#SHES AWEOME MAN

[okcoolthanks]

Happy lesbian week

[the-pug-addict]

any other aweome ffxv/ardyn blogs that I should follow? :) I just discovered this level of hell and I need more in my life

BOIII, YOU CAME TO THE RIGHT PLACE. The list is infinite, but I’ll give you all of my classic favorite people who rocked it in Ardyn hell (and still do to this day).

@jlavisant - the ultimate queen. She’s the expert on drawing Ardyn. If you haven’t seen her works floating around already, I suggest you check her out. She’s also where I get my habit of typing in caps from.

@louisvuittontrashbags - fellow fic writer. I think she wrote a few NSFW pieces for Ardyn, but I can’t remember what she did. We had some good times in Ardyn hell.

@ardyn-lc - well, it’s all about Ardyn. If you’re looking for just straight up Ardyn, this is the blog.

@ardyn-trashcan - Again, nothing but fresh raw Ardyn.

@maty-yami - Professional photographer of Ardyn. Only the best shots of Ardyn in-game that you can find on the internet.

@breath0ftheglacian - author of A Man of No Consequence (NSFW Ardyn x Reader story). That story was an absolute hit. The best part is that she completed it. An incredible read, if you haven’t seen it yet.

For now, that’s all I can think of. If anybody else knows of some good Ardyn blogs or wants to shamelessly self promote, go ahead and do so.

NOURISH OUR NEW MEMBER.

[wildcard47]

I just binged all your Terror fics and I lovelovelove the aweome mirroring of Sophia catching Francis going down on James in one and James catching him going down on Sophia in another and I'm just imaining some point later where francis gets to be the one to watch to complete the trilogy.

Okay, I forgot this was an ask and not a kinkmeme prompt, so I just spent like fifteen minutes in dreamwidth, all, “but where IS it???” 😂Anyway, hope you enjoy this threeway in three ways! I got experimental.

larking (R, 2648 words)james

If Francis went to town for more than a day or two at a time, James and Sophia often found themselves rather at loose ends. For so long, the majority of their energies had been diverted towards drawing Francis into some game or another. Thus, when it was time for diversions to end and the practicalities of the house to begin, neither she nor he enjoyed settling down to such responsibilities. James disliked it because he – by his own admission – lacked the patience and sense to do it half as well as Francis, whilst Sophia had been tasked with the administration of a house for many years while living with her aunt, and had merely tired of the role.

And so it was that one summer day, as they were reviewing the household budget for the next few months, Sophia put her pencil aside and turned to James, her mouth a moue of excitement and her eyes flashing bright. “James, I would not object to a round or two of larking, if you are so inclined.”

He glanced over, intrigued. “Rather oblique for such a common request, my dear.”

“Oh! So you are amenable. Then I should like to sit on your face.”

Although James could not have been accused of heedlessness in his past dalliances with ladies, he found that today, and with this particular lady, refusing such a striking picture was quite beyond him.

“Ah. Well, yes. Let’s––” distractedly, he extended his hand to her, as gallant as if they were preparing to sweep out onto the dance floor. “Lead the way.”

“On the sofa.” She took his hand, and rose from her seat. Although her additional bulk made walking rather slow, she was as graceful as a ballerina as she swept her housecoat from her shoulders and discarded it into the floor. “Lie on your back. I shall kneel over you.”

James made quick work of her laces and stays, so she was bared nearly entirely to his eyes, save for her breeches. “Wherever my lady commands.”

“Your lady is rather ungainly as of late.” With a smirk, Sophia gestured to the taut slope of her stomach, now as round as a ripe melon. “And she is currently being kicked in the ribs by an unfeeling tenant, so she has ample need for relaxation.”

James began to roll up his shirtsleeves. “That can be arranged.”

Sophia merely laughed. “You would not believe how distempered I have been without.”

He sat down onto the sofa and promptly lay backwards; slowly, she kicked a leg over his chest, leaving the other foot planted on the floor.

James raised an eyebrow at her assertion as she walked, in a rather bow-legged fashion, up to the level of his neck. “I do live here, you know.”

“You do.”

“And I understand how much Francis worries,” he added, as she guided herself into position above his head, now a bit unsteady, given that her belly hid his face from view. “About all of it.”

Sophia let out a snort. “Well, we cannot help that. The man would worry e’en on the golden streets of Heaven.”

James’s eyes had fixed on a loose thread on one of the cushions, but the conjured image made him laugh again, and turn his attention back to the task at hand. As Sophia reached down to loosen her bloomers, James stayed her hand. His thumb swept up and across the slight divot in her wrist, where her heart hammered in time with his.

“Allow me to lead now,” he murmured, which coaxed a soft laugh out of her, and caused her to relax. “I assure you, I am every inch the gentleman.”

