#I'm kinda upset that they were my first proper crush

[genshin-obsessed]

Confessions | Honkai Star Rail

So i've been super into hsr recently and I thought I'd get back to doing longer hcs because those are always fun! This time I left out Welt and Sampo and I'm not sure how I feel about it lol ✧ Includes: Dan Heng, Gepard, Jing Yuan, Luocha, Blade ✧ Extra: Something a little weird has happened to my Blade lol, he's just a confused man who really likes the reader. It may be ooc- i have no clue

Dan Heng

For Dan Heng, he doesn’t know how long he’s liked you. He just realized it one day when you said something- a compliment towards him- and he just couldn’t stop thinking about it.

Dan Heng’s not the most outward person, so wanting to confess wasn’t something easy for him. He actually needed to prepare, give himself a pep talk and all. His method is invite you to his room and then just tell you- no beating around the bush.

You’re shocked to say the least- I mean it’s DAN HENG. He liked you?! HE CONFESSED?! You sat there for a good minute just staring at him. He looked calm but kinda started panicking on the inside.

“I-I like you too!” You say before he can speak. You were so loud, he jumped a little. Safe to say, he’s extremely happy you accepted because then it would’ve been awkward afterwards.

“Oh good… good.”

Gepard Landau

Everyone knows Gepard likes you before himself. He can say it’s just been a few months but others know it’s been like a year. It’s just the way he acts and stuff.

Gepard has a VERY hard time confessing. He’ll keep trying to do it, but then backs out at the last minute. He’ll keep saying he wants to talk to you about something important then just doesn’t tell you. Finally, one day… it slips out. You two are alone and he barely realizes it until he sees your face.

You’re happy but also shocked. The guy you’ve liked for like ever finally likes you back! Do you go through the statue phase of freezing up and staring? Yes. Did he start panicking because of it? Yes. Your reaction right after was to throw yourself at him and give him a tight hug.

He doesn’t say anything right then and just hugs you back. You not running away, horrified, probably meant you felt the same. That made him happy- so happy he didn’t even know what to do.

“Thank you… for not running away- oh and liking me back.”

Jing Yuan

His feelings had been around for a few months now, he knew pretty much instantly when he was attracted to you. It didn’t take him long to figure out he was in love with you either. It was obvious, his heart pounded when you were around, he couldn’t stop thinking about you, and he was always worried you’d find someone else.

Jing Yuan confesses fancy style. He’ll invite you out to like dinner or something or maybe just to take a late night walk with him. As you’re walking, he’ll coyly bring up the topic of dating and whatnot. You two chat for a bit, then he just admits it. He makes sure to add the “it’s alright if you don’t feel the same way, I won’t be upset.”

Of course, you do feel the same way! Your eyes widen and you gasp as the reality sets in. The General of the Cloud Knights liked YOU! It took a moment to just process his words, and Jing Yuan stood there patiently, giving you time to think. If you were going to say no, that’s fine, he just needed a clear answer. You found it hard to speak but forced the words out, “I-I feel the same.”

Jing Yuan’s over the moon with this newfound knowledge. He’s so happy, he could shout it out from over the rooftops. Honestly! All he can do is give you a tight hug, not wanting to do anything else if you weren’t ready for it- say a kiss.

“I’m glad. We should go on a date then- a proper one.”

Luocha

Luocha is very good at keeping his feelings to himself. At first, he thought it was just a little crush and it would pass. But it didn’t. It just… kept developing. He tried to manage it, feeling that maybe a relationship right now wasn’t the best option for him. But when his heart would start pounding every time you smiled at him, or his mind went back to you and what you might’ve been doing when you two were apart told me he… maybe didn’t wanna wait.

Luocha’s confession wasn’t exactly grand. I mean, what was there to be super grand about? Especially if you were going to reject him. So he just took you out on a little walk and slyly brought up the topic of relationships. Once you mentioned you didn’t mind being in one, he just said, “will you be in one with me?”

You kinda froze. Deer in headlights situation. You needed a moment to process what he’d just said. He… wanted to date you? WELL GOOD! YOU WANTED TO DATE HIM! You happily nodded, a big giant smile spreading on your face.

There was this emotion he felt when you said you liked him too. Pure, unadulterated happiness. He felt so good about himself, about life, about everything. That emotion spoke volumes and all he could do was hug you. Tightly. 

"I'm glad... because I was really, really nervous you'd say no."

Blade

Ok… hear me out. Blade knows he likes you… when he doesn’t hate you. When you ask him for a favor and he says yes. When you hug him and he doesn’t strangle you- honestly, it wasn’t hard for him to know. Kafka teases him and he just ignores her.

Blade… doesn’t know how to confess. He’s not crazy about relationships or… people. So his entire confession was just confusing. You followed absolutely nothing except: “I like you.” You thought he was just admitting he didn’t hate you. That was good news! But you didn’t realize how good it was. “That’s great! I like you too!” You replied to which he crossed his arms, nodded, and said… “we’re dating now.”

Mhm. Yeah. That’s how smooth he is :’) you- you poor soul- didn’t know what he meant at first. So you were beyond shocked when he said what he did. Blade- BLADE- liked you- Y O U- romantically? You liked him too but you never ever expected this. Not in a million years.

You could only manage a dazed nod for a few seconds before a giant smile spread on your face and you practically threw yourself at him. Blade’s usual reaction would be to shove the person away but this was his special person. So… he hugged back.

“That was… rude, I think? Will you go on a date with me?”

[noveratus]

Finished DBD, here are my thoughts:

•I quite enjoyed this show. It is not my favorite Neil Gaiman show (that's still good omens), but I do like it a lot

•I do with the characters were in their college years or instead of teenagers, but this isn't that much of an issue I suppose

•The best episode by far is episode 7. Like, holy crap, from the world building to the character development to the emotional moments, that episode is phenomenal

•I expected Edwin to be my favorite because I normally vibe with that type of character, but actually Charles ended up being my favorite. I can really relate with the idea of feeling so angry and questioning if that makes you a bad person. Charles was surprisingly a deep character

•I liked Charles a lot too, though he isn't my favorite version of this character archetype. Sometimes I did feel like they made him a bit too nice, I kinda wish he would have been a bit more antagonistic towards people, but all and all he was good.

•Loved Niko. I loved her contrast compared to everyone else. She is just a very normal girl surrounded by very abnormal circumstances and I love how that didn't make her any lesser in the team. She was the emotional intelligence there and I loved that for her. If there is a season 2, I wonder what they will do with her

•I liked Crystal and I really enjoyed how it paralleled actual toxic relationships irl but I am unsure if I like the direction the show took with making her a rich kid of sorts. I loved the fact she got her powers from her ancestors though. I think that was really cool

•Actually, I don't vibe with episode 8 for the most part. Episode 7 was so good that I think that the season could have ended there. The pacing and story of episode 8 felt a bit off in my opinion

•Other than those two, the other episodes were pretty good. I won't give them a proper individual rating because I think they were all consistently good abd achieve the emotional arcs they were going for fairly well

•I was one of the people who thought that Crystal was in love with Niko the first time they met lmao.

•Actually, something I wish that the show had addressed was how Crystal would act like humans were beneath her for not having powers. It would be interesting to see some conflict between the two in that aspect.

