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supernovaa-remnant · 1 year

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#I'm so stressed about uni #my uni has such weird policies around declaring a major and getting into a major #and all the requirements for graduating in four years #and I'm not even sure if I'll be able to graduate w/ a degree in astronomy #and like I've been torn b/w an astronomy degree and a creative writing degree #but I actually might not have much of a choice?#bc if I don't declare a major by spring quarter then I won't be able to register for the quarter after that #unless I get a special extension for one more quarter #and the issue is that I /can't/ get the requirements for applying to the astronomy degree in that time #but I can get the requirements for the creative writing degree #and I don't know I don't know #I was a mess my first year in so many different ways #and I definitely didn't utilize the time the way I should've in terms of what classes I took #idk #I could apply for the creative writing major and switch majors I guess #or attempt to get two degrees lmao #I hate this so much why is uni so difficult #negative #personal #stella rambles #maybe I should drop out and become a content creator lmao #<- JOKING JOKING

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tapeworrmart · 3 days

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Small updates!

Ravenous prints arrived today so I should be uploading them to my shop soon! Also I'm thinking about making print bundles, like grouping together prints with the same themes and doing a deal. So I'll update when I do that too.

Also tbh I'm still looking for a diff place to sell. Etsy works for me cuz I've been using it for so long but at this point they take so much off me and yknow... They aren't great in general. But that's still in the works.

And also I've started easing back into uni work again after having been on a mental health break, which means comms and art in general will be slower. Still v much in desperate need of comms as uni doesn't pay me.

#I'll be working on art and uni intermittently. But when uni starts again I may only do art on the weekends #Gonna try to not have such a stressful routine this time as that's what made me sick last time #So it's gonna be more relaxed #But yeah. Stuff #Part of me considers disappearing off the face of the earth in terms of art rn I'm very underwhelmed and stressed about it #Hate how it's become so much about posting all the time. And I hate my art rn. Wish it was different. And I hate begging for comms #Anywayyyy #That's me rn #Stressed. Frazzled. Trying my best #Oh but I am exciting about new comm projects with existing clients. That should be a good balance for uni work

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itslookingback · 2 months

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small brave actions summer

#just added that i have a disability to my uni details... which means i might get contacted by support.... and then get diagnosed hopefully #i have been putting this off for so long. but literally all it was was a small check box #i don't know why it's been so hard for me!!!! probably just about admitting that i'm disabled. and don't function as well as other people #uagh oh well it's done now. bring forth the emails #the next incredibly brave action i want to do but am terrified of is deed poll #like i said i would wait until the end of my degree so there's less admin around that #but what if i don't want to.... :(#what if i want to change my name legally now :(#probably not the best thing to do right now because everything is kind of stressful and will get even more so

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soliusss · 8 months

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Do not take 18 credit hours if you want to have hobbies guys

#I can graduate a semester early tho #save like 25 grand #sorry chat the uni hustle comes first #I'll have more art soon #solius posting #I have no illustration or 2d classes this semester #sad!#I have so much homework every weekend #aaagghhhh #I'm so stressed about my future

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yyshcul · 10 months

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hey i know i haven't been posting a lot of art lately but i just wanna say i'm not dead, i'm just working on a short animated film rn (along with all my other semester projects) and i kinda need to focus on that before preparing a new art post. that being said, i don't think i will be able to reopen my commissions for a while

#i've already finished the first minute and i want the film to be about 2-3 minutes long #today i've finished 2 shots (<- dead. i'm spending all of my free time on this project but it's fun)#i'm really enjoying uni so far!!! it's very stressful though. but in a fun way. i'm feeling productive again #talks

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circusballoon · 7 months

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It's my 29th birthday today!! I typically try to draw something self indulgent but I had NOO idea which character I wanted to draw for me this year because I was torn between a whole bunch. So I decided maybe the best option was to just draw that whole bunch of characters, so I did!

This past year has been a wild combo of highs and lows, but boy, I'm super proud of how much work I've put towards my mental health and acceptance of myself. I'm in a vastly different and better spot this year and I'm really grateful for all the past iterations of me that got me to where I am today.

Here's to another year of leaning more into the wild and messy chaos of being me!!