“Country gentleman, perhaps,” she countered, but he was already palming her beautiful backside in both hands, fingers sliding beneath pale ruffles and worn cotton to tease her most secret places. When his thumb brushed fully along her little button, she squeaked, and her hand dug into his shoulder as she whispered, “Oh, god.”

He hummed in pleasure and increased his ministrations, chasing after her with his mouth and tongue, one hand blindly teasing at her belly and the other occupied between her legs.

Normally, James could draw her out at their leisure, and build such excitement to a calculated frenzy at the most opportune moments. But on this afternoon, when the air was humid with desire and her shaking thighs were pressed insistently against his face and her free hand kept tightening around his forearm, he knew she would not last. Her happy moans and sighs soon became loud and full-throated.

“Jesus Christ, James, ‘m going to – I’ll – oh!”

The last exclamation pitched as high as a gleeful scream. His fingers got slicker and his cock jumped noticeably in his trousers, but James was heedless now; he was going to make her swear the way Francis did when he was too far gone, hear all those sinful words drip from her lips and hoard them in the night like molten jewels.

“Fuck,” whispered Sophia, as James’s fingers curled forward, hitting the spot that could bring her incredible pleasure. “Fuck, James, God almighty, I – I – oh, don’t stop.”

He sucked that little button into his mouth, now, timing the delicate movement with each gentle thrust of his fingers till her hips bucked above him, and a deep gasp tore from her throat.

“Harder.”

James could hardly think through the haze in his head, but he obeyed her command. His cock pulsed in desperation against the seam of his trousers, though he could not touch it, and Sophia was panting and rutting against his mouth and –

“Watch him,” she was groaning now, voice strung out and pitchy, “ah! Watch – goddamn, oh, Francis, look how much we need it, don’t stop watching, don’t – hm – James!”

Groaning, he worked her through the second one, till she pulled away and stumbled backwards. His own need now became too much to bear, and he choked out a desperate noise as she perched across his waist. “Oh, god, Sophia. Please.”

“I would have Francis see you this way,” she whispered, caressing his slick jaw and mouth with the pad of her thumb as she ground down against him. James moaned at the thought of it, nearly going over the edge as she kept talking. “You look so beautiful, so – can you not tell how much he enjoyed it?”

Whipping his head right, James met Francis’s blown-wide gaze. The shiver tripped up his spine and lodged somewhere in his throat as he came.

##

sophia

It was always so dreadful when Francis was gone for more than a day or two at a time, Sophia thought as she put down her pen. Not because she and James were not well matched in their own right – they got on quite well, really – but because Francis’s absence left the poor man so forlorn. Given everything, it was difficult for him to go more than a few days without seeing Francis. He was not used to the waiting.

Between the quickening of the creature in her belly, who seemed to believe he was in some sort of regimental march upon her innards, and the plaintively despondent expression on James’s face, something had to be done.

So she caught James’s eye with a smile, hoping to entice him by catching him off guard. “I should like to sit on your face.”

He went very still, face twitching slightly, and then got to his feet. His mouth had fallen open. “Ah. Well, yes. Let’s––lead the way.”

As they got into position, she could not help musing aloud. It had been several weeks since the three of them had enjoyed any intimacies together, not least because she had been sicking up at the slightest provocation. Francis worried about her condition, too; she suspected that was why he had not initiated any of their usual games, and perhaps why he had jumped at the chance to go to London.

“I understand how much Francis worries,” James said now, as she slowly guided herself down.

Which explained why James had held back, also. Sophia just snorted. She was not fragile as all that. “The man would worry e’en on the golden streets of Heaven.”

Despite the ache in her lower back and breasts, it took no time at all for her to be swept away by e’en the slightest touch. James seemed equally affected by her ardor, and was soon caressing her the way she had so craved.

“Jesus Christ, James,” she hissed, marveling at how she had even begun to sound like Francis at times even as James’s sure mouth and fingers sent a shock through her entire body. “Oh!”

She had screamed, she was reasonably sure, but nothing else mattered save chasing the building pleasure between her legs––except for the moment she raised her head, still clutching the arm of the sofa in both hands, and saw Francis in the open doorway.

The wave that pulsed through her body threatened to topple her, and so she tightened her grip on the sofa, rasping, “Harder.”

Francis mouthed the word with her, perhaps without even knowing it; his face flushed red and his hand drifted to his trousers and Sophia wanted him to see every bit of this, go over the edge with them after so many weeks without. She was not sure if Francis had ever seen James in this particular position by day; the sight clearly affected him, though he might not admit it aloud.

Thus, she would say it. “Watch him.”

Watch us. How much we have missed you.

