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listenupcupcakes · 5 months

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OOC: Hey yall! Sorry I haven't been active lately, depression has been kicking my ass all the way to sunday, I'm not doing to well in the headspace.

I'm still gonna answer asks, this isn't the end of Soldier Ask Blog, but I am taking a bit of a break, just for now

#Soldier still has wings #and the Blu Soldier still has communist bedroom #those two are not forgotten #I already have an ask picked out for the Solly Looses his Wings ask #which will hopefully be silly #I feel like I haven't been answering asks all that well #very out of character and such #and I just haven't had the motivation to write or do anything #I'm fine dont worry or anything #just a bit bleh #sorry yall i think my grandma's passing is affecting me more than I thought #thigs are jsut hectic in my life right now #I will return #I've been meaning to say something for a bit #oopsie #ive been putting it off lol #mod speaks #ooc

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heavenpierceher · 2 years

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as an artist im getting a little tired of posts that like guilt trip people for liking and not reblogging so i made this. just do whatever you want man its fine

#dont start argument with me on my post. we r not fighting OK?#personally if you even bother to look at my art im kissing you on the mouth. with tongue #dont worry.................#as it turns out having a hostile relationship with people who potentially enjoy your art and developing a sense of entitlement towards+#+attention is Not Super Good For Your Brain #like man people have lives and preferences. its fine bro #youre not obligated to do anything towards me i'm a stranger!!!#op #a #?

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urplepurplegurgleturgle · 1 month

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Sometimes I hate having the latest timezone because I get really insecure at night but everyone's asleep so I can't ask for a hug from my family and god it kind of sucks

#It's nice being up the latest because then I can somewhat ensure everyone else sleeps at peace (SOMEWHAT)#but god sometimes I wish I could be the one who's wished a good night after letting out my late night thoughts #not condemning anyone btw I just #Idk I'm gonna make vent art like usual it's the only thing i have #sorry if im worrying anyone im fine i swear i just need to calm the fuck down #why am i like this im so sorry everyone maybe i should just leave #i dont do anything good for anyone anyways im not that important all i do is just make everyone worry about me #i dont really do anything to help anyone im so useless im so pathetic maybe i should just delete my account and disappear #fuck im venting again i gotta shut the fuck up #im sorry #im so sorry ignore me please im probably gonna delete this in the morning or soemthign im just being stupid like usual #maybe this is why my dad always calls me a useless retard

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jessicas-pi · 1 year

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it's actually, genuinely, honestly hilarious that in a fandom where popular ships include characters who are biologically related, characters with a 10+ year age gap who met when one was a teenager or even a child, and characters who have tried to kill each other, people hate on a friends-to-lovers ship with a <2 year age gap where the characters have a deep emotional bond and plenty of romantic subtext, because "they're siblings". my brother in the force they are literally not.

#i'm just saying. out of all the ships in the star war; sabine and ezra have one of the healthiest dynamics #right up there with kanera and bail and breha and obitine and maybe a few others. there are SO few 'problems' with it.#not that those 'problems' make a ship BAD when it's written well or in certain context.#just that out of all the ships to pick on; people choose THIS one?????#the one with character growth and found family and mutual respect??#the one with self-sacrifice and decades-long loyalty and obitine parallels and a jetpack chase scene????#what's there to hate???#and i would add a disclaimer about how if you dont ship them its fine as long as you dont bully but honestly?#i am so so tired of having to qualify my statements.#this is about the targeted hate. this has always been about the targeted hate.#and i don't care if someone loathes something i love as long as they they keep that loathing out of my personal space.#this has been a tag rant. thank you for reading.#btw i'm not being sarcastic about it being hilarious. it genuinely cracks me up to see people get SO hateful over this #for a reason that does not exist #as opposed to several other ships which DO IN FACT HAVE THAT OBJECTION.#like. oh my gosh. are you even listening to yourselves.#if u wanna have the don't-ship-siblings fight then puhLEEZE bring it to someone who ships siblings.#jessica's controversial star wars opinions #sabezra #(don't worry that this post is a vent because i'm getting bullied or anything. im not visible enough for that i guess lol)#it was written in humor not in hurt :)

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seventh-district · 4 months

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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

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pendraegon · 8 months

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everything feels like a slurry in my brain. simultaneously like i've been swept up into a hurling vortex that lurches around on unsteady legs and also like i'm the only stagnant thing and everything else is a loud cacophony of color that's almost startling. my eyes are hot and they feel wet. my head hurts. my chest feels empty. i blink and hours pass. everything feels like it's a stone's throw from reality or maybe i'm just on the opposite side of the glass entirely. i feel hollow and i feel brittle like the tiniest bit of pressure will make me shatter.

#my hands are cold but they're always cold but they feel nice against my face right now.........#i think. i haven't been dealing with things as well as i thought i have been especially the last week or so #might be mia for a bit guys. there's nothing to worry about regarding my safety at all but there is a.....#distinct...lack. of feeling or anything right now. just total numbing apathy and i dont like how i am both to myself and #to others when i get like this.#hopefully this passes soon xoxo. eventually i'll be fine because i'm always fine....

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vse-kar-vem · 6 months

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how to write vent post title that does not come off as self-pitying and or accusatory (because it's NOT !)

