have believed Bucky. To have trusted him. He could be nice but he could also be terribly cruel. He was no different from those men who held you in that concrete box. And Steve, he could be no better.

You were suddenly stumbling forward as a weight crashed into you from behind. You fell into the mud and the air was knocked from you as Steve landed atop you. You wiggled around and wrestled with him as you cried out. You managed to roll over onto your back and clawed at his large chest. He caught your wrists and held them to the ground as you writhed beneath him.

“Please, Steve,” You begged. “Please…”

“Why did you run?” He asked breathless.

“Why won’t you let me?” You returned. “Why are you helping him?”

“He’s my friend and--”

“You said I was your friend,” You snarled. “You said we were--”

“Bucky’s not bad.” He insisted. “I know he’s not. And I know he only means the best for you, Dora.”

“No, no,” You struggled under his weight. “No…”

“Yes. He’s right. We both know it.” Steve said desperately. “There’s nowhere else for you Dora. Nowhere. Nothing short of another cell or a street curb.”

You went limp beneath him. Your eyes were wet with tears as your chest swelled with dread. 

“But I could try--”

“What’s you’re real name, Dora?” Steve asked. “How old are you? Where are you from?”

You searched his face frantically. There were no answers. They were all gone; stolen from you. You shook your head. 

“Please…” You said softly. “Don’t tell Bucky.”

“Dora, I have--”

You lifted your head and pressed your lips to his before he could protest. You hoped that he was as easy to appease as Bucky. Your kisses were your only protection. Your only value was your body. Just as before, you were a toy to be played with.

You dropped your head back and he stared down at you. His forehead was creased and his eyes wide with shock.

“Why did you do that, Dora?” He breathed.

You blinked at him as your lip trembled.

“Why?” He repeated.

You turned your head away from him and shivered. He released your wrists and pushed himself to his feet. He reached down and lifted you by your arm. He was silent, you feared, seething. He turned you back to the path and marched you toward the trees. 

You reached over with your other hand and grabbed his. He stopped and looked over at you. You squeezed and gazed up at him. He let go of your arm as you clung to him.

“I did it because I wanted to,” You said.

Steve gulped and looked up into the trees. He nodded and took your other hand and continued on. His boots crushed the twigs and wet leaves loudly. His fingers tightened and loosened over yours as you got closer to the house.

“I won’t tell him,” Steve uttered at last. “It’s our secret, Dor.”

[crqstalite]

tagged by @jedirangerpenguin ! ty!

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 5 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better.

Name/nickname: crqstalite! Andre/Star depending on when you got to know me. This is nearly guaranteed to change within the next couple of years.

Gender: Female!

Star sign: Pisces

Height: 5′9-10″. Don’t ask, I don’t know which either.

Birthday: Feb. 23rd! Going to be a little odd to celebrate this year, but it’s another year I’ve lived, I have no complaints. (Other than that it’s cold, but it’s always cold around my birthday)

Time: 8:32pm

Favorite bands: 

Fall Out Boy! (Same here, Jrp!)

Imagine Dragons

Black Eyed Peas

The Score

Neoni

Favorite solo artists:

Dua Lipa

Billie Eilish

Doja Cat

NF

Halsey

Song stuck in my head: Hayloft, Mother, Mother at the moment.

Last movie: Soul!

Last show: Cobra Kai, because I’m insufferable and found family tropes are guaranteed to take me out.

When did I create this blog: 2019. Though I’ve been lurking far longer than that.

What do I post: Everything I like. I see something I like, I reblog it. I do post a lot of my own writing and art as well.

Last thing googled: Looking for theories on biotic implants.

Other blogs: I don’t have any other social media. That’s partially a lie, but I’m not proud of what else I have.

Do I get asks: Yes! Takes me a while to get around and answer them though, mostly questions about my characters.

Why I chose my url: Because I was looking for a new username I believe. Crystalite was the original version, but someone else had it.

Following: 209

Followers: 177!

Average hours of sleep: ...Somewhere around 5-ish every night? Less by my own doing and more that sleep is such a difficult thing to get to every night. Can’t really shut off my mind. Good for story ideas, not so good for trying to get up at 7am every morning when I go to bed around 2-3am.

Lucky number: Not sure I have one. Why not 7?

Instruments: Played clarinet for just upwards of three years!

What am I wearing: Plaid sleep pants and a yellow shirt. No socks. Socks seams feel really weird and I kinda hate them right now.

Dream job: Wedding planner or a therapist at the moment. I’m sure some crisis will change that one day, but for now, that’s what it is.

Dream trip: I’d like to travel the world (once it’s safe). Very specific spots though. I kinda want to pay a visit to a few mutuals. After that, not many places have my name written over them. See where it takes me.

Favorite food: I absolutely love these tortas I can get from this little Mexican restaurant down the street.

Nationality: American

Favorite song: Right now? Indila’s Ainsi Bas La Vida.

Last book read: Ghosted in LA by Siobhan Keenan and Sina Grace

Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in:  

1. Mass Effect (Preferably after the war, thank you!)

2. Star Wars

3. Mind Blind, because I’ve been thinking about it all day and I’d get killed really quick in Dragon Age.

tagging @salavidze , @purple-hawke , @outcastcommander , @that-wasnt-so-bad , @pigeontheoneandonly if you all feel so inclined! (Sorry for the double tag if I did!)

[shorkbrian]

ASKS

Hello again, asks are compiled under the cut. Please block the tag #shorkbrian answers a lot of asks# If you’d prefer not to see these types of posts from me. If I haven’t answered your ask, it’s because I’m saving it for a thirst, drabble, or fic.

I don’t ignore asks, but sometimes getting around to them overwhelms me lol. pls accept my apologies lol k here we go

I am very glad, I legit was so scared that it was too long and that it’d be disappointing bc the smut wasn’t super IN YOUR FACE yknow? But man am I glad to hear that.

I’m looking directly @ you

Someone noticed omg!!!  A lot of times I just put whatever song I played on repeat while writing that fit, but I have a *yandere* playlist that I listen to and it gets me going. Ty for noticing!!!

I’ve considered opening them permanently but I just... idek. I’d have to start deleting or ignoring the requests I don’t vibe with and Idk how to handle that lol. But thanks for the well wishes, hope your next few months treat you well friend!

Watermelon sugar why

Srsly you’re sweet but just wait until I start to really get going with all my nasty kinks okay, then you’ll be rethinking this strategy hunty lol!