Francis wasted no time. His eyes went soft and unfocused as he touched himself through his trousers, sharp eyes roving over every inch of her body, her skin singing as he lingered on each feature. Below her, James was groaning and panting and using his tongue to full effect––oh!

“Goddamn,” she hissed, knowing how much the boys loved hearing her swear; Francis particularly. “Look how much we need it, Francis, don’t stop watching––don’t––James!”

Every muscle in her body contracted at once, she arched her back as the crescendo of delight swept her away. When it was over, and she had some semblance of control again, she quickly moved down James’s body. Poor man was shaking, now.

“Oh, god,” he whispered, as Sophia traced over his mouth and chin with the pad of her thumb. “Sophia.”

“I would have Francis see you like this,” she said, grinding down against him. James made a strangled noise in the back of his throat. “He would delight in that––you look so beautiful––can you not tell how much he enjoys it?”

She tipped her head left, indicating James should follow her gaze; when he saw Francis leaning against his favorite chair with one hand on his cock, eager and ready, James shuddered apart beneath her, with Francis following close behind.

##

francis

Exiting the carriage in the heat of the spring afternoon, Francis sighed and stretched. He was always glad to leave London, but never more so than after spending several days away.

“D’you need a hand up to the door?” asked the porter, who seemed ready to jump down at a second’s notice.

Instead of taking him up on this rather practical offer, Francis bristled, and got down to one knee to pick up his overnight case, which had already been unloaded. “Not necessary, thank you.”

“Oh, all right, then,” huffed the porter, and the carriage drove off, Francis glaring after it till it was barely a speck of dust on the main road.

Glaring at his overnight case, which he had still not picked up thanks to the now-obvious ache in his lower back, Francis took a deep breath, stood to his full height very carefully, and walked the remaining quarter-mile or so up the drive, intending to fling open the door, walk into the sitting room, and demand someone younger and prettier (James) should fetch this article for him. The perfect jape. Sophia would giggle, James would grin, they would kiss him hello, and he would be able to rest and be at his leisure as soon as possible.

This plan went awry by the time he reached the front door, when a little scream echoed through the air, and all went silent.

Forgetting his intended jape, Francis tore off his coat and rushed through the house, and he did not stop until he burst into the sitting room, where – where –

“Harder,” gasped Sophia, as her febrile eyes locked to his. She was half-naked and dewy with pleasure, canting against James’s jaw in the most perfect rhythm as he sucked and licked and thrust his fingers into her – James, who was groaning and sweating and hard as iron in his expensive trousers, twitching visibly against the fabric as Sophia babbled.

“Watch,” she huffed, holding Francis’s shocked gaze with heavy-lidded eyes, her half-bare body a riot of color, blooming pink and red and peach. “Ah, goddamn! Oh, Francis, look how much we need it, need you, don’stop watching him – don’t – hm –” he could see the visible shudder pass through her body just as she pitched forward and stiffened, shrieking, “James!”

Fucking hell.

Francis forgot about the soreness in his lower back, and the earlier shock at hearing Sophia scream; he reached between his legs as if in a fever dream and stroked himself through his linens, pulling and rubbing and tugging until he felt the familiar jerk behind his navel. Almost there.

Poor James had yet to reach his end, and so Sophia carefully dismounted and made her way back down his body, till the bottom of her swollen belly brushed the tip of his straining cock.

“Oh, god, Sophia.” James squirmed and thrust up, his face contorted in ecstatic agony. “Please.”

“I would have Francis watch you next,” she whispered, cupping James’s face in one hand. “You look so beautiful – so – can you not see how much he enjoys it?”

Gasping, James’s eyes flew to Francis’s; the second he saw him, he bucked up hard, hands digging into Sophia’s bloomers as she gently rocked back and forth atop him.

Francis’s climax overtook him like a freight train. By the time he came back to himself, he was laughing, soft and raw and helpless, now slumped in a sitting position on the ground.

Meanwhile, Sophia got up, stretched, and promptly sat down again on the arm of the sofa, grinning at the two of them as if she were the proudest woman in the world.

Francis just shook his head, still laughing. “Almost let the porter bring my case up to the door.”

“Oh. Well.” James let out a breathy giggle, swiped at his face with the top of his sleeve. “He’d’ve had questions, then.”

“Yes, he bloody well would have done.” Francis fixed his trousers, got up from the floor, and winced as his back twinged anew. But he held out his arms to Sophia all the same as he crossed over, so she could kiss him. “As do I. Hello.”

Releasing Sophia, who patted his chest with a hand, then tottered off to the head with a satisfied noise, Francis went to James’s side, and raised the back of James’s hand to his mouth for a kiss. “And hello to you, too.”

“‘Lo. ‘M sleepy,” sighed James.