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la-galaxie-langblr · 5 months

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So Much happening, lots of it good but So Much

#i'm on track to finish a draft of one of my essays tn #so tomorrow morning I need to proofread and submit and then get cracking on my second essay #got a linguistics society event tomorrow and then going to the theatre with my flatmate :D #then thursday is crunch time to finish essay 2 that needs to be submitted on friday #heading to a sleepover with my friend who goes to uni an hour away and on sat we're doing a day trip to a nearby city #then next week is also A Lot but that's too far in the future for now #i also saw a job advertised at my old workplace today which i applied for so really hope i get that #the job hunt has not gone well so far #it would just be embarrassing if i didn't get my old job #also learned some exciting things about my module choices next year and my year abroad in 3rd year :D #and let's not forget that hot enby language summer approaches!!#but yeah if I get a job lined up for summer I can basically stop stressing about a lot of things #but waiting for that to fall into place is AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #i've put the most effort possible into applying so it's out of my hands now and all i can do is wait #this is just the same as waiting for results day last year lol #ellis exclaims

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belleandsaintsebastian · 6 months

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#arfghgghg i just need to get over this stupid. health anxiety its fucking. ruining my life i literally think i'm going to die from (insert #random symptom) like every day its insane and i hate the way it gets worse when i've just finished like. a big project at uni or my stress #levels over something have dramatically dropped and suddenly my brain is like :) let's invent something for u to worry about....#i fucking!!!!!!!HATE OCD so much. anyways going 2 the doctor this week 2 get smth #checked out. i'm freaking out a bit but!!! i dont even know i feel so stupid all the time aghhhhhh i wish i could just. stop feeling this #constant state of dread and anxiety and a need to constantly be occupied by stuff or i'll just die or something idk ://

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deeisace · 6 months

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#sorry sorry I just woke up and im having yesterday-was-weird thought again #and they are going here so i don't have to talk to the person that they're um about yet #basically im glad that im in a good enough space now that um #someone ive ive had text-based sex with and uhhh sent an ill-advised video to in like oct when i was Feeling Bad™ and doing. hm. too much.#like 6 months post text-based sex/ill adised video now aha and we've not spoke at all since like january and that was 'how was hols'#they asked to meet up 'not for sex just as friends' or i forget exact wording but basically that #no-pressure museum not-a-date #and i said I'd think about it. because i am as everyone knows a fucking idiot.#basically im glad that im in a better place now than the last time someone like expressed an interest in me as a person #because while this did give me a day long wobble i didn't have a full weekend long actual panic about it #tho they are two v different situs #an ace poly friend asking to go out with me vs someone i uh virtually fucked aha um asking to meet up for (mostly) being-friends purposes #same several-hours-later 'oh god no what have i done bad bad bad no thank you actually no sorry i cant sorry' but less intense this time #but at least i only said ill think about it?#and not actually immediately said yes because it's nice to feel wanted #and then gone Maximum Regret™ because actually all of this is way too much i don't like it i don't want it thank you but im sorry no #weird. i guess i don't have such a high baseline stress level any more? since i'm not at uni n stuff #and someone over messages going no pressure you want to be irl friends (maybe fwb no pressure)? is um #is different. to someone irl going you want to go out acely? yeah? awesome lets hold hands here is the discord with a whole buncha people #i guess #but i am being equally aro-not-super-ace Autism™ about it aha #and i am. eventually. going to be like. thought about it and no sorry. eventually.#if they ask again #i am kinda hoping they'll leave it there and forget they asked so i don't have to navigate social stuff #im much better at navigating canals everybody leave me alone please thank you #(everybody over there leave me alone. y'know. you guys are fine.)

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professionalowl · 8 months

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i am very fond of my professor as i am sure you all have picked up on at this point but if he keeps talking about my hypothetical doctorate i am going to hit him with my shoe

#i am a second year undergraduate. i barely even know what taxes are.#i don't need a five minute lecture about my future in academia i need to curl up in a ball and take a long nap and have a few free days #to do exploratory reading and figure out what i need to do NOW for my UNDERGRAD dissertation #aughgh. Augh this is such a stupid thing to feel bad about I should be ecstatic about it and I am but it's so.#it's not even really his fault i think he's earnestly trying to be encouraging it's just maybe too genuine rn #i love you. thank you for believing in me. shut the fuck upppppppppp #had this exchange on monday and it is genuinely stressing me out so much as if there isn't ENOUGH pressure #to perform well academically at this stupid ass university just generally now this specific guy thinks i am some kind of prodigy #academia is such a scam. god. like i'll do it but i'm going to be complaining about it the whole time #uni adventures

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seonghwasblr · 3 days

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I promise I will go back to having an actual personality, when I actually have a job (hopefully the Thursday interview one)