I literally stalk @.vermiliren and @.kazooli and @.seita lol. Maybe when I get my blog more cleaned up, I’ll create a list of creators that I enjoy, along with fic recs. For now, here’s a link to my AO3 bookmarks which I read one like almost every single night bc I’m a horny gremlin.

I am the shark king. Sharks are my thing bro u don’t even know. I love them so much, they're dumb and big and beautiful and yeah I wish I was a mermaid who got to swim with them. Also I changed it bc I’m trying to make my blog more *professional* and all that so I can start being taken seriously askjakjdf

Compliments suck, if I'm being down and out honest. This does not bother me at all, I’m just unsure how to respond. I think I would prefer no comments, but I’m trying really really hard to just say “thank you!” and move on before I get uncomfortable. Having to fight with someone about how I perceive my self worth is exhausting, and especially so for the poor person that was just trying to say something nice and be nice to me. 

They do make me quite uncomfortable my dear lad/lassie/lasso. Say what you wish in the tags tho ! I don’t really reply to those, so there’s no pressure on me to have to say something back. I do however, see all the tags ppl use and some of them make me laugh so hard cause they’re so spot on, and it makes my day. like “Mark me down as scared AND horny” and “Bakugou better be able to bench 165 cause imma throw my fatass in his mf lap” and it kills me.

I SCEREAMED AKDHGSYDGASJSD this is the only format I'll be taking asks in now, no compliments just a yes/no answer to if my works help u cum god bless

you used the /gen!!!!! IDK what these are called but the /S and /gen and /J save my life!!!!

Frick you’ve figured me out, I do try to put like a nail-in-the-coffin sentence at the end. A lot of times it never works right, but I cannot for the life of my figure out how to end a single post ever. If anyone knows hmu pls ty

(Also ps I checked out ur blog cause yans are my jam and it is very much Not garbage!!)

That’s very kind of you, but pls don’t stay up past midnight it’s bad for ur Brian you’ll make bad decisions bro trust me all of my stuff is written after midnight

You will lafff..... but I will tell anyways..... I was prescribed a “life coach” after I got out of the hospital, which was really just a poorly disguised softcore “make sure u don’t yeet urself” type of thing. He had me write down things I liked about myself, and when I returned the sheet of paper still blank, he wrote stuff down for me. Like five sentences of “My hair and skin are unique and special” “I like animals and enjoy being kind to them” “I am worthy of respect” etc etc. and I had to look in a mirror twice a day and say those sentences to help “boost my self worth”. It sucked so bad dude, and I like got upset about it every time it came up, until finally my therapist was like “... this aint doin this sad bitch no good” and my parents got designated for yeet watch instead.

I know, logically, that (the majority of) people are not purposefully taking time out of their day to make me feel bad. They're trying to be encouraging and loving, and I appreciate it so much. But like... what do I say? If I say thanks, it’s almost like acknowledging what they're saying as true, and I can’t live with myself thinking I’m more than I am. I’m sorry you’ve had experiences that make compliments difficult for you also, I understand bro and I hope that your future holds healing and peace for you. 

Hopefully I won’t vent as much anymore lol, I’ll try to do that on my sideblog where I reblog really trigger-y memes akjdafhkjf. But thank you for your kind words bro, they’re appreciated and put in a nice lil jar.

Ah dw! This doesn’t sound like a jab. I think all of us r so sad n depressed and feel unworthy of love, so the fantasy of a Yan coming and forcing it on us and not leaving even when we lash out is just..... so attractive my heads gonna explode

me, thinking about kiri at any given moment like:

I have the next Hybrid! Kiri fic like lined up, but I’m so demotivated be I was SO CLOSE to finishing, and then wiped my computer like an IDITO

Waso, I’m taking horseback riding lessons bc my mom went:

and my grandpa told me that one of his horses was named Awaso and I immediately thot of u fun fact. But you’re so very kind, and I enjoy seeing you in my inbox. I’m never tired of u homie. You are loved and important, and it’s not an illusion. Even random strangers on the internet can feel soft towards you bro, and dats me, I’m the random stranger that likes u.

So I took Russian for a year, my dear friend, because I wanted to see if the language myth of “Russian is the hardest, Korean is the easiest” was true. I would say yes. So instead of like translating this and typing out a coherent response, I’ve resorted to google translate I’m so sorry but Виктор мог плюнуть мне в глаз, и я бы поблагодарил его. Also, the way Vitya is written in cryllic makes my heart swell it looks so cozy idek what I mean by that but it does? I treasure you man, hope to see you around in the new year and maybe??? we be good friends

Can any year be good when Kirishima Eijirou doesn’t exist?

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I just imagine anyone who comes across my stuff, sitting at their computer shocked and slightly horrified, maybe turned on like

Daddy Aizawa makes me

Wait!! I have something to aid your troubles!!

ur welcome now u can be horny whenever you’d like 

pls every time we talk about Kirishima I have to act surprised like 

LISTEN BBYGORL I have had therapist Suga in the works since *checks notes* November. I am excited for it yeahhhhhh but sadly, I don’t think I will be continuing piano teacher Suga. The story is petered out in my mind, idk where it would go. Therapist sugarbird tho? We have some thots about this. Coming soon to theaters near you

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🌙 *sunmi stan voice* stan sunmi listen to ‘tail’ by sunmi listen to ‘tail’ by su-

get  to  know  the  mun  ! repost,  don’t  reblog.

———  BASICS.

( PEN ) NAME  : rae. but i might change that. 2 many raes. i see rae attached to a promo not by me and im over here thinkin..... did i do some wild shit in my sleep and make another blog...........

PRONOUNS  :  i dont care about those. u can call me ‘ the only and best bitch to ever do it ’ if u all feel like referring to me to someone else 4 sum reason. we can get this issue out the way if everyone leaves my name out of ur mouth how about that. no but seriously... i dont care. its whatever. we're dying!!

ZODIAC  SIGN  :  capricorn sun, leo moon, leo rising, scorpio venus. sexxxxxiiiiiiiiiii!

TAKEN  OR  SINGLE  :  gettin’ married 2 @notevenjupiter :)) we’ve been together for 10 years!! we were rp partners!! u might meet ya future spouse out here......

