#THIS SONG FEELS VERY INAPPROPRIATE FOR THIS SCENE??????

[birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo]

NOW SHE'S TRYING TO KILL LIGHT????????

L IS VERY SAD ABOUT HIS FRIEND ;A; srsly tho shout out to that actor, he's putting his entire L-ussy into his performance, good for him!!! (pls pronounce it 'ell-ussy' it sounds better that way)

i wonder if im meant to be taking light's part in the film??? he's a wishy-washy snivelling little coward, so im not really. doing that 👀👀👀 i DO like that everyone ELSE is a lot more passionate about murder than he is tho!!! both mia AND L actually WANT to murder ppl for fun and profit OR to avenge a dead friend. they have actual motives and desires and strong feelings!!!!!

meanwhile the king of the incels is going back and forth so much u never even know what he actually WANTS... he just. hasn't got much of. anything really. he's just sort of there. very bland and boring. his high pitched screams are funny tho!!!

[anemicjellyfish]

I'm on a roll thinking about this show. So let's give credit where credit is due: (Apology Tour spoilers ahead.)

Blitzø had HUGE character growth in Apology Tour.

We see in the beginning of the episode, Blitzø is behaving pretty much how Blitzø behaves normally: sexually inappropriate. It's what he's kinda been known for since the start.

We know that, prior to Full Moon, these advances were welcomed by Stolas.

However, this isn't the case now. Stolas makes it very clear that he doesn't want their relationship to be about sex. He goes on to say he doesn't believe Blitzø owes him feelings in return, but that Stolas' own confession shouldn't be ignored.

A LOT is being discussed in this scene; some things are being alluded to/danced around, while other things are directly spoken about.

But one thing is clear: things cannot go back to how they were before.

Blitzø reacts with anger, the emotion to which he is very accustomed, before running off on his Apology Tour.

To cut this post much shorter than my last analysis, we'll skip to the end party!

Blitzø finds Stolas after his (absolute banger) song. Their entire conversation scene is filled with touching, and none of it is sexual. There's no grabbing, just holding.

Blitzø's actual apology to Stolas gets interrupted by Better Than Blitzø guy. While Blitzø is clearly annoyed by this, he sees Stolas wanting to dance with this guy, and waves him off to do so. While Stolas didn't need this permission, it was polite of him to request it.

And it's the first of three major moments that Blitzø shows inner maturity.

The Blitzø from earlier that day would have shoved Better Than guy, or grabbed Stolas and carried him off elsewhere. He would have at least screamed at this guy.

While Stolas and Better Than are off dancing, Blitzø finds Verosika and gets the much needed truth: that his actions hurt people.

Which prompts the response from deep within Blitzø: "I don't wanna be this way. Not forever."

Being able to admit he wanted to change was a massive step for Blitzø.

After one more moment of anger at Better Than guy making out with Stolas, Blitzø follows Verosika's advice. He lets go.

Blitzø leaves the party without another word.

He lets Stolas have his space. He doesn't try to interfere anymore. He's said his part, albeit to a drunk Stolas, and he realizes that he can do no further good by being there.

As much as he's hurting here, Blitzø is growing.

[thecynthh]

end game - M.S

synopsis - through matt and y/n’s life both of them never thought they would be hooking up, but what happens when everyone finds out about them and it blows up in their face.

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notes - IM NOT HATING ON MADI I JUST NEEDED SOMEONE TO USE FOR STORY PURPOSES. (im her biggest fan dont cancel me)

(synopsis for a new series that i’m working on is featured)

this is for @annamcdonalds67 contest!! i saw the post and saw how many taylor swift songs were there and this was one of my favourite ones out there and i got insanely inspired. please share some love to anna as well bc she deserves it for organizing this !

warnings - smut->angst, small matt sub, riding, oral (fem receiving), childhood best friends to fwb to lovers, badboy!matt x goodgirl!reader

for lacysturniolo and her amazing work and dedication to her fans, i’ll look up to you, forever and always

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matt barely made it through the door before his arms were strangling me in a death inducing kiss. in my whole 17, almost 18, years of life i never expected in my life did i think my childhood best friend would be the one crushing me with his lips. we’ve both dated around but through it all we ended up here.

“fuck, matt” the breathy name escapes from my mouth feeling him move down to my neck leaving stinging hickeys with his talented mouth. “god im glad your parents aren’t here, don’t think my good kid image would keep up if they heard you.”

“you’re so inappropriate matt” my eyes roll listening to him rub in how much my parents love matt. “come on, i don’t like the idea of you fucking me on any other surface than in my room especially in my parents house.”

“whatever you say princess,” the small smirk he’s always had since he was 12 still looms over me as i lead him towards the grand staircase. he followed very close behind me keeping his arms and mouth on my neck.

it doesn’t take long till he’s holding my arms above my head with his fingers intertwined with mine. “matt, fuck, please can you just fuck me now.”

“you don’t get to be impatient, you called.”

“and you came.”

“you are about to as well.” i wanted to wipe that smirk clean off his face if his body didn’t feel so right pressed up against mine.

we haven’t told anyone about us yet, not even nick or chris. we both knew it would only make things worse, and i was alright with keeping it a secret. i’ve spent enough of my closeted and innocent. I'm a teenager, teens are supposed to do this type of thing. teens may hook up but maybe not with their childhood best friends

his mouth trailed down from my neck, to my sternum, all the down to between my thighs before he yanked my legs down to come closer to the edge of the bed.

3RD PERSON POV

matt’s hands never seem to have left y/n's body, exploring every last inch of her body. her arms, legs and heart were his. matt spends no time wasted connecting his lips to her clothed heat, within seconds she’s shimming her pants and underwear off.

there was a small knock on the door with an awaiting friend, madi was there to meet up with y/n to pick up the homework she had missed that day. without an answer from the door, madi looks around the house through windows and cracks in the blinds.

only seeing a light shown through from the living room, she wanders off to the balcony and fire escape on the side of the house. it was only a flight of stairs and a half till madi was on par with the balcony, it was a short climb till she was onto the balcony. the only thing blocking madi and the couple was a transparent creme coloured cloth with embroidered rose accents.

y/n’s loud moans escaped flooding her bedroom, escaped through the window. the curtains sway giving madi an opening to see matt fully down on her friend and her enjoying it. madi’s mouth gapes open as ashe slides her phone out of her pocket.

the camera app opens quickly as she swipes to record.

the small blip of her phone pipes up as she capturns the full scene on camera, the summer sunset gave a yellow glow to the recording. matt rips off his shirt with one arm dipping right back to y/n’s core.

madi’s only thought was to share it to her best friend, nick. little did she know nick wasn’t the only one she sent it to, but her homework group. madi continued to record through the small slit of the window.

science 4 group

madi 🩷

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HOLY SHIT LOOK MATT AT Y/N’S HOUSE!!!!

Y/N’S POV

“matt, matt, matt” the release came to me in an instant. “come on baby girl, you did so well. you ready?” the sound of his belt come undone only made me hotter. before another word could be exchanged i grab his shoulder pulling him down to the bed rolling on top of him.

“i’ll ride you till your dick is limp and your begging me to stop.” matt’s reaction only made me feel even more aroused. “anything for you baby,” matt said copying my tone of voice.

stationing my legs on either side of his i bend down to kiss him, pressing my pebbled nipples onto his bare skin, slowly grinding down onto his raging hard on.

his whines only intensify the burning seer of his skin touching mine. my hand follows in suit with my hips feeling every last vein of his dick through his boxers. “a-ah!” matt whines due to me pressing my finger into his slit.

pushing his boxers down his dick springs out slapping against his happy trail. “please please please y/n please.”

“please what, pretty boy?” i mock feeling the surge of power flow through me.

“please fuck me,” he whimpered out. for such a bad boy exterior, he sure doesn’t act like it now.

without waiting another second for him to say something else i sink down onto his throbbing dick feeling him fill me up so well. “mhhm, matty you feel so good.”

“ugh, only for you b-baby.” matt’s barely keeping it together, while i bounce up and down on his cock. speeding up every second. i begin to grind onto his pelvis as i slam down onto him with his body slightly grazing my clit in the best way possible.

“matty, im a-about to c-cum. do it with me.” his hands sneak onto my love handles as i lean up against him again, he attaches his mouth to my nipple that was dangling in front of him. his hips snap up and down, pushing insanely deep inside me. “m-matt!” a loud pornographic moan comes out of my mouth feeling the knot in my stomach break, feeling a huge relief. he follows soon after letting out a guttural grunt.

i roll down beside him, both of our deep breaths fill the room. “fuck, oh my god.” i breathed out, heaving my chest. i turn to face him, putting my hand against his chest and my head onto the arm that was stretched out near me. my curtains move and sway with the blow of my fan as i see a shadow fall off of my window, it must've just been an animal.

“i don’t think i can walk,” i confess feeling him look over to me. my hand travels to feel his scruff that he’s been growing out the past few weeks, it’s never gotten that long but it’s still very apparent. “hmm, lemme take care of you okay? we can even get mcdonald’s, im fine driving out to the further one if you're scared of people to see us.” he combs his hand through my hair, tugging a little relieving some heat and pressure my head has collected.

he pushes himself up and goes to the bathroom, turning on the shower and coming back to retrieve me.

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this whole day it felt like people were staring at me left and right, i haven’t even been in the building for more than 20 minutes and i’ve had three people quickly lose eye contact with me when they were the one staring first.

i haven’t matt yet but i was really hoping we would be able to meet up at our usual spot, im snapped out of my trances feeling someone's hand on my shoulder squeezing it a little. i jump a little whipping my head towards the rest of the hands body, thank goodness it’s just nick. “babes, we gotta talk.” he said in a monotone voice, “why what’s up?”

“just give me a second, stop moving.” i listen to him and stop in my tracks seeing nothing wrong with today but the staring. “okay now what happened last night,” nick said now holding me down with both hands.

