#I'm a sad boy tonight

[medicinelarrie]

A few hours??

[stellaluna33]

Give me my Romeo, and when he shall die, take him and cut him out in little Stars, and he shall make the face of heaven so fine, that all the world will be in love with Night, and pay no worship to the garish Day...

(Edit: Romeo's not dead yet. But we may not be able to keep him much longer.)

[daisychainsandbowties]

i will make you eggs, little casper. CRONCH

i've actually been an absolute chef the past few nights 😳😳!! and nobody at all helped me or gave me instructions or reminded me that you can cook food in things other than water. you can, in fact, stir fry things in substances besides tap water and hot sauce. and you can, in fact, cook vegetables along with whatever random piece of fish you've scavenged off the side of the road like a mongrel beast

[everybodyknows-everybodydies]

It is never silent, in the temple. The Blades sleep in shifts. Someone is always awake, always clanging swords, always polishing armor, always talking.

Always laughing. And then they see him, and then they stop.

Martin finds her outside, sitting on the wall, staring southwest. He’s never been very good at his cardinal directions, but both of them have remagnetized their internal compasses as of late. He always knows, now, somehow, in which direction it used to lay.

“I keep thinking it has to end, at some point,” she says without turning around. Her hands tremble in her lap. She has not stopped shaking since she came back at dawn from the latest gate. The starlight glints, deceptively gentle, off the metal shoulders of her ill-fitting, ill-gotten armor.

“One would think. At some point.” He sits beside her.

“When you are emperor,” she begins; he cringes, and she tightens her hands into fists, clutching the dirty white fabric of Kvatch. “When you are emperor, Brother Martin. You can't rebuild it.”

He stares at the horizon, eyes fixed on the same point that hers, inevitably, are as well. “I think,” he says with forced lightness, “when I am emperor, I will be able to do—whatever I want. Is that not the prerogative of the emperor?”

“No,” she says, so vehemently it startles him. “You can’t. It won’t—be the same.”

“Of course not.” He imagines he can see lights, lamplight in windows. (He can’t; even if there were windows left in Kvatch to hold lamplight, the distance is too great.) “But it will be something.”

“Name it something else.” Her voice has gone dull and flat again. Her hands have not stopped shaking.

Martin closes his eyes briefly, the memory of daedric fire lighting the backs of his eyelids. “Alright. Tell me, then, this new city with the bones of Kvatch. What shall we name it?”

She’s silent for a moment, and he thinks—it’s a stupid game, anyway, but then she says, “They’ll name it after you, of course. Martinium.”

He laughs without intending to, then rubs at his jaw, embarrassed. “I certainly hope not,” he says ruefully. “Perhaps we’ll name it after you. The city of Cadoret.”

For half a second he thinks she might laugh too. But she just shakes her head. “No, that would make too many capitals that start with C. Chorrol and Cheydinhal already outnumber most of the other letters. Bruma and Bravil. There is a dearth of M’s, though.”

“Very well, it will start with M. For Molly,” he says. “Not for Martin. I’ll have enough for myself by then.”

“You’ll rename the Imperial City, then, and that will be Martinium.”

“I don’t think that’s a very good name for a city.”

“Execute me for my poor taste when you’re emperor, then,” she says with a wry little smile. “Marton, with an O instead of an I.”

“Too similar. No one will ever be able to say my name without clarifying if they mean the person or the place. And I’m not sure it’s very tasteful to name a city after oneself, without even the pretense of altering it for some distinction.”

Her smile isn’t as taut. He considers this a success. “What will you call it, then?”

Pause. “If all I need is the M,” he says, feigning deep thought, “then, obviously, the perfect name would be the Mimperial City.”

She tears her gaze from the horizon to stare at him, aghast, just long enough for him to begin to be nervous, and then laughter, bubbling like a blister, runs her eternal tremor up her arms to her shoulders, tears in her eyes. She laughs, and she laughs, and then his own laughter dies in his throat as she lunges for the side of the wall and vomits over it into the bright snowy night below. “I hate it very much,” she gasps out at last, shaking worse than before. “I think the Elder Council will depose you for it.”

