#IDK MAN THEY JUST ARE MY FR SOULMATES!!! IT WAS LIKE I WAS MADE FOR THEM AND THEY WERE MADE FOR ME!!!!!

[1980ssunflower]

LOOK at my FUCKING husbands BOY!!!!!!!!!!!

[ohmyeyesmyeyes]

i love my fans - trevor zegras

trevor zegras instagram au x f!author

fc: i tried to stick to zendaya but there weren't many pictures that could fit contextually

warnings: swearing + a confused non-nhl-fan-reader

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ynofficial: thank you to everyone who made it to the la signing in anaheim today, you're all so beautiful!! (p.s. the first two photos were from an interaction i had when this guy walked into my signing, stopped and said he was sorry but he was in the wrong place and walked back out with a crowd following him. i am very confused, but he was very polite about it all and honestly it was kind of hilarious. to them: i hope you found where you were meant to be and made it on time!) i love my fans

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fan1: omg no way that happened

fan2: you were beautiful too!

fan3: babe that's literally trevor zegras

ynofficial: who?

jamie.drysdale: trevorzegras humbling moment for you

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trevorzegras: met a lot of you today and had a lot of fun doing it ;) i love my fans but i do have to apologise for my lateness, i accidentally crashed a book signing and the author herself was incredibly understanding when i ran into her a couple of minutes ago! unfortunately she had to run and i never got her name but this was one of the two pictures i got before she left. help a guy out?

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jamie.drysdale: ynofficial

fan: not jamie doing the hard work and it going unnoticed

fan4: i feel like that's such a z thing of you to do

fan5: she's literally so fucking pretty

fan6: that's y/n l/n and i'm pretty sure you guys went to the same college at the same time

ynofficial: so this is trevor zegras? wow i get what you guys mean now

trevorzegras: i'm scared. who is 'you guys' and what did they mean?

fan7: i'm never going to recover from this

fan8: if this goes well this is one hell of a meet-cute

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ynofficial: friends in la

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fan9: effective method in shutting down the rumours i'll give you that

fan10: trev being friendzoned made me laugh

fan11: they've literally only known each other a couple of weeks slow down

fan12: why is there a pin needle in your mug?

fan13: the flowers are gorgeous!

ynofficial: a little present for myself from myself ;)

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trevorzegras: shenanigans

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fan14: trevor in his active era pop off king

fan15: it's the way every time he posts she's always in it

fan16: fr he's only active because she gives him something to post about

fan17: i know we don't ship people irl but i think i am rn

fan18: THEY MATCH EACH OTHER'S ENERGIES SO WELL

fan19: she took him on her tour??????? i'm sobbing

fan20: she looks so comfortable with him :)

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ynofficial: my time in la has been a whirlwind to say the least but this post goes out to trevorzegras and trevor zegras only. it took about three weeks for trevor to become my favourite person and now the thought of carrying on this tour without him is kind of daunting, but we move. i just wanted to say that i'm gonna miss him a lot. and that i'm starting to get the hang of this ice hockey thing.

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fan21: it's one am on a monday and you're making me cry already

fan22: STOP IT RN

fan23: idk nor do i care if they're dating but they're too cute not to be soulmates in some realm

fan24: i'm melting with the way he looked at her in the 2nd pic

fan25: wife him up immediately that man is whipped

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trevorzegras: as much as i want you to stay with me in la, i know you need to carry on being the incredible writer and human being you are. just know that you'll always be welcome to stay with me when you come back. i'm so unbelievably proud of my favourite person.

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fan26: just get married already

fan27: this is killing me

fan28: it's the way they look at each other it's sending me into cardiac arrest

fan29: she's just honestly breathtaking

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jhughes: i'm not saying anything

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trevorzegras: your favourite hooligans reunited and took NYC by storm

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fan30: THEY LOOK SO HAPPY

fan31: you can tell it's been a long 5 months for them both

jamie.drysdale: fucking finally

fan32: jamie's been through something there

fan33: please never keep them apart again

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ynofficial: fuck soft launches and all that jazz. this my man

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trevorzegras: i love my fans (a whole damn lot)

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ynofficial: smug bastard

jamie.drysdale: that's what i've been trying to tell you

[hayatoseyepatch]

You are literally so fucking amazing, Sam! I’m proud of you for not only reaching 500 followers, but also for being the spectacular, sweet, funny and kind person you are ❤️ I know you put in so much time and care into your writing and that’s evident in the quality you put out bb!

Pronouns: She/Her

Personality: I’m a relatively bubbly person! I love to make others laugh and enjoy laughing myself. I’m supportive of those I love and have been told I have the personality of a Kindergarten teacher from friends because I’m always pumping people up 🥲 I’m a cross between an introvert and an extrovert but lean more extrovert as I can strike up a conversation with anyone and don’t mind being personable/putting myself out there (I just NEED time to recharge my battery). I’m super sensitive to my emotions and the emotions of others around me; I feel best when those I love feel their best and will go through great lengths to make sure they have a smile on their face. If we’re being honest, I’m a chronic people pleaser (working on it!).

Hobbies: Horror Movies, Rock/Metal Concerts, Naps, Good Food, Finding the Joy in Things

Fandoms: Wind Breaker + Demon Slayer

Fave Tropes: “X Fell Hard, But Y Fell Harder” “Stuck in a Confined Space With Each Other” “All-Consuming Love 🤡🤡” Is the last one a trope? I’m saying that it is haha

What’s My Type: I feel like my type has changed so much especially since I’ve experienced so many new life events? But I think it all comes down to: strong personality, hero/justice oriented type, loud, strong (strength-wise). Looks matter to me in characters, sure, but the characters that have stuck with me are the characters with the loudest ideals, personalities and mouths (does this sound like me, Sam? It’s so hard to analyze yourself, you know?) Idk maybe conviction is sexy to me????

Favorites: looooool you know who my faves are but I never get tired of sharing: Haruka Sakura, Kyojuro Rengoku, Obanai Iguro. But I will NOT be upset if you don’t pair me with anyone from this list in fact I welcome whatever feels most right to YOU in matching, Sam 🫶

ICKS: God, yes. Fuck Akaza with my ENTIRE chest. Like I will CRY! I don’t mind anyone else otherwise.

Love you bb! You are KILLING it!

-Eevees-Hobbies

Here we are back on the Eevee makes Sam cry chronicles, thank you so much for your kind words I literally adore you more than anything. Funny thing, I was literally scrolling and did you know you were like my second-ever mutual when I made this blog back in June? I literally lucked out so hard fr and now you’re stuck with me for the rest of your days, funny how that works. Okay, I’m rambling, ilysm bb, onto your match up. You're a mutual who asked for two so that’s what you shall get baby!!

First I match you up with KYOJURO RENGOKU from Demon Slayer!

⤜♡→ Okay you knew this was coming, I knew this was coming, we all knew this was coming. I can't be here holding a match-up event and not pay tribute to my favorite married couple. You guys are SOULMATES in my eyes, and Rengoku’s too. If you looked up devotion in an encyclopedia there you both are.

⤜♡→ Rengoku had fallen for you from the first moment he saw you smile, from the instance that your melodic laughter met his ears for the very first time. He swore in that moment he would dedicate his life to keeping that smile on your face and your laughter in the air.

⤜♡→ Lets be honest here Rengoku is a gorgeous man, however, what made you fall for him was his conviction. He has such a noble heart and is always willing to help out anyone in need. His heart had its way of calling out to yours and I think you were both hopeless from the start.

⤜♡→ If you are also a demon slayer, I believe it took a while for you both to get together, the nature of the profession puts your lives in danger at every turn. He definitely confessed while you both were on a mission. The two of you were forced to hide from a demon the both of you aiming to gather intel and well making out in a closet kind of just took precedence, oops.

The both of you laid in the grass, breaths coming in uneven as dawn finally broke over the horizon. The fight you had both been engaged in was long and arduous, dark red staining your uniforms, but luckily nothing life-threatening. But the fear of losing you sets a jolt of panic through Rengoku’s heart. Despite the both of you fighting side by side countless times this was the first time he feared for your lives. He was quiet, collecting your form delicately into his strong arms. His face buried in the crook of your neck, inhaling your scent, taking it in as if it was his lifeline. The realization that this could have been the last time he held you like this, he lets it consume his senses. His heart raced in his chest holding you in a vice-like grip as his vision blurred, he didn’t know what he would ever do if he lost you, and the idea alone had him making up his mind in that instant.