“well if you must know, my parents are out of town, like you knew and i stayed home studying before going out for mcdonald’s.” the lie slipped out from my mouth with ease hoping to keep matt and my secret a secret for a little longer.

“okay then maybe it isnt that serious…” nick trailed off, his shoulders were very visibly tense, not letting off since he caught up to me. “what are you talking about? but come on lemme at least go to my locker.” he reluctantly let’s go knowing i’m stronger than him.

“y/n wait– just know i have no clue if its true or if it's even you.” he says following in suit with me. “nick, still no clue what you are talking about.” my locker lock clicks a few times before i'm able to get it open.

a large barrage of papers fall out of my locker all having the same image pasted on them. my mouth drops open as i turn my head to nick. he picks one up from the top of my locker, unfolding it and making a sour face to it. “what? what is it?”

he slowly hands it to me, folding it back up before i get ahold of it.

my heart dropped.

it was a grainy picture of me riding matt last night, his hands on my hips and my face looking at him with pure lust. it was taken through my window and luckily you couldn’t see much of matt’s face and next to none of mine. but people knew, everyone knew it was me.

picking up a few other copies, some of them have the words slut and whore written on them in large words. if they printed a picture it must’ve been everywhere online, i cannot stand being here another minute.

stuffing a couple copies into my bag i storm out of the building feeling tears stinging my eyes, y/n how could you let this happen? what’s going to happen when harvard finds out about this? there goes your life, your friends, your boyfriend and your future. quadruple kill.

i sit in my car and just drive, drive to the only place that’ll bring me any kind of peace at this time. it was only a 3 minute drive from the school to the large forest that surrounded the school. i parked my car on the slightly wet gravel, hearing the crunch of the rocks beneath the tires.

i walked and walked till the trees seemed to clear a bit, the grass was wet and squished under my shoes. brunette hair peaks from behind a tree, it was like the picture was being painted in front of me this whole time. matt came here too, he came to where we met the first time.

he stumbled into the forest after getting chased by a couple of guys once he tried to start a fight.

something brushed by the bushes alerting me, a boy in an oversized hoodie over his stained red white tee. jeans scuffed and a little dirty as he flops down on the grass in front of me. i can hear him panting as his chest rose and fell with deep breaths.

he tilts his head to finally see me, i still sit there frozen with my book in hand slowly reaching for my keys being cautious incase he tries to go for me next. “i see, you know. im not gonna hurt you. i would never hit a girl.” his words are slow and very unconvincing. “do you talk? he asked, glancing at me again. he finally sat up and came closer to me, my hand clutches the house keys even harder as he steps plop in front of me.

his body collides with the tree as he sits next to me, his sweet and salty cologne fills my senses, feeling it cloud my thoughts. he takes the book from my hands and closes it looking around at it.

“everything has changed by cynthia atlan, we crave love so much we would trade anything for it, including ourselves. caleb and cam grew up together, had their first kiss together but still haven’t thought about getting together. when highschool life takes a horrible turn the two become separated and distant, caleb doesn’t wanna let cam go but life takes turns and loops. how are they able to navigate hormones, relationships and life? sounds like a hoot.” his sarcastic voice says otherwise.

“this caleb guy doesn’t sound like he really deserved her huh…” he flips through the pages quickly glancing at a couple words per page.

“well, i guess i should go, but i’ll see you around here i hope.” his smile beamed brightly as he pushed himself up and looked back at me.

“hm, maybe” it comes out almost as a whisper. his face lights up as he takes my words as an accomplishment. “yeah, i’ll see you around here, tomorrow.”

he never gave me my book back before he left and i didn’t even realise it. i guess that’s one way to make me come back

“matt?” i get out between choked sobs. i didn’t even need to see his red eyes and face to tell he’s also been crying.

he peered over to where i was looking up and down before attempting to wipe away his tears and sadness. i didn’t think twice before joining him.

his brown hair is tousled by him running his hand through it many times and his tear stained eyes tell more than what he wished.

“y/n i-i’m so s-sorry.” his tears spilt once more making any effort of wiping them away futile. he wrapped his arms around something and hugged it tight. it was my book he stole from me when we first met. “i’m so so so fucking sorry i’m such an idiot.”

“matt, please it wasn’t your fault. but i am terrified, i don’t want to ever go back to school.” my voice cracks while trying to get through that sentence. matt doesn’t even utter another word before he tugs me into him, straddling him as he wraps his arms around me in a tight hug.

“i’m so sorry y/n, i didn’t wanna face anyone after i left. when i walked in everyone was applauding and people shook my hand, i had no clue why until chris and nick texted me about it.”

his pure sincerity makes me suffocate him a little more not wanting anyone else around but him. he puts a hand around my cheek guiding it to him to kiss, i get a good look of his equally dishevelled face.

“we are so fucked.” i giggle a little thinking about how much a shit show this will be when we get back.

“is this what they mean in everything has changed that high school life would take a bad turn? because i’m happy to go through it if it means we get our happy ending. you’re my end, end game.”

“yes matt, this is everything. we are the happy ending. we are end game” my quivering lips connect with his.

[ineffectualdemon]

Summary of the whole Colleen Ballinger situation

I am not someone who watches a lot of YouTubers especially not a lot of original YouTubers but I do occasionally watch drama videos about people I have never watched because I'm a nosy bitch who likes gossip

But the Colleen Ballinger situation is so much more than drama. I've been following it since it blew up three weeks ago and here is the summary of the situation if you're interested

Three years ago when he was 17 YouTuber Adam McIntyre made a video calling out Colleen for running a behind the scenes smear campaign against him and briefly touched on the fact that she had an inappropriate relationship with him which included sending him underwear when he was 13

She made an "apology" video and won the sympathy vote and he was harassed by her fans and generally not believed for 3 years

3 weeks ago another YouTuber named Kodee put out a video proving that they worked with Colleen behind the scenes to smear Adam and came out with a lot more proof that Colleen was being very inappropriate with minors in a private group chat. A lot of which was her asking Adam things like what his favourite sex position was when he was 15. (Side note: Kodee is a whole thing on their own) Adam at age 20 has realised she used him as unpaid labour and groomed him

Adam, while not ready for this stuff to be out there, decided to advocate for himself and shared more proof. Partly because he was relieved to have been finally vindicated. He is now 20 and realising fully how messed up her behaviour was to him and wants to defend past him

All this coming out has led to other former fans that Colleen, her friend Kory, and her brother have been inappropriate with, groomed, abused, or sexualised as children coming forward to share their stories and how they are just now, as they reach adulthood, realising how traumatic a lot of that stuff was

There are a lot of accusations and they have gotten progressively worse

Adam sought out therapy to help him process all this trauma he had kept hidden out of shame only for the world to find out (remember he didn't bring most of the inappropriate sexual comment stuff forward initially. Kodee did)

Colleen is silent for 3 weeks as this all goes down

Last night she releases a video on her 3rd channel titled "hi." Where she pulls out a fucking ukulele and sings a silly little song about how everyone is lying and tried to turn it around and make herself the victim. She's not a groomer! Just a loser! And yeah she did talk to kids in group chats and overshare but she wasn't creepy about it! She promises! While providing 0 proof to defend herself

It goes down exactly as you would expect

And that's where things stand rn

It's a fucking mess

I really feel for the victims especially Adam

The one good thing to come out of all of this is from my perspective is it has led to some very important conversations in my house with my teenager about parasocial relationships, internet safety, and appropriate boundaries

[wonton4rang]

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Baby, I'm so toxic ¡!

pairing: bnd x reader.

warnings: toxic behaviour, mentions of violence (verbally and physically, nothing explicit, just mentions of it), jealousy, mentions of smut, mentions of cheating. and lmk if i missed anything.

summary: bnd as toxic traits i think they'll have during a relationship.

note: can someone tell me what "hcs" are and an example? i got like three requests using the same term and i'm very very lost 😔 would really appreciate some definition :')

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sungho;

control freak. he is the type to be so involved in your life that it's kinda cute at the beginning, how he would call you at all times, wants to know where you at, who are you with, what you ate, why are you late, why you didn't pick up his call within the first seconds... it got old really fast. he would want to choose what you wear, go everywhere with you, check your phone even if there was nothing there just because "there should be trust" ??? he would also start to pick and choose your friends, telling you which ones he liked and which ones you BOTH should meet.

riwoo;

insecurities. don't get me wrong, insecurities can happen, they are the most natural thing. but when he starts portraying his insecurities on you, projecting them and trying to manipulate you with it, that's when it gets ugly. he would say things like "you shouldn't do that because it makes me feel insecure" and suddenly you wouldn't do it because you loved him so much. plus, i know it sounds more like 'manipulation' than actual insecurities but he does feel insecure and uses it at his own favor to stop you from talking to or meeting people that made him feel smaller.

jaehyun;

too 'friendly'. wbk that myungjae is an extroverted puppy like typa boy, he would have really close female friends and it's not like you mind but when you get to y'alls table and find some girl sitting in your boyfriend's lap, it's not your favourite scene to watch. so you would have serious arguments with him, explaining how you didn't feel comfortable to see some chick sitting on his lap with her arms around his neck and their faces so close they could share breath and kiss at any moment. he just laughed and said you were being too insecure and that you should quit it, that he met those girls way before he knew you so it was just natural ???? be so fucking for real rn.

taesan;

nonchalant. ah *sigh* he would literally ghost you for weeks. meeting you at your place and listening to you talk about how worried you get and how you couldn't even count on him after y'all got separated and went home because he wouldn't even see your messages or pick up your calls. he wouldn't say a thing and you would just stand there, staring into this bored eyes and clicking your tongue but it was fucking useless. "is there something you wanna tell me?" but he just shrugged, laying back in your bed and just letting a sigh out, that 'done' look in his face letting you know he didn't give a single fuck about the things you were saying.

