#SOMEONE PLS WATCH IT AND TALK TO ME

[hinamie]

"I'll show you every day that choosing to live was worth it"

some of my favourite scenes from @hijinks-n-lowjinks' fic things i would miss from the other side . this fic tore my heart out fr but like in a good way and i wanted to pay it homage the only way i know how <3

[loosethreadsofyoursoul]

ok this is a controversial opinion but like….. to me, henry spencer was actually not a shit father….. hear me out.

i understand that there’s a lot of subtleties that go into emotionally abusive parents, and i’m not trying to dismiss that, but honestly i just don’t see all the negativity that gets associated with him so often. also, between henry and madeleine, one parent actually seemed to be there when shawn was growing up, and it wasn’t his mother.

let’s look at shawn’s childhood. in all the flashbacks, henry was the one who volunteered at shawn’s school, who took him to movies and was around for all of his new hobbies and interests. he was the one making sure shawn did his homework and hung out with his friends and learned life lessons. granted, some of his teaching methods were not appropriate for a kid shawn’s age, so yes i can see where the criticisms come in and i agree with them. but he was so much more than his mistakes, he was the parent who cared.

when shawn grows up, yes there’s animosity between him and his father but to be quite honest, i’ve never met one person who doesn’t have unresolved daddy issues so that in itself doesn’t condemn henry in my mind. we see how much henry saved from shawn’s childhood and how much he remembers, and to me he actually does quite a bit to help shawn when he needs it. this is particularly telling in comparison to madeleine, who isn’t there to begin with and eventually we find out she really did leave her kid behind, and to me that does a lot more damage than any one thing henry did.

shawn and henry have issues, i won’t argue with that. but i really don’t think henry gets enough credit for the good he did and the way he tried when shawn got older. above all else, he was there and he was there for shawn, and that’s important. god knows it’s not everything, but it’s something.

[secriden]

i've been thinking and thinking about the significance of the sunflowers parapai sends sky after their first face-to-face meeting post-one night stand and it suddenly hit me why it made such an impact on sky.

prior to this point, sky's attracted to prapai, no question about it. the physical attraction is there pretty much as soon as they lay eyes on each other. even at their one night stand, regardless of the reasons why (tbh my read was that sky wanted it in the moment to feel like he had a way to wrest control over (a) his own body and (b) the situation), sky at least physically seemed to enjoy himself. but its the lack of emotional connection, after the endorphin rush is over, that makes him feel like crap, makes him second-guess his worth and leave feeling used and hallow (and boy oh boy does peat manage to show that so well - he's so so good at wounded).

but then prapai comes back 3 months later, teasing and playful and flirty and still so attractive. sky recognises his own attraction (his self-talky bits are cute but they break my heart), but the one night stand was good enough physically for him to know he doesn't want just that. he doesn't just want to just feel physically good. and he's stuck in the thought that he can never have anything more.

when prapai tells him he's going to pursue him in sky's dorm lobby, he's startled but not shaken. he goes up to his room, essentially tells himself to get out of fantasy land, peeks out the window - but he still fundamentally doesn't engage with the idea that there could be anything real between them.

but the sunflowers and "remember that this wind's watching over the sky". it's protection; its safety.

sky's visibly shaken (peat, oh peat, the vulnerability you managed to convey) and i think this is probably the first time prapai actually manages to get a little bit past the wall sky's already put up between them. and prapai's such a flirty idiot i 100% think he didn't have a clue what he was saying, really. he just thought he was being clever with the unusual flower choice and playing with their names, but in a way that's what makes prapai so perfect for sky.

he's... well, guileless. he's almost accidentally exactly what sky needs to even consider falling in love after everything that happened to him. there's something very clumsy about the charm prapai has and i suspect it's because he's never really had to work to charm anyone before - his looks, money, and status do most of the heavy lifting for him. the fact that he isn't an absolute jerk is pretty much enough for most to be pulled into his orbit. but this works so well for sky because i think someone more suave and actually adapt at wordplay/flirting would have made him run for the hills, because it would have come across as manipulation given his trauma. but prapai is so bad at it (prapai: 'if you don't try it, how do you know?' sky: you absolute fucking idiot did you forget how we met?) that it actually sounds genuine. it makes it safe.