He pulled from you, only enough so he could look into your eyes, the same eyes he found himself lost in every day, the same eyes he wanted to look into with love and adoration for the rest of his life. His hands moved to cup your cheeks, pulling you in to capture your lips with his own. He poured ever last ounce of love he could possibly fit into the embrace. When he finally brought himself to pull from the kiss his eyes were lit with a fiery conviction, the words falling from his mouth as if it were as easy as breathing. As if every word he had ever said never meant as much to him as the ones he was about to speak. “Marry me.”

He sees the shock light on your features from the sudden nature of his words, but they were anything but spontaneous. He had thought countess times about marrying you, having a life with you, starting a family. He takes your hands in his eyes burning into your own. “I love you more than anything in this life. I could have lost you tonight, I cannot live another moment without you as my wife. I will love you until the moment I draw my last breath, I will find you in every lifetime to make you mine again. Please, my love, give me the pleasure of being your husband. Let me spend the rest of my days by your side.” When he was looking at you like that with his words setting your heart ablaze, how could you possibly say no?

Second up I match you with ME just kidding I guess or whtever.. but no its HAYATO SUO from Wind Breaker!

⤜♡→ Okay, hoe, before you come at me with your pitchfork and say I’m just trying to start with you on my Suo bs again HEAR ME OUT! I really do think you two are more compatible than you think you are. As someone who likes to think she knows you just a wee bit from being up your ass everyday, I have an informed opinion.

⤜♡→ I think Suos care is often overlooked for the whole "mischievous cocky asshole” vibe, but he's so much more than that. We’re talking about the same man who took Nirei under his wing to teach him how to fight so he wouldn’t get hurt. The same man who protects him at every turn even if it leaves himself open. The man who went taint first kick to Endo for talking bad about Sakura. He is willing to do whatever it takes to protect those he cares about and would watch the world burn to keep you safe.

⤜♡→ CEO of shit-talking. I just imagine you both curled up in bed with one another, his fingers running up and down the column of your spine as he snorts at the way you were making fun of Tsugeura’s hair. The both of you constantly whispering to each other under your breaths while out and about not even trying to hide when you were talking about someone.

⤜♡→ I feel like you both get into so much mischief. Suo is more than aware of Sakura’s little crush on you and he is more than happy to tease him at every corner. Kissing you in front of him, pulling you into his lap, whispering the nastiest shit in your ear (conveniently forgetting he was in earshot). But he was a very generous man, he repays Sakura for all the teasing by letting him take a taste of you whenever he wants. Just because he’s such a good friend, yk?

⤜♡→ Come on babe, you're gonna look at me and say the sex isn’t on a whole other level? This man CRAVES you constantly. He will treat you like the most precious gem imaginable in the streets and take you home and fuck you like a whore. Aftercare is god tier though.

Suo hums, adjusting the water in the bath for the both of you, just how you like it. Adding in some Epsom salt to soothe your aching muscles from the strain put on them by such an intense session. Once the bath was drawn, he returns to the bedroom, eyes soft as he sees you lying against the sheets. Cupping your cheek as he presses a sweet kiss to your lips. “Come on my love let’s get you a nice warm bath to get you all cleaned up, then we can just lay in bed for the rest of the evening, how does that sound, hm?”

He collects you into his arms, carrying you to the bathroom, gently settling you both into the warm water. Careful not to let the water slosh around and get the floor wet. He pulls you against his chest arms settling around your midsection, holding you to him. His eyes closing in contentment as he enjoys the skin-to-skin contact he is receiving. Resting his nose into the crook of your neck, inhaling your scent and enjoying this moment with you. “You did so good for me, my sweet baby, now let me take care of you, yeah?” He was always so gentle after, hands soothing over your sore muscles, gently washing you in the bath. Kisses pressed to every inch of your skin as he worships your body. Confessions of love and adoration murmured into your skin.

Once you were thoroughly cleaned and feeling the depths of his affection he would drain the tub, not letting you lift a finger as he dried you off. Rubbing lotion into your skin in a comforting gesture before getting you dressed in your night clothes. After getting ready for bed himself he climbs into the mattress next to you, collecting you into his arms once more. He smiles softly as you snuggle into him, pressing his lips against your forehead as he watches your eyes droop. "Good night my love, you've most certainly earned your rest." Suo may be an actual demon when fucking you, but he would never allow you to question that you are his world. He never thought he was capable of loving someone like this, and he would do everything in his power to keep you by his side.

[01zfan]

That eunseok fic was top tier but whew idk if I’ll be able to read it again😭😭 at least not anytime soon 🥺 I’m sooooo sentimental and wear my heart on my sleeve fr so it makes my heart hurt so bad when people’s relationships don’t work out because of lack of emotional awareness or communication. Idk for me it’s just so easy for me to tell those I love that I love them and appreciate them and I hate being mad at my friends so I always try to bring up issues before I let resentment builds :( I know that it doesn’t come so naturally for others (honestly it wasn’t natural for me either at one point but as I get older I don’t mind being soggy and sentimental anymore bc I used to not have friends to be like that with so I guess I’m extra grateful now) but the reader having feelings but denying them to protect their peace makes my heart ache so bad 😭😭😭😭 I’ve been there too and it SAWKS. BUT even so I still REALLY liked this fic and there’s probably gonna be ppl asking for a part 2 but I kinda liked how it ended..like it was uncertain but it felt hopeful. In that universe I hope they are slowly able to find the right balance and pace to rekindle the connection that was probably always supposed to be. But seriously I really loved that fic and how it made me think about how relationships are so sososoooo complex but delicate and above all so sacred. Loving someone really is a choice you actively have to make in a relationship and I guess this fic reminded me of that type of sentiment. Sorry if all that was a TAD dramatic but idk that fic had me PONDERING man 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

no i get you completely. as someone who used to be really secretive with my emotions into a professional yearner and absolute sap and helpless romantic writing this fic hurt me SAURRRR BAD.

i really like how you bring up protecting their peace because that's really what i wanted their relationship to come across as. like of course they love eachother, and of course there will always be the innate part of them that wants a happy nuclear family and a relationship but i think they both know that it is unattainable with their personalities. they also both know they're better apart, despite them wanting the exact opposite. they probably would've never kept in contact if it wasn't for their daughter.

i think the two are delusional for eachother in a way too, like in the beginning how she magically appears in front of eunseok's place and eunseok saying he was made for her. i thought that part was really ironic because they're both very practical when it comes to other things in life and they try to be practical about their breakup meanwhile they are thinking about fate and soulmates whenever they are together. having someone that knows your in and outs definitely will make you a little delusional, especially if you can't be with them.

i really loved writing this couple though. there was a comment on the post about how fucked up they are but they still love eachother and i think that sums them up perfectly lmfao. like they are so real to me and i understand people wanting another part but ya know this is only one night of their long history together and even they're not sure if they could handle trying to mend it. that's what i really like about them too is that they are both so practical they almost know they aren't supposed to be together and in turn it makes them having sex so intimate and tender (despite her futile efforts to make it emotionless).

thank you so much for getting dramatic because i love being dramatic too if i haven't made myself clear. thank you for reading and really feeling the story too i appreciate that so much!

