#SHE MEANS SO MUCH TO ME SHES LITERALLY EVERYTHING I RLLY DONT KNOW WHAT ID DO WITHOUT HER

[yamikawas]

i will always love you, no matter what you go through. i love you so so much <3

- yoomtah !

AAAAAAAAAJDHDHHFJDJFKD YOOMIE MY BELOVED ;///;........................THANK U I'LL ALWAYS LOVE U TOO OK ILL BE WITH U FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER NO MATTER HOW MY BRAIN GETS U ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL BETTER I LOVE U SO MUCH MY YOOMIE<3<3<3<3<33<33333<<3<<33<3<3<33<3<33<3<3<3<3

[sturnsbaby]

GIRL IN BOSTON

requested:)

tw: none!

based off of nessas song, 'girl in new york'

fluff and angst!

"im gonna miss you alot chris." you say as your eyes water slightly.

"i know ma, im gonna miss you to. I'll call you as soon as i get to my house, okay?" he says and cups your cheeks.

"okay. I love you." you say and he gives you a kiss on the lips.

"i love you to" he says before he leaves the house to get in the van with his brothers and you sit and watch him, already missing him like hell.

tears start to roll down your face, knowing you wont get to see him for who knows how long, you always got worried when he was away back to boston, you never knew what he was doing or if he got home safely, and it made you feel sick not knowing if he's okay or not.

You go to sit on the couch that you and chris were covered up with from the other night when the two of you were watching movies, it still smelt like the cologne he had on since the two of you were out a little before that, and it made you just as sad.

you already double checked to make sure he had everything, even though he knows his hometown by heart and he can get what he needs there, you still cared.

As you lay there, you get a text from chris.

chris: hey mama, im at the airport now, and im okay<3 I love you alot and ill call you as soon as i can.

you: okay, i miss you .

chris: i miss you, i have to go now, love you ma!!

you: love you to

You didn't mean to by as dry as you were, but you were genuinely upset and scared, you didn't know who he was going to talk to, where he was or anything.

THE NEXT DAY.

You wake up and go to messages to see if chris has texted you any.

chris: those are fake mama i promise.

chris: please respond to me baby i love you

chris: they aren't real i promise ma please answer me.

You leave him on seen as you go and check twitter, and you find him and this other girl sitting with eachother, and to you, she was everything you weren't. Chris looked happy as well.

you: what the fuck?

you: and thats the fucking reason i hate being away from you because i never know what shit ur gonna pull.

chris: y/n it's fake. If it was real i would've told you but its my friend from highschool, if you don't believe me her insta is @____________, you can scroll through her post and youll see photos of me her nick and matt in highschool together, id never cheat on you, you know that.

you: ok.

chris: did you look yet?

you: yes im really sorry chris, idk why im acting like this im always so fucking scared your gonna cheat on me .

chris: i know, can we facetime and talk? I miss you so much.

you: always.

(i tried! I hope you enjoy this <3 i dont rlly listen to nessa so im so sorry if this is literally not like her song at all)

[queenie-blackthorn]

FINALLY, ive finished 25% of exile, the second book in the kotlc series. here are some thoughts i had :)

tags: @aylin-hijabi, @that-multi-fandom-hijabi, @tastetherainbow290, @nerdy-girl3791 (im tagging everyone who asked to be tagged in my notes for book one, but lmk if you wanna be tagged too / dont wanna be tagged anymore)

first off, why are second books in a series always the ones that take the most time / are harder to start? ig it could be that we've already established the worldbuilding n main characters, but its still that dragging stage between *where you already know mostly everything in the universe* and *where the climax builds up in anticipation of the "final battle" or the beginning of the third act, usually*. nothing to do w the book itself, just an observation

second off, alicorns are so much more important than being just "another species to save", im sure of it. theres wayyy too much of the council getting involved n talk abt how alicorns are sooo important. to anyone whos read percy jackson it kinda reminds me of the ophiortaurus (bessie) from sea of monsters, who seemed to be a recurring animal side character who turned out to have a lot of significance to the very universe they were in. im expecting smth similar, why else would everyone go to such lengths to ensure alicorns dont go extinct? or maybe im overthinking it lmao but what gives it away is the heckses literally tryna kidnap silveny-

speaking of the heckses, who the fuck tries to steal an alicorn. stinas parents are the whiniest bitches ive ever seen, and im a fifteen year old girl. like cmon ive seen some drama queens over the years, but those two- also, fucking stina. i mentioned before that i hope to see some character development w her, so shes not just the boring one-dimensional mean girl thats prevalent in literally every piece of media thats come out since mean girls w regina george. clearly not yet, tho, but im waiting on it (if it does not happen i will be majorly disappointed)

also, delving into theories now. its kinda far-fetched, but, was brant w the black swan ? i mean, it would add up pretty decently. it would explain why his guilt for jolies death runs so deeply (since grady rlly rlly seems to believe that the black swan killed her) because he would be with the literal organization that killed her. it would also explain reeeeaaaaalllllyyyy well why he recognized sophie. the fact that he knew her was wayy too emphasized to mean nothing. idk JUST A THEORY, its not based off of anything other than it would fit nicely w everything else.

but also if grady is so adamant that it was the black swan, and (hypothetically) brant is w the black swan, then would it be improbable to assume that he killed her? which would explain the guilt even MORE. but then again, he does seem to love her, so that last part is added very tentatively. (maybe he killed her by accident... but then would the note to grady three days before her death just be a coincidence? im sure that has some deeper meaning.)

maybe it wasnt the black swan who sent those notes to grady...

to end on a funnier note: alicorn poop. sophie faceplanted into alicorn poop. it happens to all main characters, it always has to be someone walking in at the worst moment. i thought id be the vackers w keefe who show up n embarass her, but who better than the council to get humiliated in front of ? i dont hate sophie i just laugh at her pain

i think thats all for the 25% mark, im gonna keep reading today. im gonna go to my grandmas house so maybe i can get a couple hundred pages in !!!

[munamania]

hi can anyone in college or with roommate experience please tell me that im not crazy/give me advice abt how to deal w my roommate realistically bc like every piece of advice or whatever to attempt to give me peace of mind is sort of unfeasible in covid times ok ty even if no one reads this im gonna air my grievances in the tags as a form of *therapy*

[bumblebaubles]

control z character ranking worst to least worst 

(or reversed idk worst is at the bottom)

Luis: he literally never did anything so he wins by default

sofia: shes deffo the moral compass of the show but she was very passive before,,, however i can kind of dismiss that because her dad resurrected himself from the dead and she was sew of side all in the middle of class like clearly she had other stuff going on. even when she came back and still struggled shed put herself on the line for others and

maria: honestly shes a little too passive but  shes the better counter part to her sister regina so i cant hate her either, the cheating with isa’s sleazebag boyfriend is annoying though

javier: baby im so sorry i suspected you, while hazing leading to murder is so no bueno in the slightest how you treated everyone at the school was a hell of a lot nicer than everyone else. you are by no means dismissed but i really cant hate you

natalia: yeah shes a thieving little biotch but at least she never blamed anyone else for her fuckery. she stole money and she was a bitch, what you see is what you got. honestly i wanted to put her higher but i realised then id be a little too biased,,,, but then again its my list so eh

isabella: shes one of the nicer characters on the show but once again she was rlly passive until it started biting her in the ass. even if she was one of the nicer mean girls she was still, mean? like she was way too passive in everything for me to put her higher.

