#OK TO RB BTW

[11thsense]

It's the first time I've sketched Bucky in at least 5 years, and it will likely be the last. But in honor of 10 yrs of CA:TWS, here is the last 11thsense Bucky.... ever🚬

[alazyparallelworld]

okay guys lets be honest with ourselves here though. like, for a moment,

to viewed & treated as an adult with "moderate/severe intellectual/developmental disabilities" you have to walk across a very thin line.

if you're too eloquent, your means of operation (ADLs, walking, talking, transportation, self-care) are assumed to be good. there is no true Passing, as an ablebodied/ableminded person online. IRL there are tics; there are deformations in the face, hands, that cue people into. "oh, you are not cognitively All There. got it."

if you are comprehensible, then it isn't that bad. you're basically an ableminded (read: normal) person. you're held to impossible standards of behavior, intellect, and motor skills - when you eventually fail their expectations, they react to it as a failure of you, as a person. that you did it on purpose. worse-case scenario, it'll spread that you're faking. your story of difficulty is just a ploy.

and this is if you're perceived and treated as an adult.

if there's visible, evident in text, that There Is Something Wrong with you on a neuron level? you become a kid. people are fascinated that you're online at all (and doubtful of your independence at this, another bell ring of are you faking?)

people mind their words around you. "fragile, like glass," is an understatement. i've had experiences IRL where strangers worriedly stood beside me, wondering where my parents/caregiver was. one woman got into my face, ignored my jolting away and stuttering, and moved my bangs out of my eyes. because it was Bad for me. (don't you know that?)

and that's, in person, when i have an adult's stature and appearance. where my drivers license has my 90s birthdate.

if your speech is broken - either in grammar or illogical - or you use assistive tools like an AAC board, speech to text, people assume that talking is hard for you. you need to be monitored by someone who knows better - you need to do as little as possible. you need to be away from everyone else; it's disturbing to see someone out of the SPED classroom, outside of the assisted living facilities.

and most of the time - even around the most sensitive, kind people and friends - i still fall into one or other binary of functional/nonfunctional. independent/dependent.

[sasukemexican]

testament cosplay i made for anime frontier :3 got recognized by three whole people !

[bromantically]

im being so serious rn why are people so obsessed with cannibalism and eating as a sexual act but terrified of taking vore seriously as more than just a joke fetish. im not even vorepilled but it just strikes me as incredibly hypocritical

[willgrahamscock]

me when I try to communicate my feelings but I do not know how to connect feelings with words so I have to rely on emojis

[applejongho]

hi jonghomies ❤️ it's with a weary heart that i'd like to announce that I'll be closing this account for gif making (not leaving completely, please read on 😅). I started gif making in 2021 and the support, love, community, and fun I've experienced since then has been totally unrivaled. But all good things come to an end, don't they? 🥲 I'll give you some reasons for this change as well as some other info.

why?

for a multitude of reasons, the main one being I'm not into ateez as much as I once was. I do love them a lot, but these past few months I've grown distant from them for no particular reason. That's just the ebb and flow of fandom, I guess. I don't have enough energy or spirit to maintain an entire fandom account for them like I once did. Another reason is that kpop in general has become more toxic (for me); having to delete twitter was really a wakeup call for realizing my feelings about the overall industry. A third smaller reason is that tumblr isn't rly what it used to be, especially in terms of gif makers. The community used to be so vibrant and fun. I know that me "retiring" won't help the situation but I alone can't "save" atinyblr nor should I have to "bear the weight" for the sake of keeping the giffing community alive.

what's next?

I don't plan on abandoning this account! I adore my mutuals and friends I've made along the way and I'd like to cherish them. I'll probably still even reblog ateez, honestly, but only when I want to. I'll likely just keep doing what I'm doing but the only difference is I'm detaching myself from the label of ateez gif maker and I'll redesign this account's look (pinned post, pfp, banner, url, etc) to be less ateez centered. Feel free to keep using my tracking tag for ateez content, though i my not rb it (just because idk how active i'll be).

will you ever gif for ateez again?

who knows! maybe a new cb will drag me back into the pits of hell (affectionate), but maybe not.

if you've gotten this far, thanks for reading. I know I didn't need to write a post for something like this, but I felt like I should've with all the genuine work and love I've poured into this community. Every interaction, ask, tag, whatever -- I appreciated all of them, and I truly adored being your apple lady. this isnt a goodbye, just a change of scenes. thanks for the memories and i love u all ❤️🫶

-- anne

[soundtestmenu]

hey guys what's going on over here

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[isabelopaque]

dj rejection sensitive got the whole club uncomfortable stuttering over the mic asking if the audience still likes him

[identitty-dickruption]

if you have a recovering addict in your life. it is really really important that you make sure you’re not trying to remove their autonomy. this includes ASKING them what their needs are instead of just acting on assumptions

for example, I’d still like to be invited along to things where alcohol will be present + be given enough info to make an informed decision for myself. and it’s not fair to just stop inviting people along to things because you think that’s what’s in their best interests. but that’s just my preference! everyone is going to be different and in general it’s not fair to make any kind of assumptions about someone else’s needs and preferences

[grecoromanyaoi]

most of the time when i make posts on here criticizing ppl n groups or write somewhat political posts, i dont try to act like this is the most pressing issue in the world rn or thats its actively killing people or whatever. im venting. i complain, thats what im good at. i dont think my personal tumblr blog, run by a random civilian (and that has very little following compared to popular accounts on other social media but whatever), is the right place or platform for me to hold a symposium on immediate political issues. nor is it needed for me to act like an individual run news site. u can read the news without my help.

im flattered that ppl r interested in my opinions and what i have to say, but thats just what they are. my opinions. im just a guy on the internet. i treat this blog and my posting as a safe space for me to voice my opinions, complaints, vents and criticism about everything, even when theyre not the most important things in the world rn. and all i ask of u is to respect my space to do so

[lifewithstripes]

wheelchair!!! (id in alt text-lmk if thats bad for anyones screenreaders and i'll change it to be here)

[nanjokei]

circle icons are a hideous perversion of online graphic design the human mind does not visualize cropped images as circles naturally its abhorrent and demonic and whenever social media websites realize this i will be at peace

[evilneo]

i think a lot of NT and/or hyperempathetic people only rely on empathy and never really give a shit about nurturing sympathy or compassion. like once their empathy ends (and it will, like due to subconscious bigotry, or even just something as unavoidable as burnout) thats just it. its how you get these "empath" types completely dehumanising groups of people they dont like

[geoffrard]

like im not really engaging with this discourse and dont rly know who all is involved etc etc. but this kind of thing happens every so often and ppl often seem so surprised that others would see fatphobia in the things they say, as if they are surprised to learn that it's something ppl earnestly care about. ESPECIALLY in bandom/emo subculture where fatphobia is not only ingrained into the culture but has at times been VALUED, why wouldnt fat ppl like me read ppl saying things about ppl who have been fat/are currently fat & recognize fatphobia. the reality is that we haven't even started to have the conversation about how pervasive antifat bias is in this space, and moments like this remind me of that

[marcyonacross]

My toxic trait is that I am 10000% convinced that the splits jump in RHRN was actually Tobias and literally nothing (not even eyewitness testimony) will persuade me otherwise

[neuroticboyfriend]

"i dont want the day to end" "i dont want to face tomorrow" tough shit. the time will pass anyway. time is passing right now. good things can happen tomorrow, too. you're alive. so live.