fuck, safety. i feel like it's something everyone wants on some level, but when you've gone through something like that... something where you're betrayed on such a fundamental level by someone you trust, safety becomes the core of what you need. i can deal with hunger, with pain, with loneliness, with being overworked, with being called names or scolded by others - as long as i can maintain that safety. and for sky, that safety always came when he was in his own hands. the only one he could trust with his safety was himself (even as a child, he had no one; alone in Bangkok with a mother who left and a father who cared but was too far away). its why sky isolates; why he'll help his classmates but never ask for help; why he takes the bullying som dishes out without a word.

then prapai comes in and takes care of him when he's sick. his safety is outside of his hands - terrifying. but... also such a relief. i cannot stress how much this was exactly what sky needed. if rain had taken care of him, he would've kicked rain out the second he became conscious. rain doesn't have the backbone/will/character to force the issue. but what prapai did was prioritise sky's safety (health) and for the first time in years, it didn't have to be in his own hands...

(prapai then goes on to makes a lot of other accidentally good choices - comes to Last Cheer and gives him medicine, a place to rest his head, and a quiet space so he can do what he wants (stay to the end, not worry his friends). care, offered at sky's terms. even the bits where prapai's a visibly horny idiot, nearly edging past sky's boundaries but not is counterintuitively perfect because sky sees that prapai's going against what he wants to make sure sky's expressed boundaries are honoured and sees how it costs him something - but, also, i think that speaks more to (a) prapai's growth as a character now that he has a focus that goes beyond the instant gratification of physical release and (b) mame knows her characters and prapai is built to be perfect for sky. honestly most of the skill in writing prapai was the change was gradual enough to be believable in the context of this world. but i digress.)

i just... really adore what prapai did for sky here. like, utter relief that comes from having someone take care of you when you've had to take care of yourself for so long. like a heavy burden suddenly rolling off. and the sunflowers are cheesy but they're the first real hint that this is what's going to make prapai succeed with sky. its not (just) that he's attractive and persistent - that wouldn't have been enough ultimately. (for eg. had phayu pursued sky, he would've also been attractive and persistent but boy would sky have run for the hills with that kind of pursuit. phayu's hot but the manipulation in how he got rain... sometimes i'm baffled by this fandom's take on phayu vs prapai because it's always prapai that everyone calls shady/problematic when he's actually very transparent and honest with his intensions with sky vs the mind games phayu played with rain. i don't have an issue with it because of how rain's character's written - he needed a phayu to get past his internal hang ups - but still, baffling.)

but its how he continually offered to take on the burden of care from sky. so sky could finally actually address the other things he needed. sky didn't have the (physical OR emotional) bandwidth to even consider a relationship until prapai because no one was taking those things off his plate (feeding him, making sure he rests, making sure he took care of himself. like - even when prapai just reminds sky to take care of himself, that's taking some of that mental load off sky having to remember for himself).

honestly this is why when in the scene when sky opens the door to prapai when he's half asleep and then lets prapai feed him, and lets him put him to bed, undress and dress him (all things that would have triggered sky to hell before) - I actually believe it. i believe that sky feels safe around prapai because he's done nothing but actively, persistently offer that to sky over and over again by this point.

anyway, yes, i just really love the sunflower scene for how it gives us that first real glimpse as to why prapai really was perfect for sky.

