#I'M SO GRATEFUL FOR YOU!!!!! <333

[basketobread]

You’re genuinely so funny. You should seriously make some kind of comic

omg this is such a late response but i hope you know that i made this EXACT face when reading this. thank you SO much!!! i really would love to make a comic soon featuring my oc's or something... maybe i'll get around to planning one eventually. but comics aside, your words mean SOOO much. THANK YOU AGAIN!!!! 😭😭😭❤❤❤❤

[archangeldyke-all]

This is a little self indulgent so feel free to ignore! But I have been dealing with pretty severe hair loss due to a chronic illness and have been feeling really sad and unloveable and embarrassed about it lately, esp because I used to have really thick and luscious hair. I think it would be so healing to read something about Sevika comforting and loving a reader who is dealing with hair loss hahahaha or you could even just generally do something about a reader struggling with body changes due to chronic illness??? Whatever you want! Thank you so much love you <3

this whole blog is self-indulgent central babe!! also, i love you too, i'm so sorry you're going through this, chronic illness sucks so much fucking ass, i hope this can make you feel just a bit better <333

men and minors dni

she catches you in the bathroom, staring sadly down at the sink.

"babe?" she asks.

"i lost more hair." you say, sad and quiet. you lift up the clump of hair in the sink that came out when you tried to brush this morning for her to see.

sevika's heart breaks.

not because of your hair. she doesn't really give a shit about it. sure, you've got great hair, but sevika'd still love you if you were bald, or if you grew needles out of your scalp instead of your soft strands. no, her heart breaks because she knows how much you care about it, and how sad you get each time your chronic illness takes more of it from you.

"fuck, baby." she mumbles, racing to wrap you up in a hug. you slump against her, silently crying into her chest. "i'm sorry, honey." she whispers against your scalp, pressing kisses to your head.

"i just-- i feel so fuckin' ugly." you mumble.

sevika gasps, and steps away from you, both of her strong hands on your shoulders. she almost shakes you as she speaks, a glare in her eyes. "don't fucking say that." she says. you blink up at her, surprised by her tone. "fuck, baby, you're the most beautiful woman i've ever met, are you fucking kidding me?" she asks. "it-- you have great hair but-- that's not what makes you hot, you know?" she asks. you blink.

"what?" you ask. sevika groans, and this time, she does shake your shoulders as she speaks.

"look at you!" she cries. "baby-- you've still got your body. your gorgeous skin, your pretty smile, those eyes, fuck i get lost in your eyes all the fucking time. you're funny and smart and so fucking kind and i can never stop staring at your ass-- shit, honey, you're so good looking it drives me insane." she insists. a smile ticks up at the corner of your mouth, but quickly fades away.

"i might go bald someday." you say sadly. sevika groans.

"so you'll be bald! i'll love my little baldheaded baby. give your head kisses all the fuckin time, buy you hats to keep you warm, get you wigs-- think of all the fuckin' colors and styles and lengths you can have, whenever you want!" you chuckle at her outburst, tears still streaming down your cheeks, but your frown doesn't return.

"thanks, sev." you say. she swoops in to press a firm kiss to your lips.

she does research on hair loss for you.

she comes home with different potions and oils for hair growth at least once a week.

once a week, she'll help you coat your hair in masks, to condition and soften and promote growth. and then an hour later, she'll wash it out for you, taking her time to wash it all out, then gently comb your hair and blow dry it for you.

she learns how to do styles meant for thin hair, and then she insists she does your hair for you every morning.

her instagram feed is entirely thin hair styling videos now.

she gives you a new style every. single. day. sometimes, she'll even do her own hair in the same style, so the two of you can match.

as you lose more, she starts pressing kisses to the little spots of your scalp, sure to make it clear just how much she loves every part of you.

and each time she catches you in the mirror fretting with your scalp, she'll smother you in kisses until you forget your worries, then go out to buy you a fun new hat or headband or head scarf or wig to take your mind off the loss, and put it on the new fun accessories.

her care for you doesn't stop here. she's just as intensely loving and caring when you experience other symptoms of your illness.

she carries those pocket warmers with her, and when you're out and about and get an ache or pain, she'll pop 'em to activate 'em, then wrap them in a rag before pressing it to whatever part of your body is sore.