———  THREE  FACTS.

i was gonna go to wrestling school because nothing thrills me more than bodyslamming the shit outta someone or at least be able to get them held up in a figure four lock. was gonna front missile drop kick my way to the top! i did a lot of military / marine style fitness in high school. but due to Injuries™... womp womp. i am now returning to my job as a preschool teacher soon. i am hesitant because we are still in a deadly Pancake.

i can play over 10 musical instruments. was a drum captain, a woodwind section leader, part of a jazz ensemble, and a college orchestra. and im ok at digital production in a way that i can put together a simple drum loop before i get distracted by things. im hard of hearing, deaf in my left ear. so not 2 shabby 4 the deaf person!!! might make a metal band just because.

as someone who lived up surrounded by nature, was captain of the horticulture team, and worked as a nature photographer gathering photo of native plant life species in my area and real estate portfolio junk, i can identify over 50 plants, flowers, and trees off the top of my head. i can identify most types of wood, too. i also took plumbing, welding, automotive class, electrical work, so i can fix ur house and ur car....... i also took cosmetology and can do ya nails and hair, too. an overachiever in collected skills if u will..... also im a beauty pageant contestant and winner so i also have accolades just for being beautiful. wow.........!

———  EXPERIENCE.

ive been on this internet pretending to be pretty hos since 1999. aol, msn, livejournal, deadjournal, xanga, gaiaonline, vampirefreaks, forums, forums, forums!!!

———  MUSE  PREFERENCE.

i’ll adapt to anything and everything but i love writing villains above all else. not even villains u can like. the most evil people in tha story... those r my favorites. i dont do canon muses because i spent so long doing them in the 2000s. every single anime villain........ Me, babey. vis probably one of the nicest muses ive ever had and even then if he sees someone yelling at a child, he will meet them at them doorstep and beat the shit out of them with nothing but a brick, a fist, and a willingness to make sure theyre dead.

———  FLUFF  /  ANGST  /  SMUT.  

FLUFF  :  fluff but i’d like it to have a point!!

ANGST  :  vi’s crushed soul is angst........ if u say hey to him ure greeting someone in so much emotional pain he could just Die from it.... but he can’t because u know. immortal half-alien deity.... it be like that.

SMUT  :  vi can’t get laid to save his life... i luv smut but. lol.

PLOT  /  MEMES  : i’m allergic to plotting................... allergic!!! like plotting is fine for muses that’ll stick to the script but since vi is always 2 seconds away from setting himself on fire and summoning satan because he’s erratic as shit, it dont work for him. he changes like the wind. 

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ATLA Q&A

So I got tagged by @mycomfortblanket​ and @dannyurl​ but it wouldn’t let me reblog on the thread so I made a new one lol. Never really thought about these questions til now, so good exercise!

1. What is your favorite character?

Toph Beifong. Need I say more?

2. What is your comfort character?

Hmmm, does Appa count? If yes, then Appa. He’s a good, chill pal. I’d snuggle with him.

3. Which element would you bend if you could?

Probably earthbending. I like the fighting style of firebenders a bit more, but I think that the element of earth has more opportunities and possibilities to adapt the martial art and then also bending the different compositions of earth lol. Plus metalbending is a dope technique and I would love to be able to do that as well.

4. What’s your favorite nation?

Probably Earth Kingdom. Idk, maybe because it’s the biggest nation, so there are lots of different cities to travel to. I can’t really explain why it’s my favorite lol.

5. What makes you love ATLA the most?

Probably just the established world. If I ever try to make up my own stories, creating the setting and space the story takes place in is always the hardest for me. So the fact that there are multiple nations, maps, cities, and cultures associated with the story, and those background details are fleshed out is pretty impressive. And even as a kid I noticed that.

COULD GET YOU ATTACKED QUESTIONS

1. Who is your least favorite character in the gaang?

I think as a kid, I didn’t care for Sokka or Aang. Sokka seemed useless to the team to me as a kid and then all of a sudden he was an expert strategist in my head. And Aang bothered me because he was a bald kid with tattoos lol. Weird for my 10-year-old brain to wrap around at the time. I love both of them now, obviously, and see my flawed thought process as a kid lol. Otherwise, I never cared for Mai or Ty Lee.

2. What character do you think is severely underrated?

Mmmm, idk. No one from the Gaang seems underrated, nor do the main villains. I’ll find realms of the fandom that tend to overrate characters, so I feel like a lot of them get the love and appreciation they need. Even Cabbage Man has support. Like, okay.

Maybe Freedom Fighters? Like, all of the minor ones. They kind of come and go as they please, and they probably need more backstory than they actually get.

3. What’s your least favorite nation?

Again, as a kid I never liked that all the Air nation people were bald and had tattoos. Not the smartest logic on my end lol. But idk, I still prefer the other nations now.

4. What is your controversial ATLA opinion?

I actually struggle to watch the show now as an adult and after reading some fantastic posts on Tumblr about the show’s flaws. Obviously I shouldn’t judge the show based on bad writing near the end or series finale relationships, but I can barely watch it now without seeing the hints of romantic relationships and cringe or just... knowing that the outcome of the show isn’t what I particularly want to see. It’s easier for me to just stay in fanfiction and read about fan theories and then come up with my own outcomes. 

The show used to satisfy me, but now? Not so much. I like, only watch season 2 now if I want to watch it at all, mainly for Toph and because there aren’t as many obviously displays of Aang crushing on Katara.

SHIPPING QUESTIONS

1. What’s your favorite ship and why?

Canon ships only.

JK. Taang. Taang for days. As a couple, I see them having a lighthearted relationship where they know how to balance each other. They are powerful and strong and independent on their own and certainly don’t need to be in a relationship, but they would choose to be together because they add value to their lives and want to be together. They’ve got that classic ‘opposites attract’ dynamic that isn’t like “I can’t live without you” feeling, but more like “You help me be better” feel. 

Before finding Taang, I never really shipped Toph with anyone, and didn’t even know she had canon kids until like... the pandemic started lol. I just thought she’d be a badass and wreak havoc on the world and be responsible for only herself. And if I did ship her with a character, it was usually Sokka bc of the angst and canon compliance it provided. But after reading a few Taang fics, there was actually potential for her to be in a longstanding and committed relationship with someone that made sense to me. It was cool to find a ship that opened my eyes to that, because otherwise, I would’ve never assumed or thought she’d ever marry or have kids or anything. 

Tokka is a close second because it got me into reading fanfiction, but idk Taang is just feels so right to me lol.

2. What’s your least favorite ship?

After reading lots of metas, I don’t like Mai/Zuko and Aang/Katara. They just rub me the wrong way now.

3. Do you sometimes self-insert?

As far as inserting myself into a romantic relationship with ATLA characters... No. Not my cup of tea.