[jinkicake]

Adding back to my “Lilith died so Lucifer could get laid” theory. I read a fic years ago about Lilith meeting mc and mc wants to fight God (understandable) and Lilith isn’t mad she’s calm asf just happy to finally meet her and she’s like???? “Aren’t you pissed??? You literally died just to come back up to the celestial realm” And Lilith is holding back a laugh like “mc, beloved if I had ent died and the war never happened where would you be?” And she’s like 😀🙂 oh okay. Like damn,,,, we would have never gotten to meet them! And Satan wouldn’t exist🥲 like that’s so said to think and IK the brothers don’t want to hear that. So imagine like idk how marrying 7 people at once would go but it’s your wedding or some type of “we swear to be together for eternity” ceremony and it’s all fun and cool even some of the angels who were against them are there bc like CANNOT keep his mouth shut about his fav big sibling getting married and Michael was like oh it gotta be here for the drama👀 maybe diavolo would walk mc down the isle but like lmao he’s apart of my harem too💀 might have to wake his dad up for that one. Or they walk to us and Lucifer is the last to go for he feels this overwhelming familiar presence and freezes and god has to give a speech bc lmao he does what he wants CLEARLY. The brothers feel every emotion at once, sadness, fear, rage and confusion they don’t even know what to do as they were stunned into silence and diavolo is like 😅what do you need?? And he starts some long speech about how they’re still his kids and Lucifer was his favorite before he drops the bomb that he sacrificed Lilith so mc could be born bc their his soulmate💀 bc if mr all seeing eye can know the past present and future why ain’t he do something before?? Why did he let that human being born?? He sat back and watched lmao and Michael helped!! So he’s like “yeaaaaaahh remember when I told you you need to loosen up and get laid?,,,, we’ll nobody was good enough for you so I had to make your soulmate from hand🥰” and literally people are about to pass out bc HUH??? PEOPLE DIED MAN!! Michael is like “no yeah can confirm I thought it was crazy too when he first told me” Lilith is a lil salty bc she wasn’t in on it but 🤷🏿‍♂️ she took one for the team. Imagine belphie bc he’s always the quickest to anger when it comes to this flips his shit and is like?? What the FUCK is wrong with you so you know how much suffering you put us through??? And Michael pipes up and is like “are you mad when you’re getting your dick wet??? Okay then relax” Aiken can’t even be like “what an odd turn of events” bc they can get his ass too “yeah we sent you to this exchange program for a reason lmao. No offense but you are NOT my strongest soldier. Pussy had you in your knees more than prayer ik that was a set up.”😭😭so before he’s like yeah so mc was MY gift to you, uh your welcome! Bc it was FR only for Lucifer but he might have added a lil too much charisma, and when he gives his well wishes he sends a shit eating grin and a wink over to diavolo and makes a comment on how well his plan to unify the realms is coming along and he hopes to be In attendance for his wedding and he’s like “excuse me???” Barbatos can’t even see wtf he’s talking about😭 but like since Lilith wasn’t an angel or demon when she fell she was like a mix of both and mc is a human if they had a kid it would be all three🤭 rip tho bc they’re all gunna be way more possessive when they fuck you I fear. Now when they say shit like “you’re taking it so well like you were made for me” THEY REALLY MEAN IT Lucifer gets a little rush of serotonin when he sees you on your knees for him and he is reminded that it’s all for him, and nobody can stop him from destroying your insides come morning, Belphegor who would get hitter over remembering watching Lilith perish before his eyes looming at it in a new light and taking it out on you. “Aren’t you gunna take responsibility for all the trouble you’ve me? The time spent in the attic” when he’s making your brain liquid

omg this makes me wonder who the demons would choose... mc or lilith like i know they would pick mc but also... would they?

no but like what if michael did all that and then mc chose to be with like barbatos or simeon HAHAH for me they would win five times out of seven.... the only people im NOT choosing over them is luci and mammon...

[barbiegirldream]

Pictured Summer Price a 4th generation witch falling in love with her soulmate Romeo Romero moments before he turns into a werewolf (the sims game did the name and werewolf stuff itself he's an MCcc progression baby).

Summer and Romeo dancing at their prom she was prom queen. Their after prom amusement park date like some people were not prepared and that person was Romeo.

Romeo practicing howling with his first born with Summer, Mercutio

Summer and Romeo getting married at the farm of Summer's grandparents. So silly can't take them anywhere

They got six kids now and still autonomously do interactions like affection and dancing. Ughhh ignore the annoying lines that appear on immortal witches btw (Summer's grandfather made an immortality potion and then duplicated it a bunch spellcasters are sooo broken)

Summer posing with her 5th child Benvolio who just won prom king tonight. No picture for her 4th son Tybalt (the twins) who won Class Jester at the same time. They should fr be swapped Benvolio is a trouble maker werewolf and Tybalt was a nerdy witch and they Hate each other. Can't overstate how on sight it is for the twins

Summer hitting the pop and luck with her first born daughter/witch and second child Verona. (Peep the ghost that is Summer's 5x great grandpa)

Here is Summer and Romeo's 3rd child and 2nd daughter/werewolf Rosaline suffering a terrible werewolf glitch. Not pictured well but that moon necklace she's wearing all the wolves in her family wear them.

I don't have one screenie of their 6th child Juliet um... Juliet is a werewolf too. So here is Summer and Romeo in love where the first kiss animation repeated while Summer kissed Romeo werewolf form idk something beautiful in broken supernatural animations.

Wait ! I found one of Juliet sleeping back to back with Benvolio in the yard wolves loveee doing that. They did this on their own btw no way I could get them to ever do something this cute on purpose

I really actually don't have a screenie of their 7th and LAST you two child but here is Summer pregnant with her familiar out. Montegue is his name he is Also a werewolf. They had this baby without my say so because I forgot about the sims new built in story progression and didn't turn it off for their house. The pink haired woman in the corner is Nori, Benvolio's... situationship

So it was Mercutio, Verona, Rosaline, Tybalt and Benvolio, Juliet, Montegue. They have a ratio of 4:3 boys to girls and 5:2 werewolf to witch tough break on Summer's genes. And I should say for 11 generations Summer's family had black hair then her mama gets with one red haired man and suddenly the family gives up.

Summer and Romeo gonna be down bad for each other for the rest of eternity !

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[ 1 ] Chihayafuru Parallels: Blushing and Hakamas

Welcome to my first Chihayafuru analysis essay? Think piece? Dellusional rant? Idk you decide what this is lmao.

It’s actually wild to think wild that in such a short amount of time (I started watching the anime first in December of 2021?) that this story has literally been on my mind almost 24/7. Chihayafuru started out really good and I was enjoying myself a lot but what actually was the moment that I “cracked” and switched from passive watcher to obsessive fan was Taichi’s infamous “spoon scene”.

The single image that launched a thousand ships.

All Taichihaya fans know this scene like the back of our hand. It is ingrained in our collective subconscious. Pretty sure, when the fandom were all listing our favourite moments, this made it onto everyone’s list. When I die, this scene will be the last thing I think of. When I go to the pearly gates I will ask for just one moment to think of it before I go down to heck. Yeah it’s something.

Y’all boring b*tches who think this is cringe don’t know how to live vicariously through media. B/c yeah if I man did this to me irl sure I’d be grossed out but here I’m like Chihaya is the world’s strongest solider b/c I would have folded immediately.

Anyways, there is something so poignant about this scene. Let’s look back on my initial tweets and see some of my completely normal thoughts I had on my first watch through:

Things of note: I predicted my own downfall and also it’s so funny that I forgot Arata’s name and also felt no need to look it up kjcdjkcajkadk

There is something inherently… spicy (it is spicy but in an intimate kind of way) about the way that Taichi and Chihaya simply stare into each other’s eyes after he pulls his sneaky little “indirect kissing” (a shoujo staple) stunt. However immediately afterwards Taichi shows her the text message and we see… Well we see what kind of thing get’s Chihaya’s eyes sparkling and her cheeks flushed. An indirect birthday message from the glasses guy. The bar is in hell people. Is Chihaya in love with one and completely indifferent to the other? It’s left kind of ambiguous… Though clearly as a viewer we are meant to believe that she likes Arata more based on Chihaya’s visceral reaction vs. THE EMPTY LOOK OF VAGUE CONFUSION SHE GAVE TAICHI. Taichi rip lil buddy but you’re firmly in the Karuta zone.

However thinking a bit deeper it’s actually funny because even Arata’s birthday message is framed as something Taichi “gives” to Chihaya (again we never fking know how Arata had Taichi’s number and not Chihaya’s but I digress). If he was truly a careless jealous shit (which he definitely is at times) he would have just closed his damn phone and said anyways weird Arata didn’t call for your birthday wonder why? I even planned you a big birthday bash and paid for him to attend but he never came… lol. But no, Taichi’s built different. He still shows her the message because he knows how much it means to her that Arata still cares (cares enough to text Taichi anyways lol). Taichi must have expected Chihaya to react like she had just received a message from her dead soulmate… but he still did it. I like in the anime where afterwards Taichi just kinda… Turns away and stares at the river pensively thinking to himself “maybe I should just jump”.