#maja talks #my personality for the two years have really just been 'i'm writing my masters thesis' -> I failed my thesis -> I'm writing my thesis again #-> i'm searching for a job -> interview!!#i promise i will get back to my probably seonghwa personality once i'm not so stressed about job searching anymore #the thursday job is like a cleaning job and helping people at the central station #and like yeah it's not what i expected after 6 years at uni but I actually really really want it #idk it just feels like i'm going to thrive in that job so much so I'm really hopeful #praying to a god I don't believe in that i get it

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bootyful-seventeen · 11 months

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i am too mentally exhausted to even deal with this shit anymore with my mom and grandma and low key wish i'd go comatose for a few years to be left alone tbh

#had a clean up service come by to see the damage and give a quote on the estimate and my grandma wasnt having it #she got upset and started crying to them about she has only 1 daughter and is trying to help her and they're trying to tell her that keepin #all that junk isn't gonna be helping anyone especially my mom but she wasn't getting it and i said i'm not helping clean the junk that's #all around the house cuz i'm tired of it all and having to manage my emotions since i am for sure emtotionally stunted from my childhood #and have to deal with a schitzophrenic mom and an absent sister who's balls deep in denial while i'm struggling to find a job here #and my grandma always stressing me ot saying she's gonna kick me out isn't fucking helping here at all like she thinks it does #so when they left she spent all day sobbing on the phone how i'm a terrible granddaughter who wants to throw out good stuff #when i'm not gonna keep helping sell shit for my mom cuz my sister can do it as her family contribution since she did nothing since dad die #and the thing is i gave them all options on clearing shit out cuz i know this family by now and shit doesn't get tossed but it migrates #cuz i said months ago i can ask some friends if they could come down and help sort and declutter #grandma said no to that and said she'll kick me out if i do it and she didn't want to pay for my mom's shit to get moved into a storage uni #she leaves the clean up to my mom and i think the backyard got worse but she didn't call anyone to throw out the junk like she threatened t #so i call a fucking hoarders clean up service cuz that's what my family is on my mom's side at this point and the city will be called too #and she has this reaction cries all day and calls everyone to say i'm horrible and yells at me saying i'm the one killing her with stress #when she's already been doing that for months to herself when i'm just tired and possibly mildly depressed or something idk #i barely leave my room and don't go outside except to walk my dog but idk cuz my family's attittude was we don't go to doctors cuz #cuz they're for crazy people but of course it's gotta switch up for my mom and no one else and i'm just sick of it all #grandma doesn't accept free help and she won't accept help that i pay for myself with my money set aside for school so i'm done #unlike her when i say i'll do something i stick to it so i'm not doing shit anymore unless i can call a friend to help with this mess #it's gonna sound like such a horrible thing but i can't wait for my family to die so i can live in a clean home again and get help #like deep serious help cleaning and big time grief councelling cuz i barely had time to process my dad's death and being the one to find hi #and that was just this february like god i am going to need so much fucking therapy in my future it's almost rediculous #and probably say screw my mom's side and visit my dad's side a lot more since they seem to be the normal ones in this shit family tree #at least they're not stupid and leave junk everywhere where one neighbour getting sick of not being able to sit outside and enjoy their yar #without mountains of junk staring them right in the face and landing a notice from the city to clean up especially since #we have chainlink fences and at least 7 neighbours can see the backyard and everyone can see the front porch when passing by #i'm just tired of living in these suffocating households and even wanna file a report myself to kick them into gear #its horrible living like this and no one should live surrounded by junk and things they never use or even garbage

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uitzinnigmp3 · 23 days

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#it's been a day and uni work has already paralysed me with stress . yay !#i'm so scared that i'm never going to get over this feeling it happens every fucking time #i see a huge pile of work that i'm going to have to do over the next ten weeks and my brain just says no thanks ! not gonna do that now !#but i will keep thinking about it every waking moment . and then feel bad because i'm not doing anything #and so far i have Always made it but i still get so goddamn stressed every time !!!!! what the fuck !!!!!!!!!!#man . what the fuck ever #i'm sure the fact that i constantly feel like i'm about to burst into tears is totally normal and fine :)#s.txt #vent

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lightprkdraws · 2 years

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Day 9: 'Till death do us apart 💔🗡️

@hetaween-event-2022

#this is like a continuation to a drawing i did for last year #hetaween #hetaween 2022 #hetalia #hetalia fanart #porteng #hws england #hws portugal #alice in wonderland au #siiiiiigh one more drawing to go #maybe #i'm so stressed about uni lmao #tw character death #tw knife #tw blood