I do sometimes create OCs that are just like... best friends with the Gaang and went through their own shit during the war. But they don’t resemble me at all. If anything, they mirror the personality of the character they’re close with, simply because I think friendships where characters have very similar personalities would be interesting. We see a lot of opposite duos, romantic and platonic, and I certainly do the same thing in my life (I have lots of friends where I am not like them at all, but we’re really close). But to see relationships where they act very similar... Interesting dynamic. They probably butt heads a lot and fight a lot, but also really understand what the other needs for help, and... yeah. Those friendships seem unappreciated to me. So I like to make those up lol.

4. What ship would you make canon if you were the creator?

I wouldn’t make ATLA about romantic relationships. If anything, I would emphasize the family aspect of the team, then let fans and audiences decide who works best with who ~after~ the show ends lol. I tend to like endings with open interpretation, and also, just based on my personal life/preference, I think it’s sometimes weird when really really close friends get together in relationships afterwards. Like, I’ll think of those friends as my family, and dating ‘practically family’ is sometimes weird imo lol. Of course, I know why those relationships tend to happen, mostly because those characters are the only ones that can relate to the war trauma they all went through, so I get that and love that aspect of it. 

I would certainly lean in the direction of the Big Three: Zutara, Sukka, and Taang, just by pointing out their dynamic, having them confide in one another, or something of the sort. But no one would like, get together at the end.

My thoughts on ATLA, and I’m going to tag anyone that wants to do this! I’m looking at you. ;)

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GET TO KNOW THE MUN!

repost, don’t reblog.

———  BASICS! ♡

(PEN)NAME: chiara :)))

PRONOUNS: she / her

ZODIAC SIGN: ok so ... scorpio sun, taurus moon and aquarius rising ! idk what that even means but yeah sjdfhsjdf

TAKEN OR SINGLE: i have the most beautiful most perfect gf i love my wife

———  THREE  FACTS! ♡

i think i spent around 1k on sneakers from last october to december no i’m not proud of it yes i will probably spend even more money on sneakers no 10 pairs is not enough

i used to play pubg mobile a lot with ty dolla sign back in 2019 or something ? yeah that was pretty iconic. i had to carry him all the time he was so bad 

i listen to euphoria funfair by labrinth at least once a day. yes the whole 10:08 minutes. it’s called having taste <3

———  EXPERIENCE! ♡

i think i started rping when i was around 11-12 on another website and i stayed on there until it got shut down lmao it was so SAD bc i thought i’d never get to rp again but then i found out about indie rp on tumblr and i continued writing on here for a couple of years, then took a break for a couple of years and now i’m back on my bullshit

———  MUSE  PREFERENCE! ♡

i started off with only male muses bc i just find them easier to write ? don’t ask me why lmao jhfdjdf but yeah generally i enjoy writing male muses more but that’s probably only because it feels so familiar as i’ve been doing it for like over ten years already

———  FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡    

FLUFF: she’s a cute girl but she’s not angst and i’ll probably get bored after a while tho fluff scenes w my favorite ships give me life <3

ANGST: i live and breathe angst literally everyone knows that this is my favorite thing and i just.... ugh the flavor of putting your muses in shitty situations is so chef’s kiss

SMUT: listen i don’t mind writing smut but i also don’t enjoy it ? but same as with fluff it just gets boring after some time jfhdsjfh so if you see my males finishing in 0.3 seconds mind your business please. okay no that’s not true it’s not boring all the time but yeah i would never write smut without, like, a context around it if that makes sense

PLOT / MEMES: i love plotting but my one braincell doesn’t hdfsjdfh also i love memes but i either forget about them and i never do them or it will take literal days before i get to a meme and i’m ... horrible i know

thank u for the tag bb angel <3 @architcct

tagging: @ardentdesires @ofdamnation​ and anyone else who wants to do this 

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REPOST DON’T REBLOG.

———  BASICS! ♡

(PEN)NAME:   eve

PRONOUNS:    she/her

ZODIAC SIGN:     aquarius  baby  its  my  season  right  now

TAKEN OR SINGLE:    all  bi  myself

———  THREE  FACTS! ♡

i  dont  like  alcohol  but  i  would  drink  vodka  straight  out  of  the  bottle

i  got  chased  by  three  geese  once  and  im  not  sure  i  recovered

i  hate  paris  <3  

———  EXPERIENCE! ♡

oof  okay  so  i  started  on ... skyblogs,  which  was  where  french  ppl  were  at.  then  i  moved  to  facebook,  where  i  stayed  for  a  Long  Time  (im  not  proud  but  i  was  tiny)  i  tried  msn  and  twitter  but  i  didn't  really  like  it.  then  i  found  out  about  french  forums,  where  i  did  most  of  my  rp  career  until  someone  showed  me  tumblr  rp  was  a  thing.  and ?  in  total ?  i  think  i've  been  rping  for  like.  eight  years

———  MUSE  PREFERENCE! ♡

i...  will  literally  add  any  muse  i'm  feeling.  that's  why  i'm  vibing  with  multi-muse  blogs  because  i  can  just  add  /  put  muses  on  hiatus  whenever  i  feel  like  it.  i  used  to  be  Incapable  of  writing  male  muses,  my  first  one  was  ronan  lynch  and  i  was  Terrified  of  fucking  it  up  but  im  still  writing  him  rn  and  he's  one  of  my  faves.  my  muse  type  is  struggling  lgbtq+,  feral  women  and  alienated  teenage  girls.  (are  they  self-inserts.......  who  knows)  my  favorite  themes  are  anger  and  violence  (as  a  feeling  and  an  impulse),  helplessness  when  confronted  to  society  and  girlhood/womanhood  in  general.  

——— FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡    

FLUFF:  i  legit  squeal  when  i  write  fluff.  i  just  can't  handle  it  bc  seeing  your  muses  happy  and  soft  and  intimate  with  each  other  for  no  other  reason  than  they  like  each  other  and  want  to  spend  time  together ...  it  just  hits  different.  however  i'm  pretty  sure  it's  more  interesting  /  has  more  impact  if  there  is  a  story  behind  it  and  it's  not  just.  gratuitous  unplotted  fluff.  if  there  has  been  no  angst  before,  no  fights,  no  nothing,  idk,  it  just  doesnt  have  the  same  effect  

ANGST:  i  love  angst  bc  i  like  writing  about  emotions,  it's  just  a  cool  way  to  approach  a  subject  i  suck  at  understanding  in  real  life  ahsbsj  and  like  happiness  is  pretty  straight - forward,  it's  just.  idk.  i  associate  it  with  light,  it's  everything,  it  doesn't  hurt,  it's  not  heavy  so  you  don't  necessarily  feel  the  weight  of  it  until  it's  gone  ?  but  angst,  you  can't  really.  forget  about  it.  you  think  about  it  all  the  time.  even  when  you're  sad  in  a  im  dissociating  way,  there  is  this.  kind  of  awareness  ??  idk.  i  just  like  to  write  abt  how  people  feel  and  how  those  feelings  translate  into  actual  actions  (or  dont,  in  some  cases)  and  i  think  angst  is  more  easily  conducive  to  that.