leehan;

obsessive. similar to sungho's tbh but more into the jealousy obsession kinda thing. he would check your phone on a regular basis, he would hold your waist and do very inappropriate stuff in front of your friends, side eyeing them if they ever complimented you. he would basically yell at you and forbid you from going out without him because why would you wanna go to a party or a club or a bar without your boyfriend?? were you cheating or something?? you bet that your neck was bruised due to his lips sucking on your skin and leaving hickies that he would make you show to everyone just to assert that you were his.

woonhak;

anger issues. yeah, woonhak is such a sweet boy, so cute and lovely, being so happy and energetic around you, kissing your cheeks and holding your frame with adoration, talking to you for hours through the phone and even playing some songs for you to fall asleep with. but when he gets angry, that's when you get uneasy, your hands are shaking when you see his tall figure cover you and press you against the wall, and tbh you weren't even listening anymore to his yelling because you became so scared of him that your senses would go numb and all that you could percive were his hands shaking your shoulders and his reddened face while he looks at you like he hates you. why was he so angry anyways? you didn't even know but he would just get mad over anything and everything, you were growing tired of it, but when he stopped being that angry and started to apologize? you just gave in. you just liked him that much :(

[gingerjolover]

i just came up with the cutest lil christmas request for julien!! ok so i’ve been watching love actually and gilmore girls all day while crying and i was thinking abt the scene where lorelei sang “i will always love you” at karaoke night to luke SO i was thinking what if soft!gf was doing karaoke at a christmas party with the boys+muna and other friends and she was singing “lover” by taylor swift☺️☺️

“ we can leave the christmas lights up til january”

“have i known you 20 seconds, or 20 years”

“with every guitar string scar on my hand, i take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover”

like i can see her being so shy at first but went she focuses on julien she’s just all blushy and happy and julien is tearing up bc she loves her baby so much 😣😣

i need a gf so bad someone help me😔😔😔

THIS IS SO STINKIN CUTE

(also no one hate me i havent seen gilmore girls yet 😭)

okay i feel like phoebe would be the reason for the karaoke machine at all, like phoebe definitely bought the machine and gifted it to jb and soft!gf as a housewarming present. i like to think that their house becomes "the house" for get-togethers and stuff like its a very entertainment-forward house but it's just so cozy and centralized to everyone's locations.

everyone is doing karaoke and its all fun and silly and then maybe katie does a slower song, and then phoebe, and then lucy and a mutual friend do a duet and kelli finally convinces soft!gf to sing something with her.

"do a taylor song baby!" julien is encouraging soft!gf from where she stands on the wall next to jo and some other friends.

i feel like kelli is looking for slower songs and soft!gf picks lover. (i just feel like maybe soft!gf wouldn't do a song on her own?? maybe if it was just the boys in the house)

“we can leave the christmas lights up til january” and julien can tell soft!gf is nervous but her voice is so small and sweet, juliens heart just melts.

“have i known you 20 seconds, or 20 years?” soft!gf canonically giggles at inappropriate times but especially when she's nervous or anxious so she and kelli are giggling between lines.

but somewhere before the bridge soft!gf makes eye contact with julien and it's like they're the only two in the room and soft!gf loves how soft and tender julien looks underneath Christmas decorations, wearing a cute christmas tie.

and julien's cheeks are pink, eyes slightly teary as she watches soft!gf on the makeshift stage in their living room, loving the way her hips subtly move with the beat, her arm wrapped around kelli's waist as they both sing.

“with every guitar string scar on my hand, i take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover” soft!gf sings finally getting into it as she lifts her hand to show a small scar, maybe from helping julien hang the guitars in her office or something, giggling as she sings it because julien is the one with scars and calluses underneath her tattooed fingers.

and once soft!gf hands the mic to someone else, maybe jo and a mutual friend, she all but skips to julien, jb wrapping her up, kissing her firmly as they sway back and forth, juliens hands splayed on the back of her neck and sliding down to her butt.

"ya did so good gorgeous," julien's murmuring against her lips, hand running through the ends of her hair, readjusting the Christmas tree head band on her head (she wears this bc i wore this on Christmas teehee).

[acourtofthought]

Heyy, good morning!

I read several of your posts (which are divine) and, as I love your analysis, I would like to know two things:

1; What do you think of the theories (from what I've seen of the Ewriels) about Gwyn being a lightsinger?

And it is believed that the following excerpt, present in acosf in the scene in which the priestesses sing, has some “deep” meaning or clues for the future;

"The music took form behind Nesta’s eyes as the priestesses sang lyrics in languages so old, no one voiced them anymore. She saw what the song spoke of: mossy earth and golden sun, clear rivers and the deep shadows of an ancient forest."

Sorry if something seemed confusing, my English isn't very good...

Thank you very much!!! And I have to say, I really love the color coding you added into your message, my eyes are enjoying how it was all presented (and your English was excellent so no worries).

1. I think the way E/riels view the lightsinger theory is their method to eliminate Gwyn as a possible love interest for Az and that is something I completely disagree with. A way to make Gwyn evil and an excuse to explain away any draw Az might feel to her.

Could Gwyn have some sort of lightsinger heritage? I don't think it's a complete impossibility. We know that she's a quarter river nymph. We know that her grandmother seduced a High Fae male. Not that Gwyn is out there trying to seduce anyone, the sins of our elders are not the sins of our own.

But there is something in her grandmothers background to suggest that maybe she was out to "lure" the man she seduced (though we don't have enough information to know whether it was truly born from sinister intent or not) and we're told that lightsingers do lure their victims to them.

SJM did use language to describe Gwyn's song, as if it were beckoning and summoning those listening to her. It put Nesta into a bit of a trance like state which led her to the Harp.

That language could be SJM hinting at there being a power there or SJM simply telling us people get lost in the music in their world as they do ours.

Nesta tells us there's something about Gwyn she can't quite figure out just as lightsingers appear one way but end up another but again again, that could just be her setting up for Gwyn's secret father reveal

So it's not like there isn't a case to be made for her having some lightsinger in her background (though it would be a small percent) but those that claim she's be evil for it are being ignorant to literally every other power that exists in the IC.

SJM decided to give us the Valkyrie storyline in SF and Rhys tells Elain that while they could be lovely, the second they stepped into the battlefield they became bloodthirsty.

Mor is described as being bloodthirsty.

Rhys killed people at Amarantha's request.

Feyre used her powers to trick Tamlin into believe she was getting a bit too friendly with Lucien.

Feyre slipped into Lucien's mind without his knowledge.

Azriel tortures people in what Cassian tells us is a symphony of pain. He attacked Eris in a High Lord meeting when all Eris did was make a inappropriate comment.

Rhys and Feyre both used their powers to attack Ianthe for her inappropriate behaviors towards men.

Would it really matter if Gwyn was part lightsinger and could use her powers to manipulate their enemies?

How is that any worse than what the rest of the IC has done?

Just because someone has a dark power doesn't mean they'll use it on innocent people and even when some of the IC have used their powers against innocent people (like Feyre allowing Spring to fall despite what it meant for the innocent and Rhys allowing Claire to be taken by Amarantha despite knowing she was not Feyre), they are still considered the good guys regardless.

Honestly, I don't think E/riels realize that the lighsinger theory actually builds up the compatibility for Gwyn and Az considering Az struggles with the dark things he's done and Gwyn having a matching darkness would be a way they could help one another accept both the good and the bad within them.

You know, I don't know if this excerpt:

"The music took form behind Nesta’s eyes as the priestesses sang lyrics in languages so old, no one voiced them anymore. She saw what the song spoke of: mossy earth and golden sun, clear rivers and the deep shadows of an ancient forest."

Is supposed to have a deeper meaning in regards to ships but what I think it does is show us the way SJMs mind works. She has decided that "mossy earth and golden sun" are complimentary things and that is Elain and Lucien. She has decided that "clear rivers and deep shadows" pair well and Gwyn's clear eyes are described as bodies of water and deep shadows is clearly a reference to Az.

[heybaetae]

gifmaker / cc wrapped 2023!

thanks for tagging me my angel @jkvjimin 💜

i tried really hard not to choose all comp sets, but those take the most effort and therefore are what i'm prouder of than a standard set, but regardless...

here are my top 10 fave creations of the year:

bts chapter 1 insta feed // this was an insanely taxing project and is probably the most work i've ever put into anything, but i was really inspired to do it. it took about a week (one day for each panel) and was repetitive, i literally threw out my back by day 3 from sitting working on it that my body was in SO MUCH PAIN, but i wanted to get everything right and make it make sense which is why i wrote up a detail post breaking it down and explaining every decision that went into this. i still intend to make this a series and do one dedicated to their japanese discography (i actually started on one before i published this but didn't like the concept) and for their solo work, but it doesn't feel like the right time yet as things continue to release. but i look forward to it!

cheesy bts valentine cards // this was purposely corny, but the response was unbelievable! i had fun working on it and was so happy it made people laugh and smile. the tags were a joy to read on this post and it's my fourth most popular gifset ever. thank you!

bts guide to troubled birds // yet another corny idea, but i get a kick out of making silly comps and was inspired to make this. i started with jimin's as an experiment because his poem was the easiest to choose and built the rest of it from there, carefully deciding which poem to apply to each member and recreating them from scratch. i love celebrating their chaos in fun ways, so this was nice!

jungkook's sensitive tear ducts // sometimes i get really random comp ideas and spontaneously start making something with no plan. this was one of those times and it is now my third most popular gifset since making this blog in 2020 lol. ofc i'd never gif him upset about anything serious, so i only chose moments that didn't feel inappropriate to include to keep this set lighthearted and humorous.

long live bts (10th anniversary set) // i always knew i wanted to make something with the lyrics of that song because every word of it reminds me of their story. the 10th anniversary was perfect since it literally says "it was the end of a decade". i wanted the set to just be really simple so i went with a more desaturated look and focused more on choosing a scene from each year that fit the lyric per that gif.

love me again mv // this was my first time bothering to gif a music video in 4k. i usually avoid it bc it slows my computer down and takes a lot longer (i also have to reconvert the youtube download to a different file type to get it to play in my kmplayer, it's a whole process) but i waited a few days after it came out because i originially didn't think i could color it when it premiered so i just didn't gif it. but i gave it a try anyway when i didn't feel so pressured and i really like how crisp they came out.

