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#Memories are forever (Saved)
quietwingsinthesky · 4 months
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every time i think im okay i remember that the echoes of clara across the doctor’s timeline didn’t know they were echoes. or. no, some of them did, i think, but the more clara gives of herself to save the doctor, the more she loses the sense of who she is. and that’s why some of the echoes just seem like clara, knowing why she’s there and what she’s there to do. and some of them, many of them, don’t. the ones eleven meets don’t. and how many of them didn’t know haunts me. how many of them died just out of sight of the doctor, for the doctor, alone, without knowing why.
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lunarharp · 24 days
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played dragon age 2...just simple scribbles
#dragon age tag#i doubt that will see much use again..but who knows. vvv rambling below#weird game..the characters dialogue stuff and ending were good tho :')#i've played some of the first game but it kept crashing. i knew already despite knowing nothing that this guy was going to be my type#it doesnt feel right making video game art any more bc games like this end up feeling really personal - an experience that happened to me#if i design the main character a bit and fall in love then..that happened to me..i can't make Fan Art of that..only ive been through that..#like i cant make fanart of my dear companions in bg3 despite it having been a huge part of my heart in the last year#almost 1000 hours of playtime in something i can barely talk about bc it means too much.... lol#tons of ideas and conversations and extra thoughts and scenes and emotions about all the incredible times i've been through in bg3#and the maelstrom just rotates around intensely in my own heart forever...but that's ok too...that is so precious to me#but fortunately i already knew people that have played this game and talked/drew abt it recently so it was saved from that for me#sharing scribbly fanart on my Blog is a way to capture the feeling just after experiencing something so it has good points#witch hat atelier escapes that by not being a GAME. games are so immersive. but my wha art & feelings are incredibly immersive too#which makes it difficult sometimes now. i live a complicated and emotional life <3 i am not suited to fandom <3#my character ended up looking so much like oru without me realising that's what i was doing. Kind bearded fireball throwing gay mage. Hmm.#falling for a sad white hair memory trauma fellow that keeps you at a tragic distance. Hmmmmmm.#i see also how very much bg3 is inspired by stuff like dragon age now lol so i'm glad i experienced it. I WANT MY KIRKWALL LIFE BACK...#so dated though as well and unpleasant at times (the city and the dismal atmosphere was depressing.) i hate violence/horror..#bg3 is SOOOO very dismal but it feels like I am killing people and going through horrors because i have to survive i have to be free#Well anyway. ahh it's so refreshing to fall in love. my gay journey continues...
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probablygayattorneys · 5 months
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Missile/Ray’s final farewell before he ceases to exist hits different when you know he was named and modeled and used the audio of and was entirely based off of Shu’s actual dog, who is also dead now.
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martyrbat · 2 years
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perpetual mourning – batman black and white (1996) #1
[ID: a black and white panel sequence of Bruce Wayne as Batman investigating a murder. He performed an examination of the victim's body and found DNA evidence to convict her killer and then performed an autopsy to examine her stomach contents — which led him to a little 24/7 diner. He walks in, disrupting the cozy scene with his presence.
Bruce internally reflects, ‘People think i'm a knight. A savior. But in truth, I'm only a vessel to hold the memories of those who've passed on. Those who've no shell left to store them. They must think I revel in my victories. It must seem like I never lose a fight. I lose plenty. The ones I couldn't get to. The ones I couldn't save in time. Those are the ones I carry around inside of me. Those are the ones I'll mourn forever.’
He shows the only waitress a photo of the victim's face and asks, “Excuse me. Do any of you know this woman?” The waitress gasps and holds her hand to her head in shocked distress. She stammers, “That's Chelsea, she comes in here all the time. Sits in the same booth, the same time, reads the same book... um, what was the title...? She, uh, left here only a couple of... Why do you... Oh, god. No. Dear girl...”