she's always making sure you get enough food and water, even when you aren't feeling hungry. she researches good protein shakes with lots of calories and nutrients, then buys the best she can find-- and she'll glare at you every morning and evening until you finish your serving.

if you get tired when you're out in public, sevika will take you home the second you yawn. doesn't matter if you're in the middle of grocery shopping, she'll leave the cart in the middle of the aisle and take you home, holding you until you fall asleep, then sneaking out to return to the store and finish shopping for the both of you.

she still runs her fingers through your hair like she did when you first met, uncaring of the way a few strands will always come out while she strokes your hair. and, when your little bald spots start growing fuzzy patches back, she's fucking thrilled. she loves the texture, loves running her fingers over it.

when you start wearing wigs on the regular (if that's something you do) sevika is always thrilled when you ask for her opinions.

"oooh i think the bob goes better with that outfit, babe." or "fuck, that red looks fucking stunning on you."

sometimes, you'll catch her in the bathroom, one of your wigs on her head, dancing in the mirror as she swishes the long inches of hair behind her back. it's so fucking cute. she's so embarrassed each time you catch her.

anyways, sevika loves you more than anything else in her life. a little hair loss isn't gonna stop that.

taglist!

@fyeahnix @sapphicsgirl @half-of-a-gay @ellabslut @thesevi0lentdelights @sexysapphicshopowner @shimtarofstupidity @love-sugarr @chuucanchuucan @222danielaa @badbye666 @femme-historian @lia-winther @gr0ssz0mbi3 @ellsss @sevikaspillowprincess @leomatsuzaki

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

For the requests, could we possibly get a cute lil Nighty (passive)?? :D

happy tears(?)

nightmare belongs to jokublog

(requests still open! )

[gingermintpepper]

Hi! I just want to clarify that actually Apollo was a sun god in Greece too... The most ancient author who refered Apollo as a solar deity was Aeschylus lived from 525 BCE - 456 BCE

“The unseen land [i.e. the underworld] where Apollon [here the sun] does not walk, the sunless (analion) land that receives all men.”

- Aeschylus, Seven Against Thebes 858 ff

Apollo being a solar deity was definitely not something Romans invented. Yes, maybe in Roma Era he was syncreticed with Helios and was seeing as the sun itself, even replacing Helios in some myths (like Phaeton and Clytie stories). But he was a sun god in Ancient Greece, maybe not itself, but something more like Horus to the egyptian, a solar deity.

Hi hi!! Thank you so much for the clarification!!

I do have to apologise for my own super casual tone probably giving the wrong idea but if this is referring to the tags on a recent post making a (wonderful!!) case for dark-haired Apollo then I do have to say that I didn't state Apollo wasn't associated with the sun in Greek culture but that he was not primarily associated with the sun!

Like you do very correctly say he was more of a civic god with solar aspects like Egypt's Horus (and even that is a large simplification), mostly from a cosmic standpoint. I like saying that Apollo is the 'light' in 'enlightenment' to the Greeks vs being a physical light to the Romans ♡♡

Thank you so much for double-checking my work though! I'll make sure to be clearer with my tags so these kinds of things don't happen in the future 🥰🙇🏾

[shiawasekai]

Idk how this works, but 4,18,28 please

Hello, thank you. It's perfect like this! From this ask game

4. What did they do before they became a crusader? Did they have a job, an occupation?

Answered here!

18. If they survived, what is their life post crusade?

Nela survives the Crusades, staying in Drezen as its governor. To put it in few words: she has nowhere else to go anyway, and despite the many struggles and the growing mental health issues she also feels fulfilled by the job and has a talent for it. She has grown attached to the place and its people, it's where she belongs now that her home is gone.

That's... not as positive a choice as it may sound.

The first few months after the Crusades are won, Nela remains busy. However, as soon as Drezen and Mendev start to settle in, the companions go on their respective ways and the workload goes down... she crashes and goes on a downward spiral.

All the mental issues and trauma she had shouldered by playing the part of the perfect Commander start to appear, and she declines fast. Any attempt to help is pointless. She doesn't want to talk about the actual sources of her issues, so there is no way for anyone to intervene. It gets bad, really bad. She starts to self-harm a few months in.

