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[soaringsearingphoenix]

hey, hope you're okay! x

Hi hi!!! I'm doing alright, thanks for checking in! I've been in a fairly productive swing recently, as far as trying to stay motivated to complete the classes I'm in currently. Motivation is an unpredictable muse for me, so when I feel compelled to do something that I think I actually SHOULD be doing, I try to let that wave carry me as far as it can. I think I could make a surfing metaphor here if I were from the part of California where people surf.

Anyways, as it ramped up into Midterms season I learned how to use my laptop's firewall and I blocked anything that is really "catchy" to me, anything that feeds the ADHD urge to fidget without actually making me feel good about it when I'm done, anything where once I log on I won't be able to voluntarily pull myself away for at least an hour.

That means Instagram, tumblr, and this one 2048 game spinoff that is four times the size and moves at an absolutely glacial pace, which I'd been playing for months

I don't use fb anymore but I blocked that too, just for fun. And I! Still procrastinate sometimes lol. But it's mostly things I can set down when I want to. And even the little bit of time it freed up, I've been trying to use that to do things that keep me healthy. I've been walking when the weather permits, and actually taking notes about what foods help me concentrate and what the timing of eating them should be relative to the other things I should try to do, like sleep or work on homework.

And some of the homework is fun! I'm in a music theory class. I'm finally learning the jargon that seemed so unapproachable. And I have an excuse to be at the keyboard that people around me actually treat as a priority and not a distraction! It's not all rainbows (life is Difficult) - this is all good news but it's also kind of about managing bad habits that were getting out of hand. That's a whole separate topic. But today in particular I'm really proud of myself! Yesterday I told myself I needed to get some homework done, and then I did! PLUS had some time while it was still light outside to plant some flowers for my mom. I'm feeling good about that.

TL;DR: Thanks again so much for checking in.

I'm mostly staying off tumblr at least until school lets out. I thought about making a post to explain that but I wasn't sure I would actually follow through until I did. There are a lot of people on here I knew I would miss though and I did because y'all are such a genuine joy to interact with. Tumblr is SO bad for my procrastination though, I don't think that's news to anyone lol

i'm gonna sign out again for a bit but I might pin this if you can do that with asks.

[halorocks1214]

me deleting the tumblr bookmark on my computer and the app on my homescreen the night before bcuz i wanted to force myself into a break since i wasn’t feel great about Other Things getting back online One Time to check my notifs before i go to bed