“Then it’s perfect.” He gets awkwardly to his feet, offering a hand. “You should come inside. It’s late.”

She looks at him, with her dark hollow eyes, ever bruised with too little sleep, and stands wobblingly on her own accord. “Brother Martin, Emperor Septim, priest and chosen of Akatosh,” she says, not unkindly, “it will always be late, I think. Your Blades will have found the next place to send me by the time we get inside.”

He smiles, feeling just as tired as she looks. “Molly Cadoret, hero of Kvatch, my friend. There are no barbers in the Blades.” He dips his head. “I hope,” he begins, then stops. Tries again. “I hope… I hope that, whatever else happens, when this has finished, you will be there to cut my hair.”

[idolsummons]

thank u to all who got into hana's birthday bash! i usually forget about my muses' birthdays so it's a nice change of pace :P if u wanna get in on it, u still have four hours! here's some memes for inspo: x, x

unrelated to that but i'm doin!!! pretty good at learning japanese!!! it will be the death of me but i've learnt to read hiragana and katakana and have started learning kanji \o/ i set myself the goal of playing a poke/mon game in japanese so that i have something to aim towards, and it seemed like an easier long-term goal since it's a game for children!

anyway off to sleep i go ♥ goodnight friends ♥

[crazydreamer6]

Do you think that ancient peoples and cave men had to deal with depression? Can you imagine sitting in a cave, banging rocks together, and just staring angrily, "Why sad? Why sad?"

[bibmob]

when all your plants get infected and you're trying to figure out which one was the source. it's mfing cluedo up in here. who dunnit

[stonekeyy]

first tumblr post I saw today was that textpost about cu/no and I have IMMEDIATELY been flung into rabid hyperfixation mode about the boy

[yes-i-read-sappho]

just wrote an almost 2400 word linguistics paper about The Untamed for a literal 400 level college course and now i want to rewatch the entire thing just to note who uses which names for which characters

[frick6101719]

tag game tag game tag game

tagged by @feelinglikecleopatra and it's been a MINUTE since I did one of these! Thanks 😘

3 ships: Everlark and Kanej are, now and always, close to my heart. Haven't devoted much energy to Reaperstang recently but they are also always there.

first ship: probably Everlark? I have no memory. Although I watched The Princess Diaries recently and was reminded that Queen Clarise and Joe are my entire generation's ACTUAL first ship...

last song: A Little Honey by Nathaniel Rateliff & The Night Sweats (a summer JAM)

last film: DIRTY DANCING because one of my housemates hadn't seen it. The sexiest movie ever imo

currently reading: officially I'm still reading Anna Karenina, but I've been on hiatus for a couple weeks.

currently watching: the motherfucking Toronto Maple Leafs games that's what. And an episode of The Office or Community between periods. Also rewatching Supernatural with my housemate

currently craving: Arizona Green Tea, perpetually.

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Thanks for the tag Cleo! I'm tagging @im-doing-hot-girl-shit, @rosegardeninwinter, @the-sun-and-the-sea, @totchipanda, and @cameliawrites.

[mental-breakdown-machine]

you know what's really fucking sad? like REALLY fucking sad? fish boy aka turtle my green glow betta fish who is already 4 years old. well I got him from someone else who wasn't taking great care of him before because they didn't really know what they were doing and so I got this boy with fin rot and I thought I had been treating it pretty good as it had been going away but today I seen that it had spread to his body which like, there's no coming back from that. So I think he may die soon which is not a fun or good thought but I guess the only thing is he's only a couple months away from being 5 and betta on a average live between 2-5 years so there's something

[kaleuh]

boys are just . not real

[proteuus]

I thought everything was the worst but then I had my daily sugar drink with a splash of coffee and it turns out everything actually isnt the worst. so thats good news

[famdommcfanface]

Honestly sympathetic to the Jodie fans today

[idolsummons]

if an eldritch beast said you can see the worlds from which we come but we must remove your brain and place it inside a container to which tubes will connect so that you can still experience your human senses when they're plugged in hana would simply say no thank you

[neonganymede]

I'm very late to the fruits basket game, but I'm here now. And I've adopted a child.