#OH COOL

[sol-luna0-0]

На душе тоска❤❤❤

[s0lar-ch3ri]

looking at character stuff for later art

first off, how did so many people forget caspians not a triton? im so confused by that????

next thing, if you want a good marshal john reference and google had none (for me it did not at least), take my screenshot from ep 101, 3:45 for timestamp:

also why does john have that arm covering thing im hoping he didnt lose his arm and its a fun sleeve but ik im wrong WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BOY

nobody fucking told me there was this epic visual animation for the girls fighting!

OH ASTER I LOVE WOMEN

THE LIP PIERCING?? HELLO???? JESUS I SEE WHY AVA LOVED HER OH MY ASTER i dont mean to have so much on lizzie BUT LIZZIE OH GODDESSES EVEN WHEN GOING THROUGH YOUR TRAUMA AGAIN YOUR SO FUCKINY HOT AND SEXY

...i see why lizzie loved ava

OK BUT FR THE FIRE HAIR??? JESUS SHES LIKE SO PRETTY WOW (also the comparison to jason is a nice touch)

i cant stop im so sorry she is so fine

alright this one is just for me to say WOMEN HOT IM GAY but i must say women hot im gay

its kinda interesting to me how different these two look, honestly! like, when i first saw jay on the animatic type thing, i thought how clean she looks, while lizzie is more rugged and shit, cool design details i noticed lol

okay ollie time! when looking up shit for ollie, i checked the fan wiki, and apparently while ollie had the compass he experienced nightmares of some unknown sort. chip met with niklaus in a dream, and he was the first to get a nightmare arc. i wonder....yes this is a kuba kenta and niklaus hendrix made a deal type shit

the belt is not a fucking belt it looks like a corset i cant make this shit up

LOOK AT IT

also i love how he still has the feather i think thats very sweet

oh and also the bandana for some reason looks ever so dirty to me yet fine at the same time

WAIT IGNEOUS IS LIKE RAINBOW??? THATS SICK AF

LOOK ALSO HOLY SHIT THAT SWORD FUCKING HUGE AND ITS THAT COLOR YOU WANNA TOUCH BUT CANT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

anyways if you join me next time we will be taking a deep undersea level dive to find out if people noticed caspian had a tattoo or if you guys are sluts for his boobs

[a-good-darren]

Best friends...

(Remember when Darren asked Jasper out and blah blah blah? Well this is for that...)

Yeah, we are

[wizardfeet]

[jennyboom21]

It's my 12 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[givemypencilbackplease]

:)

My 1st post! Have a lovely day!

[xbuster]

Usually a new Idolmaster branch’s announcement should get me excited, but Gakumas is like the last thing I wanted from this franchise.

[gar-trek]

i am so curious does anyone follow me for my art????? or are you just here cuz of my funny posting??

[lavarend]

Honestly, this was very unexpected. I may get bullied irl but apparently people on tumblr like me, so im happy, lol.

[theweepingegg]

5000 posts!

[the-sun-and-the-sea]

2000 posts!

[undead-dreams-of-overmorrow]

I posted 4,544 times in 2022

That's 4,544 more posts than 2021!

304 posts created (7%)

4,240 posts reblogged (93%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@technologyvoid

@elytrians

@ilysydneyosargent

@twerkstallion

@chilei-the-hotsauce

I tagged 1,703 of my posts in 2022

#green bear spam - 208 posts

#queue - 70 posts

#embraced void - 70 posts

#world heritage posts - 69 posts

#saved for later - 61 posts

#my beloved came to talk - 54 posts

#videos for later - 42 posts

#catposting - 39 posts

#saved for myself - 34 posts

#aceposting - 30 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#on the bus lanes im filled with rage. granted the bus lanes havent been inauguratd yet but that doesnt make them your personal parking spot

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

This video most likely has symbolic meaning, but I can't process that now, Floof was too cute

Also tapl <3

20 notes - Posted November 4, 2022

#4

25 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

#3

You didn't guess :(

~🐛

So is it a worm anon impostor hmmm

Unless chilei tricked us and they weren't worm anon from the beginning

27 notes - Posted November 15, 2022

#2

I CAST WIZARD BEAM ATTACK!!

YOU FOOL it went RIGHT BETWEEN MY BONES you hit NOTHING

I THROW A RIB AT YOU LIKE A BOOMERANG AND IT SLAPS YOU IN THE FACE

28 notes - Posted November 15, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Emperor Belos canonically plays Super Mario Maker 2 !!!1!!1!!11

[Middle level for who didn't notice]

(Photo description in the alt text, sorry if its bad, I don't have a lot of experience with that)

37 notes - Posted August 16, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

(hey have in mind that clicking on that link may or may not work on mobile (yet). for me it didnt)

[ask-homestuck-shenaniquins]

Oh shit it's Rufioh! Wtf has this fucker been doing?

"rUFIO-

h, mY GOD,,,"

"hERE HE IS, iTS RUFIOH, hES ALIVE,"

"barely..."

"sO RUFIOH, wHAT HAVE YOU BEEN UP TO?"