SMUT:  i  will  Not  write  smut  under  any  circumstances  bc  i  just.  dont  vibe  with  it.  but  i  also  don't  hate  approaching  the  subject  when  plotting  bc  i  think  it's  also.  an  important  part  of  people’s  life,  whether  they  actually  like  s*x  or  just  suffer  their  way  through  physical  interactions  smh.  so  im  not  going  to  vade  retro  satana  you  if  you  mention  sex  but  fading  to  black  is  all  you're  going  to  get  in  rp

PLOT / MEMES:   ok so.  im  a  sucker  for  thoroughly  plotted  relationships.  plotting  is  why  i  love  rping  sm,  bc  its  not  just  you  w  ur  two  braincells  and  ur  ocs.  i  like  to  know  the  Whole  Storyline,  how  they  got  there,  how  their  relationship  went,  how  it  ended  if  it  did.  and  i  prefer  to  have  someone  help  me  w  doing  that  bc.  idk.  the  feeling  of  being  surprised  when  they  add  a  cool  storyline  ?  when  they  add  small  details ??  good  sht.  also  i  wanna  know  how  our  characters  react  to  mundane  stuff  and  how  they  react  to  heart-wrenching  situations.  and  i  think  that's  ?  what  makes  memes  so  interesting  ?  bc  u  can  just.  write  about  random  situations.  so  i'd  say  i  love  memes  bc  they're  conducive  to  plotting  and.  getting  to  know  more  about  the  relationship  between  two  muses.  However  i  suck  at  writing  them  bc  i  find  it  really  Hard  to  understand  single  sentences  out  of  context.  thats  a  buy-linguini  problem,  its  just  easier  to  understand  dialogue  when  u  have  the  whole  settings  /  gestures  to  help.  but  like,  its  a  minor  issue  and  if  u  send  me  a  meme,  i  Will  love  u  4ever

tagged by: @redemptioninterlude,  ty  again  op  <3 tagging:   stealing  is  sexy  ops

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ASK THE MUSE !

RULES: Don’t reblog, repost.

► NAME ➭  "Riku~” ► ARE YOU SINGLE? ➭  "Mhhm~” ► ARE YOU HAPPY? ➭  "Hmmm yeah so far it’s good.” ► ARE YOU ANGRY?  ➭  "Nah, feeling relaxed right now.“ ► ARE YOUR PARENTS STILL MARRIED? ➭  "Hmm, nice question! I should ask them if I ever meet them again.”

✨ EIGHT FACTS!

► BIRTH PLACE ➭  "New Bark Town. Very pretty place. A little small.“ ► HAIR COLOUR ➭  "..you think I’m not a natural black?” ► EYE COLOUR ➭  "Haha, yeah, I know. Purple is unusual, but I promise I don’t wear contacts! They’re awfully icky for me.” ► BIRTHDAY ➭  "Wouldn’t you like to know~?“ ► MOOD ➭  "As I said, so far so good. Relaxing.” ► GENDER ➭  “I’m a dude.” ► SUMMER OR WINTER ➭  "Hmmm winter? I don’t know, not a big fan of the cold but I do love myself some hot cocoa.“ ► MORNING OR AFTERNOON ➭  "Afternoon, all the way. The mornings are so slow... or go away too fast, I tend to sleep them away.”

✨ EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE!

► ARE YOU IN LOVE? ➭  "Are you??” ► DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT? ➭  "I saw a very cute Pikachu plushie once... Does that count?.“ ► WHO ENDED YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP? ➭  "Ehhh, I’m not big into commitment, so...” ► HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART? ➭  "...like, literally or we’re still talking about lovey stuff-“ ► ARE YOU AFRAID OF COMMITMENTS? ➭  "Not exactly afraid, it’s just not my things.” ► HAVE YOU HUGGED SOMEONE WITHIN THE LAST WEEK? ➭  "Lots of grunts!” ► HAVE YOU EVER HAD A SECRET ADMIRER? ➭  "Tons, hah!“ ► HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN YOUR OWN HEART? ➭  "Naaah, I’m good. The trick is to not hope too much!”

✨ SIX CHOICES!

► LOVE OR LUST ➭  "Lust.“ ► LEMONADE OR ICED TEA ➭  "Iced tea is very good.” ► CATS OR DOGS ➭  "Oooh, kitties.” ► A FEW BEST FRIENDS OR MANY REGULAR FRIENDS ➭  "Why, I’m friend with everyone!“ ► WILD NIGHT OUT OR ROMANTIC NIGHT IN ➭  “Wild, thank you~” ► DAY OR NIGHT  ➭  “Night. Best time to actually work.”

✨ FOUR HAVE YOU EVERS!

► BEEN CAUGHT SNEAKING OUT ➭  "Not really. Sneaking out wasn’t something I did often, anyway.“ ► FALLEN DOWN/UP THE STAIRS ➭  "Haha, once! Just once. It’s on me, I didn’t see that last step.” ► WANTED SOMETHING/SOMEONE SO BADLY IT HURT? ➭  "...sheesh, you get hurt because you want something a lot? That’s sad. :(” ► WANTED TO DISAPPEAR ➭  "...I technically did for most, didn’t I~?“

✨  FIVE PREFERENCES!

► SMILE OR EYES ➭  ”Smile! A nice smile says a lot about someone.“ ► FAT OR SKINNY ➭  "In this house we love and respect all body types ♥” ► SHORTER OR TALLER ➭  "It’s pretty hard to find someone taller than me, you know?“ ► INTELLIGENCE OR ATTRACTION ➭  "As long as they’re hot, they can be as dumb as they want. Plus stupid people are fun! Eh, Jaxxy?” ► HOOK-UP OR RELATIONSHIP ➭  “Hmmmmmmmmyeah hook-ups.”

✨ FAMILY!