jungkook's bday set // i didn't have a plan for this when i started, but i searched a lot for inspo and finally found something i felt like i could make something with so i came up with this very barbie-esque rendition for jungkook that i'm still very fond of. i purposely didn't write happy birthday on it anywhere so it could be shared year-round. it's probably my fave set i made all year and everyone seemed to like it too!

jimin's bday set // this was originally just going to include songs from FACE, but i decided it didn't celebrate jimin's work as a whole if i didn't include all his solo songs/endeavors so it turned into a big monster. i like how it came out though!

standing next to you mv // this year i was introduced to HD master files, so instead of rushing to download a new mv from youtube and giffing it fast, i'd wait for a higher quality rip from apple music to show up online. the difference is quite astounding. i made gifs with master files for all three of jk's music videos this year (seven, 3D), but i like how this one turned out the best.

vmin comp // just felt like giffing my two favorite people before they left and needed to channel my sad emotions into something before seeing them seperate for so long. i included moments i've giffed before and ones i've never had the chance to gif. i could have made this post so much longer but forced myself to stop lol. i like the pink and blue colors in it a lot <3 i miss them so much

thank for all your support on my work this year! i have lots of (old) new stuff in my drafts to share in the new year so please keep your love coming x

i'm going to tag @userjiminie @userjungkook97 @btsiu and @cordiallyfuturedwight to do this if they'd like to!

[yyouzip]

༉‧₊˚🔭彡 newjeans career in 2024 tarot reading ~

this will include…

newjeans new music, new jeans as a group, new jeans members individual careers.

DISCLAIMER: this is all for entertainment and depends on the energy being read at the given time. the future is always able to change as we all have free will. this reading is done with the assumption that everyone mentioned continues to live how they are living without sudden changes, if that makes sense.

⤷ ୨🎐୧࿐

newjeans new music : KoC AoC 5oS KnoC QoP rx Justice

we might get music about self awareness and love or mv with an older figure with masculine energy acting as a guide or councillor of sorts. the music may take a more ‘spiritual’ route with things like angels or spirits in it. it’ll be pretty unique and creative. maybe the mc of the music video is new to love or the relationship ? it’ll have a dreamy and floaty kind of vibe. it may have to do w the mc going through some pain and trauma like bullying. i get the vibe of someone sort of running away from reality and ending up elsewhere, like Alice in wonderland. but to a dreamy kind of aether dimension. i think we will get an rnb song with the vibe or hurt, cool with you, or ditto. it’ll be very creative and fun to watch

we might see fans angry that there wasn’t more. it’s like ador is being stingy and hiding things from us. maybe there wasn’t enough music released? regardless, fans desperately want more. OR newjeans won’t really get the reaction fans feel like they deserved. maybe not enough streams or appreciation for this new music? and they feel like they didn’t get enough. still, fans will love the beauty and art of it and find it very imaginative and romantic (romantic as in beautiful and such). we might get a little controversy again, like with min heejin. fans might think there’s some dishonesty and lying and min heejin is running away from accountability for whatever the issue is. i think the issue may be about the aesthetics of the mv feeling inappropriate somehow. maybe it’s spiritual nature will have religious references that don’t sit well with fans. or it’ll be the aesthetic itself not sitting well with fans.

things that come to mind: cool with you by newjeans, mortue aesthetic, angels, crosses, suicide and death, rebirth and innocence, isolation, awakening, divinity, satanism and catholicism, the cold, all about lily chou chou, occult/metaphysics

new jeans as a group : the empress KoC 2oC

they’ll be a lot more unique and creative and bring a good flow of cash to ador. alottttt of creativity i’ll go into newjeans in 2024 they’ll be bringing in new things to k-pop just like in the past. a lot of respect for music as an art will go into newjeans 2024 and they’ll gain a lot of respect and admiration for it. their creative team will be respected alot. they’ll be respected by other idols and have a lot of collab opportunities sent their way.

new jeans members individual careers :

Minji : 8oC KnoP rx the emperor rx

she might get less appreciation despite her hard work and seem like she’s fading into the bg a bit. she might be overworked and busy 24/7 with ador acting almost like a tyrant. even though she’s being worked so much, she’s still not being appreciated the way she should be. she will have little to no self control with her professional life and feel very overwhelmed and tired. she's very unwilling to share so that's all lol.

Danielle : 10oP AoW both rx the moon QoP AoS

this may be an unstable year for her professionally. behind the scenes might be a lot of loss of profit and disappointment from ador causing hesitancy, anxiety, and a serious lack of passion. we might see more vulnerability and emotion from danielle. there’s a lot going on behind the scenes though. there also is a lack of transparency from the company with a lot of things, fuelling her anxiety and confusion. this’ll be heightened by potential controversy surrounding their new comeback. still, among fans she’ll build a reputation of someone who is mature and composed. she’ll keep the same nurturing kind girl image she has rn and get positive attention. she may get praised for positive behaviour or go viral for a cute interaction with another idol. even though she’s anxious and nervous, she’s still ready for new projects and is willing to take whatever the world gives her.

Haerin : (tumblr like reset everything from haerins reading and what i had started after idk y:( i remember the message but not the cards. sorry.)

haerin will be taking up more leadership roles within the group. as well as sending messages outwards and communicating with fans in a manner that comes from the heart and from a place of true love and passion. she’s going to feel ready to take on what’s new and the creative directions the group is going to take. she’s going to use her love and connection to fans to elevate her career. she going to gain significant respect from people all around her. staff, njs members, and netizens alike. still, she’s going to feel as if something is missing. like newjeans aren’t getting the respect and appreciation they want and even though they work hard, this isn’t reflected in the way they’re being treated by the media and their underwhelming reactions. she feels like what they're making is great and she is working hard and intelligently, but the pay off is still low.

Hanni : PoC rx 7oS rx QoP

with PoC and 7oS both in rx, we might see hanni getting into some scandal or drama surrounding her negative and immature behaviour from the past. this may reveal more about her character and cause some uproar and sad/disappointed feelings with fans/netizens. REGARDLESS, ador and/or hanni will step up almost immediately and apologize to clear up the controversy. it may be a past classmate for friend making comments about her judgement and immature or rude behaviour. i don't see anything to the extremes of bullying though. it may also be a distasteful comment she makes. despite all things, hanni will work very hard this year and make sure she is providing well for fans.

Hyein : 2oS PoC 10oP rx the sun rx

she might be quiet or inactive online, feeling sensitive to netizens comments and hesitant to express reactions and feelings. she'll follow her intuition most of the time and she may experience setbacks with her sources of income like modelling and being an idol. it seems like newjeans won't be growing or gaining all too much this year, as some of the members (including hyein) seem to share the sentiment of disappointment regarding response to their music and creations. she'll feel like her expectations were too high, and she will be unable to appreciate the reactions given by fans and netizens. this may make her appear more silent and sad.

hope you enjoyed!

next up . . .

ive, bts, aespa, nmixx, and more.

[gingergofastboatsmojito]

Is Sydney the goodbye girl?

Excerpt taken from the transcript of 02x03

Suggestion: Don't go and study the soundtrack of the whole series after watching all 3 seasons because you may find bitter surprises, it's not all under-the-table material, there are songs that insinuate a much more realistic way to go about the Sydcarmy endgame we all want. YK how real life can be "complicated", right?

In Sundae 2x3 for instance, we were introduced to the concept of Sydney being the "Goodbye girl". Carmy marrying someone else or choosing another relationship over his relationship with Syd and then regretting it. Looking around to find her and she is gone: "Goodbye girl". That was the ep where he stood her up at Kasama to go help C move boxes. If that is some sort of foreshadowing of the Lalaland ending I fear so much, I will sue.

I have been mentioning and bitching about MY BIGGEST FEAR in regards to the potential Lalaland kind of ending of the series for a while now:

My Sydcarmy dream ending or Storer's?

The Storer of Storer & I

I have good days and bad days, today is a bad day because I was listening to Goodbye Girl and connecting these dots like this. I couldn't help it.

That song may also be a foreshadowing of the right person at the wrong time, which again, points to Lalaland with a twist, which like I said, would be realistic AF, sure! But also, unfair and borderline cynical, seeing as this could very well mean that Carmy and C will maybe give their relationship another go (this I expect for S4 with or without the Lalalaland ending as we speak, although my ideal is that it's nothing but a short-lived fiasco so Carmy can move onto opening up about his real feelings for Syd), whilst Syd tries to spice things up with Luca, most likely and then at the end of the series, when there's no more screentime left for the Sydcarmy endgame we deserve, their timing will finally be right for Sydcarmy to reunite and be together. We won't get to see and actually enjoy them being together and happy etc, maybe if there's a time jump we will be given 1 scene as a sample and that's it, it will be mostly implicit, not explicit.

Pathetic.

On the bright side, if that happens, since they will be trying to make it work with other partners simultaneously and trying to fool themselves into thinking they will succeed, or maybe even really succeed for a while, the yearning and the inappropriate jealousy from both, will be off the charts, which will be really fun to watch. But for my taste, not less pathetic, unless Sydcarmy, when it finally happens, because IT WILL, is given a decent amount of EXPLICIT SCREENTIME.

But maybe if we are given more time... This could work out.

Bonus track: S5 →The only potential airbag I can think of, if Syd is really the "Goodbye girl", is that the fifth season they are currently "in talks about", actually happens, which I reckon is unlikely. But if it does happen it will be the last one for sure. And at that point, we'll get THE REAL SYDCARMY EXPERIENCE throughout the whole S5, which may include a heartbreaking break-up and a beautiful reconciliation that will be synced up with the series finale #MANIFESTING!