He just like me fr

Anyways I brought up this whole scene because I think it is the pinnacle of the Taichihaya Chiharata debate: If Chihaya was in love with Taichi, why are the sparkle eyes and blushes for Arata? If she FELL IN LOVE WITH TAICHI LATER, why did Chihaya never develop sparkle eye blush syndrome for Taichi? Well friends I have some thoughts!! (You should know, I always have a lot of them).

The thing about Suetsugu’s writing is she fking loves parallels. We as a viewer are meant to compare and contrast Taichi’s and Arata’s relationships with Chihaya. You were never supposed to just see one and say “OH SO SHE LIKES HIM.. DONE!!”… Though some did (rip fallen Chiharata comrades). Though I was confident what I saw in Taichi and Chihaya’s relationship was love, I was never arrogant enough to say that the crush (and yes it was a crush) Chihaya had for Arata couldn’t stick through to the end.

But at the same time to quote @miss-coverly (who is a Kyoru lover like me and has impeccable taste)

IN WHAT WORLD IS IT UNREASONABLE OR WEIRD FOR A TEENAGE GIRL TO NOT STAY IN LOVE WITH THE SAME PERSON THAT SHE LIKED AT 16 FOREVERJDJDJDJJS

Not saying it doesn’t or couldn’t happen… just… it is rare people. We change so much in our formative high school years and what we want out of a relationship changes too. Like you never stopped to think that maybe maybe it would amount to nothing more than what it was at the start? All the Chiharata fans waited so patiently for an epic conclusion that just never came and ik it feels bad man. Some wanted a time-skip to give them the development the sparkle eyes had promised. TBH I emphasize with their pain, I really do. I’d be feeling like dirt if all of Taichi and Chihaya’s relationship development ended in an epic high-five. But, I never had to wish for a hug because Taichi and Chihaya had plenty ;) KDJNJKDSANKDJDKJSA I NEED TO BE STOPPED B/C PEOPLE ARE STILL IN MOURNING BUT I CAN’T.

Anyways back to the topic at hand. I do try to keep an open mind to what the Chiharata fans saw in their relationship that made them think that it would be love. One moment that got mentioned a lot was the two times where Arata compliments Chihaya’s Hakama. Interestingly enough, both these Chiharata moments serve as a parallel to show how Chihaya and Arata’s relationship hasn’t really progressed from the start of the manga and to the end. However, the craziest thing is there is even a Taichihaya parallel. Was it Taichi commenting on Chihaya in a Hakama? No. Just wait friends… It’s such a blink and you’ll miss it moment but the fact it happens in between these two Chiharata moments is VERY INTERESTING VERY INTERESTING INDEED.

[ 1 ] Chiharata Hakama Compliment - The Blushing Karuta Bakas

Chapter 98

Before I get into it, let’s set up the context of this moment. It’s now the Yoshino Tournament one of the few times where people are organized into ranks and not by gender so finally our trio can be forced to play against each other in official matches. Of course Taichi and Chihaya show up looking fly in their Hakamas even though they really didn’t need to. That’s when Chihaya by runs into Arata by chance in the hallway before the matches start…

I WILL NEVER BE OVER HER EXPRESSION HERE SHE’S LIKE DID Y’ALL SAY SOMETHIN

She couldn’t quite make out what Arata said (and to be honest who knows what he really said under his breath). But she puts him on the spot to repeat what he said about her. It’s also funny because Chihaya in her competitive Karuta nature believes that he might be badmouthing her as her opponent LMAO. Again because individual matches are team matches and her and Arata are not on the same team. It also shows how Karuta focused Chihaya is that her CRUSH might be badmouthing her under his breath… LMAO.

When put on the spot Arata admits, while blushing a deep crimson and looking away, that he was saying how her Hakama’s pretty.

It’s honestly a cute moment! Arata is very shy softie whispering his feelings to himself… He wasn’t even going to tell her. Nor can he can’t say directly that he thinks Chihaya is attractive (even though we as the audience know he does we saw him ogling and imagining her in a bikini earlier) so he settles on complimenting her Hakama. Essentially saying (indirectly) “you look pretty today Chihaya”.

Now let’s look at Chihaya’s reaction?

Chihaya looks at him wide-eyed mouth agape with a blush on her face then she scrumples her face and blinks hard so she can regain her focus.

She quickly bottles up whatever emotions she felt for Arata’s compliment because what comes first and foremost is Karuta. She cannot be distracted by cutesy compliments from that little shy boy in the glasses she has a tournaments to win. SEE YA LATER WHEN I MOP THE FLOOR WITH YOU IN THIS HAKAMA.

Now I actually think this moment reveals a bit more than just wow Chihaya is so much in love with Arata and they are flirting. In Yoshino the Hakama is actually a very important to Chihaya (she told him that directly afterwards). When she wins the whole tournament she clutches her Hakama in her hands and said that he one desire was to win while wearing it. The Hakama is essentially Chihaya’s “battle armour”. So while we as the audience can see what Arata was doing… I don’t necessarily Chihaya understood. She thought to herself wow the guy I like complimented my Hakama!

The next time Arata compliments Chihaya’s Hakama happens much much later and we can see how much of their dynamic stays the same / changes.

[ 2 ] Chiharata Hakama Compliment - Thanks my Sister brought it for Me!

Chapter 221

So now we’re nearly at the end of the manga and during the Meijin and Queen matches. Chihaya has finally received the Hakama that Chitose raced all night to get to her. Arata sees her sitting down in front of the cards and just looks at her… It’s pretty evident by the way that he looks at her that he’s still carrying some feelings for her.

He’s still got the shoujo eye sparkle syndrome

But while he points at Chihaya she just kind of sits there wide eyed as he blushes to try and get the words out to tell her how he feels.

:( I feel kinda bad for Arata… Like before, he is still unable to pay Chihaya a simple and direct compliment. We know that’s not what he really wanted to say as he laments it directly afterwards.

Instead he opted to mention that her Kimono’s different… It almost feels like even more of a downgrade from his first indirect compliment. Different doesn’t necessarily even mean pretty rip. BUT let’s see how Chihaya reacted?!

NOOO SHE’S BLUSHING AGAIN!! DRAT, I HAVE BEEN DEFEATED EVERYONE WAS RIGHT SHE IS STILL IN LOVE WITH ARATA… Except not really. I think unlike before where she was caught completely off guard by Arata’s comment on her Hakama, she now had an inclining of what might be coming when he was looking at her that way (hence her wide eyes). When she realized that he was just commenting on how her Hakama was different, she was happy! She’s like yes that’s right it is new and it’s because my sister brought it for me. Just like before the Hakama that Chihaya wears is very important. It has also been used to represent the support that people have given you (think of Ooe’s comments to Taichi). This Hakama is probably the most special one Chihaya has ever worn because the person who brought it for Chihaya was Chitose… She put Chihaya’s ambition above her own :(

When you look at these two moments the little progress Chihaya and Arata have made in their relationship becomes really apparent. Arata while he was bold and was the first one to confess that he was in love, has kept most of his feelings towards Chihaya deep down inside. Maybe Arata was a coward at least when it came to love because when Taichi confessed he held nothing back he was like “I love your smile, your hair, your laugh, your gimp toe, I love when you droll a bit when you take notes in class and the way you thought the River Thames was in France”. But in instances of love, vulnerability is an important foundation. Taichi’s confession (at least at the time) epically backfired and then he was left completely empty. So perhaps Arata was keeping more of his feelings close to his heart was in a way to protect himself since he always thought he would lose to Taichi… There’s also the problem that Arata simply doesn’t know Chihaya as well as Taichi to make such a grandiose statement about her. Or that he doesn’t know the words to say it. Maybe I relate to Arata more than I thought b/c same dude same. The other thing is you should look at the page layout. Now the Chiharata fans might want my neck for this but… What I am saying makes sense. When Arata was looking at Chihaya without her noticing the page was white and airy. When Chihaya noticed him staring the page was the page was black. It’s a purposeful shift.

I almost think at this point Chihaya didn’t want to receive a compliment about her Hakama from him even though her heart used to flutter by it. That’s why I believe that the blush was also partially relief. Oh, he just noticed that it’s different! Thanks buddy o’ pal. Again I feel like people might not agree with me here but you do you lil rockstar you do you. It sucks because we really only know Arata’s feelings we don’t know Chihaya’s so we have to read between the lines a lot.