“You can nap better in bed,” Francis told his Second sternly. “As can you.” He turned a pretend glare on Sophia, who just smirked as she peeked back through the doorway. “Seems we all need our rest, hm?”

“Mmm hm.” Fitzjames was dozing already.

Francis prodded him with the toe of one boot. “Come on. Up you get. I didn’t spend six days in London to be left alone by a layabout.”

“Come to bed, James,” Sophia added.

Dazed and content, they retired to the bedroom.

[mcbryian]

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[cchsctv]

Stn Nationals 2017

Wow. I can't believe it's over. My second Stn has come and gone, and it fully lived up to my expectations. As I'm sitting here on the plane back, I can't help but smile and think about all of the amazing memories I've made. About Crazy 8- Boy was it crazy. We called 13 places and all of them fell through. We finally went to the transportation center and found a story. Security kicked us out 3 times, but every time we went back to film. Getting back to base, we edited and turned in our news pkg, it was great to make deadline. Watching Lian edit the show was awesome. I knew we were in great hands, and she performed so well. We we finished and the show exported, we all followed Lian, yelling "Ooo ooooo ooooo ooooo". It was pure awesomeness. Alexa - Sis, you were awesome. I think we worked so well together, we really meshed. We had fun and at the same time go the job done. It felt great editing with you and I think we really compliment each other. I can't wait for the many more memories we're going to have. Casey - Casey Chapter. You crazy kid. You're such amazing scripter. You help us convey the story by adding a whole new element to our show. Beyond that, you're so I knowledgeable behind the camera. I love working with you, and I love how much you care. Individuals- Movie trailer I woke up so excited to start my comp. We got to the table early and we were one of the first to receive our prompt: "Incognito". We had 3 hours to film and 3 hours to edit. Becca, Andrew, and I came up with Ideaa for the prompt. The idea was that Lian was an agent on the case of the infamous "incognito killier." She chases the killer, only to realize it's herself. Fillomimg went smooth. We all worked in tandem and it flowed really well. Andrew got beautiful shots and Becca added so many aweome scenes. As we went to the edit room, I was so ready to dive in. I picked out sound tracks while Andre did cool after effects. He did this amazing red eye effect and tv effect. After a long time of editing, Andrew and I were ready to export. Watching it load on the the flash drive was beautiful. We ran outside found Becca and the rest of Ctv cheering us on. It was an amazing feeling of relief, exhaustion, and happiness. What made it even more special was that everyone made deadline!!! Andrew- holy crap man. You've got something special. You're just naturally good at what you love. And because you love it you have a drive that I've seen up close to perfect your craft. You've got special skills, not may people have them, and you can make special things. You did aweome in the editing room, the aftereffdcts were fire. Just keep being humble, and good thing will come. Your a hell of man my friend, and I'm so glad we've gotten closer. Becca- You're my soulmate and we kicked butt. All I can think about is your passion for Ctv, and it makes me so happy. You care so much, and you're not afraid to show it. You make the group laugh and you always put us in a good mood. I'm so glad we got to work together, laugh together, and make so many memories. Closing Ceremonies - This is it. This is the real deal. A million things were racing through my mind as we stepped through the doors. Individuals were announced and no one placed. We all were down a little bit, but it gives us something to improve upkn next year and step up our game. Then the big finale, our chance to show Stn who we were. It seems our Crazy 8s were appropriately saved for last. Honorable mentions came and went. And they announced third place.... Cooper City High!!! We went wild, it was the feeling I'd been waiting for. We cried and hugged and cried even more. We came to win and thats what we did. Room Gang Harris- Duude. Roomies again and it didn't disappoint. We had so much fun laughing and and just hanging out. You're my bro Doug- Douggg!!! We had so much fun lol. All of our jokes and everything else we did made the tripe even better. You're an awesome dude and I'm happy we got closer Ashton- I have so much fun with you. Being in Anaheim with you was an awesome experience and it was so much fun. You're a stud bro Jessica- I'm so happy we got closer, you're such a fun and outgoing person and you made the trip even better. Anna- We always have a good time together, no matter what! I love sitting at dinner or waking around the hotel with you. You've alleays for something so funny to say, I'm glad we spent so much time together. The Presidents- I honestly can't describe my admiration and respect for all of you. Lian, you're our rock, our leader. You destroyed any expectations and showed everyone how good you are. Through all the challenges, you still rose up to the occasion and performed. I'm so happy to have you as my president and as a great friend. I love when we make each other crack up, and all of our jokes. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart for being a great leader. We are all lucky to have someone like you. Lexi- you are such an amazing Ctver. You're one of the most talented filmed and editor I've ever seen. You're always there for us, and you have our back. I love how you're always smiling, your optimistism is infectious. You're a great leader and teacher, and you give us such a great example to follow. Isy- What would we do with out you. You keep us organized and bring so much life and spirit into our Ctv family. You're so strong willed and I respect you so much. I think we spent spent of time together and I feel we got even closer. You are a great reporter and editor and you bring an aweome sense of confidence to Ctv. To Future Newbies- After going to my second Stn, it only remifoces what Chardo and tthe oldbies say. Practice practice practice. Work with your group memeber, get as my Pimental as you can. Practice gimmicks and every area of your competition. As Mr. Pichardo for any aadvice and talks off of his tips and criticisms to heart. He knows what's he's talking about. Also, listen to your oldbies. They've been there , they know the ropes.the have valuable experience that they can share with you, don't be scared to ask. To my fellow Ctvers of next year- we can't forget the feeling of this. Let's continue on and show everyone who we are. We'll be cbacn and ready to kick ass again. Let's do it Mr. Pichardo- thank you so much for everything you've given to us . I look up to you so much, and I have such great respect for your hard work and dedication. You're an amazing advisor, and you care so much about us. it makes me love Ctv 'even more. Stn was such an amazing and exhilarating experience. It totally surpasses the hype and I loves everything about it. We came and did what we came to do. We showed everyone who we are and why we were there. It was an amazing experience and andwinning as family made it even better. Until next time Stn blog, Jakob Wolk