Remember to follow my tag #Gingerpovs

[lenavis]

content warning: suicide

(i want to preface this by saying that none of this is representative of my current mindset and that i am in a much better place these days)

there are few pieces of media, if any, i've interacted with that have come close to addressing the topic of suicidal ideation more accurately than disco elysium.

it's a strange sort of state to occupy, because the truth is that more often than not it is incredibly mundane. there are fits, yes. there are times at which things seem nigh unbearable because you are trapped inside the ordeal of being you, existing as you, continuing as you-- and that is the worst part, truly. realizing that there is no escape from the purgatory of your own id. very much the embodiment of harry drunkenly screaming "I DON'T WANT TO BE THIS KIND OF ANIMAL ANYMORE" and bellowing like a "wounded boar" as he trashes his hotel room.

not "this type of person". "this type of animal". like recognizing your own sickness as a kind of genus and species that you have been condemned to. taxonomy is strict and absolute. you don't want to be this kind of animal anymore. and though you comprehend logically that you're not just an animal-- you're a human, and thus have the capacity to heal or regress or otherwise transmute yourself from the baseness you perceive in yourself-- it is often difficult to see yourself as anything other than a lashing, ugly beast that knows no divergent nature.

yes. there are moments of intense emotion. cinematic scenes in which you feel as though you can't control yourself and often find yourself alienating or terrifying the people closest to you. but the bulk of suicidal ideation is more a whisper than a shout.

it's just constantly there. harry opens the compartment in his ledger and finds the old postcard, and the words appear in his head casual as any passing thought: "fucking kill yourself asshole". he talks to someone-- anyone, really: you can muse to a pawn shop owner, who has no idea how to respond, that you probably should have killed yourself by now. you can tell a pair of four year old twins that suicide is in fact, ok, and that it's likely in your future. it's always so offhand. it's always wildly inappropriate, but when you get to a certain point, that begins to matter less and less.

there are thoughts that you can internalize in this game for point buffs and perks. some of them have drawbacks, like lowered logic, conceptualization, etc. the thoughts revolve around a variety of topics, including communism, cryptids, your ex wife, inexplicable feminist agendas, etc.

there is a thought called: finger on the eject button. here’s the text that pops up when you begin internalizing it:

Who doesn't toy with the thought of suicide sometimes? Or, like, most of the time? Okay, maybe some people don't – like the happy scientist girl named Marie, or Jean-Marc, the superstar whom everyone loves. But you -- when the going gets rough, it's nice to think about your little trap door out of here. Do it. Put your finger on the eject button, see how alive it makes you feel -- the freedom of finality. Think of how much they'll *miss* you.

and here's the text that pops up when you finish internalizing it:

Looks like you thought about how much they'll *miss* you and the freedom of finality for too long, and now you've decided to actually kill yourself. The train leaves the station every evening, 21:00. Make sure you have a gun and bullets. That's how macho servicemen do it. Also – turns out *Finger On The Eject Button* is pretty much your theme song. A headbanger from your teenage years and your wedding ballad. This is not the first time you're spinning the tape.

after you internalize this thought, you don't get any perks or cool features or detractors. instead, you are presented every night with a suicidal thought before you go to sleep.

the text for the thought and the ensuing consequence are so accurate to how it really feels that when i found this option i had to turn the game off for a little while. because it captures it painfully well. the element of spite and self-righteousness. the vague blueprints of how you might do it. the constant drumming of it in your head, persistent as raindrops on the roof of a car.

the terrifying comfort that when the going gets bad... you can just go.

it's possible to kill yourself in this game, if you hit a particular scenario and fail certain checks. you're given the option to put a gun in your mouth while standing in a cafeteria of incredulous onlookers, and when you do so it is an action completely formed by impulse. it's not prefaced by a long train of suicidal thoughts or any kind of prologue. just. there's an opportunity to bite the barrel. so you do it. you taste the tang of metal on your tongue and you hear the spring creak-- and you can pull the trigger. the game over screen pops up. congratulations. you finally did it. your reward is nothing.

i was in a bad state when i played disco elysium for the first time. playing it felt like smashing myself into a glass slide and slotting myself under a dissection scope. there i was, transparent as an amoeba with all its pulsing organelles visible and open to scrutiny. therein lie the mechanisms that i could not perceive as they ticked in myself.

[ghostcaterwaul]

My Thoughts On Rory Culkin Movies/Characters That Absolutely No One Asked For!

My thirst for Rory Culkin has been reignited thanks to TikTok, so I’ve been (re-)watching a lot of his movies this past week, and I have a lot to say.

Jack Goes Home - About 20 minutes in (the dinner scene with Jack and his mother), I knew I was definitely not in the headspace for this movie, but at that point I was like “I’m not gonna stop 20 minutes in, ffs”, so I got stoned and kept watching. Also took an edible which I kinda regret because watching the last like, half of that movie that fucking baked? A bit too intense, ngl. Oh and the “I don’t need help. I’m fixing things.” part? I feel like that’s what I look like to my roommate when I’m very obviously spiraling in some PTSD/Borderline episode and in denial about it. Like, that’s gotta be the vibes I give off (My roomie watched this part with me, and I mentioned this, and he agreed so… yikes.) The ending with Jack going back into the house kinda fucked me up, emotionally.

Gabriel - I tried to watch this immediately after watching Jack Goes Home and ended up having to stop halfway through and watch the rest the next day. First half was hitting a little too close to home and I couldn’t handle it directly after Jack Goes Home. Cried a little when I did finally finish it.

Intruders - Overall a good movie. Gave me a bit of anxiety because home intrusion stuff freaks me out. Worth it due to Rory’s character, Dan, whimpering and whining while getting absolutely wrecked for a decent portion of the movie. That cry he lets out when his knee is relocated? An absolute blessing.

Welcome to Willits - The movie itself isn’t the best but I enjoyed it. Maybe it would have been better if I had gotten more stoned, tbh. Possum is my absolute favorite Rory character though. Possum deserved better.

The Song of Sway Lake - Ngl, I felt like this one moved kinda slowly. I got bored at one point, checked the time stamp, realized I was only halfway through, and had to come back to it the next day. So, not my favorite Rory Culkin movie but I do think his hair looks the best in this one.

Scream 4 - So, I’ll be honest, I’m not like, an avid fan of the Scream franchise or anything, mainly due to the fact I’m not big on slasher films. However, I love horror movies and the Scream franchise seems like required viewing for any horror fan. I do enjoy the genre-aware characters and the meta-ness of the franchise and I think a lot of it is pretty clever. However, I don’t really revisit these movies all too often. That being said, I’m just going to focus on Rory’s character, Charlie, because that’s all I really feel qualified to talk about. I love Charlie so much. Definitely one of my favorite Rory characters, ngl. Probably a close second to Possum. Also, seeing him tied to that chair? And then the “Shh, shh, I know, I know”??? I have a lot of very inappropriate things to say about all that.

Electrick Children - This was what really got me thirsting over Rory when I watched it about 10-ish years ago. I hadn’t seen it in forever so it was nice to rewatch it. I don’t really have as much to say about this one as I thought I would. Clyde does hold a special place in my heart, though, as the first Rory character I fell in love with.

[lost-inthedream]

Dilf!Sf9 smutty reactions to you touching them while their kid is sleeping in the next room👀?

Dilf!SF9

Epidose: you touch them while their kid sleeps in the next room

Pairing: Sf9 x gn reader

k/n = their kid's name

This is sooo domestic. I hope you enjoy it!

Warnings: mentions of sex, bad language

Bonus song rec: Don't wanna say, by Lauren Jauregui

suggestive content under the cut

Youngbin:

Youngbin voices your name one, two times. You ignore it, insisting to suck on his collarbone, that damn sic parvis magna tattoo lured your lips. He had opened a few buttons of his dress shirt right after he got home from work. He reproaches you a third time, his tone is actually lenient. As indulgent as he can be when his daughter refuses to eat because she feels unwell. "k/n's just fell asleep. You know she sometimes wakes up..." he tries to dissuade you.

His hand wrapped a handful of your hair, he threatened on pulling you away from him but could not finish the move. "Shit" he repeats as much as he repeated your name seconds earlier. "Just don't go much further for now."

Inseong:

Inseong enters the bedroom after fitteen minutes. His hair is all messed up, which tells you that he was lying down with his boy while telling the craziest stories a man could conceive. You loved that about him. "What were we talking about again?" he asks with the intention of resume it from where you stopped when his child called him.

"It doesn't matter" you reply right away and hold him by the waistband. The way your index finger hooks past the fabric draws a chuckle from him. He directs his eyes toward the door, still wide open. "Don't worry yet" you assure. He holds his gaze - as alert as he can - on the entry while you work on making him feel good through his clothes.

Jaeyoon:

To be realistic, Jaeyoon is the first to lock the door once his child is in bed. His baby girl knows well how to knock and fortunately, she sleeps like an angel. You sometimes get worried. "Honey, you're insane" you moan low as he cups your breasts underneath your blouse. K/n gifted you with such a cute garment before the dinner, you know she had chosen it by herself because it was pink. Anyways, Jaeyoon went shopping with her and paid for it, hence he felt in the right to take it off of you.

"I will stop it if you tell me to" he tenderly remembers touching noses with you. You shake your head slowly, in a way that makes your noses brush. The scene feels cute despite the fact that your tits are cradled by your boyfriend's naughty hands.

Dawon:

"Baby, are you still watching this movie?" Dawon asks through laughter once he finds out that you kept invested in that animation even after k/n fell asleep. "That's a cool story" you explain collecting the remote control. "I'm gonna pause it here so k/n can resume it later"

It's afternoon but everything is absolutely silent. Dawon deliacately pulls you down on the mattress, you could take a nap too. He rests his eyes closed and pushes his leg on top of you so you won't move away. However, instead of closing your eyes too, you start scratching his thigh in a very inappropriate way. He does not take much to start humping you like a teenager. "The things you make me do" he whispers. "I'm giving us 15 minutes and you better swallow all your delicious moans"

Zuho:

That little cutie simply consumed all your batteries in the amusement park. Juho did everything his child needed as soon as you all arrived home. You even offered to give him a helping hand but he expressed clearly that you did amazing in the afternoon and needed some rest from his kid.