•Speaking of conflict, let's talk relationships shall we? Starting with the strictly platonic, I loved the friendship between Niko and Edwin. It was a bit out of left field, but man, do I wish we got to see more friendships like this in media so I will not complain

•That being said, I wish Niko and Charles had more screentime. I think they would vibe pretty well

•I also wish we had seen Edwin and Crystal together more often without Charles around. Love my boy, but those two need to have a heart to heart seeing as they are essentially crushing on the same man.

•Crystal and Charles is one of the wlm relationships I actually don't mind too much. I'm glad they didn't get together, and I would prefer if they didn't get together, but I wouldn't be upset if they did. Their friendship is great though

•Edwin and Charles are the core of the show. The fact that Charles just accepts Edwin's feelings even if he doesn't reciprocate is everything to me. And they did leave it open for it possibly developing into more in the future. I'm personally a very big fan of this ship, but if they don't get together I won't be upset

•I ship Jenny X me. Haha jk unless? I wish we had a bigger focus on her since she was the only positive adult in the kid's life (besides the walrus) but alas. I hope that, if there is a season 2, she gets a girlfriend

•I liked Cat King, though I must say, he gave me the creeps considering that Edwin does appear to be a teenage boy. Still, hopefully, he can find his own twink someday, preferably one of proper age

•Esther was that bitch and I loved her for it. If there is a season 2, I hope we get to see another witch, but this time one that uses her magic to protect people, maybe with Lilith's blessing

•Actually, can we have more of Lillith in general? Thanks

•No strong feelings about Monty. I didn't really like him at the start of the show and felt bad when his ghost died. He was cooler as a crow and if he does come back, give him the power to change between forms please

•No strong feelings on the Night Nurse either. Kinda ship her with fish guy though. They just vibe well.

•Oh, one more thing about Niko, this time a headcanon: I actually headcanon she is aroace but obsessed with romance so she wants her friends to be in love, but she doesn't want that for herself

•If there is a season two, I'd like to see more creatures like vampires or werewolves. Maybe even a mermaid.

•I also hope for more Death and Despair. Let the girls serve please

Overall, I would say this show was a solid 8/10 for me. Not as high as Sandman which was a 9/10 but I think it was pretty good still. I recommend. I might make a post writing about what would happen in my version of a season 2 of this show later

[godlytemperance]

npmd proshot reaction livethread

except i'm not on twitter and also this is probably my third time watching it because i was too busy painting my room to make a proper live reaction post

having the two nerds that die be the first singers we see is such good foreshadowing actually,,, you know from the first moment they start to experience a change in their lives after max kicks the bucket that they're doomed, and the first act shows you that right away. none of the other kids in the first song are injured by max, just richie and ruth.

lauren doesn't have her headgear in High School Is Killing Me, which is a bit confusing, but i think it's so her voice is clearer in the first song

also i love ruth's sweater? i'd totally wear that irl

grace looks utterly deranged in every song because she doesn't drop that fuckin SMILE the whole time i love her so much

i love the "AUGH" chorus after "it's one hell of a normal abnormality"

someone brought this up before i noticed it, but grace is the only one to cover her mouth during any iteration of "i'm so fucking dead", which is so swag actually... it fits the choreo while also showing that she's super averse to cursing (initially)

pete my beloved... stephanie's so correct for falling in love with him

also PETE'S TIE MATCHES HIS SUSPENDERS THAT'S ADORABLE??? plus it very (very) subtly matches steph's flannel i'm gonna explode

anyways mariah looks gorgeous throughout the whole show

the little string instrument *plunk* as steph snaps pete's suspenders

pete's goofy run

steph giving up on asking who pete's running from as soon as she realizes he's dipped

i'm pretty sure that kim's nerd character has a unibrow, or very thick brows that have that appearance? that's actually really cool that they implemented features on characters that would lead to bullying from a societal standpoint.

i'm not ashamed to admit that i thought richie was gonna be a metalhead from the very brief glimpses we had of his outfit before the show dropped... imagine my terror when i heard "anime love pillows"

oh also is richie's hair Like That because of bedhead? a cowlick? hat hair? a shitty haircut? i don't know and it's gonna drive me insane

KYAAAAAAAA

as someone who's been bullied, then Suddenly had one of my bullies admit to having a crush on me, max's crush on grace is completely realistic fr

homec*mming... babygirl you are so repressed

continually stating that all of the main characters are 18+ / seniors is actually very relieving to see, especially for shows set in high school. like yeah, teens can be weird and nsfw, but it feels deeply upsetting when it's not established that they're of legal age. it's still gross, though, but in a "aw shit we Were like that in high school, damn" kinda way

literal monster slaps so fucking hard

is ms. tessburger in a relationship with mr. lauter? she acts like a shitty stepmom to steph (on that note, the theory that steph's biological mom was a former honey queen, and that's why solomon has used the black book before)

if i had a nickel for every time corey doris nearly brought a hammer down on his daughter, mariah rose faith casillas, i'd have two nickels

PETE'S UPDATED OUTFIT I LOVE HIMMMMMM

i love ruth's warm color palette, it's even visible in her wig :00

ruth is so "i read hetalia wattpad lemon too early and that's the only reason i passed social studies"

i didn't catch richie saying "NANI????" on my first run and it felt like a punch to the gut

ruth and richie crawling all over pete to try and hear steph is so hysterical. they are just creatures

wEEeooWEEoOO

richie please... richieeee attack on titan is so badddd

"someone's willing to tolerate your presence for a whole evening",,,, he is so neurodivergent to me

pete you are SO much cooler than you think you are

steph 🤝 emma being head over heels obsessed with the normalest dork in history

"SAY YOUR PRAYERS" "amen :D"

i desperately wanna read the newspaper that mr. chastity is reading

also if the chastity's weren't so adamant on abstinence-only education for grace, they'd be the cutest family ever... like they're actually really healthy and communicate really well with each other

karen chastity freezing up during every freudian slip kills me

grace's fucking FACE when she says "this is sooo wrawng"

MAX'S ABS?????

max is so puppydog when he's talking about jesus. that scene is what made everyone say he was babygirl

grace sweetie you're drooling

local nerdy prude realizes she has a blasphemy kink and promptly goes insane about it

grace and max are toxic yuri actually. if max was a girl grace would've got the black book speed-run world record

max's little scramble back to the stage. little cockroach of a man

SHE DID THE FACE AGAIN AS MAX LEFT

i will never shut up about grace starting her villain arc immediately after dirty girl. she just doesn't SHOW it until after she tastes blood

not waifu material

as much as i love lautski and dirtyprude (i don't know the actual ship name for max and grace), i do think that the entire nerdy prudes squad + max should be in a poly relationship,,,, love their dynamics

"there are two girls in the boy's bathroom" grace. grace is there something you wanna share with the class. grace why didn't you count yourself

the lore drop of the black altars Before we even hear about the black altars... :3

"SEX MAGIC" "😳😏"

"wait but where are the waylons" you may be asking. simple. they put a curse on the house that made sure that nothing dies in it... but they didn't die in the house. they died by the witchwood bc of the hatchetmen. the curse wasn't activated until max died there.

they actually spell potty-pants as PottyPants and PissyPants in the captions

"i have overactive sweat glands" I AM A TRANS RICHIE TRUTHER

she spin

and she spin others too

"PETEY GONNA JUMP ON OUT" 🕺

SPIDERMAN REFERENCE LETS GOOOO

also a kamehameha for good measure

as someone whose entire family says "cool beans", the cool beans section is stuck in my head

lauren's face as she says "excellent" is so cute

ruth's crush on steph getting multiplied by a thousand the MOMENT steph touches her shoulder. god me too

