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xiaq · 5 months

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I flew to Chicago for a customer meeting/demo this morning and now I’m back at the airport to fly home 4 hrs later.

My coworker: why’d you bring two bags if you’re only here for a couple hours?

My second bag:

Listen. I read one book on the flight out, I’ll need the second for the flight back. And the third is just in case.

#mylife #I’m ready to just be home for a while #I’m so sick of air travel #but the demo went well!#so that’s good #I do prefer meeting with customers in person

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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 6 months

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one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so.#literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

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machiavellli · 1 month

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what’s up with me and plane crashing dreams. perhaps my life long obsession with the show air crash investigations is hitting or smth

#this is the second time in a row #I slept like four hours but i still managed to dream something #and I dreamed all of this between this post and my last reblog.#basically it all started that I was reading a post (idk if it was Twitter) of a woman saying that she had to wait for 3 hours on a airplane #for the bathroom to free and she had to stay awake the entire time #and a moment later I was on that plane too. watching her. I was about to return to my seat (I think). also i was in first class. the only #way I’ll ever experience it) but OUT OF THE NOWHERE my last year surpervisor for an expo and her husband (which I saw once a picture) stand #up. and she starts screaming something about “something sweet coming for women”…? I have no idea what that means. but all the women/girls #on the airplane stand up (they were all sleeping before) and start to crowd in front of me and i start to feel like we are going down. DOWN.#and we were in fact. going down. crashing. and I was scared as hell so while everyone was laughing/celebrating (???) I was screaming of #horror. but just before we crash I wake up and I’m in my bed (but I know I’m still dreaming. because it’s like a slow downloading of the #image). I wake up and I decided I’m late for school (which i don’t have) and I get ready quickly and I march in full force to the bus statio #then I realize there is no school and I’m outside at 5am. I found a supermarket cart and idk why but I take it with me and only when I get #home I realize that the supermarket is nowhere close to my house (like irl) and now I have a freacking shipping cart and I decided to park #it in my garage #and then my mom woke me up as my alarm for 7am went off.#I feel like by brain has been fucked. I’m not used anymore to sleeping poorly because I’ve taken a great interest in better sleeping since #last year and I can’t stand this now ugh.#good morning people tho #dream

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tvrningout-a · 1 year

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girl you're in danger bc he's got a name now and it's cyrillo de bortoli

#i've been wanting to make a vampire character for a while so :) i did :)#and i combined that with the idea i had before in which!! he's the guy who made bronwyn a valravn!!#and he'll absolutely join rin and the free army and he and bronwyn are gonna meet and bronwyn is gonna have a cow ASDFG #cyrillo is just :D why're you lookin' like you wanna kill me :D while bronwyn exudes bloodlust and oh i didn't actually think this part out #IT'S GONNA BE INTERESTING TO SAY THE LEAST OH DEAR #anyway!! i'll talk more about him and his whole deal later and get him added to the blog sometime this week #also vampire lore for this particular universe hehe #i’m on the way home but i’m stopping by the store first so!! i’ll see y’all in a bit 💜#get ready to ramble | ooc

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rosicheeks · 5 months

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😂

#really wanna start a TikTok where I review products or whatever #but I get super duper high before I make the video 😂😂😂😂😂😂#I bought this idk face slimmer thing #and I decided to put it on while I was getting ready for bed #once I looked in the mirror I put my face back to like force myself to have a double chin #and idk what I even looked like #a fucking thumb?#one of those thumb dudes from spy kids?????#closest thing I could think of #and bro I BURSTED out laughing #probably woke my parents up lmaoooooo #just got home from a little smoke sesh with a friend and I’m a little toasted 😇#hope you guys are having a lovely day/night 🥰🥰🥰#shut up rosie

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makkie-is-screaming · 7 months

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I fucking can’t today

#Im tired and overwhelmed and I’m so sick of being the only responsible person in my house #I can’t even do my fucking school work because my dog needs food made everyday and my mom said she would start it #so I could finish my math test #then 20 mins later my brothers banging in my door bc my dog needs to go out so I have to stop my test to do that #then I see the dog food hasn’t been started so I need to do that but I have to do the dishes to make that #so I do the dishes then I’m doing the food and my brothers getting food and getting in my way bc he just can’t wait 30 mins #and he leave shit all over the counter that I need so I have to clean up after him while making dog food #then I finally finish the dog food and I’m cleaning the dishes I used when my brother comes over and leaves more dirty dishes #one had shrimp in it and the butters all gross and the smell alone made me want to vomit but I had to clean it #and I’m almost done when my sister comes out and sad that my cat got in my room and killed one of my plants n got dirt everywhere #Plus my dad came home early so now my mom wants me to vacuum #oh and I have to go to the store with her whenever she decided she’s ready to make sure she gets what we need #I’m currently sitting in my bathroom trying to calm down because I’m gonna snap and either kill someone else or myself if I don’t get a #break #And I still need to finish my math test #screaming

