#IM SO SAD I BOUGHT IT AND FOR WHAT

[dykecharliee]

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[somefishycat]

... There is a house for sale in a neighboring town, only 20k more (which is. A big chunk of money but it's less than the first house's repairs would've cost and it looks way better) that I could look into. It's really small. The other one was small, this one is even smaller. And it doesn't have a basement or garage like the other one did so there's basically nowhere to store things unless that shed is in good shape or I can fix it. Nice yard though? .4 acres is really big for being inside city limits. I could have a roommate but I'd have to make sure we get along really well because it's the smallest house for sale in that town...

[szaryherbatnik]

I need to talk about bradley god damn furman for a second.

Obviously he pissed me off, i hated him from the start tbh. I did not see it coming i did not see him and virgil being ooohhhh beneath dark wiiiiiiings together. I did not expect furman to have known about virgils betrayal of pazuzu. I did not expect them to be enemies after all. But! BUT!

There must have been SOMETHING akin to friendship there no? Sure they werent on the same side but they were both under pazuzu, im sure no matter what side youre on, being under pazuzu cant pleasant. There must have been at least an alliance coming from shared pain.

I do not think furman was scheming or lying that night he got drunk when he was leading the party to eyrios. I believe he got drunk and the only thing he could talk about was virgil, the only other person who shares similar burdens (although their burdens were so different but im referring to dealing with pazuzu). Despite the differences in their lives they were once teenagers bleeding out on the snow together and a kinship that forms in moments like that HAS to leave traces.

[queerlycarter]

and i just know my mom thinks im just like. not working on disability & medicaid (lol.) like. for fun? like she seems to think this is an active choice. the fact that it is fucking JULY and i still do not have any kind of health insurance and have only now taken the first step towards disability.

and she & my dad seem to think the fact that my shit is mostly still in boxes is also like. an active choice. that im choosing not to deal with it bc im. idk lazy???

idk i wrote a lot so im putting it under readmore. exorcising the demons and whatnot

and it sucks. my dad teased me about it today bc i showed them my planner which has a snail sticker on it. he asked if that represents the rate at which i get things done

WHICH WOULD ACTUALLY BE REALLY CUTE! IF IT HADN'T BEEN MEAN.

i expressed a desire to go spend a few weeks with izzy bc they are in a bad place and i want to support them. and my mom was like "you need to get yourself taken care of first"

okay how the fuck do you expect me to do that. i have no insurance. medicaid is actively being burnt to the ground. i got a message in my planned parenthood mychart that they can't accept medicaid anymore, along with like 4 or 5 other low cost healthplans. the self pay doctor i found is too expensive for you. nothing that is wrong with me is going to get better in any kind of timely manner. what do you MEAN i need to get myself taken care of first. what do you want me to do!!!!!

AND ALSO thats not how it works anyways! when ur two disabled ppl in a relationship you take turns taking care of each other. if we waited until we were both healthy we would be waiting a long time.

im frustrated and ive tried and tried to explain this shit to them. they are so isolated & disconnected from the reality of like. the economy and the government situation that they have NO IDEA how bad shit is. how absolutely gutted everything is. and they genuinely seem to think the The Vitamin post is going to happen to me if only i can get my shit together and go see a real doctor. they seem to think i have just accepted that this is normal and im simply not making any attempts to better my situation when the exact opposite is true

ive spent a LOT of energy over the last year and a half (and before then too!!) trying to better my situation. and make my life one i want to live, and one im happy to inhabit. but last time they knew me i was a suicidal 18 y old who was trying to escape their life.

smth that made me realize that is when i was at the store with my mom last week and i pointed out some little containers that i thought would be super useful for organizing and she was like "you dont need that, you have so much stuff you havent even unpacked yet" and was like. INSISTING that there was no way i was gonna use that & that i just wanted it bc it was cute and $3. THREE DOLLARS BTW. and later on i got fed up with her saying "you dont need that" every time i pointed smth out and i was like. you were so insistent i wasn't gonna use it but you don't know that. all my stuff is still in boxes because I dont have places to put anything

and she did go back and get it for me. and was much more pleasant the rest of the trip. so she gets points for that

[stir-crazy-au-blog]

OSWALD NEEDS A FURBY STAT!!! HE NEEDS ONE RIGHT NEEOOWWW!!!!! he HE NEEDS HIS LITTLE BUUDDDYY

it has to be an old furby one from the first gen that they got off of someone (BONOUS POINTS IF OZ FIXED IT HIMSELF) or it was his dad’s old furby cuz while i think it would be fun if he had a 2005 furby as seen below

it would’ve cost to much money for them at the time period. Not sure if they sold cheaper after three years since they weren’t as popular as the og’s but ehhh also i think they’re cute I SAID IT I WILL DIE ON THISHILL !!!

Oz comes off to me as either having a skunk furb

a snowball

OR CHURCH MOUSE

THE VOTING STARTS NOW

9/17/24

[housecow]

hair is looking healthy again, my skin is clear asf, i can barely squeeze thru the bathroom door where i’m staying, double chin has somehow greatly reduced after not being able to eat for 3 days… i’m kinda cute rn ngl

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

TODAY I got my blood stolen so they can test it, picked up my meds, went to the Craft store I'm going to consign with so I could ask a few more questions and such, AND went to city hall to inquire on the community garden so hopefully I can take it over. And it's only 2pm.

[mylove-thresher]

the girl corner

[altruistic-meme]

there are reasons you should always look around before buying things at cons/etc and those reasons are someone was selling a Nishinoya nendroid for $75, an Oikawa one for $100, and a Hinata one for $120, but there were other people at the SAME EVENT selling Nishinoya and Oikawa both for $35 and, while no one else at the event was selling a Hinata, there are some on ebay for as low as $20. like. these people were fucking insane.

[gethellbcnt-m]

y'all i think im onto sumn with this lilith reimagining--

[dockaspbrak]

The way some fics will throw in "my dears" and "my darlings" from old men makes me think of like old ladies in wigs playing the characters hahaha the most unsexual pet names id rather hear "dude" and cowabunga tbqh

[nochedie]

well hi lmfao! having the worst fucking day of my life actually! im still lowkey sick im just coming out of it and im going out tomorrow i bought a new dress and it looks gross it just like. i cant decide how to wear it and it hangs a bit weird everytime so thats pissed me off and my letting agent just called to tell me my landlord wants to put my house up for sale! so the future is really unclear idk where the fuck im gonna live! im literally going to :) explode :)

anyways i have been watching this edit of jensen for maybe 10 minutes to stop me entering psychosis! much love 🫶🏼

[cobaltfluff]

Me, making a purchase: ¥6000 😬

Me, after price conversion: £30 ☺️

[thedegu]

Rip Tim the Goldfish,

You helped me through lockdown and some very rough times. You were meant to be a feeder fish, I hope I gave you a good life.

The best $0.78 I've ever spent, I'll miss ya bud.

[gods-revolver-twice-as-shiny]

grieving over getting the wrong disk in my soul punk cd. I might rewatch youngblood chronicles and ugly sob to miss missing you

[mymelodyisme]

My sister’s graduation day 😤 let’s go 👏🏽