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fantastic-mr-corvid · 3 months

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Just landed a load of comms for the next while from family! Turns out just throwing some money and a nice photo at the black sheep's unemployed kid is easier than figuring out what to bring for bithdays<3 "its such a personal and unique gift" yea bc you fuckers are all tramatized by each other and don't know any more than the bare minimum of someone's job and their hobby for basic conversation<3 but we have plenty if nice photos for me to draw, just don't look to closely as the eyes<3

My fucking family aside, I'm so glad bc it means I can relax and rest for longer w/o worrying as much about money. And I don't have to cough up for gifts myself<3 also grandma showed my drawing for her off to her giant network of Quakers, so I'm not just drawing my family members that I hate at varying levels!

#thebirdspeaks #Means I don't have to stress as much about comms here for now #Okay I love my mum n my grandma and like one and a half cousins #But all the swanky job family members who just go “oh” when they find out I haven't used nonexistent connections to land a consultant job #Right out of uni #Like some of us didn't go to swanky places and aren't besties with a bunch of well connected rich ppl who can forward resumes #Fuck them #I'm more than happy to take their money!#Call my overcharging charity #Okay it's not by much #But freelance work should be more than minimum wage bc like you don't work full time or whatever #So<3 #Gimme that fucking money #I'm going them a favor! now they can't spend it on getting pissed out of their head and yelling at their wife #Oops

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nerdyfangirlingbooks · 3 months

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Every now and then I remember the times I would mention to my flatmate that I was thinking of buying myself something reasonably expensive (that I had been eyeing up for months and had budgeted for) and she'd tell me that I shouldn't spend that much money on something I didn't need and it would be stupid etc etc while she regularly impulse bought things that cost at least as much and she would use once (while complaining that she was under a lot of financial stress and couldn't afford <$3/week for 2 months for a rental washing machine when ours broke). She is... perhaps not my first call for financial advice

#like I get that you're financially stressed but also it feels a bit rich to complain about it when you're on student allowance (not loan)#and your parents still contribute to things for you even though allowance is supposed to be for people whose parents can't afford to help #and you get multiple scholarships a year even though you're technically not eligible for half of them anymore but then as soon as the money #comes in from those you spend it all on a brand new dress for your sister's hen's do picnic because you can't wear the same dress as you #will for the actual hen's night or the wedding. Better buy a full price one at an expensive store instead of looking in a single op shop or #borrowing one from one of your three sisters who are all roughly the same size #god life must be so tough for you getting the same amount of money as the rest of us on student loan except you only have to pay back half #like the only money you have to live off is the same as what the rest of us get + scholarships (plural) plus what you earnt in your summer #internship? how could you possibly survive??#anyway I am NOT a fan of people who are like 'oh you say you have no money for rent but you have a phone?' because that's bullshit #and the whole 'millenials need to stop eating avocado toast so they can buy a house' thing is also bullshit #however. If you pay $60/week for a gym when you have access to the free uni one (or any other gym in the country is like $20)#and you buy uber eats multiple times a week for like $30+ each time despite having a premade meal in the fridge. and you get multiple #scholarships which mean you are arguably among the more well off students. AND you impulse buy things that cost over $100 regularly #then maybe the problem is not that you don't have enough money to split the rental costs of a washing machine (<$3 each/week)#maybe you are just bad with money #which is fine like it's not like it's unfixable it's just annoying when you act like you're worse off than people whose only money is what #they get from student loan each week so they eat beans on rice for dinner for a week #because that's all they could afford (yes I know people who did this. Yes she complained more than them)#so no I don't think I'm gonna be taking financial advice from you babes because one of us has entertained the idea of a budget to help with #finances and it's not you xx #(she turned down offers of financial help/advice/books to borrow from multiple people multiple times. I 100% get that you might not want to #talk to people about it especially your friends but we had multiple books on finances lying around the flat which she always said she didn't #need. And then she'd continue to complain that she didn't have enough money #god forbid you suggest something like going to a cheaper gym (or worse. The perfectly fine free uni gym!)#again. Her gym cost $60/week for most of last year until they brought in a student discount which was 'only' $45/week #the next most expensive gym chain I can find costs maybe $30/week for the highest membership level #to get what she was getting she would only need like a $20 membership #BUT to be fair she wouldn't get such strong culty vibes at any other gym #lol anyway sorry for the rant. I could keep going but apparently you can only have 30 tags and this is the last one

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