Once, k/n fell asleep, your boyfriend let his body drop beside you on the couch. "Are you staying for the night?" he asked, softly playing with your hair, his deep voice sounded worn out and even sexier thanks to it. You answered with a stroke along his thigh, ascending to his crotch. "We deserve wrapping this day up, right?" he suggested, immediately showing you his darkening eyes.

Rowoon:

Seokwoo came back to the scene of his daughter dozing off on your thighs. You smiled shyly, not knowing what you have just done. The girl simply laid closer and napped straight after a few strokes on his scalp." Are you a child whisperer?" your boyfriend asked with humor while analyzing the little girl. She was acting up because she had lost a few pieces of a puzzle, then he went to the kitchen, but now she was peacefully asleep!

Daddy took his young rebel in his arms and put her in her bed. "She's really something" you commented when you all were finally alone in the bedroom. "But his dad is also fascinating" you added suggestively touching his clad abdomen. Rowoon looked to be unable to do anything but observe your hand. "Go easy, y/n" he voiced without moving a single muscle to stop you.

Yoo Taeyang:

Taeyang caught you still tenderly admiring the seashells that his daughter brought from the beach. He stayed silent for a while until you noticed his warm presence. "You're slowly becoming friends" he affirmed. You could see how much it affected him by the sparkles in his eyes so you signed to him to come closer.

As he hugged you firmly and nuzzled onto your neck, you breathed satisfied and held him by the butt cheeks. He laughed. "I'd think you want something nasty if we haven't just come back from the purest day out". You pulled away to look at his eyes and nodded. Taeyang widened his eyes in amazement "What about doing it in the bathroom?"

Hwiyoung:

"Babe, you got new tattoos" you voiced playfully when Youngkyun squatted down to pull Lego pieces from under the table. He turned his head back to comprehend what you were talking about. His face denoted confusion. "I mean that one on your arm" you explained through laughter and pointing in the direction so he could verify it.

"Oh, this" your boyfriend figured out after spying on the drawing made with a pen. "He's been drawing everywhere". You looked at Youngkyun as he stood up and walked toward you. The urge to grab his hips was irrefutable so you landed your hands there and said what crossed your mind. "There's something I wanna draw on you". He nodded, nibbling on his bottom lip "We need to lock inside the bedroom for it, right?"

Chani:

From the entrance, you observed Chani skillfully slide his son onto the bed. He actually sensed it when he was taken away from his dad's arms but Chani easily shushed him into slumber. He looked for your eyes there in the doorway and winked, he looked just a bit cocky about excelling the parenting thing.

"Any plan for tonight?" he asked as soon as the door clicked shut. "We can do anything except noise". You pondered, your index finger slowly playing with his lips while you decided how to say it. "I don't know whether this is appropriate, love". He tilted his head, so you demonstrated it for him by rubbing your front against his. "Oh? You're talking about that, right?" he assured with a brand new demeanor. "Sweetheart, I'm a dad, not a saint"

[writing-for-life]

As It Was Before The Otherness Came

A one-shot fic for #sandmanfemslashweekend (also on Ao3 if you prefer to read there, chapters are linked), chapters only for structure.

Chapters: 13 (3,773 words) Fandom: The Sandman (TV 2022) Rating: Mature  Warnings: Major Character Death  Relationships: Modern Johanna Constantine/Rachel Moodie  Characters: Modern Johanna Constantine (The Sandman TV), Rachel Moodie, Dream of the Endless | Morpheus, Dream of the Endless  Additional Tags: Falling In Love, Developing Relationship, Sex, Moving In Together, Break Up, Emotional Baggage, Character Death, Canonical Character Death, Canon Compliant, Canon, Swearing

Johanna Constantine and Rachel Moodie are recounting their developing and failing relationship in short, intercutting scenes. Johanna tells her story from end to beginning (she is starting with Rachel's death), and Rachel from beginning to end (she starts with how they met). There are only two scenes in third person (at the exact midpoint and the very end), the rest is written in first person POV by the individual character.

If you find the intercutting, non-linear structure hard to follow, you could try to read Johanna and Rachel separately before putting them back together.

The song inspiration is "As it was" by Hozier.

Sex in ch. 2 but not particularly explicit language, so I don’t think we need a community label. Let me know if you prefer I put one on.

Chapter 1: Demons (Johanna)

It was pissing down in a way I hadn’t experienced for a while. I mean, it’s London, but on that night, it was something else.

As I stood there, waiting for him, I couldn’t help but think that she really was a good person.

And that’s the fucking unfairness of it all. Would be easier to say I didn’t care about her, and maybe it’s true. Maybe I didn’t care enough. It’s me who isn’t a good person. People just get hurt if they get too close to me. Too much darkness, inside and out.

I let her get close. At least for a while. Until I felt it—the dimming of light. The expectations. The domestic shit. And I told myself that’s all it was—feeling tied down. She wanted the happily ever after. I couldn’t give her any of that. Too many demons. Not the real ones, although they’re part of the problem. Sort of. But the demons I’m talking about are mine, and mine alone. And when she looked at me that final time before I left her with him, I wished I’d never let her close enough to see them. Because once she had, she wanted to get to the bottom of it all, and she kept on trying. But that’s not how it works. It never does because it’s true:

I ruin everything I touch.

The sound of his steps took me out of my thoughts.

“She died in peace. In her sleep…”

Chapter 2: It was all it took (Rachel)

It all happened so fast. And it was clichéd:

She cut in right in front of me like a complete bitch, I said, “Excuse me?!”

The side-eye. The husky laugh. The, “Sorry, love…” mixed with a raised eyebrow.

The glances across tables that finally made me burst out laughing. Her confused look, quickly replaced with an inappropriate grin. Only that I didn’t find it inappropriate.

Her wiping everything off my kitchen table before pinning me down.

My legs around her hips.

That hoarse voice of hers that had been driving me insane for the last couple of hours. “Tell me what you want.”

“Show me what you���ve got…” I put my hands on her hips and began to direct her.

She closed her eyes for a second and exhaled before opening them again. Those brown eyes that were blazing like all the fires of hell.

One of her hands moved down my flanks. When she reached my hip, she ran it between our bodies and began touching both of us.

“Trying to make me come first?” I moaned.

“Is that what you want?”

“I don’t…” I could hardly control my voice.

“Better do something about it, then.”

I ran both of my hands between us and put them on hers.

“Like this?”

“Fuck…” She moved with me, touching me, touching herself. I felt the dampness between us, my own stickiness on my hands.

The table creaked, and its surface was hard and unforgiving. It was uncomfortable, and I didn’t care.

She pulled her hand away and propped herself up on her elbows, cupping my face. No, not cupping. Clasping. Hard. “Keep on doing what you’re doing.”

I bent my knees and pushed my feet into the table. I felt her and myself. I heard her and myself. But alI could see was her. The little frown between her eyebrows. The colour of her eyes that seemed to change from brown to black right in front of me. The mouth I wanted to kiss but didn’t because I was too busy looking at her and feeling her.

Creaking, rubbing, pressing, sensing. My mind was clouded, my body aware. I touched, she pushed. Her breath hitched, her eyes closed.

Speeding up, the sound of her voice, the feeling of her breath.

A moment of stillness, slowing down.

Her hand reached down and rested on my hands for the briefest of moments before she removed them. “Put your hands over your head and let me touch you.” Her voice was breathless.

She finally kissed me while holding my hands in place with her left and touching me with her right. She breathed into me, I breathed into her. It only took her seconds to make me come. It was sweet, it was painful, it made me tighten and open up at once.

It was all it took. I knew I wanted more of it. More of her, even if she hadn’t shown me much. I wanted to find out…

Chapter 3: Save the light (Johanna)

She was asleep. I lay awake. And I had been for the last 3 hours.

I couldn’t take it anymore. The nightmares were worse than ever. Her light would fade if she stayed with me.

I’d tried to provoke her far too many times over the last couple of days, and I hated myself for it. Honestly, I wanted her to break up with me. But she didn’t get the hint. She didn’t mind arguing. She always said it was “healthy”. Fuck no, nothing that involves me is healthy. And that’s why I needed to let her go. And if she wouldn’t leave me, I’d have to leave her to save her light. She meant something to me, whatever it was, and I couldn’t afford that. Neither did she deserve to go down with me.

I got up and got dressed, grabbed a few things and left the rest. For a moment, I thought I should have taken everything I had brought into her flat over the past months, but then she’d immediately know. And I didn’t want her on my back. Or maybe I lied to myself and, for a split-second, thought it was a way back in if I changed my mind.

But when I quietly closed the door behind me, I already knew I wouldn’t…

Chapter 4: Moving fast (Rachel)

She was so beautiful when she laughed, and it’s not that she never did. But it was usually some sort of sneer, a grin with an underlying hint of jadedness, a smile that looked like it was covering up some kind of hurt. But this one was real.

“I should go home soon,” she said, a smile still tugging at the corners of her mouth.

I leaned forward and kissed one corner. “You could stay tonight.” Then the other. “Or you could just…stay?”

She immediately moved back and looked at me like only Jo looks at you. As if you’ve got two heads. As if you’ve completely lost the plot.

“Woah, moving a bit fast, aren’t we?”

And there it was. The sneer. But I was having none of it and just kissed her again. I felt a tiny bit of resistance at first, but not as much as I had feared. She finally gave in.

“Just stay tonight,” I mumbled against her lips. “We could cook together, maybe watch a film, and you could just pretend to be my girlfriend for once.”

She snorted. “I’m not pretending, it’s just…”

“Well, that’s it settled then,” I interrupted with a grin.

She smiled back, and that one was real…

Chapter 5: My nightmares, her dreams (Johanna)

I felt exhausted and drained. Seen things no human should ever see, and it had been a close one. Again.

When I opened the door to her flat, a part of me hoped to find comfort in her arms, felt like talking about what had happened tonight.