Looking back I can sorta understand why Chiharata fans felt hopeful by this. The panel where Arata mentions he had more to say it almost looks like there’s autumn leaves in the background. Y’know that “red passion” they always talked about. However, it’s a clever misdirect. It’s supposed to be ambiguous to the end. Maybe Arata’s passion for her would have swayed her had he only had the courage to do it. But… He never did. Similarly nobody really thought about what Chihaya’s reaction must meant. The assumption that Chihaya’s feelings remained the same throughout was all of our downfalls.

But anyways moving on:

[ 3 ] Taichihaya Hakama Moment - Why does Chihaya have to Come?

Chapter 193

So sandwiched in between these moments is an interesting moment with Chihaya that was very much overlooked (not by me though I was reading with a firm Taichihaya bias LMAO). In this scene it is right before the qualifier matches and Taichi has to go on his own to get a new Hakama. Now, of course he gathers the MIZUSAWA besties to come but then Kanade (our Taichihaya solider in the trenches till the bitter end) suggests that maybe Chihaya should come too!

Taichi blushing over the fact he doesn’t want to go Hakama shopping alone… he is baby you have done nothing wrong ever

Taichi asks why Chihaya needs to come and Chihaya just looks at him surprised pikachu face with a slight blush on her face.

But quick can we also just talk about the way that Taichi and Chihaya look at each other. I SIMPLY CANNOT DESCRIBE IT BUT IT JUST HITS. Taichi looks vaguely disappointed that she’s actually not coming… Even after he just complained about it moments ago. Dkjsnajkdnks YOU TWO WERE NEARLY THE DEATH OF ME I HOPE YOU KNOW.

She rejects the proposition because of course Karuta must come first but that doesn’t mean that she didn’t want to go… In fact she REALLY wanted to go actually. Suetsugu wanted the audience to see that Chihaya really was putting up a front in this moment.

It isn’t until Komano conveniently “forgets to tell Chihaya something” that we realize that Chihaya (when nobody could see her) was blushing hard… It wasn’t a blush that she could blink away either. She is lamenting twirling feelings around in her head and getting upset. What is she thinking about? The fact she won’t be there to support Taichi? The fact Taichi didn’t want her there? A missed Mizusawa hangout? The thought of Taichi wearing a new Hakama? Taichi getting fitted? It’s left ambiguous. But what’s not ambiguous is that it all revolves all around Taichi.

The way Chihaya just looks back at him in frustration as they each go their own way. Connected only by the fact they are both working to prepare for the qualifiers. Taichi probably seemed rather indifferent to Chihaya being someone to support him and that probably frustrated her. That’s why Komano (after seeing this and so many other instances) was like Chihaya if you don’t tell this mf how you feel about him it really will be the end for you.

Is it a direct parallel to the Chiharata? No. It’s not like Chihaya complimented Taichi’s Hakama. She was too busy having a breakdown over his haircut.

Me when my bestie gets a terrible new haircut and I hate it. Now I know why Chihaya waited to confess.

How interesting: Chihaya blushes at Arata’s feelings (that he is attracted to her) but the feelings she has about wanting to be near to Taichi makes herself blush uncontrollably. It’s almost like… It was purposeful somehow. If this made sense, great! If you disagree, good for you. However, I am a human and sometimes I make mistakes especially because this manga is fairly new so if I missed anything feel free to jump into the asks or if you want to add your own thoughts I’d love to hear them. THANKS FOR READING!! Charles out-y

[jostenthusiast]

Currently very sad about Andreil …. do I know why? absolutely not. But I was wondering if you’d share the top things that make you ship andriel?

man sometimes andreil just makes me cry i get it. i’m bad at words but i’ll try my best <3

probably how different they are from other relationships i’ve read?? like all those “imagine your otp” posts can’t apply to andreil and i LOVE it. andreil doesn’t fall into those “sun and moon” or “red and blue” type characters. they have their own thing which is what makes them so interesting. their “i love you” is saying i hate you, their flirting is straight up insulting one another. they’re just so unique i never get bored of reading them falling in love over and over again

how freaking compatible they are!!!!! it’s insane they can just look at each other and know what the other is thinking. they communicate without speaking they just know each other so well. SOULMATES FR. they’re also so alike in so many ways. they have the same dry sarcastic sense of humour and they’re both such instigators. andrew is forever amused by neil starting fights and letting his mouth get him into trouble, and neil doubles over laughing when andrew makes a stupid joke completely blank faced. theyre both fucking assholes with wack ass moral compasses, and they just GET each other. they’re made for each other. can you tell soulmates is my favourite trope

their TRUST. another thing i love about the series is how slow burn the romance is. insta-love is my least favourite trope, so they more agonizingly slow burn it is the better. they had to build up trust even to become sort of friends. trust is the base of their relationship. they tell each other secrets that no one else knows, and they know the other will keep them safe.

this kinda adds on to the compatibility thing, but just the deep understanding they have for one another. they both have lived horrible lives but andrew sees himself in neil in tfc, he sees the crippling loneliness, the desperation, the borderline hopelessness. they both know what it’s like to be truly alone, to be on the verge of breaking. it’s one of the reasons why they are so compatible. they become each other’s home and i just dhshshdjakskshdhs

chaos bringers. they are the ultimate trouble making duo. power couple. could and will definitely kick your ass if you look at them wrong.

i cant believe i almost forgot this but the RESPECT they have for each other. yeah yeah this may be the bare minimum but people don’t talk about it enough. they respect each other’s boundaries, even from the beginning. once neil realizes andrew doesn’t like to be touched he doesn’t touch him!!! like ever!!!!! and andrew completely takes neil’s word when he says he doesn’t swing!!!!!!!! if either of them ever said no to something they would respect that. they don’t push each other past their comfort zones and that’s very unique in most romances i’ve read.

andreil as cats. they’re just. cats but human. i mean look at this it’s literally them!!!!! idk why it’s so fun but it is

uhhh that’s all i have in my brain for now but hdhshhsshhs andreil is so good man. they’re just the best. i love them a lot

[espritmuse]

And a long pretty driveway with lots of flowers and a man made pond so we can have a little bridge go over it and koi fish 🥺🥺

I have a black and white cat named Wolf, he looks like he’s wearing a tuxedo and he’s very fluffy and HUGE. I want big dogs too!! My favorite breeds are Dobermans and Great Danes.

Seriously we are soulmates, I have so many notebooks too and they are all covered in stickers and stationeries are just so cute how can you not buy them!? Also don’t worry babes I’ll teach ya all about crystals. I currently live in the United States but I’m from Australia 😊 -💍

Not the fluffy cat in a tuxedo😫😫😫💞 AND THOSE ARE MY FAV BREEDS TOO AHHDSJ THEYRE SO BIG AND CUTE AND AND AND !!! big dogs supremacy for real <3 especially dobermans omg they just look so elegant??? Idk ajjwjwjs

Literally, my notebooks are filled with random stickers I bought years ago, receipts, tickets from museums and aquariums…. They make me so happy, especially when I look back a it years later 🥺 journaling is fr my favourite thing EVER !!!

What are ur other passions ?!! Tell me <33 mines are reading and writing !!! I like playing video games too!! Anything that can keep my brain entertained basically….