idk those two bully girls that are more like side characters idk:honestly they dont count s real characters but if anything they seemed more salty about being bullied than anything else

raul: spoiler raul is gossip girl the all your secrets account. i suspected him strictly because he suddenly started being nice to the one person who could be able to figure out the secret as if he wasnt equally as terrible before. i get thats not the reason he befriended sofia either but hes still too much of a hypocrite and liar himself for me to care

gerry: hes literally such a bully and *then* he feels bad after he beats a man into a coma like come on. I get that he felt gUiLtY but he literally blamed raul for louis’ death as if raul forced him to bully the kid every day of his life. comeon

ernesto & the other guy idk those two guys you know that were always with gerry idk: theyre so annoying especially outside of being friends with gerry cause they have no identity. its doubly annoying that *after* gerry is expelled theyre all ‘do not cool bro’ as if they werent egging him on every step of the way

[jeffhane]

dynasty live watching: an incoherent post so that i’m not spoiling people on the twitter tl (i doubt any of this will be chronological or coherent enough to actually contain spoilers but better safe than sorry!)

oh my god the “previously on” - i forgot abt fallon and evan....

Theyre at a FUNERAL??? this was actually predicted but oh my god. if its steven i am going to be so mad. what an unfitting end to the- WAIT WHAT SIX MONTHS? what was that font;;;;:; whes sueiwjwk

copper arch🥵🥵🥵

this is cute. this is cute i like faloon pretty women so true

BYE I FORGOT ABT THIS VASE

fallon is genuinely such a bad person this is so bizarre,,,, i think she needs to calm down about oiterally everything ever

“This wedding is our chance to break the cycle of craziness” babe ur literally the one making the cycle of craziness

w. was that an ikmenn of liam getting his head off

JEFF MY BELOVED HE LOOKS STUNNING IN THAT OUTFIT. WHYS ALEXIS HERW “POWER COUPLE” YOU WERID MANIPULATIVE PERSON GET AWAY FROM HIM LOL

alexis is up to no good. bad bad jpeg. why do they write her dialogue like this

adam is acted so well lmao he’s the most unhinged person to ever exist *screams*

ohhh dominique, i don’t remember much abt her 😭😭😭 this woman she’s with is beautiful

ITS LAGGING????? i cannot Believe tjis

~rebrand~ ok girlboss!!!!!!!!! can we ship this businesswoman i dont recall her name with fallon???? id like that i think

too many plotlines have happened in too many minutes, i’m already forgettint things that have happened... isn’t blake supposed to be in prisoj? no? Ok: sure

adam is constantly doing this expression that is like 👁👁👁👁👁👁👁👁👁 HI SAM HI SAM HI SAM BEAUTIFUL MAN I LOVE HIM WHOS THIS MAN

raf is so stunning ughhhh i’m loving the costumes this season, everyone looks great! is this man a sam love interest? nervous? that is kinda cute. i miss stevej though. sadness. so many emotions

UHHHH hi alexis sure ig ur here

~OMENS~ babe that’s a tad dramatic don’t you think?????????? “Ignore the lore at your own peril” alright

WHOS THAT? WHOS THAT? OH HER OK

bye everything is going wrong for this......:..:::... *rubs hands together evilly* that will certainly be entertaining

credit scene!!! such a beautiful cast! where’s anders, oh how i miss him... i miss monica too wasn’t she supposed to be BACK🤔🤔🤔🧐🧐🤨🤨

its a commercial break... havent had to watch the show with these for so long😑😑😑. getting american ads is so funny bc the vast majority of them are Not at all relevant... at all

BACK TO DYNASTY!!!!!! was that a slinky? huh? oh ok that’s why the marriage is happening at the manor. #whenyouonlyhaveoneset oh hi ok monica so shes not going to be here?????😑😔😳

WHY IS SHE GETTING A CAR I FEEL LIKE THATS FORESHAWDOIWIJG FOR UMMMMM.... NOT GOOD THINGS ..... ITS LAGGING AGAIN 🤨

blake having dinner... ok hi cristal,,,,; is the priest subplot back? that was a weird one

adam???? how on earth does adam work his way into everything? NEXT GUEST? HUH? are you cheating on your wife? HI CULHANE! HI!

“straight people are exhausting” i mean yes, objectively, absolutely, but culhane is #notstraight .... idk how i feel about sam and this man. also what? huh? staying here? ok cool ig

OHHHHH he got married i see i see

“Haven’t you milked the carrington cow already” but....... she is literally the person who deserves the stuff..... k......... i don’t like dominique but she was given the short end of the stick also blake stop manipulating people just bc they tell u the truth😶😶😶😶😶😶😶

frustrated that we haven’t seen fallon in any non-wedding related stuff yet i always liked her more ~dramatic~ plots . like she’s a sweetheart but i do want her to evolve beyond thsi. idk if that makes sense. ok bye

“A relative’s happy marriage” uh???? we live in a society😔📈

who is father lynch<3333 oh he is in the hospital that’s not great oh adam upset that’s new /s

y is kirby dressed like an elf. god bless.

ughhhh i just think adam is not good for kirby. he’s not good in general. so true . what is he up to. ads again hhhhhhhhhh💯

omg we are back!!!!! blake wear the suit!! hi liz!!! i’ve seen pictures of this outfit, it looks nice. “I really want things to work out with liam” now that would be great but you’re in a soap opera so the chances of that are .... I DONT EVEN ONOW IF U CAN WEATHER ANYTHING W CRISTAL...)))))!$$ NOT NECESSARILY THE BEET CHOICE????

~technically it wasn’t cancelled~ alright love i feel as though you’re not telling the full truth here. ok his name is ryan . we know that now . cool . this relationship is awkward but it could be sweet

what the Fuck is dominique talking about this is so creepy😭😭😭 please do not market lingerie to ur niece 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂 why does no one in this show know how to be polite

“You want me to stake my personal assets” i’m sure this would be meaningful if i knew anything about finance????? WAIT WAIT WIAT WAIT WAIT DHE REHEARING THE SAM DONS G THE SONG ALEXIS DONT INTERRUPT HER SINGING THE SONG🧐😔😔😔🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🥰🥰🤬😤😤😤😤😤😤

~duplicitous sham~ that’s quite a juicy phrase ms fallon. alexis i dislike your marriage. and you in fact. yes x . “We were just like any other newlyweds” except the newlywed factor........:

anders. oh my god i adore him so much. he reminds me of my grandfather . YES adam is dangerous. anders i love you so much. be my grandfather figure. top 10 cool old dudes of all time.

liz is so beautiful how am i suppised to “Focus” on the “storyline” kirby just went 🥰🥰 also hi culhane ily babe

“My father’s convinced adam is pure evil” you see, that is......... trueeeee...........:.::: im sorry culhane ily love

this dialogue unfortunately does not flow all that well LOL . people dont think up things like this on the fly “my love is like that boutineer” sir i guarantee that metaphors r not going to save ur relationship... HI sam. so true. hi ily. samhane? culsam? 😳😳

DONT STEAL ANDERS SPOT OH HI JEFF YOU LOOK STUNNING.......... BEAUTIFUL BOY ....... HI!!!! ~you are the only family you’ve ever needed~ shit none of this wouldve happened if the Carringtons werent so greedy ij the first place

~true love has many faces~ how many anti liam omens can they sneak in into the episode 😭😭😭😭 hi laura whats up

the poor waiters at this establishment...... why does laura look like a rlly young version of my grandma........: huh.... wont think abt it /... alexis bad mom.jpeg

“I don’t want to miss my sons special day” ok bye i don’t #care she’s kind of rude

fallon trying to avoid future drama is confusing to me as that used to be her ENTIRE THING? HUH??? everyones talking to their moms today what the heck do that many people talk to their moms???

jeff hiiiii <333 that maroon suit!!!!! love!!!!!