Past the point, not her stuff to worry about. What was I even thinking?

And in any case, she was waiting for me with a face like thunder.

“Where have you been?”

“Come on, Rach, not that shit again.” For fuck’s sake, she’d been crying, I could see it in her eyes.

“Well, yes, that shit again. What do you expect me to say if I’m worried sick about you? I can't take the constant worry. And you’re never honest with me!”

“When did I ever lie to you?”

She crossed her arms in front of her chest. “When were you ever honest when you get calls in the middle of the night, when you just disappear, when you come back stinking of god-knows-what?”

I felt a surge of pain and anger, but I quickly swallowed it. It wasn’t her fault. How could she even remotely understand?

Deep down, I knew she was right. I would never be able to be truly honest with her, not as long as my world was one of demons and nightmares while hers was one of humans and dreams.

So I turned on my heel and just said, “I’ll let you cool off a bit and come back later.”

“Yeah, just run away, like every time things get too close!” she called after me.

And once again, she was right…

Chapter 6: Light is armour (Rachel)

She had this funny little ritual. Every night, before we went to sleep, Jo told me a bedtime story. She was really great at it, spinning tales of adventure and slaying demons—always demons. And of course she was always the heroine of her stories (even if she pretended she wasn’t), and sometimes, she would even save me (even if she pretended it was someone else).

I found it hilarious and endearing—here was the woman I loved, who always seemed so tough, but she was like a little kid when she described epic battles against terrifying creatures that threatened the peace of some random kingdom.

She would talk about wielding a magical sword that could cut through any darkness, and wearing armour made of pure light.

“How does that even work?” I snorted. “You must be butt-naked under that.”

She rolled her eyes at me. “It’s not me!”

“Okay, then whoever she is, she’s still starkers. Light isn’t armour.”

She looked at me, and her expression changed. “Maybe it is.”

And of course I knew they were more than just bedtime stories. That there were struggles behind it all, disguised as fantasy. That Jo had hopes and dreams, hidden under a mountain of fear and insecurity. And I didn’t know how to help her through it all because she still wouldn’t let me.

But right then, as we lay in bed together, wrapped in each other's arms, I felt a sense of peace, and I’m sure she felt it, too.

Chapter 7: Pulling the drawstrings (Johanna & Rachel)

Johanna rang the doorbell and waited. It took Rachel a while to buzz her in, and it took Jo an even longer while to get up the stairs. When Rachel opened the flat door, she was soaking, a towel wrapped around her. It didn’t stop her from leaning in to kiss Jo and getting her wet in the process.

“Oy,” Johanna grinned.

Rachel’s gaze dropped to the bags that lay on the floor. “Moving in?” She smirked.

“Well, I need to keep some stuff close by and might as well just leave it here at the moment.”

“Right.” Rach raised her eyebrow and couldn’t stop grinning. “Come in then. Want me to take any of that?”

“Nah, just get yourself dried and decent.”

“As if.”

Jo rolled her eyes. “I’m serious, I need to unpack a few things.”

Rachel petted her lip in mock-disappointment. “Okay, just get started, I’ll be with you in a few…”

“What’s that?” Rachel asked, dressed in jeans and a jumper, a towel still wrapped around her head.

“I’ve no clue, honestly, It’s some old pouch I got while…” She hesitated. “Can’t remember where I got it, but I never even managed to pull the drawstrings open.”

“Let me…”

Johanna threw the leather pouch at Rachel, who nearly dropped it.

“Careful,” she grinned.

“I always am, aren’t I?”

Chapter 8: Sand (Rachel)

She’d just left me standing there like an idiot. It was the first real argument.

No, it wasn’t even that because we hadn’t exactly been fighting. I had asked questions. Okay, maybe I had raised my voice a little, but I had been sitting at home for hours, feeling worried about her, not knowing where she was. And it hadn’t been the first time. Her phone was always switched off. In fact, it was near always switched off. It was sometimes impossible to get a hold of her. And when I had told her that she wasn’t honest with me, she had completely stonewalled me before running away.

I felt my eyes welling up with tears again, and it annoyed me. So I got ready for bed. I lay there for hours, tossing and turning, and couldn’t get to sleep. I wandered back into the living room and switched on the TV. When I sat down on the couch, the leather pouch on the coffee table caught my attention. We both hadn’t managed to open it, even after trying repeatedly, but I didn’t have anything better to do, so I tried again. But no matter how hard I tried, it didn’t work.

“Honestly, I will just pretend I can open you with sheer willpower and belief, you stupid thing. Abracadabra,” I joked. And believe it or not, all of a sudden, the pouch was open. Just a tiny crack, maybe the size of a shirt button. But it was enough to take a peek. It was hard to tell what it was, so I turned it over gently.

Sand?

I brought my hand up to my face and carefully sniffed it to make sure that’s what it was.

I can’t remember what happened after, but I do remember I woke up the next morning, and that I hadn’t had such nice dreams in ages…

Chapter 9: Just a few bags (Johanna)

I honestly spent a lot of time with her, which wasn’t like me at all. And it just felt so fucking nice to have someone to come home to for once. But was I truly coming home to her?

Emotionally, maybe. But I was still only staying overnight. Well, on the nights I could. Big step for me though.

I second-guessed myself. Too rash? Too cautious? Missing out on something I knew I shouldn’t really allow myself?

For a brief moment, I actually thought, “Shit, Jo, you’re really getting in too deep.”

And the very next moment, she encroached on my mind like a flippin’ vision. Her smile, her laugh, her kindness, her passion.

How we spent time together. Me, doing shit like cuddling on the sofa and cooking. And of course we were fucking each other senseless, but that wasn’t it. I was always able to get that somewhere if I really wanted to. It was the way she made me feel. When I was with her, I was happy for a moment. I took a glance at the shitty photo booth shots of us, and I even looked it.

Was I ready for this?

Not really because it wasn’t just about me. It was about her.

Maybe I was overthinking it, letting fear get the better of me. And honestly, I should have.

It wasn’t moving in to just dump a couple of bags to make life easier, was it?

Chapter 10: As it was (Rachel)

It was okay for a short while. She’d come back, but she became more and more distant. The smiles were sneers again. The bedtime stories stopped.

Well, most of the time, she wasn’t even around at bedtime. If she was, the sex was still great, but I sometimes thought that was the problem. Because everything else had stopped. The real conversations, the watching stupid comedies together, the actual closeness.

I woke up at half past three, and she was gone. Again. And I was so fucking tired of it all. 

Tired and unable to sleep.

The pouch of sand was in the drawer of my bedside table. It helped me sleep. I didn’t have the faintest clue what this stuff was because it honestly just looked like sand. Maybe I just made up things in my mind, maybe it was true what they said about placebos: If you really believe something works, it will.

So whatever this stuff was, it worked.

I took a small amount and probably inhaled a bit too deeply because I immediately knew something was off.

When I came to, I was shaking, but I remembered the dream. It had been of her. Of us in a photo booth, and going on a walk together that ended up having her pin me against a tree, kissing me, letting her hands wander a bit too much and only stopping when a few people passed. 

And while it had been a dream, it was also real. Because that’s what we had done.

And I cried, and I wanted it all back.

I took a bit more sand and held on to the pouch. Maybe if I did it again, I could finally get to sleep…

Chapter 11: Snapshots (Johanna)

I don’t really have good days that often, I admit it. But that day was one of them. I had just decided to take her out. Properly, in a sort of old-fashioned way, because I knew she was into it, and I liked that about her to be honest.

We had lunch, and I, the woman who usually eats like a horse and doesn’t look too dignified while she’s at it, could hardly eat at all. All I could do was stare at her like some idiot, and it was fucking ridiculous.

As we entered the park (she wanted to “walk off the calories”, I just asked, “Why would you even say that?”), we stumbled across a vintage VW camper van that had been converted into a photo booth.

And of course she wanted to give it a try. I said no, probably 20 times, but she ultimately won.

Lots of funky props and costumes, and I honestly couldn’t believe she roped me into that shit—hats and sunglasses, feather boas and tiaras.

“Come on, Rach, let’s at least have a few shots without all the crap.”

“Okay,” she smiled, and we tried to get a few serious ones. Not that it worked.

Anyway, we ended up with a few I really liked and wanted to keep. She, of course, also wanted all the other ones, so we ultimately walked out with two sets of four prints.

When we walked home, I just pulled her off the path and kissed her. Well, maybe something else, too. But I remember clear as day it was the first time I actually felt I liked her a lot more than I wanted to let on…

Chapter 12: Whatever here that's left of me is yours (Rachel)

It hurt.

I couldn't even remember when I last got out of bed.

At first, I didn’t want to. I just wanted to sleep, get over the fact that she really didn’t come back this time. That she had left me without even having the guts to tell me. But it was impossible to get to sleep without the sand. And the more I took, the more I needed. To get rest, and to keep the nightmares at bay. Those nightmares that got a hold of me because of it but would also go away with it.

And then, I couldn’t get out of bed physically. Whenever I tried, the pain was so severe that I immediately had to lie back down. I stopped eating at some point, which didn’t help. But whenever I managed to get rest and dream of her, it didn’t matter. At some point, the hunger just stopped.

It was waking up that was agony, not sleeping. It was not dreaming that parched me, not the fact that I didn't drink.

I couldn’t remember when I’d last been to work. The phone had rung non-stop for a while, but I physically couldn’t answer. Maybe there were people at the door at some point. Maybe I’d let them in, maybe I hadn’t, because I couldn’t remember if I'd even managed to get up at any point. It was all a haze.

I lay there, wondering where it all went wrong. What had gotten me into this state. Why I couldn't breathe, why I was in so much pain. But it would all ebb back when the dreams came.

I counted to 100…

Chapter 13: Stark sights and dark nights (Johanna, Rachel & Dream)

“Jo, is that you?” Rachel’s voice sounded thin and brittle. “That’s such a wonderful dream.”