"you kinda look like that homeless guy from downtown" (audience hollers)

i didn't realize that lauren was twerking at joey in the background of the proshot. i know for a fact that he had to practice so hard to keep from giggling

richie trying to hook ruth up with pete... he loves her so much he wants ruth to be happy so bad....... polynerds should be real

i think that if max hadn't fallen from the third floor (which i think is this timeline's event that got messed up, like how the starlight theater got crushed in TGWDLM), he would've loved going to haunted houses with the group... they go to the local haunts every year and one time they get tickets to Halloween Horror Nights and max happy-cries so hard about it that he fucks up his voice

𝕒ᵃ𝕒𝔸𝓐𝓪𝓐𝐚𝐚𝔸ᵃ𝓪𝔸

SKELE'IN count x5

grace stop being horny for two seconds

ruth's little yelp is so cute

also MAX GOING TO PROTECT STEPH... he loves people deep down

the audience going "aw...!" when max says that the prank was the nicest thing anyone has ever done for him

grace literally blue-screens when she realizes she hasn't gotten the upper hand on max. girl is Stunned

GET DOWN FROM THERE YOU DOOF

will doing the goofiest noises of exertion is so funny to me

the gore sfx under the wooden planks is so gnarly actually also the blood from max's mouth, holy fuck

... y'r fuckin useless, rich

ruth being more upset about not being someone's bitch than about Going To Jail In The First Place

i love how doe-eyed grace is as she says "it was an act of god!" she is like a little purse dog to me

"oh no she's snapping again"

i love ruth's slumped pose. she is just 🧍

steph looks like she's gonna throw up when grace mentions cutting up the body

also steph's "WHY????"

THE STAGGERED HARMONY FROM MARIAH I LOVE HERRRRR

pepperonis

hypegirl grace real

pete getting anxious after being called a nerd... boy's traumatized now

they are so flirting in this scene. sarcastically going to a football game. lautski forever

STEPH'S SMILE AFTER SHE CONFIRMS THE DATE SHE'S SO CUTE

ruth and richie actually getting positive attention for once,,,,, they deserve the world,,,, stacy calling richie Mr. Lipschitz is adorably sweet

realizing that the mascot is a reference to ezekiel the nighthawk from Perky's Buds nearly incapacitated me

stacy and brenda are so cute in the background

i love that the football team is so nice to each other when max is gone, to the point where the team rapport is actually genuine instead of forced

FUCK YOU CLIVESDALE GO GET FUCKED YOU'RE FUCKIN LOSERS AND WE'LL KILL YOOOOOU (i checked the live comment section when the show had just dropped, and it was a fucking cacophony of "FUCK CLIVESDALE" the same exact thing happened during the talkback livestream too it was so fucking funny)

i love that they squawk as part of their school chant

stacy's smile dropping was so cunty of her

richie's the best mascot ever (do you think he has a fursuit. i think he has a fursuit. it's tricked out like crazy and it has built in ac. he doesn't talk about it because its a timberwolf and it makes him feel guilty as a hatchetfield nighthawk)

HE FEELS CONFIDENT ENOUGH TO CALL JACOB JACE I'M GONNA SOB

wacky waving inflatable arm flailing tube richie, i love the way he makes the suit slap the ground with his wiggles

the audience collectively remembering he's the first body mentioned in the show as soon as he says "i love being alive!"

max's bedazzled ghost costume kills me

but on a serious note, the ghost sfx slays so hard

does max have psychic powers after he dies? he's shown making richie float, forcing the doors to close, and knocking richie prone without touching him in the NPMD song. but all of his kills involve physical contact?

speaking of: the DOOR SLAM holy fuck

they had to give richie a dorky vest over his long sleeve + button-up combo because otherwise he would've had too much transmasc swag. proof: right before he dies he loses the vest

grace having a prophetic nightmare that doesn't get elaborated on... waddahell

unironically grace's shirt is so cute. the coquette girls would love her

max defo would've whooped the chemists' asses. plus if he actually got his redemption arc he would've boosted the team's morale like crazy

grace is never chill ever

all of the nerds having their own nauseous reactions to getting called to the office

i honestly thought they were asking about max in the group interrogation scene the first run through. god i can only imagine how sick the three (not counting grace) of them felt realizing that one of their closest friends was dead

the lauren urge to lie face-down on the nearest surface

grace immediately targeting ruth... homophobic behavior fr /j

i am glad that none of them assume that it's a ghost right away, because that kind of trope is super cliche. let them figure it out slowly!! they don't need to know it's a monster right away! let them think it's a mundane threat!

dan and donna moment

also it took my second run-through of the show to realize that the "hatchetfield kennel" line isn't just a smooth transition into dan's last name. it's referencing the problematic pooch from HSIKM

i actually thought that officer bailey was sam for a bit, then i remembered that charlotte's last name was sweetly, then i realized it's a separate character

LAUREN CHOREO POG + donna is so pretty in this song

karen gendering ziggy correctly is something that can be so personal to me

also JAEEEEEEE MY BELOVED I LOVE ZIGGSSSSSS

barry swift slays

the creeping steps in the second chorus repetition are so cool

CHARLIE???? BRUH??????

bryce's solo was so well-deserved, she has a fucking angelic voice!!! i just know that the audience lost their minds every fucking night

GERALD!!!!! my favorite evil old man

"can i shit or will i drown" references richie dying by swirly and it took too fucking long for me to realize that

fuckin traaaaaanscendent (is this sam? i think it's sam)

the little implied bird

KAH-bob. he sounds like a text-to-speech. accurate for some theater production actors tbh

paaaaahsshin <3

m'BAHBECUU

i love kim's teacher character, she's so cute

the collective "thank you ten" from the actors (and maybe the audience)

knowing that ruth's first canonical debut on stage (canonical in the Workin' Boys short film, at least) involved her forgetting her only line bc of stage fright makes me so sad... she does have a lot of talent, but her anxiety about being watched and judged scares her from the stage. it takes failing once to get over that fear, but even then, it leaves a lasting worry that you'll fail again.

on that note: ruth being so conscious of her appearance and personality that she's terrified of her own future. she's afraid that the best parts of her future will be centered around making other people happy, and never about what makes her happy. she's afraid that she'll get married to someone who doesn't care for her. (or worse, someone who has taboo desires, because who else would take her but those who want to use her as a diversion? the "maury prefers their kids" line after the pool is mentioned makes my skin crawl for ruth.) "well done on the outside, not within" "should i let the coals burn out" "should i let the years cook my body down" she's horrified of the future she feels she's destined for. she has so many dreams, but she feels like she isn't able to - or allowed - to pursue them.

i'm gonna be skipping ruth's death scene because it actually makes me feel sick... half because it's a form of torture that actually makes me feel nauseous (getting split from the crotch upwards) and half because it's happening to a character who's living an experience i've had in the past (feeling unworthy of pursuing something you love)

it's super obvious that shapiro is waiting to catch grace in a lie, which makes her interrogation of grace super funny in hindsight. she KNOWS this perfect christian girl is bullshitting her and blatantly lying about the deaths. i can only imagine how vindicated she felt when grace immediately crumpled under the pressure

DOOO SOMETHING YOU SONUVABIIIIITCH

OH FUCK GRACE GOT A GUN!!! SHIT!!! THIS NEVER GOES GOOD!!! (grace gets a gun in Workin' Boys too it's so fucking insane)

i love that grace's bike is so iconic

the audience losing their fucking minds when paul and emma appear on stage. same fr