[liramic]

Imma need ALL of you SV fans to go watch the cdrama Romance of Tiger and Rose because THE PARALLELS TO BINGQIU ARE CRAZYYYY. i have a list below so many spoilers but bro im rewatching after a couple years and my third eye has fucking Opened

- obv the isekai premise but that is like the most basic of the reasons

- the way FL sees all the ppl as NPCs until she realizes they actually have emotions

- being sus of ML whenever smth bad happens bc she thinks he's still the sketchy version from the original but actually he's so in love with her and would never anymore

- ML gets fake betrayed by the FL and comes back in "evil mode" and he's mad and trying to hate FL but wow he really could not lmao, also he would never do anything actually bad to FL

- in "evil mode", FL does things that make him happy but he has to hide it and she cannot tell and still thinks hes mad (+500 protagonist satisfaction!)

- THE ABSOLUTE BINGHE CODED-NESS OF HAN SHUO (ML) IS CRAZY, this man has so much potential to go full dark mode but he would never do anything to actually cross the line w FL

- aphrodisiac arc and FL is scared at first but then sees how hard ML is holding himself back and just gives in SHEN YUAN MY GIRL IS THAT YOU, THAT AND THE FACT THAT THESE TWO HAVE SEX AT A MAJOR MOMENT TO RESOLVE A PROBLEM IS SO ;LAKJS;LDKJFASLKJDF

- han shuo (ML)'s mother being so strong and good at fighting and Can and Did bully his dad. SU XIYAN IS THAT U MAAM

[asterdust]

it's been literal days but i cannot stop thinking about the adaptation lore that ruan nanzhu was created to accompany lin qiushi through all the games and he was created prettily

[gettownsburnmoney]

finally watched the adventuring party and i think the intrepid heroes just need to start a food podcast

[fucktheroyals]

Me: *goes to look for the reason they’re making two movies instead of s5 of Haikyuu, thinking people might be exaggerating when they say there’s 100 chapters they’re trying to cover in two movies*

Article: there’s not enough material to make more than two movies

Me: Season 3 is literally 10 episodes

*goes to find what the last chapter adapted in s4 was and then what the last chapter # is*

Wikipedia: s4 (25 episodes) covers chapters 207-292

Me: 85 chapters. Maybe ppl exaggerated when they said 100 chapters

~three clicks later~

Wikipedia: Haikyu!! Has 402 chapters

Me: THATS 110 CHAPTERS WHAT THE FUCK NOT ENOUGH MATERIAL IM GONNA FUCKING SCREAM WHAT THE FUCK DOES NOT ENOUGH MATERIAL MEAN. SEASON 3 WAS 10 EPISODES!!!

[we-dont-talk-about-potato-nonono]

Smiling Friends!

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,

if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."

i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,

i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason

[all-i-do-is-live-in-daydreams]

WHY CANT SPENCER REID BE HAPPPPPPYYYYYYY !!?!?!?!?!?!? WHAT DID HE DO TO DESERVE ALL THIS TRAGEDY ?? HES JUST A SWEET NERDY AUTISTIC BOY LET HIM BE HAPPY PLEEEAAAASSEEEE

[coldshrugs]

finished the new season of mystery of aaravos tonight and god. they really did all that...

[seokbaseone]

[feral-teeth]

American Psycho lesbians… American Psycho Lesbians save me…

Oh yeah it’s all coming together

Based off of TV girl lyrics and my own gender-bent American Psycho characters… <3

[sherlock-is-ace]

One thing about me is that if I see someone reblogging AI images, I will let them know 👌🏻

[pupkashi]

are any of yall watching love island usa

[crybaby-bkg]

am I the only one who gets scared to shit talk certain characters bc what if they manifest themselves into the real world and yolk my ass up for shit talking them?????? does that make sense omg????

like cussing Dabi out for beating hero ass while watching the show, and then falling asleep, only to wake up in the middle of the night bc you feel someone watching you. and lo and behold he’s standing at the end of your bed, his eyes damn near glowing in the dark as he drags your ankles down until you’re pressed against him???? and he promises to make you eat your words by the time he goes back to his own world???? pls tell me this doesn’t sound crazy 🧍🏽‍♀️