Back at the morgue, Bruce solemnly gazes down at the woman as she lays in an unzipped body bag. He thinks, ‘Luckily, you hadn't digested your last meal, Chelsea. There're only a few places in the neighborhood where you were found that serve blueberry pie at this hour of the morning.’ He carefully zips the body bag entirely. The identification label states she was a thirty year old caucasian female. The name ‘Jane Doe’ has been scribbled out to now be replaced with ‘Chelsea Rain’. Bruce continues to ruminate, ‘You only have your thoughts and dreams ahead of you. You're someone. You mean something. I'll remember. You're within me now. Forever.’ END ID]
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micewithknives · 4 months
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I am sliding into your inbox to ask you about historically multicultural australia 👀 what’s one fact/event/etc no one’s asked about yet that you think makes a good story?
I have a million and one ideas for things that no one has asked about that i think are terribly underrated. But I'll roll with a definitely not unknown, but definitely brushed over, simple answer of the topic of "afghan cameleers" in Australia.
While theyre often called "Afghan" in Australian history, they actually came from a variety of countries throughout the Middle East and south Asia. They were predomanently Muslim men, some bringing their families, although other religious minorities did also exist.
The Cameleers, (and their camels) were first brought over to Australia in 1838, although in no form of high numbers until 1858 when they were involved in the Bourke and Wills exploration of the east coast states. As a British colony, there were various high level people in Australia who were aware (from interactions with India and the Middle East primarily) of the benefits of camels in dealing with desert climates.
For over 50 years, camel trains became the primary form of transporting pastoral goods across much of the rural parts of Australia, at the hands of very experienced Cameleers. As a result of this, there was historically a number of towns which became known as "little Asia"s, "little Afghanistan"s or "Ghantowns".
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Many of these men are coming to be recognised in modern times as fundamental actors in Australia's modern history. They also married Aboriginal, Chinese, or European women, and often, despite racial and cultural descrimination, became well respected members of local towns, playing important roles in their developments. Many of the men continued to travel back and forth from their home-countries, conducting business on an international scale. At the peak of employment, it is believed that 2000-4000 cameleers were employed in Australia, however recording of this immigration at this time is limited, and it is possible the numbers may have been higher.
However, when Australia introduced the Immigration Restriction Act 1901 (otherwise known as the "White Australia Policy"), many of these men found they were unable to become naturalised citizens of the newly-federated country, and thus unable to return to the communities (and families) that had become their homes. The remaining "afghan" communities dwindled after this. With the increase of railway access to Australia, the need for skilled cameleers died out, and the once valued workers became subject to a lack of employment, and increasing government and community persecution. Much of the men that remained into this time chose to return to their home-countries.
However, some communities remained. The town of Marree in South Australia is the location of the first Mosque in Australia, and is recognised as the longest surviving "Ghan-town" community, and the location of many descendant families. These workers, and their descendants, are also responsible for the construction of Australia's oldest permanent mosque, the Central Adelaide Mosque.
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In recent times Australia is beginning to acknowledge important role these men made in the country's modern history, although they are subject to limited discussion, research, and archaeological recognition. And there is still a way to go, especially in making sure that the surviving archaeological sites relating to these communities and workers aren't lost.
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scionshtola · 11 days
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i do think a good shtola arc for the future would be like, her sort of calculated recklessness with her own life negatively affecting someone else and her having to reckon with that
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spider-girlwrites · 1 year
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skunkes · 4 months
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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.
#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day#how they're already memories since moments pass so fast#everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever#and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed#it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily#so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day#ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been#the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief#and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately#id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again#like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night#one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys#i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i#hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day
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guess who got so brainrotted over jaiden animations that they finished their first animatic
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zaynes-left-chesticle · 6 months
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Okay now I'm REALLY going to freaking cry 😭
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quietwingsinthesky · 6 months
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i think river and amy try to do some sort of mother-daughter bonding exercise or trip or something exactly one time, and it goes horribly. it's the most uncomfortable thing they've both ever done, and that's saying a lot. they never try to do it again.