"it's short for a perpetrator" paul you are so autistic (affectionate)

THE REFERENCE HAPPENED WE CAN REST EASY NOW

also this time around we get to see what the paulkins meeting would've been like in another universe and it's just as cute as we expected it would be

*ptuuuh*

........ WWWWHAT

if richie could see them now he'd be calling them tsunderes. am i fucking wrong

did pete just shotgun a hot chocolate. buddy that was fresh out the fuckin pot

pete's color scheme switching from subtly green (to match with steph) to subtly yellow has me running laps in the kitchen rn. tinky would lose his fucking mind

steph openly admitting she likes smart people, implying that she doesn't consider herself smart by comparison... babygirl you are so intelligent i prommy

starkid consistently showing that romantic partners don't have to kiss on stage for them to have chemistry makes me so fucking happy as a person with kiss aversion

why does beanies just have hot water in cups. do they just make instant drinks. iconic of them actually

HOMOPHOBIC GRACE REAL??? /j (but also not)

grace immediately jumping to fleeing the country and holding her friends at gunpoint has me giggling. she's got the world record for jumping to conclusions

also thank god grace knows proper gun etiquette (not holding her finger on the trigger) but also. who taught her that.

the way grace immediately scrambles to hide, and she does it fast enough to make it look like she just teleported behind the chairs in the proshot

yyyAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA (how dare they call her Barista in the captions. you put some respect on emma perkins's name)

alternatively: imagine you work up the nerve to give your number to a cute barista and five minutes later she's trying to get a cop to stop holding you in an armlock. what a wild first impression to give to someone who marries you in every fucking timeline

grace is so wet cat coded, angela did an incredible job playing her!!

bringing up the honey queen Mrs. Lauter theory again because how else would the lauters have the black book? i know that linda's family is the one in charge of the festival, but the mayor obviously has some sway in it as well. he probably acts as the warden for the book in most timelines, because if it was in the hands of the church itself, they'd be trying to summon gods every damn day. he keeps the church under control, allowing them one day a year to summon the only god that is the easiest to pacify. he probably proved his worth by convincing his wife to pursue the honey queen title, knowing full well what would happen to her, because he needed to give up something to show he could be trusted. (i also think this is why nibbly singles steph out when they first meet. he's already tasted lauter blood, and he likely recognizes her as the daughter of the man who facilitates his resurrection every year.)

AGAIN: the waylons made sure the spell was cast on the house, but the spell wasn't TRIGGERED until max died there. more proof that the waylons aren't ghosts, but that they were intended to be the ghosts.

returning to the honey queen lauter theory again: imagine how heartbroken steph is after all of her parental figures have died. her mom isn't around by NPMD, and during the show, her stand-in stepmom and her dad both die. she's technically an adult by the time of NPMD, but she's still lost all of her remaining family in one night.

i'm glad that they were able to convince shapiro about max at the last second, but damn, how fucked up is it that you learn that the current suspects of a homicide case are being haunted by a spirit that's been picking them off one by one, only for said spirit to slam your face through your fucking windshield. you survive the incident, somehow, but now you know that hatchetfield is haunted and you nearly became a victim.

i talked about the LiB and their altars at the very beginning of my NPMD fixation so i'm not gonna repeat it here :PP bleh

i am gonna mention that i love the designs of the LiB tho! they're so neon and goofy, they have little props that show who they are, it's so cute nibbly has his lollipop (which happens to look pretty fleshy, like a twirled up intestine), pokey has his mask, blinky has his sunglasses, tinky has his Bastard Box, and wiggly has a plush of himself + a crown that indicates his place in the hierarchy

the hair touch when steph starts to realize that pete is the thing she desires most... chills

also someone mentioned that in the digital ticket, steph fully collapses during "stephanie has got a gun", and i can definitely see that in the proshot too! it isn't seen in full, but her posture definitely slumps something fierce between shots

and what if i cried? huh? what if i burst into tears knowing that pete was resigned to dying to save steph's life? that he openly admits to loving her more than the stars in what he thinks is his final moments? that he thought he wouldn't make it to homecoming, and that steph would live on knowing that she would carry the blood of her true love on her hands?

literally if max hadn't intervened, steph would've lost her soulmate. imagine how horrifying that is for her. she would've lost everyone important to her in one fell swoop. her family. her friends. her love. it would've broken her.

pete reeling up to throw what should've been a devastating right hook to protect steph, only to get knocked aside by max's otherworldly power

and then we get the absolute whiplash of grace fucking a ghost

SPEAKING OF WHICH bro!!! angela put her whole christianussy into that performance. grace knew she had one chance to seduce max into taking what she cherished most and she thought "welp. might as well open up all the repression i've shoved into this box"

"WHAT. THE FUCK. IS HHHAPPENING RIGHT NOW." you're watching the mating ritual of two toxic lesbians

thank god they didn't caption the sex noises because if i knew what grace and max were saying the whole time i'd be in shambles

steph + pete slowly looking over and breaking into a giant grin as grace gets NASTY with it is so funny to me. pete looks genuinely touched by the experience while steph is learning something new about herself

grace smoking her first cigarette immediately after boning down is so goofy to me

you can see the moment where steph and pete realize what grace did, even if it's out of frame in the proshot. steph whips around to look up at pete, while pete seems to stumble back a bit. when their faces are in frame again, they both look quietly concerned for grace, like they're trying to process what she gave up for their sake.

the shot of max looking up at the lights, eyes and makeup perfectly illuminated as he witnesses (what can only be) the true forms of the Lords In Black - creatures which he didn't even know existed, considering their involvement was very distant in max's resurrection... CHEF'S KISS

also the eyes-rolled-back exorcism of max is so fucking incredible actually??? very slay of him

CUTE TEACHER IS BACK!!! i love her she's so girlypop

cawwww caw! <3 <3 <3

THEY GOT TO GO TO HOMECOMING TOGETHER!!!!! <3

their little conspiratorial giggles as they scuttle away from shapiro i fucking LOVE THEM

grace is so evil in the intro to Best Of You i love that for her

BLINK 182 / OWL CITY AHH SONG <3 it's such a bop

not something i saw, but something i heard: the staged version where the lights went out after Best Of You being the "good" end is so cute actually! i love that the actors and tech people like to include alternate endings / stories based off of different actor portrayals and mishaps is such a fun way to provide variety for audiences

(for example: jon has mentioned he played Inevitable in TGWDLM two different ways. he either plays it like paul isn't infected, but is trying to convince emma to fake it with him so they don't get force-infected... or he plays it like paul is truly dead, and he's part of the hivemind. the proshot version of TGWDLM is a case of the latter, where paul truly was infected.)

grace tricking jason into kissing her on the cheek, only to punish him for it... girl you TOLD him to do that? bruh

i do stand for women's wrongs tho she's so slay for this

poor jason has a literal fear boner bc grace goes on her villain arc

the audience collectively going "OHHHHH" as they realize that grace is reprising the NPMD song is so insane

"darkness will spare my soul" GOES SO HARDDDDDD

[angelicspaceprince]

Rant timmme

So I’ve blocked the person this is about bc they sometimes splurg on my Tumblr page and knowing me, thisd be the day that they do that.

Basically, a friend of mine from high school and I are…idk if its a falling out or if its subtle hints they dont want to know me or what. But, here is a rant dedicated to them.

So I met them in Grade 8, 9? We hit it off right away and I could talk to them about the stuff that was bothering me at the time. They were amazing and I respected their boundaries as much as they respected mine.