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wewontbesleeping · 1 year

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I literally do not know this strange blonde woman. no fucking CLUE

#me #THIS IS SO WEIRDDDDDDDDDDDD #but I’m obsessed ……#I think I’ll keep it blonde for a while #and then I really want to try having like Hayley Williams riot hair #I’m also excited to see this when I style it myself #bc I just had her blow dry it and nothing else #bc frankly. I was ready to go home #btw IGNORE how messy my house is #I seriously feel like a villain

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sluttyten · 1 year

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I still have 5 hours left in my shift 😭😭😭

#I just….#really wanna go home today #not having a good day. I started my period this morning and then I got to work and found out only me and one other opener were there but our #opening manager wasn’t here yet so she was late and we spent the next 20 minutes rushing to get everything set up before we opened #and then we immediately started getting customers and it’s just been busy and I’m tired and just don’t feel good bc of my period #and then so far I’ve had 2 of my least favorite customers come through the drive thru where I’m working #one is this dude who’s just fucking annoying another is the guy that asked for my number a few months ago who I haven’t seen since I turned #him down so I took his order and then made someone else deal with him at the window #and then it got busy with everyone ordering drinks like hot coffees which meant I had to walk from our drive thru out to the lobby bc my #coffees were out bc everyone wants coffee today but when I would do that I would still have to be taking orders #and then someone cleared a few specialty coffees off the barista screen without making them while the person was sitting in the drive thru #so I had to make those while doing other stuff too and people were asking me questions #and I was just getting very overstimulated and annoyed plus I’m hungry #and I just want to leave and go home and sleep but it’s my best friend’s birthday so she’s probably gonna want to do something later but I #just don’t feel up to it and I know she’s probably ready to hang out because she’s been off for 10 days with Covid so she’s well rested now #for her birthday but 😭😭😭 I just want to crash into my bed so hard and not wake up until noon tomorrow #also the coworker I work with every day and don’t like is here today unfortunately #and also all of the speakers we use to play music in the back are dead right now and I just want to play music #first world problems but I have so little patience today

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coyotepawsteps · 1 year

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of course it’s at 5am on a friday morning during my weekend at my dad’s house when i feel a burst of inspiration for starting the teddy bears i’ve been putting off sewing 😔

#context is that. a while ago. idk how long ago exactly but like #a while ago. my mom had me look for a sewing pattern for teddy bear plushies #bc some of her work friends/coworkers/whatever #apparently are willing to pay me some money for sewing them a bear #yet even with the knowledge i Will Be Getting Paid For Making These #i still haven’t bothered actually starting them yet #and the past ~month anyways i’ve been more focused on a butterfly that’s gonna be a really late birthday present for my mom #and. for some reason. right now i just feel so ready to actually start on some of these bears #the issue lies in the fact i’m gonna be at my dad’s house for the next couple days. all my sewing stuff is at home #so i cannot do anything until like monday. this is very sad 😔 /lh

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stardust-sunset · 11 months

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i really hate when i latch onto adult figures in my life like they’re second parents to me and then i realise i’m never gonna see them again in a few years time

#also hate when my brain makes older friends honorary siblings/parent figures #bc i have a funny thing called anxiety of being left behind 😎#and i’m too scared to latch #also bc it feels weird and if the person didn’t feel the same i would be fucked #also like i dunno it’s nice to be treated like a kid again every once in a while #i dunno i just want someone who will let me act like a kid and be weird as hell without judgement #(i don’t mean weird weird i mean someone who will let me ramble about special interests)#(bc i always somehow encorperate biology in to fandom hdcs)#and i just wanna act goofy and childish with a safe person’\#cus i can’t do it at home i’m too old for that shit #which is understandable but idk #i’m not talking like someone who will babysit me i just mean a friend who doesn’t expect me to be college ready already #idk #skippwr speaks #it’s 530 i need to sleep