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deanofsam · 7 days
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i don’t care for this destiel fellow and u may quote me on that
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marzipanthots · 2 months
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He might be gone in the real world but here my wolf can live on forever here on my page 💕💕
Slowly I have been feeling better , Art has always been a way to for me to cope or deal with the chaos of life. But the void in my heart is always going to be there😔❤️‍🩹
Here I rather share and celebrate funny stories of wolf so I can remember the good days we had.
One time he violently attacked me and my hand because some dumbass gave him a whole slice of pizza at my family party. I had to chase wolf and CLAW his mouth open as he was devouring the pizza so fast and his sharp ass teeth punctured my finger 🧍🏻‍♀️it felt like I put my hand into a lions Mouth
Sometimes when I am cleaning my face/skin care routine and I forget to close the door
wolf would BUST THE restroom door wide open stare at me then walk away, he gallops like a little horse or has the Cutest bunny hops when he is really excited 💕
He acts bratty to me but he loves to sleep on my bed and snores so LOUD I though it was my father. Watermelon was his favorite treat and he would give the biggest eyes to beg.
He was such a mountain goat some how climing over big tall boxes reaching to the tallest box and standing on top of the couches.
He loved to roll in snow and he loved the cold.he likes to come close to my face then SNEEZE ON ME EVERYTIME LAMOO
Very playful and sweet dog towards the end, my greatest companion and my little baby,it broke my heart to see him rapidly deteriorate 
But I know he still here I swear I could hear his soft whine and the tippy taps of his feet on my floors 💔💘
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in the swap au, prior to henry becoming evil, what was michael's relationship with him like? was henry like a godfather to michael?
i'm thinking about this because there's so much angst potential if michael actually remembers growing up around henry, and remembers how kind he used to seem before he let his facade drop and revealed his true intentions.
would you like to share any snippets of michael's memories of henry when michael was growing up? like maybe some times when things seemed perfectly fine and normal and wonderful, or other times where michael noticed some of henry's emerging red flags.
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For awhile, Michael simply considered Henry more of an uncle, just a little bit. It was kind of the same for Elizabeth and Evan. Although, none ever outright said “uncle.”
For some normal bits—before any of the tragedies or anything, it would just be stuff like: It’s Christmas, the Emily’s are invited, they’re spending time together. Or vise versa.
Or, Michael needs to be picked up, but his mother and father are far too busy. So rather than just walking, Henry goes and picks him up, etc. Simple things.
On the other hand, something Michael had noticed, and thought was... strange, was how Henry had reacted to Charlie’s passing. He practically hadn’t.
He didn’t seem bothered by it—he didn’t seem affected by it. Henry didn’t seem to grieve at all. After, others brought Charlie up, but Henry never did. He never did.
It was as if he had forgotten about her all of a sudden, or he knew of her, but she was just someone completely random to Henry or something. He wasn’t bothered by her, or the MCI... none of it.
It wasn’t what Michael had been expecting at all—not when, before, Henry had seemed to care so much, and seemed like such a very, very loving father.
And Michael could never forget the day that Henry himself went and revealed that he got William springlocked.
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aureus2010 · 5 months
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i am THIS close to posting 5 paragraphs on this gal… religious trauma anyone???? i wanna infodump so bad rn (info on the ref sheet itself)
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yuukimiyas · 1 year
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i’m your fool forever, you little heartbreaker ✧‧˖⁺‧₊˚
i had the absolute pleasure of getting my very first commission done by the ever so lovely @ekkurea ꒰ ˃̶̤́ ꒳ ˂̶̤̀ ꒱ she executed my vision PERFECTLY & i couldn’t be happier with the final results!! thank you SO SO SO much again!! ໒꒰ྀི∩˃ ᵕ ˂∩꒱ྀི১ i HIGHLY recommend you guys check out her other works!!
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