In Grade 9, when my mum was sick, I didnt have any friends in my class bc the school separated the three of us bc I was too distracting (the one person I did sit with was legally blind so I was helping them with stuff they needed help with, something her aide never bothered to do) and I pretty much isolated myself from everyone bc it felt like no one was on my side, especially all the teachers who failed to see my deteriorating interest and health to be anything but “its because shes fat”.

Anyway, I told this person that I was suicidal (I think I said that if God wont end my life soon, I’ll do it for him? Anyway it wasnt hinted, a went into my plan a little bit) and they brushed it off, saying that I was fine and when Mum was better I’d feel better.

Fast forward to Year 10. Still suicidal only no one was listening. Self harming now too. But thats not their responsibility.

What was their responsibility was not to become a Grade A bitch.

Throughout the year they ignored me, and caused my closet friend to burst into tears on multiple occasions. They refused to sit with us and would rarely talk to us. Another one of their friends was also suicidal and self harming, and they were taking it more seriously with them. Whenever I tried to organise something (catch up in town, meeting after school, etc) they’d always forget and either not show or show up so late and have to leave early so there was no real point in meeting up at all (I’d have to be in town at 830am agreeing to meet up at 930-10, and they’d show up post lunch and leave about an hr afterwards and I’d be stuck there until 6-7)

What really hurt was that for my 16th party, I had invited about 10 people to lunch. All but one forgot, and when I called this person they said oh I’m sorry, I forgot I’m at netball and then I’m going to other friends house. Raincheck?

So yeah. Pretty devo.

Then at our Grade 10 formal she refused to sit with us, take a photo with us, and caused my friend to, yet again, burst into tears. Two days later, we had an explosive argument and I cut contact.

When I came back from the UK (about maybe 6 months after this argument?) They wanted to catch up and I said fine.

Didnt say a word to me. Hugged literally everyone but me (they hated hugs all throughout high school and they didnt offer and when I asked for one they turned me down) and, surprise surprise, spent all the time talking to the same girl from high school.

(Side note: the other person is really sweet and I’m not shitting on them, more my friends behaviour when it came to interacting with literally anyone else but her)

So, we had a shakey online relationship forming, and when I organised a meet up in town the same things happened as they did in high school.

Fast foward to Grade 12, my 18th party. I had two, a dinner with family and friends and a day in town/sleep over with my mates (to make up for the dinner which scared the shit out of me). They forgot the dinner. They forgot the party (we called several times before I called her Mum and practically forced them out the door). Which is fine except it was my 18th, and they had done it for all bar one of my birthdays)

Then, when I came down from Melbourne I always asked if they wanted to meet up and they always forgot. That whole year was shit for a multitude of reasons, but their lack of support offline was one of the shittiest things that happened.

So, now we are in my first year of Uni. I pay for them to go to Melbourne with me (I paid accomm and I think tickets? Well i got free accomm anyway) and had planned for us to do a ton of stuff.

Didnt want to do any of it.

And just like when I went down from Melb, when I came down from where I am now, they’d always forget when we were catching up.

On top of that, I offered to let them stay at mine during a local con that happens once a year and they didnt tell me until I came down to grab them to walk them home that they found other accomm! And then didnt ask if I wanted to catch up post con or whatever.

Anyway. Last year they commissioned me to crochet them something, which I did. I finished it and we agreed that they’d pick it up at my 21st bday party.

Anyone see the trend?

They fucking forgot again. I sent the multiple messages during the lead up to the party and they still fucking forgot and then asked if I was in town the following day to drop off their blanket.

I was fucking livid. So I said no (which was the truth) and told them that I gave it to my parents for them (my friend) to organise with my parents to pick it up from their (my parents) work. (Fun fact: it still took them over six months to collect it and it was only after spamming them and threatening to sell it and then them running into dad that they did then collect it).

I also told them they needed to call me at their earliest convenience.

That was in July. Besides the messages about the blanket, I refused to message them until they called me. Which they haven’t.

I dont know I think I’ve never been an important person in their life? I mean, they forget everything and never take what I say seriously and I dont like making plans with them anymore bc I know they rarely remember. Am I being too dramatic? Or is it justified?

To be honest I’m terrified of never speaking to them again but my heart always gets broken when they forget me and even though they are super important to me, clearly I’m not important to them. And I feel incredibly shitty about that because idk…I feel like I’ve lost a lot over the past three years, especially in the friend department.

But yeah. No climax with this one, just a rant ended I suppose.

[sloppykyuu]

I have another idea but its angst and pretty cliche and I'm so sorry in advance cos u said it makes u upset but I'm in a mood forgive me please

The 3rd years (in this scenario they r in their mid-2nd year) r "secretly" full of shit and not as nice and lovely as everyone thinks even tho they act that way most of the time unless it's just them. So one day during lunch they're sitting in their classroom eating bento together and they're alone and the only other person that is somewhat around is a girl from their class that's sitting alone in the hallway and Iwa points out that she always on her own and that he thinks she has a crush on Issei to which Issei laughs and says that it's just bullshit so Makki bets him to try to talk to u and ask u out so they find out if u r actually into him or not and Issei says yes cos Makki bets a month lunch bentos so Issei starts talking to her the next day and it stays like that for a while and after a few weeks he asks he rout and she says yes and now they're together but Issei being the Idiot he is forgets about it the second he brags to the others about winning until the next day where Makki brings him a lunch and they're about to eat and the girl comes up and asks if she should eat with them and all of them look at her absolutely confused and a bit shocked and ask her why she is asking and when they hear her answer that she wants to spend more time with Issei they all laugh and shes confused and feels uncomfortable but then Oikawa points out that it was just a harmless joke, a prank nothing more nothing less and they're so prepared to see her lose her shit and scream but then it's just quiet and they slowly stop laughing and hear her laugh to herself and watch her walk out of the classroom with her bag and they're uncomfortable now but dont think any of it until a week passes and she hasn't shown up to school since then and they wonder what happend but they dont want to ask anyone cos their reputation and also no one else seems go care or to notice but its starting to stress Issei to the point where he cant sleep but he doesnt tell anyone until he sees her in a bookstore at the end of his 2nd year and sees her school uniform and is shocked to find out she changed school and he goes up to her and wants to apologise but she just laughs in his face and leaves and ever since then he cant sleep and one night he goes out to her place and knocks on her door and when she opens it she wants to slam the door shut again but he is so quick to put his arms around her and slowly he is falling asleep while leaving against her (◍•ᴗ•)

“You ever notice that girl over there?” Iwaizumi had noticed you awhile ago, sitting alone in the hallway, right across from the door. - seemingly content. “She’s always eating alone.”

The other three turn to look your direction. You don’t notice them as they not so inconspicuously stare at you eating your lunch and listening to music. Their silence is broken my a snort from Makki. “She’s probably got a crush on one of us.”

“I’m betting Mattsun.” Iwaizumi adds.

“Dude shut up. She doesn’t even know me how would she have a crush on me?”

“I don’t know man, but you know girls.” The other three boys just look at Makki, eyebrows furrowed because ‘no they don’t girls’. “You should ask her out.”

“That’s kinda fucked u-“

“I’ll give you a month worth of bentos.” Makki cut him. “Ask her out and find out if she likes you.”

He was hesitant at first but how could he pass up free bentos for a month? So, he picked himself up from the seat and made his way over to you. The other three couldn’t hear what he was saying to you but it must’ve been good because there a smile plastered on your face and a small smirk on his.