It's only thanks to Sosiel's intervention that the situation gets solved before it can reach a critical point. Sosiel and Nela share a homeland, both coming from Carpenden, Andoran. He knows her relatives, enough to have mostly figured out by himself what's truly going on and approaching her brother, now an elder man in his 90s, with the full story. A way to return the favor, so to speak.

Samel, Nela's brother, ends up rushing to Drezen to meet up with Nela. Having a part of her family, her old world, back is a massive relief, but it's as much of a relief to have someone she can afford to be fully honest with. She doesn't have to fear hurting him with her feelings and thoughts, or to show weakness to the wrong person as someone in a position of authority. It doesn't magically make it all better, but it gets her started.

She ends up retiring from Drezen for about half a year to get some rest and work out her issues, moving to one of Daeran's properties closer to Nerosyan. Anevia and Irabeth contact her from time to time for bigger decisions, but she is mostly left to rest and recover.

It takes her years before she works out through it all. It's never fully gone, but she is finally comfortable in her own skin and at peace with how her life turned out. She remains just a governor, stubbornly refusing getting any more political power and making an effort to discourage anything that may push her beyond the edge onto divinity.

She also remains in contact with the Hand of the Inheritor and her fellow angels companions. From time to time, she goes on escapades to help them out in other planes. The rest of her time and effort is spent in helping out with purifying the Worldwound and providing aid to the efforts of the Sarkorians, druids and other followers of the Green Faith.

Daeran and her only marry once the worst of her own issues have passed, about 2 years after the Crusades have ended.

28. Would they be a companion instead of the KC? What would their storyline and personal quest be?

Answered here!

[c00kietin]

*bonks you softly with head* can I have a comfort hug plz

of course!! <3333

[fbfh]

happy Turkey day!!!

can i get some jealous!Leo headcanons? 🥹

HAPPY THANKSGIVING SAUCEGAWDESSS MY BELOVED!!!!!!!!

jealous Leo is interesting bc he's worked through so much self doubt and confidence issues and insecurity that he knows no one else has a chance with you. he knows how much you like him, or he's at least starting to get a good idea of it. so when he does get jealous it's almost fun. it's building up this tension that he's going to have a field day with. he watches closely as whoever this guy is touches your arm and tries to compare hand sizes and tries to make you laugh with his (in Leo's opinion, pathetic) sense of humor. he watches close and sucks his teeth and clenches his jaw and crosses his arms. you don't even notice the guy once you glance back over at Leo because he looks so fucking hot when he does that. he's wearing a button up today like he often does, and the sleeves are rolled up. he seems very very slightly pissed. just a little. but you pick up on it. he's doing literally every attractive thing he could possibly do, and he has your full attention. he knows this, you know this, but the guy who's still trying to convince you to get drinks with him seems to be the only one who doesn't notice. Leo knows you're his and he's yours, but that's not going to stop him from patiently waiting, biding his time until you're behind closed doors so he can tease the living shit out of you. he'll edge you with his long pretty fingers, sucking big hickeys into the most obvious and the most intimate places he can, just because he likes how much you react to his touch. he'll mutter the filthiest shit he can conjure into your ear, turning into the cockiest little shit. there's a chance you might not even realize that he's acting like this because he's jealous, but once you figure it out, you won't even need to rile him up to get him to do it again. he's smart enough to realize that's your end game, and he'll play along. almost too well. he'll have you writhing and moaning and shaking and all you can think about is how glad you are that you know him so well, that he knows you so well. and for that guy who wouldn't stop staring at you.

[wackus-bonkus-maximus]

odnlb update

i think some happy endings are in order.

thank you thank you THANK YOU for making it this far with me! i hope you have enjoyed ❤️

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

So this episode was about teachers committing to and caring about their students, and district people too, and I love that :'). Sometimes all you need is a district person who will keep putting in the effort like that, and I love when it happens for people <33

Anyway! I'm so glad they got the interpreter for Amani, she so deserves it :'D. Everyone does :').