[k-l-a-n-c-e-a-c-a-d-e-m-y]

okay whatever 🍓 go crazy

“Go crazy” don’t mind if I go stupid as well 😈.. JAMESSSSS FUXKING GLOMPS U ... kisses u on the lips and headbutts u so hard:::: jamejamejnsmwjsmns...... so ofc I have to start off by saying I love you bc u said it to me and I’m going to say that u said it first 🥺 jamelta fans how do we feel knowing James fell in love first 😈😈 OKAY OKAY BUT FR... u know I love you so totally and completely and we really are best friends... u are the perfect combo of everything I love and I’m the perfect everything so it’s why we vibe so hard.... but ok we are soulmates actually and I think I’m destined to annoy you for the rest of time.... I don’t rlly know how we like met met? Like i know YOUVE been mutuals with NEFF for a long time (samflam rights!) and the earliest interaction I remember is you making that “we irritating” nyarustones meme that made me lose my mind like that’s when I was like “omg he’s a funny guy....” I genuinely love and hate how funny you are like ... ur FUNNY.... the DTC?? Literally had me crying and when u made that server abt me?? I was on the FLOOR I cannot believe u rounded up all my mutuals and was just like “hey guys 😈” and like tht whole hour of us just being in the server for the first time I don’t think I’ve ever laughed that hard.... omg omg one of my fav things to do EVER is like bond with u.... like when we bonded over hating the twin AU ... or liking mangoes....... like idk idk I like making u happy ;-; like making u happy (and also Jonah) is legit my prime driving force for reading ALL of Naruto cause I love like seeing what u have to say in response to me losing my mind over it like.. Man U live like this..? I also love how like our interactions are infamous where like ur mutuals I’ve never spoken to know me... like that power:... wow.... and eventually ur mutuals become mine and so like bc of u I’m making more friends and 🥺🥺 holds ur hand so hard on my Lilypad..... ur also very very smart like way smarter than me and I know that’s not saying a lot but ur incredibly intelligent and I love like how u comprehend media like I have no idea STULL what A.A. is abt or dgs but I still look forward to reading ur posts on it bc ur one of the only people I trust on this site.... omg omg also I’m 99.9% sure u were the forst person I turned post notifs on bc yeah I HAD to know whenever u posted abt me (duh I love delta posts 🙄) but also I’m just looking forward to anything u have to say.... I value ur opinion highly ... *closes my eyes and looks away so fast* also I think ur the first person that turned post notifs on for me/.: I do appreciate that u like ALL my posts bc I’m comforted that like no matter what u HEAR ME... wven if it’s just me meowing for attention again.... but yes yes that one time we were all in a VC was so fun and we ahould rlly do it again... I wanna get us all together and play AU or like things like that bc ur so fun to be around grrrrr .... I’ve been diagnosed with love James disease and my symptoms are showing so mf bad!!!! Like I always like joke and stuff abt asking for kisses and stuff but I want u to know I value you and ur time so much;;;; we are best friends!!! And yes my fam also know abt u (they esp know that ur the one making me read Naruto) esp my like IRL friend ... she thinks we’re crazy obsessed with each other and yeah maybe we are keep scrolling 😑 also I have a tag for u that I sometimes go thru just when I need a smile >u< u like esp helped me come outta my shell on here so to speak... like I’ve been here since like 2012?? And I rarely if ever interacted with my mutuals... but like you and me we basically “talk” everyday and so like BASICALLY.... u gave me the confidence to be sooooo annoying on main 😈 like now? I reply to like all of my mutuals posts even when it’s smth like “I saw a dog today” I’m like MUST ACKNOWLEDGE..... and ur like the same way so we like have that together yanno.... also my fav thing to do ever is annoy u it’s so fun..... every time I act out... it’s for u personally ❤️❤️ I ALSO THINK ITS SO FUNNY THAT UR LITERALLY LIKE A TSUNDERE ITS SOOO

[phanchester]

For the positive asks!! ❤️😊📖📺💕😍🎶🎙️(That's a lot sorry you can ignore some of them if you want akksksk hah)

don’t worry, i love answering asks. if i missed any please tell me i am very careless and probably forgot to answer lol)

😊: what are some things you do to cheer yourself up when you’re having a rough day?

well, i guess it depends on what i’m feeling like. a lot of the time i watch dan and phil and sanders sides while curled up in bed wearing two hoodies. sometimes i get myself a plate of biscuits, because i am kind of addicted to those things. i try to do things which involve very little brain power so i can just sit and relax and calm my nerves. that also means i try to not go on any social media so i can just relax. i also sometimes sit and reread a book while listening to some calming music or i watch a musical bootleg on youtube.

 📖: what’s a book/series you could read over and over again?

this is super cliche, but i could reread harry potter over and over again and i would never get bored of it. yes, i may hate jk rowling’s guts and yes, i may have read books with much better writing techniques and a much better story, but i have to give it to her. the world she creates with harry potter? marvelous. beautiful. a classic i could reread a thousand times and never get bored of it. i also love rereading a series of unfortunate events because it honestly is such a brilliant series with a such a unique vibe. i am also guilty of rereading friday barnes wayy too many times. friday barnes is basically a book aimed to a demographic who is a lot younger than me but it’s still so funny and it flows together in a wonderful manner. 

 📺: what’s your comfort TV show/movie that you watch to feel happy?

look, okay. i hate voltron. i absolutely despise voltron because of how they dealt with klance and how season eight turned out but the earlier seasons? so so good and so so rewatchable. i also love doctor who to an unhealthy degree. i think i’ve rewatch season two of new who about a thousand times - and yes, i cry every single time i watch those last two episodes. 

 💕: what’s something you love about yourself?

idk man i like singing i guess lol

 😍: what’s a trait you admire in other people?

ngl, i envy other people’s happiness and strong will to live. i also admire people’s obliviousness to the terrible things happening in the world around them. sure, they may be hit with the harsh and cruel reality when they grow older and they may internally collapse with grief, but as dancing through life from wicked says - “life’s more painless for the brainless”.

 🎶: name a song that reminds you of a happy time, or of someone you love.

for this, i’m just going to list a bunch of songs without context and see what people think.

history maker - dean fujioka

bohemian rhapsody - queen

the schuyler sisters - hamilton: an american musical

biggest blame fool - seussical the musical

doctor who theme tune - murray gold

hedwig’s theme - john williams

what is this feeling - wicked

circle of life - carmen twillie and lebo m.

take me home, country roads - john denver

naughty - matilda the musical

 🎙️: what’s your favourite song to sing along to?

again, going to list a bunch of songs.

the entirety of the death of a bachelor (especially emperor’s new clothes, death of a bachelor, crazy = genius, the good, the bad and the dirty and house of memories)

okay fine basically anything by beebo (especially say amen (saturday night), hey look ma i made it, high hopes, this is gospel, girls/girls/boys, i write sins not tragedies, lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off, northern downpour, nine in the afternoon and the ballad of mona lisa but like any of them)

any heathers song (especially beautiful, candy store, the me inside of me, seventeen, lifeboat, shine a light (reprise) and meant to be yours)

any hamilton song (especially alexander hamilton, aaron burr, sir, my shot, the schuyler sisters, you’ll be back, helpless, satisfied, wait for it, guns and ships and washington on your side)

sincerely, me - dear evan hansen

any mcr song (especially helena, i’m not okay, welcome to the black parade, i don’t love you, cancer, mama and na na na)

any fob song (especially centuries, immortals, my songs know what you did in the dark, sugar, we’re going down, the phoenix, thnks fr th mmrs, this ain’t a scene, it’s an arm race, the kids aren’t alright, just one yesterday, uma thurman, what a catch, donnie, golden and the last of the real ones)

any dodie song (especially would you be so kind, human, sick of losing soulmates, she, in the middle, an awkward duet, dear happy and secret for the mad)

any jon cozart song (especially youtube culture, harry potter in 99 seconds, tourist and after ever after 1, 2 and 3)

sweet dreams (are made of this) - eurythmics 

take on me - a-ha

toxic - britney spears

bohemian rhapsody - queen

sorry that was a lot i just like a lot of songs and have a lot of feelings. thank you @uwillneverknowwho for asking these questions, it was a lot of fun and i really enjoyed it.

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[changji]

Here we go I’m finally continuing our convo from like,, last week LOL but anyway 4-5k for an apartment I’m HOLLERING (yes i did it so you’d laugh) I’ve never lived in an apartment before but I’m pretty sure that’s really expensive for one sksks. Also personal chromebooks? My school literally can’t relate we share them with the rest of the students in the school. Tbh I don’t remember much from twilight so I’ll agree w you so that we don’t fight 🥺🥺

I normally go ham when I’m in a pool,, like I’ll start off w my hair up bc I don’t wanna get it wet but when I leave the pool everywhere is soaked. I haven’t played chicken in years?? Oml last time I played I was on my cousins shoulders and I was Puny. Haha most ppl are like “it can’t be that cold here right” and I’m “oh no it gets COLD” which I hate (but it’s colder in the territories so I’m thankful for where I’m at)

I’d rather it be hotter than colder bc at least there’s ac. I mean there’s heat but at least I can still walk outside without snow and ice everywhere. Don’t even get me started on freezing rain and winter tires and shovelling snow and OEUFIHD as you can see I hate the winter here. Tim hortons is so good I literally inhale iced capps 24/7. They’re pretty much blended frozen coffee but it tastes a lot better than it sounds!! I like to think of it as the Canadian pride and joy