Dont hurt anders you strange little evil man!!!!!!!!!!! (Adam, for reference)

fallon likes to ~e n u n c i a t e~ her dialogue. Drama Teachers Love Her

FIRBY SCENE! WELL THEY R TALKINF! UWU ! UWU ! smiles:) smiiiiiles:) the height difference i cannot do this😑😊😊😊🕯🕯🕯 BYE

BueirHWIIDWJDIWIFJWIFJWJJFWJFJWJDJWJDJWIFJWJFJWJDKWJDJWDJJWHDWHDHWHEHWHDHWJDJWJRJWJEJWJDJQUEUWJEJWJEJW CRIES SOBS SCREAMS THIS OS SO FUCKING FUNNY

Kirby you dumbass😭😭😭😭😭 ALEXIS WUDIWNDJW JEFF CAN YOU NOT HEF FCANKREMTIWN WHY IS THIS DIALOGUE IM SCREAMIGNRJFJD

kirby babe you are the kist imorjri WHQT? HUH? when all the characters have the maturity of a 13 yr old <33333 DID THE SHOW JUST END?????? OK.... DAMN.... they were really 2 minutes away from the end and remembered that things are supposed to happen in tv show episodes.... i cannot tell whether it os over actually?????? huh??? going to keep watching because it would be so embarrassing if i missed a few minutes oh yeah theres more

IM SORRY WHYBARE THESE PEOPLE SO STUPID. every single one of them. ih my god l. ohhhh my god . “I never meant to hurt you” you cheated on him. both of them are bad people. 🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨 kirby darling what were you thinking . this dress on kirby is STUNNING ugh, she’s so charming . adam Shut the fuck up. He hasn’t said anything but shut the fuck up. OH MY GOD ADAM SHUT THE FUCK UP. OH MY GOD I HATE ADAM SO MUXH. OH MY GOD HOW IS HE THE WORST PERSON TO EVER LIVE 😑😑😑😑😑😑😑😑😑😑😑😑😑😑😑😶😶😶😶😶😶😶😶😶 HES SO EVIL

“I didn’t want to tell you because i didnt want you to think of me as a monster” why did you do that stuff then bro . Kirby you SHOULDNT trust someone after they say that? How naive? Huh ?

omg hello jeffs grandma!!!!! she deserves better than every shitshow in this family... god🤨 dominique being a good person? i like to see that. she seems so genuine. ok this is nice . wait... SAFE? 😳😳😳😳 💴 💵 #money i miss monica

why do they never have sufficient lifhting in WAIT..... HER?????? #dumbofass HI JEFF <33333333 HI you can scam and whatever ur allowed to i support u

ooohhhh GORGEOUS fallon outfit

“Such a fail” IS THIS 2012 . CRINE HEIDJWJFIWNDWJDNWKFJW ENJDJSDJWJNDJWJD they keep saying folklore and im thinking its some sort of reference to the album and i get confused. wheres scheming fallon. need scheming fallon. do a scheme. do it

“We are that lucky couple” press x to doubt .... wait who is this🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔 this seems cincerning im cocnentwd why did it zoom in on this random man

[chikkou]

It always confused me why Buzzo said Lisa would love Olathe because like..... a bunch of murderous men running around trying to rape any girl they can get their hands on doesn’t rlly seem up her alley, but I was thinking abt ur response to why Lisa is the so called “worst” person and honestly like. Yeah. If she could like look down and see a world where all the women had died semi-peacefully (especially considering she opted to take her own life to escape abuse and considered death to be the better option) and men (especially the men who had “failed” her) were in a nasty hellscape murdering each other and tormenting each other and ODing and transforming into the literal monsters she saw Marty as- I feel like she would be pretty cool with it. Like I imagine she’d feel for Buddy but part of it seems like “oh men wanna act like a bunch of monsters? BET” like of the 3 men in Lisa’s life, Marty was obviously evil, brad clearly let her down in some significant way in the father epilogue, and bernard i dont think made a huge moral failing but he didn’t succeed in saving her from Marty, and I think she wouldn’t be mad that they’re all tormenting each other for her.

im honestly in complete agreement, and id actually take it further and say that lisa was so neglected by everyone in her life (again, except buzzo) that i think she would be over the moon knowing that her death directly led to the creation of what is essentially hell on earth, but only for the awful men that would victimize and harm women (hell, even the relatively harmless character nern spends his entire intro shit talking his fucking dead wife), and that to this day they still fight over her and blame themselves for what happened to her, because especially in brad and martys case, it really IS their fault (though obviously way more marty than brad)

and i definitely find it noteworthy that resort island (which i know is a kickstarter side area, but still) is pretty much identical to the bile-filled area in lisa the first, and even includes a bunch of the marty mutants from that game worshipping a golden idol (though in this case its a fucked up version of yados trumpet instead of a cross) and the tv marty as well. ive heard theories that perhaps lisa was somehow involved in the making of olathe and/or saw some of the proto-mutants before she died, thus how they made it into her dreamscape, but personally i think of it as the opposite, that maybe she told buzzo about those thoughts/dreams and he got yado to incorporate it into an area to sort of memorialize her. just a thought!

and as for the father epilogue, yeah i definitely agree about your interpretation of it. its hard for me to completely blame brad since he was a kid for most of the abuse (and definitely was underage during the father epilogue), but there was clearly a significant age gap between him and lisa that i guesstimate to be around 7-10 years of difference, meaning he could have absolutely fought to take lisa with him when he left and didnt. the fact that he chose to leave her with marty may be one of the things he is most regretful about and one of the things lisa resented him the most for, and it explains why buzzo was so quiet in his karate class. i dont think brad even knew that he and lisa were friends, given that he asks buzzo if everything is alright at home and doesnt seem to realize that buzzo is upset about whats going on with lisa

ok one last thing thats slightly related, but i really do enjoy that the painful made it a point to have some tranquil areas to show that humanity didnt completely go off its rocker. the beehive is my favorite example of this, and not just because it has queen roger (who is a surprisingly good depiction of a drag queen that doesnt feel transmisogynist) - the lgbt community, or what was left of it, found a place to be safe and be themselves, and no one bothers them. if someone tries to start shit, they are swiftly dealt with, but its a pure case of “dont start none, wont be none” - brad doesnt cause any problems with them, so they are completely harmless, and everyone benefits. the beehive really sends the message that people who do wrong in olathe get punished pretty quickly, but the people who truly just want to live their lives and not hurt anyone else can live in relative safety. its actually kind of a sweet message dshkfds

[instafuck]

COMFORT MEDIA POST HAHA

my comfort media is SOOOO embarassing its sooo cringe cringe is dead but my comfort media is CRINGEE okay so.. god theres no good place to start so ill go w least offensive first