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taketheringtolohac · 1 year

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moving out day :(

#crying on the way home while listening to u*detale bc apparently that’s how I’m feeling. bc the thing is. that is how I’m feeling.#just. I wasn’t ready. i was never going to be but god. i am not ready to leave at all. and I am. not ok rn. but it’s ok.#I’m excited but also I’m so so sad and it’s terrible. it really is.#roxy talks

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tvrningout-archived · 2 years

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pls know i’ve been spacing all day bc i’m thinking about chiyo and hyouka’s n.aruto verses

#thinking about them taking the chunin exam and the possibility of them facing each other in the 3rd round or during the lil one on one #fights right after the second round #bc it’d be interesting to see them fight each other when they’re styles are very different and they both are just #‘ but she’s my friend i don’t wanna fight her— ‘#also thinking about hyouka’s sister being a medic nin working mainly at the hospital bc that allows her to be close to home #and how deeply she wishes hyouka would follow the same path bc at least then she could keep an eye on her maybe keep her safe #ALSO part of me really does wanna throw kaigaku into the mix asdf i can see it working and i mean #why not he’s my baby my adopted oc uvu #but then i also kinda wanna see if anyone wants to throw their own oc into chiyo and hyouka’s team bc i love!!! that kinda thing!!!#anyway hi i hope y’all are having nice days while the brain rot continues to hit me 💜#i’m on break for a little longer and then!! just two more hours before i’m freeeeee!!!#get ready to ramble | ooc

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tvrningout-a · 1 year

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my feet hurt like the dickens, but!! today was fun so have a few ren faire photos below 💜

#i was a little fool and wore heels bc i must suffer for the aesthetic asdfg #not doing that again though bc i felt like i was gonna roll an ankle every two seconds #but today was lovely and i hope y’all are having a lovely saturday as well!!#if i don’t pass out when i get home i’ll be here but we’ll see :’ )#for now i’m just lurking while we drive to my friend’s place to recuperate and perhaps eat!#get ready to ramble | ooc

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breakingjen · 2 years

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#after a teams meeting last month and a visit to a support service/training provider two weeks ago #this past monday i started a thing called ‘introduction to work’#it means that 1.5h/day 5 days/week i’m there getting help finding my feet to eventually be ready to join the job market #lectures on two of those and independent learning on their database the other three #also those hours are meant to be increased in small amounts until i’ve reached how many hrs/day i’m capable of #maybe it’s bc it’s the first week but i don’t know if i’m ready for this yet #bc while i’ve moved back to my own home i’m still helping mom daily #and today i am /not/ doing well mentally #i feel utterly exhausted and like i just wanna lie down on the floor and completely give up #but like i said i really hope it’s just bc it’s the first week #also there were some things i read/heard during today’s independent studies that had me cry in front of my computer (in public) so idk🤷‍♀️#basically - i’m quite tired and sad at this point

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vikingrose24 · 2 years

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Adorable size comparison of my brothers dog Luna (big mutt) and my then 11 week old mutt Junie B.

She’s up to 8.3 lbs as of Wednesday and is only up to Luna’s knees in height. Can’t wait to train her to go after the attic rats and other furry garden/home pests.

#dogs #I have an indoor cat too that also goes after house pests #but I’m gonna need a garden helper #I know the squirrels are gonna be a pain and I’m likely gonna have to just live with them #but if I can train her to keep the rabbits away and to get the attic rats before they can get to the house at all I’d be happy #I managed to find quite a few rat homes while setting up a place for the main garden bed so hopefully I can get her ready to defend soon

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rosicheeks · 2 years

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I wanna come home from a long fucking day of work and crawl in bed with you, thrusting my hard cock inside that pretty sweet little mouth of yours

Pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls

#my DREAM right there #I’ve always had a dream of being a stay at home pet 😇#I’ll be a cute little puppy while you’re at work all day #maybe I’ll send you pictures and videos teasing you all day #I’ll show you me cooking in just my lingerie #and then I want them to text me when they’re on their way home #and maybe they’ll tell me exactly what they want #‘put on that blue lingerie and have your collar and leash ready for me’#or ‘be completely naked and waiting for me when I get home’#I’ll always be a good girl and do as I’m told #but maybeeeeeee one day I’m a brat and I decide to hide instead #I want to hear you slam through the doors searching for me #rosie?? rosie!!! ROSIE #and then when you finally find me you’ll have to punish me and teach me never to disobey again #jdndksnkdnfkwjsmd #ugh #not a want but a NEED #ask #anon

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