"dy1ng."

"oH,"

hOW MUCH POCKEY HAVE YOU EATEN TODAY

1 dunno, l1ke... three boxes?

bANNED,

aw... 1 shoulda seen 1t com1ng...

[heroes-fading]

tumblr did eat this but as a wise poet once said “honey i rose up from the dead i do it all the time”

so i feel like i have been slowly entertaining in the back of my head for a year or two now the idea of writing again. it started with like, writing bad poetry in journals. i’ve been consuming media, but in a lot more of a disconnected way. engagement was like, reading reddit and twitter threads for a day and putting it back down. then episode 8 happened, and i was like FUCK i’m unglued.

to put in perspective what kind of shit i was up to in high school: i wrote half a million words of like...once upon a time fanfiction. and in that i found lots of lovely connections to people but amidst a sea of other factors: being a literal teenager who still thought i could be the smartest person in the room (spoiler: never), having no real social net outside of the internet (and i will say my internet friends -- many of whom i still love and talk to today -- got me through some of the WORST times of my life), and having a very fragile ego. probably related to points a and b. everything felt like the biggest thing in the world because my world did not feel very big.

now i look back at it like...holy shit you wrote a goddamn novel. who cares if it was like, literature or not? 

to be honest one of the things that got through to me was this cj the x video, especially their point which i’ll recap here:

“We are under the impression that art is something special people do, and to do it well makes you a genius, and to do it poorly is embarrassing. This sectioning off of the art world for artists from regular life and regular people is completely artificial and it is bad for the soul of your society.”

and they talk a bti about the Terrifying Ordeal of Being Known and perfectionism and just the amount of fuccccckin mental blocks we put around what’s good art and bad art and we spend so much time agonizing over what’s good and what’s cringe and you know what? embrace cringe! who cares! none of us will live forever!!! sharing art is the way we sustain ourselves in the long run.

i always have an internal voice saying something’s not good enough. i’m Always like “damn, these metrics ain’t metricing like they were earlier...” and then i’m like fuck...am i doing this for the Idea of Fandom Success or because of my fun silly lil hobby? my fun silly lil hobby? aight guess i ought to just embrace the Terrifying Ordeal of Being Known and accept that silly lil numbers ain’t what’s fufilling, it’s the practice of writing and sharing and going at the end of the day “at least one person liked this, and being known isn’t the Most Horrific Thing Ever”.

another thing i Never did when i was a teenager is tell anyone i wrote fic in real life. now my husband and friend and sister-in-law know (the latter involved either alcohol or being confined to a plane, which is a lot like alcohol) and you know how much they think i’m embarassing? they don’t. oh and actually a co-worker. they just go “lol, this is My thing” and it’s a novel they tried to write in college or fanart they post on a secret instagram or a monsters inc page they ran in high school (all real examples) because everyone has some kind of thing they care about, some artistic expression, and we’ve conditioned people to think trying is embarassing. trying is vulnerable and the point, i think! no matter how cringe! 

and vulnerability is this awfully stingy thing because sometimes when you think about it for too long it’s not unlike putting your hand on a hot coal. like, fuck, laying awake at night knowing that people know You Tried and what if they still didn’t like it? humiliating. awful. please schedule me with the goddamn firing squad. you didn’t get the metrics you wanted. or worse, you did and now people don’t think you deserve it. they’re gonna find out you’re just a big fanfiction writing fraud.

but maybe that’s the point! i don’t know! vulnerability is hard and painful and growth and sincerety is almost WORSE. but there’s also something lovely and cathartic about it and at the end of the day knowing that other people feel that, too. can never get too lost in either sauces of thinking you’re the worst thing ever or the best and the only one who gets it. just gotta accept the vulnerability of it all~

i’m back in my daydreaming era, i think fic gave that back to me. i shut her off for a little while, but she’s still there! and it’s not the worst thing, having overwhelming creative ideas on the treadmill or in a hotel lobby or furiously writing in a google doc in the middle of the night even if it does feel Silly. sometimes it does make the world a little more magical, framing in a narrative. 

(my therapist at some point has made comments about my narrative framing skills in the context of my life and getting out of a shitty family situation with a lot of embedded generational cyclical fun stuff to a point i have a lot of the things now i used to dream about despite it, my pathological need to write my way out also applying to my life and maybe it’s not the worst way of moving a locus of control inwards. i used to dream about feeling safe and being respected interpersonally and professionally because it’s something no woman in my family ever really got and i get that now. anyway, as i said, radical vulnerability!)

narratives are powerful and meaningful and art is too, i don’t care if it’s fanfiction at the end of the day! we’ve all felt something or gptten something or felt community and that’s meaningful enough. 

this is a very long-winded and frankly chaotic way of saying sure, i’m a writer enough!

[apollos-boyfriend]

He said "aromantics you should read my lyrics" especially perfume and it's all futile.

i don’t remember any of his lyrics being about being sexy and hot and cool and sexy but i guess i can go check

[lonestarbattleship]

10000 posts!