#i ramble ★

[alazyparallelworld]

okay guys lets be honest with ourselves here though. like, for a moment,

to viewed & treated as an adult with "moderate/severe intellectual/developmental disabilities" you have to walk across a very thin line.

if you're too eloquent, your means of operation (ADLs, walking, talking, transportation, self-care) are assumed to be good. there is no true Passing, as an ablebodied/ableminded person online. IRL there are tics; there are deformations in the face, hands, that cue people into. "oh, you are not cognitively All There. got it."

if you are comprehensible, then it isn't that bad. you're basically an ableminded (read: normal) person. you're held to impossible standards of behavior, intellect, and motor skills - when you eventually fail their expectations, they react to it as a failure of you, as a person. that you did it on purpose. worse-case scenario, it'll spread that you're faking. your story of difficulty is just a ploy.

and this is if you're perceived and treated as an adult.

if there's visible, evident in text, that There Is Something Wrong with you on a neuron level? you become a kid. people are fascinated that you're online at all (and doubtful of your independence at this, another bell ring of are you faking?)

people mind their words around you. "fragile, like glass," is an understatement. i've had experiences IRL where strangers worriedly stood beside me, wondering where my parents/caregiver was. one woman got into my face, ignored my jolting away and stuttering, and moved my bangs out of my eyes. because it was Bad for me. (don't you know that?)

and that's, in person, when i have an adult's stature and appearance. where my drivers license has my 90s birthdate.

if your speech is broken - either in grammar or illogical - or you use assistive tools like an AAC board, speech to text, people assume that talking is hard for you. you need to be monitored by someone who knows better - you need to do as little as possible. you need to be away from everyone else; it's disturbing to see someone out of the SPED classroom, outside of the assisted living facilities.

and most of the time - even around the most sensitive, kind people and friends - i still fall into one or other binary of functional/nonfunctional. independent/dependent.

[crystallizsch]

i really like how canonically yuu is genuinely supportive of grim wanting to be a great mage. if i recall correctly, even character voice lines point this out. and it seems like yuu dotes on grim a lot and defends him too??? yuu even encourages grim's ambitions whenever he declares wanting to be a great mage. and also when he does that boss-henchhuman dynamic. i mean yeah you can interpret it as yuu saying that being condescending and sarcastic as if they're talking to a child saying "when i grow up i want to be famous!" but like. i really think they're genuine when mc loves grim in their own way.

even if grim is usually a menace, he's become like family to yuu.

and i'm pretty sure grim feels the same way.

think about it this way. despite all the mess, all the unpredictability, the danger, and all the drama being in nrc. what's always the constant? yuu goes home at the end of the day to the ramshackle dorm (basically their home at this point considering they slowly but surely fix it up over time) and with who? “the great mage” grim. as the sole outcasts in that academy, they both sleep soundly knowing they will always have each other at the end of the day.

[starrierknight]

gojo satoru lifts up his blindfold just so he can roll his eyes at you

[opikiquu]

more Penacony memes!!!! (yeah its still mostly aventurine)

[nervocat]

Boothill gives cat vibes honestly.. like he'd be the cat to follow you around and stay attached to your hip when he doesn't have anything to do.

Very affectionate as well. Since his head is the only thing he can feel your touch from, he'll nuzzle into the crook of your neck like a cat would bump it's head against you asking for affection.

Boothill likes to put his weight on you as well. He'll lay on your chest, when your standing he'll hug your wait from the back and lean on you (which makes you stumble bc of his heavy metal body, but you manage to (maybe) stay standing. Maybe you'd fall).

On the other side though, he's very sassy. Pobably. Like Boothill would bite you (playfully + spitefully, depending), keep you from moving, say (silly) snarky remarks, you get it. Maybe.

But yeah um. I'm tired and ik I have more thoughts on this specificly but I can post more later.. gn reader btw and didn't proofread this.

[parlapina]

Why can't gay people just say "I love you" instead of stabbing each other?

[chickenfingerswithasideoffries]

still thinking about that stat chart....mhin fight back against the weak allegations omgg

[kyxworld]

pls cut out try, getting, wanting, changing, needing this or that. you as “ ” are complete, perfection, pure magic itself. yet. please stop relying on senses, you know everything is an empty appearance, in the same line tell, “i know it’s an illusion/ it’s illusory but with senses? how? 😔” duality. contradictions. limitations. more suffering. same loop. stop, notice the silence. you’re that. for that is perfect as it is.

[sennamybeloved]

★ — selfship kisses : an ask meme.

inspired by these two memes + a meme i saw on twitter! there are two ways to go about this specific ask meme: send me a number + a f/o (orr just a number if you prefer) and i'll create something based on the prompt, OR send me a f/o and i'll use a random number generator to randomize a prompt for them! either way, this ask meme is intended to encourage creativity in the form of art and writing. please practice reblog karma & feel free to tag me, the creator, in whatever you make!!

1 - lips

2 - cheek

3 - nose

4 - forehead

5 - crown of the head

6 - eyelid

7 - neck

8 - collarbone

9 - shoulder

10 - back

11 - chest

12 - stomach

13 - temple

14 - arm

15 - wrist

16 - palm

17 - back of hand

18 - fingers/knuckles

19 - on top of a scar/injury

20 - first kiss

21 - quick kiss

22 - slow/passionate kiss

23 - accidental

24 - blowing a kiss

25 - good morning

26 - goodnight

27 - hello

28 - goodbye

29 - in public

30 - in private

31 - while laughing

32 - through tears

33 - apology

34 - distraction

35 - to celebrate something

36 - in the rain

37 - out of jealousy

38 - reunion

39 - wedding day

40 - while one is asleep

41 - while one is sick

42 - suddenly

43 - during an argument

44 - out of habit

45 - while one is wearing lipstick

46 - as a reward

47 - during a conversation

48 - playfully

49 - sleepily

50 - under the stars

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。・✭・.・✫・

[norrisgrl]

alright, yesterday i was watching videos/pictures of lando and i sTARTED CRYING

[alazyparallelworld]

see the thing is. and this is the secret they wont tell you - but when you're disabled, and struggling, at risk of going hungry/ending up on the streets/such and such. the solution is to be really fucking annoying

[crystallizsch]

hi i bring you at this hour a jamil viper eye appreciation post for my the people's pleasure

[starrierknight]

I need to cannibalise him. I need to sink my teeth into his throat and rip it out, shaking my head frantically like a rabid dog. I need to break his ribs and claw through his skin and hold his heart in my hands and devour it.

with love!

[opikiquu]

these 2 gonna drive me insane

[lilirari]

“ you need to behave for mum. make mum's life easy, you know that they're the most important ” he is THE standard.

[dav-suburbiia]

I cannot believe I forgot to mention that I had a dream last night that the new meme going around on Twitter was editing a picture of Xander Matthews’s face in random bowls of cereal and trying to find it among the cereal like Where’s Waldo