I'm glad Gregory decided to let them stay :') I think he can really help these kids out and be a good place for them :)) :D

Also proud of Tariq for finally calling Nick his name :'D hope they do get close :)

Poor Barbara though xD

And once again proud of Janine for fighting through it to get the ASL interpreter :')) and the way she did it was so iconic xD same for the parents lol, going to a reporter that already doesn't like the district LOL, but yeah I am so happy for them :D

Also I love Jacob and Janine <33

With going out for drinks at the end, I hope Janine doesn't leave them behind :((

Btw the reason for the boys being in Gregory's room being that the Mortons are in couples therapy is hilarious xDD

And lol hopefully it's just like, upkeep, because they just got married xD

Anyway!! I am distrustful of districts but I hope it works out (with the issues obviously) on the show :). And even though I am I know this side of the story needs to be seen as well so it's nice to see, switches it up on me a bit more than usual. Like, makes me a little more uncomfortable and see it a different way more than usual. Which is good :)

Loved the episode!!! I'm so excited for next week :D

And also terrified :')

But I almost definitely won't be able to watch it lol so, I'll see y'all a little bit after that lol

Bye y'all!

[pathos-logical]

YOU WORK WITH KIDS?? can you tell us more? im an early childhood edu major and i cant wait to have more experience.. its so fulfilling

Omg omg hiiii yes I sure can!!! I actually work at the elementary school I used to go to, in a before/afterschool care program where parents can, as the name suggests, drop their kids off before or after school starts so they don't have to take the bus to or from school :) The school is K-3 and only eight minutes from my house, which is fantastic, because I most love working with younger kids and it's SO convenient!!

I work two hours mornings and three hours afternoons basically any time I can manage (though I'm cutting back this semester, since the last one was pretty grueling-- I was doing every shift I physically could, lmao). It's very straightforward: I get to interact with the kids by playing board games and cards or even drawing with them when we're in the cafeteria, or play games outside/in the gym when we do either of those! Fun fact, I arranged a pretty banger "among us" game on the playground last year, and kids who had me last year asked me specifically to facilitate it again this year!! (INCLUDING a family friend who I spent new year's with, so some of my time with friends was interrupted by first- and fourth-graders running into our room asking to be assigned crewmate or imposter, LMAO) I also do homework help and arrange crafts (mostly origami, but I like finding fun coloring pages and other stuff too!) :)))

As you can see from my rambling, I love my job soooo much ahahaha 😊😊😊 It really is so fulfilling!! My kids are so sweet and so funny and so cute, and also, I get PAID to play cards and color?? Yes please!! What experience have you had so far? Your major sounds like a dream, I wish you all the best!!!!

[waterfallofspace]

💜🔐⭐️ for the ask game~

Hiii~ <333 (put a cut for the long answer haha~)

💜 describe yourself in five words or less!

I'll go for a little honestly, and say what I'd actually say: Anxious, Perfectionist(ish), Chaotic, and Loyal.

🔐 something no one would guess about you

That I'm adopted! I mean, I tell a lot of people, so it's not like a secret or anything, but I look just like my adoptive parents, so I've always had the choice if I wanna tell people or not, no one can just guess! (I've even had people comment on, "aww, you look just like your mom!" and we like to share a little laugh over that~)

⭐️ what is one of your biggest accomplishments? Why is it so important to you?

Honestly? I'd say starting this blog. For many many years I've been so anxious about this side of myself. Hating it, hating me, wondering why I was like this, and just generally feeling awful and ashamed.

Then one of my friends (who knows) talked me into making an email specifically for this type of thing so I could try to find communities to start engaging with. I was terrified, but I did make one and sign up for tumblr.

I didn't engage with anything for a solid year, until I found anime, and then found this amazing community. Then, despite intense anxiety about it, I started interacting! And thankfully, some of you amazing people found me and took me in. 💗

Loooooong winded answer, but basically, making this blog is one of my biggest accomplishments, and especially starting to create content and talk to all the insanely talented and friendly people on here <333

I'm still not completely over the shame, I think that'll take a little while, and by god I'm still so anxious about interactions on here, but you guys have made this one of the most important things in my life, 😭💗 and helped me start accepting parts of myself I didn't know I could~

[soupacool]

congrats on taking T and experiencing voice changes, that's so exciting!! 🥳🥳✨✨

thank you!!! it's been a period of intense learning of myself and my place in the world and I wouldn't trade it for anything

[dylanconrique]

Why and how did you start shipping chenford?

i started shipping chenford quite by accident actually. procedural shows of any kind aren't my cup of tea, so i tend to avoid them like a deadly disease lol. i think i fell into the fandom sometime while s2 was still airing, i had youtube playing as background noise while i was writing, so i wasn't paying any attention at all and it started playing the infamous DOD rescue scene and it immediately put me in a trance. it was all downhill after that, never been the same human since.