#sorry tumblr is like a diary to me idk what i'll do w this blog after i (sigh) inevitably move on #either way #im convinced everyone hates me again :3 but realistically no one cares about me even enough to hate me im just stupid and self centred 💔#if anything me TYPING these posts is actuvely turning people against me #again with the assumptions that people care enough to read these 😭 fhskfbhsjfkg #i hate that i care so much what people online think of me cuz irl it's like. whatever #but here there are so many cool people who i admire and would love to be friends with im always hyperparanoid of everything i do #and still i manage to overstep and come off as annoying #like obvs you're allowed to hate me even if you're someone i look up to like that's your perogative #but i hate worrying about IF anyone hates me #oughgh this is easier irl because usually people send off pretty clear signals if they dont like you #but online (esp with how prickly this fandom is) i don't know whether im being insecure and reading into things or whether people just don't #like me (which again is fine i would just rather know if anyone gets it)#i figure art is the one way i can get people to like me 💔 which sounds kinda pathetic because irl i KNOW im liked and capable!#fandom has just become such a big part of my personality that i cant detach my self worth from it #and i do love art and drawing and such i hate that even if i know people my stuff EYE dont and it doesnt mean anything or act as a signifier #of my friendships #wow .... i really am my own therapist ..... i should shut up #the industrial revolution and its consequences (jofandom)#i think these posts are half self exploration half ... almost self harm? because sometimes im so derogatory about myself on purpose in a #'you're worthless' way. but at the same time it's cathartic and i always feel better having probed at my feelings and gotten them in order #not to do a complete 180 but it's MY post and JO LONDON IN *12* DAYS!!!!!!!! AHH i'm sooo excited if it doesnt live up to my expectations i #may cry a little. and there will be another vent post from me !#sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads these 😭#vee rambles

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cattywampers · 6 months

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its not like a perceived sensation of rejection or responsibility for loss (or just loss Normal) isnt the underlying factor in almost every single non-dying loop or anything. surely that wouldnt be the case right. Haha

#isat spoilers #🗝️#and i stare at siffrin and i dont say anything at all.#okay thats the end of the post dont look at the tags dont worry about it #the rare few that are just like “wait i fucked up” in a normal way #THE BONNIE ONE W/ THE DEATH RITUALS CONVO MADE ME JAW DROP BECAUSE THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME THAT HAD HAPPENED IN MY GAME #AND IT IMMEDIATELY CLICKED FOR ME LIKE. OH. THIS IS HAPPENING BECAUSE YOU WANT IT TO.#BECAUSE YOU CAN'T DEAL WITH THE ALTERNATIVE. WELL THAT'S CUTE #actor AND director!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#and to this extent it makes me giggle whenever loop is like. Ummm. I have a suspicion. but I'm not going to say anything.............#like you know if you dont spell it out for siffrin he's going to pretend it's not real right. because it isn't until it's spoken aloud #because I'm sooo sure he knows that much at LEAST about what's going on with the wish #is that it's at least partially connected to their OWN willpower #enough so that he intentionally invoked it at the ending of act 3 #okay im done reambling in the notes. you understand #I guess i just wonder how much about the play is Siffrin following the Universe as they tend to say to justify his willful repetition #and how much about the play is the Universe conceding to Siffrin to allow them that repetition #or rather. providing the avenue for him WAIT A MINUTE #OKAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY #CLENCHES JAW ITS FINE

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nowendil · 6 days

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#sorry to vent post yet again the pms is pms-ing. i am ultimately in the end ok and this too shall pass etc #cw pet death #UNNA IS FINE no worries #i just. i just really miss Pulmu. my baby my sweet old lady. jesus fucking christ #i just. idk i still hold a lot of regret over her last months. i loved her so much I DID but no amount of love #and money and guilt and open mouth sobbing could make her not Old and Sick.#i just refused to see that because i wanted her to be alright so badly #i feel so bad about letting my feelings go over her comfort. i'm so sorry baby i shouldnt have hung on to you as long as i did #of i could change one thing about the whole of world's history it would be that. so you wouldnt have to die scared in a hospital #but i cant do that. i just have to live with the memory #usually i try not to be too hard on myself about it. first of all because beating myself up about it doesnt change anything #and also because i recognize that i was profoundly mentally ill about the whole thing. (not joking)#like i genuinely dont think i have ever felt and been worse than i did when Pulmu was old and sick. i wasnt thinking clearly.#i should have been but i wasnt.#it has been 1 year and about 8 months since her passing and still sometimes i dont know what the hell to do with all that grief #some days i'm completely fine and i can talk about her without problems. and some days i sob into my pillow feeling like i just got shot #ah well. nothing to it but to keep on trucking #i hope she's fine wherever she is.

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abeluser · 5 months

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at funerals... I like paying my respects and having my mind flooded with good memories of them. I embrace family and friends I haven't seen in a long time.

#abel.txt #something about resting finally.#and that things all end the same #we all become dust so why worry about anything at all?#you dont have to say sorry by the way i'm fine #he was just a cousin. and he was a really nice guy

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autistic-shaiapouf · 6 months

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Oh haha yeah I'm definitely feeling better <- he is not talking to people

#i'm not doing it on purpose i just. have so much on my mind and i wish i didn't #god what i would give to see everything slow and stop again. for the world to slow down again. i know it won't #it's like. i feel like i should be doing more. looking for more jobs looking more doing more #getting 5 billion little pieces of paper that say i can type fast or i have excellent diction or whatever #it's like. i can't objectively tell how much i'm doing. i can only feel the subjective part of it and i know that part is super skewed #bc like. raised as a trophy child and all that. i feel like. if was doing better or enough then i wouldn't be so uncomfortable #and it doesn't work like that!! no one has money and everything is expensive and i'm not doing anything uniquely wrong but like.#i could be doing more and is it not foolish of me to do more when the opportunity presents itself? or am i running myself into the ground?#i feel. well i'll be honest i don't feel very good. this has been a rough month for me #at my current rate i'll financially make it through april but it might be a tight squeeze #and i dont even WANT to be worried about money like. getting by is fine and not a mark for or against me #but like. i don't know. tossing these thoughts out here to get them out of my head.#shai speaks

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tokyoteddywolf · 6 months

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22 isn't very much at all, I think.