#PE also sucked

[vitos-ordination-song]

Was anyone else abused thru forced exercise? Like I can remember my brother being punished by sadistic exercise routines and stuff but most of the time it wasn’t even punishment. It was just my parents being psycho. Something that’s been depressing me is that when my mom visited a couple months ago, I felt bad because I didn’t realize how much her body had deteriorated. She’s still healthy enough but she can’t hike like she used to. We only did 3-4 miles but she started to be in pain towards the end and I was sympathetic and helped her out when we got home. Then I thought about it… I showed her way more care than she did towards her own children when we were growing up (story of my life but anyway).

Almost every vacation we took was full of hiking. I was tiny and the only girl for a while and my dad literally wrote a song to make fun of me for being “delicate.” Neither my sister and I could keep up with the rest of the family and my parents would just leave us behind on trails! This was out in national parks. I was hiking in Arizona as early as age 3, and I remember doing a 14 mile hike at age 7. Typically the hikes were 3-10 miles, often strenuous. Sometimes we did more than one a day, and we usually didn’t get any days off. It was absolutely fucking exhausting. I’d get horrible cramps in my stomach, I’d be hungry, thirsty, and bored. And they just didn’t give a shit. No complaining, we should just be grateful for the opportunity. Pretty sure my ankles and feet were damaged because of overexercise at a young age.

When I was around 6, my family visited Yosemite and we started doing the upper falls hike. Around halfway up I begged to stop and, for the only time I can remember, my mom granted mercy and took me back down the mountain (possibly because she was also having a hard time). But my actual sadist of a father forced my brothers to finish it. Years later when we visited the park again, trying to prove I was tough, I did climb myself. And I had horrible leg pain for MONTHS afterwards. The hike is so steep that going back down is just as bad as going up, and honestly it’s pretty dangerous. The fact that my dad made my six year old and eight year old brothers do it is just shameful. They were resentful of me for years after I got out of it that first time.

My mom always signed me up for sports, whether I wanted to do them or not. There was a lot of embarrassment involved there, but I could usually just get over it. Around age 12 though, she forced me to join a professional swim league. I am a strong but not fast swimmer. I was okay with summer league but this was something different: two hour practices in Olympic length pools. We got yelled at if we stopped to breathe. I felt like I was drowning. It’s incredibly stupid but it turned into a huge power struggle with my mom, ‘cause I started refusing to go and she wouldn’t tolerate any threat to her authority. She of course had given me other body issues (she used to joke about giving all her kids eating disorders) so I would go to practice hungry and tell myself at least I was losing weight. I was literally still a kid, I wasn’t even done growing…

In my teen years, my mom got into CrossFit. She was super annoying about it and made me go too. I hated it of course, and I was usually the only kid there unless my siblings came along. The type of exercise they do is dangerous; to this day I think being forced to do “box jumps” damaged my legs, and CrossFit definitely contributed to my mom’s stress injuries.

This is part of a larger topic I guess: my parents are totally dead to the flesh, don’t even know they have bodies, and tried to rob me of mine too. It’s taken so long to rebuild a healthy relationship to my body and to exercise; it’s been a struggle to balance between avoiding it out of depression or overdoing it out of anxiety.

[quirinah]

i! ro! ha!

[misiahasahardname]

i have no idea how the american school system works so i’m currently trying to figure out what kind of subjects the tales turtles would choose for their highers

[dirtdotmp3]

me (emo) and my friend (a huge swiftie) kept mentioning to our pe teacher that we should have a class playlist bc it would be so painfully chaotic. in classic pe teacher fashion, all she would play were pop top 40 type playlists from the 2010s. centuries by fob came on at one point, and i was losing my shit. i mentioned it to the teacher, and next class, while me and my friend were sitting out, she handed us her phone like "fall out boy? thats what you said, right? put some songs in." my friend and i filled the queue up with taylor swift and fall out boy. it was epic. now that we've finally got her to make an actual class playlist, sometimes fob or paramore just randomly comes on while we're playing badminton or whatever and its amazing. i am very patiently waiting for planetary go! to finally play. its the one mcr song i decided wasnt too angsty, screamy, or sexual for school, and was also hype enough for gym class.

[tj-crochets]

I was off work for a month with a concussion and had left my indoor shoes there. A really little kid who was having a Tough Time filled my shoes with water bottle caps which was baffling and hilarious when i discovered that a few weeks later

Little kids are so great! Baffling but hilarious is like my favorite little kid thing

[warmshotamilk]

https://www.tumblr.com/warmshotamilk/754392387189719040/i-might-start-blocking-proshippers-who-say?source=share

same if you censor words on tumblr

GOD YEAH and also self censorship by changing words. If you say shit like "unalive" on Tumblr then I have already considered you a lame pussy and you are getting blocked

[flowercrowngods]

the absolute mortification of crying in front of your volleyball group because you twisted your knee (fucking figures) and everyone keeps asking if you’re okay because you can’t stop crying but there’s no way of saying “the knee is fine, it’s the person attached to it who’s not” 🫠

[bat-the-misfit]

i only know two Ni doms irl but they're both driving me crazy

[aroace-poly-show]

i would do unspeakable things for a binder

[skateironicallycantskate]

I can’t believe I got sick the only week I wanted to go to school

[brine-in-my-eyes]

i HATE!!!! YOGA!!!!

[duganmorita]

i am a deeply traumatized little man .

[gender-euphowrya]

fuck yeah i had another one of the nonsense dreams again

[worldend]

had to choose my classes for next year and half of the ones i wanted are unavailable. wow so cool

[loverboybrightsideghost]

we should improve the state of physical fitness classes in elementary and secondary schools somewhat

[weedlovingweed]

you know whats fucked is i bet i’d kill at the pacer test these days