- titanic

ive simply seen it so much i was so obsessed with the titanic when i was a kid that the librarian ordered more books about it when they got new ones every year for me personally bc she knew id check out all the titanic books over and over she literally told me one time when the titanic movie would be on tv and what channel even though it was airing at like 11pm-2am but i think it was so my parents wouldnt get mad at me seeing me watch it bc s3x scene she was literally the coolest so all that makes me <3

- rick and morty

IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SOOOO SORRY its just so familiar and ive seen it since i was 11 so i dont even like it that much and only admit to having seen some of it but its comfort bc i can turn my brain off and relax and its familiar

- futurama

SAME SHIT SEE ABOVE

- twilight zone

ive seen it since i was baby so its just part of a constant in my life and the first time i watched it like start to finish was during quarantine b4 qe knew it was quarantine (school was "temporarily" out) and i was going thru some things uncorrelated to quarantine but in short like i wasnt eating and i was having major identity crisis and i would only eat like tortilla w cheese dipped in ranch but even that made me sick so i would just stop eating it and watch twilight zone

- thomas and friends

THIS IS THE BIG ONE im not even embarrassed!!!!!! i had totes of the toys when i was a kid the metal take a longs i have the old ones on vhs i still watch them i always watch it idc the narrators (ringo starr, alec baldwin, johnny morris...) their voices literally make my mind tinglingly numb like post jerk off numb and i will unironically rant abt the beauty of the sets the sunsets they made and the softness of the grass and trees and their voices idc idc idc i watched it all thru hs and still do to this day sue me!!

- sword art online

first anime i watched didnt even know what anime was i was in middle school something abt it got my attention so solidly i stared at the screen in my dark ass room in my chair thinking of and doing nothing else i literally was so isolated back then and had no friends i literally lost months of my life to sao and i watch it when im bedriddenly sick bc i do the same thing ebery fckng time i watch it my mind just glosses over like a glazed donut bc it just takes me back to that

- carrie

this one is more recent i only watched it start to end the first time out of nowhere last year but since then something abt it just. makes me feel like crazy time im insane now i will stay up for days after watching tht movie

- regular show

i mean do i even need to explain... i seen it since i was very young and its like ingrained in my brain literally the reason i say yea-yuh and i didnt even like. intentionally i just realized when i rewatched it recently that i say it and that must b the reason why

- heathers

i have watched this movie on endless loop since i was about 12 i know every word i literally can talk along with it without looking its just... the music, the cinematography in some scenes all is just.. too much 4 me

- john dies at the end

idk i walked in on my dad watching it late at night when i was like 10 and he let me stay he didnt say a word so i just. i couldn't tell u what its abt bc i always fall asleep in the first 20 mins bc its comforting bc i just remember it and watched it

honourable mentions

- steven universe

OKAY NOTHING MORE CRINGE THAN SAYING SU IS COMFORT MEDIA MAYBE but listen. ive been the same age as steven since the air date and idk what cosmic nightmares done this to me but its like so much of the like. lessons taught were pertinent to my life at the time and i literally grew up w steven LITERALLY THE SAME AGE our birthdays are less than a month apart so i just connected with it so hard and the reason its only an honourable is bc i dont think ill ever watch it again. literally ever. its too personal to me bc so many of the conflicts and lessons i made such a personal connection to and drew parallels to that it literally is actually painful bc i just remember all that junk when i watch it ajshhdis horrid! dont blame me tho i was like 13 and going thru stuff w no one to talk to abt it no friends rlly and it was just my outlet :/

- digimon!

i never watched it truly as a kid but i watched it in middle school! and got so into it but then i stopped and forgot everything abt it so when i watch it now its very relaxing and i just like feel whole akdjjs bc its a very good thing from middle school era even tho middle school era was HORRIBLEEE FOR MEEE THE EMOTIONAL TURMOIL THE FAMILY DRAMA THE EVERYTHINGG but except digimon ❣ it just doesnt quite hit the comfort media mark 4 me

- jurassic park!

i rlly love this series and ive seen it as long as i can remember but idk that its rlly comfort media moreso just a series i rlly like... the BOOK is DEFO comfort for me tho its one of the only books i remember reading all the way thru by choice as a kid

[aresfms]

「 harry styles. cismale. he/him. 」i hope that #lexsquad member「 ARES BYERS 」adds me to the squad ! the 「 TWENTY THREE 」year old 「 FINANCE 」 major has been apart of the squad since 「 DECEMBER 2018 」and seems to be the 「 THE RECUSANT」of the group.「 ARES 」is a「 SENIOR 」 and seems to enjoy 「 BOXING AND SOCCER 」but you can always find them at a squad party , too !

listen don’t say i didn’t warn you, this is a lil long. but if you guys are interested in any connections ( scroll down to the end for some ideas ) then pls hit me up. im so ready.

okay basically i’ll do a summary in case y’all dont wanna read his SAD story. tw: domestic abuse, abandonment, alcohol abuse. 

Summary: ARES BYERS, 23, SENIOR.

A finance major at LexU.

He’s currently doing both soccer and boxing, but soccer would be for his athletic scholarship. ( he has a full ride )

Boxing would definitely be like more of an anger relief thing and honestly, he defs loves soccer but he knows he can’t rely on that for a forever thing. plus he defs things boxing is good money, yknow that side hustle illegal shit

Loves art like a lot.

 He visits his siblings probably every other day or whenever he can because he really is so protective of them or he’d even bring them to campus all the time even though his “ step dad” hates it.

His relationship with his mum is still super strained because she really is in denial about her toxic abusive situation with his “step dad”  and hes trying to tell her hes going to get her out and she just does not want to.

His mum is an alcoholic and his stepdad is physically abusive to them like most of her past partners which is something ares has been dealing with since he was a child.

hes solely doing finance to get a good job to get his mum and siblings out of the situation theyre in now.

he wants sole custody of his 3 siblings but i mean, he needs a stable job and place to live aka finance

 has 3 younger sisters who he adores.

HISTORY STUFF ( YIKES SOZ ) Its long everybody.

 He was born to teenage parents who hadn’t even graduated high school yet. They had a pretty tumultuous situation and his dad really didn’t think they should have a kid, but his mum thought that it would bring them closer together and make his dad mature…. Which definitely didn’t end up happening.

once Ares was born his dad stuck around for about a year or two before basically abandoning them and offering to give up parental rights to his mum Alycia.

That’s when things basically just went downhill. It really messed with his mum, obviously she was supporting ares on her own with no support from anyone, no family and very little money, at the time she had been trying to go to school but had to give that up once she was the sole provider for Ares. And the fact that someone she thought was going to be her partner abandoned her just led her down a pretty dark path.

It was just his mum and him after this. There wasn’t a lot of stability for them. His mum for a while was the only family he had. his grandma wasn’t really very supportive of his mum having the baby and living with his dad etc and they’re relationship was quite strained too.

• By the time Ares was about 12 he was already probably mature beyond his years, his mum by then had basically gave herself up to alcohol and had some pretty bad shady boyfriends in the house. Ares would definitely still vividly remember like explosive fights between her and boyfriends where things got physical between them and even to Ares from multiple different boyfriends.