“Guess who just got himself a date.” He says throwing the piece of paper with your number down on the table.

It was going good. Really good. He hated to admit but being with you was enjoyable so the moment he found out you liked him, he asked you on a proper date. Not just going to some arcade or cafe. And he was going to until you showed up at lunch after Issei so cockily bragged the night before about how he had won and Makki better pay up.

“Do you guys mind if I eat with you?” The four of them looked up at you, confusion written all over their faces.

“Uh, why?” Makki asked you, looking at you like you were insane.

“I just wanted to spend more time with Issei.” You teeth tugged your bottom lip, anxiety creeping up your neck. Why were they looking at you like that?

“Oh, babe. You misunderstood.” Oikawa gave you a small smirk, on the verge of laughing. “We were just playing a little joke. Harmless prank.” Iwaizumi held back the urge to smack him, fully expecting you to break down in tears and scream at them for being terrible people.

But when you just laughed in their faces and walked off, it shocked them to say the least. Because, what the hell, that’s not what they were expecting but at least there wasn’t any scene. They shrugged it off and went back to eating.

The next day, Issei was expecting you to be in your normal spot glaring at him and his friends but you were no where to be found. He wasn’t concerned, the other didn’t even seem to notice. You were probably just trying to recover from the embarrassment right? Sure.

Until a week passed and there was still no sight of you. That’s when the other boys started to notice. Makki having been in a class with you, saw you weren’t showing up and none of the teachers even called your name out in class. It was weird but they wouldn’t show that, no they have a reputation to keep up.

“Be quick, dude I’m starving!” Makki groaned out rubbing his belly. Issei only rolled his eyes and walked into the convient store. He was strolling along the aisles looking for something to snack on. There was a girl in the aisle, nothing unordinary, but why did she look so familiar?

“Y/n?” He felt his heart dropped when you turned around a furrow in your eyebrows. You stood in front of him wearing a maroon skirt and white blazer, what the fuck?

You didn’t say anything, didn’t smile at him, didn’t glare at him or yell at him. You just looked at him. “Hey, I, uh, just wanted to apologize for the whole prank thing. It was fucked up and I actually really enjoyed being with you-“

There it was again, another laugh and shake of your head before you walked away. It was unsettling the way you reacted to him, he almost wished you would break down and cry so at least he knew how to feel but you just laughed at him like you didn’t care. Maybe, you didn’t.

“Fucking finally, dude. What took so long?” Issei just rolled his eyes throwing the bag of chips at Makki.

That night, he couldn’t sleep. Why weren’t you mad at him? Why didn’t you throw a fit when Oikawa told you, you were being pranked by the guy you liked? It made his chest ache, thinking of the look on your face- why didn’t you care?

It went on for a whole week, tossing and turning in his bed every night thinking of you. Why was he even thinking of you?? He hated it. Hated the way you swirled in his brain when he tried and failed to sleep each night, hated that you didn’t accept his apology, hated himself.

It was late at night when you heard the frantic knocking at your door. Maybe you shouldn’t have opened the door in case it was intruder but it was late and you weren’t thinking straight having been awoken from your sleep. You didn’t think about it until you were staring at a tired looking Issei.

He looked like shit. Face sunken, eyes dropping with heavy bags placed under them. You just rolled your eyes before attempting to close the door. Why couldn’t he just leave you alone? It was heard enough not to break down the day he embarrassed you or the day he saw you at the store.

He saw you reach to move the door closed and quickly wrapped his arms around you, pulling you into his chest. For the first time in two weeks, he finally felt tired, finally felt his heart rate slow down even as you squirmed in his hold. “Please, stop moving.” He mumbled into your hair. When you stopped he finally felt himself falling asleep, because you wrapped your arms around him.

[gooseking]

I'm so sad

I keep going through Instagram and seeing the drag queens that I saw my birthday weekend and I'm reminded that it was cut short

I know we had to leave, but it sucks, ya know? And I know that I'm gonna get to go to another one soon, but I'm just kinda burnt out and need just one night where I can just go and have fun with my mom and sister.

And it's not just that I like seeing the sexy people there; I love the art form and just the atmosphere is so welcoming! I realized and came out at a later age (about 13 or 14 when I realized and 14 or 15 when I came out) about being bi, but looking back, I've been bi my entire life. I realized I had a crush on a girl back in elementary school. I didn't care that a girl had a crush on me in elementary school (although when someone told me, they meant it in a bullying sort of way and I shrugged it off; I was never uncomfortable with it). My mom is bi, so she wasn't surprised or upset when I came out to her about that. My mamaw had different views about it though. Then when I came out as trans, it was like my family did a 180 on me (especially with my dad and his side of the family). I was told it was a phase and that the world wouldn't love me if I was trans. I was put in therapy for it (although it backfired on my family). Eventually my mom, sister, and brother in law came around, but some parts of my family still don't accept that part of me, and some don't even know I'm bi! But at the drag shows, we are constantly reminded that we are loved. We are constantly reminded that even though there are some people that won't accept us, there is still a place for us. We are constantly reminded to love ourselves. The queens that perform are humble and love all of us. It's just such a magical feeling. It's a place that loves you for who you are.

Even my mom and sister (who is hetero and cis), who have never been to a proper drag show before, were having an amazing time before we had to leave. My mom, who had only ever been to an amature drag show (which she described as a mess of fat ugly dudes who didn't know how to perform or do their makeup/outfits) complimented every single one of the queens and meant it by saying that they were beautiful.

If I had the time/money to go to a drag show every weekend, I would. If you're on the fence about going to a drag show near you, I recommend it. If it isn't your jam, I get it. It's definitely isn't for everyone. But for me, the experience is just one of a kind.

I'm hoping that my mom and I can go to Pride this year. When I first started coming to Chicago (I think it was to check out the school), we saw a bunch of people with flags walking around, thinking they just had them because it was pride month, but it turns out that we missed the pride parade by just like an hour or something. Ever since then, we've wanted to go to Pride, but every year something comes up.

I'm not gonna let that happen this year though. I feel like my mom and I connect more in social situations, whether it be concerts (which was our usual thing before COVID), drag shows, or just going on vacation.

[jvngkoochim]