► DO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY GET ALONG ➭  "Oh, Team Rocket is my family! And of course they all like me. ...or else, you know. That’s sad for them.” ► WOULD YOU SAY YOU HAVE A “MESSED UP LIFE” ➭  “Hmmm... nah, I’m good.” ► HAVE YOU EVER RUN AWAY FROM HOME ➭  "Well, I’m here and not there, am I not?“ ► HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN KICKED OUT ➭  "Nah.”

✨ FRIENDS!

► DO YOU SECRETLY HATE ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS ➭  "No, that’d be rude!” ► DO YOU CONSIDER ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS GOOD FRIENDS ➭  “Absolutely not, they’re all horrible!” ► WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND ➭  ”Hmm... Mianfei? Jaxxy? Man, too many choices!” ► WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU ➭  "I’d say my boss!”

✨ TAGGED BY:  @snippyrocket​ ty........ ✨ TAGGING:  @haematophiliac​ @geobadge​ @hnlijiug​ @exvalor​ and U uwu

[joeys-piano]

Do you wish you were more popular? I love what you do and I'm glad that people are getting introduced to your music and stuff, but it makes me sad that you're not recognized by more people. You have so much talent and creativity; it's a huge disservice that you don't get enough love.

TL;DR: Having experienced the extreme end of what it felt like to be “popular”, I wouldn’t wish experiencing that again on myself. I’m content with where I am. I wouldn’t have met the people I consider my friends if I remained as who I was, and I would’ve been a very different person.

This may surprise you, Anon, but I’m pretty chill with how things are.

Would most content creators want more engagement with their audience and to know that their work is being reblogged/shared/introduced to more people? Yeah. That’s a valid thought and concern for most content creators. Whether they be writers, artists, musicians, cosplayers, gif-makers, content editors, comedians, vloggers, and the whole shabang of people that identify as content creators. It’s almost natural or second-nature to figure out ways to engage with your audience and how your audience can engage back with you.

From a general content creator perspective, audience engagement can give you a relative trend on what’s interesting to them and how you can work out something that makes you both satisfied with what’s happening.

By that informal definition, you’re probably wondering why I wouldn’t want more of that. As you stated, Anon, you made a quasi-factual yet legitimate statement in implying that “not many people” know who I am or interact with what I do. I can understand your concerns, and I can guess that it frustrates you. But here’s another way to look at the lack of activity or audience participation, so to speak.

It’s easy to gauge a number and compare it as higher or lower from a preconceived value that you think is acceptable or satisfactory. The interesting thing is that the preconceived value in everyone’s head is uniquely different no matter who you ask. What’s high and amazing to one person might be below satisfactory for another. Adding to this, in looking at audience participation as a number and regarding it as such, it strips away the human factor.

I don’t know about you but when I think of the number 30, I think of it being a middle of the road kind of number. When I think of 30 people, I’m both honored and amazed that these 30 people took the time to listen or read what I created and are showing their support in a way that feels comfortable to them. Because you know, time is the one thing we can never get back and yet, these 30 people gave me their time. That, alone, is very valuable and is another way of showing support. Heck, a reasonable thought is that more than 30 people gave me their time. Although it’s not visibly shown in a reblog, comment, or like, that doesn’t invalidate or lessen how valuable that support is. At least to me.

I don’t wish I was more popular because where I am now is relatively comfortable for me to maintain and it doesn’t tax as heavily in terms of energy and personal, recovery time.

Three years ago in the Yuri!!! On Ice fandom, I got my fair taste and dessert of what it felt like to be popular. I was 16, riddled with anxiety, gradually succumbing to another identity crisis, and it felt like the entire world was watching everything I did. Because of a really good person I was friendly with, my fan compositions exploded. Overnight, I’d get between 1500 to 3000 notes per audio post whenever a new YOI episode came out. There would be 50 to 75 new followers each week. Sometimes 100+ on some weeks. If it took me 2 years to get 1900 followers on this blog, it took me 3 months to get to the same number during the 2016 YOI extravaganza.

Crazy is an understatement to describe what the Hell even happened. Because everywhere I turned, people knew who I was, they knew what I did, and did everything they could so that they knew that I knew that they supported me. Was that awesome? It was. Dopamine and serotonin flooded my body every morning I checked my activity page and it would take me an hour or even two hours just to read everyone’s tags and comments and support and whatnot. My poor phone would glitch on me and my internet browser would crash because there was so much engagement and activity.

You would think that’s a good thing and it probably was a good thing but for me, it was mentally and emotionally overwhelming. Because like I said, I was riddled with anxiety and succumbing to another identity crisis. I used these numbers to cope and when numbers are used to cope, that’s a very dangerous position to be in. Because in the February of 2017, I crashed and wiped every trace of myself off the face of the planet and just disappeared. It was just easier that way. Because even though I knew people supported me and I appreciated that, I couldn’t handle the sheer volume of it in such a short amount of time.

It broke me.

Having experienced the extreme end of it, I’m very content with where I am now. I’m very content that I can manage things at my own pace, I have time to build more meaningful connections with people and actually get to know them, and I’m happier because not that many things are tying me down. I know I’m older and you could argue that I could handle the bigger audience better now than when I was younger, but I’m not taking my chances. I know what it felt like and know what it did to me, and I much rather prefer having a quieter place.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

@uberoll-oystercrackers late night (early morning?) posting here but this is super nice ty and also again retroactively thank you additionally for all the long replies & kind tags you give

like really yeah it’s like, on the one hand, it’s fairly sucky having to have this thing where im always jumping the gun on considering someone Maybe An Friend and then having to remind myself / be reminded of the fact that like no probably not, which is true and yet sucks, which is just how some stuff is!! like sometimes stuff just is Not Good and is not ever going to Not Hurt, despite the fact you can kinda get better at living with it. and like this one isnt a huge deal even tho the larger problem of when ur like, lonely &/or isolated is kind of a whole real deal……

like it’s strange having these contradictory problems with it…..like, Being Myself has never really just been something i can Naturally do, so even just trying to be nice is like oh lord am i being ~manipulative~, and im always too prone to treat interactions like ive got to placate the other person, and then also just like….not having amazing social skills anyways in the sense that i know a lot of times i come across ~off~ to people and can’t really do a lot about that, but also, i feel like i’m always overcompensating for like, enthusiasm and just the fact i like to Get Silly and maybe i’ll act too cool~n~collected or come off like im trying to be all Smart and Smarmy and like jeez no……it doesnt help that when i was younger i generally preferred interacting with adults and so probably was trying to come across as clever and when i was wanting someone to like me i’d be real nervous and try to go too hard in seeming the opposite lol……oh the legacy of the time i found out my mom’s childhood friend who was funny and cool to us thought i was bookish (true) but like also snobby or something lmao like ah jeez i probably made too many sarcastic jokes about things….but oh well i was just like 10-ish at the time.