[uroborosymphony]

HI LYNNIE <3 <3 <3 i am here!! with ur chara development questions, specifically for my fav crazy girl, quinn :'D - feel free to skip any you're not feeling: Is she aware of the fact that she is slowly spiraling? Does that ever scare her/has she tried anything to stop her descent? Alternatively is this something she is starting to embrace?

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐋𝐎𝐏𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐍𝐍 (𝟏/𝟓).

Quinn actually does know she is slowly spiraling. As she originally wanted to become a psychiatrist, growing up with a mother who was mentally ill. She went far enough in her education to be able to identify and diagnose the symptoms of psychotic disorders. It's actually what plays against her, because Quinn is an expert on the topic, she does believe it can and only should happen to others - patients - and definity not Her - the doctor - how ironic is that. Her deep knowledge and cold realism is painfully mixed with delusions she finds comforts in - delusions that come from her Pride as well as from the disorder itself, trying to minimize how badly it's getting in her head. There are three stages for a schizophrenic disorder and she can tell she is on the first : Prodromal. The phase comes with various mood changes, anxiety, sleep disturbances, irritability, anger, and behaviours on the spectrum of obsession-compulsion and dissociative episodes. Her sleep disturbances show with these nightmares she has been having recently - ones where she can't truly say if she's awake, if she's hallucinating or simply fully asleep, she often dreams of blood and other versions of herself. Irritability and anger come easier with time, especially in high tension situations, during a face to face between Naeun and the Black Fang gang for example - little hold on her emotions, reactions, it escalates fast and usually over the smallest details. Obsessive behaviours with this obsession over Felicity she developped as she spent nights and nights digging and following and digging into the girl's life and past. And finally, dissociative episodes when facing The Black Night, along with auditive hallucinations. In order to keep head in place, she has continous inner dialogues with herself, sitting down, trying to rationalize her thoughts, she spends an obsessive amount of time in front of mirrors as well, as if the sight of her own person helps to anchor herself into reality. This trick however won't work forever if what she sees in the mirror starts morphing, moving, talking out of hallucinations - that would sign the beginning of another stage. She refuses to become her mother, she's scared to turn into everything she loathed in the woman who failed to raise her. Quinn is a ticking bomb however. Especially with the path she chose, as a vigilante. In her case it's a paranoid schizophrenia to be more specific, and so, the deeper she will let her obsessions for justice and punishments gain her, the more she will use it as an excuse, the lesser she will see herself as losing her mind but "doing what's good". Anything or anyone who will show her opposition or point out her sick head will only increase her paranoid thoughts and new perception of this reality : believing the outsiders simply Don't want a better world like she does - she will flip the narrative and lose sight on what's truly going on with her.

[ofhope]

I dunno if it's been said before but you really do keep a tidy ship and what I mean by that is your muselist. It's SOO Clean, gorgeous, the colors are soo crisp and inviting that you appreciate and wanna write with every muse on there EVEN if you don't know who they are.

JAAAY you can't keep coming into my inbox and being nice, that's what your inbox is meant for! I've always found your graphics / pages to be incredibly inspiring; you so perfectly read characters and manage to put their backgrounds & stories in a concise and well-rounded way. Even with characters I know little about, like Yusuke, I feel like I've got a firm grasp on his character purely because of how you, personally, carry him -- both in character, and on his respective biography.

Thank you for being so sweet to me, you're always a huge part of the reason I come back to this site, alongside serving as an inspiration for me. You're always so bright, and I hope to channel that own brightness in my own way, and trail the same path you do - not only do you have a delightfully creative mind, you have a delightful mind in general. You embody warm characters with hearty appetites and endless kindness, with a kindness so pure it can cleanse even the most furious of villains.

Thank you so much for your words, please know I'll always hold them close to my heart. :'] <3

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

heavy breathing

*big inhale*

GLITCHYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omG OMG just when i wanted to send you an ask you big big sweetheart!!!!!!! hello hi just came back to this hellsite how are you doing? :'Dc <3333