Cause I'm Yours - Jimin Scenario

First of all: scenario requested by anon based on the song “Secret Love Song” by Little Mix and Jason Derulo. I really enjoyed writing this, so I really hope you like it and, also thank you for letting me know the song, it’s really amazing!💕 Oh yes, I was forgetting, you find the sentences related to the song’s lyrics like this Genre: Angst, Fluff Pairing: Jimin x Reader Summary: You thought your relationship with your best friend was perfect and you knew you were in love with him. He knew he was in love with you too, but that changed when he met a new girl. You and Jimin had always been best friends. Since you could remember, in fact, he was there with you, supporting and caring for you when you needed that. Being the both of you quite shy, neither of you had never had a proper girlfriend or boyfriend. For you it was fine like this, as you were aware about your feelings for Jimin. Little you knew that Jimin liked you back, you could see it by the way he smiled at you, hugged you, spoke to you and by how he cared for you, like he was a real boyfriend. You always had known that maybe, but maybe, you should have spoken about the topic but, the two of you were so comfortable around each other that you hadn’t bothered making the first move. And you weren’t surely expecting him to find someone else beside you, in his life. “Where are you going?” You asked softly, watching him grabbing his coat and his scarf, forcing yourself to get up from the couch. “I’m sorry Y/N, I forgot to tell you about an important meeting I had… I’ll call you” he murmured the last part, visibly guilty, opening the door frame only to disappear behind it one mear second later. You sighed, a bit disappointed. Ah, if only that had been the only time he did it. The second time he said he couldn’t see you due to a football match he wanted to watch with his male best friend, so you didn’t complain. The third time, he had to help his mother doing the cleaning, and little did you know he was lying, because you knew well that his mother had always preferred no to involve Jimin in that kind of stuff, thinking he would have messed up more than it already was. So, even if you were hurt that he didn’t trust you enough to tell you the truth, you let that slide away, thinking that maybe he would have told you after, when he would think it was the right time. The times after, to say you were upset was an understatement. You didn’t demand to him to tell you everything, but you wanted him to be at least sincere. So you decided to write him a message. “Can we meet up? It’s important” “Sure, at your place?” “Yeah” “So Y/N, why did you want to meet up?” He asked, entering and closing the door. He looked pretty calm to be a person who had basically forgot his best friend. Oh well, maybe he doesn’t even care about me anymore you thought, scoffing inside. “How are you doing?” You asked, since it was since two months trough the ones you had barely talked to him. “We- well, umh… you?” He asked back, unsure of himself. “Fine. If we don’t consider my best friend continuously lying to me, forgetting about me and all.” You crossed your arms, raising an eyebrow, waiting for him to answer. As you finished speaking, you couldn’t exactly tell if he was more guilty or sad. But you had waited two months. You couldn’t wait any longer. “So?” You said, your voice showing impatience, making Jimin flinch a bit. “I… I’m sorry… I’m-” “What? Tell me! Tell me what is that important to make you be such an asshole to me!” You shouted, tears at your eyes, all the pain bursting out. “I’m… seeing someone, Y/N. I know I shouldn’t have ignored you and put you apart, but, I-” Internally, your heart cracked, you felt the tears roll down your cheeks faster. “I knew it would have finished like this. That’s why I didn’t tell you.” He said, the sorrow disappeared from his voice. “How dare you-” you were about to say, but he stopped you. “I knew you would have felt jealous, you’re just a kid.” As he said that, and saw your orbs popping out, he regretted right away his words, while you were now desperately crying. “Look- Y/N, I didn’t mean it in that way- you know I-” “Get out” you said, lowing your head in embarrassment. You didn’t want him to see you cry for him. “Y/N- please- no, I can explain, wait-” “I said get out Jimin. I don’t want to see you anymore. Be happy with your girlfriend.” “See?! You’re being jealous right now!” He shouted at you, you scoffing in response. “You’re unbelievable! How dare you say that to me ?? I’m not being jealous! I’m angry at you because you didn’t trust me and you hid this fact from me, your best friend! You lied to me, Jimin! I thought you cared about me, I thought you cared about our friendship! You could have told me you didn’t have time for me anymore, it would have been enough to shout you out of my life without suffering like a pathetic high school girl with her crush!” At this point, you were crying like a desperate, sobbing hardly, your lungs needed air but, you knew that with him near you, they wouldn’t have recovered. Jimin looked shocked, there, in the door frame, with his mouth open in disbelief and his glassy eyes that showed pain and guilt. “Wh- what? Y/N, what the hell are you talking about?!” He said, nor really having caught your words. “Get out of my house Jimin. Or I’m calling the police.” You said, trying to sound secure and firm, but your voice betrayed you and cracked, a little sob escaping your lips. “Y/N, please” Jimin extended a hand to wipe away your tears and caress your cheek, but you roughly shoved it away. “Don’t.” You said. He finally took that as a sign to leave, but his heart was suffering like yours, full of guilt and sadness. ~ The days after you continued to receive texts from Jimin, all asking for forgiveness; he asked you to talk the topic out, he didn’t wanted to ruin like that your friendship. But even if you really wanted to reply back and tell him that you didn’t want to lose him either, you were stubborn. You weren’t going to give up like this. You had practically made a fool of yourself, confessing to him your crush for him, while he had a girlfriend. And you couldn’t forget the hateful words he said to you like you were nothing. They really hurt you. So you couldn’t let him in your life again, risking to suffer more. Because, even If you really wanted to have him near you again, you knew you wouldn’t have beared seeing him with his girlfriend all days, kissing and cuddling, when all you would have probably wanted to do would have been be the girl. You couldn’t torture yourself like that, you had to move on. 3 Months Later You were not over him. Don’t even try to think you had now a boyfriend who cared about you ecc.ecc- unfortunately no. You still loved him, but thanks to one new friend you had made, you were happier lately. Thanks to no other than Jimin ’s bestfriend, Jeon Jungkook. You spent a lot of time with him. He was fun to be with, thanks to him you could forget about Jimin for a few hours. Obviously, that only when he didn’t come with his girlfriend to Jungkook’s place. Everytime, you saw them cuddling, kissing and being all lovey dovey, and that made you sick from the deeps of your stomach. Jungkook was sure a good friend, making you laugh and have fun but, he was not Jimin, he didn’t have your heart. It was because of this that every time you saw them doing couple stuff, you hugged Jungkook like there was no tomorrow, like he was all you had to distract yourself from that torture. Yet, Jimin seemed not to notice your pain, and you didn’t exactly know if it was that that angered you or it was the fact that he was supposed to since he had always been your best friend. “Why can’t you hold me in the street, why can’t you kiss me on the dance floor?” It continuously was in your head, every single time it brought tears at your eyes. Thinking about you and Jimin going together to cinema, the perfect feeling of softness coming from is smile, that feeling of safety that only his beautiful eyes and sweet face could give you. Now, she could that all these, and that made you jealous. Too jealous. I wish the we could be like that, why can’t we be like that… You whispered softly, watching a boy and a girl happily kissing and cuddling. You were sat on a bench in the park, your gaze lost in those two guys, inevitable tears on your cheeks as the memories rushed in your mind. “We who?” Asked a voice, making you jump, startled. The boy sat near you, posing his small cute hand on your tight. Oh, if you knew that hand. You lifted your head, surprised to see him. “Jimin, what… what are you doing here?” You asked, frowning. “You didn’t answer me.” “You neither.” You awkwardly chuckled, trying to lighten the mood. “Just taking a stroll. Kinda bored. Your turn.” He said, caressing your tight. “Nothing important. Don’t worry.” “How can you tell me not to worry for my best friend?” He said, concerned. “Funny to hear that after you completely forgot I existed.” “I know. I’m sorry. But it’s not all my fault, I tried to reach out to you but you ignored me!” “Fine. I was wrong, too. How’s your girlfriend?” You asked, a bit reluctant. “We broke up. Don’t really know.” He sighed, watching you and smiling lightly. “What?” He nodded “I have to ask you one thing. When you’re with him, do you call his name like you when you’re with me? Does it fell that same?” “Wait, who? Who are you talking about Jimin? This is so strange” you raised an eyebrow, confused. . “God, I’m so pathetic. I’m talking about Jungkook. You know, I’ve saw you two. Just wondering if he’s treating you well…” he lowered is head “Why can’t I sat that I’m in love…” “Are you stupid? I’m not with Jungkook!!” You playfully hit him, chuckling. “It’s obvious you’re meant for me, every piece of you it just fits perfectly;every second, every thought, I’m in so deep… ” You sighed, tears in your eyes “…Cause I’m yours” His eyes shot open, and then he leaned in, kissing you. Passionately, lovingly, like you always imagined and even better. “I love you so much, Y/N” I’m so sorry it took so long anon, I hope you like it!

