today i love the red metal crane in her long neck arching her body over the boston skyline, which means i am okay for a moment. when i am unwell, everything is a little ugly. i always tell myself look for the beauty but when it is bad, i will look at birds and sunsets and little ducklings and feel absolutely nothing.
when my brother got his puppy, i was in a deep depression. what kind of monster isn't affected by a puppy. i was gentle and kind to her - i just didn't have an emotional reaction. she's five now and i feel like i spend all of our interactions apologizing to her - i don't know why. i just didn't feel anything. how embarrassing. i feel like if i admit that, i'll seem cruel and jaded. it comes in waves. like, two months ago when i went out into the world - it was like that. life behind a pane of stormglass. a firework could go off over your head - nothing. like dead skin, no reaction. not to ice cream or rainbows or baby chickens. life foggy and uninteresting.
i love goslings again. i love their little webbed feet splayed over grass. i love good food and live music and long walks. i like puppies. i feel like some kind of my soul has been starved - i keep staring at everything with wide eyes, trying to burrow the sensation into my stomach. it's real. beauty is real. when it's bad again, remember this. i stop and smell the flowers, feeling cliche in the moment. i like the white-to-red ombre of my neighbor's roses. i like colorcoding and yoga and cold drinks. i try to pass my hands over every moment, feeling like i'm squeezing joy out of every instant. remember this. for the love of god, it's real - just remember this.
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Idk if anyone here has expressed something similar before, but I like the idea of Evelyn simply not… caring that Caleb is a witch hunter. And she’s not really concerned about the hangings either. She knows these aren’t real witches. In fact, she finds those nights with the whole mob get their pitchforks and fires quite fascinating. Is it some sort of ritual? A ceremonial sacrifice? A cultural thing? Who knows, but witches have similar antics back home (some villages it was socially acceptable to eat babies), who is she to judge?
It was Caleb who took the initiative to change. He saw people he trusted and maybe even loved be accused and be meet with a horrid fate. He thought I know they didn’t deserve that, if they were even witches at all. And then he met Evelyn and realized that there were no witches on Earth. And that was the final confirmation that he needed to realize that he didn’t want a part in this at all.
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Terfs will do their damnest to make things like wearing make up, shaving, or even having sex and the color pink out to be something women are forced to do because of men
But absolutely refuse to realise there are women out there that do it because like
It's fun and nice and they enjoy it
I swear it's like they just go "I do not see it" or shout about how it's "internalized misogyny and the poor girl is brainwashed" when someone says they just enjoy it, like the blantant ignoring is the most infuriating part of it all
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