anyways tho i feel like that still kicks in and when i get the sense someone is cool and it’d be cool if they thought i was cool too i’m like Well So Then i gotta PLAY it cool!! and then like oh no am i coming across as a jerk? or an trying-to-be-an-intellectual?? i always have a lot of thoughts and i do go off when its like, also tied in to Opinions of mine, so im like, oh no am i coming across as trying to tell someone i think they should think exactly this?? or if i try to Be Witty and Tell Jokes are they just coming off as snarky b/c i hope not especially since a lot of times my actual Lighthearted Snark gets read as “i hate this and think its dumb af” lol. ahhhh i just do not know!! like, i wanna sort of dial back my Warmth b/c i can get enthused fast and i have a tendency to get too attached to ppl too fast, which really only sucks for me, but still!! yet i dont wanna rein it in too much and try to overcompensate and come off like im Eternally Unimpressed and don’t really care and etc etc and just…..idk its wild it’s hard to tell how i may be socializing awkwardly lmao ahhh….and on top of it all, i manage to be godawful at realizing when other ppl actually like me. like, that sort of sounds like The Opposite but i guess its just more of that problem of thinking that im going to always bother people….a lot of times it takes me like, months or a year (or two or three) to realize that someone who willingly interacts w me during that time probably does genuinely like me and is maybe a friend. wrow

uhhhh anyways lord that was all just. tangentially related. im Tangents

UH more to the point!!!! the good news is that yeah i don’t have to think “oh we’re totally real bffs” about anyone to really enjoy and appreciate Our Interactions…..and like i do have real appreciation and gratitude for basically all nice attention lol like, if a single reblog of smthing has kind comments, if someone cool just Likes a few posts, talking on occasion or like, ever at all. cuz for real The Little Stuff has always been a really good thing for years now, especially since there’s been plenty of times i havent really had anything happening In Person that was like….good interactions or ppl who were able to hear my actual thoughts and feelings about whatever and still be interested in interacting with me. cuz in terms of not being isolated and in what i find it easy to talk about and how, Online Interactions have been genuinely important and impactful in a positive way for like a solid decade now since i was able to be consistently Online and have my own accounts and stuff in the first place

so like yeah totally i really do appreciate stuff like that. i think its pretty incredible whenever anybody just like, thinks of me, and likes me. having None Of That Feeling is supremely trash and i so appreciate that i don’t have to feel like there’s nothing and that nobody out there in the world is aware of me, and yet i don’t need it to be that like, anyone is Constantly aware of me and like, intensely invested, cuz that’s just not how it goes lol and even kinda meaning a little bit to someone and having my tiny presence in their life be a positive one is a great thought and i really do appreciate it. Unfortunately for like….my entire life, The Contempt Of Others has been a consistent #thing i’m dealing with and it’s not great!! like yeah fortunately ive had the “felt so bad about myself that it eventually circled back around and now self loathing isnt too much of an issue for me” thing, but it still sucks experiencing it lol…..having any testimonials that like, whatever shit im talking about @ myself is fun to read, or i seem okay, or its fun to talk, etc etc, like thats fantastic really

and the kinds of leaf thoughts too, yeah, that kind of thing is nice to know too lol. i was hoping you were ok like, ten hours before i saw you posting again lol…..we’re out here……..

like yeah ldmbgglh whatever my weird problems are with being overexcited abt any Potential Friendship, and also being bad at realizing if people do like me, and also just being Weird and not great at talking, and overcompensating for whatever and maybe coming across too Coldly when rly im a fiery dumbass, wanting friends but also wanting not to be burned by getting ahead of things and being reminded that most ppl aren’t like, as starved for even just friendly interactions……..i’m better at navigating and handling it in some ways but c’est a m’ess!!! aaaggbfg

really what im trying to say is i do appreciate that sort of thing a lot yeah. i could very well Not be thought of by anybody and that would suck and the fact that i get to know that i am is a really great thing. maybe i couldve said this all better last night cuz i was kinda in my feelings abt Life a little but then also it was in a sort of déspresso way so, maybe this is okay lol….

also i worry i don’t express affection and appreciation enough!!! it’s not that i’m like Oh i don’t want to Commit to Being Friends ew…..it’s that i don’t wanna be the one pressuring someone else into being like uh oh i have to play up being invested in milo!! but then maybe my playing-it-cool just makes other ppl do the same thing or think i don’t care or something. like oh i appreciate this person a ton and think they’re great and they’ve been kind to me but if we only talk so often and obviously im not There for them and involved in their life in the way a ~real friend~ would be, maybe it would just ring hollow to say i love them, for example. lord lol……. it’s all “oh don’t dial down your kindness and affection” and yet also “but don’t wanna inadvertently push other people or Be Weird or get myself invested in something where i don’t mean as much to the other person not cuz they suck but because like, of course im just a fun internet acquaintance, which is fine!!” ahhhhhh the challenges. anyways!!!!!!!

the point is well i do like ppl yeah and i really appreciate ppl liking me. every now and then they do it online or even in person and thats just a Joy and i wish things were more secure!!! i also have to not even necessarily want ppl to get invested in me in case things go to shit too soon or whatever and it doesnt help that ~being open~ means talking abt depressingass stuff sometimes that like, i don’t mind being open about, but i also don’t want to put on other ppl. which, sidenote on that, im feeling relatively alright all these recent months even if im not technically thriving; it’s okay. it’s a hot mess! but that’s just How It Is sometimes!! it’s what it is. and ive had support from ppl in big and small ways that i know i could have had to go without and all the ways ppl are nice to me count for a whole lot and i have appreciated it, and do appreciate it, and will continue to appreciate it.

tldr 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[madefate-a]

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Tagged By: @duskgathers ty friend ❤❤  Tagging: steal it from me, pls & thx 

► NAME ➭ jay. ► ARE YOU SINGLE? ➭  single. ► ARE YOU HAPPY? ➭  i... think so. ► ARE YOU ANGRY?  ➭  more often than i should be. ► ARE YOUR PARENTS STILL MARRIED? ➭ no.

🔮 NINE FACTS!