[differentdove]

all the questionsss :D

Top of tha mornin to ya, anon! I guess you DO wanna know something! Is it you that wants to know everything? If not, thats a pretty popular view, hahaha! But i like your hutzpah, kid! 1:   Full name : Madison Grace 

2:   Age : I am nineteen 

3:   3 Fears : I mean, I dont really have but one fear, but I suppose silence, darkness, and opening up to people, but those are just due to inner issues and are things easily fixed that i deal with on a daily basis. 

4:   3 things I love : I love Paul and dinosaours and my family! 

5:   3 turns on : Passion, no fear of social standards, hilarity! 

6:   3 turns off : Common camo, no consideration of others, my ex bf!

7:   My best friend: all of my friends now??

8:   Sexual orientation: ?????????

9:   My best first date: That is by far this last one i went on! It was incredible, i will never forget it! 

10:   How tall am I: Smol standing at 5′6′’

11:   What do I miss: I miss traveling. I cant do it so much anymore as of this exact moment, but i do what i can

12:   What time were I born: I was born exactly on the dot at 8:45 in the morning! 

13:   Favourite color: ALL THE COLOURS! 

14:   Do I have a crush: Nope! 

15:   Favourite quote: I dont really have one, but ill just put the last one that i shared. I came across it by accident and it is actually a lyric, but it says: “We make each other better, we may not be perfect, but we are perfect together” and its such a sweet, aweome song and it made me too emotional than i am confortable with.

16:   Favourite place: I do not have one, actually! 

17:   Favourite food: How could you ever pick just one? There is so many delectable things out there! 

18:   Do I use sarcasm: Wha-whaaaattt! Pshhhh, haha, do i, do I use sarcasm?!?!? Hahahaha, noooooooooooooooo. 

19:   What am I listening to right now: I just have The Office playing in the background, ive gotta shower here soon, but I am tryna crunch out these questions first! 

20:   First thing I notice in new person: Existence? 

21:   Shoe size: That is a tricky question, but the shoes i am wearing today are a 9.5H

22:   Eye color: As of rn, they are lightish brown! 

23:   Hair color: Browwwnn

24:   Favourite style of clothing: I mean, i dont have an answer for this, but eccentric? 

25:   Ever done a prank call?: I mean, do middle school girls do dumb things at sleep overs?…yes. 

27:   Meaning behind my URL: I have used this url for soooooo many years now, it is basically my signature username. I came up with this in,,,a round fourth grade time, and that was when i was really noticing my connection to mother nature and i was the weird kid and so ‘different’ stood out to me, (”different” being a good connotation and “strange” being the opposing) and ‘dove’ was a nice word, showing a bit of religion and peace and so i feel they fit together very nicely! It also turned out for Morning Dove to be my first larger role, and my ancients gave me this bag of random jewlery from all over and it had a beautiful handmade dove in it with beads.  

28:   Favourite movie: N/a

29:   Favourite song N/a

30:   Favourite band Really, how does one pick these things?

31:   How I feel right now: I,,,I feel, not necessarily happy, but, almost. Content?

32:   Someone I love: Rachel

33:   My current relationship status: Single and ready to fla-stay that way.

34:   My relationship with my parents: Nonexistent?

35:   Favourite holiday: I dont have one! I really kind of like all of them! Well, except for valentines day. Thats so stupid, im not even gonna get that soap box.