His schooling was just.. a mess he definitely repeated a grade or two because of the commotion of home life.

Regardless though he was still VERY protective of his mum even if he felt pretty abandoned by her, he was just confused why she was letting these people come around when they were better on just the two of them. But that really didn’t last long, his mum ended up having multiple other kids with different people.

 So he has Maeva, Orion and Lea who are his half siblings and theyre all under 12.

I  think he definitely grew up faster than most because he always felt an urge to protect his mum and his siblings now especially. he worried about them all. He was definitely an anxious kid.

• His mum ended up marrying but honestly Ares couldn’t hate his stepfather more. He would refuse and still does refuse to call him dad or stepdad because he truly thinks he’s a piece of shit. Like he knows he treats his mum like shit and hes had no problem being physical with the both of them and once ares got old enough he really did start fighting back which only made it worse.

There’s probably been multiple times where its been ares calling the police on him after he fought with his mum but as usual his mum always takes his side which honestly fucked ares up constantly but eventually as soon as he could he was working even at like 13/14 because he was desperate to save money thinking he could help his family get out of the fucking mess they were in.

 His number one priority is and will always be his mum and his sisters even though deep down I think he has some kind of resentment towards his mum he’ll always love her. He just wishes that she would take his side especially against his “ step dad”

Basically though once he was about that age he realised he really needed to start focusing on school, grades and sport anything he could so he had some kind of chance to get into a good uni and get his family out of everything. Like he knew he’d need somewhere he could get a full ride since theyd never be able to afford it and somewhere still nearby so he could look after his sisters still.

 His stepdad knew though that ares was working even when he wasn’t supposed to be and he really took advantage of that, he was definitely beyond lazy and ares basically always felt more of a parent to his sister than anyone else.

 So basically he ended up graduating – late however he was 19 when he graduated high school because of repeats and luckily enough he got a full ride to Lexington university and he really took it within a heartbeat. He ended up choosing finance not because its anything he’s interested in but because he wanted something that would pay really well so he can support his family, but he knew he didn’t have 8 years to do medical school etc.

Personality:

 he can have a shitty attitude won’t lie, like he’s very focused and set on what he wants and needs to do and he wants no one getting in the way of that.

He’s super into boxing to release a lot of the pent up anger he obviously feels and really because he wanted to know how to fight back all the assholes his mum had in his life.

He is can be extroverted and talkative but I think with the people who aren’t close to him or to people he doesn’t have a real trust in it’s probably a pretty surface level. Its never about his family or past in fact I think that part would be something very few if any people know about.

his sisters aka his pride and joy, he probs has pictures of them in his wallet.

He likes to keep things light hearted as a distraction from himself but he definitely doesn’t let people in easily.

He really tries to avoid confrontation because it’s so triggering to him but he does have a temper which is what scares him. He is like paranoid he’s going to become a product of his environment so he goes against that as much as he can but if people come for his family or anything he would lose it.

Can be aloof.

 Has a hard time trusting anyone has good motives or will stick around because of much he’s been abandoned and how manipulative the people in his mums were.

He’s cynical.

 He really holds onto grudges pretty easily.

His ass is pretty sarcastic and witty, a huge smart ass.

 He’s not into commitment right now or he’s avoiding. Like the only examples he’s ever seen of relationships have been a mess and it’s not exactly his priority. ( but lbr  whats the fun in that. )

 He tries to abstain from alcohol but he finds that pretty hard. When he does he tends to drink pretty heavily which is why he tries not to because he knows it obviously has caused his mum so much grief.

 Hes an escapist.

 He’s really super protective though, of the people he does have in his life I think he really wants to give those people the things he didn’t have so he overcompensates and would literally fight whatever or whoever for the people around him.

he hates authority.

•He definitely is really big into art but that’s also something really personal he doesn’t share much and he knows like that isn’t going to provide for his family which is exactly why he's done finance.

Connections:

MY FAVE PART!!!

Long lost half sibling aka the child his dad had after he abandoned him

Someone who is a super good influence on his sisters ( id die for this.. )

Strangers who found out they were hooking up with the same person then became friends or enemies. ( my man a nastie sometimes. )

A FWB someone he can mess with and end up talk a little deeply with bc they think its not serious.

ANYONE who is a kid of one of his mums exes, like someone she dated, bc whew why not.

a rebound, someone he used to try to get over his ex!!

a fucking roomie plssss :) ( or past roomie, he lived off campus for 3 years so defs room for multiples ) this person rlly saw... everything

someone who went on a couple dates/ messed around but then realised omg we’d be so much better off as friends, somoene who rlly has each others back.

ooo someone who has an unrequited crush on him

Or someone he hates but yknow someone who he has mad sexual tension with ( hate meaning they lowkey would ravage each other )

One of his close confidants, someone who is basically one of the few people he can confide in.

An “ex “ who he broke up without much explanation.

His dealer ( smh im the worst )

Some co workers that has his back.

Potentially someone he’s fought against esp someone who does boxing too. es

Someone on his soccer team.

he very into art, so potentially someone who he might connect or do that with, he defs shows stuff sometimes but VVVV rarely.

someone he maybe wasnt that close w/ but he knows from back home so they’d suspect about his home life and he just is not having the prying :)

Honestly any connections im down. THE USUAL, bestfriends, etc etc

[zishuwu]

hey! i dont know if you celebrate thanksgiving, but in the spirit! tag some of your closest friends on here to show you're grateful if you want to!

hi!! i don’t usually but 4 u i will!!! these r just a couple!! ok ok 

@love4marklee ally is probably one of my really close friends on here bc ,,, wow,,, what DONT i tell ally abt ngl.... its INSANE. like smth happens n im like. ally. ull NEVER believe what just happened. n allys like aw shit here we go again,,, angel can u NEVER sit still. n here we r. ally literally means the most to me n i love her with all my heart soul body astral projection,,,, ive known her for,,, too long now n oh shit? i genuinely love her thank u for everything ally :) u make me sosoosososo happy n ways u dont understand and thats OK !!! i just love the dumb tiktoks u send n have a scary ability of messaging exactly when i open the app or when ive just left the house to go out. its wild . i appreciate all of ur messages tho dont get it twisted i love u sosososo much :)

@1beloved N^2 WILL NEVER DIE. if nao n i ever meet,,,, the absolute CHAOS. that would happen,,,, oh, my, gods, y’all r lucky we live in diff places,,,, but one day y’all will COWER in our strength bc i too love nao with my everything !!! naos so cool n cute n chaotic,,,, what DOESNT nao have??? they remind me of like cooler nights in the city just chilling with friends n like. raving in the middle of target or smth nao is SO COOL n im eternally grateful to have met her and to be her friend,,,, wow,,,, N UR BASS VIDEOS,,,, I HOPE ITS OK,,,, but like i love it !! u playh for me n show me ur progress n im!! always so excted!!! aaaHh!!!

@doublelutz  hi!!!! asma,,,, wow,,,,, WOW,,,,, there r so many things to say i could not even begin nor end its INSANE but i adore u all the same !!! asmas so cool and funny and absolutely adorable! her antics and storytelling ability never fails to make me laugh :”) she talks rlly fast on the phone n like i just brain slow mode n im like. hello. n then she GIGGLES n its like. whooooosh !! uk!!!! im just really really grateful for asma :) she’s amazing n wonderful n caring n kind n considerate n i rlly cld go on forever like wow heart emoji personified for asma n asma ONLY. boom boom POW i love u !!!