I’ve actually never had timmies canned coffee… i’ve had the keurig pods things but they don’t taste as good as getting them from an actual timmies. But hey you never know maybe we will drink from ice bergs one day LOL. I’ll never back out from being your soulmate we’re literally meant To Be 😤😤 iced blonde vanilla lattes are so Good I’d probably inhale them as much as I do with iced capps if they weren’t so expensive

I didn’t even know that milk was a good portion of the drink,, when I saw a starbucks barista fill my cup with 80% milk I was like “hold up what” Your smoothies must be really good if your family specifically wake you up so that you can make them some hhh baker arella? More like smoothie expert arella. i usually make smoothies with whatever works and is in my fridge, but mango will always have my heart

People who eat pancakes plain should be banned from the world that’s disgusting,, you’re literally eating cooked flour,,,,,, I actually haven’t had waffles in 4 years oopsFrench is a mandatory course in grade 9 where I live but then after that you can choose if you wanna continue it or not. ASL classes seem so cool, I would totally take it if it were an option here. German & Japanese seem so hard; I look at the words and here ppl speaking it and I’m like ??? woah okay what’s happening

I’m terrible at English too, but then again I suck at every language? Is that even possible?? Jisung’s literally talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular skskdkf I am a Chan stan but Jisung wrecks me SO hard I can’t with this man. Pls don’t hurt my head too much with the fic I only have one braincell left bit ilyt 🥺 now I wanna try peet’s but I’m probably not going to the US for a hot minute 😔😔

(AJSDHJF I HIT THE LIMIT OF ASKS IM CRYINF) I saw what happened with ur Jisung drawing and I feel your frustration?? I was drawing a photo for an English presentation on photoshop and instead of closing my reference photo tab I closed the drawing (and i didn’t save it beforehand) so I lost the entire thing. Just thinking about it again makes me So Mad like,, how dumb can I be I literally can’t believe I did that!!

School sucks the life outta me I’m dreading going back and school starts in a little over a month? Fav vampire fic PLS I’m honoured. We fr out here as coffee soulmates look at us go 🤧👊

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it’s so expensive like. whomst. I LOVE IT WHEN PPL SAY HOLLERING ITS SO FUNNY (ur so cute ily). living in an apartment is just Constant Stress esp bc i always accidentally slam a door open and make a hole in the wall and we have to pay but like i never learn LOL. the chrome books suck tho 😪 i would never fight w u LOL but i love twilight hhhh

today i just learned what “go ham” means like. i never knew. idk if i’m uncultured or ur weird (BUT ACCORDING TO CHAN WEIRS IS GOOD AND HES RIGHT.) i hate swimming sksks i burn easily and im Not here for it. i see why u would prefer the heat esp w snow, but i don’t have snow so i like winter LOL. i feel like i would die if i had to shovel snow like. i tried gardening and i gave up in .2 seconds. it was tough.

ooh an ice capp is like a frappuccino? i used to love them but they became too sweet. i believe in lattes and lattes only. keurig never tastes as good as the OG, i’ve had starbucks, dunkins, and peet’s keurig cups but it’ll never live up 😪 u r my soulmate and i snatched u, u can’t leave even if u wanted. period. LATTES ARE EXPENSIVE like. i pay $6.70 or smth like that bc of the vanilla flavoring and the extra shots. makes me wanna yeet myself off a bridge but there aren’t lattes in hell.

RIGHT omg the first time i saw them make it i was like. where r u giving me a cup of MILK but it tastes good so it’s okay. my stomach has not been cooperating and hurts whenever i get normal milk so i have to ask for almond and pay an extra 25 cents. like damn i $7 for a cup of coffee. but it’s okay it’s still good 🤧

& SMOOTHIE MASTER ARELLA HHHH my family is also Lazy like. it’s not hard to make a smoothie u FOOLS but i mean ig. they’ll just be hoes and force me to make them 😤 but it’s fine bc when i make the smoothies i’m let off of washing dishes 🤪

if u eat a pancake plain ur wrong on so many levels. it’s so painful to see. like. WHY. and cooked flour,,,, ada ur so funny omg waffles are so good like. it’s crispy but pancakes get soggy and it’s Gross. not here for it

i suck @ all languages too like grammar who? i only know keyboard smashes and incoherent screams. jisung is amazing and i love him w my whole soul. he’s such a good wrecker like whY are u so perfect?? i was bin biased but jisung came and made me double biased 🤧 i’m unloyal.

i don’t believe in no brain cells i believe in broken hearts and that’s what this fic is going for. angst angst and angst. i’ll send u peet’s and u send me tim hortons i look forward to gross and melted coffee 🤪

WLSKKSSK TUMBLR RLY OUT HERE UR SO CUTE AHHH i screamed for a good 5 minutes. i’m still upset. like. why did i do this to myself arella u big dumb. omg and did u save urself for the presentation? it’s worse for u bc like. it’s for school 😔 we can be dumb hoes together it’s okay

OVER A MONTH WHEN DO U START i have 2 weeks and a half. 3 weeks? i start on a thursday which is weird but Go Off. i’m gonna drop a class i’m not up for 7 classes esp w an AP and 3 honors 🤧 why did i take those classes i’m actually an idiot hhhhh

i stan ada and ada only (jk binsung but yk what they don’t count) stan TALENT my coffee soulmate ily

[escarchitasblogging]

uhh.. about last night

contents: sexsi time, people i like (apparently), thoughts on polyamory, needy of validation

so! last night i s3xted for the first time with some rando i found on t1nd3r. idk why i did it tbh it was on impulse but the thing is the interaction made me realize a few things i think?

first, i realized i sometimes have these "episodes" where i crave some sort of validation i guess and end up on sites like t1nd3r ... i enjoy the validation of my body but i truly get nothing out of it really. after i realize what i did while on a different state of mind im like wait ... i did that? that is not really like me

now on the experience of last night................

i didn't come LMAo ofc. was lame. i think i was not turned on by what this dude was sending but rather i think just liked the feeling of some1 being turned on by me. bleh, you know, validashun

i found myself thinking stuff like "wish i was doing this with a girl" (lol gay) AND i also found myself thinking about el fran .............. fuck .

let's dive into that cause .man . i hate that dude

pls ive thinking a lot abt him lately WHYYYY HE SUCKS AS A PERSON. he sucks ass fr

but WHY do i still want to kiss him and stuff.

i'm not entirely sure if he came to mind because i still like him or because i was just horn knee and i find it WAYYYY better to do it w someone i have an emotional connection to but i wish he didn't cause its making me consider to get involved w him. though i dont really think i want to be in like a romantic relationship w him, i think i'm thru w liking him (?!) but i do want to kiss him and touch him still

he introduced me (kinda? not really, but it was like my very first first-hand experience w it) to being polyamory. and even if we were never anything he did tell me at some point like "hey so moving forward just a heads up im polyamorous so how u feel abt that" and at the time i remember it was like devastating LMAO i wanted him only for me ig . but LATELY. lately i've been more and more into the idea of bein polyamorous and i think it's quite nice (it is pretty crazy trying to possess someone only for yourself right? and like limiting yourself to loving only one person romantically .. why) so i've been considering getting involved w him like that. i guess its more of like a "welp, open thing, no strings attached?" kinda thought. i don't believe i can be polyamorous w him healthily really, truly feel he only uses people . love that for me <3

i think i'd only trust a la mery on something like that being done healthily

i think i have a little crush on her but im not sure its because i am emotionally needy and she supports me so much or because i really wish to be in a relationship w a woman or because i genuinely like her . i mean i DO like her a lot, truly believe we're soulmates,, but do i want her romantically ? much to think abt. for now, the idea feels nice to me :)

im scared my advances make her uncomfy tho and i wouldnt like ruining our cute dynamic at all. i love us . actually writing this i thin k i do like her fuck

that's it for this one.

[sarohara]

You both like friends.

Stranger: M

You: Heyo

You: sup

Stranger: Sup

You: what's ur name?

Stranger: Troy u

You: Hey Troy

You: Im Sarah

Stranger: Cool

You: yea

You: wyd now?

Stranger: Nothing u

You: I'm listening to a such amazing song rn and those moments I stop and i use to think " it was worth it to be alive to listen to this incredible masterpiece"...

Stranger: Coool

You: Ooh ahah

You: Im sorry, im a types one

Stranger: How old ru

You: Im 16, wbu?