[readingontheroof]

(1) Hi so I hope I'm somehow able to word this properly and not be an awful person (I'm sorry my emotions are still running kinda haywire). So yesterday my datemate told me that they are aromantic and they've known for about two months now and they didn't tell me earlier (even tho they hate lying/keeping secrets) bc they still love me (but not romantically of course) and they were worried I was going to cut ties with them completely in order to get over them and not want them in my life

anymore. Which I don't think I would have done, but given my past experience and personality, I think it was a reasonable thing to think. So after they told me that, I cried a lot and we talked about it some more, but it wasn't really a proper discussion since I was crying so hard. (I don't know if this helps but I'm an infj and my datemate (?) is an intj. I'm also asexual and they're pansexual. Sorry to dump this on you, I just think you're insightful and give good advice). We've been dating for 10 months now so it's a little bit hard finding this out after we've already been together for a while. While I understand why they waited 2 months to tell me (didn't want to hurt me, we were already dating, didn't want to permanently lose me) I'm still mad and wish they had told me earlier. I'm very future-oriented and I plan things out so far in advance, I was already imagining a future with them and was so happy and excited about it. I can change this image of coursebut it feels so sudden and it's like everything's been turned upside down. Last night I was overwhelmingly sad, and today I'm still sad but also angry. Maybe it wouldn't have but that's 2 months I could've spent stopping myself from getting attached to this future image. We talked about it together multiple times: what we each want, where we want to live, what kind of cats and dogs we want to own together. I know we can still live together, & I'd really really love that, it's just that someof the certainty of the future has been ripped away and it was really comforting and wonderful to think about. I really love them a lot and I can't think of anyone else I'd rather own cats with. Last night they said they'd still like to be in a romantic relationship with me and date me and continue doing everything else we've already been doing, but they don't want to be involved with any of those romantic rituals like getting married, etc. All I want right now is to continue our currentrelationship, especially since they want to and they really want to be in my future. It's just that I'm so attached to the idea of romantic love and marriage (it's so stupid though) and I don't know how to get away from that & I KNOW that no matter how much I'd like to continue this current relationship, I'm going to eventually want to get married and I don't want to regret anything. The ideal future would be for me to live with both them and someone else I'm married to in the same housebut all I can think about is how there's no way that'll ever work bc then that's three people's lives, jobs, wants and needs we'd have to coordinate in order to live in the same place and area. The probability of it working out is so unlikely & I don't know if I'd be even be able to find someone else to date who'd be willing to do that. I'm thinking the best option is for me to break off my current relationship with my datemate and do something more akin to a qpr, I just hate how vague anduncertain the future seems now. In the midst of this, I'm still mourning our past relationship (it was also my first romantic relationship). I really hope I didn't say anything to hurt their feelings last night but I tried to make as clear as possible that it's okay for them to be aromantic, I'm just upset about the changes to my vision of the future. Like if only I could get rid of this attachment to the idea of marriage and romantic love, and all that sappy stuff, then we could still continue our current relationship into the future the way it's been. I've just been so happy since (and before) we started dating at college and it's kinda of just a shocker, like I was too optimistic. I did get some warning from my instincts which I probably should've listened to (I hesitated before asking them out bc I thought they might've been aro but they said yes & later when they talked about possibly being polyarmorous I freaked out bc I went on a forum & lots of ppl had similarviews on platonic and romantic love and in poly and aro communities and I was worried that they were aro and I brought it up to them and at the time, they thought they were poly so they reassured me BUT two weeks after the convo realized they were aro. Fucking weirdass ni. Should've listened to it. In addition to this, I have become very attached to cuddling and physical intimacy and I don't want that to stop...but at the same time I'm worried I'm never going to stop liking them if I don'tstop the physical intimacy. Last night they said they'd be fine with whatever I wanted to do (become friends, continue the romantic relationship, or continue the romantic relationship and affection until I find someone else I want to date). Honestly the third option sounds the most appealing but I'm just worried I'm gonna be trapped in a limbo and that my new ideal future option is too unlikely to happen & by continuing the physical and emotional intimacy I'm keeping myself from formingother bonds with other people. I don't want to cut them out of my life, bc even if we ended the romantic relationship, we have become so close with each other, and I enjoy spending time with them more than anyone else at college right now. I know that they really value their relationship with me as well, since they said that they trust me more than anyone else and they have a lot of difficulty opening up to people. I'm not quite sure what kind of advice I'm asking for, maybe I just neededto write all of this out. I'm sorry this was so long, I just have so many emotions. I guess I'm wondering what your opinion is, & if you have any advice on dealing with overcoming the loss of a former vision of the future & replacing it with another one (the biggest question I guess). Also maybe any advice on whether or not you think it's something that would work & if I'm still being too optimistic. Do you have any tips on how to go about forming a qpr? Thank you so much! Feel free toanswer whenever you happen to have any time!! Also if any of these messages get lost or eaten by tumblr, let me know & I can resend them (I've saved them). I'm sorry this was so long! Thank you 

Honestly I'm starting to feel a little bit better after writing all of that out and thinking about other possible future options (happy ones of course) and it's really nice. Thank you for your blog & all you do for the mbti community. Mbti always makes me feel better when I'm feeling bad and reading your thoughts and insights on it is always fun. I guess it's sorta distraction but it's still nice and isn't really hurting me so thanks 

Okay so first i wanna establish i’m likely aro myself so i dont really have a great understanding of the differences between romantic and platonic feelings.

So, one thing I’m confused about is how the relationship would go if you proceeded like the INTJ suggested, (the same, but w no “rituals”). What exactly about the relationship right now would be romantic to you that wouldn’t continue, besides stuff like marriage? Bc I think the biggest disconnect wouldn’t be in not doing x y z, but in a difference in how you view the relationship. If they view the relationship somehow differently bc they are aro, what are those differences? Bc obviously it isn’t a sexual relationship but you were doing things that would be “romantic” rather than “friendly.” I think it would be helpful to try to figure out what has changed, really at all. Bc if you are viewing the relationship very differently from each other, I can see how that could cause pain.

It definitely seems like you want something more from the relationship than they do, and I do think that if you continued the relationship with you sort of pretending it’s a romantic relationship and them sort of pretending it’s a friendship, with you knowing it will never fulfill those expectations you had, it will feel like something is missing and bitterness/pain/disconnection might come from that. I think if you decided to continue the physical intimacy but say you’re friends, that’s what you’re going to end up doing. I think you shouldn’t cut them off or avoid them, it just wouldn’t be logical. I think you should keep your friendship, but try not to do anything you would see as romantic. Maybe a little space right now would be really good, for you especially, to get your head around it without any pressure or guilt. However, I do think that given time (esp given your types), you could change the nature of the relationship and move on in a way, especially bc it is your first relationship. I think you could be best friends, and you could end up with a different romantic partner that you have a healthy, fulfilling relationship with.

I do think you should trust your instincts, if they’re telling you anything at this point. It seems like doing so would put you in a place that feels natural.

I don’t have any tips on how to form a qpr bc i’ve never had one and don’t really have a want for one, but I do advise you to be careful, bc boy have a I seen people try to have a qpr with someone they clearly have a crush on and it isn’t fun for either of the people involved.

No prob man, I rlly hope it works out for you. I do think the venting helped you organize everything! I’m glad you like my blog, thanks :)!