@xiaocity hello siya :( listen. siya just. SIYA. uk ?? n ive uve ever talked to siya i can guarantee that u were endeared in all ways possible shes so DYNAMIC n like whoosh boom boom pow crush!!!!! she kills everything she does. shes like a+ here a+ there oh look? im the best person alive? yeah . yeah she IS . like thats my BABY

@perks-of-being-a-violinist hannah!!!! hi i feel like i met hannah two months ago but suddenly i tell hannah abt everything like im like a five yr old talking to hannah im so unsure as to why she still talks to me im like that kid who draws this absolute terrible drawing n is like LOOK BE PROUD OF ME n hannah is the one who sighs n tapes it on the fridge. yeah. but i loev hannah for everything n anything like hannah will breathe n ill be liketake notes angel. thats how u be amazing. like hannah is just all around a great person?? shes kind and wonderful and cool n im so sos o so so grateful im friends w her. she makes me rlly happy n im like wow! shes so positive n like look on the bright side!!!! n im like boo emo n she like ok. but positivity n uk what. i respect that. im grateful for her. 

@leoomoon SAMAAAAAAAAA hello!!!! i love  u!!!! me n samaa talk once a century or week or two n im like. adoration face? on. i just. love samaa w every inch of my body n soul like i cant help that!!! u message back n my braincells flip theyre like its samaaa its SAMAA pick up ur phone fuck biology pick up the PHONEEEEEE its odd but. thats how that works !! u also make me really reallylyyy happy !! samaa,,, best person alive? yes. theyre like hi im here for u n the times u fuck up n im like !! same for u !! but this time i did smth REALLY dumb ,,, n theyre like sigh,,,, why r u always doing such last minute crap,,,, n iim like. ik i do this to myself but. pls. KNJDFKJNSDJKNFJKDKJF idk samaa is just so cool n nice n SUPER UBER cool n understanding n compassionate i cld go on for centuries rlly but ill stop here w a im grateful for u :)

@limitlessjohnny aaaaAAAAh last but def CERTAINLY not least. hayden is like,,, whoooooo!!! if i dont talk to hayden at least once im like. is smth wrong.... maybe i shld send an ily. thats it there we go. n thats that !!! id k i just like get worried rlly fast ! if im on insta,,, im probably talking to hayden ! i love them sm sm sm !! they dont mind when im dumb or when i respond late when im sleeping !! n they always tell me to get rest n somehow know when im awake??? FREAKY. but appreciated habit. they also tell me cool stories !!! like they tell me things they do n places they go n things to keep in mind abt college n life advice hello older sibling i wish i had :( i love love love hayden sm !! aaaaAAAAAh !!!! i rlly cld go on n on w hayden n how cool they are!! but i shldnt forget to mention im grateful for how sympathetic n open they are !! i rlly value tht n like aim to be so open?? wow??? omg

[sorrelstream]

ravenpaw or nightcloud?

Im doin...both >:^) 

Ravenpaw

Do I like them?: Hell yeah!!! Hes one of my favorite toms for wc!!! 

How I picture them: ohhh honestly just standard wc fandom ravenpaw HSSKKS i see him as a black oriental shorthair w a white tail tip and a lil locket! Hes gangly and Doesnt Work His Limbs properly aka trips over, everything 

How I would write them: ooooh honestly i wouldnt. Have made tigerclaw his mentor i wouldve made redtail his mentor?? Or literally Anyone else HUOY 

Unpopular Opinion: the albino ravenpaw design is cool and if people were all over albino scourge i really dont understand why ppl r pissy abt the albino ravenpaw one 

Nightcloud

Do I like them?: !!!! YES!!!! Shes in my top faves too i love her so much shes Very Special to me 

How I picture them: another oriental shorthair XHSKSK i imagine her fur isnt rlly smooth like crows tho and shes actually Really Tall and well built; her ears are battered up bc shes usually put on the frontline for battles bc she knows what shes doing yall 

How I would write them: eugh i wouldnt. demonize her throughout the po3 and oots arc like the erins did and id actually give her more interactions w the three or squirrel/leaf that arent totally venomous bc apparently the erins think women cant Ever Be Friends after having kids. Id like to at least give her one heartfelt talk abt her family life w crow/breeze bc crow treated her and her kid Awful 

Unpopular Opinion: she wasnt....abusive...to breezepelt...................she was a good mom and just bc she fought w crow bc of his negligent attitude towards breezepelt (especially as he was growing up) doesnt mean she was toxic or abusive to her child???????? Huh?????? Anyways 

[pure-o-soft]

hi im feeling really bad about myself because i just rememberer when i was what like 11 or 12 maybe 13 i had a dog who had 2 liters of puppies before hand and bc of that her nipples were like rlly weird n long and i remembered when i used to rub her belly id touch them and be like “ha squish soft weird” (nothing sexual at all and it wasnt harming her of course) but looking back i feel like i dont deserve my dog now? i love her more than anything and i feel like i dont deserve to live? (1)

and i told my mother this and she’s like “it literally wasnt sexual at all? and no its not like assaulting a real child. shes a dog. and no i know what sexual assault against animals is and thats not it?” And i just cant believe her for some reason? Its like everything i didnt think twice ab before bc shes a dog like masterbating with her on the bed or changing in front of her or petting her while she licks herself clean after she goes to the bathroom is all coming back at me and im like (2)

-i’m like freaking out over it that im a bad doggy parent and i know im not my dog loves me i never intentionally harm her but im just scared that i did something unforgivable and people would me and that i hurt my dog and now i dont even wanna touch her or look at her bc i feel guilty and i just need some reassurance from you or just from confessing that im not bad? do i sound like a danger to you? I swear im not. (3)

and like i remember doing it in front of my mom right to see if she would say stop or im doing something wrong bc i think even at that age i didnt know? i dont think she said to stop but maybe she did and i was just like psh im not hurting her its a doggy too. Bc she wasnt bothered by it a d it wasnt sexual i was just a stupid ass child and i can tell myself i didnt know any better but what if she DID tell me to stop so technically i DID know better? my mom thinks im overreacting but fuck man

and also i just cant stop thinking ab all the bad things i may have done that are maybe bad or not. how do i even let go of that. its in my head non stop. i cant say i never hurt anyone bc what if i did? what if im an animal abuser? what if i hurt my dog? what if im a bad person? how do i even go on with life knowing i may be a bad person. i dont wanna be alive if im a sicko or i hurt someone or could in the future.

Hi there!

I can tell this is bringing you a lot of grief. I can’t imagine how hard it must be to have these thoughts and fears about someone you love so much! Obsessions can really become consuming and make it hard to think of anything else! I know that this fear and guilt can really put a wedge between you and the things that you love, but you can get your peace of mind back and feel comfortable with your doggie again!