36:   Tattoos and piercing i have: Sadly, i just have my lobes pierced, but i want soooo many more piercings that are underway. I want too many tattoos, and i cant really get them, so im just gonna deal without. 

37:   Tattoos and piercing i want: Well, the next is my conch ear pierced. I have an ear map of ones that i want. 

38:   The reason I joined Tumblr: I mean, this is not my original tumblr, but it was actually my friend Tahlia who suggested it. I was making really cool art out of fruit at lunch and she wanted me to post it, and so she told me about it and i cant remember what that blog was, but i will remember eventually. But i joined off of her recommendation and here i am! 

39:   Do I and my last ex hate each other?: No, i mean,,, he hurt me beyond belief and its really something ive been trying to get the heck ut of my life, but no, i dont hate him. I know he despises me, but i feel what i feel and as much wrong as he did me, i do not hate him. 

40:   Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: I meaannn, technically yes, but ive not gotten a “good morning” text in a good while. I tend to talk to people very late, and so we will say good bye n good night, but not really, no. 

41:   Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?: I have not. 

42:   When did I last hold hands?: Goodness, that is a time ago, huh. Thats not something ive thought about in a good while. I held a mannequin hand earlier, but a human, uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?

43:   How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: It depends, anywhere from and hour to five hours.

44:   Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?: HAHAHAHAHAHA

45:   Where am I right now?: I am sitting on my couch in the living room. My home. 

*the part where i shorten answers, sweet and simple. AKA i didnt realize how long this was and i want to get them all, but im on a time crunch*

46:   If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: Then it would be whichever friend is there. We have good care for one another. Or the DD

47:   Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: Suuuuuuuuuuper loud, man. 

48:   Do I live with my Mom and Dad?: Ugh. Unfortunately. 

49:   Am I excited for anything?: I am excited, yes. I get to give a gift tomorrow and get ready for KCACTF.

50:   Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?: Theres not really anyone, of any gender, that i have told everything to. 

51:   How often do I wear a fake smile?: too much. 

52:   When was the last time I hugged someone? I hugged this guy today…

53:   What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? I mean she IS married, soooo

54:   Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?: Huh? No?

55:   What is something I disliked about today? I should have gotten something different at the restaurant, i didnt know it would be huge.

56:   If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: The frozen head of walt disney

57:   What do I think about most? Theatre? God? Honestly, my thoughts are nothing to mess with

58:   What’s my strangest talent?: I can,,,uhhh, I am great at champagne towers? 

59:   Do I have any strange phobias?: Nope. But my friend is afraid of two things. Whales and jello.

60:   Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: Boooooth

61:   What was the last lie I told?: Im hanging out with Shelby and Ariel.

62:   Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: Both is pretty cool. Talking is easier for my situation (more available, etc.)

63:   Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Yep. YEP.

64:   Do I believe in magic? Of course! 

65:   Do I believe in luck? Yes, but sometimes you have to make your own luck.

66:   What’s the weather like right now? It is actually starting to snow! :D

67:   What was the last book I’ve read? A Meisner book by friend lent me.

68:   Do I like the smell of gasoline? Overall-yes. but i hate pumping gas, and thats really the only time i smell it. 

69:   Do I have any nicknames? Not particularly, no.

70:   What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? Probably my heart, itm.

71:   Do I spend money or save it?: I am trying to balance. 

72:   Can I touch my nose with a tounge? Yes, i can, actually.

73:   Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?: My ipad has pink in the case! 

74:   Favourite animal?: None. All of them.

75:   What was I doing last night at 12 AM?: Dude. Freaking out over Gravity Falls! 

76:   What do I think is Satan’s last name is?: Uhhhhhhh, what? (McBadguy)

77:   What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?: I mean, all of the musics. Ooh lala? By ginger minj.

78:   How can you win my heart?: I dont know you, it depends on you. But i feel my sparkling personality is a shooin. 

79:   What would I want to be written on my tombstone?: “Theyre not dead. Theyre never gonna die, but still chipped in for a cool tombstone, TAKE THAT DEBORA.”

80:   What is my favorite word?: I dont have one, but there is this thing where people say a word and it just sounds perfect with their voice. My freshman english teacher had one. And its just strange and itll stop me in my tracks. 

81:   My top 5 blogs on tumblr: Theres so many great ones! I highly reccomend lots of my mutuals, theyre all perfect hoomuns. 

82:   If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?: Made you look. 

83:   Do I have any relatives in jail?: Not that i know of.

84:   I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: The power to have every power.

85:   What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?: Really anything on my personal life. 

86:   What is my current desktop picture?: I dont have a desktop.

87:   Had sex?: Regerts. So many ragreeerrrts

88:   Bought condoms? Nope. 

89:   Gotten pregnant? Nope. 

90:   Failed a class? Yes. And it is not hindering me. 