► BIRTH PLACE ➭ the isle of the lost  ► HAIR COLOUR ➭ dark brown -- pretty dark. ► EYE COLOUR ➭ same, dark brown. ► BIRTHDAY ➭ october 28th. ► MOOD ➭   pretty chill. ► GENDER ➭ male. ► SUMMER OR WINTER ➭ any season i can be outside. ► MORNING OR AFTERNOON ➭ afternoon.

🔮 EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE!

► ARE YOU IN LOVE? ➭ no. ► DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT? ➭  no.  ► WHO ENDED YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP? ➭  relationships are -- messy. i’ve never had one.  ► HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART? ➭  i’m sure i have. ► ARE YOU AFRAID OF COMMITMENTS? ➭ i’m not afraid of anything, but -- they’re dangerous. ► HAVE YOU HUGGED SOMEONE WITHIN THE LAST WEEK? ➭  sure. ► HAVE YOU EVER HAD A SECRET ADMIRER? ➭ can you resist this charm? didn’t think so. ► HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN YOUR OWN HEART? ➭  -- don’t worry about it.

🔮 SIX CHOICES!

► LOVE OR LUST ➭ uh. ► LEMONADE OR ICED TEA ➭ lemonade. ► CATS OR DOGS ➭ doesn’t really matter, but dude’s pretty fun. ► A FEW BEST FRIENDS OR MANY REGULAR FRIENDS ➭ a few best friends. ► WILD NIGHT OUT OR ROMANTIC NIGHT IN ➭ i mean, i’d say a wild night out but i probably shouldn’t be getting too wild. ► DAY OR NIGHT  ➭ it’s -- it used to be night. but i think it might be day, now.

🔮 FIVE HAVE YOU EVERS!

► BEEN CAUGHT SNEAKING OUT ➭ sure but it’s never mattered. ► FALLEN DOWN/UP THE STAIRS ➭ no way. ► WANTED SOMETHING/SOMEONE SO BADLY IT HURT? ➭ -- hm. ► WANTED TO DISAPPEAR ➭ uh -- 

🔮 FIVE PREFERENCES!

► SMILE OR EYES ➭ eyes. ► FAT OR SKINNY ➭ no opinion. ► SHORTER OR TALLER ➭ still no opinion. ► INTELLIGENCE OR ATTRACTION ➭ attraction’s easier. but intelligence is -- it’s good, if it’s used well.   ► INTROVERTED OR EXTROVERTED ➭ as long as they don’t ask too many questions. ► HOOK-UP OR RELATIONSHIP ➭ like i said, relationships are -- a lot. hook ups are easier. safer. 

🔮 FAMILY!

► DO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY GET ALONG ➭ the family i have now? yeah.   ► WOULD YOU SAY YOU HAVE A “MESSED UP LIFE” ➭ i mean, it’s the only one i know. you’d have to ask someone else. ► HAVE YOU EVER RAN AWAY FROM HOME ➭ ... yeah, sure. you can call it that. ► HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN KICKED OUT ➭ yeah.

🔮 FRIENDS!

► DO YOU SECRETLY HATE ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS ➭ never. we wouldn’t be friends if that were the case.  ► DO YOU CONSIDER ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS GOOD FRIENDS ➭ i’m learning to figure out the definition so -- we’re getting there.  ► WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND ➭ mal was first, but i can’t not include evie and carlos.  ► WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU ➭ well... mal knows the most, i think. but everything -- that’s a lot.

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( ABOUT ME )

tagged by: @dollburdened ty eros tagging: steal plz i wanna know more about u!!

IN GENERAL:

NAME: sleepy

NICKNAMES: sweepy, uwu??, idk u tell me

SEXUALITY: my bed

PREFERRED PRONOUNS: she/her they/them

ARE YOU A MORNING PERSON?: noo................. but i don’t mind it either, i just sleep and wake up whenever i feel like it as long as there’s no school

WHEN SWIMMING, DO YOU PREFER TO DO IT IN THE OCEAN, OR IN A LAKE?: i’m physically disabled cause of my spine so i can’t really swim but i’ll stick to the swimming pool

ON TUMBLR:

ANYONE YOU WOULD LIKE TO MEET IN REAL LIFE?: any mutual i can get the chance to meet............ oh boy!! 

ANYONE YOU HAVE MET IN REAL LIFE?: nope, i live on a literal puny island and most people are from america side but i have mailed stuff from conventions to tumblr people before

WHEN DID YOU FIRST JOIN? 2012 

YOUR CURRENT ACCOUNT?: end of dec 2018

ANY PEEVES?: i probably have some but i can’t remember

FEELINGS:

DO YOU EASILY GET JEALOUS?: yeah but i keep it to myself and wait for it to get better, i don’t wanna bother anyone for my dumbass 1 brain cell lol

DO YOU EASILY GET ANGRY?:  irl yeah i have a bad temper, i say stuff i don’t mean in the heat of the moment and i have 100 regrets for years but i do cave in and apologise!! 

ARE YOU EASY TO CHEER UP?: ?? i don’t know the answer but i hope so!! i don’t want to waste my time being sad because i don’t know how long i have here

ARE YOU GOOD AT HIDING YOUR EMOTIONS?: ok!! this one is a weird question for me because i always laugh or smile even if i’m not happy and everything is actually really shit, like i can’t help but thinking ah shit my luck is so trash but i’m trash so what did i expect........ its like depressing but at least i don’t have really high expectations in the first place and stay realistic about my own skills. does that count as hiding your emotions?? i literally laughed a bunch when i was getting scolded about how shit my future is gonna be so im not sure, like i know it but i might as well laugh instead of cry kind of thing, you’ll see me do that a lot + talking to myself in VCs

WHAT’S THE VERY BEST WAY TO CHEER YOU UP?: i’m grateful if anyone wants to talk to me even, so ur company cheers me up!! thank u for gracing me with ur presence!!

RELATIONSHIPS:

ARE YOU CURRENTLY IN A RELATIONSHIP?: no

DO YOU CURRENTLY HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: no?? i love guido mista tho

IF YES, MIGHT THAT SOMEONE BE READING THIS?: -

DO YOU KISS ON THE FIRST DATE?: i don’t even have friends irl LOL smh i’d be too shy to kiss i think

DO YOU PREFER GOING OUT, OR STAYING HOME, WHEN IT COMES TO DATES?: lets sleep....... im fine going wherever someone wants to go tho 

THINGS:

FAVORITE DRINK: plain milk

FAVORITE FOOD: seafood and soft boiled eggs