Johanna stepped towards the bed. “It’s me Rach. It’s going to be okay.” She took her hand, but the mere touch made Rachel whimper in pain. She looked at him. “What’s happened to her?”

“It’s the sand, it wasn’t meant for humans.”

He carefully removed the pouch from Rachel’s hand. The desperation that washed over her was so immediate that Johanna had to close her eyes for a second.

“No, no, no, give it back. Please, it hurts.”

He turned around almost immediately. “We can go.”

“What? We can’t go, we can’t leave her like this!” Johanna called after him.

“We can’t help her, the sand was the only thing keeping her alive.”

“You have to do something. If it wasn't for your sand, she wouldn't be like this!”

His expression was completely emotionless. “I'm not the one who left her with it.”

It was the moment Johanna lost all composure. “What is wrong with you? You want your sand back so you can save all of humanity? Well, here she is! But we're all just like Roderick Burgess to you. All you care about is your sand, your power. What is the point of you?” She swallowed hard and was back in control. “Well, you got your sand back. Why are you still here if you won't help?” And with that, she turned her back on him.

He hesitated before stepping closer to the bed. “Wait outside.”

Johanna looked at him briefly with an almost imperceptible nod.

Rachel was shaking violently, and Johanna sat down on the bed. “Rach…”

“I’m so sorry, Jo.”

She stroked Rachel’s head. “It’s my fault, all of it. I should never have left it with you.” She held and steadied her hands. “I should never have left.”

Rachel looked at her with glazed eyes. “You came back though, didn’t you?

Johanna gave her a small smile. One of the real ones. When she kissed her lightly, it all got too much. She got up and began to make her way out. As she reached the bedroom door, she heard that little voice in her head: 

No matter what he said, you really should stay.

And as always, she was good at ignoring it…

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[omg-im-such-a-masochist]

Hello! I don't know if you take requests at the moment and I don't remember if you have ever written something inspired by this song, but I have just heard "Take me to church" on the radio and I think you are the perfect person to write something about this song and our favorite Christian brothers!

Hi, baby 🫂 Okay, okay 😮‍💨. Hear me out: I LOVE Hozier! That man - and whatever Irish magic runs through his blood - has me on chokehold and I simply love everything he does. He’s a true talent and it’s a shame he’s so underappreciated, but it’s okay, because we love him in this household 😌. I was inspired to use the lyrics casually in the middle of the story - instead of letting it guide the scene as I usually do - and I enjoyed the outcome very much. Also, this little drabble holds a special place in my heart (for personal reasons) so I hope you’ll love it as much as I do 🌹

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Nick watched her from across the street as she knelt on the grass, pouring an unknown red liquid into the soil as her lips moved with words he could not hear. There was certainly something humorous about her, perhaps it was the way she giggled at most of the gossip people spread about her - which they all claimed to be the ultimate truth. Or perhaps it was the way she casually mocked the neighborhood by attending the sermon dressed all in red and barefoot. “The Devil and his offspring can’t step into the church barefoot, because if so, they’ll burst into flames” They said, and she was more than happy to prove their theory wrong every sermon day.

The church that was becoming more bleak with each passing week, only feeling full of life and truth the moment she stepped inside.

“We’re born from sin” The reverend began to preach, and from beside him, Nick heard her whispering “And we live in sin our whole life, no? Everything we do is a sin. From shitting to fucking so c’mon, tell me something I don’t know yet, man of god”. Which instantly made Nick giggle inappropriately. She cast a quick look in Nick’s direction before winking, and grabbed the paper hand fan from the bench to fan herself as the reverend continued to preach.

“Where do you worship god?” Nick caught himself asking her once the sermon was over,

“In the bedroom” She smirked.

“Where else should I worship him? Inside these walls? I think that here” She pointed at the church’s door once they were outside “Is the last place on earth God will ever step foot in, blue eyes”. She lit up her cigarette before looking at Nick over her shoulder “Feel free to join me in my worship if you’d like. I can guarantee you’ll not only see your god there but you’ll also be sent to heaven, christian boy” She said, and chuckled when Nick followed her back home.

“What are you doing?” Matt asked from behind him, quickly pulling Nick away from his thoughts.

“Nothing” He quickly responded as he continued to hammer the fence on the lawn.

Matt stopped by his side and turned his gaze towards the woman across the street, “I can’t believe you’re checking out the devil worshiper”

“Why is she a devil worshiper? Just because her faith is different from ours?” Nick quickly defended her.

“Her faith is wrong, Nick! It’s forbidden, you know that!”

“Forbidden by whom, Matt?! The reverend? And how is it wrong?”

“God doesn’t like it!”

“And how do you know that?” Nick tossed the hammer on the floor, before turning around to look at his older brother “Did God tell you that himself? I thought Jesus said we were supposed to love and respect one another”

“But not her kind!”

“Her kind?” Nick scoffed “Jesus, Matt. Do we judge people like that now? Label them as good or evil merely based on their faith and belief? My goodness, apparently God is indeed very far away from church”. With a small shake of his head, Nick walked to the garage to retrieve the last few remaining boards for the fence.

Now alone, Matt allowed his eyes to roam her figure. She was lying on the grass, eyes closed as the warmth of the sun caressed her face and hair. Her palms were dug into the soil, feeling the earth between her fingers. And just like that, Matt’s mind replayed that day perfectly.

“Why don’t you just put them in the dryer?” Matt asked with curiosity. He was coming back from the grocery store by the corner and suddenly felt drawn to the woman who hung up her clothes to dry in the garden. She smiled fondly before looking at him “Air dried clothes feel different, I don’t know how to explain. They have a particular scent that’s somewhat nostalgic to humans. You should try it out sometime”

“Nostalgic how?” He frowned

Her hands stopped on the clothesline, as if she was considering his question “Nostalgic because our ancestors did it too. You know, when technology wasn’t a thing” She giggled “So I feel like this is something that makes our souls remember better times. When things were simpler, happier, truer”

Matt nodded softly and gathered up the courage to ask “Do you have a religious leader or something like that?”. He saw the shadow of an amused smile as she finished hanging the last piece of clothing before turning around to face him.

“No. No master or king, no one to tell me what I’m allowed to or not allowed to do, feel, or even experience”

“Sounds like chaos to me” He whispered

A loud and truthful laugh escaped her lips “Sounds like freedom. But I’m afraid you’re not familiar with that word” She teased “Well, to me yours sounds like a palace of lies, illusions, coercion, hate and ignorance. A place to go if you want to be punished for being human. So I think we’re even, chestnut hair” She smirked before picking up a red apple from the tree and sitting down on the ground to eat.

“How is it there? Where you go, I mean”

“Beautiful” She smiled “There are no walls, no sadness, no guilt, no hurt, and above all: no sin”

“No sin?” Matt’s voice was filled with hope “How?”

She slowly crawled to him, the apple secured between her teeth. And when she stood before him, she knelt at his feet. *Like Mary Magdalene at the feet of Jesus* Matt thought to himself as she took the apple in her hand and placed the fruit against his lips.

“There’s no sweeter innocence than being sinful, Matt. In the midst of the madness of being who they expect you to be, who they tell you to be, you can find refuge with me. Only then you’ll be human” She placed her hands on his shirtless torso, “Only then you’ll be truly clean” And placed a chaste kiss below his navel.

“Why are you staring at her like that?” Nick asked, instantly pulling Matt away from his memories.

“Like what?” He quickly questioned the meaning behind his brother’s words.

Nick placed the boards on the floor as Matt took the hammer and began to place them side by side.

“Like you want to drag her behind the closest bush to do things the reverend would not approve” Nick mocked as he pulled a fruit from his shorts pocket.

“Shut up” Matt spat “Why would I want that?” He looked up at his brother and Matt’s mouth suddenly went dry at the sight of the fruit in Nick’s hand.

“I don’t know” Nick cleaned the shiny, crimson apple against his tank top, taking a loud bite of the fruit before raising one of his eyebrows and giving one of his famous high pitched chuckles “You tell me, Matt”.

“I don’t know” Nick cleaned the shiny, crimson apple against his tank top, taking a loud bite of the fruit before raising one of his eyebrows and giving one of his famous high pitched chuckles “You tell me, Matt”.

[most-creature-vibe-tournament]

Round 1 poll 2

Propaganda:

Michael Afton (FNAF)

Urple

Orin Scrivello, DDS (Little Shop of Horrors)

Orin frequently takes hits of laughing gas that he has access to due to his job as a dentist, so laughing maniacally and at inappropriate times is one of his most defining and memorable traits. He is sometimes associated with hyena imagery by the fandom because of this, and he himself makes the comparison in the song Now (It's Just the Gas) in the line ""Don't be fooled if I should chuckle like hyenas in a zoo, it's just the gas"" (for context he is stuck in his gas mask and slowly asphyxiating while breathing in nitrous oxide in that scene.) I really enjoy the idea of him taking pride in his association with hyenas due to having a complete misunderstanding of how they work and thinking that the males are Tough Macho Guys like he thinks of himself as being, being blissfully ignorant to the fact that male hyenas are completely dominated by the females. And the girl he was abusing before he died, Audrey, thrived and started recovering from what he had done to her after his death, so in a way she cast him into an appropriately subservient role in her past and in his impact on the world in comparison to her, thus fulfilling the prophecy of him being a pathetic male hyena. He also feeds off of the suffering of others/gets off on their pain and fear that he inspires in them, just like a hyena sustaining itself on cast-off rotting carcasses that it partially helped to create by participating in its looked down upon and generally disapproved by human society role in the circle of life. They also try to challenge lions, which are much bigger than them, and I feel that this would be on brand for Orin given how cocky and confident he is. Hyenas survive much better in groups but tend to be seen as opportunistic and individualist scavengers, which ties in with Orin being so much less of a for lack of a better phrasing 'rugged individualist' than he thinks he is (just ignore the rural implications of that phrase), as much of his personal fulfillment is derived from the suffering of others, as well as his very strong bond with his late mother.