It is important to mention that where obsessions are concerned, even though it may not feel like it now, it’s never the theme that is the problem. Meaning it’s not the fear that you may have hurt your dog, it’s the process of obsessing and doing compulsions. Compulsions can often times be hard to spot, and even seem meaningless at the time. But they are a silent killer! Reassurance seeking, confessing, checking and avoidance are all mental compulsions (and all behaviours that you mentioned doing or seeking above). Doing these things is a response to the anxiety you’re feeling, but it actually continues the cycle of obsessing and makes anxiety worse. It’s how people can get stuck in a constant pattern of obsessing, and not know how to stop or where they’re going wrong! I know that being in the anxiety can be so unbearable and uncomfortable, but often times the best thing to do is to sit in it! Compulsions validate the intrusive and obsessive thoughts, so when you don’t do them, you tell those thoughts that you aren’t giving them the time of day and that they aren’t important! Of course, stopping compulsions are easier said than done. This is where getting help from a professional and coping mechanisms can come in! I think it would really be worth your time to talk to a doctor or a mental health professional about what you’re experiencing (mention not just the content of your thoughts but how these thoughts are effecting you and your daily life and mental health). 

From an outsiders perspective, like your mom, your actions and worries will seem very strange and irrational. Which is because these thoughts are irrational! 

I’ll offer a coping mechanism that will hopefully help you for the time being (but remember that it would still be best to talk to someone about what’s going on). Whenever you get a thought like “what if I did something inappropriate with my dog” or any variation of that, you can respond as sarcastically as you can! Something like “ya suuuure, Sharon. Whatever you say.” I know this can seem weird, and even feel it when you’re doing it, but this can help to make your thoughts feel less serious and frightening.

I hope this helps, and please know that you can get through this!

[cow3survivor]

Ep. 4: “Trying To Cover Ur Murderous Tracks” - Jones

JENNET 

nash isnt on my tribe but i cant help but feel bad for them :((( the last two days that we were together as old calumma i actually started to connect with them. they will be missed 💔

(a little later)

why am i obsessed with ethan ? *insert meme of that tiktoker just standing there*

(after building a bamboo bed)

super nervous for immunity, if we end up losing i think i might try to push for pennino bc he pissed me off the other night saying he wouldnt be available for the comp and literally SITTING THERE watching us do the comp... i really like sam and ethan (tbh more than i like lindsay and jabari) but thats only bc of how much we communicate with each other idk i do know lindsay wants to push for pennino too bc she was annoyed it too so maybe let her do all the pushing and if it backfires, just push for her to go😳

JESSICA

No song 4 today Last round we voted out Nash. That was not my ideal choice (I wanted Nicole to go) but Pete was paranoid Nicole may have an idol, that Nicole/Mikey/Nash were secretly working together, or just that something might go down. He also trusts Nicole for reasons unknown. I didn't love leaving Mikey in the dark (I think that really only helped Pete, not me) but I was nervous that if I pushed Nicole too hard as the vote, Pete would vote Mikey and then that was really the worst case scenario. If we lose this round, I am voting Nicole no question. She asked me what happened after the vote + if we could talk which I thought was great! I sent her an explanation that basically said I didn't trust Nash because they did not talk to me, I was worried OG Calumma was still a thing, and I didn't trust Nicole because she didn't start talking to me until after we lost + she left me on read a lot. And what does she do right after I sent that? Leave me on read again! I was excited to work with her when we first swapped but I don't see that happening at all now. The nice thing is because Pete lied to her, Mikey and Nicole voted each other, AND Lovelis was already initially down to vote Nicole, I'm hoping if we lose the vote is really easy. I also don't think Nicole has the idol because.... ...I found it! Okay, no I didn't. I did find a ruby though. I think that in each quadrant of the adventure, there is a gem and the four gemstones combined will make an idol. I already have 1, I have a good idea of where it could be in the north, and most importantly I am pretty sure Nicole has no advantages. I think if she had an idol, she might have played it last round, but my guess is that there is only one idol in the game and no one has it yet. However right now I'm not sharing this information with anyone. I hope that if we lose, Pete votes for Mikey out of paranoia (and that Nicole does as well) which means moving forward, Mikey really only has me and that's an alliance I can keep long term. I do also think that we are potentially swapping after this OR we will do a double tribal after this and swap then. I do not want us to lose twice because that's when things get tricky but if we do, I think I will be set up well enough that no one is coming for me.

PETE 

so my og Brookesia alliance of jessica and lovelis (plus me) they want to vote out Nicole but i reeeeaaally don’t wanna do that. Nicole and I had this talk of moving on from our past so if I just vote her out first chance I get that’d just be a huge dick move. They for some reason believe Mikey which I honestly don’t, I think he may be a little weasel. Nash doesn’t talk to me at all, so i’m hoping maybe I can shift the vote onto Nash by scaring them with the thought of Nicole having and idol

(after dropping his rice into the sand)

AAAAAAAAHHHHHH IDIDIT I DID IT IDIDIT literally i have THE biggest fucking knot in my stomach i was SO fUcking NERVOUS this is so fuckignw crazy i cant skdjdbxsjkdb i’ve NEVER been in control of a vote before like everything i told someone to do they did like i’m not gonna get all like egotistical and all that but like sjkdsxkdbsjjdjxjdkdb ive never been in this position before it’s wild i’m usually like the mikey. like i’m just there, hoping people include me but kinda just scraping by until they decide it’s my turn to leave and NOW!!!! I JUST BLINDSIDED SOMEBODYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

JENNET

trying really hard to do this comp and my arthritis is making my hands spasm :(( powering thru and hopefully we dont go to tribal. if we do im afraid that im going to be voted out :((

JABARI

So i scored for the tribe which is great but then we tie and there is tower of hanoi. Lets just say ill never play that game again but I swear im not giving up no sir....they said they wouldnt boot me because of it but ima make sure of it.

JENNET 

in love with ethan hes the best person in the world

(after staring at Ethan)

really sucks going to tribal council and i know i let my team down so now im trying to find a way- SOME WAY to remind them that old calumma wanted to go after pennino next and to hopefully keep ethan out of the fire. sam approached me about an alliance with him and ethan and tbf idc what anybody calls me or what they think but im honestly closer to the too of them than to anybody on the tribe- closer to ethan than i was to jake even😳

LINDSAY

https://drive.google.com/file/d/12YzvXBooOu3lndrE99YopPOcO4VEAYYB/view?usp=drivesdk lmk if this works also fun fact i just tried to open the camera on the computer im borrowing and the computer bluescreened lol i hate it here

SAM

https://youtu.be/M4E00bmBj0A

PETE

The way this game is going Id say that I’m probably closest with Jessica just because we’ve been talking since the start, she’s really nice & enthusiastic, and we’ve agreed so far on the things that need to happen so we share a lot of information with each other. Lovelis is a little bit of a wild card because he never really talks that much so I’m going to try to bond with him more so that he doesn’t feel like just another number.

LOVELIS

Who knew we’d pull out a win with flash games! Maybe we need to stop shitting on then and start praying for more of them to pop up here LMAO. So glad I can just have this day to speak to people a bit more and just relax a little - I feel like me Jess and Pete are in a comfortable position within this tribe so I’m praying for no more funny business with another premerge swap but I’m tryna stay on my toes!

ETHAN

Ok so tribal time: I am in a minority position right now and it is looking sketchy. I feel like I am going because of how Jabari and Jennet have not talked to me at all today and instead have ghosted me. I have something, but not sure if I want to play it. Do I trust people, or do I just full send and blow it up? Time shall tell

JESSICA 

Yay we won immunity! I love getting my Dolphin Olympics redemption arc, it's been 6 years in the making.