91:   Kissed a boy?: yes i have

92:   Kissed a girl? Yep

93:   Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? No. 

94:   Had job? I have, i need another, though.

95:   Left the house without my wallet? Only all the time. 

96:   Bullied someone on the internet? Of course not. Thats never okay. 

97:   Had sex in public? I mean, technically, but no, not really. If ever. 

98:   Played on a sports team? Yeah, several actually. 

99:   Smoked weed? The devils lettuce. That gateway drug? THe wacKY TOBACKEE?!?! Yes. 

100:   Did drugs? Yep. 

101:   Smoked cigarettes? No, goodness no. And thats not gonna happen. ick

102:   Drank alcohol? Yep. 

103:   Am I a vegetarian/vegan? Never had this question before, i am vegan, yes! 

104:   Been overweight? Never not

105:   Been underweight? HAha, yeahright

106:   Been to a wedding? Yes! I love weddings! My last one ive been to was my dear friend Kelley. 

107:   Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?: Minimum. 

108:   Watched TV for 5 hours straight?  Childs play.

109:   Been outside my home country? Yes and i cannot wait to go back

110:   Gotten my heart broken? Hahahahaha only a lot. 

111:   Been to a professional sports game?: A few actually! I love it

112:   Broken a bone? No, knock on wood

113:   Cut myself? Yes. Dont do it. 

114:   Been to prom? Twice. Prom ruler yoyo

115:   Been in airplane? Yes! Its great, good memories. 

116:   Fly by helicopter? Gosh i wish. I had an opportunity to at school, but i didnt learn until after the fact, They didnt think id want to. WOULDNT WANT TO. PSSSHHH. HA. 

117:   What concerts have I been to? So many. THe last big one was P!ATD and FOB in Georgia

118:   Had a crush on someone of the same sex? Maybe?

119:   Learned another language? I am working on it, yeah. 

120:   Wore make up? I am actually wearing it at this very moment. 

121:   Lost my virginity before I was 18?: Ugh. Regeerrrtttsssssss

122:   Had oral sex? Nope. 

123:   Dyed my hair? Nah

124:   Voted in a presidential election? Sadly i have not. not yet. 

125:   Rode in an ambulance? No, actually. And i hope i never will. Unless its just a fun parade-type thing. Or a car chase.

126:   Had a surgery? Besides oral surgery, no.

127:   Met someone famous? A few, yeah. Shout out Fanboy

128:   Stalked someone on a social network? Mildly, yeah. 

129:   Peed outside? So. Hard. 

130:   Been fishing? Nah

131:   Helped with charity? Yeah, i love volunteering!

132:   Been rejected by a crush?: Yuuuppppppp. 

133:   Broken a mirror? ……maybe a little

134:   What do I want for birthday? Is surprise party a bad answer? Ive always wanted oneee

135:   How many kids do I want and what will be their names? Ahhhhhh, who knows. Not present Madison. Thats future Madisons problem. 

136:   Was I named after anyone?: No, but who knows. 

137:   Do I like my handwriting? Yes. Its changed so much and is all over the place, but its great.

138:   What was my favourite toy as a child?: Iiiiiii, i dont know. 

139:   Favourite Tv Show? N/a.

140:   Where do I want to live when older? Nowhere. I want to keep traveling and live in cast/crew housing and yes.

141:   Play any musical instrument? Clarinet, beginners piano, beginners cello, beginners bagpipes. 

142:   One of my scars, how did I get it? Ive not one on my right leg, four o’clock from my knee that i got from my kittens the last time i saw them…

143:   Favourite pizza toping? Vegan thingssssss (a rare commodity where i live)

144:   Am I afraid of the dark? Not teccchnically, but i cant be in it. 

145:   Am I afraid of heights? Nooooo, theyre wonderful! 

146:   Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? Nope. Its only illegal if you get caught. 

147:   Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? School is being a dumb dummyhead.

148:   What I’m really bad at. Everything, really?

149:   What my greatest achievments are. Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh…?

150:   The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me. Honestly, i have those stored atm and really couldnt tell you. 

151:   What I’d do if I won in a lottery. MADE SURE I CASKED THE TICKET ASAP. THOSE THIGNS HAVE A QUICK EXPIRATION DATE.

152:   What do I like about myself. Uhhhh,,,,,,, my minds not there atm. Come again. 

153:   My closest Tumblr friend. Teccchnicaly its @shelby ashley 3, but idk if thats cheating. 

154:   Something I fantasise about. Fantasise? Idk if you know me, but thats a vvv tricky subject. 

155:   Any question you’d like? Well, you didnt specify for this, so i suppose were finished! You might have noticed by now, but i am not able to answer every question in the ‘traditional’ way, but i hope you had fun reading these and you learned something new! I enjoyed answering them! I hope you have a wonderful day!