Stranger: 17

Stranger: I'm guessing ur bored?

You: Yea for sure

You: Everyone's bored on omegle bro

Stranger: Lmao fr

Stranger: U tryna play t or d

You: well, sounds good

Stranger: T or d

You: T

Stranger: Where are u from?

You: Im from Brazil

You: t or d?

Stranger: Cool

Stranger: T

You: Where r u from? ahahahah

Stranger: I'm from the US

Stranger: T or d

You: oh gotcha

You: T

Stranger: Do u have a bf

You: intriguing question ahahha

You: Yea, kinda

Stranger: Wdym kinda?

You: Kinda is kinda

You: T or d?

Stranger: T

You: r u looking for someone over here? that's the worst way to get, trust me ahaha

Stranger: Nah I'm just curious lol

You: Oh okaaay

Stranger: T or d

You: T

Stranger: Explain how u kinda have a bf

Stranger: Bc last time I checked he either is or isnt

You: AHAHAHA well, we don't nothing like certain yet but we have each other u know..so it's someone that i care about and it's reciprocal

Stranger: So ur waiting for him to ask u out or something

You: Hell no ahaha we just can't be together rn for some reasons..

Stranger: Religion or age

You: What

You: No religion...

Stranger: Reasons for not being together

You: Ohhhh

You: Nooo, none of this

Stranger: Then why not just date him?

Stranger: If u think he's really urs just take it

You: Yea, ikr but he moved to another state so we cant compromise u know...

You: I mean, we can't rn

You: It's complicated

Stranger: Oof those types are hard

Stranger: Cuz u never know if he's talking to another girl

You: Nah nah it's just bc there's nothing certain in our lifes so we don't wanna to hurt our feelings..idk

You: want to*

Stranger: Yea so u like him that much

Stranger: Why is he so different from other guys

You: idk he's basically my soulmate aahaha

Stranger: Uh oh

Stranger: Ur building feelings for him

Stranger: And it's only one sided

You: Wdym one sided?

Stranger: How do u know he's feeling the same thing?

You: and im not building, im learning to deal with them

You: Because he told me

Stranger: And he's also 16?

You: Because i also know him. we're like best friends.

You: No he's 17

Stranger: Do u know who u sound like?

You: Pls tell me

Stranger: Like me lol

You: ahhahahaha what

You: How?

Stranger: Just switch the gender

You: Oh damn, really?

You: ahhaha that's sad right

Stranger: Yea

You: Tell me more.

Stranger: I used to love her thought she was my soulmate

Stranger: Then the next thing u know she's with another guy

You: Oh damn, why...?

Stranger: Idk cuz if we lived to far from each other

Stranger: It*

You: Oh gotcha

You: Life sucks right?

Stranger: Lesson is never be in a relationship or like someone more than the other person

You: It's not true

Stranger: Cuz it hurts no like u never felt before when they are gone

You: Oh man, i feel u.

Stranger: Sure

Stranger: How many relationship have you been in

You: Only 2

You: wbu?

Stranger: 7 and I'm done lol

You: Uuuu what

You: Wth ahahhaha

You: How is it possible?

Stranger: It's a same dumbass story

Stranger: I just keep believing it will different

You: Man, I don't fall in love with people that fast.. ahahahhaha

Stranger: Oh it's people I've known for years

Stranger: The least for me is 1 yrs to even talk to her

You: Ooooh

You: Since ur 10 then

You: ahah jk

Stranger: Nah this started when I was 13

You: Oh wow, my first one i was 13 as well

Stranger: First one hurts the most

You: Ummm, i don't think so..i mean, in my case.. but i agree..when u love that person that much

You: I'm friends with my first one until today so

Stranger: U sound like u know what it getting into

You: I would say sometimes

Stranger: Just remember people will accept the love they think they deserve

You: Oh I've watched this movie ahaha

Stranger: Keep ur standards high cuz if a guy doesn't meet it there is always one that will

Stranger: Its lowkey true tho

Stranger: Make him treat u like a princess always

You: Aw, that was like cute...

You: And ur right.

Stranger: But on ur side never take home for granted

Stranger: Him*

You: Never. neither him or anyone else.

Stranger: That's good

Stranger: The guy must be lucky to have u

You: Oh, U should tell him then ahah

You: jk jk

Stranger: It's not everyday u meet someone nice and knows a value of a real woman

You: Oh, i really appreciate that

You: Ur really nice as well

You: I hope u know that :)

Stranger: Someday I wish I met someone like u

Stranger: There gotta be more than of u out of 7 billion

You: Aw, u'll find someone even better than me, trust me.

Stranger: Haha sounds like heaven

You: Oh ahahaha im feeling so flattered rn

Stranger: But keep working o urself too

Stranger: On*

You: Yea, always

Stranger: Bc u are flattering lol

You: ahahahah

Stranger: So ur really not from Brazil or are u?

You: Actually i am. ahahha

You: Im 100% brazilian ahah

Stranger: Oh wow does Brazilians have Instagram

You: Ahahahhaha brazilians usually have instagram, yea

Stranger: Cool so what's urs

You: ahahah nice way to ask hug

You: huh*

You: @sarahcvlm

You: what's urs?

Stranger: I'll hit u up and you'll see who I am

Stranger: Nice meeting u tho

You: ahahahahahaha funny

Stranger: Keep working hard and always keep ur head up no matter what

Stranger: 💯💯

You: hey, just asking.. r u leaving?

Stranger: Oh I was about to

You: just hold up

Stranger: For what?

You: imma follow u

You: what's urs?

Stranger: I actually dont have insta yet due to strict parents

Stranger: But I find u if ur relationship dont work out

You: Oh that's so sad :(

You: Oh ahahahahah

You: Okay, i guess

Stranger: Were young

Stranger: U believe in stars?

You: Yea

You: why?

Stranger: Then if we look at the same star we will meet each other in real life

You: Oh my god, made my day.

Stranger: Or make a wish whenever u see a falling star lol

Stranger: Nice meeting u Sarah

You: Nice meeting u as well, ur such a good person. take care :)

Stranger: And my real name is Tyrone dont tell anyone

Stranger: It's a secret...

You: AHAHAH i wont, don't worry lol

Stranger has disconnected.

[ncvys]

𝐚𝐪𝐮𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐞: you pretty then a bitch. honestly just wanna chill because you seem funny, and i’m sorry you’re friends with one of my family members they built different.

𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞: idk how you managed to be my favorite and least favorite person at da same damn time. i still owe you some shit and i hope the collectors don’t come until you know how to stay awake. 

𝐦𝐚𝐡𝐨𝐠𝐚𝐧𝐲: you seem cool, i feel like we haven’t ever actually talked which is sad. stop by sometime ‘cause a bitch be bored when she hiding from her family. 

𝐛𝐥𝐮𝐞 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐛 𝐛𝐥𝐮𝐞: great minds be thinking alike. you just made me hungry, now you owe me osme crab. but, you someone i admire fasho. you be bout your shit all while bein fine as fuck. and you’re so sweet, man.

𝐬𝐮𝐠𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞: my bitch! my soulmate tbh. if i had someone who knew what i’m thinking or feeling, it’s you. you’re so talented, and fine, and i love being related to you. can’t wait to get back in the studio, man.

𝐰𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐞: ‘sum about this color don’t sit right in my spirit. you know i think you one of the finest things ‘walkin. you be down for a good time and we need to link more often.

𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐭: yet another fine woman. we haven’t spoken, but you told me my ass looked soft and imma forever fuck wit you for that. come by anytime i feel like you funny and i be needing a good laugh.

𝐥𝐢𝐦𝐞: ah, another fine ass girl. this night just keeps getting better, you’re chill af. you are entertaining, i said that since day one. you’re a hard worker which i admire, no surprise there. we need a shopping date, asap. 

𝐛𝐢𝐠 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐭𝐲 𝐛𝐥𝐮𝐞: not only did you steal my color basically, but you out here using my government, childish. um, you get on my damn nerves fr. but, you ‘ight looking i guess. if i’m not mistaken you owe me a date or ‘sum. i fw you though, even though you told me i was going to hell for being honest. 

𝐠𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐢𝐞: you a cool cousin to have, i guess? we don’t really talk so i can’t say much. you had threw me off with a couple comments, but we come from a weird crop of people so i can’t hold it too much against you.