PENNINO

Now, it's 4 hours before the first tribal as Furcifer, and I think that us from OG Calumma will go and do a Pagong to Ethan and Sam. Since Ethan was a beast in  the comps, and we want to keep tribal lines, that puts Sam up for the chopping block. As for Nash leaving, no surprise. Honestly, I feel pretty safe and now i'm just waiting for another swap.

MADISON

I don't know how I've survived four rounds but here we are. I think I've legit gotten the lowest score in the past 2 challenges but everyone else is a beast so I get to stay safe for another round. The downside to being safe so long is that there isn't really a lot of gameplay happening over on Planet Brookesia and some of us might be a little bit too comfy so that when swap time comes or we lose the next challenge, it'll be scramble city to figure something out.

JAKE

https://youtu.be/Hz-Ix0ZeQ7E y'all when I tell you i'm manic just thinking about crazy fringe theories related to this game lmaoooooo

JONES

ok bet lets get strategic:tm: i feel like a lot of my confessionals are rlly like ,, , , ,me just talking ab "wow i rlly like this person, not this person so and so and whatnot" and i haven't rlly gotten to bare bones like ,, what i'm thinking ab game wise ? for starters - i think i'm in a rlly good spot surprisingly? LIKE don't get me wrong its fking dangerous being in a 4-2 but i think i'm set up super super well? i'm officially working with all of Daisy, Sammy, Shane, and Jake, and am in an alliance w everyone of those people besides Sammy. but sammy has vouched saying that he does want to work w me and has my back and i don't have like,, any reason to doubt that rn ? unfortunately the only way to rlly like ,, ,, have everyone prove their trust to me is by going to tribal aldksfjasdlfj but i dont rlly see a reason for them to like ,, , lie to me ? esp when we haven't gone to tribal? i don't see the point in marinating someone this isn't among us and ur trying to cover ur murderous tracks,,, but ya ? i'm in a good spot. i think based on my alliances and allies and whatnot, and i've stated this already so this isn't rlly a surprise, but madison would probs be the target if we'd have to go to tribal. and Jake has stated to me too that he hasn't rlly talked to madison that much either so it doesn't seem like an uncommon thought process. after the challenge tiebreaker yesterday , the newly formed ALLEANCHE! kind of came together as the 4 most active people on the tribe so it SEEMS like it would be madison AND sammy getting targetted and , ,, , sammy going for me isn't rlly cash money bc if sammy DOES have my back then that's me losing one of MY allies,, but i don't think we're going to enough tribals before another swap for that to actually be a thing ? so hopefully if we do go to tribal it'd be madison and not sammy, but i think i, if not i then maybe jake LOL, can make a good case for madison to go over sammy. speaking of jake i have a rlly bad gut feeling that i'm gonna have to think ab cutting him soon - or at least before merge. i've kinda been letting him take the reigns since preswap to make him kind of look like a leader ish ? so i'm rlly hoping that like ,, , hypothetically speaking. lets say i'm AGAIN put on another tribe w jake (bc lbr we're swapping again),, and lets say hypothetically they wanna split up the supposed "duo" of myself and jake,,, whos the smarter person to take out - the leader whos kinda been calling the shots and making the alliances since round 1, or the person whos proven themself to be reliable and to keep their team safe and be able to go to bat for their team ? idk IDK that's just me but i definitely think like ,, in terms of a building threat level i think jake is definitely the easier target asldkfjasd which is UNFORTUNATE like i LOVE JAKE but i feel like if it comes to me and jake and jake is putting me in DANGER then , ,, well,, :( i gotta do what i gotta DO i'm pawned as old reliable for a reason :katenails: but ya uhm,,, shane/daisy/jake/i were talking on call after the tiebreaker ab what could happen and we all basically agreed theres no way in hell that there ISN'T another swap on the horizon or at least like,, a twist or something. u can't just swap at 18 on a 20 person cast and just expect us to sit like lil ducks on sunday brunch, if anything we're probs gonna swap at like ,, , , , 15? OR hosts are cracked and swap us NEXT ROUND bc they're sadistic. but ya there's def another swap it rlly just depends on when and whos there to experience it - i.e whether or not i'm gonna have security from my allies or not ya feel? i feel. also there's definitely probs like ,, , ,a double tribal. or smth. or like, smth crazy and dumb and stupid that i don't have the brain capacity to rlly comprehend. but ya hope i win this was a good strategy talk #fruciferandcallumathrowchallenge

NICOLE

Hello!!! Nash went home and I'm sad so I am PROTESTING confessionals! You won't know anything that is happening with me! Nothing! (Just kidding nothing happened this round, everyone ignored me and then we won immunity so they had no need to)

SHANE

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1TxoVh69i2GPA-agNAfyW0G-Bu07weXyZ?usp=sharing

SAMMY

so I had to write a paper and I'm rushing to get this in...blinks...whats new anyways I have been so off in like the idol hunting and I have felt so detached from this game since I have only been to tribal once? but I think the people in danger would be like Madison or Jake? they have both been brought up to me by daisy...and in all seriousness I would be fine with that? I honestly really am only prioritizing Jones and Daisy in this tribe. I feel fine with my position in this game and I even got a point from the flash games. Luckily Daisy won for us in the tiebreaker and we were able to barely escape tribal. I really do hope I can continue to avoid tribal so that I can get as far into this to make it to the more individual stage of this game.

DAISY

https://youtu.be/3kCYnxDIdQY

TRIBAL COUNCIL

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Your opinion on: BTS Armys Twice Muji

oof ok those are p heavy opinions adskj i hope i dont offend anyone just know that im a literal salt mine so proceed with caution:

bts: fun fact i used to be a fan of them back in the day n i knew them when they debuted (wasn’t rlly a fan at the time though) but i haven’t liked their music much since 2015 so ://

armys: look im not gonna generalize this and say that all armys are scary stalkers and honestly disgusting in the way that they talk about their idols (all that fanfiction about ppl irl who arent together and rlly havent done anything to make ppl believe that they would ever be together ?? oof i mean go ahead and continue but im gonna pretend it doesnt exist for peace of mind tbh) because id like to think the majority of their fans arent like that. im sure there are lots of vv sweet n respectful armys (katy/hobifulstudies for example !!). what rlly bothered me though was when i was mourning jonghyun n watching all his performances w/shinee n everything, a girl at my school brought bts into everything and im like ??? for ex, i was watching taemin’s danger dance practice (to relive old memories yknow) and all she can say is ‘bts has a song called danger too’ and,,, maybe, on another day, before my ultimate and fave singer ever committed suicide i wouldn’t have thought much of this (i was emotionally a bit fragile at the time) but,, overall it just really annoyed me how she said this kinda stuff all the time. it’s like we’re talking about this one group so please don’t bring ur faves into this ?? it’s common courtesy ??? ive dealt with a lot of armys like this and tbh ive never had this issue with other fans. oops sry for rambling i have lots more to say but ill just cut it off here c:

twice: cailin is gonna kill me but im not a huge fan of twice n i think theyre kinda overrated sryyyy aah but theyre vv cute n pretty !! they seem like cool ppl too

muji: oh jfc the most overrated n overpriced pens that smear like hell :’) their store is v aesthetic but it’s really not worth it at all. unless ur rich af i wouldn’t recommend buying more than one pen from muji (just for the aesthetic)