[engineeringhungry]

jan 2

Today I wore my blue high waisted lululemon leggings with pockets and the sun valley long sleeve with burkin stocks + the boot. 

Today is a Monday. I’m actually typing this at 2AM right now, so technically a Tuesday. I’m up so late because I was dilly dallying on the computer and also wanted to stay up to Facetime Taylor. 

I started the day off later than I wanted. I woke up at 10 but didn’t get out of bed until 10:11. I was playing Forge of Empire - a game similar to GOW but not that haha. I joined a guild but now I’m not sure I want to keep playing - I’m just not sure I’ll be able to keep up during the school year. Anyways, I quickly jumped in the shower and then hurriedly put on clothes. We contemplated not staying at Millie’s because the wait was 30 minutes but ended up choosing to go there. Dad dropped me off about 15 minutes later than 10:30, the expected arrival time. I hugged Annie, Megan, and Sarah. I had the power breakfast - 6 egg whites, toast, with a cup of fruit. It was standard but it was good nevertheless! It was really nice catching up with them, truly. They all seem to be doing well. Annie is applying to Santa Clara and Sarah seems happy as a clam at Oregon. Megan just had surgery on her labrum? Its in her knee and she’ll be back in May or June. She drove me home after hanging out for about an hour and a half. We were in her truck, that I’m pretty sure I’d never seen before, but I said I had - since she insinuated that I had been. I got dropped off and then the fam and I went to walk the dogs. We saw Bill and Elizabeth’s Mom, Kate, down at Glorietta and chatted for a bit. I didn’t realize Bill was in the Navy for 26 years. Go figure. We then started watching the Rose Bowl because Tyler’s playing for USC in it. I fell asleep around 3, after about an hour of watching the game - which was actually pretty exciting from what I could see between my intermittent “coming toos”. I got up at 6:30 and then had dinner until 7:30. it was the weirdest food -bacon, quinoa, and broccoli / cauliflower. Dad dropped me off at Bahadors. Hannah bailed since she got stuck in Tahoe. Initially I thought it was going to suck but it was actually really fun. Isaac, Jose, Raghid and one of the newer hires, like right after I left, were all there. We played Jenga and pool and hung out. Low key ate some amazing citrus chocolate cookies that Raghid made. I drank a glass of wine and we all talked about engineering stuff. WE are actually all super nerdy hahahaha. I also realized, while talking to them, how fast MIT moves. Like espeically with our comparisons of thermo liek what. Idk man - MIT is aweomely amazing at advancing us I gotta say. I got back around midnight and then did some brain-power stuff. Ned is also like high key crazy workaholic. Like the email he sent literally signed off “feel empowered! - Ned” - what??? idk man, this upcoming january is going to be very interesting. 

I’ve been breaking out recently which as sucked a lot. I literally just spent 15 minutes picking my zits in the mirror while I was waiting for Taylor. This is because I switched off the birth control pills which kept my acne at bay. Although, now that I’m thinking about it, I didn’t break out too badly throughout the semester. Perhaps its just my environment at home? I’ve been eating better here too so I can’t blame it too much on my diet either. I’ll see if it clears up when i go back to Boston. 

I’ve been contemplating stopping watching Amanda Bucci and Emily Hayden. I really like them and I think they’re super informative. However, I’m not sure that they live healthy life styles for me. Like I’m just mentally getting over a lot and I’m not sure if I want to fall back down into super micro tracking and worrying about all the food I’m eating. You know, food guilt sucks and I don’t really have that anymore which is awesome. I’m really listening to my body and eating when i want to and not eating when I don’t want to. Like today I just sat by a table of food and had no desire to eat any of it. Also ate a cookie to taste it but felt not desire to keep eating more. So perks for Jane! I’m not sure- I just don’t want to have to care as much about it - or like have to think about it so much - I have come a long way but you know still. I only think about it when it comes around. Although i wasn’t in the mentally best state by the end of the summer- those are the food goals I want to have. Super healthy during the week. Super whatever idgaf food thats amazing on the weekends or whenever i went out. idk healthy life style. YOu can live a healthy life style without having an eating disorder. Just stop caring what people think you know and live how you want to live - granted that its safe and healthy. But you know? I’m super proud of myself for coming out of that. Honestly, the injury was a super good in helping get over that -even though it sucked- theres a lot taht I’m thankful for because of it. 

Also small world - Josh Wilson’s girlfriend is friends with Maddie Oshea? Go figure. 

In terms of resolutions? I guess just get stronger mentally and physically. Do well in school. People of psets. Do things everyday. Do something every day. Don’t just sit around. Interact with the world and live it. I started doing it last year and I want to continue to do that. Do things that you’ll remember.